#please please i just want ONE person to talk about the psych stuff

[fire-lizard-ro]

Woo~ Hope you're ready to read Mr. Sunday taking you…

Up the ass- Psych, mfs-

Bet you didn't expect that one from me, huh? I know I normally don't write bottom character, but... I felt like it? I want to see this man wrecked.

I'm writing for both bottom Sunday and top Sunday on this glorious- checks time moonlit (I haven't checked outside and idk what day it is today) night. A little birdy told me she wanted to see bottom Sunday first. Call yourself out if you wanna. 😂

CW: COCK JUMPSCARE- (jk), anal (I mean- come on you knew this), choking (+a little breath play y'all please be sure to make this distinction when talking about it ijsige-), edging, overstimulation, discussion of safe-wording, dom/sub stuff, mention of subspace, spanking, toys (there's an anal plug and cock ring), degradation (+praise), nipple play, harness???, bondage, collaring, slight public play, some subbing from Sunday and some power bottoming (but we'll be focusing on him subbing- it's only really mentioned), prone bone+cat position(that's what it's called, right???)+mating press, some namecalling (ex: praising - good boy, degrading - slut, etc., etc.), crying during sex (the good kind), marking, begging, dumbification, mention of being ashamed but liking it, belly bulge, slight cumflation/excessive cum, excessive lube, objectification(I think???), talk of his cock being useless (it's sex talk I swear reader doesn't mean it-), ever so slight gaping, cumming dry

Reader gender: Gender neutral, but you can envision what you want. Reader has a dick/strap and the cum can be uhhh- Lube? Is that what people put in squirting straps-

If I forgot to add anything to the CW or made any typos- Whoops. You can let me know if you wanna~

Personally, I think Sunday would be a switch. How he leans is up to you. But when he's topping, I see him being more prone to domming. Opposite can be said of when he's bottoming. More likely to sub, but does have his moments when he wants to take control again.

While I do love a good "turnabout is fair play", I think that considering Sunday's need to be in control (…the leaks told me so-), he needs a clean cut decision on what you'd be doing that night. If you've decided together that he'd be topping and domming, don't try to take over please- It'd probably fray his nerves and make him upset. This is because for him, I imagine that he'd need to mentally prepare himself and get in the mindset to sub. He loves giving up the control he holds onto so tightly, but he needs to remind himself that it's okay. That he can trust you and that you'll make him feel so, so good for his concession.

But by god is he a vision when he does slip into that submissive mindset.

It'd start with you two showering together after a long day of Sunday upholding the harmony of Penacony and dealing with any issues that arose to threaten that peace. It's both a way to wind down and to ease him into letting you take care of him and allowing him to slowly loosen his grasp on his control.

Soft touches and soothing words whispered in his ears between the sounds of water with gentle hands petting his wings has him melting into you. The stiff set of his shoulders, imperceptible to all but you, relaxes and the tension drains from his body along with the water as it swirls down the drain.

It is also now that you take out the plug he'd been wearing today while he was away from home. The night before, he'd just finished with you when you two took to the shower and you helped him clean up before stretching his pretty hole with lubed, insistent but gentle fingers. The plug went in nicely after that, the little jeweled heart of the plug's flared base in your color marking him as yours.

He hides behind his wings as you pull at the plug, the toy tugging at his rim that you trace with a playful finger. But of course you nose at them until he lets you in to kiss him soothingly, his wings then pressed to your cheeks to hide you both from the spray of the shower head and the rest of the world. It's just you two here and now. He would gasp a little as the plug slid out to the widest part of the toy. Thin and perfectly groomed eyebrows would furrow while you play with him a little. Push it back in carefully before slowly pulling it back to the wide part again a few times before finally bringing it out fully, rewarding him with "good boy" and "thank you for indulging me" and more kisses.

Once you both are finally in bed, that's when the fun begins.

You both go over the rules again. What to do if he ever wants to stop, reminding him that ultimately he is still in control because he controls if they stop or not. He's the efficient and straightforward type. Traffic light system along with three firm taps if he couldn't talk was enough for him. (Let it be known that when you started dating him, he was not at all aware of these things. I think he'd have been inexperienced to sex beyond vanilla beforehand.)

Tonight, you two were going to use a lot of implements (?). You laid them out, making sure that they were the same as the ones you discussed using prior (yes I think Sunday needs for you two to explicitly discuss beforehand and honestly I agree with him unless you like spontaneity) and going over what you'd do with them to recheck with him that he was okay with it. Consent is sexy, folks.

You then kiss him while fixing the collar on him, checking that it wasn't too tight. He liked using a collar when subbing because it helped him reach subspace and was something the two of you trained him to relax more with when subbing. Helps calm his constantly racing thoughts. The next step is the harness. It's a pretty pale blue-grey that matches his soft hair and is worn with his legs through it and over his hips. They're there for easier handling on your part. The fact that they accentuate his soft, shapely ass and strong thighs is a very welcome bonus. When you put it on for him, please make sure to kiss up his legs all the way to his hipbones while you pull up the harness you helped him step into. Nibble on said hipbones a bit and kiss his navel, near dangerously close to his neglected cock that twitched cutely at your proximity to it. Once that's done you can lube up his hard-on with one cursory tug in order to slip on the cock ring. He won't be getting any more than that for most of the night.

You then have him on him hands and knees so you can get him in position and bind him. Tonight would be a simple set of padded cuffs. You would push between his shoulder blades to guide him to press his chest to the bed, leaning down to kiss down his spine while pulling his hands gently pull his hands behind his back to put the cuffs on. Be sure to praise him for being a good boy, for doing so well for you as you prepared him for the night.

Once that's done, press one more kiss to his body. This time on the top curve of his soft ass before lubing him up some more. It's never bad to be safe about things and there's more than enough chance that he needs more as it dried throughout the day.

Tease him by purposefully tapping on his prostate softly while making sure he's stretched enough and wet with lube coating his inner walls that clenched around your skilled fingers.

Keep going until he finally asks you in a small voice to get on with it. "Hm? What was that?" "You heard me-" "Only good boys get what they want and good boys ask for what they want." You aren't going to make him beg for it (yet), but you'll still make him ask for it like the good, polite boy you know he is.

(Okay we're switching styles here, folks.)

"F-fine… Please fuck me," Sunday said, words trailing of into a mumble. You knew what he was saying, but you didn't really hear it. "What was that? Couldn't hear you, baby." "I-" he angled his head to glare back at you with traces of a pout tugging at his lips. He then turned again to avoid your eyes that took in his face, pressed to the bed and needy. "…please fuck me." "Was that so hard, pretty boy? Since you asked…" You slipped your fingers out slow, letting him feel the drag of them against his sensitive walls as he gave a shuddering sigh. Sunday had attempted to keep it under wraps, but it still slipped out.

Your chuckle caused him to flush more, a wing attempting to hide his face despite you being unable to see it from this spot behind him.

As you slicked up your cock, you watched his hole twitch and cock sway as he unconsciously sunk his hips back more as if to ask you for your thick length in his hungry, empty hole. "Aeons you have the prettiest ass, you know that?" You then finally line yourself up, the head of your dick pressing to the still tight but prepped hole's rim as you slide your hands down the man's sides to grasp his hips before sliding fingers into the straps of the harness that cradled his slim hips.

The angelic man beneath you held his breath in anticipation for a moment. "Breathe, baby." And then you were pushing in, slowly spearing open that wet warmth. He gasped and jolted, but your hand was quick to hold him down by the back of his neck while the other kept an iron grip on the harness to keep his hips steady. A whine escaped Sunday as he attempted to close his legs at the delicious sensation of your cock sliding deep into him- Up to the hilt. Once you bottomed out, he was already panting like he was in heat and his wings that had flared and flexed while you had been pushing inside drooped to rest on the bed.

Your cock was so big- So deep in him he swore he could feel it in the back of his throat, his own cock drooling messily onto previously clean sheets where it hung between his legs. It throbbed as he finally had a clear enough mind to remember the cock ring you'd fastened onto his needy dick. "Such a good slut for me, taking everything." He felt a bold of shame, yet it made his cheeks redden with more than shame. Arousal. As he felt mixed feelings of pleasure and shame swirling in his gut, he also then felt something else in there- Your cock grinding heavily, steadily into him with hips rubbing against his plush ass.

Sunday allowed himself to lean into the pleasure you provided, hips moving back into your slow but strong humps forward. Your cock was sliding over his prostate so nicely and it had him closing his eyes to focus in on it. The arch of his back deepened, emphasizing the lean musculature of his back and bringing out the little dimples above his ass as you leaned forward to put more your weight into your grinding. The pressure inside him and on his neck had his eyes fluttering along with his wings. A moan startled out of him when you proceeded to nibble on said wings, teeth gently nibbling along the fragile bone in the first bend of the feathery appendage. Your hand moved from its spot holding the back of Sunday's neck to press him face first into the bedding moved to instead wrap around his throat, turning him towards you so you could steal a sloppy kiss from him. It was filthy and wet, the sounds of it joining the wet squelch and the slight sound of skin on skin as you began to thrust. His whine was swallowed up by your mouth and when you pulled back he looked a bit dazed, uncomprehending eyes looking at the string of saliva between your lips and his that was promptly licked away by your sinful tongue.

"So good- Such a good boy, yeah? You're all mine aren't you?" He was deep enough in that he just nodded at he tried to rearrange his thoughts. That idea was de-railed when you thrust hard and spanked his ass with the hand not holding his throat, grip tightening enough to make him a bit lightheaded. "Words, harlot. Tell me how you're mine- How good I make you feel." The name made him feel deliciously ashamed of how he was really letting someone push him down and fuck him like a whore. But aeons did he love it. He managed to get out in between panting breaths a, "So good so good please- 'M all yours-" "That's a good cockslut. But just for me right?" "Just for you-"

You rewarded him by speeding up your thrusts, slowly ramping up how hard you fucked into his clenching heat that pushed out lube with every push in- You had made sure to use a lot so he would have to hear the obscene sound of your fucking him and dominating him. His moans became louder along with it, a whimper escaping him when your thrusts forced his hips to the bed. His once neglected cock now lay trapped between him and then bed as yours wrecked him and claimed him. He began babbling about how it felt, how it was like you were in his belly how it was too much not enough please please- Sunday was begging, now, with his drooling mouth, hole, and cock.

"I didn't know toys were supposed to speak- Especially when not spoken to." Your hand tightened around his neck again, this time pressing so it made it a bit harder for him to breathe. "Shhhh- Just be quiet and take it, pretty baby. I'll make you feel good. Make you forget all those troublesome thoughts. Don't you wanna be my dumb little slut? Only focus on taking my cock?" Yeah… he did. He wanted to let go of all the thoughts making his head hurt and give in, even if just for a little while. You'd taken care of him before. Now wasn't any different.

