Headcanoning a character transhet is interesting and fun.
It also feels like swinging a bat at a hornet's nest, when it really should not.
You know, the whole "if you love me.. you will do ____" or "I would've never done it to you if it was me" is manipulative. Most of the time, it takes two people to be toxic, and rarely is it just one person in the relationship.
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Never had dysphoria before, or at least not this strongly, and now it's not leaving me alone for going on three days and like only two people irl really know I'm not cis and I don't think I'll be able to use my binder while at work later today fml..
Anyone else ever feel like you're lying while you're definitely not?
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When I first made this blog, the only purpose of it was to get Zutara contents. Then, I started participating by writing metas, making memes and drawing.
However, I am starting to want to reblog things like PJO contents, something about MBTI types, or astrology.
Do you guys think I should strictly make Zutara contents and have a spare blog for my personal chaos?
I don't want irrelevant things to come up to people's feed. That's why I'm asking.
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This was built on neither of us thinking but now that I've started I can't stop
Except all I have is your words:
That you love me, that you don't love me like that
But do I? Did I learn it from you? Did I learn it from a lie?
IF GOD HATES THE GAYS THEN WHY DO WE KEEP WINNING!!!!! X))))))))) 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
spoilers for s3e8 of Star Trek discovery and also me sobbing /pos
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME /EXTREME POS!!!!
CALL ME THE SIMPSONS BECAUSE I CAN SEE THE FUTURE??????
ALSO IM CRYING SO HARD RN AND STIMMING SO MUCH AND I LITERALLY WANT TO SCREAM AND FUCKING SOB BUT MY FAMILY IS HOME SO I CANT BUT IVE LITERALLY NEVER BEEN MORE HAPPY IN MY LIFE OK
I POSTED A FIC I WROTE BASED OFF 3.03 TODAY LITERALLY TWENTY MINUTES BEFORE WATCHING EPISODE EIGHT PLEASE I CAN BARELY SEE THE SCREEN IM CRYING SO MUCH
/EXTREMELY POS FOR ALL OF THAT
NO ONE TALK TO ME OK THIS IS MY NEW FAVORITE EPISODE OF ALL OF STAR TREK
PAUL AND HUGH AND ADIRA AND EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM ALL IN THIS EPISODE YOU DONT UNDERSTAND I AM FILLED WITH PURE UNDILUTED EUPHORIA AND EMOTIONAL ECSTASY
THE WAY PAUL JUST SMILED AND SAID “okay :)” AND YOU COULD TELL HE AND HUGH LOVE ADIRA JUST SO SO MUCH AND IN ENGINEERING TOWARDS THE END
THIS. THIS IS IT. THIS IS WHY PEOPLE WATCH STAR TREK AND WHY I LOVE STAR TREK SO MUCH
YOU SEE THESE CHARACTERS IN THIS UNIVERSE THATS SUPPOSED TO BE OUR OWN FUTURE AND THESE CHARACTERS,, THEY REPRESENT YOU AND YOU CAN RESONATE WITH THEM SO SO MUCH
IVE BEEN WATCHING THIS SERIES/FRANCHISE/SHOW/WHATEVER FOR NEARLY SIX WHOLE YEARS NOW AND MAYBE A LITTLE MORE THAN SIX BUT BY GOD IS IT SO UNBELIEVABLY WORTH IT. THIS FRANCHISE SND THESE CHARACTERS HSVE DONE SO MUCH FOR ME I CAN NEVER THANK IT ENOUGH SND ESPECIALLY THIS EPISODE SND THESE SPECIFIC CHARACTERS
IVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY IVE NEVER BEEN SO FULL OF LOVE IVE NEVER FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE AND I THINK THE FIC I WROTE IS EVEN MORE IMPORTANT TO ME THAN EARLIER TODAY BECAUSE OF EPISODE EIGHT.
