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slashingdisneypasta · 1 year

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Villains through the Rainbow

I cant believe I did this for fun. This was painful XD 😅 So be free to use them as wallpapers or headers or whatever ^^

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Below the cut are all the characters and movies and shows ^^

Red: Gaston (Beauty and The Beast, 1991), Pearl (Pearl, 2022), Professor Ratigan (The Great Mouse Detective, 1986), Captain Hook (Peter Pan, 2003), Lord Shen (Kung Fu Panda 2, 2011), The Djinn (Wishmaster, 1999), Jafar (Aladdin, 1992), Otis B Driftwood (House of 1000 Corpses, 2003), Death (Puss N Boots; The Last Wish, 2022), Chucky / Charles Lee Ray (Seed of Chucky, 2004), Scar (The Lion King, 1994), and Erik Destler (The Phantom of the Opera, 1989).

Yellow: Percival C McLeach (The Rescuers Down Under, 1990), Mayor George W. Buckman (2001 Maniacs, 2005), Clayton (Tarzan, 1999), Sheriff Hoyt / Charlie Hewitt Jr (The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, 2003 + The Texas Chainsaw Massacre; The Beginning, 2006), Bill Cipher (Gravity Falls, 2012), Baby Firefly (House of 1000 Corpses, 2003), Cruella De Vil (101 Dalmations, 1961), Human!Chucky / Charles Lee Ray (Childs Play, 1988), Commander Lyle Rourke (Atlantis; The Lost Empire, 2001), Kahmunrah (Night At The Museum; Battle of the Smithsonian, 2009), Hopper (A Bugs Life, 1998), and Gilderoy Lockheart (Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, 2002).

Green: Maleficent (Sleeping Beauty, 1959), The Riddler (Fox Gotham, 2014), Scar (The Lion King, 1994), Leslie Vernon (Behind The Mask; Rise of Leslie Vernon, 2006), Chick Hicks (Cars, 2006), Freddy Krueger (Freddy Vs Jason, 2003), General Kai (Kung Fu Panda 3, 2016), Beetlejuice (Beetlejuice, 1988), Marvin the Martian (Space Jam, 1996), Oogie Boogie (A Nightmare Before Christmas, 1993), Greasy Weasel (Who Framed Roger Rabbit, 1988), and Lady Tremaine (Cinderella, 2015).

Blue: Wheezy Weasel (Who Framed Roger Rabbit, 1988), Michael Myers (Halloween, 1978), Hades (Hercules, 1997), Maleficent (Once Upon A Time, 2011), Prince John (Robin Hood, 1973), Pamela Voorhees (Friday the 13th, 1980), Tai Lung (Kung Fu Panda, 2008), Stuart Lloyd (The Last Showing, 2014), Prince Hans of the Southern Isles (Frozen, 2013), Hades (Once Upon A Time, 2011), Shan Yu (Mulan, 1998), and Bo Sinclair (House of Wax, 2005).

Purple: Eris (Sinbad; Legend of the Seven Seas, 2003), Carrie White (Carrie, 1978), Jafar (Aladdin, 1992), Chop Top Sawyer (The Texas Chainsaw Massacre II, 1986), Evil Queen Grimhilde (Snow White and the 7 Dwarfs, 1937), Tiffany Valentine (Bride of Chucky, 1998), Dr Facilier (The Princess and the Frog, 2009), Jervis Tetch (Fox Gotham, 2014), Ursula (The Little Mermaid, 1989), Regina Mills (Once Upon A Time, 2011), Long John Silver (Treasure Planet, 2002), and Jennifer Check (Jennifer's Body, 2009).

#Collage #Edits #Disney Villains #Disney Villains Collage #Horror Villains Collage #Villains Collage

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imyourbratzdoll · 1 year

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𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐰𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐬𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭

christmas masterlist

summary - mrs claus becomes jealous of a particular fairy that's gaining the attention of her elves. maybe tinkerbell should've stayed with peter pan.

warning - the death of a fairy, brutal, angst, jealousy.

the gif and header I use aren't mine, thanks for the ideas @georgiapeach30513 and @birdstooth

You didn’t know why, but the sound of their laughter and happiness caused by another woman caused your bones to crawl, a chill to run up your spine as a frown appeared on your face. You didn’t like it one bit. You didn’t even know how she got here, but the moment she did. She managed to grab all of the elves attention. They didn’t even notice you anymore, and they didn’t seem to care.

