#personally i think this line alone is the one core that pulls love him i don't together into the best on the album

[madamescarlette]

Truly it is impossible for me to overstate how much power it didn't work out, and I wanted it to work has over me as a lyric.

#it's just that it says so much with so little!!! #i remember listening to it for the first time last year and having to immediately pause after hearing that bc it was so so so much to me #personally i think this line alone is the one core that pulls love him i don't together into the best on the album #there was anger. but that anger has melted into the sorrow it really truly is which strikes more precisely #like sometimes! you try your best and try to give your best and it still doesn't matter because it unravels anyway #and it breaks your heart in two to try to give up both the future and the particular optimist's blindness to see things for how they were #it's like how she says kicking up snow / what a long winter / what a bad joke #because you can finally see under the snow and know it for what it is and you can finally let go of it when you do so #anyway. i come back to this lyric all the time because it's truly my favorite and i heard it right when i needed to #ysuft and star-crossed really came to me to teach me how to not be bitter and yet upset and yet full of light all at the same time!!! #i am forever grateful #(someday i really should make a list of albums that helped me through the past two years because it's getting long and yet i'm glad for it) #(sorry for turning into a text post blog temporarily tumblr. i will be back to normal soon!) #lyrics

[appleblueberry-pie]

Yandere GF Yuki +Yandere JJK Harem

A/N: Please just read these first few sentences if this is too long for you. I intended for Yuki and reader to have some sort of dom x sub relationship. Like it runs in her blood to be at least slightly masc. I've been fantasizing about this idea for much longer than I realize. But being able to do this with a literal bad bitch at the top of the OP podium is a dream come true and a treasure. Like I don't think you guys understand, I seriously think Yuki is for the girlies. I see so much queer potential in her, it's not even a joke(hence, the photo). The Yandere Harem includes briefly mentioned Platonic Yanderes(Yuji and Nobara) and more in depth juggling of the mentions of the Romantic Yanderes(Yuki being the main, and the rest taking whatever crumbs they can take. So, Shoko, Gojo, and Nanami). I feel like this isn't going to be organized whatsoever because I usually just write whatever with no kind of order, soooo......idk.

Yuki was all you needed in a person, in your opinion. No one knew you better besides her. You knew her and she knew you. If you could, you'd stay in her arms until your muscles hurt from staying in the same position for so long, and maybe then, you'll be molded together for eternity. That's how much you love her. But of course, her infatuation with you is so much more than a slight obsession for the one you are closely connected to. Everyday when she sees you, she feels both of your spirits connecting. When you two approach each other from different sides of a room, both of your cursed energy seem to blend together like food scents combining to make one sweet aroma. Two separate things colliding so well together.

She can't even fathom the idea of you not being hers. She can't think of a moment where you'd ever leave her either. Her confidence in your devotion and love towards her continues to sooth her mind and body. And she wishes it was just the two of you on this planet, but of course, people try to break you two apart every day. She tries not to mind it, knowing how to handle these types of situations and knowing you know how to hold your own as well. But it seems like everyone loves to test her patience.

Speaking of patience, everyone can tell Gojo was quickly running out of patience that somehow still remained in his body. You two have been together for four years, why haven't you broken up yet?! Not a single one of his relationships lasted this long. Ever. But you two continue to stare at each other as if the other created the sky and water. It's supposed to be you and him doing that. Not you and her. It's not fair and he was getting mad again just staring at the two of you. He tried everything. He tried to give his best flirts with you, tried to get you alone, which worked a few times, but you stayed strong and continually told him no. Fuck, he even fought Yuki. But you found the two of them battling to the death and he'd seen you so angry, he had to step back. The way you stared at him is a face he never wanted directed at him ever again, so he stopped trying to intervene. Only sticking to the waiting game, and it was taking too long.

Nanami was better at waiting. He was better at staying in his place, staying quiet, acting innocent and holding up face. But even he wanted to step out of line to see what it takes to get you to pay attention to him. To get you into his arms. He used to bring the two of you coffee every morning when you showed up at work together, struck conversation with the both of you, spoke with Yuki more than he did with you to try and steer away possibilities that he was trying to get at you. He thought he was good at what he did. It shook him to his core, disturbed him, when he was pulled into a dark room by you-know-who and was asked of his real intentions. "What? Did you want a threesome? Trying to break us up?" She taunted him, telling him he was just like Gojo, trying everything in his power just to get at her girlfriend. Told him it was obvious when he stared from across the room, crossing his legs to hide his boner like a teenage boy. She laughed in his face and cornered him into a wall, threatening to tear out his jugular. "She likes you more than the other rats scattering around us." But he knew better than to assume that would ever be a green light to continue with his tricks. She told him to keep silent like he usually is, and he won't lose the only life he has. He gave up.

Yuki and Ieri formed an alliance. If she keeps an eye out to protect you from the horndogs that constantly surround you, she can talk with you as much as she desires(as much as Yuki allows her to). But in your eyes, Shoko is a weird case. Because you see her more than you do the rest of the men at Jujutsu Tech. And even though Yuki always tells you to watch out for Shoko, she only lets you freely hang around her more than everyone else. You assumed they spoke of something alone because Yuki almost always pulls her away to have a secret conversation about something you can't ever think up an answer for. Shoko was great to you though. Always gave you snacks, was hilarious and knew how to make you laugh. She never smoked around you, saying she doesn't want you to breathe in the flames. And not only that, she flirts with you constantly. But Yuki never seems to care much when it happens. Maybe they became friends not too long ago...? You can't put your finger on it.

It doesn't help that she likes to show you off. It really doesn't help. Often, everyone follows the both of you to get a chance to talk to you. But when she's right there as your guard dog, it brings their chances back down to a zero. And they would just push her away and bribe someone to just throw her in the ditch, but Yuki isn't just a regular shmegular person to fuck around with. She is, in fact, a special grade sorcerer who would fold a good 85% of the sorcerers in her area if she were pushed to do so. So, you are just a beauty to see from afar.

Complimenting your cute outfit before the two of you go somewhere in town, making you spin, squeezing your ass and making you laugh. Kissing your sweet lips and being able to breathe in your scent. They see it all and can't help but fucking fume at not being able to have you. They probably won't ever have you.

Yuki also wishes you'd stop talking to the brats that constantly berate you. Nobara and Yuji are constantly in your space like little puppies excited to see their owner after a long day. Nobara will whine excessively if you are about to be pulled away, or is pulled away. You love to give her hugs and even little gifts that you know she's wanted for a long time. Yuuji consumes every snack you give him in exactly one second, and you tell him every time to please chew it slowly(he never does). He has such convincing puppy eyes and requires you to stay with him for an extra three minutes, which for each minute, Yuki plans to threaten him to leave you alone(they almost fight every time). You treat those two as if they were your children and people can't help but feel extremely jealous every time. Of course you give the younger ones affection, of course they get your snacks, attention and loving. And of course they get the OK to do it because they're young. It makes everyone else sick to their stomach with anger.

Her biggest concern right now is you're telling her about your new friend you've made(that she can't find and stalk for some reason). You say he has long and healthy hair, is very sweet to you and you two talk about religion all of the time and that he has very interesting "political" views. She knows he's a sorcerer because she can smell it on you every time you come back from an outing alone. She knows that this asshole wants you and makes it known by bringing you back to her smelling completely different and she can see his lingering energy surrounding you. It pisses her off. She's definitely gonna have to do something about it.

Anyways. Yuki has it best, obviously. Her only goal is to get you out of sorcery and to just become hers full-time. Not like you need anything else to worry about besides her. I mean, she could just provide for you entirely. She tells you every day that you're lucky that she doesn't have a real dick, because things would definitely be different if so. It makes you squirm happily and she loves teasing you about it every time with her wolfish grin. She knows she'd get some soon if she says it with that playful and hungry tone you love.

#jjk #yandere #yandere x reader #yandere x you #reader #yandere character #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen x reader #yandere jujutsu kaisen x reader #yandere jujutsu kaisen #yuki tsukumo #yandere yuki tsukumo #yandere geto suguru #yandere satoru gojo #yandere nanami kento #yandere yuuji itadori #yandere nobara #yandere various #various x reader #yandere shoko #yandere toji

[lowkeyrobin]

MCYT ; songs that they associate with you

includes tommyinnit, tubbo, freddie badlinu, ranboo, quackity

warnings ; horrible music taste. Did a few for each of them lmaooo. also let's act like dmca doesn't exist on twitch or whatever. if schlatt can play Fleetwood Mac on stream then who cares yk

masterlist

BADLINU

Kiss From A Rose ; Seal

You guys watched Batman Forever together and this song came on during credits. Life changing experience.

You had the DVD version with the music video bonus, that was being replayed for like twenty minutes

He has it on almost every playlist he has

He seems like the type of person to make a private, bad quality edit/music video of you two to it

Goosebumps ; Sorana

Dude this song perfectly reflected how he felt before you guys got together 🙏🙏

Plays this on stream when you're streaming with him for background noise.

Before you get together, he still plays it, just makes sure to not let you know that he feels that exact way about you.

