#personal garbage

[unbidden-yidden]

Recently I realized that I don't wear my (small, silver, rather plain) magen David necklace as part of my formal wear for work, and considering the state of the world, I think it's more important than ever to be visible. I will not be silenced. I will not be cowed, or made afraid. I will not hide myself. At least, not now. I think now there is still time, and so it's more important than ever.

And at the same time as I've been wearing it more in public and on more casual work days, I still wouldn't wear it as part of my formal attire. And I realized this recently and actually interrogated that instinct more, and realized it was because I hadn't been considering it to be "professional."

Now why wouldn't it be professional?

Other similarly situated people wear small crosses or crucifixes all the time, and no one says anything. Heck, I've even see people wear similarly tasteful pentacles, Buddhist jewelry, etc. So why wouldn't my understated magen David be similarly fine? Because it might draw unnecessary attention? Because it might be considered "too political"?

Anyway I've started wearing it. I don't accept that line of thinking, in myself or anyone else who might direct it at me.

#personal garbage

[the-mighty-neckbeard]

Used to be @themightyneckbeard but tumblr decided I was too mighty and deleted me, help my find my mutuals please.

#personal garbage

[sopranoentravesti]

They aren’t quite as comfy as Rosie the Rollator, but they are much more supportive than Kate Cane, for places where wheels no go

#me #my face #crutches #cripplepunk #cripple punk #mobility aid #smart crutches #Rosie the Rollator #personal garbage

[birdkeeperklink]

So I'm just going to word vomit about my struggles with my nascent original novel, because I have no one to talk to about it

I am shit at coming up with names. Like literally garbage at it. I have placeholder names for so many people and things. If this was a humour book I would definitely leave this as "the City of Evil," but since it's not, I have to eventually come up with a real name for it and I hate it

How do the kids get kidnapped? How does husband guy get killed by the kidnappers? I don't know, I just know these things need to happen, and currently it's happening via a big inky whirlwind in my mind because I don't know

How do they get past the lava moat around the City of Evil? What are the obstacles on the other side of the moat? How do they eventually get in? I don't know

Should the gay farmer's son end up having turned traitor, having taken the deal that the net-maker's daughter refused?

What should some of their other special powers be? Only the villain and the net-maker have them currently

Should I include the scene with the unicorn that I want to include, or are unicorns too associated with Christianity, which I don't want anywhere near this world?

Anyway, these are actually some pretty useful notes to myself, so I guess I won't be deleting this right away lol

#personal garbage #writing woes

[melonlthawne]

This is queued because I’m most likely studying rn but if you send some words of encouragement for my test / positive vibes I will give you useless internet points or a small doodle back. A lot relies on me passing this and I’ve been studying for multiple hours a week but still feel uncofident. In advance, thank you. And thank you guys for being a good source of positivity when I’m struggling. I hope I’m not being annoying 🙏

#robin rambles #personal garbage #new tag wow cool awesome

[xwhitenoise]

my new year's resolution is to get a new fucking job lmao

#haven't posted a selfie in literal years oop #personal garbage

[xfilesinamajor]

In college, my economics professor referenced "A famous Homer" to the class (as some allusion to the surname "Simpson"). I was the only one to loudly blurt out "But he didn't HAVE a surname!" (thinking, naturally, of The Iliad and The Odyssey poet).

Today my husband referred to something as "going the Republican route" and my immediate interpretation was NOT a comparison to that asshole US political party, but to the government of Ancient Rome.

I didn't major in Classics or anything. I'm just a dork.

#nerd culture #lifelong awkward person #ancient rome #homer #the odyssey #personal garbage

[tetheredtoamast]

Giant Elden Ring DLC thoughts

Who is telling you to touch the withered arm and enter the dream? Because whoever it is has a Welsh accent like the Carians (Rennala, Ranni, Rykard, Radahn, Iji, Blaidd, and idk Pidia and Thops)

Who is this Messmer fucker

Because subsequent to that question: he has Empyrean looking traits like Radagon’s hair and gold eyes, but also dragon eyes and snake shit, and also his left eye is closed like Ranni and Melina

Because also, they’re pronouncing Messmer “Mesmer” which kind of implies something about sleep. And we all know Miquella and sleep already have a thing, and Miquella already has a sleep-associated alter ego, St. Trina.

And like he’s got some thorny blood incantation looking stuff which implies something about Mogh’s outer god, the Formless Mother.

And Miquella’s parents were two gods who were also the same god. One with blonde hair and one with red hair.

His twin sister is an enormous, immensely powerful red haired warrior, but he stayed a blond child. He basically formed a chrysalis to attempt to grow himself into an adult before being cocoon-napped by Mogh.

So I don’t know for sure what I’m getting at here, but there are a lot of ways via which I get the idea that Messmer could just… be Miquella in some way. A version of Miquella as he could be; a tall, red-haired, golden-eyed warrior Empyrean alter ego of a blond god, who lives inside a dream and has been influenced by Mogh.