You were so in your head that you didn’t notice Ari watching you, a large cup of coffee between his massive hands. Your hands clenched around the sponge in your hand, squeezing it so hard that soap explodes from it. A warm hand on your back causes you to jolt out of your trance and turn to face your handsome husband. “Why don’t you go in there, darling? They love you. You have to know that.”

You shake your head, chewing on your bottom lip as your brows furrow. “They don’t want me to disturb them… She’s right for them, I guess… The same size… Pretty…” You don’t hear little footsteps entering the room or notice that they’ve stopped and are patiently waiting. A shrill giggle breaks you out of your trance again, causing you to turn and notice the elves are staring heart-eyed at the fairy hovering before them. Her eyes stare directly at you, acting all innocent as she smiles.

“The elves were telling me that you bake very well. I’m also known to bake extremely well! I would like to be the judge of your baking.” She bats her eyes, and it’s as if the elves don’t hear the bitchy tone. You grit your teeth, balling your fists as you feel the little green monster arising inside of you. Even Ari blinks in shock at how she speaks to you, wondering what the little men see in her.

Tinkerbell lands on the ground, giggling as all eight elves surround her, staring at her with wide loved eyes. Only Ari can see the pout on your lips, knowing full well how hurt you must feel as you really do love these elves. You swallow the lump in your throat as you turn toward the kitchen counter, and a plan forms as your eyes land on a book that you’ve asked Ari to please put away.

The Art Of War.

It was brilliant because it seemed as this whore of a fairy wanted a war, and she was going to get one, especially if she kept coming after your men. You slowly move toward the large book, carefully grabbing hold of it before turning toward the slut. You noticed that she had moved, no longer surrounded by the elves, but now standing before them, making little dance moves that you think were supposed to be sexy? You move closer, your grip tightening on the book as your heart pounds. And as you get close enough, you lick your lips, and the grip loosens, the book slipping from your hands and falling to the ground, getting closer and closer to the fairy.

Splat.

Your eyes widen, holding back the small smile that wants to surface on your face. You slowly look up, your eyes landing on the shocked elves. Their eyes and mouths are wide open as they stare between you and the squashed fairy. You give a soft smile before shrugging. “Oops… I guess I slipped….” You watch as they step back, their little hands going up into the air as they surrender, not wanting to be squashed, either. You slowly turn around and notice Ari’s hands are in the air as he stares at you with a mix of fear and lust. “Maybe…” You look between both Ari and the elves. “This will teach you that if you don’t want this to happen to you, you won’t even look or give another woman your attention. Understand?”

As you look at them, hands still in the air as they rapidly nod. Your eyes move over to Ari’s as he does the same thing, still confused about why he’s now horny. You don’t even see Bucky through the window, eyes wide with wonder, hands in the air like the others, as he also nods. You smile again before turning and walking over to the doorway. You look at the men again, “Good, now clean up this mess.” And with that, you leave.

Steve sadly looks after you before looking up at Ari with sad eyes. “Is Mrs Claus mad at us?... I don’t want her to be mad at us….” The other elves look at Steve like he’s insane, their brows furrowed as Ari clears his throat, still confused as to what actually happened.

“Um… I don’t know, buddy… I’m guessing you guys will have to do a lot of nice things from now on….” Ari looks down at the other men, “You really upset her.”

All eight men pout, nodding their little heads before looking down at the ground.

thank you for reading!

feedback and reblogs are greatly appreciated.

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loveyouanyway · 3 months

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about me and this blog

i'm nolan! they/he/she and if you use them all together, i will receive so much gender euphoria. adult 🥲 i'm agender. no gender, just vibes <3 demi-panromantic aspec 😌 east asian canadian :)

a huge simp but also insults are my love language. a silly loser guy who is sometimes cool and funny. yearning all the time 🫠

this blog is sometimes nsfw and mainly 911 with other stuff i love here and there

icon and header are mine 911 fanfic snippets | ao3 | my edits

i like to say my sexuality for media is also pan because i'm attracted to music/shows/movies regardless of their genre lmao

my fandoms include (but not limited to) 9-1-1, shameless, friends, umbrella academy, brooklyn 99, hannibal, yellowjackets, the wilds, sex education, community, young royals and much more

