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word-wytch · 2 months
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hello beautiful friends!
I know it's been a hot minute since I've posted updates on DSSCTM 17 progress. Our forbidden lovebirds are smashing faces atm, but I am still in the phase where I am ironing out the prose and do not have any snippets to share at this time that I feel are ready to be shared. Sometimes we writers just need some time to throw spaghetti at the wall and make a big mess before we can make a meal out of it.
On a personal note, it has been necessary for my overall wellbeing to give myself some space from the project as well and focus on cultivating joy in other ways that will sustain me in the long run. The last few months have been a difficult time for me mentally, and so in order to be able to make art, I must first take care of the artist.
I cannot put a timeline on this chapter, but I care very deeply about my vision for it and will see it through. But please know that it will take time and patience in order for that to happen. I promise to share snippets along the way as soon as they are ready. It's shaping up to be a nice and long one. 💕
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I really hate to drop and run, but I’ve posted the latest update just before I step away from fandom.
It might be a couple days, it might be a couple months. I’m not sure. I’ve been receiving some anons that, as a general consensus, are telling me that I was a bully for addressing the content stealing because I have a bigger platform and the other person isn’t a native English speaker. My job was brought into it in a way I was uncomfortable with, and I was told rather rudely that it’s not anyone else’s problem that I choose to spend as much time as I do making content (which, weirdly, I don’t think I’ve ever complained about, per se). I’m being told I am a bitch, a cunt, that I should k*ll myself, that the whole thing was an overreaction, that I was wrong to call the other person out. I’m being told that all I do is stir drama, that my life must suck because I’m such an attention-seeking slut, that I’ve lied about both plagiarism cases and that I attack everyone I’m threatened by. I’m being told in anons, and even in reblogs, that I have nothing to complain about and that the other individual was justified in their behaviour. According to these anons, I’m a liar, I’m toxic, I’m the reason fandom is so awful right now, I’m a narcissist, and I should leave the fandom.
Okay, then.
I came with receipts. Even my call-out post was polite. I did not call this person out until they were rude to me and indicated they were unwilling to resolve this issue. I do not believe I should be subject to criticism and abuse for defending my work. Sure, perhaps “all fanfiction is plagiarism”, but in some instances, my work was literally taken from within mere days of posting, and in the SAME fandom for the SAME root pairing. This is not coincidental. This is not something I ever thought I would be demonised for being upset by.
I refuse to allow myself to be degraded and gaslit into minimising a problem created by another user, and mocked for having feelings over that. I was polite to this person. I was kind to this person. They proceeded to insult me, and so, with no further recourse, I took the situation public as I was recommended to do so by my fellow writers. I have never lied about this - I did publically post it when my attempt at private mediation failed. My intention was to force their hand. It worked. Is this kind? No, of course not. Was I aggressive? Yes, perhaps. But these are the wrong questions to ask.
See - why do I have to tolerate being treated unfairly? Why do I have to bite my tongue and lay down so others can walk all over me? Why is it that the fact that people follow me means I am not allowed to ever voice my upset about the manner in which I am being misused? I don’t understand - are all plagiarism call-outs “starting drama” now? I’m particularly upset by this. I do not bait drama, and I do not start shit for the fun of it. I guess there are those who think I should’ve just let them continue; after all, it’s only fanfiction. Not a big deal, right?
I was polite. Until I wasn’t. I did get angry when, after being confronted by all this, they doubled down, making several manipulative posts about me across platforms and blocking me from my right to respond. I’ll apologise for the tone, and I regret posting links to their crossposts - which I did take down not long after posting them, though this is perhaps redundant now - but I am not sorry for being angry. I am allowed to be angry. Maybe it’s “just fanfiction” and I “don’t own any of this stuff anyway”, but it’s my writing, my hours, my research, and my enjoyment that’s being cheapened by all this. 
To those of you who have a problem with this and with me - at least do me the courtesy of letting me know you think I suck so that I (or my friend, who I will be giving some measure of access to my account) can block you back. I don’t want you being part of my space if I decide to return, and nor do I have to live up to everyone’s simultaneous expectations of me. I feel powerless after being told so many times that I don’t have the right to protect my hard work. I’m sorry you’re disappointed in me, but I don’t have any obligation to act the way you - a bystander, who has no idea how much I’ve worked on my writing and how much happiness it has brought me - deem it morally correct to do so.
So, I’m done with fandom and with writing.
For now at least, that is. I’m sad and drained and I no longer enjoy being part of an environment where I am being attacked for something I didn’t start. My passion has been obliterated. My joy sucked away. I feel alone. And this person has continued to make mocking commentary about me on their Wattpad account after reactivating, showing no signs of stopping anytime soon. I’m done.