Also I’ll take all the armor and the new crossbow please and thank you, also I wish it was June, let’s go Summer Solstice

PPS If anyone sees this, huge disclaimer that I’m a giant fan but don’t claim to know all the lore and symbolism perfectly well so I could easily be way way off base in some super foundational way, haha

#elden ring #elden ring spoilers #I guess? #wild speculation #personal garbage #shadow of the erdtree

[shoyyos-bicyycle]

Calendars are great. I've been stressing myself out lately about my schedule thinking I won't have enough time to do anything.

But then I noted everything down into like a mini personalized calendar I made for myself and saw just how few days I'm going to be actually busy.. It just made me hate my damn overthinking even more

#but i do love when i'm able to de-stress myself #i'm still learning how to be useful to myself #personal garbage

[unbidden-yidden]

An incomplete list of unhinged things I want to create, mostly for the hell of it:

A flag

A coat of arms

A seal

A unique staff

A unique scarf, sash, &/or headcovering

A conlang, complete with its own alphabet

A name for my estate (small shitty house in a suburb)

Journals written, bound, and stored in such a way that they will be preserved long beyond my lifetime.

I used to want to create my own religion and pantheon of gods, and I even had a good start on it, but then I had an actual numinous religious experience and became a Jew.

So, now I just want to record my spiritual experiences, textual commentary, and theological ramblings in the same manner as my journals so that it can be found generations later and hopefully dissected and argued with/about by Jews well into the future.

#personal garbage #this is me being normal #for me #lol

[dickfuckk]

Had a deadline (school) on april 11th where i needed an important reply from my teacher. Haven’t gotten a reply yet. I even sent him a text to his personal phone number asking if he had received my e-mail. No reply

#personal garbage #i LOVE teachers that don’t reply #at least the worst that can happen is that im kicked out of my Education if he doesn’t reply <33333 #i have too much anxiety to push further but im just gonna assume all is good and continue on as if he saw my e-mail #god bless and may i not get kicked out ✌️

[sopranoentravesti]

It’s just kinda funny to me that some people I know IRL got really concerned when I was like “lol yeah this asshole called me a k*ke, what else is new.” And I’m like… as awful as this slur is, I’ve been called it before and I have no doubts I’ll be called it again. I’m really more freaked out about getting hatecrimed. Like I have no doubts some of these sick fucks would do that

#antisemitism #personal garbage

[birdkeeperklink]

I'm very, very sick today. Like literally I'm scrolling through Tumblr and I keep falling asleep, lol

Anyway

#personal garbage #i'm not actually dying #pretty sure it's just a head cold #but the fever makes it feel like i'm dying #lol

[enigmadoodles]

Denial is like... A hell of a drug. My grandpa died less than 12 hours ago. Less than 8 even. I was catching an Eevee in Pokemon Go when my mom got the call.

I feel... normal? Like I know it happened. I visited my grandma and I cried. A lot of people visited, I hugged them. I never hug anyone. But like, it happened. It all happened.

But it feels like it didn’t. But I know better. It just takes time to sink in.

Someone I’ve known almost all my life is no longer going to be a part of it, and I know that’s gonna hit hard. It’ll probably truly hit me when the funeral happens, especially if they go for open casket. I don’t know if they will though, but in my own experience it definitely makes everything hit harder. But also it makes the denial go away.

It’s weird. A bit empty.

#Personal garbage #Death mention #Please don't come to me saying "i'm sorry' or anything like that I genuinely don't want to hear it #I am not in the mood #I just had to think about it out loud because I'm definitely in a weird place

[xwhitenoise]

got to spend a majority of my workday putting together evidence to present to a client showing how badly one of their employees fucked up/how thoroughly substantiated the allegations against the employee for discriminatory conduct are

fingers crossed that this ableist bitch gets fired ❤️💞💖

#personal garbage #something i've learned over the past couple of months is that if a paralegal asks the same questions in different ways enough times #eventually their point of contact will have no choice but to provide incriminating documentation #like oh you told your attorney you didn't have any records of this occurrence huh? #that's interesting because one of the emails you just forwarded to me says otherwise! #anyway i'm glad i didn't bow out of this case due to a potential conflict of interest earlier #turns out there was no conflict; this idiot factually and demonstrably sucks!

[boycottyashahime]

“Thanks Inuyasha”

I was discussing with a friend today how we both haven’t really gotten into any new anime/manga lately, and this friend of mine said she blamed Inuyasha. We’ve decided that this shall be our new “Thanks Obama” meme, and we’ll be blaming Inuyasha for all kinds of unrelated things now.

#inuyasha #personal garbage #i have a feeling i'll be saying thanks inuyasha for future trouble in securing a new bike for my transportation needs soon #or if anything goes wrong with the new roof #or in the garden