gay horror enthusiast 🖤 please give me queer horror movie/tv recs

some music artists i love: lorde, renee rapp, taylor swift, conan gray, maisie peters sabrina carpenter, chappell roan, arctic monkeys, clairo, girl in red, noah kahan, lizzy mcalpine, nirvana, yungblud, mgk, def leppard, maneskin, ac/dc, 5SOS, waterparks, paramore

basically i listen to all the variants of alternative / indie / pop / rock but i do listen to selective songs from pretty much any music genre jskdjd

chat and keysmash about anything i mentioned here or on my blog with me!! send me fic and gif prompts!! give me tv/movie, song and fic recs!! or just say hi and we can try our best to start and continue a conversation sdjskdf

my discord is buzzcut.season if you want to chat there since tumblr messages kinda suck

#nolan nonsense #personal #name change #time to change my tags lol #about #intro post

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aroace-polyshow · 11 months

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goodbye aroace wxs header hello pretty nene card and good bye peter pan themed tsukasa hello pretty emu card

#marlo’s stuff #love changing my layout every 10 days lmao

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khadijha · 7 months

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y'all i'm doing research for my grad class and i'm writing about the intergenerational trauma within indigenous communities and you have to include either a photo of your topic or a link to a video and so i wanted to search for caricatures of indigenous people way back in the day and the first link comes up is from peter pan and it's the same photo (gif, in this case) that that one rp changed their header to when we called them out for saying crystal reed was indigenous LMFAOOOOO DO Y'ALL REMEMBER THAT

#racism /#anti indigenous /#I FORGOT ALLLL ABOUT THATSKDGJHS #and i went onto crystals ethnicelebs and an #'anonymous' person had asked the day prior #to me looking at it like 'isnt she NaTiVe?!??!'#it's gone now but that shit was so funny SKJHASKJ #shutup ri.

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tavvattales · 2 years

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A fantastical fairytale!AU collab event~

Header image by @stygianoir

Get ready for a fantastical voyage of our own twist on classic fairytales. Each writer will be writing scenarios based on your favorite childhood tales, so sit back, and get ready for story time~

Presenting the writers:

@malleux with individual fics for various fairytales:

Diluc: Little Red Riding Hood

Kaeya: The Snow Queen

Childe: The Little Mermaid

Kazuha: Peter Pan

Zhongli: Beauty and the Beast

Dainsleif: Cinderella

Ayato: The Princess and the Frog

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

@stellumi with headcanons for an Inazuma in Wonderland

Cast list:

Reader

Kazuha

Heizou

Travelers

Raiden

Sara

Kokomi

Gorou

Ayato

Ayaka

Thoma

Yae

Itto

Shinobu

Yoimiya

Scaramouche

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

@teyvattales with individual headcanons and fics for various fairytales:

Dottore: Phantom of the opera

Scaramouche: Beauty and the Beast

Xiao: Rapunzel

Albedo: Sleeping Beauty

Thoma: Cinderella

#teyvattales collab event #rebby rambles #rebby replies #rebby writes #genshin impact #genshin impact fandom #genshin impact fanfic #genshin impact fluff #genshin impact x gn reader #genshin imagines #genshin scenarios #genshin headcanons

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mayordebbie · 1 year

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PLEASE READ THE ENTIRE POST BEFORE FOLLOWING ME!

⚠️DO NOT FOLLOW AND DO NOT INTERACT IF⚠️

• you're racist, anti-feminism, homophobic, transphobic, xenophobic, ableist, pedophilic, zoophilic, anti-choice, YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE.

• your icon/header has your nudes/bikini/shirtless in it (no one wants to see that)

• you send unsolicited nudes/bikini/shirtless

• you repost other people's content

• you claim to be a sugar daddy/mommy

Any accounts of that type will be blocked! If you are one of those accounts, please block me. I don't approve of that crud, so please, respect my wishes.

Hi, I'm MayorDebbie, also known as The Queen of Weirdness. Please call me Debbie because that's my first name. I'm a fiction lover. I'm also fictoplatonic. And I'm autistic too.