Even through the grip on his throat, he still let out little "ah- ah- ah-" sounds to the rhythm of your hips slapping into his ass, pushing your cock into his deepest parts. Yet you made it feel so good- It didn't hurt at all. All he could think about was how filthy he was and how pleasurable it was. Sunday must have tried to wheeze something out despite everything because you said, "Yeah? You like being dirty for me? A filthy slut for be behind closed doors while in public you act like such a proper leader? What would your dear people think of you if they knew you got fucked like a used prostitute- a mere toy?" You then let go of his throat to let him speak, the air rushing into his lungs making his head spin. "I- I love it! Love it so much please please lemme cum lemme cum on your cock-!"

Another spank to his ass had his hole tightening around you, a cry being startled out of him and tears beading at his lash line. "Good boy-" You then slowed a bit, causing him to whine despite how he had been held on edge for a while, now. Still wanting the bright hot pleasure despite the agony of being denied his release. "Color, baby?" "Mmmf- Green-" "Good boy-" A kiss was pressed to a wing before you harshly thrusted in and went back to pounding him within an inch of his life. Every thrust forced his body up and down the bed, cock an angry red and leaking profusely. Sunday buried his face into the pillow, tears staining them as they came faster. "Please- Let me cum, please! I'll do anything!" "Anything?"

Maybe that was a mistake.

One that had you yanking your dick out of his hole, the greedy thing clenching around nothing as if missing your cock in it. He whined pitifully, tears staining his face as he sobbed into the bedding. Fuck did he sound good. You uncuffed him to flip him over, tossing the things somewhere to the side of the bed. He was unable to keep up with the sudden changes and before he knew it, you were pressing his thighs to his chest in a mating press, cock sliding up and down his own teasingly. "Such a big cock and yet you don't even know how to use it. It's just a big, dumb, useless thing hanging between your legs. All you need is this slutty hole of yours, right?" Your thumb came down to rub at the slightly gaped hole, smearing the lube even more over his sloppy pucker that twitched at your touch.

He hid his face with his wings, flushed and crying as you belittled his cock. He was only good as an anal slut for you. But his wings flared open as he felt a sharp pain in his shoulder. You had sunk your teeth into the spot in reprimand and to mark your toy as yours. "What did I say about that? No hiding." He whimpered and nodded- A spank. "Words." "I won't hide anymore!" "Good toy."

Once you slid in, his mind went blank again. Though somewhere deep in the back of his mind, he noted- Oh. You were in his belly. There on the otherwise flat surface that scrunched up from his position, was the slight bulge of your cock in his guts. "Look at you- So pretty." You pressed on it, making him toss his head back with a pitchy moan, hips jerking under you and insides clenching wetly at the dick they were sucking on while his hands flew up to claw at your back desperately. As you leaned over him to lick into his mouth, you then reached one hand between you to slip off the cockring. "You wanted to cum- So cum." You immediately began a brutal pace that had him screaming as he finally was able to find his release, hurtling off that cliff and vision going white as he emptied his cum onto his stomach and yours, the pressure of having held it in so long and the angle of your mating press- The jerking of his hips from you shoving your deliciously big dick into his hungry little hole forcing his cum to splatter over his chest and on his neck and even wings. It was like a sinful angel was laying beneath you.

You slowed, then, and he let his breathing begin to even out. But it was an act of deception because you transferred his legs from your hold to over your shoulders and grabbed hold of his softened cock that laid on his cum covered belly to begin fucking him hard. He screamed and whimpered at the onslaught of now almost painful pleasure. "Wait no no no- Can't- Too much! Stop please I can't cum again-" "I know you can. You've done it before. Come on- Give me another one. Haven't even filled you up, yet."

He began crying even harder, tears blurring his vision as he panted and whimpered while his thoughts slipped away. Even as his mind went blank, his body still responded with his hips jerkily trying to meet your thrusts even as the twitched in overstimulation. Later he would glare at you with tears in his eyes and a pout while declaring that he would be in charge the next time he bottomed and would hold you down, instead, to take what he wanted. But for now, he could only let his hole be used as a warm, wet little cock sleeve. He choked on his drool as you bent him further so you could lean down to tongue his sensitive nipples, sucking bruises and hickeys into his chest and even right around his nipples- Going as far as to nibble on them.

It felt like hours of cumming and cumming and cumming and losing his mind as you fucked him and wrung out every drop of his spend and pleasure as you could along with the tears that still poured from his puffy eyes. It didn't help that he could feel the way you were filling him up with your own cum, having only orgasmed the second time he did. He was cumming dry when you finally slowed, kissing him gently and rubbing at his slightly distended belly that was full of your cum sloshing inside.

"Did so good for me, baby. I love you so much- Such a good boy for me." You helped him slowly come back down, helping to ground him as the high faded. You had slowly lowered his legs from your shoulders. This was why you always ended facing each other. So he could have that intimacy towards the end of seeing you and being able to kiss you. And so you could help him return to earth Penacony after you were done milking the cum and pleasure and pesky thoughts out of him.

Once he was back with you, you made sure to praise him more and kiss him all over his face before finally coming back to his lips to kiss him slow and deep. "Come on. Gotta drink water, birdie." You always made sure to help him up, let him lean against you as you began aftercare. "I love you," you would remind him at the end of it all. "I love you, too darling," he would always reply back, sealing it with a kiss.

Ah yes. Another round of: Roro writes entirely to much and with far too much detail. I made this one even longer and more detailed as well as included a bunch of writing in more story format rather than headcanon-ish form like I normally do. Because I'm back in business!!! (To write smut about hot characters I like-)

Hope you enjoyed~

-Roro, your friendly neighborhood degenerate

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[moonlightsolo]

you

wc: 1.5k

pairing: eddie munson x female reader

warnings: drug use, no spoilers except for eddie, heavy kissing, v suggestive, implied smut, eddie in a pure panic, slight use of y/n

a/n: this fic is based on the text that @kylie-writes-stuff posted. i hope i did it justice. go to the end to see the actual text its based off of :)

eddie paces in his living room, rubbing his hands over his face as pure panic settles in his chest, “what the shit, what the shit, what the shit.” he mutters to himself. 

he just got back from hanging out the one and only, you. something switched inside of his brain, or maybe it was yours. maybe you’re the culprit that’s making him feel this way. or maybe, just maybe you did some reverse psychology shit on him. 

the way you were looking at him while you both were smoking. it was like you wanted to eat him up right then and there. you got so close to kissing him, and he got so close to kissing you.

he plays the scene over and over in his head. he brought the weed, he rolled a blunt for you and went to leave- like he usually does. 

but you asked him to stay. to stay. 

he couldn’t pass up smoking with you in your car. the most desired girl in hawkins- who seemed to never give anyone attention outside of your few friends. nobody knows anything about you, the new girl who moved across the country to indiana. 

maybe his own weed was laced with something, that’s why he’s feeling this way. 

you talked to him, had full conversations about each other’s family’s, laughed and joked around, finished the blunt, then your hand slid onto his thigh. yes, in that exact order. and then you looked up at him through your eyelashes with a look he couldn’t comprehend. one that made him sweat. 

he’s had girlfriends before, but no girl has made him feel this way. his heart instantly started thumping rapidly against his ribs, your perfume overtaking his senses. before you could get any closer, he turns away from your advances. now staring out the window with his chest heaving and his breath fogging up the glass. he quickly makes up an excuse that he needed to go to another deal and got the hell out of there.

don’t get him wrong, he wanted to kiss you. you’re drop dead gorgeous, mysterious and your smile makes him swoon. he just can’t decipher if you felt the same way about him. 

he decides to call you, dialing your number and hanging up a few times as he psychs himself out. “god, just fucking do it already. don’t be a pussy.” he sighs to himself.

the phone dials in his ear as he leans against the wall, breathing heavily. 

“hello?” your sweet honey-like voice speaks into his ear. it makes him swoon.

“heyyyyy youuuu. it’s eddie.” he draws out his words and chuckles nervously.

“oh! hey eddie.” your voice perks up. 

“so i just wanted to like let you know that you need to find a new weed guy….”

“oh… okay?” you mumble disappointedly. 

“i just can’t see you anymore… uhhhmmm… it’s nothing personal, i swear. i just can’t fall in love right now and you’re like everything i love so if i see you again i will never let go of your hand.” he rambles nervously, his heart is beating so fast he thinks he might have a heart attack. 

the silence from your side is sickening, it seems like an eternity until he hears a little giggle. 

“eddie…” you breathe out humorously. 

“y/n….?” he questions nervously. 

“i think you’re already in love.” you say softly, trying to hold back your laughter. 

“i think so too.” he lets out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. 

“can i come over?” you ask him innocently. 

“please.” he almost begs. 

“i’ll be there.” you chirp excitedly before hanging up. 

once the phone cuts out, he hangs it back up on the wall. eddie looks around his place, just now realizing how messy it is. he scurries around, clumsily gathering all the trash in his arms to bring it to the garbage can. 

“fuck, fuck, fuck. holy shit.” he curses to himself as he vigorously scrubs the dishes in the sink. once he’s finished in the kitchen, he goes to his bathroom to brush his teeth. 

then there’s a knock on his door. his head snaps into the hallway, foamy toothpaste on the corners of his mouth. “i’ll be right there!” he screams out in a panic before spitting and rinsing. he jogs up to the door, smoothing down his shirt before swinging the door open. 

you’re standing there, as beautiful as always, with a sweet smile on your face. “hey.” 

his face drops and eyes widen as he steps to the side to let you in. “hey…” he breathes out with a nervous little grin. 

he closes the door behind you as you stand awkwardly in the middle of his living room. he wants to reach out and touch your hair, and your hips... you look so soft everywhere.

then you turn to face him, the same look on your face from in your car. you hesitatingly take a step towards him, your hand lifting to wipe the corner of his mouth off. “toothpaste.” you mumble and his hands instinctively pull you closer. his ring adorned fingers rest heavy on the dip of your waist. 