Little inside joke between you two, it's kinda your song in a way

Editors love editing you guys to this song omg. They're always cute as hell too

TOMMYINNIT

FaceTime with my Mom (Tonight) ; Bo Burnham

You guys karaoke-d the shit out of this song on stream with Jack and Freddie.

It became a core memory for him. You were only friends at the time but it kinda made him realize that he wanted to be more than just your friend.

He actually FaceTimed his mom afterwards and she said hello to chat and everything

Little funny moment that he loves to think about

Someday (Remastered) ; Sugar Ray

He found this song on your older music playlist

He plays it a lot and thinks about you

Like daydreams that you're on a warm beach with all your friends and stuff

The song has like a warm, summery vibe to it so all summer he makes sure this comes up on your queue when streaming or in the car or whatever.

You guys probably dance around the living room to this song idk

TUBBO

Where The Lines Overlap ; Paramore

"No one is as lucky as us" REAL.

He cherishes you in his own special way yk?

He thinks he's so lucky to have you when you're surprised you could even pull someone, let alone him

Before you guys started dating, he saw an edit of you two to this song and he religiously watched it LMAO

You're both Paramore fans so this worked out perfectly.

Orange Show Speedway ; Lizzy McAlpine

the guitar sounds exactly how you feel to him if that makes sense

the happy nostalgia/dopamine rush kind of feel makes him all smiley and makes him think of you

he literally fell in love at a car speedway show that you two went to together for a little "first date" vlog so 🙏🙏🙏

it's just perfect idk man

RANBOO

Already Over ; Mike Shinoda

this song reminds me a lot of genloss so yk I had to include it here

but yeah, genloss vibes

reminds them a lot of yours and his genloss characters and their relationships and whatnot

when on set for s2 they listen to this on repeat bc your dynamic is so cool

although the viewers r desperately trying to kill you bc you're kind of at fault for genloss! rans trauma/predicament

they'll figure out that's not totally true tho

White Noise ; James Marriott

"I'd quite like to go home now" mother fucker you are his home :(

you're the "What's the point of having a friend when you're on your own in the end" outlook and they're the "I'll make an attempt knowing that I'll fuck it up" in a /pos outlook

you two go perfectly together

like two puzzle pieces, straight the fuck up

the cutest of dynamics

QUACKITY

Le Jardin ; La Femme

you guys watched Fresh together (10/10 btw)

this song came on halfway through and you soundsearched it and quickly dove into the la femme rabbit hole

he thought it was adorable cause you kind of understood the music but he understood completely

honestly got you into learning Spanish more

he literally only sees you listening to la femme to the point where he's a little concerned

you're just addicted to the paradigmes album you're fine

but he does play this on stream a lot just for you

editors go crazy after figuring out its always being played for you omg

Don't Want It ; Lil Nas X

holy shit this song goes hard

anyways yall always play this to get hyped up

he found an edit of you guys to this song and he thinks about it 24/7

literally the "people in my life should know I am not the old me" and the "wanted happiness, wanted forgiveness" duo

I can't explain it it's just vibes

#lowkeyrobin #badlinu x reader #ranboo x reader #quackity x reader #tommyinnit x reader #tubbo x reader #mcyt oneshot #mcyt preferences #mcyt x reader

[pomegranateshrimp]

⚕️Finding you in the break room having a panic attack. (1)

Oneshot, Fluff, Comfort

James Wilson x Gn!reader

omg this gif of him>>

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You worked on Houses team, and you were used to his usual berating of you and witty insults but today, today was different. Maybe he didn’t have the Vicodin. Maybe that was it. You didn’t know. Truthfully you didn’t care. What he said to you can’t just be blamed on his addiction. It truly shook you to your core, ringing in your ears as tears well up in your eyes. You were going to crack and didn’t want anyone else watching you while you did. You took your break early and marched into the break room. You didn’t have much time, as House didn’t give his team members any. But you decided to use what you had to just cry.

No one else was in the room, just you alone with your thoughts. You sat at the seat farthest from the door, in case anyone walked in, and you just started sobbing uncontrollably. Tears flowing out of you, spilling over your lash-line. You couldn’t stop them. You just kept thinking about what he said.

You killed the patient! You killed them and it’s all your fucking fault!

Your hands reached up to your head and you sulked. Your brain was going a million miles a minute. Was I cut out to work here? Should I just quit? House definitely seems to want me gone and I’m not exactly—

Your thinking was interrupted by the door swinging open lightly, and a familiar oncologist entering with a smile on his face and his lunch in his hand. He looked up and his cheery, warm, comfortable look on his face was replaced with one of worry.

��L/n? Are you okay?” The kind man quickly took a seat next to you, only wanting to help in any way he could.

You nodded wiping the tears from your eyes and returning to a stoic expression, acting as if you hadn’t been bawling a second ago; although Wilson could tell something was up.

“What’s wrong?” He leaned down a bit to try and look up at you, to just see what you were feeling, to try and understand and help. He wanted nothing more than to comfort you. Bless his heart, you had barely known the man and he was the person who was there for you the most.

“House yelled at me..” you mumble hoping he wouldn’t hear, tears pulling at your eyes again. You felt humiliated on so many levels, even if you knew Wilson’s intentions.

“What’d he say?”

You took a deep breath before continuing, making sure you didn’t break down mid-sentence.

“That I killed a patient. Except a lot worse than that.”

Wilson put a hand on your shoulder.

“Listen, I know House can be difficult, believe me, but you’re an amazing doctor, and an even better person. House is just dealing with his own stuff right now and wants to make other people just as miserable as he is. You didn’t kill anyone. Okay?”

You looked up finally and stared into his glossy kind eyes. You broke down, you couldn’t stop it but his kindness was so welcoming and you were running out of time on your break and you needed to let it out. You knew House would scold you if he knew you were crying like a bitch about his ‘light hearted jokes’. As if you were possessed, your body lunged forward and wrapped your arms tight around James, taking him by surprise and almost knocking the breath out of him. Despite his shock he welcomed you into his arms, letting your head rest on his chest. Everyone in the hospital knew about his endless string of flings with the staff, but right now, you didn’t care. He could’ve just been trying to get in your pants sure, but he wasn’t that kind of man. At least if he was, he did a good job at hiding it. He made you feel loved and cared for more than anyone else in this moment. And you adored every second of it.

As you soaked his shirt with your tears he brought a hand up from your back to your hair and started, not exactly playing, but more petting your hair. Not in a creepy way, just in a soothing way. He was trying to calm you down, and it was working. His other hand making small circles on your back as he whispered into your ear sweet phrases:

Shhh, it’s okay, I’m here for you.

And he really was.

A/N: oh em gee im so sry for not posting more 😭 Ik this was short but I hope it’s okay! reminder my requests are open (pls). ALSO I’m gonna do a part 2 so if you’ve made it this far, tysm for reading! Which character do you want to see in part 2?

#house md #fanfic #gregory house #james wilson #oneshot #hate crimes md #james wilson x reader #dr wilson #wilson x reader #medical malpractice #robert sean leonard #fyp #comfort #flufftober #angst #lisa cuddy #robert chase #IM ONLY ON SEASON 2 #pls like #x reader

[luimagines]

To Cope

Another commission!

They asked for platonic Time, helping/consoling Reader after the death of a loved one.

Masterlist

Content under the cut.

It was hard to explain.

The pain… The pain was enough to shut you down. It was raw. It was deep and primal. It cuts you to the core. It knocks you off your feet. You felt like you were falling even if your feet were still planted on solid ground.

You felt sick. Nauseous.

Tears pricked at your eyes before you could fully control yourself. You counted yourself lucky that there was no one else around you at the moment because if someone saw you, they would ask questions. And you would have to answer. And if you answer, you don’t think you would be able to hold yourself together for as long as you’ve been managing to. Saying it out loud would make it real. And if it was real, then there was no coming back from this.

You had lost them. You weren’t even home and they’re gone. You’re never going to see them again. They won’t be waiting for you when you open that door.

A sob rips out of your mouth before you can stop yourself. This isn’t the place to cry. The others are going to hear you. You won’t be able to explain-

A twig snaps somewhere to your right.

You hold yourself tighter, holding your breath as if that’s going to stop them from finding you.

You don’t even bother to look up and see who it is. You curl in tighter, trying to squeeze the pain out of you. The other person pauses. You can’t see them but you can hear that they’ve stopped moving. Slowly, as if they weren’t sure how to go about it, they approached you and sat by your side.

You sniffle, cursing yourself internally. You didn’t want anyone to see you this way. You had hoped that you would return early enough to hide your tears. But now you’ve been caught. You struggle to open your mouth but you still find the courage to speak. “...Go away…”

It's more a plea than a demand. It sounds pathetic. You feel pathetic. It’s too much to hold in and another sob slips past you.

An arm wraps around your shoulders and pulls you tightly into their side. “Let it out.”

You gasp and look up. You hadn’t expected Time to find you. He looks at you patiently and you can see the little worry lines beside his eyes. Gently, he raises his other hand and wipes the tears from your cheeks. “You can cry… It’s ok…”

It’s as if the dam broke. Before you can even register the forces in your heart, sobs tumble out of you in a river of emotion. It’s too strong for you to hold back anymore. 