Fun fact: my brain is made of melting cheese (I'm mentally not alright)

Name: Debbie

Gender: Female

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: Fictoplatonic, Greysexual/Apothisexual, and Greyromantic

Race: Caucasian

Age: 21

Birthdate: January 23, 2003

I'm a girl who prefers more male titles than female titles (Lord, master, sire, prince, dude, maestro, god, ect.) I think the only female titles I prefer is Queen, madame, and Miss but sometimes it varies

If I rp as my original characters/sonas who live in a mansion or castle, y'all know what titles to call me

I don't like being called a woman, I prefer to be called a girl even when I turn 80 years old in the far future

Likes: People who wanna talk about interests and/or rp with me, comfort, friends, fiction, platonic adult x child fanfictions, retro consoles and games

Favorite aesthetics: weirdcore, dreamcore, traumacore, kidcore, nostalgiacore, frutiger aero and it's sub aesthetics, y2k, Skeumorphism, and 1920s, 1940s, 1980s, 1990s, 2000s, early 2010s, Pirate, Medieval, Victorian era, theater, Fanfare aesthetics, Neon, LED, Cyberpunk, Retropunk, Steampunk, Solarpunk, Western, Ramshackle, Hobocore, Nature, Forest, Wildlife, Jungle, Treehouse, Tropical, beach, Spring, Fall, Winter, Creepy, spooky, Wholesome aesthetics, holiday, Christmas, Halloween, birthday, Easter, Leprechaun, Valentines, Wedding, Evilcore, Icecore, goblincore, fairycore, cottagecore, Celtic, Gaelic, and Nordic aesthetics

Favorite games: Minecraft, Garry's mod, Teardown, VRChat, Animal Crossing core games, Tomodachi life, Miitopia, Wii sports (I unfortunately don't play games anymore for some unknown reason. Ever since my depression has increased, I have lost motivation, and now I rely on fictional characters to comfort me. They are all I have left to feel comfort)

Dislikes: Adulthood, Adulting, vegetables, NSFW, and mean people

Fears: Judgment, angry people, triggered people, strict people, and NSFW

Despises the most: NSFW

Disorders/disabilities: social anxiety, ADHD, daydreaming disorder, Peter Pan syndrome, my vocabulary and spelling aren't the best, and neither are my wording and social skills

Something that is not considered a disorder that I have: Autism

My brain is a mixture of a child and a teenager and a little bit of an adult

My beliefs: Christianity (I'm Questioning, so I might be an Agnostic Atheist, I blame School and my twin sister Avery for this, but I do believe that god and Jesus exist and are real), Anarcha-feminism, anarcha-queer, Black anarchism, Pro-choice, Paranormal, Aliens (I'm questioning about that), and Purgatory

My favorite comedy: memes, Xploshi's videos, Vargskelethor Joel's streams (the ultimate comedy man), cringe comedy, dark comedy, people being stupid, sh*tposts and sarcastic comedy

Fictoplatonic/Fictonplatonic is something I came up with (I hope that someone didn't beat me to it). It means: you love fictional characters platonically.

Update: I recently discovered that someone did beat it to me. I shall give credit to them:

I only do SFW, but I'm ok with blood, violence, angst, and emotional, physical, and neglect abuse fictional content (even when it's based on and/or inspired by real events) You would be surprised at how severely morbid my mind can be

Do not make any sexual comments towards me or the characters I made. Comments of that kind make me very uncomfortable.

Notes: MayorDebbie is the queen of weirdness despite being 7 years old, she travels to multiple fandom universes to find the perfect fictional character(s) to be her parent(s) so she can have the childhood that she always wanted to have

Info:

Name: Debbie Jung

Age: 7

Height: 3ft 9in

Gender: Female

Abilites: multiverse traveler

History: Debbie was the child of abusive parents, one night she made a wish to a shooting star, the next norning she found a magic remote that allows her to escape reality, she first traveled to ADLen (the world that she created in her mind) to make her dream come true as she became The Queen Of Weirdness. But after awhile, she wanted more, she wanted the childhood that she wished for, she wanted fictional characters to be her caretaker(s), so she used the remote to travel to the many universes of fiction to find the perfect caretaker(s) that she deems as worthy.

Magic remote inspired by the one from that one Fairley Odd Parents Movie (I can't remember the entire name of the movie)

Please keep these things in mind; Do not make lewd art of my OCs! Debbie Jung is canonically 7, she is a child, Debbie Young/Pastachan is cannonly 20, and Insanity Mayor Debbie is canonically 30, and I will not allow art of this type.

