#pi's ventings

[system-of-a-feather]

*Disclaimer: Originally I wrote "are high support needs" when I meant have a more general high level of support being needed and not any official term, this is an editted version; I was tired writing this vent, I apologize*

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Man I feel people don't ever talk enough about the combination of having DID and all the disorder package that comes with that AND being the "high functioning" and """mentally stable""" and "least disabled" party in a partnership due to the specific circumstances and ways your system adapted to it's environment makes you unable to not be "high functioning"

Cause even if on every principle in Western capitalistic society you are still stellar and amazing and doing great, you still have a high need for support but never get the space or sympathy or patience others get cause you not only look At Average among not-disabled people, but arguably look better than The Average

And Im just, exhausted.

And while I understand the Gifted Children Syndrome, this is mainly for Model Minority kids and if you are white, I don't want "Gifted Children" talk on here. It can be similar but its not the same.

#alter: riku #<- not really but #well #alter: riku pi #probably #also #alter: chunn #vent #model minority #poc system

[sometimesraven]

sometimes i think ppl who take lap*s l@zuli's' "i enjoyed hurting you" speech at face value are just naive but otherwise good people and then i continue watching their video and there's about 87 million transphobic microaggressions and gratuitous use of ableist slurs

#i don't like judging people based on fandom opinions but MAN st3ven un*verse fans are so transparent #vent #((this isn't me saying l@pis haters are transphobic btw #it's just a specific example

[feraecor]

Everyone must appreciate and celebrate my sweet old man on his 10th day of birth!!

#{kei babble} occ #~behold! #~the sleepiest and most majestic sweet pi around!!! #~he’s currently sacked out on his bed by his heater vent and enjoying his third afternoon snooze of the day #~he’s nothing if not sleepy #~that boi knows better than any one how important it is to get maximum comfort

[thekeytomypie]

sometimes i wish i was kinky in the fun cute way and not the mentally ill sobbing about how no one will ever want to own me way. the whole sentiment is shitty i know, it would just make things a lot easier

#not t@skmaster #mine #personal #vent post #dw its just a pi upsetting eirself by accident day

[kieraelieson]

I am doing a very Patton thing right now.

I got some really awful news today and I Don’t Wanna Think About It. So I just put a full Four pies into the oven, After making Ten Pounds of fancy roasted potatoes.

Someone tell me you secretly are my neighbors and like French coconut pies 😂

#my body is very tired now #this coping mechanism is less doable for me now than it used to be #once the pies are cooked I’m gonna sit still somewhere and play video games #cause I’m not gonna sleep for a While #vent

[incubicide]

oh joy, ive reached that stage of 3d bullshittery where I start having nightmares about eating 😐

#I dreamt my mom and I were getting in an argument but I was in our old beat up red dumpy ass car that we sold in 2013 #like with the grey cloth seats #and it was dusk and she was screaming at me until my ears rang and we were both crying but then she decided to try to #make it up to me by taking me to McDonalds #which I dont even like not only for boycott reasons I just cant justify spending 7 dollars on a shit meal #and got me TWO fucking apple pies #and before I woke up I remember I was desperately trying to look up the carbs and caloric intake itd give me if I ate them #dunno if I ate them or not though bc I woke up after that #wack #☠︎ it talks ☠︎ #☣︎ personal vent ☣︎ #cw ed #🕯️as a 🪶 #tw disordered eating #light as a feather #3d tumblr #⭐️ve #3d vent #ed bllog #edbllr #ed rant #ed vent #tw ed rant #edblr #edblrr

[cinemacrypt]

Just got food poisoning/stomach bug the day before thanksgiving,, fuck my stupid baka life

#my mom spent all day cooking and shes such a good cook but the smell of everything made me fucking yartz #mutliple times #I cant see my bf today bc of it and I was so so fucking hyped to. probably wont be able to see him tomorrow #holding out hope this is just a 24 hr bug please please god please im so miserable I just want to be able to kiss my sweet man and eat pie #tw emetophobia #tw emeto ment #dont rb Im just venting #and I was supposed to make pies too so thats more work my mama did for me ://// #i cant even keep water down right now

[hylianengineer]

If one more thing happens at work this week I will start crying

#i have like 5 things that all need done asap and then the pi messagese with two more things #hylian rambles #hylian does science #vent post

[campingwiththecharmings]

lol this lady isn't even a client and she's fucking demanding shit from me and just generally being a condescending bitch. like. ma'am, i understand that you're in a stressful situation, but this is not how you get people to help you out. kindly, go fuck yourself.