Time turns and pulls you into his arms, holding onto you tightly. It’s just enough for you to let go of your emotions. It’s the strength you wish you had to squeeze your feelings out. 

Your heart hurts. It hurts so much.

Time says nothing and sighs to himself. He brings his hand up to gently run his hand over your head in soothing motions, holding onto you as you cry. You don’t hold him back. You’re still trying to pick up the pieces of your crumbling walls.

Time is ok with this. He doesn’t know all the details about the death of… well… All he knows is that your very world revolved around them. And now they’re gone. He… can only guess what that feels like.

The moment passes and your sobs dissolve into hiccups. You finally grab onto Time and tuck your face into the crook of his neck, looking for comfort from the man. 

He doesn’t hesitate to hold you back. Time holds you tighter than before and starts to gently rock back and forth. 

Eventually your hiccups subside as well but Time doesn’t push you away. 

A beat passes as Time keeps rocking and petting you softly. “I’m sorry.” He says. “I’m sure you wanted to be alone… but this isn’t something you should deal with alone. We’re all here for you.”

You sniffle and keep quiet.

That doesn’t stop Time though. “Take all the time you need. We don’t have to move at all tomorrow. Breath. Save your strength.”

You bite your lip, feeling a little indignant. “It hurts, Link. They’re gone and I- I’m- I can’t even-”

“Shh…” Time wipes away the last of the runaway tears. “Don’t. There are many things in this life that we cannot control and there are many things that will happen when we least expect it. We’re simply at the wrong place at the wrong time.”

A whine escapes you. You clutch onto Time like a lifeline, gripping onto his shirt and shoulders as if something threatened to tear you away. Time says nothing about it and simply holds you close.

“...I already miss them.”

“I know.” Time whispers, aching on your behalf. “That feeling won’t go away. You just learn to live with it. You learn to find a new normal.”

You can’t accept his words. It’s too fresh. It’s too recent. You shake your head, threatening to sob once more into his shoulder. “...I don’t want a new normal.”

Time doesn’t want to see you hurting as much as you don’t want to hurt. “You can’t stay this way. They wouldn’t want you to stay this way.”

His words strike a cord and you finally lift your head to look him in the eyes. Time’s heart sinks. You look destroyed. Time wipes your face again, even if the tears are slowing down. “It doesn’t have to be today or tomorrow. All in due time. I’m sorry you’re hurting. I can’t help as much as I’d like.”

You sniffle again and lean in, resting your head on his shoulder once more. As much as you don’t want to admit it, you really needed that cry. “...You’re helping enough… Thank you, Link.”

Time nods and wraps his arms securely around you. “I’m here for you.”

#linkeduniverse #linked universe #linked universe x reader #lu x reader #lu time #this was supposed to come out months ago #but it was the only thing i could move around easily while readjusting the new soulmates from the start chapter #i hope you enjoy :D

[jackles010378]

I can't do this anymore part 4..................

Was this even happening? A few hours ago you were ready to leave Jensen, to give up your life with him because you knew he deserved someone better than you, someone that would look better on his arm and not embarrass him.

Here you are, sitting on your sofa, shocked to your core. You felt as if you were having an outer body experience or were you dreaming? Yeah that sounds about right, you're dreaming this. That's until Jensen snaps you out of your trance "y/n, darlin. Did you hear me? Sweetheart answer me".

You shook yourself from your daze and your eyes landed on that handsome face. He was still knelt on the floor in front of you holding on tight to the tiny box that held the most beautiful ring you had ever seen. You didn't quite hear yourself say it but it came out anyway "why would you want to marry me?".

Jensen sighed and sat back next to you. he got his phone out of his pocket and opened up his music app. Jensen stood up from the couch and held his hand out to you. You heard the first few notes of the song he had chosen and recognised it instantly. You took his hand and allowed him to pull you up and hold you close as he gently started to sway you both whilst singing the words to you........

Listened to yesterday

Long before the way it has become

And it all came down to you

I don't really know the way

It played out stranger than it seemed

But what went down came true

Like an all daydream

I don't want to be the one to say it's wrong

When the heavens open and a new day comes along

I know I would rather be together alone

In a big top circle and a world we can call our own

It's all our own ..............

Jensen kissed the top of your head as you rested it on his chest crying softly. He carried on singing to you...........

In a world we can call our own

You'll find shelter darlin'

Where I'll always promise to

Never let it be

I don't wanna be the one to say it's wrong

When the heavens open and a new day comes along

I know I would rather be together alone

In a big top circle and world we can call our own

Yeah it's all our own.

As the song finished and the next one started you stayed, enveloped in Jensen's arms as he started to talk to you "y/n I want to marry you because I can't imagine my life without you, I want to marry you because you make me a better person everyday, I want to marry you because you are the most gorgeous beautiful and kind person inside and out, you care about me my kids and my friends. But I think it's high time I started to care for you more" he released you from the hug and you looked up at him.

He cupped your cheeks with his hands "I want to marry you because you mean the world to me y/n, I can't lose you, I don't want to lose you"

You looked up at Jensen and saw his tear stained face "how did you know that was my favourite song?" Jensen let out a small chuckle as his hands found their way to your shoulders "you hum it when your cleanin or trying to concentrate on your work" that earned a small smile from you. "Y/n, sweetheart I didn't think I would love again after the divorce, but there you were. You have my whole heart y/n you always ..." You pressed your lips to his.

As you pulled from the kiss you grabbed onto Jensen's jacket that he was still wearing "I do love you Jensen, I just get this anxious feeling sometimes, and self doubt that I'm not good enough for you, I am grateful everyday that I am with you. I just.... I feel like you could do better" Jensen lifted your face to look at him again. He pecked your lips "your all I want, you are all I need" he sang the last couple lines of the song to you again " I would rather be together alone, in a big top circle in a world we can call our own, yeah it's all our own". He kissed you once more.

"Ask me again Jay, please, ask me again" you looked at him and his smile this time reached his ears.

He pulled the box back out of his pocket and got down on one knee in front of you. You could feel your legs shaking and your heart racing, even though you knew what was about to happen you were still nervous. Jensen took your left hand in his and looked up at you with those gorgeous green eyes of his "y/n y/m/n y/l/n, I love you with all my heart, I will promise to show you everyday how much you mean to me and how much I love you. Will you marry me?"

"Jensen Ross Ackles, you have turned my life upside down" you paused and saw the confused look on his face. You pulled him up and placed your hands on his chest " and I mean that in a good way" you pecked his lips "I would be honoured to become your wife" you answered with a smile on your face.

Jensen kissed you deeply and picked you up. He spun you around as he laughed "you have made me the happiest man on the planet, I love you so much" " I love you too Jensen, I'm sorry I worried you. I will be more open with you I promise" he kissed you and then hugged you like he didn't want to let you go "we have all the time in the world sweetheart, but first we have a wedding to start planning".

So I'm not sure if I'm gonna leave it there or do a chapter for the wedding, I haven't made my mind up yet. Hope you've enjoyed reading it 🥰 I have linked the song for anyone who hasn't heard it before. It's one of my favourite songs that Jensen sings 🥰

@k-slla @cevansbaby-dove @kaleldobrev @janineb86 @deans-daydream @alternativeprincess94 @stoneyggirl2

#jensen ackles #dean winchester #supernatural #jackles #jensen ross ackles #spn cast #soldier boy #deanwinchtser #jensen ackles gifs #beau arlen #jensen x y/n #jensen ackles fanfiction #jensen ackles fic #Spotify

[adderess]

“Easy now, darling. You’ve got this. And I’ve got you.”

I AM SCREAMING ABOUT THIS LINE WHEN TAV IS FIGHTING THE DARK URGE AND TRYING TO ATTACK ASTARION

Okay so I haven’t played the game and i know this scene is in act 2 where he also confesses so I’m assuming whether the durge happens before or after, he already has feelings for tav. Correct me if I’m wrong!

Jesus he is SO PERFECT. LISTEN TO ME

1. “You’ve got this” comes from centuries of lack of bodily autonomy and being objectified, literally, and feeling powerless and helpless to stop it. Feeling weak. He knows how important it is to feel like you still have control, how important it is to feel like your body belongs to you — that you can fight. You can do this. He could have easily told tav only the last bit, “I’ve got you” and bit by bit, make tav reliant on him as their saviour. But he didn’t. Because he sees tav as his equal. He wants them to be his equal. He loves them and wants them to feel all the things that have been denied him: power, autonomy, competence, strength.

2. “And I’ve got you” comes from him being alone for centuries and no one caring about him. He knows how crucial it is to have someone who will care, see you, support you. Not baby you but hold your hand while you’re struggling for freedom. Help pull you back from the brink before you succumb to darkness. He doesn’t want tav to feel alone.

If he never told tav he loves them in the game, this would have been his confession. Because there’s honestly nothing more loving than telling someone, “I believe you have the strength to fight but I will be here, with you, I will help you if you ever falter, you are not alone. I will be here even if it kills me.” Agjsnfnfbfkdkd

Does he have issues and red flags? Sure. He starts out as an objectively horrible person. He will probably never lose that edge to him, even far in the future, beyond the game’s ending.