Do not put them in fetish art

Do not put them in NSFW art

Do not use my OCs for lolicon art

Same goes with fanfiction too:

Do not use my OCs for lemon, smut, lime, or any NSFW literature

Also: I consider tickling as NSFW because if it's a fetish and/or kink, then it belongs in the NSFW category. So tickling is not welcome here either.

Semi-important: I like Hazbin Hotel and Psychocuties. Even though the creators are controversial, it doesn't mean you do not have to like the media. You can always separate the art from the artist. Enjoying/liking their content doesn't mean you're supporting them

#introduction #san bernardino #fictoplatonic #fictonplatonic #information #info #dni list #fandoms #original characters

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weclassybouquetfun · 1 year

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It's as if we just exited film awards season and now we are in Emmy For Your Consideration (FYC) season and there is already talk about possible 2024 Oscar nominees with the excellent Ben Affleck directed AIR (an interesting and engaging look at how the Michael Jordan collaboration changed the landscape for Nike and athlete campaigns forever) being bandied about. Cannes Film Festival is in May, but before that we can see some of the more pedestrian films that will be adorning theater marquees in coming months thanks CinemaCon - the annual showcase for theater owners.

Hopefully no one will be getting served with legal papers this year!

CinemaCon's schedule

April 24 is International Day where there will be panels discussing the global disruption due to the pandemic, global box office and movie marketing.

Honored during International Day will be producer Barbara and her brother Andres "Andy" Muschietti (THE FLASH) as International Filmmakers of the Year and AVATAR: THE WAY OF WATER will be honored with the Comscore International Box Office Achievement Award.

Sony Pictures is the studio to kick off the event. While they have not named a spotlight film, it's likely films that will be touted are: SPIDERMAN: ACROSS THE SPIDER-VERSE and SPIDERMAN: BEYOND THE SPIDERVERSE

(trailer for the former will drop Tuesday) ,the sex comedy NO HARD FEELINGS starring Jennifer Lawrence, the live-action HAROLD AND THE PURPLE CRAYON, Neil Bomkamp's GRAN TURISMO live-action adaptation that stars Orlando Bloom so you know it will be pants, EQUALIZER 3, KRAVEN THE HUNTER, the untitled GHOSTBUSTERS sequel, Dakota Johnson's MADAME WEB

The rest of the sked

Tuesday: Will be Warner Bros. who are celebrating their 100th anniversary.

Films likely to be showcased include no-brainers like BARBIE, MEG 2: THE TRENCH, THE NUN 2, BLUE BEETLE,

Whose trailer drops tomorrow

AQUAMAN AND THE LOST KINGDOM, a Timothee Chalamet double-header with DUNE PART TWO

and the musical WONKA, THE COLOR PURPLE, the sequel to GODZILLA vs. KONG, Bong-Joon Ho's MICKEY 17 starring the very talented, but face like a parking meter Robert Pattinson.

They will have a special screening and it will likely be THE FLASH.

Wednesday will be The Walt Disney Company. Thanks to their acquisitions Disney doesn't just mean their Disney branding but 20th Century and Searchlight.

Films likely to be showcased: A HAUNTING IN VENICE, Gareth Edwards TRUE LOVE, Taika Waititi's NEXT GOAL WINS, Jonathan Majors MAGAZINE DREAMS, PETER PAN & WENDY, GUARDIANS OF THE GALAXY VOL. 3, THE LITTLE MERMAID, ELEMENTAL, INDIANA JONES AND THE DIAL OF DESTINY (which will premiere at Cannes), THEATER CAMP, THE HAUNTED MANSION, THE MARVELS

and SNOW WHITE.

The evening Universal and Focus Features will highlight their upcoming slate.

Films likely to be showcased: OPPENHEIMER, FAST X, STRAYS, POLITE SOCIETY, Alexander Payne's THE HOLDOVERS, BOOK CLUB: THE NEXT CHAPTER, the animated RUBY GELMAN: TEENAGE KRAKEN, the adaptation of the 80s series THE FALL GUY cleverly titled THE FALL GUY starring Ryan Gosling, KUNG FU PANDA 4, the untitled PLEASE DON'T DESTROY film featuring the comedy trio of SNL writers Ben Marshall, John Higgins, and Martin Herlihy (the latter two being sons of SNL writers Tim Herlihey and Steve Higgins). Essentially they are the new Lonely Island, but not funny and no rapping skills.

and Wes Anderson's stacked ASTEROID CITY

Paramount will close out the night with a reception celebration TRANSFORMERS: RISE OF THE BEASTS.