I’ll be turning off anons for at least a while, even if I feel ready to come back tomorrow. I probably won’t be responding or posting or even really checking in that often, because just the sight of Tumblr is making me anxious and unhappy at the moment. 
I do hope I’ll see you soon. If not - thank you. Thank you for being part of this journey. I love you all for being in my life, even if it wasn’t for long. 
Bye xxx
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hype-blue-fixation · 17 days
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So many people like the audios and my only regret is that I'm stuck with my phone and 2 signal bars (yes I'm a boonies baby) like if I was in my college dorm I might be able to do more and concern all my neighbors
Also so many of you guys seem like cool people and I have always wanted to be more active in the tickling community but aaaa talking to people is scawwwyyy 🫠🫠🫠
I'll try to warm up to you guys just let me know if I'm like annoying or anything fkdkdmsm
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ohtobeleah · 18 days
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I truly believe that one of the greatest luxuries in life are those slow mornings on a Sunday. And for a slow Sunday I’ve managed to do a pretty decent ✨Sunday Reset ✨ for the week ahead.
Everything Shower
Fully Moisturised, Nails Painted, Hair Straightened & Eyebrows Tinted.
New Bed Sheets
Grocery TopUp
Laundry Done & Dusted
Tomorrows Dinner Prepared & Ready
It’s no secret I’ve been in a rut, and with that rut has come some pretty emotional moments. All the small things that fall into the Self-Care category fell to the wayside, and so did my mental health. But I’m confident going into this week that things will be on the up and up. 💕
I’m going to get back into training tomorrow after having five/six weeks off. My body is in for a rude shock but I’m excited to get moving again.
I plan on working on my writing periodically throughout the week ahead, I’d really like to throw my emotions into something creative and unique. (I’m feeling a lot of big emotions lately, a lot that need positive outlets)
I just wanted to post this to kinda say thank-you for all the support this last month and a-bit. I’m trying to get myself back into a healthy and positive routine. I’m hoping with more stability in my day to day routine my mental stability will catch up.
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jossambird · 7 months
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I lied in my last post, I was still sick as fuck, I got even more sick, stayed at the hospital, got home, and am now recovering at home❤️ (this is what I get for having no immune system and believing that other people arent dirty ass looking ass assholes who wash their hands)
Have I written anything while I was gone? HECK no, Ive been staring at walls and reading fics, which I hadn’t done in a while! Was very enjoyable, I re-explored a few of my previous fandoms that I have husbandos in and am now back! Semi! Hopefully! 🙃
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mhathotfic · 2 months
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Grandma update, she’s coming home soon but unfortunately the dementia is progressing faster than we thought.
She still has working memory of us but she becomes easily confused and displaced because her memories are mixing with the present and sometimes new events are created out of nothing.
We’re trying to figure out how to proceed with her right now but it’s looking like we’ll have to invest in safety restraints and alarms to reduce the wandering and fall incidents with her
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intrusiveinks · 10 days
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I'm not dead I promise I just have mental health issues and have been taking a break from social media (still somewhat am)
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jynjackets · 2 months
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me being so brave
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jawritter · 8 months
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Hey GUYS!!!
First, let me start by saying, sorry I’ve been MIA! I’ve seen all the messages, asks, etc. Austin fell Sunday night, he was trying to get in his wheelchair on his own and missed the chair. He’s been in the hospital ever since because the doctors wanted to monitor the swelling on his spine. Other than a few bumps and bruises, it doesn’t seem like he’s worsened his injuries, and the swelling has not come back/gotten worse. Thank God. That being said, he’s supposed to be discharged this afternoon. 
I have seen that you guys have DMed me about the Masterlist for Carry On isn’t working properly, and I’m going to do the best I can to get that fixed for you guys as soon as possible. I tried to work on it last night, but for some reason Tumblr wouldn’t let me the changes to the Masterlist. I’m planning to move the entire thing to AO3 eventually, so I will also leave the link there too. (I REALLY need to fucking update AO3, I’m terrible about keeping up with it). Thanks for being patient with me guys! You’re all awesome! Thank you so much for reading!
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ohtobeaspettyasleah · 7 months
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So little life update that’s a-bit unexpected but also super scary.
I’ve always known I’ve had a high resting heart rate. Ever since I started my course to get my certificate III & IV in fitness I’ve always know it’s been higher than average for someone who’s considered to be fit & healthy.
But it never really phased me because I’ve never had any issues. Until yesterday.
I’ve recently started training with a heart rate monitor on. The gym I know work at does a lot of training around heart rate percentages and fitness zones and stuff so I got myself fitted for one and it was insane.
With my height, weight and age my maximum heart rate was calculated to be around 196. (The equation to figure out your max heart rate is 220 minus your age) With that being said, during my cardio workout I was peaking above that. My heart rate was reading well over that and I wasn’t even breaking a sweat.