But the profoundness of the love he feels for tav, him, someone who had humanity torn away from him — he can’t even see himself in the mirror! — torn away like layers of skin until he was skinless and bleeding, whose own family has forgotten about him judging by the state of his tombstone, who has hurt people in his past life prior to cazador, who was taught by cazador that he was nothing, just a slab of meat to dangle in front of people to hurt them, who was envious and furious whenever he saw tav helping others because — no one helped me! (Is there something wrong with me, why are they being helped, are they more worthy of it, am i worthless like he said i am?). He is sadistic, he hurts people in retribution for what he has suffered. He is angry. He hates weakness because he wasn’t allowed it — not like we are, when we are weak, we are held by someone. Because he was made weak, he wants to gain autonomy and power by being sadistic and punishing people for being in the same situation as him. I think he feels disgust for them because he feels disgust for himself. That’s my theory, anyway.

And this fucking man. This fucking man loves tav so much that he wants to empower them, help them, love them — despite every instinct screaming “STOP RUN ATTACK DEFEND”. He’s literally sitting there with tav even though he could die. The man who has fought to survive every step of the way.

All logic dictates this man shouldn’t know how to love — that his love should be twisted and possessive and toxic, like when he ascended. But this man is so fucking loving at his core… that he, by some fucking miracle, knows how. Sure, he will make mistakes. He will lash out. But god, the foundations are already there. Look how he has changed and how soft he has become (towards tav) when tav showed him they are not out to hurt him, that they understand, that see him and accept him, that they respect his autonomy. Astarion has no idea the world can be like this. He says it himself, “you’re you”. That’s why he is cruel and lashes out at people from his trauma. The world is cruel. You need to be crueller. He sees people as objects — because he has been objectified most of his life and he believes that’s how people see him. Why should he treat people any differently? And as soon as someone steps in and shows they’re not treating him like that… he treats them with kindness. He is vulnerable. He tries. From what I’ve seen lol. This is a redeemable character. Maybe not completely— and honestly, I wouldn’t want him to be completely redeemed. Boring.

Jesus. Please, if a man isn’t like this, i don’t want him.

#jesus kill me i want this man to be real so badly #bg3 spoilers #astarion

[izzysillyhandsy]

Izzy's Gravy Basket

While discussing Izzy's looming end of season extravaganza (apparently Con's acting is so good we're all gonna lose our minds) on this poll, and maybe in connection with my episode 8 speculations here, @nicelimegreen put the thought of Izzy's own personal gravy basket in my mind - and I love it so much I have to write about it.

While Ed and Stede already let us see into their minds (and it was fascinating!), we haven't had anything like that from Izzy. And true to my firm belief that OMFD is a story about three central fuckups, an Izzy dream scene/hallucination would be absolutely perfect for the season finale to bring everything together.

Also, the unhinged enthusiasm of people who have seen all the episodes, specifically relating to Con's performance in episode 8, leads me to believe that there's something dramatic coming.

And why not Izzy's own purgatory?

I know, this makes it 3 death scenes in one season (plus 2 toe snips, an amputation and possibly torture?) which I would find a bit much even in hurt/no comfort fanfic, but it kinda is that kind of show, isn't it? (and I love it)

The fascinating question is, of course, what would Izzy's purgatory look like? (Please reblog and discuss, I'm going crazy with anticipation in general and about Izzy's conclusion specifically)

Let's look at our blueprint: Ed's gravy basket

Central conflict: self-hatred, fear of being a bad person, lack of self control, unloveable, no one cares if you live or die Location: beach, hut, cliffs Representation of self: Captain Hornigold, retired Pulling him out of it: Mermaid Stede <3 (I messed all of this up. I'll never leave you. You're safe.)

For Izzy, in my opinion, the central conflict is "What am I?" (from initially, "What am I to you?"). His arc this season is becoming a well-rounded person who can stand alone (first step: get a unicorn leg) and isn't (co-)dependent on his captain.

But that might not be all there is. Ed's death was directly connected to his conflict. I can't see how Izzy's death is caused by him becoming a more realized person.

Except... maybe this is a conflict between self-actualization and self-sacrifice. I've said it before, I sense a lot of guilt about something in his (and Ed's) past. Something about others paying the price for your ambitions (Letting someone die or driving them to suicide? Killing someone you love?).

Izzy spent a lifetime in the shadow of another man, propping him up (as best he could). Maybe there's a reason for this level of self-abandonment?

The location could be many places really - we know nothing of Izzy's past. It has to be quiet and introspective though, so I suggest a lake in some lonely place (Edward Teach born on a beach, Israel Hands born in the Midlands). Or a ship - because, at his core, Izzy is first and foremost a sailor.

Much more interesting is the person who'll be there with him. Keeping in line with our blueprint, it could be someone from Izzy's past.

For Ed, it was his feared captain who traumatized him deeply but also influenced large parts of his outwards persona, his conception of piracy and appropriate pirate behaviour. These are parts Ed hates about himself and that make him unhappy, and it ties in with his central conflict of course.

But for Izzy it could be the exact opposite. If it truly is a person from Izzy's past, it's very difficult to speculate who (that's why we need a scene like this - we know nothing about the fucker!).

I all comes down to how Izzy sees himself. Contrary to Ed, I don't think Izzy's conflict is self-hatred, so the person representing his self won't be someone Izzy hates.

I also don't see someone threatening - it is more likely someone in need of guidance, someone vulnerable and "weak". Maybe someone who wasn't strong and able enough to do their fucking job (and Izzy should have done it for him, then).

So who could that person be? It could be someone who was dependent on Izzy a long time ago, maybe someone he let down because he didn't protect/guide them properly. The person could be connected to the spade (traitor's?) tattoo or the ring on his cravat. It could also be a young Ed, who Izzy tried to take under his wing (for the record, I do firmly believe that Izzy taught Ed quite a few things, maybe not all he knows though).

He could also be alone 😢

I don't think Izzy wants to die like Ed did (he's doing quite well right now), but we've got 3 episodes left - who knows what'll happen. The guilt could play into it, or a feeling of this is how it was supposed to happen, I've paid my debts.

In any case, right at the end, someone will come and pull him out.

In spite of the crew being Izzy's love now, they've already saved him in Ep4. I think this time it should be Ed who comes for Izzy. I can also see Ed and Stede both being explicitly needed (Izzy has two hands).

I think there's a possibility Izzy won't drown though - maybe he'll burn in a wood/house/ship fire. A self-imposed fiery death in hell seems fitting with the guilt-theme somehow. But that's just me probably. Water works perfectly well too.

For the rescue, I am struggling to come up with something even half as perfect as a mermaid, I mean Ed and Stede can always ride in on a unicorn (bit of a double meaning there, but whatever), but that doesn't feel quite right - maybe Ed with a shark's tail? Someone else will have a brilliant idea I hope!

Going with Izzy's assumed conflict of self-actualization vs. self-sacrifice (and protection of others), the thing he needs to hear to bring him back would be something like "it wasn't your fault", "be happy" and "I/we want you in our lives but be your own person" (just a little more poetic maybe).

Conclusion: Izzy's purgatory will tell us something (harrowing I'm sure) about his past. Con's acting will be off the charts. We will want to thank him face-to-face (I've wanted to do that from the start, so...)

But Ed or Ed and Stede both will bring Izzy back - he'll thank them in his usual charming way and they'll live happily ever after <3.

Hope this wasn't too scrambled! Thoughts?

#ofmd #izzy hands #edward teach #stede bonnet #ofmd s2 spoilers #Izzy's gravy basket > Izzy's revenge #if this doesn't happen now I'll be disappointed #I need to look into Iz's mind! #whatever happens we will cry in any case #con o'neill's eyes haven't been dry for weeks

[nicki0kaye]

random kallus hc inspired by someone else's post #3

I think getting him to socialize will be like pulling teeth. It obvs depends on how you interpret his few lines in season 4, but I don't think he was doing the bond villain voice as a joke when he greeted the Spectres. I think he's just like that.

And I think he knows it's off-putting, and is using that as a shield of sorts so he doesn't have to go too far into the unknown after entirely uprooting his life and leaving the Empire.

the explanation I always come back to is 'be what they expect', like that's his strategy within the Rebellion. This is important bc my main hc for Kallus is that everything about his presentation is fake. His accent and cadence was taken from the big bad in a show he liked as a tween. His only formal education is from the Academy, so he lacks a lot of standard knowledge others take for granted. He was an entirely different person before entering the Empire (though it was the Republic at his time of enlistment), and even though he's been in character for the last 20-ish years, there's nothing stopping him from constructing a new one. Nothing but himself and his goals.

Now there's also the comfort aspect. Creating a whole new life is terrifying, and I do think there's a measure of comfort he takes for having 'valid reasons' for not reinventing himself. He's also been shaped by the Empire (and his life before, as a gang lord's son) to expect the worst of people--to make formalities weapons, to always expect the knife in the back, to take any opportunity to tear someone else down so he can rise higher. That's created a paranoid, hyper-alert state re: other people, and the people of the Rebellion have every reason to distrust and ostracize him bc of his past as an ISB officer.