Thursday Paramount is back at the gate highlighting their upcoming slate. Likely to be showcase: The Tom Cruise juggernaut MISSION IMPOSSIBLE 8: DEAD RECKONING Part One(with a very likely teaser for Part 2), TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES: MUTANT MAYHEM, A QUIET PLACE DAY ONE (which comes out in 2024 but will be released before 2024's CinemaCon)

Director John Kasinski and his cast: Djimon Hounsou, Alex Wolff, Lupita Nyong'o Joseph Quinn.

*I remember when A QUIET PLACE came out and everyone praised that an original concept was having a success - that finally, no established IP was heading up the box office. Now there's sequels and prequels to this bish.

Lionsgate will have a special presentation of their slate.

The seminal literary masterpiece turned schalmatzy film, ARE YOU THERE, GOD, IT'S ME MARGARET , THE BLACKENING (with one of the best taglines I've seen).

*The skit it is based on

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THE EXPENDABLES 4, WHITE BIRD: A WONDER STORY (yes, there is a WONDER universe now), SAW X, THE HUNGER GAMES: THE BALLAD OF SONGBIRDS AND SNAKES and the DIRTY DANCING sequel.

including a screening of the raunchy comedy, JOYRIDE starring whose cast is being honoured as Best Comedy Ensemble at the event.

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pokimoko · 2 years

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OH DUDE YESSS I love behind the scenes looks at fics Ohh my god 👁👁 What are some of your favorite details/parallels/moments from in memory of that you would love to talk about? (And if they end up tying into other stories feel free to infodump ab that as well I am all ears)

Oh, I'm so glad you asked. *thumps book binder bursting with notes onto table* Get ready, this is gonna get long. Oh, and don't let this folder fool you, this is far from organised. For anyone else following me who hasn't read the story and would like to, warning, there are spoilers ahead:

Okay first of all, there's the 'sunny morning hello' / 'cloudy afternoon goodbye' parallel that you pointed out in your comment. Originally, I put more of a focus on the fact the sun was going down in the last part, because in 'The Ode to Remembrance' there's the line "at the going down of the sun and in the morning, we will remember them", so I wanted to make a subtle reference to that. And also originally it actually started raining after Randall was gone, and Marc took the time to admire it rather than shy away from it; there was a little rainbow and everything.

But! But then my brain was like "why don't we have the story start with Marc meeting his brother, so that the story acts as a chart of Randall from beginning to end, and to give the reader some time with Randall before the cave so they're sad when we inevitably lose him" and welp, couldn't refuse that idea could I? I've always loved first and last lines being a reflection of each other, it scratches an itch in my brain. In the last scene, the sun's still on the process of going down, but I decided to have the clouds part and to have the sun shine of him to represent him making peace with his past, and to show he was allowing himself to move on from that rainy day. I am not immune to pathetic fallacy. (I'll admit, I listened to 'Más Allá Del Sol' a few times while writing the final scene. Thanks to episode 5, I now have a kneejerk reaction to get upset when I listen to it. And also, y'know, the sun motif.)

I personally am very in love with the height chart part. I was trying to think of an image for the header and that came to me with no warning or lead-up (I was in the middle of hugging my mum at the time and gosh, the fact I had to continue acting normal after getting hit with that idea was definitely something. And yes, I do think about my fics while doing normal things. The only problem is that it leads to conversations like this: "oh crap, I'm so sorry, I didn't hear a word of that, I kinda zoned out, I was thinking about Mayan gods" "...Why were you thinking about Mayan gods?" "Uh" *sweats nervously*).

But anyway! The height chart. They mark the passing of time, but they also act as a preservation of what has come before. And of course they're associated with childhood and growing up. Eventually you reach the point where you stop measuring, because you've grown as much as you ever will, and then it remains simply to act as a reminder. Marc's chart is like an old journal entry; you don't remember writing it, or even the context for it, but you know it's your words, written by someone you used to be. But Randall's chart is like an unfinished sentence, (or one that in its shortness tells you everything...'for sale: baby shoes, never worn'). His chart will never be finished, but the indents remain, a reminder of where his story came to a stop.