#'i need a company that does subrogation. do you know what that means?' #uhhhhhhh yeah i've been working for a PI lawyer for almost fucking 9 years #of course i know what subrogation is bitch #gtfo of here #fucking people man #sometimes i hate them #ignore me #just venting about my chosen profession ugh

[system-of-a-feather]

Honestly I'm tired of being "high functioning" and I'm tired of both "high/low" "functioning/supports needs". Its always treated as a black and white situation - its either "high functioning or not functioning" or "high support needs or no support needs"

And yeah I prefer the support needs label cause people with high support needs really fucking need that support, but it worsens the issue that "high functioning" also had which is just completely fucking neglecting to give anyone who superficially looks relatively functioning AT BEST little to no support.

I know its important for people who need it, but those labels have done nothing but been used as excuses to deny me access to any levels of support and honestly that anon while justified was kind of fucking triggering cause yeah, forgot. Me being in a really shit mental space and basically never having any support because I appear functioning wasnt the main point of my vent post, it was obviously me trying to claim shit for validation points cause of course, as someone who is high functioning, I couldnt possibly be just having a fucking mental breakdown and not thinking through my language fully.

Nah, too high functioning for that of course.

I'm so tired. So fucking tired.

I'm PAINFULLY aware that I am "high functioning".

#alter: riku #vent #vent tw #probably riku pi again of some sort #who knows #alter: riku pi

[chaotictomtom]

pas pole emploi qui doit envoyer des mails pour dire "svp arretez de nous solliciter autant on a remarqué une grosse augmentation de demande et questions concernant les indemnisations et vos droits pour genre vivre on comprend que vous voulez des réponses mais bon attendez tranquille jsp hihi ✨" 💀

#de l'augmentation de gens qui demandent des indemnités pour vivre et manger🤔🤔 bizarre #c'est de pire en pire les services d'aides #ils sont débordés parce que de plus en plus de personnes sont dans la grosse merde #et derrière y'a des services comme la mission locale où les conseillers depuis janvier 2023 reçoivent des refus pour TOUTES les demandes #d'aides d'urgence. ils ont également plus le droit de donner un billet de 20 quand la personne est dans la merde la plus totale pour manger #l'aide de la cej qui a remplacé la garantie jeune a encore changé et ne dure plus que SIX MOIS. si tu as le malheur de sortir de formation #avec la rfpe aka l'aide qu'on te donne de 500/mois parce que t'as ZERO revenu à côté bah pour la cej c'est trop 👍 #donc tu peux te faire niquer 2 mois d'aide sur les pauvres 6 mois de cej. si t'as un loyer a payer et genre. tu dois bouffer bah temps pis #derrière les services d'assistance sociale pareil tu sors de formation et t'as olus AUCUN revenu bah t'es trop haut dans les barèmes vu que #y'a ça prend sur TROIS MOIS en arrière ou purée tu gagne 500/mois c'est beaucoup trop en fait t'es riche à ce stade là #vraiment au bout du bout jamais on s'en sortira les pauvres j'ai juste plus une once d'espoir. #tomtom_is_rambling #tomtom_communique #je vent pour pas sauter du 3eme jvais pas vous mentir #jsuis fier que depuis pas mal de temps je relativise et arrive à tenir le coup malgré tout les bails mais là #là y'a plus rien qui me donne de l'espoir c'est fini pour de bon je pense. #oh well

[piefanart]

It's 3 in the morning on Christmas eve and I'm in a fight with my fiance because I've worked overtime this week at gamestop during the holiday rush and wanted to relax during Christmas. I got home at 10.30 at night and took an hour to relax before we started finishing cleaning the living room, only to come out of my room to find that he's started deep cleaning the dining room, kitchen, and his bedroom as well and now there's nowhere to go in the house and the living room is shoved full of everything from the rest of the house and I can't even cook dinner because he's got mattresses in the kitchen

And then

He accuses me of being lazy and not helping because I asked him to not do this at 3 in the morning ON CHRISTMAS EVE

Did I mention I go back to work for the next 8 days on the 26th??????

#pies ramblings #im so upset and he said im. a liar for saying i was tired from work #wtf is going on i just want to cry #or get a hotel for a bit #or both #vent

[tantei-armin]

I like where we are going.

