Something I’m working on practicing, philosophically at least, is what I call “it’s all just grass” method.
Broken down it’s basically this: there are thousands, if not millions, of things to know about grass. The number of species, the anatomy and physical structures of it, how it makes energy, it’s life cycle, the nuances of environments for various types of grass, how big they can grow, how much sunlight each species needs, etc etc. But it’s all grass.
Everything is impossibly nuanced. Any single piece of information can spiral out into fractals of facts and knowledge related to that piece of information. But it’s also impossibly simple.
A snowflake is a snowflake. It’s a crystal. It’s water. It’s a mathematical formula. It’s a physics equation. It changes based on the mineral composition of the atmosphere the water has passed through. It’s an excellent example of geometric shaping in the natural world. It’s used as a representation of wonder. It’s a literary example of emotional distance. It’s a visual representation of cold. It’s a story element of isolation. It’s an artistic cue to contrast the brightly colored clothes of the subject. It’s an idealized winter night.
one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.
if yall ever want like serious advice from me about how to solve burnout as a creative it's like...
literally ignore it. stop pushing. go do something else, enjoy your life, fill it with other things, do what brings you joy in the moment if you can.
go to the gym, take a walk to touch grass and look at dogs and smell flowers, cook dinner, watch tv with your friends, talk about your feelings as needed with ppl you trust, take a drive and blast your music, do the chores you need to do, the job hunting slog you need to do, read books that aren't for research, stop cordoning off your brain for The Craft or The Draft or whatever the fuck
forget about the project, stop thinking about it for as long as it takes to be excited again.
Melodramatic Meltdowns with Mom: pursuit of happiness?
엄마 (Mom) and I talked for over 5 hours on the phone. To some, that might seem insane or ridiculous but for us, it’s actually not too surprising. We talk about a whole range of random topics, from my most ridiculous stories of working in customer service, to deep philosophical conversations about the meaning of life. I truly cherish this time we spend together even though we’re hundreds of…
Very often among a certain highly intelligent type of people, quite paradoxical ideas will establish themselves. But they have suffered so much in their lives for these ideas, and have paid so high a price for them that it becomes very painful, indeed almost impossible, for them to part with them.