“can i redo that whole awkward disaster that happened in your car and kiss you now?” he mutters out, so close to you he can smell your shampoo lingering in your hair. all you can do is nod. 

your arms lazily drape around his neck, one of them make a home against his jawbone as he leans down to capture your lips with his. 

he tastes like mint with a hint of the drugs you were smoking earlier. his nose slots next to yours, tongue swiping against your plump bottom lip. you gladly open your mouth to allow him to deepen the kiss.

pure ecstasy erupts in your body from his gentle touches. his fists grip your shirt covering your waist, until he pulls away slightly to take a deep breath. 

you catch his lust blown eyes for a moment before he dives back in for more, a little smirk crawling onto his lips and pressing into yours.

one of your hands run down his neck to rest on his chest, your fingers grip the soft fabric there in case he would pull away. you cannot get enough of him. whether it’s the drugs still in your system, or you’re just completely and utterly obsessed with him.  

his pillowy lips fit amazingly against yours, moving expertly as if he’s knows your body perfectly. you have to pull back to take a little breath of your own, before lunging in for more. “woah, woah. easy there, tiger,” he stops you for a moment, his eyes taking in the sight in front of him. 

eddie looks over your raw, swollen lips. his hand carefully moves up your body to swipe his thumb against your bottom lip as he cups your cheek. his big brown eyes trace over yours, noticing the slight glitter from your eye makeup that sits on your eyelids. 

he almost moans from how you look up at him obscenely through your perfect eyelashes that frame your eyes, “i can’t get enough of you.” his voice is hushed as he leans forward to kiss your top lip, then moving to your bottom one. 

“just so you know… i’m also in love with you.” you say into kiss, your breath hitching from your own confession. his lips travel from the corner of your lips, following your jawline and down to your collarbone. you can feel a smile on his face whenever his lips make contact with your skin. 

your hand pushes through his fluffy hair, biting back a moan that threatens to escape your mouth when his teeth nip at you. “i’m glad you feel the same way. you make me really nervous.” he chuckles softly against your warm skin. the feeling of his breath makes a shiver travel down your spine. 

you just hum nervously in response before he swiftly picks your body up. his hands rest right beneath your butt, sitting you on top of a table near his kitchen. now the same height, his eyes travel over your face with a cocky grin on his lips. 

“so… can you still be my weed guy?” you lean back on your hands, a sly smirk on your own face.

eddie can’t help but cackle, throwing his head back- leaving you with a perfect view of his neck and adam’s apple. 

“why of course. how could i not give in to your perfect lil face? an ounce here! an ounce there!” he flails his arms eccentrically before cupping both of your cheeks, squishing them gently so your lips made a fish-like face. you can’t help but laugh at him as he leans in for another kiss.

“seriously. it’s about damn time. i’ve dropped hints every time we would meet up and you were so fucking oblivious.” you mumble against his lips, and he pulls back to look at you as you continue, “tomorrow at school. you’re holding my hand, and you don’t have to ever let go.” 

his eyes stare into yours before glancing down at your lips, “i like the sound of that.” he leans back in to kiss you some more, “god. i seriously cannot get enough of you.” 

you could say this night went down in history of waking up every single one of eddie’s neighbors. (poor max!)

and when you walk into hawkins high school the next day with eddie’s hand in yours, it stirs up gossip amongst your fellow students. 

especially because you’re obviously wearing one of his hellfire club shirts. 

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here's the text this was based off of lol ^

#eddie munson #eddie munson x oc #eddie munson x you #eddie munson x henderson!reader #eddie munson x reader #stranger things x oc #stranger things x y/n #stranger things x reader #stranger things #stranger things season 4 #joseph quinn

[system-of-a-feather]

Man, this will go a bit into syscourse probably, but I was just watching Monkey Man and it really had me thinking (and internally groaning) about how gender "weirdness" is really something that is not weird at all in a lot of non-white non-european cultures. Shiva in Hinduism is a great example.

It's just when you get weird white people who come in and say "well you see, my understanding of gender is actually correct and the right way to think and talk about gender and I am inherently the most correct and right and smartest way of talking about gender and everyone else is just a cultural / spiritual game and should stay within their culture because its wrong but we 'respect' it and let it be wrong"

And it really got me internally ranting about how honestly - and I was trying to be a bit subtle about this cause I know it'd probably get back lash - but as a person of color from a culture and spirituality / philosophy that has plurality and variants of it normalized - the fact that people claim that the only way a person could experience themselves as more than one being due to trauma really really upsets me, because its a very white / western / european way of thinking about the concept of self, identity, personhood, and the soul.

In some cultures, people are understood as inherently many or inherently parts of a whole. It is just something that is just a part of the culture - may that be subtly and in a non-spoken manner, or in a more direct manner in the way that animism and buddhism talks about it. People can and do experience themselves as more than one and have been doing so since long before people were really aware of what psychology even was.

The fact that people talk about how individuals experience themselves inherently in a white, western, euro-centric cultural perspective that writes off "not identifying as one singular person" as something that HAS to come from trauma just really.... kinda pisses me off.

And if the argument is "well they shouldn't be called a system cause its a totally different thing than what people with DID / OSDD have" like... really, why are we getting so hot and bothered over the fucking word "system" and two... I can't delineate where my DID and my cultural plural-adjacent experiences begin and end. And also three, if we are getting so protective over the word "system" then why aren't we getting mad at the guy who developed IFS too??

It's also just so frustrating that people look at people who identify as more than one and inherently go "oh they are only doing this because they looked at my disorder and said they wanted it" when??? no??? Sure there are some I'm sure, but again, this is something people have been experiencing for centuries - hell more than a millenia.

As someone with DID / OSDD, I get the need for protecting the medical label and the diagnosis and all that because yes, while the psych system sucks, the medical labels are medical to get help, aid, and all sorts of stuff - absolutely.

But going around stating that anyone that experiences themselves as more than one is inherently either traumatized or maliciously lying and trying to actively co-opt a disorder is just.... ugh. Not it.

Please consider that there are other cultures and perspectives to identity, self, and spirit that impact how one identifies and engages with their own existence before you start sounding like a colonizer.

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Anti-endos are welcome to respectfully discuss and engage.

Arguments and debates are not welcome and will be blocked.

This is partially me venting about white / western people. Do with this as you will.

#alter: fei #alter: riku #syscourse #syscourse tw #vent #vent tw #pro endo #endo friendly #endo safe

[fandomshatepeoplewdisabilities]

NHS hospitals refused intensive care treatment to disabled people with COVID "« Do Not Resuscitate » notices were placed on the medical files of many people with Down’s syndrome, autism & other learning disabilities who were otherwise healthy before contracting the virus" "Six out of 10 people who died from Covid between March and July 2020 were disabled, according to the ONS" inews co uk/news/politics/thousands-of-disabled-people-died-after-covid-treatment-withheld-inquiry-to-probe-2970333

Now, someone who is physically disabled/immunocompromized please chime in so that there is a full picture, I can only talk from my perspective of a mentally ill autistic but (mostly, if you count the rather extreme side effects of my psych medication) able bodied person.

Its just so horrific, and I hate how mainstream media refuses to talk about it, or treats this as something necessary.

Yes, I get it, triage and hard decisions and stuff... but this is still pure eugenics and should be called out as such. Its not even that a neurodivergent person is inherently more likely to have complications or die from Covid, which still would be fucking disgusting and ableist and eugenics but at least somewhat, for the lack of better words, and I hate using this word, understandable. Not justified, but understandable in a disturbing way.

I am not surprised at all that this happened, and I am not surprised at all that NHS now, as families against their expectations rally against them, deleted at least some of the documents from the internet. This rethoric that disabled people are disposable and do not deserve saving/medical intervention was already there before the pandemic. The pandemic just highlighted it in a utterly horrific way.

I think that was what fucked me up the most about the pandemic. Not the lockdowns, the lack of structure, the fear, the uncertainty. But not just having this vague hint my abled neurotypical family denied that I am disposable, that I am not seen as worth living, but the absolute certainty that at least for these kind of doctors, I am.

Abled neurotypicals will never understand what that does to a person. Just how painful that is.

It also found that there were “serious concerns that individuals’ human rights – to be involved in DNACPR decisions about themselves or their families – were potentially being breached in more than 500 cases across the adult social care services”, which would have been a breach of the Equality Act.

No shit Sherlock. But that hits the mark. We're not human for these kind of people. Yes, it is an extreme situation, but it still showed that.

I remember some exchange rather at the beginning of the pandemic, somewhen in the first lockdown, that really messed me up. I was posting about this exact situation, and how painful it was to me as a disabled person, and some person claiming to being an essential worker attacked me that I don't understand the kind of hard choices doctors have to make and that I am selfish and disgusting for complaining about it.

So disabled people wanting to live is selfish. Denying them necessary medical care is just the logical extreme of this.

It also reminds me at the darkest part of Germanys history. "Nicht lebenswertes Leben" ("live unworthy of life") being applied to disabled people so that they could either be denied medical care or outright killed. Of course there wasn't the same intention behind this, but definitely the same kind of reasoning.

Haven't heard about this kind of policies being used here in Germany, but I wouldn't be surprised at all. If anyone knows more information of how this was handled in other countries, please comment.

Now, I bet there will be some abled neurotypicals lecturing me of how I just don't understand triage and how dire the situation was, and how selfish I am, but honestly, I am tired.

And mind you, I am "just" mentally ill and autistic, I don't even have any condition that makes a Covid infection more risky. There's been so many posts about how utterly society failed immunocompromized and chronically ill people during the pandemic and still fails them today. What they suffered is not even comparable to me. So yeah, please add your perspective if the latter describes you.

-Mod Tallys

#Covid #covid pandemic #eugenics #ableism #medical malpractice #neurodivergence #actually autistic #down syndrome

[someverygaymoth]

MASTER POST!

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Now that I've mentioned keyword filters— here's what I write vs don't write!

I write angst, violence, hurt/comfort, gore, all that good stuff.

I've written twincest(shout-out to Dreammare)(not defending this one at all, this was whore activity, and honestly if you're shipping this while riding on the technicality that they're not really brothers you have some shit to sort out because homie this is still just twincest, but I do question whether this counts as twincest due to them being one spirit split in two and popped out of a tree, so like, take that as you will)

I'm not comfortable writing any parent/child stuff but no shade if you do, I usually don't like any OG fontcest stuff either it's just hard for me to digest but again no shade.

I've written stuff about anxiety, depression, schizophrenia, disability, all sorts of trauma, lots of that.

I won't talk about the kinks I write and don't write on here but oh readers there are many yesses, maybes, and hard nos to be found there, I assure you. And again, write or read, no shade.

Uhh honestly I think that's all I have, which is kinda L, maybe I need to step up my dark fiction game if this is all I've got. (It can get so much worse and istg I will write worse stuff to spite anyone who's tossing around hate like it's confetti. And I'll tag it properly so they don't have to see it if it makes them uncomfortable. I'm just cool like that.)

(Oh btw if you're not tagging your stuff properly or make a fuss about tagging things when someone tells you that you didn't tag something properly, you and me ain't cool. Nothing about that is okay. I will never fuss about someone asking me to add a tag, if I EVER miss something please tell me, I will happily add tags for you and keep them in mind for next time.)

About me↓↓

I have been writing for about four and a half years now for the fandom, and I've been here since about the very beginning. I started posting my writing back in early 2021. It's been so wonderful to see this fandom grow and change, blossoming with many fun aus and beautiful ideas, and I hope I can contribute to many more beautiful ideas on my little corner of the internet.