My resting heart rate when I put the damn think on was already reading that was was at 75% max. So my boss, got me to give it my all on the assault bike for 20 seconds flat to see just how high I could push my max heart rate.
Guys…. My heart rate, going at fast as I could with nothing left in the tank got up to 218. For someone who teaches spin classes, exercises very regularly (minus the last two months but that shouldn’t make a huge difference) is a fucking personal trainer!! It shouldn’t be that high.
So seeing that actually scared me. Something isn’t right because I know I’m an active person. My heart shouldn’t be working that hard. I booked in with my GP yesterday afternoon, he referred me to get bloods drawn yesterday which I did.
He’s testing for thyroid issues & I’m going to be doing a 24hr heart rate monitor test hopefully next Friday. And I gotta say—I’m shit scared, because I’ve always known my hearts always beat a little faster but physically seeing it on the screen get to 218 out of 220 is insane.
To put it into perspective, that’s the equivalent of someone who is sedentary & hasn’t worked out a day in their life doing their first jog. Not someone who teaches high intensity spin classes for a living.
I’m going in to the pathology place today where I got my bloods done yesterday to hopefully book in my 24hr heart rate test. I needed the day of work & for the day’s workout to be a cardio based day so I can mimic the experiences from yesterdays session. So hopefully I can get that sorted.
Blood work should come back by the latest on Monday.
Edit: yesterday when my doctor took my heart rate—my resting rate was 89 beats per minute.
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abiiors · 11 months
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fuck. okay. i don't want to sound passive aggressive and whiney but this is a serious request. Please, PLEASE don't send in full fic requests when it says so RIGHT THERE that my requests are closed. Looking at the number of requests in my asks rn genuinely stresses me out. And even though I'm trying to get through them one by one, writing fics is not what i do full time. I have a life, a job outside of it. it's not like I can simply ignore everything else and just write 1975 fanfics for a living.
It's different if i have specifically asked for concept and blurb requests which i often do (since I can usually write those in 15-20 minutes and it's quite fun). And it's different if you're sending in chatty asks because i love talking to you guys. But pls respect my wishes when I say that full fic requests are closed.
Also, the fact that you're literally saying "I know your requests are closed, but..." SO YOU KNOW! AND YET!!!
sorry, it annoys me a lot and I don't want to sound rude but yeah, just respect my wishes that's all thanks!
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meaniezuchinni · 2 days
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Omgosh hey look at me posting things on my Ko-Fi!
If you want to support my art or get comissions, that's a great place for it.
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Got a couple people panicking in my inbox, so -
No, terms of endearment is NOT over. Not even close.
Maybe we're halfway? I don't know, but we've got SO much left to go! This is only what I have immediately planned, not accounting for what I might think up along the way:
dārilaros (princess): Episode 1 to 5, featuring baby Babey and mega-dicky Daemon
jorrāeliarzus (beloved): 'slice of life' parenthood fic (featuring some plot, some kinky fuckery and even MORE babies);
rhēdessiarzus (renowned one): potential name change for this one, but essentially a collection of other characters' POVs on Babey/Daemon;
va ñellyrzy perzys (fire made flesh): Episode 8-leading-into-the-Dance fic/events of the Dance (likely a longfic, over 15 chaps?)
SPOILERED FIC - can't reveal the particulars
NOT stopping, hehe. Sorry to those who are bored already.
But before I start moving forward with the story, I want to go back and tidy up what I do have currently. In essence, this means I plan on going back to gevivys (beauty) and doing some rewrites here and there - I want to pad out the story to 10-12 chapters. It also means I'll be doing some basic grammar editing as well as reviewing the High Valyrian; I've learned a lot since first starting out and looking at some of the earlier stuff is a bit cringey, because I know it's wrong.
Therefore, any NEW, NEW instalments might be slow-going; you can expect to see updates for the above, as well as me playing around with the chapters. I'll make sure to update in the event that I've done this.
So um, yeah. Be not afeared, peoples. I have lots going on in my noggin. Not even COUNTING some of the standalone WIP one-shots I've got clogging my files (including a truly heinous Daemon x daughter!Reader dubcon-ish fic). More to come, all!
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hype-blue-fixation · 18 days
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I feel like such a boomer I can't find my drafts on mobile. And also Mobile Tumblr is just simply inferior
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totally-unshway · 10 days
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Well I just broke up with my boyfriend whose Xbox account I was playing on so…. Time to restart another 180 hr game of ac odyssey
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ohtobeleah · 2 months
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I just got my roster for this week (starting tomorrow) and any hope of writing I had just went out the window.
However, I can tell you now everyone will be seeing more delulu 3am Leah.
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