All of this is to say, 'be what they expect' is both a strategy to lessen the friction between him and the Rebellion, and also as a means of protecting his own sense of stability. Changing shit up now could draw unwanted attention, give Rebels cause to distrust his goals and intentions, call into question who he is what he's capable of, and ultimately would be taxing and anxiety inducing for him.

I think he's a proud guy who doesn't do shit in half measures, and that means taking 'failure' very seriously, including social failure. If he's a stuck up asshole ex-Imp, he's not gonna win anyone over, which means he won't feel bad or like he's fucked up if no one likes him much. He's setting himself up for failure as a means of controlling the situation, bc he is very out of his depths and hyper aware of what a mistake could cost.

that isn't to say I don't love hcs where he loosens the sphincter and genuinely tries to socialize and make nice, I fucking adore those, I just think getting him there would be a process. He's a recovering perfectionist, he's gonna need the help.

I also just...look, one of my criteria for imprinting on a character is how likely they are to sit there with a neutral expression while mentally furiously playing 4D chess against themselves and their perceived opponent re: literally any social interaction. I love the mfs who look like they have their shit together but in reality are one misstep away from a meltdown over 'failing' at being a human. It's the autistic people pleaser in me.

and I love the idea of that person being worth saving. That they can bond and find love and friendship and learn to be better at this shit. I like exploring that process, warts and all. I like forcing them to admit they need other people, they want other people, even if it scares them shitless.

There's a song from the musical Company called 'Being Alive' that reminds me a lot of what I feel is the core driving force for Kallus' change. It starts with the character more or less listing all the reasons love sucks, actually, but there's a turn midway where he starts begging for all these little inconveniences because; "Alone is alone, not alive"

And I think Kallus is deeply embarrassed that he feels that way. That for all the perfectly understandable reasons to hate the Empire, he ultimately changed because he was tired of being alone and wanted to be alive. So there's also this layer of penance and self-denial that is informed by his guilt for all he's done, but is ultimately him punishing himself for wanting something so selfish and being so 'weak'.

He hasn't earned friends yet. He doesn't deserve to be loved. He has so much evil to make up for, so much work to do, it'd just be a distraction, and worse a selfish distraction.

And there's reason to consider him an inherently selfish character, I think it should probably be applied to him more, it's a much more realistic take on him, but I personally prefer the obnoxious martyrism of it all. That he's able to flip his morals because they were, ultimately, a put-on anyway. That he is aware of right and wrong and his ability to empathize hasn't withered into nothing after years of violence and cruelty. And even if he can't feel empathy as strongly as he once could, he is at least hyper aware he now runs with a crowd that draws strength from empathy and needs to readjust himself accordingly.

So I guess even if he is still talking and acting like a bond villain, he is tailoring his words and actions to suit the Rebel's sensibilities. And I think he's hyper aware that's a choice--that other people (like Zeb) are just naturally care about the right things and treating others the right way. That he's already deceiving them in a way, which inherently makes him a two-faced liar, and it would just make things messy if he added to that deceit by acting personable and kind and understanding. It's so important the Rebels trust him, so important that they not question his intel and motivations, so it just makes sense that he not push too far and make it obvious he can be anyone. That he could mirror them perfectly, say exactly what they want to hear just how they want to hear it.

No one knows he's a fake person, so he has to keep the mask on. He has to stay in his little ex-imp box and put the real reasons he defected on the back-burner so that this under-funded, over-worked, run-on-shoe-laces-and-hope band of misfits don't die on his watch.

And i really like it when he's proven wrong, and forced to abandon the box and face the horrible ordeal of being known better than he knows himself.

#kallus #nik v sw

[camlannpod]

Character Playlist: Gwaine Turner

You can find character playlists for Dai, Morgan, Perry and Gwen already posted on our blog (and at the links on their names here).

The last of our main character playlists! Episode 5 is Gwaine's episode, of course. Let's get to know him a little better.

First Class by Rainbow Kitten Surprise

I say I'll be damned if we can make it out of this alive But is this what you want? What you wanted? Do you need love? Am I enough for you? In time you'll find I've got my baggage too

A lot of Gwaine's story is about the tension he feels between what other people expect of him and who he actually is. The Knights want him to be one version of himself, in the way that the rugby team and his friends at university did. Dai wants to be a different version - but the version Dai wants is one which surrenders everything from the other side. Gwaine is caught between all these people who think he's beautiful, who want him and want to use him, and very few of them remember that he too is just a man who's as traumatised and grieving as everyone else is.

2. The Quittin' Kind by Eleisha Eagle

There's a corner you painted yourself in I'm not sure what was your intention Now you're trapped alone on an island And you can't swim, no you can't swim

Gwaine left Dai, Morgan and Perry in the middle of the night in the haunted wilds of Bannau Brycheiniog after they made their escape from the Knights. He stole half their supplies to make it back and he didn't leave a note, knowing they'd assume he'd been killed by something in the night. Obviously, this wasn't a great thing to do to them - especially to Dai. But as we learn in the series, Gwaine did it because he was being pulled back by Arthur's song. And when he got back, he realised he was no longer the only popular jock in the one small group of queer weirdos who understood him. He was alone.

3. Look Alive by Guster

The sun came up The world began to shake Fault lines exposing All my own mistakes If I could do anything Then this wouldn't be happening It's been a long time Since I've felt courageous

Gwaine is extremely frustrated with his own conflict between wanting to be comfortable with his sexuality and also wanting to be everything that everyone wants him to be. He knows that the popular, charismatic man who was drowning in friends before the Cataclysm was not a man that anyone wanted to be bisexual, so he just pretended he wasn't. He was 'straight-passing' (I hate this phrase, it's a core part of Gwaine's character arc), and he hid. And he hates that he hid.

4. Scared of the Dark by Lil Wayne, Ty Dolla $ign, XXXTENTACION

I ain't never scared and I ain't never horrified I just look down at my Rolex, it said it's the darkest times I ain't never terrified, I ain't never petrified You know I see dead people, I just tell 'em, "Get a life"

After the Cataclysm, Gwaine has an even bigger reason to be nervous about opening up about his sexuality to the Knights given their general bigotries. But he also, like Perry, has a job to do. He's a Knight. He protects people. He's the person who rides out alone in the night to go fight the monster everyone else is scared of. Before he left, he took half of the protection duties from Perry for looking after Dai and Morgan. And with the Knights, he's one of a band of brothers protecting what they're pretty sure are the last few hundred people left alive in the UK. So every day, he gets up, and he faces the monsters, because someone has to.

5. Growing Pains by Layup

I walk this world with broken toes From my missteps and told you so's I learned my way, breaking every bone Now I see all these aches will make you grow And every fall has a rise, every burn has a flame From foolish to wise, we all bruise the same

Slowly but surely, left alone with very little decent company among the Knights and no one who really understands him, eating himself alive with worry about what's happened to Dai whilst also begrudgingly reassuring himself that Perry would never let anything happen to him, Gwaine has a lot of time to think, and grow. He starts to get a bit of clarity about the man he wants to be, and starts to learn from his mistakes. He decides to stand up to the men who've backed him into this corner, and for the first time in his life, be something other than what everyone wants him to be. Himself.

6. To the Desert by Branches

I came out to the desert To find what I lost in your eyes I filled my lungs with the sunset And walked out into the night

Gwaine leaves the Knights for Dai. That's not a lie. He wasn't sure whether Dai was even alive before he found him on the radio, but he'd decided months or years walking through the wilderness looking for the love of his life was better than merry bullying in Camelot. He walked into the wasteland.

7. Our Kingdom by Hugo Barriol

If you choose the red, and I choose the blue We can share the green, we can share the green When I've lost my words, looking at you I didn't know your name, I didn't know you could- Change what I see Change the way I feel I was far away from me I wasn't listening

Gwaine knew he was attracted to men before he met Dai - he'd messed around with a couple of people in various ways. He did not know that he could love men before he met Dai, and it's part of why Dai is so important to him. For Gwaine, the nights spent staying up til 3am playing video games were just as important as the drunk hookups he pretended didn't happen. Dai never really realised just how much he meant to Gwaine - he always assumed he was just a passing fancy to him.

8. Gawain by The Trials of Cato

In crashing blows there is no game But when the Emerald Knight begins again I risk my life to make my name

Our Gwaine is determined not to be remembered as a coward. He doesn't want to be cruel, and he doesn't want to hide from who he is or his love of Dai. He's entranced and enchanted by the story, which pulls him in, playing on these tendrils of his desperation for acceptance and catharsis. He so badly wants to prove that he's brave enough to be worthy of a man like Dai. It's an easy opening to exploit.

9. Blood Upon the Snow by Hozier, Bear McCreary

It's not my arms that will fail me But this world takes more strength than it gave me The trees deny themselves nothing that makes them grow No rain fall, no sunshine No blood upon the snow

You get it.