I have some physical health problems that may make it difficult for me to post more regularly, but I will do my best!

#The Retriver Institute #undertale fandom #ut au #undertale sans #undertale au #KD!AU

[trans-axolotl]

for anon asking about NPD/ASPD resources

For context, anon sent in an ask searching for nonstigmatizing resources for support with PD diagnoses and other stigmatized diagnoses.

And this is such a good ask--it is so fucking frustrating and dehumanizing to try to search for support when half the stuff that pops up is using really cruel language or just directed towards family and friends. The community definitely deserves better, both when it comes to the way psych professionals perpetuate stigma and in regards to the prejudice and sanism that shows up in other communities in our lives. Unfortunately, I don't have a ton of resources on hand, although I do know one good support group. The rest of the resources I know of are kind of mediocre or not PD specific, so if other people could add on I would really, really appreciate it!

Neuromancers runs a discord and a Cluster B peer support group that I've heard really good things about. I haven't been myself, so I can't 100 % vouch, but they're a group with abolitionist and mad pride values.

This might not be exactly what you're looking for, but it's an article exploring cultural bias in PD diagnosis that links to a lot of sources that talk about how psychiatry contributes to stigma around personality disorders. I clicked through some of the studies that it links to and it does use a lot of medicalized language, but I thought I would link the article anyway in case it's ever helpful to have academic sources to show to other people.

Also not exactly what you're looking for, but another article debunking some of the common talking points about NPD in pop psychology (Content warning that it is discussing some very ableist myths in the context of challenging them)

Last sort of general resources for peer support that I have some trust that they are PD friendly are the Wildflower Alliance and Hearing Voices Network Groups. Wildflower alliance groups offer a lot of different general peer support and I have one friend with NPD who has spoken positively of those spaces. Hearing Voices Network groups can vary a lot depending on location, so defintely plan to email ahead, but I've been to a few groups that welcome people who generally identify as psych survivors/mad/ex patients who want to share community spaces around those values. Also want to share is the neurodivergent friendly workbook of DBT skills (the link is to buy it directly from the creator but if anyone who is interested can't afford it rn, dm me and I'll send you a pdf.) Again, I know this is really not super relevant to what you asked for but is one of the less stigmatizing, less medicalizing workbooks I can find for accessing info about coping skills and this is one of my general favorite support resources.

Overall I'm really sorry that I don't have better resources to offer you, and I think that really should be a sign to the mad pride/psych abolition/peer support community that we need to do a lot better job in making sure that our spaces are explicitly welcome to people with stigmatized PD diagnoses. The work shouldn't have to be on you to try to navigate these spaces and figure out whether or not you're welcome, and any spaces that offer peer support, are aligned with mad pride and psych abolition, really should be doing the work to make sure lateral violence and sanism aren't being perpetuated.

followers, esp followers with lived experience, please add on!

#antipsych #psych abolition #mad studies #mad pride #cluster b #npd #aspd #spent a bit of time looking through my clinical databases as well but could not easily find any articles #that weren't fucking awful #also to clarify: i have lived experience being diagnosed with a cluster b personality disorder #but don't currently identify with that diagnosis or really interact in a lot of pd specific spaces or know #tons about what community preferences and community consensus on things r #so this is def something where i would love input from people with relevant lived experience!

[gatorbites-imagines]

May i ask a evan Macmillan (the trapper) from dbd, a nsfw and sfw Headcannon with a male s/o please? ( make us the dominant one 😉)

Evan MacMillan

Nsfw and sfw alphabet

Typically, id only do one alphabet, but I really love Evan, so I decided to write both, though in the future I most likely just do one. You guys can tell I see Evan as a big softy lmao.

Sfw alphabet

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

I believe Evan isn’t super open or obvious with his affection, especially in the beginning of your relationship. Seeing as hes from the past as well, he might be hesitant to show you affection if you are both men, but he would warm up over time. He shows his affection mainly through actions instead of words, like bringing you gifts, holding your hand, hugging, etc.

 B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

If you are a survivor the friendship would take a long time to brew, seeing as most of your interactions are a game of life or death, but maybe you slowly start to grow closer little by little, I’m not sure how though. Maybe you talk to him when hes carrying you to the hooks or smth. As another killer you might get closer between trials, it would work best if you had a more chill personality or knew how to just have a normal conversation.

 C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

I think Evan would be kinda awkward and tense in the start of a relationship when it comes to cuddling, again especially if you are another man. It would take a while, but he would warm up to it. Evan is the little spoon no matter your size, and if he isn’t the little spoon he will lay with his head on your chest.

 D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

There are times when Evan dreams of a life outside of the trials, though he knows its pointless. He can’t help but imagine a life settled on a farm together with you. Maybe some animals, adopt a few kids maybe. He is shy about it, but he likes the idea of being a homebody, doing the “womanly” tasks like cooking or cleaning. It would be relaxing compared to his past.

 E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

I think it would depend on why you break up. If it just isn’t working out, he would hesitate for a while but in the end just quietly tell you when you were alone. If it was something like cheating or something bad, I think he would just growl and snap and tell you it was over and target you specifically during trials.

 F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

I think part of Evan has always wanted to get married and settle down. But his life up until now has made it pretty impossible to marry, from working with his dad to now being a killer in the fog. He can’t help but think about the two of you wearing matching rings though. I don’t think hes the type to settle quickly, he would want to make sure you were actually compatible in the long run.

 G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Evan could be a pretty gentle lover, it stems from him being a killer and using violence most of the time during trials and pre coming to the fog. So he would want to be gentle with his partner, he might even treat you like glass in the beginning until you reassure him its fine.

 H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Evan hasn’t gotten a lot of hugs in his life, so hes always kinda stuff or awkward when you hug him but he does enjoy hugs. His hugs are a little awkward but hes got the spirit.

 I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

You would most likely say I love you first, and it makes Evan blush. He would have to psyche himself up to say it, and when he does, he mutters it or whispers it between kisses or during cuddling.

 J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Evan isn’t the most jealous out of the killers, which doesn’t say a lot cuz have you seen the killers? He doesn’t like when anyone flirts with you or gets too comfortable with you though, and he will start glaring and targeting whoever was getting too close during trials and drawing it out as much as possible. I could see him as someone who will leave hickeys or bitemarks on visible parts of your body when really jealous. Or scratch marks on your back, whatever you’re into.

 K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Evan would love kissing. In the beginning of the relationship, he would be shy about it especially between the two of you since you are both men. But when he’s warmed up to it I think he is the kind that loves to kiss the back of your hand or your shoulder. He likes when you lean in and kiss him through his mask, you can even use it as a distraction during trials.

 L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Hes kinda awkward around kids, seeing as there weren’t many kids around during his past and no kids in the fog. Hes got the spirit though and tries his best.

 M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Evan wakes up bright and early like a good ol boy, no matter how late you’ve gone to bed. If you arent a morning person he would tuck you back in and go around his routine, hed make some breakfast and if it’s a lazy morning bring it to you in bed so you guys can spend some extra time together. If there isn’t time for that he would go about waking his body up for trails and getting in the right mood for it.

 N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

It depends, if hes busy with trials he would just come back and go to sleep, even forgetting to wash up sometimes. If you both have time expect cuddling, maybe reading a book together or similar.

 O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

It takes a good while for Evan to start opening up about his past, but that’s to be expected. He would be scared of chasing you away with his past, he fears that learning about it plus him being one of the killers during the trial would make you leave him.

 P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

It depends. If its outside of trials and whatnot I think Evan has a lot of patience and he is always open to talk. During trials or towards anybody but you I think hes got a lot less patience and can easily snap and go beserk.

 Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Evan remembers a lot of things about you, as he feels its important to know his partner. Of course he doesn’t remember everything but he tries his best.

 R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

It would be the first time he took his mask off for you, after the two of you have been together for a long time. You wouldn’t have reacted badly at all to seeing him, just cradled his face in your hands and kissed him softly. It would make him feel handsome and loved.

 S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He is very protective of you and anything of his, he would target other survivors if they were a bother to you, and if a killer is going after you specifically every trial, he would corner them too. Evan would also like to be protected sometimes, he didn’t know this until you almost tore another survivor a new asshole for insulting Evan a whole lot for no reason.

 T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He wouldn’t go over the top or anything, he would bring you to a nice place in the woods or somewhere for dates or anniversaries, and gifts would be small things like a pocket knife to protect yourself, or a wood figure he carved.

 U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He had a lot of self-hate or disgust with himself, especially his appearance. He would struggle with depressive thoughts or self-destructive thoughts. Evan would also doubt your love for him at times, he doesn’t mean too but it happens.

 V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

I think part of him finds himself very ugly and maybe not worth your attention, so it would take some affection and reassurance from you to help him not feel as disgusted with himself.

 W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Yes to a degree, not as much as others would feel. He can easily go a couple of days without seeing you but he does miss you, but its not that it stops him from going about his life.

 X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Evan makes a mean pie, like its to die for. Some of the other killers he gets along with will invade your place if Evan bakes it, theyre like bloodhounds able to smell it through the fog to wherever they are,

He loves dogs, anything from tiny dogs he can hold in his palm to big dogs the size of a small horse. If the two of you ever get out of the trials and the fog he will definingly want a dog.

 Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

A horrible and manipulative personality. He wouldn’t date a partner who’s quick to judge and shit on others, especially if you’re the kind to focus on things like appearance or to insult someone based on their past, like traumas and things like that. He doesn’t care much for looks but personality is important to him.

 Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

He doesn’t sleep a lot, though I don’t think anyone in the fog does tbh. He curls up into a ball when hes having a bad sleep, but when hes comfortable he sprawls out like a starfish and takes of the entire bed.

 Nsfw alphabet

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Evan is regularly pretty tired after sex, so he just wants to cuddle and maybe kiss a little. Hed sprawl out on the bed and let you clean him up before getting under the blankets and resting on your chest. Make sure to rub his back or his neck and he just melts.

 B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

On himself his favorite body part would be his arms or his shoulders. On his partner its their eyes or torso.

 C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Evan cums a lot, like it gets everywhere and stains the bed every time. He loves when you scoop up his or your own cum and feed it to him. Loves nothing more than if you eat him out after finishing inside him.

 D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Evans dirty secret is he really wants you to milk him, there’s few things he wants more than for you to tie him up and either use your hand or a machine to milk him dry. Loves when you praise him or call him things like little boy or prince because it makes him feel small and loved. If you call him little calf or bull he goes bright red and runs off to hide his blush.

 E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Evan has very little experience, especially with other men. He might have done some hand stuff in the past, but most of the sexual stuff itself he learns from you.

 F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Doggy or cowgirl. He likes when you take him from behind, maybe have him bent over something. But he also likes riding you, especially watching you hold his hips or grip his thick thighs.