Recently I've doewnloade this mobile app Love & Pies, and its a fun game, the graphics and artstyle are pretty and all, just like many others.

Here's the thing tho.

Th MC is divorced and meet he highschool sweet heart andbthey are falling in live, nothing out of the ordinary. The at some point the MC talks about her crush to her childhood girl besfriend and she talked to MC about her crush on the news lady. Just casually and MC decides to help her friend get a girfriend.

I know people will read this and think "So?". Thats exactly it! This a game any kid can download and play. We are normalizing having gay characters, despite the fuss from homophobes and the million moms, each day we are getting closer to a time where seeing a character in a game, movie or serie, insinuating they are gay just like straight people do, is not a big deal.

And to me thats absolutely wonderful.

I hope one day I dont have to hear people at work talking about how "I respect gay people but I dont want my kids to see gay stuff because what ifbthey become gay!", but instead hear someone say "my 5 yrs old son said he wants to marry his best boy friend, that was so cute!"

#love & pies #pride #just venting off #me

[mysticdragon3md3]

I remember when fandom used to be just a reliable shot of happiness straight into my brain. But all this fandom discourse is making me dread seeing posts about even my favorite characters. Maybe I need a different fandom.😥

#fandom #toxic fandom #please don’t pick a fight over this as i don’t have the emotional resiliency to deal with internet fights #fandom was supposed to soothe my anxiety #i should get back into kamen rider w since fuuto pi releasing #i should get back into persona 5 akiryu fandom #i should have stayed in datesana and akiryu #venting #please ignore my idiocy #lately I'm tempted to leave fe 3h fandom but i miss khalidMitya #dmcl000 #fe3hfuukasetsugetsu #KhalidMitya

[0m3g45n1p3r4lph4]

@staff show me the Last War ad one more time and you and I are gonna be going to a last war

#i wanna kill everyone involved with this game holy shit #generic mobile game no. 2049572929474758290174749 #except they bought out every fucking ad space on tumblr app #and alternate between gameplay footage #and one of those shitty “no trust me it's not a fake game bro” skits #with the obviously fake/rigged footage #characters moving without input #numbers counting irregularly despite constant interaction #these ads don't exist to sell a product #they exist to piss me off #vent #no joke if ai ended up working on one of these games for school I would've sabotaged the project the second I got the chance #fuck mobile game devs tbh #name one (1) not-ass not-scam mobile game in the modern day #I'm gonna build a pi-hole #fuck ads

[draiochteve]

On Writers and Devices

I feel like I'm allowed to be frustrated seeing the new freewrite model come out and how absolutely subpar it is. I'm sure the supporters are tired of people comparing freewrites to old word processor devices from back in the day, but the fact of the matter is the "distraction free writing device" existed decades ago. To retread ground and charging premium for once was common place is imo very disingenuous. The original freewrite had its selling point despite being over $600USD. It was fashioned to take inspiration from typewriters. So there was different materials put in and it's an indie company. The cost, while incredible, was also for the novelty. Now, we are back to the plastic, flat, rectangle word processor with the small screen and the old tech does it better. The major benefit of the Alpha is the cloud support. "Don't call it a word processor. It's a draft-" Please stop buying this bullshit. It's a word processor. One stripped to focus on free flow writing, but a word processor. Like the ones before it. Like the ones you can find second hand still in perfect condition for anywhere from $15-$75 USD. Ones that have more folders than it, better screen, better response time...sure, no cloud, but transferring is easy and data loss is incredibly rare. If the freewrite devices work for you, that's wonderful. But I have to ask if people are using them so much because they do their job well or if because they've sunk so much money in them they feel obligated to use them. Or is it now a brand name thing? Or is it the, "If I just had this, then I'd be able to finish my novel." Which in that case, hello fellow procrastinators.

#rant #vent #drai rambles #my Neo2 was $40 #meanwhile freewrites range from $350-$650 USD #and they all have these major bugs and shortcomings that just should not be there for the price #i'm kicking the hornet's nest here but truthfully #not to mention the silicon valley dudebros that are obsessed with this thing thinking it's something new #btw if you want something pocket sized #people make operating systems to just be word processors you can put on a pi #an ink reader screen or whatever you have #and just hook it up to a keyboard of your choosing #there are guides EVERYWHERE