#gwaine turner #camlann #camlann podcast #camlann spoilers #sir gawain #Spotify

[gemini-sensei]

What To Do | Hawk Moskowitz x Lawrence!Reader Blurb

Fem!Chubby!Reader ○ Y/N used ○ NSFW/Humorous ○ Personal Favorite

Find the req for this one here. I loved this one, I just hope I did Johnny's character right 🙈

"Oh my god! Eli!" she moaned, trying to grasp at his arms. Her nails kept scratching his biceps in some vain attempt to anchor herself in reality, but the pleasure was too good. She was swimming in an ocean of euphoria. "Oh God! Right there! Right there!"

Hawk licked his lips, subtly changing the angle of his thrusts to hit that spot that made her scream for him so pretty. "Right there?"

"Yes! Yes! Oh my god! Please don't stop!" she wailed softly. Her whole body felt as though she'd been electrified, volts of pure pleasure shooting down to her core as she clenched around him. "Please please please!"

"I'm not gonna stop, baby. Not until you come around my cock," he told her, watching the way she bit her lip because it was so good.

Having her under him was Heaven in his hands, holding her thighs over his hips as he steadily pushed into her. She looked beautiful, laid out so pretty for him. Her tits were bouncing with each hard thrust he made, his hips knocking into hers roughly before pulling out just to do it again.

Their rhythm was unmatched, making the bed frame squeak as they went at it and it shook their world. Quite literally, actually. He thought the bed might break beneath them, but he didn't really care. All he cared for was her and the way he made her feel.

He leaned down, pressing his chest to hers and resting his arms on either side of her head. She moaned as the angle changed once again, but also because her nipples were rubbing against his firm, muscled chest. Her legs wrapped around him and she pressed her heels into his lower back, just pushing him that much more into her.

"Fuck, 'm gonna come soon," he grunted. He reached between them, groping and squeezing her rolls as he went, to find her clit. His fingers pressed into it and started rubbing small, quick circles into it. "I want you to come first, Y/N. Come all over my cock, pretty girl."

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When Johnny Lawrence entered his apartment, he immediately recognized the sounds of feminine moans and masculine grunts coming from one of the back rooms. He chuckled as he heard the squeak of an old bed frame doing its best to not collapse under the pressure of rough fucking, assuming that Miguel or Robby brought one of their girlfriends around so they could have some alone time.

He walked into the small kitchen and set his bag from the convenient store down on the counter. He popped open a beer and took a sip, but immediate spit it out as he heard the female voice start chanting the name of a boy he did not want in his apartment.

"Eli! Eli! Eli!" the all too familiar voice screamed, moaning loudly after.

He took off running, bursting into the room to see his daughter shaking uncontrollably under Hawk, her nails digging into his back and leaving bright red lines in their wake. He was pressed against her, holding her as he groaned her name, his own thighs trembling.

It was all over in the blink of an eyes, though.

"What the hell do you think you're doing!" Johnny yelled.

Hawk jumped away, letting out a startled "oh shit," and immediately covered Y/N up with the blanket before covering himself. They looked scared, wide eyed and breathing heavily as they laid on the bed, sat up on their elbows and staring at him without anything to say for themselves.

Johnny looked at his daughter, seeing the deep purple hickeys on her neck and collarbone, her hair was a mess and her face was flushed. She was trembling, but he didn't want to think that was because of the person laying beside her. To which, he turned his attention onto Hawk with a glare.

"Sensei, we can explain-"

He cut Hawk's raspy voice off with a curt "quiet!" which got him to shut up.

"Dad!" Y/N shouted, furious as she cuddled up to Hawk, as if she had to console him for getting yelled at. She wrapped her arms around him and he looked at her, but nevertheless held her, too. She glared at her father. "What is wrong with you?"

"What's wrong with me? What? You expect me to sit outside and enjoy a beer while my daughter gets her shit rocked?"

"Jesus Christ, no! Why would that be an option?"

"I don't know! I thought you were Miguel or Robby!" he said, throwing his hands up and shrugging.

"Oh, so Miguel and Robby can come home and fuck, but I cant?" she asked.

"Yes, exactly that."

Y/N scoffed and rolled her eyes. "You are so infuriating sometimes."

"That's just the way of the world," Johnny told her.

Hawk cringed. "It's really not."

"Stay outta this."

"Hey," Y/N shouted, "don't talk to him like that!"

Johnny began to realize he was fighting an uphill battle and was nowhere near winning. Sometimes he hated the fact that his daughter was as combative as he was.

He ran a hand over his face, trying to figure out what the right thing to do was, because he wanted to kick Hawk's ass but he knew that would only make Y/N more upset. He had no idea what father's were supposed to do in this situation. Should he throw him out? That's what he was leaning into.

"Okay, you know what," Johnny said, putting his hands up in finality. "Get out."

"You can't kick him out," Y/N said, holding her boyfriend's arm when he tried to get up. She reassuringly rubbed his shoulder as she argued with her father. "I live her just as much as you do, so I should get some say in when my guests leave."

"That's not how this parenting thing works," he argued back.

"Ha! Ha! Ha! That's hilarious," she said, not a single ounce of humor in her voice. She shook her head at him. "You don't get to parent me with outdated and stupid gender hypocrisy. If I was Robby, you wouldn't be kicking Tory out. You'd be happily cheering him because he was getting laid."

"That has nothing-"

"That has everything to do with this," she cut him off. Then she sat up sat tall and assured in her stance. She wasn't backing down. "But if that's the road you wanna take, then so be it. If he leaves, I leave with him."

Johnny stared at her, somewhat confused because she brought gender norms into the mix and completely appalled because she was challenging him head on. Again, he didn't always like how combative she was because deep down he knew she was smarter than him. She was too smart for her own good, he swore.

Waving his hands in surrender, he shooed them off. "Alright, fine. Stay here all you want, just don't do that crap when I'm here."

"When you and Carmen stop going at it when you think everyone's asleep."

Damn her, he thought. "You always have to have the last word, don't you?"

"Yeah, I do," she told him, nodding with a smug smile on her face.

Johnny shook his head and turned to leave the room, shutting the door behind him because it was no longer worth it. He knew that if she didn't win now, she'd win later. He just prayed to God they were safe, but didn't know if he actually wanted an answer from his daughter about that, knowing it would be snarky or defensive and cause him more stress than it was worth.

#lawrence!reader #eli hawk moskowitz #hawk moskowitz x reader #hawk moskowitz smut #hawk moskowitz #eli moskowitz #eli moskowitz smut #eli moskowitz x reader #eli moskowitz imagine #eli moskowitz x chubby reader #hawk moskowitz x chubby reader #cobra kai #cobra kai headcanons #cobra kai x reader #cobra kai x chubby reader #cobra kai x plus size reader #chubby reader #plus size reader #gemini sensei #johnny lawrence

[kalgalen]

[taking prompts on twt and @soveryanon asked for MartinElias & "the sweetest honey / is loathsome in his own deliciousness ⁠/ and in the taste confounds the appetite" uwu]

Martin is a poet. People might see him as a people-pleaser, a pushover with a quiet voice and a quieter demeanor, and they wouldn't be wrong, exactly, but there's so much more to him. He's a poet; words come together under his pencil, under his tongue, to translate his hopes and aspirations, his fears and desires. He's under no illusion that the result is any good, but it's his, it's him.

This is, certainly, the reason he's so mortified when he stumbles upon Elias waiting at his desk, reading a stray piece of paper he picked up among Martin's research. Martin recognizes it immediately: there's a dark creature scribbled on the back that he doodled while talking on the phone just this morning. But most importantly, there's a poem on the face that Elias is currently staring at with barely hidden interest.

Martin exhales like he's just been punched in the gut, and he barely avoids spilling on his sweater the cup of tea he's just brought back from the kitchenette. Elias glances at him, signaling he's heard him, then goes back to his reading. Oh god. What was that poem about, again? Something stupid about longing, for sure. Longing for a very specific person, too.

Martin is frozen in place, eyes wide and cheeks hot, his knuckles clasped white around his mug. The liquid inside trembles with his nervous shaking.

Then, after what seems like an eternity, Elias looks at him. Martin is still engrossed by his reflection in his cup, but he can feel Elias' attention on him as well as if he had put his hands on Martin's shoulders.

"I didn't know you wrote poetry," Elias says. His tone is neutral, impossible to decipher even to Martin's anxiety. Martin glances up tentatively; Elias looks - encouraging, if anything. He's still holding the poem.

Martin steels himself. "Ah- well." His mouth is very dry, and he wets his lips before trying again: "I try," he chuckles awkwardly.

"Hm," Elias hums before, to Martin's horror, distractedly tucking the paper in his breast pocket. "Not bad. Who is it about?"

"No one?" Martin squeaks. Elias' mouth twitches bemusedly, and Martin struggles to remember the exact wording of the poem. It had been inspired by Romeo and Juliet to an embarrassing degree, that was for sure. "Someone I like," he relents, because there's no point in lying about something so obvious.

"The sweetest honey / is loathsome in his own deliciousness ⁠/ and in the taste confounds the appetite," Elias quotes, circling the desk, stepping closer. "Are you afraid, Martin?"

"What?"

"Those lines are what inspired you, aren't they? Romeo and Juliet. They're a warning against love becoming cloying. Is that what you're scared of?"