THERES MY FIC IT WOULD MEAN THE WORLD TO ME IF ANY OF YALL READ IT
Why do the vague aus that have a theme and like one element always come out of the wood work halfway through the melatonin kicking in
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ok not that I care about my follower count but like... someone just unfollowed me? ugh. I just want to reach 100 followers <3
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i hit 10k on my wangxian wip which ! *waves tiny flag* but i can also feel my gremlin brain getting mean abt it again like stop that!! i am spritzing u with a spray bottle, desist! remove ur hyper critical goggles and shut up!
d*sney im begging you, put the ducktales 2017 soundtrack on anything please
whatever little part of me inside my brain that comes up with melodies has absolutely no regard for meter nor major / minor scales and i think that's very sexy of me but oh my word is it a pain in the ass to try and actually write holy fuck
Feeling nostalgic for the days where every anime character would have an edit of their silhouette in the style of an iPod ad.
About episode 3 of season 3 of the Fruits Basket Remake
I can't make this post without at least one mention of the fucking CHALK BREAK SCENE. That scene is so fucking cute and it makes me so happy to see it animated.
Seeing Machi's backstory in animation was something I had been looking forward to as well. Machi was such an interesting character to me when I first read the series, so it's nice that anime onlys will finally be able to get the full feel of her. I would also like to take a moment to appreciate the chaos that is the Kakeru, Yuki, Machi trio. Let it be known that, despite Yuki and Machi being hot messes themselves, Kakeru is the true reason why that trio is chaotic in the first place.
Also can someone explain to me why the fuck I was crying for the graduation stuff???? Motoko is a side character??? How did she bring me to tears???
But in all seriousness I think the Motoko and Yuki scene is beautiful. I think a lot of us when we first read the series (or those who are just watching the anime) thought that Motoko would confess her feelings and selfishly wish for those feelings to be returned. She didn't do that in the slightest. Yes, she confessed to Yuki, but it wasn't the main point of her talk. With a maturity that I didn't expect from her when I went through the series the first time, she genuinely wished happiness for Yuki, regardless of his feelings for her. She was just thankful for the happiness she received in his presence.
Her scene with Naohito shows this same sentiment being aimed at her, something that a found beautiful as well.
The transition from Naohito's "Goodbye" to Hiro's mom's "Nice to meet you", perfectly showing what he told Motoko, was what got me.
In conclusion: Furuba is continuously fucking me up.
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new pfp because vibes
just wanna share (again)
my files related to levihan are so messy - the fics that i downloaded, the fanarts (that i don't even have an ounce of intention to repost or anything), the screenshots that i got from the anime, and the doujins that i indulged myself in when I'm bored.
they're just everywhere on my laptop and i realized it last night lol.
the good news is i finally organized them and i think it is a good starting point in sorting myself out.
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I need a ritual for breaking back into The Big Fandom (you know the one). I was conditioned to anticipate the Spring-Summer transition as my Boon, but when Endgame came around, I was betrayed and went hungry. I still can't go back through my old, lush, green paths--only forward--and Peter's story will remain corrupted for me.
But admittedly it isn't enough for me to simply avoid poisoned watering holes--I still need water.
So, in order to love again, experience hype and fun with my friends at the theater again, enjoy a big community fandom again, without having to forgive them for what they did, or let my guard down about the studio repeating the same mistakes with these new characters, I must paint my paws red, and invent a life-death-life ritual from the blood, hate, and mourning I've shed over these past 28 months, so that I may transition once more to heat, love, and singing.
A gas-mask to explore this new fallout country, if you will.
I cannot walk on the impure ground they left me with these bare feet. I must wear the shoes of the betrayed if I am to reenter that swirling, sunlight crucible.
But I must give myself permission to love again, because I grew used to that lifestyle, that level of thriving, and my days of spirited, summer fun aren't over by a longshot.
With this braid, I attribute my loyalties to the characters and not the studio. This is the knowledge that we, the fans, and the OG6 deserved better. 🕯️
With this bracelet, I dream of what was, what might have been, and pray for what is to come. This is the knowledge and permission that I have and may yet mourn. 🏷️
With this brush, I paint my paws red, that I may walk amidst the strange, radioactive green emanating from that fateful crater that was Endgame. This is the permission that I may love again. ️🖋️
there’s way too much misinformation about drugs on tumblr imo—in a community where writing about drug use is common and actual experience with drugs is... not as common
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Hey if we’re not mutuals please dont reblog my posts