 G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Evan isn’t very goofy or jokey during sex, he takes it pretty serious or is too full of lust to joke about.

 H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Evan has body hair all over, his arms, legs, chest, crotch and between his cheeks. Pretty much his entire body. In the past he didn’t care much for taking care of the hair, but after getting together he might preen it a little so it isn’t a full on jungle.

 I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Most of the time he is very romantic and loving, there are times when your doing it missionary and he will just hold onto you and kiss you the entire time. Hes the type to repeat that he loves you over and over when you make him cum.

 J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

He isn’t one to jack off a lot honestly, you mainly give him what he wants. He would jerk off if you haven’t seen each other for a while, but its not something he craves or needs to do every day.

 K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Impact play

Bondage

Milking

Roleplay

Overstimulation

Cuddlefucking

Sleepy sex

Is mating press a kink?

Breeding

 L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

At home, he does not like doing it anywhere where the two of you can be caught. Most public place the two of you could do it would be out in the woods with no one around.

 M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

If you rub him down or dirtytalk in his ear, maybe start sucking hickeys on his neck and shoulders and bite at his ear. Compliment him and kiss him whilst grabbing his thighs.

 N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Threesomes, he does not want to share. Prey/predator or hunter/hunted. He lives most of his time as a killer so he doesn’t want to bring it into his sex life.

 O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Evan isn’t the best at giving oral, but he tries his best. It’s a very sloppy and wet affair, but he always sounds like he really enjoys it. He has a gag reflex though, so he would gag if he got your cock too far in his mouth. He loves to be given oral too, he always claps a hand over his mouth to silence the loud moans that he wants to make.

 P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

With Evan the pace tends to be slow and rough or sensual. He likes when you take your time but press in as deep as possible, especially when you bottom out and finish as deep inside him as possible.

 Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Evan doesn’t do quickies, he likes to take his time and feel it when the two of you do it.

 R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Evan is up to try out new things, but not too extreme stuff. He would need to talk about it first and discuss it though, just in case.

 S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He will most likely have more stamina than you unless you’re a fellow killer or something more than the average human. Evan can go multiple rounds so you always have to make him cum multiple times before you do to tire him out.

 T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Evan doesn’t own toys and you can’t really get any in the fog anyways.

 U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He doesn’t really tease much. The most he does is maybe flex at you or pin you down during trials, maybe grind against you when hes in a blood frenzy. You would do most of the teasing in the relationship.

 V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Evan isn’t a loud person in general, so during sex its mainly grunts and growls, though he does start whining and moaning a little louder after you’ve made him cum a couple of times.

 W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Evan tried to get advice from some of the killers he gets along with on how to spice things up with you or make a surprise for you. He ends up somehow getting his hands on some lingerie and he gets so embarrassed and flustered when he wears it. He hid it away and still has it somewhere, though he always gets flustered when thinking about wearing it for you.

 X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Evan is a good chunk bigger than average and is slightly thicker than average. Uncut and veiny, you always have to pull the foreskin back to get to his tip.

 Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

He doesn’t have a very high sex drive honestly, he can easily go a couple of weeks without sex if he has too and you tend to meet all his needs, though he does like to jerk off every now and then.

 Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

If you’ve really tired him out and made him cum multiple times, he will knock out pretty quickly afterwards, he always looks most peaceful after being wrung dry by you. He likes to fall asleep still full of your cum though, so you might not wanna clean that out.

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[boxblondiecoops]

You should write something about joe cooper and someone on his team! It would be such a cute idea since I saw your recent post lol 😭

- Saphari ★

Hello Saphari!!!

You're my first ask! I hope your doing amazing! Ok, I'm gonna warn you, my writing is chaotic as shit and probably scrambled as hell. I'm gonna start with bullet points and see where my brain takes us. Let's gooooooo~

It's gender neutral and mostly him having a crush but ya know.

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Ok. So based off my obsession memory with how he acts around Jenna.............. He turns into a fucking golden retriever.

Same goes for when he's with you.

Like same big blue eyes, same dopey smile. Constantly jumping up to take care of stuff you need/want. He will even tie your shoes for you without you even so much as asking.

Oh, need some water during a sweltering practice? Here's a cold bottle, just for you. It even has your nicknames first initial on the cap with a lil heart with it. Or maybe your player number.

Need a snack because you forgot to eat before a game or something? Oh, lookie, he has your favorite! Actually, he has about eight of em, just in case you need more than one pick me up.

Listen, you guys have to hang out after the games and before the games and all the time.

If you don't wanna come over, he whines and complains to Remer all the time and every. single. time. Remer rolls his eyes so h a r d.

He curls up on the couch, watching his old game and hugging a pillow WISHING desperately it was you.

He's such a lonely guy, please go hold him. He'll gladly be the lil spoon, big spoon, the fucking fork, he doesn't care. He just needs you to hold him.

So naturally you've come over and hung out (more than once) and played some Nintendo and drank some beer if you like too, but he won't push it. He's just happy you're here.

In the house, he has a designated spot on the couch JUST for you. It's right next to his but no one else can sit there.......... Except maybe the dog. MAYBE.

If your allergic or even nervous of his dog, or even the cat for that matter, he'll move them to a seperate room and keep them in there when you hang out.

Although if your allergic he vacuums like the entire house before you come over, even doing the couch.

During games, he's the most supportive dweeb ever. He cheers, like, the loudest in the dug out if your psych out hits the way you practiced. He bounces around and claps.

If it doesn't, he pats you on the shoulder and tells you it was awesome and you guys can tweak it later.

He loves you in the uniform. He won't say it................ But like he stares at you so much. You're so pretty to him he just can't not look at you. He's smitten.

You are the ONLY person on the team allowed to score with La-Z-Boy. He trusts you so, so much with it.

Now imagine you got distracted, waiting your turn on the bench, your name gets called, saying your next up and he gives his prized ball a gentle throw to you and is just like

"Go kill it!" And he's blushing a little bit and almost giggles when you smile and jog off to the pitch.

He knows you won't pop it or fuck with it. It means the world to him and so do you so seeing you use it makes him blush and lean over the railing and just watch you.

Remer definitely fucking laughs at him tho... But also highly encourage him.

"My bestie is soooo in love!" *wipes fake tear*

"Shuddup!"

If you pop a home run with his ball? He's on cloud fucking nine, jumping up and down.

Oh god, if you score the winning game, he rushes at you and picks you up, spinning you around and smiling up at you like you hung the moon and the stars and he just really fucking loves you.

He is constantly waving to you from the pitch if you aren't on the field. Like the straight arm lil wave

Please, can we talk about his eyes? He has the prettiest fucking blue eyes. He looks at you all the time like you personally crafted his favorite constellations or just handed him a signed baseball bat from Reggie Jackson himself.

Like come on. He's so fucking cute, I can't with him. Look!!! Look at him! ↷

The tension.

The tension during practice?

Especially if the team isn't there and it's just the two of you???

STOP SHUT UP

HOLD ON THE CLICHE ASS "lemme stand behind you and, like, move you in the proper way" CLICHE SHIT PLEASE TELL ME YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.

He has game for once!!!!

He stands behind you, hands on your waist, guiding you to stand directly across from the net. He makes sure your holding the ball right (basketballs are hard for me to hold- I have small hands) and even shows you the proper follow through.

And he's fully pressed against your back because I said so and he's so warm and big and everyone talks about how big Remer is but Coop is big too!!!!!

He smiles and gives you pointers on your stance and how to aim and shit- and he's such a sweetheart about it.

Like if you miss he claps and grabs the ball and is like "oh, good try! Let's do it again, but a little bit more like this-" and shows you how to do it and adjusts you to be right.

But he's genuinely so nice about his critiques and is so sweet and is painfully and obliviously so into you and stares at your lips a lot and-

Putmeincoach

Oh my god hold on

Y'all does he have like a "call me coach" thing???

You call him coach as a tease and he smiles and shakes his head and puts his hands on his hips.

.......... Call him that in front of the team and he gets majorly flustered.

I might need to write some suggestive shit on this topic later. This is like all I got for right now. I'm only thinking dirty shit uh-

#trey parker #baseketball #joe cooper #trey parker x reader #trey parker x male reader #joe cooper x reader #joe cooper x male reader #joe cooper thoughts #baseketball x reader #baseketball x male reader #matt stone #matt stone x reader #doug remer #doug remer x reader #doug remer x male reader #trey parker and matt stone

[psychewritesbs]

Maybe I'll regret sending you this ask but it's like a thorn in my side and I need to get it out because I can't stop thinking about this so here I go 🙇‍♀️

If I don't see the romantic subtext in Gojo and Geto's dynamic, does that mean I'm not really understanding what Gege is telling? I like their dynamic, they're complex characters and so is their dynamic, but not because there is romance there. Of course, if I read and look to see romance there I find it... but I'm looking to interpret it that way. So when I see "the subtext is there", "the dynamic is ambiguous", I start to question my interpretation... I don't know if it's because my reading comprehension has already been attacked when I said their relationship isn't canon. I really tried to see that ambiguity since I started reading the manga but in the end I felt like I was reading too much... that I was actively searching for something that was supposed to be in plain sight.

P.S: I have seen ships with ambiguous dynamics in SNK, HQ, Naruto (NARUSASU, I don't even ship them but I understand 😅) and I never saw this war between shippers and non-shippers...

Nooooo anon 😭. Please, I promise I don't bite too hard.

So, first of all, thanks for sending this. I'm ngl, it makes me sad to think that I might have contributed to someone feeling like I would make you regret asking about something you don't see.

Second, I'm going to make this answer about perception because the purpose of my blog is psych.

Third, as a lead up to the psych stuff, it goes without saying that one of the reasons I don't talk about shipping in jjk is precisely because shipping is highly personal, and a lot of people in this fandom take their interpretations about the story as absolute truths, to the point that they gaslight anyone who doesn't agree with them.

It's like we're all just deploying domain expansions and the one person with the strongest sense of self wins. Right?

But this is a HUGE irony because Gege has gone on record in an interview saying that one of the themes at the core of jjk is that there is no such thing as an ultimate truth where someone is right and someone is wrong.

(source)

And to me this gets at a much larger issue that I taco'bout under the cut.

So this is the thing, right?

If you don't see the subtext in stsg, there are a lot of factors affecting your perception. Gender, sexuality, background, etc etc...

The thing to keep in mind is that you don't see the world as it is...

So I love that second angry anon brought up the idea that someone who is straight would very likely see gjhm as a romantic pairing, because it's true!

This is really complicated because, yes, heteronormativity is at play here, AND that doesn't mean a straight person is being homophobic for not seeing the stsg subtext without putting on pink-colored fujo glasses.