Martin thinks of his mother, how her love had soured into disgust. He shrugs. "Maybe."

Elias is in front of him now, close enough to touch. His eyes glint.

"You're young, Martin," he says matter-of-factly. Martin's fingers clench around his mug anew; is Elias about to tell him his lie has been discovered? But the Head of the Institute continues, oblivious to Martin's discomfort: "Love isn't the end-all be-all of life."

"I know!" Martin protests. "I know. It's just - I feel…" Unwanted, he wants to say. "Lonely," he chooses instead.

Elias' smile doesn't reach the rest of his face, but he seems genuine when he puts a hand on Martin's shoulder. "You aren't alone, Martin. You have us. Aren't we some sort of big family?"

Martin looks into Elias' eyes. As always, it is an unsettling experience; the coolness of his irises freeze Martin to the core, the depth of his pupils pulls him in, consumes him. If anything, he feels even lonelier.

"Yes, Elias," he finally answers, though the words taste sour in his mouth.

Elias pats his shoulder. "Good man."

Then he pulls away, and begins making his way to the exit. He's almost at the staircase when Martin shakes off his torpor.

"Oh! Did you need anything?"

Elias glances back. "Thank you, Martin. It's late, I just wanted to check on you."

"Okay…" Martin trails off. Elias is already gone, his heels clicking up the stairs. The echoes of them are long gone before Martin starts breathing again.

Then his eyes drift back to his desk. It looks untouched, but - the poem was nowhere near the top of the pile. How did Elias know where to look?

Martin glances uneasily at the stairs, and starts gathering his stuff, his tea forgotten. It is late, and the Institute is not a good place to be at this hour.

He doesn't want to be alone. 

#the magnus archives #fic tag #martinelias #ok this. this didnt go where i wanted it to #but who am i to keep the characters to do whatever they want

[aihoshiino]

Ok here's a big question: which theme is the real Core of the series? like if you had to ignore everything else what do you think onk is About

OHH ANON THIS ONE IS THE JUICY STUFF!!!!!

I think the combo of OnK being ongoing and having so many intersecting Things keeps me from confidently nailing down One Singular Thing it wants to say, but I also think that if you really boil down all the set dressing to its Deepest Flavor Profile (i am fined by the geneva convention for torturing metaphors), Oshi no Ko is ultimately about trauma and abandonment.

That's a pretty broad topic but any other way I tried to specify it left too many things I think are essential to the series by the wayside. The entertainment industry commentary is extremely important in terms of unifying everyone's stories and providing context to them, but the most intense, long lasting and prominent trauma we see characters deal with are not directly a result of the entertainment industry but are because of parental abuse and abandonment – Ai, Ruby and Kana are all daughters of toxic mothers who inflicted varying degrees of emotional abuse (and in Ai's case, severe physical abuse) on their children before abandoning them and the lasting damage runs through all of them like fault lines.

Also under the umbrella of abandonment, I think, is the trauma of being failed and neglected by systems that should have protected you. Ai's entire tragedy as a character is the degree to which she was failed at every step of the way by every system that should have protected her. She was spat out of the care system half formed at age fifteen, catastrophically underprepared to such a degree that her exploitation at the ends of the idol industry is not even in the top ten of the worst things that could have happened to her as a result.

Aqua, too, is failed by the system - he was so deeply traumatized as a child that this singular trauma is threatening to be the thing that kills him fifteen years later and nobody has stepped in to intervene and give him the care he needs and the entertainment industry is a perfect boiling pot for him to comfortably sit and allow himself to be cooked to death in.

Finally and perhaps most importantly: Hikaru Kamiki is also a victim. In fact, I would say Hikaru Kamiki's victimization is the singular foundational point on which the story's entire ongoing tragedy sits. This is not the post for me to talk in detail about what was done to him, but the undeniable fact is that he was horrendously victimized in a way I don't have words strong enough to condemn and not only did nobody ever help him, but the person who abused him faced no punishment and happily went about her life.

Nobody gets out of life undamaged.

That said, while the series is at its core about things that break you, I think it also has an extremely hopeful and ultimately uplifting perspective on what it means to carry trauma. I said as much in the previous ask but it bears repeating because I think it serves as the foundation for much of what OnK is saying about trauma: everyone has damage. nobody gets out of life clean and pure. but because everyone has damage, you are not alone or uniquely broken. you can be healed. but you can't do it alone.

Again and again in Oshi no Ko, we see characters who are at absolute rock bottom because of trauma able to pull themselves out of the hole thanks to the love and support given to them by the people around them. Oshi no Ko posits connection, community and companionship as the ultimate path to salvation for anyone who feels broken beyond repair and it promises them that even if it's a lie now, if they reach out and try, if they let themselves open their hearts and let other people surprise them, then that lie of love might be able to make itself true. But if you never try, then you'll never know.

#oshi no ko #oshi no posting #onk spoilers #oshi no ko spoilers

[khaleesiofalicante]

Okay Iris' chapters shook my very core I'm not ready for Magnus' chapter. Although I have to say I love that LBAF 1 started with a Magnus chapter that was kind of a disaster and LBAF 3 ended with a Magnus chapter that everything went beautifully (cursed seashell and Marcus finding it aside). I hope you pull something like that with LBAF 5/6/7 (again-cursed seashell and cursed Devlins aside).

Iris fliring with a million years old warlock-taking after her uncle

I feel like Madeleine is too busy to be a good mother to Regine or that she leaves her alone a lot and I'm feeling kind of sorry for her🥺 (still don't know how I should feel about the Bellefleur women so I'm going for neutral for now)

Regine spying feels like something that will bring trouble😬

Okay I don't ever remember a couple in your fanfics getting butterflies for someone else, this Hermes-Iris situation makes me very worried about her and Malik in a sort of they could break up permanently kind of way

Okay reading about Iris thinking she fooled Hermes has me concerned that he's either playing her or getting obsessed with her to a dangerous point

Otherwise though, Iris' instinct gets 10/10 honestly, she suspects Kincaids gay, she believes he has a good soul, she doesn't like Madeleine for how she treats New York, she's the only one worried about Lucifer- she does take after her mother (only one with braincells in her generation's gang)

There are literally so many different plots going on at the same time I have a hard time keeping up , I have no idea how you do it (unless they're all connected👀)

I can see Kyle blaming Victoria for Kincaid being gay and turning on her or both of them turning on Kincaid

The Warlock Council mainly looking Other Max for time traveling kinda calms me because it means that Max isn't to blame, but they probably found him easier because Max leaves breadcrums with the blood selling so he is kinda to blame

Isn't the Other Counsil aware of Other Max time travelling? Don't they sense something wrong with the ley lines? Also, Other Magnus knows about it, does he just accept the danger Max brings to the world?

I have an awful feeling that bot Maxs are going to get punished and David will lose them both (but you'll find a way to get them out of it for the shake of David's and everyone's sanity)

Iris cursing her uncle-irony is real

Predicting the reason Lance will attack is for love, my guess is out of love for David like Max fucks up reality out of love for David (he went to hell for David just like his daddy after all so like father like son)

I feel like if they survive everything, time travel will end with Other Max and current Max won't attempt it

The cousins not connecting hurts😢

Iris knowing the importance of facts and not leaving room for denial, what an icon (even though I feel she's a little in denial about what she feels for Hermes,perhaps she hasn't figured it out yet)

Can we talk about how much did Nicolas Thorn know about the way Max would use warlock math? Because if he knew about the time travel then he knew about the consequences why did he do it?

While I am trying to remain netral about them, Madeleine and Regine being nice to everyone, especially the lbaf gangs thinking it's okay to treat Max and David like shit is pissing me off

TEDDY! Oh I'm so happy we got to see her, (waiting for Mina's daughter), and Teddy wanting to marry Lance, thinking he's the best was so cute! I am ready to bet real money Theia rants about Lance to Teddy because she's the only person she can do it with

Okay Kyle has an unhealthy obsession with Selena

I think Kyle's relationship with Kincaid is already crumbling

Who has that feather oh my godd-my money is on Madeleine, and then she passed it to make Kincaid's sword?

Iris understanding the importance of showing up, again, what an icon

So the warlocks are siding with Lance? Or something extreme like not taking sides? Can't wait to find out

Also an interesting plot is that most of your cahracters like Lance/Kincaid/Max fight for love but I feel like Lucifer's motive is greed so it will ne really interesting to see which motive is stronger and how you choose to explore that.

Iris gave us a lot of fo9d for thought like the boss she is. I didn't expect to like her as much as I did.

On a side note, my tik tok shows me a lot of Ginny and Georgia clips and I kinda got obsessed with Marcus and Ginny and then I went to see all of their scenes together and can I just say, they gave me major Lance/Theia vibes, like there is this scene where Ginny tells Marcus he could call her something cute like baby and he ends up calling her poo? It felt like something very similar could happen with Lance and Theia. I couldn't find a clip but it's season 2 episode 4 if you want to check it out! Okay I'll stop writing now🌷

PS: This also gave me huge Theia and Lance vibes, especially after the scene where they discuss their music tastes, I love Tom and Zendaya🤭

LET'S FUCKING GO.