This is where the Peter Pan inspiration came in. I didn't take inspiration from the story itself, but rather its own inspiration. When J.M. Barrie was 6, his 13 year old brother David died, a day before his 14th birthday. His mother was distraught, having always favoured David, but she took comfort in the idea that he would remain a young boy forever, never growing any older. This concept stuck with Barrie, and he eventually went on to write a story about a boy who would never grow up. In a way, it was his way to cope with what had happened.

For Marc, Randall's youth is a haunting reminder. Marc will grow older, but his brother will always be the same. The distance between them grows with each passing year. As a teenager, there would have come a day that Marc realised his brother had been dead longer than he'd ever been alive. Then that Steven had been around longer. That he'd known Layla longer than he ever knew his brother. Times goes on, and Randall's life in comparison to his own grows smaller and smaller, until it is only a tiny portion, barely a blip. But the marks remain. The distance that time brings only makes it harder for Marc to reach out for who left them in the first place.

The name of the fic was another idea that hit me in the head like a dodgeball to the face (and trust me, I know what that feels like). The working title for a long time was 'to weigh the heart of an albatross', to allude to ‘The Rime of the Ancient Mariner’. In the poem, the titular Mariner shoots down an albatross for really no reason and then, either as a coincidence or as a result of him killing the bird (it's a matter of interpretation), everything goes to shit. The rest of the crew blame him and he is forced to hang the dead albatross around his neck as punishment (and then the crew all die and the Mariner is cursed by Life-in-Death, and is forced to keep living on and suffer as the only survivor, surrounded by the crew's dead bodies, and, well, y'see the connections, yeah?), and I wanted to be like "but see, Marc is the Mariner AND the albatross. He is the guilty man and the one enforcing the guilty. He is burdened, and the burden itself." (The fact Marc was a Marine certainly helped with the idea.)

I also originally wanted the epigraph to be a line from the poem (one contender: 'And they all dead did lie: / And a thousand thousand slimy things / Lived on; and so did I.' Because, survivor’s guilt and all that, and the complete self-hatred in comparing yourself to a ‘slimy thing’. Which as you know in the story, Marc hates..) but none of them fit the way I wanted. I did manage to sneak a sly reference to the albatross with KHONSHU BEING A BIG FUCKING WHITE BIRD HANGING AROUND UNWANTED LIKE A WEIGHT AROUND HIS NECK ENFORCING THE GUILT EVEN FURTHER AND STIFLING JAKE’S FREEDOM. And like, the actual bird Marc sees at the end, flying high.

But then 'in memory of you' came to me, thanks to me thinking about obituaries and such, and since the story is about memory and loss, I thought it was more fitting. I then shortened it to 'in memory of', to make it more open, to have it allude to all the things Marc lost that day. His brother, his innocence, his family. He's living his life in memory of what came before. Around the time of the getting that new title, I also rediscovered the Hill House quote (from an episode aptly named 'Steven Sees a Ghost') and knew it was a perfect fit.

The scene where Marc and Layla are talking about the meaning of their names was in there simply because I found out Layla means "night" and I was like "they really went and called her 'night', huh, in a show called 'Moon Knight...well, I can't let them get away with that, everyone must know." But it is sweet when you think about it, that the Avatar of the Moon god fell in love in with someone named after the night sky. Afterall, the moon shines brightest at night...

Wait. Shit. Oh shit. If that concept shows up in a future fic of mine along with some 'She Walks in Beauty' references you know fucking why.

Anyway. This next detail is actually one I picked up when rewatching the Field of Reeds scene (so many times; I do not particularly enjoying novelising scenes but I knew it was important to explore that scene within the fic itself, as it's an important step towards Marc's self-forgiveness). The way that Taweret says that there is "no danger" there and Marc immediately asks about Steven. Because of course, "when danger is near" and all that. Marc doesn't associate Steven with danger, but rather his safety from it. And when you find safety in something, you keep it close, even when there is no danger near. Because safety is comfort, and comfort is peace. The Field could only offer absence from all things bad, rather than the presence of that which is good, and so of course Marc left. He was never going to find true peace there. He would rather deal with the good and the bad than nothing at all.