That said, I have seen the jjk dudebros be total dicks because they think that, because they are straight and the target demographic, the only way the story should be perceived is as if most all characters are straight and you are delusional to think otherwise.

And I'll be honest here, I'm a bi/pan woman. I am also a fujoshi. I've read quite a bit of bl/yaoi, and I think that has influenced why I don't see the romantic subtext without looking for it.

Basically, I've read really long threads by stsg fans that were meant to provide evidence for why they are canon that I was just like "this is all a subjective perception" and that is not to say they are wrong.

More like, YES. I couldn't agree more with you. It's there if you look for it. I am not sure if you saw this, but someone else came through sharing the same sentiment as you.

For me, little details like the battle taking place on December 24th, and Gege recommending bl before, point at a certain ambiguity that Gege might want to create without confirming anything.

It's funny that baity anon said stuff like "Gege is throwing irrelevant breadcrumbs at these shippers" when the same could be said about stsg according to many, many, MANY people.

Who is right? Who is wrong? If a group of people can see it and another can't, who owns the ultimate truth?

If Gege doesn't explicitly say "stsg is the other dynamic that is canonical along with mechamiwa", then who gets to have the authority on how to interpret the story? And who gave them that authority? And why are they ignoring subtext that doesn't suit their agenda?

I'm asking both sides for the sake of being a devil's advocate btw lol.

The thing is, it's all subjective, and there is no such thing as an ultimate truth where someone is right and someone is wrong--what there is is people arriving at conclusions based on their own logic according to who they are.

In the end, we're all looking at jjk through our own subjective lens, which is inevitably made up of many different factors.

That ramble aside, I hate that your reading comprehension was attacked because you can't see what someone else can see. That's just lame af because it tells me this is someone arrogant enough to take their opinion as absolute truth, and insecure enough to make someone else feel bad for questioning their interpretation.

As someone who has been internet-mean and who has wrongfully thought she owned the truth about something in the past, I apologize that someone has made you feel this way.

The reason this is a bigger issue than just shipping is because this issue is prevalent across fandom.

jjk dudebros will have you believe that if someone reads jjk for anything that is not battles is wrong.

Others will gaslight people and call them dumb for being open about how they don't understand how Gege explains certain things.

By the way, Maki is better than Toji according to some, but not to others.

I'm telling you, for jjk being a story about how there is no absolute truth, we sure are attached to our interpretations as being the ultimate truth.

All I know is that I don't want to be part of the problem and that starts with me making space for understanding why someone would disagree with me or think differently than I do.

Here's the last thing I'll say, anon.

If you don't see the stsg subtext as romantic, then you are indeed missing out on a romantic interpretation. If that's not something you're interested in... that's no one's "problem" but yours.

As long as you aren't seeking to minimize someone else's perception, then it's your interpretation and yours alone.

For me, I see this:

And I fucking love this spread because I see deep and intense longing. I get the sense Gojo is looking really hard for any semblance of Geto in this body.

Do you see something romantic? Yes? No?

It doesn't really change anything, does it? It just means someone reads into something you don't see.

The fact that you are questioning whether you are "really understanding" the text "right" tells me you have the humility to look to adjust your perception and be open to other ideas.

There's a difference between saying "I don't see it" and "I don't see it and neither should you because I don't see it, and if you do, you are delusional!"

Which one are you?

Which one will you be moving forward?

Thanks for coming to my TED talk looool.

I went on a raaaaant bahaha.

I just... man... this is the kind of problem that shipping in this fandom creates. As you said... imagine just wanting to mind your own business and someone who ships a certain pairing comes and tells you you are an idiot for not reading the same way as they do. OR viceversa, you're shipping along, minding your own business and someone tells you you are delusional for enjoying a ship.

Come on....

It really is a matter of perception and we're quite literally spamming domain expansions on each other as a way to impose our personal truth on others as absolute. It's really ironic and funny ngl.

This reminds me...

Idk if you've seen any Gundam shows, but at least the ones I've seen, usually the plot revolves around how war and conflict is the result of two sides of the same coin being unwilling to accept a different point of view.

So anyways. As I said in that baity ask... I'm at a point in my life where I'd rather focus on holding the tension of opposites. It's just where I'm at.

Thanks for stopping by and sharing your thoughts anon!

Don't let others define your perception! If you do, you've already turned your back on the only person whose perception matters most--you.

#ask the mental gymnastics anime girl

[soaps-mohawk]

Please take care of yourself 🖤 you're health is absolutely more important than anything else!

We can all get by just fine without a chapter this week.

Side note:

Y'all can't push people like this. It's good that y'all are enjoying the story and giving it the recognition it deserves, but unfortunately, our lovely, amazing, talented author is human! Not a goddamn machine!

And I don't think y'all recognize the level of dedication she's put into this story just to feed our little fantasy-loving minds! It's a lot of fuckin work and you shouldn't dismiss someone's health for your own selfish wishes.

Rant over

I love you, you beautiful, dedicated, amazing person! Just know: not all of us want you to push yourself to your breaking point, and we understand that you're human and need time for yourself.

Whether that be your psyche or your physical health! 🖤🖤

I'm hoping you get better soon and that it's nothing serious 🙏🏻🥺

Thank you, love. Y'all got a bonus last week, so I think you can survive without one this week lol. (At least most of you can 😂.)

Thank you for understanding. Really. I talked about it in a response to a different ask, but it really does take a lot to write these chapters. They're long and detailed, and there's a lot that goes into the process. They take multiple days to write and edit and get to where they are when they're posted. It takes time to do this, on top of everything else I have to do during the week. (Just because I'm not working doesn't mean I don't have other stuff I do.)

Thank you again. I don't want to push myself to the breaking point either. I've done that before and it's not pretty. I do really love this fandom and this fic (even though it does drive me to the edge sometimes) and y'all are really the best. 💚💚

#i'm learning how to be kind to myself #taking it easy and relaxing #answered

[your-sweet-cookie]

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𝑺𝑯𝑶𝑼𝑻-𝑶𝑼𝑻𝑺 𝑶𝑭 𝑨𝑾𝑬𝑺𝑶𝑴𝑬𝑵𝑬𝑺𝑺.

🌈 ― aesthetically pleasing blog

@prosopagn0sis - I always adored how Softie designed the layout of its blogs (be it its main or its RP blog), so it's definitely an ace when it comes to aesthetically pleasing blogs!

@kuinaoflight - There's something about how Elle knows how to choose the best quotes or images to adorn her Kuina RP blog with, that makes it simply amazing! This, along with the calming color pallet she's chosen for the background and text, make her blog a delight to look at and explore!

@hinataxsunshine - I always found Adrian's blog to be one of the nicest/cutest blogs ever! It just has something about it that speaks innocence and serenity, which fits perfectly the vibe of his OC, Hinata.

💻 ― excellent writing

@niragixpsych - Although she doesn't think her writing is any good if you ask her, Psych's talent in writing surpasses most expectations with the amount of thought and care she puts into every interaction. It's a true delight and pleasure to write with her and her blog is one I'll always recommend with the utmost happiness!

@aggwaseon - I love their writing because it's very versatile and detailed. You can tell the Mun puts a lot of effort into their threads, and even if lately they haven't been very active, I can guarantee you that this Mun right here knows precisely what they are doing and they are doing it with passion, dedication and care!

@kuinaoflight - Her talent at both writing Kuina as a character and stories in general is amazing! I always loved reading her threads and the amazingly well crafted answers to the RP memes that make even the most common of prompts feel uniquely written and personalized to the person who sent them. Looking forward to continuing reading Elle's amazing work and see how she'll continue improving even further! <3

@hoodedchishiya - There's a reason why this blog is my all time favorite Chishiya and that's because Alex's writing is usually 1000000/10, both when it comes to writing our favorite snarky cookie addict blonde and storytelling in general. I swear man, if I hear you say one more time that your writing sucks, Imma make it one of my to do list priorities to remind you daily that your writing is beyond excellent!

@artsspi - I really enjoy writing with them because they put a lot of thought and effort into each of their OCs and the threads we write together. I'm always looking forward to reading your replies!

@officerconners - The Mun does an excellent job at portraying Drake and every interaction is fun and captivating to read! They know how to write anything, from silly stuff to the most serious of action packed moments full of suspense!

🌼 ― creative headcanons

@niragixpsych - I always love reading Psych's rendition of Niragi and the headcannons she comes up with, they are very unique and interesting, especially since they add an extra layer of depth and complexity to NIragi's character, while also showcasing his human side.

@triggerhappymilitant - Nyx's headcannons about Niragi are another one of my faves when it comes to headcannons about Niragi. They are always interesting to read and I feel like she always manages to showcase Niragi's utmost essence in her own rendition of the character and its background!

@hoodedchishiya - If you want a fresh and unique version of Chishiya, this is the blog to seek. Again, just like his talent for writing in general, this man's creativity when it comes to reimagining Chishiya in a very unique, yet true to the core essence of the character, is baffling! I told you, I could listen to you ramble all day about your ideas and hcs about Chishiya and I wouldn't grow bored!

🎙️ ― great to talk to

@daikichixkarube - Karube's Mun is one of the most adorable and fun to talk to people I've ever met! I love talking to her on a daily basis and she always knows how to lift my mood or make me laugh! So she will always be one of my favorite people to talk to and one of my bestest of friends!

@niragixpsych - She's very supportive and I can count on her to always be there for me! When I'm sad, Psych will lift my spirits up; when I am stuck with a dilemma, she'll do her best to give me some suggestions and help the best she can; and her friendly talks full of affection will always warm my heart! I love you, don't you ever forget that!

@kuinaoflight - Full of life, sunshine and with the golden heart of an angel, Elle is a delight to talk with! She knows how to make a conversation fun, how to cheer you up or fuel your creative juices with her ingenuity! I especially love our fun conversations on our favorite TV shows and the funny things we come up with sometimes, like back when we put together a compilation of cat gifs and memes relating to the AiB characters!

@hoodedchishiya - We've had our differences and ups and downs, but once we got to know each other better, he's really a great conversation partner! Even if we don't talk much (and maybe sometimes I probably end up annoying him), he never fails to make me laugh, smile or feel better if I am upset. So no matter what other's might say, you are actually a great friend to have and a great person to talk to!

@twentyfourhourtitts and @hinataxsunshine - I put those two together because they are like siblings to me and I love our little funny conversations (which I really miss sometimes when our group chat falls silent for days on end).

@lillyontheborder - She's a new addition to my friends group, but I can assure anyone that Lilly is a great friend and a great person to talk to! She knows to listen to you and she will do her best to help!

@risa-of-spades - Risa has always been a great listener and supportive pillar of our community and for that I feel like I owe her an endless amount of gratitude and appreciation! She's always there to show her love and support to each and every one of us and if someone needs a shoulder to lean on, they can always count on her for that, as she'll never shun anyone away!