Omg I didn't even think of that lmao.

This is a very astute observation and very true. Madeleine is the kind of mother Anjali would be if she wasn't married to Rafael (yall know it's true). We'll learn more about Madeleine from her children soon enough!

Or maybe it'll lead to something good! 🤭

I'm just mixing things up, bro.

He's just a guy 😔

She IS the moment.

Everything is always connected ;)

Ughhhhhhh.

This whole situation is messy ngl. Can't wait for it to get messier hehe.

That's a good question, Vicky. That's a very good question.

I mean, I do love me some Max angst sooooo

We love irony in this household.

Maybe leading to Dark David? *gasp*

But Max loves time travelling and is very excited to do it :(

It really does, fam.

It's all new with Hermes (she's known him for a day) so we'll let it slide...for now.

The thing about Nicolas Thorn is that he doesn't always know why he has to do things, but he knows he has to do them (which can be frustrating for him but bebe had time to get used to it). I'm not saying he didn't know what would happen if he taught Max warlock math, but perhaps he thought the pros outweighed the cons?

I'm ready to throw hands at all of them at this point.

omg Theia 100% rants to Teddy. Teddy: I'm going to marry Lance when I grow up. Theia: GURL ME TOO.

I'm glad we're talking about this. It's creepy.

:(

How did you even guess that shnjksnds

She's the only woman I care about bye

you'll find out in the next chappy ahhh

heeeey that's not fair. maybe he is fighting for love too 😔

I've actually watched both seasons (I love Georgia so much. Fuck ginny, that girl is sooo annoying) although yes Marcus does have Lance vibes...

I LOVE TOM AND ZENDAYA TOO. And that clip is sooo blackbane I agree (not Lance being annoying about music the same way Max is about movies lmao except that David gets away with what he wants to watch anyway but poor theia is stuck with lance - but it's fine because she likes that hehe)

#thanks for the questions and theories and observations they always me sooooo happy #lbaf

[fixa-ryeter]

bc i have nothing to post i just wanna compile some of my favourite lines from my writing so far (for various reasons) which include a long list of:

‘It was the best thing he could think of besides a hug, and the last time he tried to hug Shigeo he got blasted balls-first into the desk.’

‘“Shishou!” “Shishou?” The woman inquires curiously, and Shigeo really, really wants to crawl into a hole.’

 ‘The name made Shigeo jerk as though shot through the heart.’ (AND YOU’RE TO BLAME YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME)

‘Shigeo looked up, and there she was: Tsubomi Takane, in all her pretty glory, the sunset glimmering a little in her blue eyes. Ocean blue, like Teruki’s. He liked their eyes. He had a preference for men though. Fuck, wait, what was he thinking?’

‘Something shattered inside of him that night, and awakening to his powers was the shards of glass raining down somewhere inside. It was a grand and dangerous release.’ (immediately followed by “…hello? Earth to Emo?” (yes it’s Shou @ Ritsu))

‘It makes him want to throw his powers away, but he’s got a lousy arm. He’s never been good at sports.’

‘“Ohhhhh,” Reigen says with an air of understanding-but-not-really, and Shigeo sighs exasperatedly.’

this entire bit

‘His power is his to wield, and his power will not turn against its master. Or so he tells himself. He knows he’s just a coward.’

‘Ritsu Kageyama is a stubborn bastard, as obstinate as you could get, and if he wants to act like his brother doesn’t exist then by God is he going to put on a show. It’s a one-man show for a one-man audience, and they’re all the same person. He should get an Oscar for his bullshit.’

‘It’s like the night sky he stares at when he dangles his upper-half haphazardly from the windowsill, wishing to give himself to the night.’

‘“What’s this?” “I knew it. You haven’t seen food in such a long time you’ve fuckin’ forgotten how it looks or smells.” “Hey, come on—” “I leave you alone for two weeks and you forget what food is.”’ (yes this is more Shou and Ritsu)

‘…he’s even able to pay Reigen adequate money, something that he realised would be a good thing to do for a part-time employee. Granted, Reigen was less hired and more refused to stop coming to his office, but Shigeo has stopped minding a while ago.’ (see? Shigeo doesn’t commit wage theft. get a load of this canon Reigen /lh)

‘“Nintendo Ramen”’

‘“Thank you for being my friend.”’

‘Losing Ritsu is an earthquake, but it’s not the end of the world.’

‘“I’m—I’m glad you’re okay… Arataka-kun.”’

‘He stews in these revelations for a few days, letting some of the thick layers of superficial vainglory fall—now he feels like there’s less holding him together, and he’s not sure how comfortable he is with the feeling.’ (teruki core)

‘Ritsu has disappeared from his life for a while now. Ritsu’s absence used to be a rocky road, but Shigeo’s walked that path so much that it’s been worn smooth, as though the road wasn’t ever bumpy in the first place.’

‘The passenger has let go of the wheel, but the warmth of his hands linger on the rubber.’

‘It’s like Serizawa and Reigen are about to play good cop… and worse cop? on him.’

‘“I kind of tried and failed to fix a leaking pipe and now my ceiling looks like it worked out and developed some ass.”’ (guess who said this)

‘“Oh. I see what you mean now.” “Yeah.” “Ass cheeks.” “Yep. Any idea how to fix that?”’

‘It’s the kind of pain that’s like a huge thorn being pulled out of your arm, slowly, agonisingly, but a part of Shigeo thinks that if he keeps pulling out that thorn, it’ll come free one day and stop hurting.’

‘He feels like a ghost. With aid of Teruki’s ominous optimism, though, he feels a little more corporeal.’

‘What Ritsu feels is Shou’s shorter frame barrelling into him, a ball of bright energy crashing into a frail vessel of emptiness. It recharges him a little, it melts away some of the darkness dissolving his insides.’

‘Shou’s pleasant blue eyes land on Ritsu’s face, scanning out all his sins of not taking care of himself properly. Then Shou points at the table, and Ritsu understands that they need to sit down and eat something or Shou is going to chew up his food for him and spit it down his oesophagus like he tentatively promised two weeks ago.’

‘“Mum’s still sharp, Dad’s a bit senile.” “Huh. Okay. Senile like, blurry old man kinda way, or like, government conspiracy theory old man kinda way?” “Dude, what the fuck?”’

i love my silly little au

#mob psycho #mob psycho 100 #kageyama shigeo #shigeo kageyama #mp100 ageswap #age swap au #arataka reigen #mp100 #ritsu kageyama #reigen arakata #kageyama ritsu #katsuya serizawa #serizawa katsuya

[whatdostarsdo]

And you know what maybe I AM going crazy about garashir! Maybe I am!

Julian as this person who just so deeply wants to do what’s right and will do what he feels is right at any cost, who cares so deeply about people over all else, who has this constant need to prove himself worthy of existing because he has been told that who he is at his core is Wrong. Who lives with this secret and has to hide so much of himself because of it, who hates himself because of it. Who turned his anger and his pain into success and a ticket away from his abusers and who so desperately wants to be around people, wants to be useful to people to show that he’s worth caring about.

And Garak, as this person whose only true wish is to protect himself, to be plain and simple and live an uncomplicated life but knows he never really can. A man who knows in his heart there is no real home to go back to, who was built into a weapon, who was poisoned in mind and heart in a way he knows there is no coming back from and has done horrible things he can’t take back. A person who drugs himself as a way of coping with a deep loneliness that he feels he deserves. Whose entire life path has led him to an exile, broken and unwanted and surrounded by enemies.

These two people who have both resigned to living their life alone, these two people who consider themselves fundamentally broken and unlovable, these two people Find Each Other. And slowly they begin to form a connection, to care about each other. Together they start to see past what they feel they deserve, bashir teaches garak to be selfless and garak in turn teaches him to be selfish. They have no clue what they’re doing. They go on dates regularly and talk about books and make conversation that is significant amounts of innuendo. And then the wire- bashir sees garak’s true self, and he stays. He stays and maybe it’s duty, first, and then maybe it’s friendship, but he stays and it’s clear that it’s love.

And then- the war. And bashir changes. And garak changes too, and their changes pull them further apart- because they’ve switched, you see. Because by the end, garak is the one who is building a life, making a home, who finally sees hope- and bashir, all his friends are leaving him. His family is leaving him. He’s almost alone. He’s seen things- done things- he never imagined he’d have to do. All his secrets are out and he finds that he doesn’t like himself anymore. And after that- what? The story ends there.

And the story is- some things never heal. The past is immutable. But love- for a brief moment it was there and it could be again. It was seeing the potential of yourself reflected back at you and knowing, for a moment, that everything you never knew you even wanted was possible.

I’d like to think they do come together again. That a few years down the line, Julian comes to Cardassia, and they both finally get the peace and understanding they so desperately see in one another. That they heal Cardassia and themselves and each other and see that sometimes what two fallen trees can become is a bridge across the water.

#star trek #garashir #ds9 #it is the child of abuse in me I know #and these are things I so desperately want to believe in #I just think they deserve the chance to show each other the love that they both want and neither has ever experienced before #just also know there are so many fanfics in my brain about these two learning to love each other #and the simplicity of their future life together yk #eris tag