Another detail: the movie night choices, because I can't ever just pick a random movie or song and be fine with that, no, no, I have to pick one with meaning. Silly writer brain. Anyway, the movies! If you seen 'The Bridge to Terabithia', I think you'll know why I chose that one; the synopsis literally has '(the imaginary world) helps Jess to escape and cope with a tragedy.' And like...the tragedy itself. 🙃 It's been years since I first watched and I'm still not okay. And 'The Lion King'...well, *gestures at the scene where Simba finds his dad's dead body* *gestures at Scar blaming Simba* *gestures at the years Simba spends trying to escape his past*. Guilt is a very huge part of that movie. Not that Steven would've picked up on that. Just like in 'Absent Place', he does a lot of things subconsciously; using muscle memory he can't remember forming, crying over things he can't remember hurting him, seeing the ghost of a boy he doesn't recognise. There's a blindfold around his eyes, but he keeps swinging the bat anyway, trying to hit the piñata, not knowing where it is or even why he's doing it at all.

Speaking of Steven, I wanted to make his interactions with the ghost distinctly different, to highlight the impact that Marc's guilt has on how he perceives things. With Marc, Randall is very much the epitome of a ghost, lurking in corners and doing nothing but watching. Marc has come to the conclusion that the ghost shows up to remind him of his pain, rather than realising the ghost shows up because he's in pain. But with Steven, Randall acts more natural, almost like a very quiet but kind child. Steven doesn't try to push him away, and he doesn't see him as a source of guilt, but rather comfort and companionship, so Randall acts accordingly.

(I kinda explored the idea of ghosts being shaped by our perception of them once before in a Lucifer fic I wrote a few years back which has, uh, well, a lot of thematic similarities to 'in memory of'. Like, a lot. Grief, guilt, ghosts, hiding in a fantasy, the past lingering. So, yeah, I don't get new ideas, I just pull out my old ones and put new clothes on them.)

But eventually, with the help of Layla and Steven, Marc slowly but surely starts to see past the wall of guilt his mother forced him to build up, and to remember his brother for who he truly was. That's why, by the last scene, when Marc sees him, Randall is swinging his legs and staring up at the sky, acting more like the child he is. Because Marc no longer sees him as something to dread, like you would a ghost, or as a condemnation. He sees his little brother, he sees him crying, and he goes over to give him one last word of comfort: I'm okay. I'm going to be okay. You can go now. Thank you for keeping your promise too.

Jeez, wow, okay, I told you this would be long but I wasn't expecting it to be this long. If you've made it this far, great job. Why don't we tie this whole ramble up with the most behind-the-scene detail of all: the notes I wrote when the idea first came to me, on the 23rd of July. Back when I thought it was really was just going to be 10 scenes.

My notes are usually more...coherent, but it was late at night and I just needed to get the thoughts down. Still, it's fun to see what stayed and what evolved through the writing process, and obviously everything that got added in, because there was a lot that was added in. I salute you Past Me, for ever thinking this would be a short enough story to have roman numerals denoting each part.

Alright, that's definitely enough rambling. I hope you've enjoyed me dumping all my brain's contents onto you. It was fun verbalising some of my thought processes to you and having the chance to explain some of stuff that wasn’t really made explicit in the writing itself. Thank you for the ask! :D

#ask #moon knight #meta #this counts as meta right?#long post #long fucking post #i told you you'd regret asking #when you get me going i fucking go i am an unstoppable object #especially about my writing #i am a child jumping up and down and pointing at my painting and going #did you see did you see #and you are the teacher patting me on the head going #yes dear it's lovely why don't you tell me why the curtains are blue #i love explaining symbolism and writing choices. so much so i had three english classes in my senior years of high school. shocking i know #and i was the only person in my entire year to take those classes too #that's right i had the awful nervewracking privilege of sitting alone in a classroom with no one else but the teacher #if they asked a question i had to answer #but at least the questions were about books and movies #those extra english classes are why i know so many bloody capital R Romantic poems anyway #i literally went back to my old school notes to gather some ancient mariner symbolism for the story #and uh if you ever see me writing about Jake and his kinship to Frankenstein's monster and how he's been treated....you know who to blame #the absent place had many underlying influences from things i learnt: the yellow wallpaper. plato's cave allegory. edgar allan poe's stuff #smoke and mirrors alternatively was inspired by media with magic mirrors: 'football' adventure time. sorceror's apprentice. infinity train #i like to hoard stories in my mind until i can steal them for parts #they are the foundations upon which i build #ANYWAY #thank you again for the ask i am sending you even more hearts #( ○w○)_💜💜💜💜

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