@officerconners - This Mun is a ray of sunshine and delight to talk to! Plus, they know how to give good advice when you need it! A great friend and an amazing conversations partner!

📚 ― nice threads to read

@niragixpsych, @aggwaseon, @artsspi, @triggerhappymilitant, @hoodedchishiya, @kuinaoflight, @officerconners - Mostly for the reasons stated above + some have really funny threads too along with the more serious threads in nature.

🎀 ― all-around kind person

Everyone mentioned previously. uwu Love you all! 💗

🥇 ― well-developed oc

I feel like everyone in this community that writes OCs do an amazing job in writing their characters, so it would be impossible to tag every single one of them. But even so, know that the AiB RP community has some of the greatest well-crafted original characters you'll ever meet!

📌 ― a staple on the dash

Everyone I mentioned thus far are staples on my dash and I wouldn't have it any other way!

🏆 ― 10/10 blog, would recommend

Again, everyone I mentioned above are a 10/10 in my book: great people with great hearts, amazing talents, outstanding writing skills and are infinity/10 friends! And I want you all to know that I love each and every one of you! Never forget that! <3

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[atopvisenyashill]

You know how you said that it was stupid that Rhaenys and Viserys didn't marry since that would've united their claims? Well, what if they did marry? What goes down? Who would Corlys marry? And what about Aemma? Does she marry Daemon instead or maybe someone else?

Okay, so this is all wild speculation and opinion so it is NOT written very well. Just follow the train of thought wherever it takes you, don't worry about going down a tangent, it's fine, we're fine!!

SO…I mean okay, if Rhaenys and Viserys grow up believing they’re going to marry, I would imagine a dynamic similar to Rhaena/Aegon, which is to say like, fine? They like each other well enough, Viserys is fine being ruled by Rhaenys, altho there will be inevitable “make sure Rhaenys doesn’t look hotter than Viserys on Meleys” type stuff the way there was with Rhaena not being allowed to ride Dreamfyre bc Aegon’s dragon was too small (I think Viserys was always going to claim Balerion, but I wonder, if he's engaged to Rhaenys, that the dragonkeepers don't encourage him to claim one of the younger, faster ones, so Rhaenys isn't showing him up? I mean no matter what, I don't think Viserys is ever claiming a young dragon. There's The Narrative but also, that man probably hated riding a dragon, he just wanted to chill with Balerion and read to him). So even with the kind of clash in their personalities, you could do worse than marrying a relative you feel okay with in this series, especially as a Targaryen princess, and both Viserys and Rhaenys would realize that.

BUT. if they marry because, say, alysanne or jaehaerys, suggest it specifically as a way of combing their claims and crowning viserys king and rhaenys queen, well that’s a whole different can of worms. that’s probably a worse aegon/visenya dynamic - rhaenys will feel resentful of being tied to & expected to be subservient to his claim, and viserys, eternal people pleaser that expects people to please him right back is um, not gonna cope well with that (see also: his marriage to alicent).

i would imagine in either case they’d take the throne more or less without any problems. i can see rhaenys talking viserys into letting her rule the way visenya & rhaenys did (could she push to be named queen regnant besides his king regnant, a la william & mary?? im doubtful but i do think rhaenys would insist on the ability to make law & run the small council without viserys needing final say, and i think she’d get it too). given that rhaenys seemed on the whole healthier than aemma (largely because she was giving birth at 17 and not 13), i think they’re probably fine in that area but even if the two of them have issues with living sons, well, rhaenys is certainly not about to let her daughter’s claim be put aside for the likes of daemon fuckin targaryen, and she’s going to be a lot smarter on ensuring her daughter takes the throne after her. i do imagine regardless of whatever changes rhaenys makes, gyldayn refers to her as some sort of harpy badgering poor viserys tho lmao. I think she'd be remembered much less fondly than Alysanne and Rhaenys, again more in line with Visenya, because it would be obvious that she resents her marriage, and she would be attempting to actively play politics and make changes, and both Westeros and Gyldayn get really resentful when women Do Things. But the same way no one could check Visenya, no one is going to check Rhaenys because Viserys is not going to check her. While Rhaenys is deeply resentful, and Viserys is definitely feeling weird about his wife, this is best case scenario fo rhim - all the power of a king without the responsibility. He can have his parties, his songs, his drink, and not worry about the line of succession because Rhaenys had kids, and Rhaenys does the ruling.

as for who everyone else marries….kinda depends on what is cooking in alysanne’s psyche in the mid to late 90s lmao. i think the general theory is that alysanne threw daemon in the vale to help rhaenys’ claim (so rhaenys would be uncontested in the crownlands, and probably so daemon would destroy viserys’ support in the vale by being daemon), and tbf there is mountains of evidence that alysanne plans marriage matches based around punishing the person she’s matching. i think in this scenario, alysanne would be outwardly really supportive of rhaenys & viserys but inwardly super angry, resentful, feeling weird about rhaenys being forced to merge her claim instead of just ruling on her own, and she’s gonna take that out on daemon, so his ass is still going to runestone. we don’t know who arranged the aemma/viserys match (could have been baelon given that alysanne was avoiding the capital at that point) and as for Corlys, his attraction to Rhaenys was a) status b) DRAGON RIDER and he doesn’t really get that with any other woman from this era. all that to say…..i’m wildly speculating here because i think it’s unlikely daemon marries aemma, and i also think it’s likely daemon would inevitably get psycho sexually obsessed with a daughter of viserys.

for aemma…i don’t think it’s out of the question that alysanne suggests corlys for her, and if she’s not married off to viserys, i think alysanne takes a more active role in her life. it means aemma likely doesn’t marry until she’s 16/17, but if aly is arranging it, it’s still likely to an old dude. BUT. i actually think borros baratheon isn’t out of the question here - he’s partial valyrian descent, we don’t know exactly how old he is but he’s probably at least in the same ballpark as aemma, and he’s first born & heir to storm’s end. she could also wind up in white harbor, considering the manderlys press the point in the dance & alysanne seemed at least a bit charmed by the northerners, but i think borros would be most likely.

corlys….the thing about him is that he’s pragmatic, ambitious. yes, he loves rhaenys, but both of them are aware of what privileges the other brings to their marriage. corlys is not only ambitious but (imo) he is aching to prove that the velaryons are just as valyrian, just as powerful as the targaryens - having three dragon riding children was important to him. and look at marilda - precocious, curious, intelligent young girls are very clearly his type. he wouldn’t be cruel to aemma but im not sure he could love her as fiercely as he did rhaenys. and he seemed in no hurry to marry either - i think corlys was being purposefully choosey, biding his time until the perfect match appeared. I'm not sure Corlys would wait like forty or fifty years to marry, but if Rhaenys and Viserys have a girl early enough, if Corlys perhaps has a friendship with Rhaenys....does he ask to marry her daughter? OR OR maybe he does marry Aemma, and then encourages her to claim a dragon.

now i'm thinking about aemma the dragon rider, aemma the daughter-wife of corlys. a better and also much worse life for aemma, haha.

#asks #anons #please except this unorganized stream of consciousness writing anon. aslkdjflkdjf #canon divergent au

[betzabobababi]

Third Times the Charm

Hello Hello! This is by far one of my favorite things I have written! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. Please don't hesitate to like, comment or reblog. It means so much to authors. It also gives them feedback. Anyways without further ado!

Tom Holland x Reader *Y/n Y/ln*

Warnings: Mentions of a fire. Calling 911. Weddings. Proposing

Summary: Tom tries repeatedly to pop the question.

Type: Fluff <3

AUTHORS POV

Tom had been trying to pop the question for months now. He asked for your father's blessing; he told his mum. He even asked Zendaya, your sister, and some of your other close friends for help on picking the ring, date, and place.

So when the day finally came for him to get down on one knee and ask for your hand in marriage, you had to postpone your date because your sister went into an early labor.

Tom reluctantly delayed the occasion and planned another date. This date was in a small family owned Vineyard somewhere in napa. The sun had started to set and just as you were about to turn around (Tom was already on his knee) you spotted that a part of the grape Vines had caught on fire. Hurriedly you called 911. At this point Tom had already gotten up and started to pack up your stuff so you could get out of there safely.

Exasperated by his multiple failed attempts to ask for your hand in marriage he decided that he would try one last time and if it didn't work he would wait a while longer. He thought "maybe the universe is purposefully trying to sabotage my plans because it's not time yet" 

So the third time he tried to pop the question, he set a date in which he made sure you both had no plans or meetings going on. He drove you to a park somewhere downtown and he had a picnic set up.

 He was very nervous, “What if she says no?” or “what if i mess up the speech?” “Third times the charm-Third times the charm-Third times the charm” he kept repeating to himself. If it didn't work out it was ok. But he just really wanted it to work out.  Around an hour into the picnic he mentally psyched himself up one more time and as nervous as he was finally decided to pop the question.

“Y/n Y/l/n *you got this tom!* you are one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I love you more than anything in this world. I can guarantee there’ll be tough times.*he gets down on one knee* I guarantee that at some point one or both of us are gonna want to get out of this. *reaches into pocket* But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine *takes out the ring* I'll regret it for the rest of my life because I know in my heart you are the only one for me. Be with me now and forever?” At the end of his speech Tom’s whole face was flushed a bright red. Breathing heavily he looked into your eyes, looking, searching for any sign of rejection. But when he looked at you all he could see were the tears that were threatening to spill. He could only see your wide smile.

And as if the world suddenly stops, he sees your mouth opening. “YES YES OH MY GOD YES A MILLION TIMES YES!” you said nearly shouting. You were screaming, but at a reasonable level for a person who just got asked for their hand in marriage. Tom let out a sigh of relief finally being able to breathe again. You lunged at Tom and wrapped your arms around his neck, trapping him in a tight hug. When you both finally let go you saw Tom’s family and yours emerging from the trees surrounding both of you. Harry had a camera in hand and was clicking away. Nicki and Dom were in tears. Your sister was carrying her newborn, looking at you with one of the biggest smiles you have ever seen on her face. Her husband followed close behind. And your father beside him. Paddy walked in between his parents. Sam walked next to Harry, carrying a tray of delicious looking desserts. As they reach you and Tom, one by one congratulate you and engulfed you in big hugs. After giving them their love they talked with you guys. Both you and Tom explained your hopes and wishes for the wedding.

“Hey Tom?” you said to him as you were walking back to the car. “Yes Love?” “How many times did you try to propose?” Tom chuckled at the question. Eyes shining with love. “Believe it or not, I only tried three times.” Tom responded. “You know what they say Tommy, Third Times the Charm.”

#Fluff Tom holland #Fluff #tom holland x you #tom holland x y/n #tom holland x reader #Y/n Y/l/n #wedding proposal #engagement #tommy baby #<3333 #Nicki Holland #Dom Holland #Harry Holland #Sam Holland #Paddy Holland #Tom Holland fluff #third times the charm #failed proposal #Bb writes

[copperbadge]

My folks just dropped me off at the airport, so I’m sat at the gate in Austin-Bergstrom with a protein bar and a bottle of water, waiting for the cue to board and considering life, as one does in an airport.

I didn’t discuss the ADHD diagnosis with my folks, not that I had planned to, but being medicated while there (and unmedicated, for some of it) was informative. I got to bring up some disability stuff with my mum; I don’t want to spill detailed family beans, but they didn’t give her a name for her diagnosis. It was mostly a net-zero gain but I’m glad I asked. With the benefit of a longer attention span and improved active listening, I suspect if she were a man she probably would have had an autism diagnosis, but I’m going to let that grenade sit unexploded, I think. I did get screened for autism, at least in the ways they can screen, and that came back a pretty clear negative as expected. 

There’s enough other emotional ordinance in my life right now to navigate around, anyway. The whole concept of “twice exceptional” is proving to be an issue to process, not so much because I’m gifted-and-also-disabled (still adjusting to that word) but because I didn’t think I was all that exceptional to begin with. I joke about being “clinically diagnosed as a real cool dude” but...in some ways it’s not actually funny. We none of us truly know what other people think of us, but I used to think I could gauge it pretty well and I’m beginning to both wonder in some cases, and in other cases comprehend that my assumptions of other peoples’ beliefs about me have been very, very wrong. 

And I don’t know what to do with any of that, in part because there’s a fine line between owning one’s intellect, one’s gifts, and being a real fuckin’ dickhead to people because you think you’re better than them. I never want that. So I’m just holding this information, trying to determine how to handle it safely. I don’t love ambiguity, so I’m not pleased with that, but I’ve learned to sit in a certain amount of uncertainty and it’s been six weeks since the diagnosis, two weeks on the meds, so I can own that I’m being impatient with myself. 

I’ve thought about building a separate tumblr to talk about all this stuff, since even for people who are interested I can comprehend some of this might be traumatic, and for everyone else perhaps not that interesting. A dedicated tumblr is on brand for me in some ways (the mustard blog, the louvre blog) but a bit antithetical in others, in that my blog has always been a weird swirl of personal life, fandom, and aesthetic, so I don’t know. Opinions welcome. 

I think I’m going to send the text of the horse metaphor post to my psych, but mostly so he understands how I’m interacting with the meds. He’s not meant to be my therapist -- neither he nor I want that -- but I really liked him when we spoke, so I do want to be as easy a patient as I can be. The rest will wait; it’s waited this long, after all. 

#sam has adhd #'copperbadhd' probably isn't taken but also looks like a Klingon swearword

[misty-caligula]

Unhinged S2 theories

Okay let’s get unhinged for a second. And take this to logical conclusions.

https://www.tumblr.com/misty-caligula/716477558946971648/this-is-my-big-one-for-s2e6-and-its-the-thing

I’ve already talked (a lot) about how I genuinely believe that someone is manipulating Lott, and that she’s been secretly taken off her meds.

So who? And why? At this point I’m leaning towards a theory that the cult is becoming self-aware, and is actively growing outside of Lott’s direction. I think there’s a inner circle below her (I think Lisa might be in it, I think that drum circle guy from ep6 is in it) that’s started to plot and scheme, that’s maybe more aware of Lott’s situation than we think, and is actively trying to push her to become the antler queen once more.

Do they NEED to know about what happened in the wild? No. Not necessarily. She could just be... an inspiring, powerful person they feel is not living up to her potential.

Or...

Did she blab? Did she break the oath? Did someone get access to her psych notes? Did someone learn things she’s said in therapy? Did she talk about specifics? While she was in Switzerland?

Or...

Did Adam ACTUALLY get more access to Shauna than we think? Was it a big misdirect to have Jeff blackmailing them... to cover the fact that Adam was genuinely a plant? DID HE ACTUALLY GET ACCESS TO HER DIARIES and we just ASSUMED it was Jeff???

Is moustache cop an incompetent idiot? Or .... is he not trying to get a conviction? Is he just trying to get into Shauna’s head? Is HE a plant??

Is WALTER a citizen detective who just wants to learn things about stuff...? OR is he a plant, a perfect connection for Misty, down to the showtunes.

THE SHOWTUNES THO okay so follow with me... Misty INSTANTLY picks up on the showtunes.

Misty’s SO sus on Walter from the first moment she sees him. She doesn’t miss much when it comes to like, facts and stuff, and she clocks him the moment she HEARS his voice. And he’s OBSESSED with her (like Adam’s obsessed with Shauna!) and okay so they’re so similar, so weirdly in tune, but Misty is uncomfortable because she doesn’t click with similar. The last time she did Crystal died.

Then they’re in the car and he brings out the showtunes and Misty smells a rat. She IMMEDIATELY clocks that he knows her too well, it’s just too much, too fast, and too big of a coincidence. And he tells her that he just really likes showtunes, it’s all just a misunderstanding, and she goes “Well I don’t even LIKE showtunes” and he CALLS HER BLUFF AND THEN SHOWS HER ONE HE KNOWS SHE WON’T LIKE.

HOW DOES HE KNOW??

It comes off as a good read, as a fun moment, but HE KNOWS HER TOO WELL AND SHE KNEW IT!

“Being a yellowjacket’s the least interesting thing about you” he says HE’S LYING HE’S A CITIZEN DETECTIVE, IT’S AN INCREDIBLY INTERESTING THING ABOUT HER!

“It was like 30 years ago” HE’S LYING HE’S A CITIZEN DETECTIVE HE DOESN’T MAKE THESE KINDS OF ERRORS, HE KNOWS IT WAS EXACTLY 25 YEARS AGO!!!!

And then and then he’s like, sending her messages after she’s already told him to go away which ISN’T LIKE HIM he didn’t even argue when she told him to fuck off AND the drum circle guy is like, PUSHING IT he’s like “Hmmmmm had a breakup??? hmmm?? what about that walter guy? hmmmm??” and like... as SOON as she mentions Nat they’re like “YOU KNOW NAT?? Please, tell us every tiny detail you know about this woman while we sit here and listen intently.”

*takes a breath*

I feel like I’m going mad. There’s too many data points and too many unanswered questions. Too many coincidences. And I think... that that is the point.

In the teen timeline nothing is as it seems, there is no solid grounding. You’re meant to be able to slip whatever your interpretation is onto the top of it, you’re meant to have your expectations both met and refuted all at once. You’re meant to question your own reality.

I mean....

Laura was ALWAYS going to die in that plane, right? Right? Then why did we think she wouldn’t?

The baby was NEVER going to make it. Right? Then why did we allow them to give us half an ep where we really thought it had?

Jackie was ALWAYS going to die and there were people who 100% were waiting for some twist to save her til the moment they ate her.

This show is just really really good at making us question what’s right in front of us in the teen timeline.

Why ... the hell... would we expect different in the adult? Why WOULD it be all just normal and easily explained coincidences? Why would it be just trauma responses and nothing more? Why CAN’T it be a malicious conspiracy? But then.. why WOULD it be a malicious conspiracy? Neither makes total sense, neither perfectly fits, I feel like we’re missing key information. And I don’t know about you, but it’s making ME feel paranoid. And I honestly think that’s the point.

Maybe the cult really IS a dangerous thing that’s going out of its’ way to destroy them all. Maybe its trying to bring back the antler queen, maybe Lisa is evil, maybe maybe maybe maybe maybe...

Or maybe it’s just putting 1+1 together and having trauma add another 1 without realising and getting 3. Because that’s the REAL shit, that’s the nightmare of being un-fun mentally ill, is that once you stop being 100% confident of your ability to perceive things accurately you’ll never get that certainty back. You’ll never trust another thing you think or feel ever again, and the moment you stop questioning your world it’ll make you panic and worry you’re missing something... Ask me how i know.

At this point I’m going to just say I do not know what’s Really Going On with the cult. I am 100% confident that Lott’s being manipulated. Beyond that? ... all I have is vibes and ideas and feeling adrift. I’m so impressed at this show for managing to throw me this hard and I’m unbelievably curious to see what else it has to offer.

#yellowjackets #screaming into a pillow #spoilers #they can't keep getting away with this!

[standupcomedyhistorian]

Good morning, everyone!

It is Bo Burnham's 33rd birthday today! 🥳

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BO! You've got seven more years to go per your last birthday song haha 😉

It is also my last day in my intensive therapy program. I feel SO much lighter and happier than when I started. I never thought it was possible! 🥰

I just wanted to again thank everyone who's supported me through the HARDEST month of my entire life.

The combination of being suicidal and then my ex asking for divorce on July 26th—one day after I was admitted to the psych ward—felt like the world was collapsing around me.

But I found the strength to open up during group sessions (EVERYONE at the hospital knew I love Bo's stuff haha), and some very special people there gave me the courage to go on living. Thank you, Alexia, for playing Bo's music in the gym and Donte for giving me a soft fleece blanket (the sheets were SO itchy) so I could finally sleep again.

Special shout-out to my sister. Jill has been there for me since we were kids (she's 4 years younger than me), and we've weathered the same shit from our awful parents and both have complex trauma because of it. I'm more sensitive than her in general and internalize things, but she sent me two videos that changed my whole perspective.

The first was Brent Charleton and his chart of the Ego States. This helped me reconfigure how my thinking was constantly making things worse in life. I'm basically a teenager learning to be an adult in my mind, and that is OKAY. I am learning to heal my wounded inner child, and she is thankful for the emotional support when she had none from her narcissistic mother and enabling father growing up.

The second was Tim Fletcher's series on shame. This is incredibly hard to watch (I recommend taking as many breaks as you need), but I promise you it gets SO much better when you let go of shame. All shame does is make us feel miserable...it is SO not worth it to live that way!

I know this all sounds like nonsense to most of you, but I was ready to kill myself because the intrusive thoughts had become unbearable. If you're at that state too, please watch one of these videos—I PROMISE it can get better 🌈

What made me realize my self-worth was watching my interview with Quentin Stuckey about my website. I could hardly believe that I could APPEAR that personable and happy when I was secretly dying inside.

Thank you so much, Quentin, for giving me the opportunity to be on your podcast, and I hope the weather gets better in Europe soon! 💗

And, last but not least, I have a brand-new interview with one of the most creative and inspirational Bo content creators I've had the pleasure of talking to: Dylan Case.

Please make it a priority to watch his 38-minute parody of Inside here—he is an absolute GEM and I will support his comedy career in any way I can! 🙌🏼

Thanks, everyone. I didn't think I would still be here on July 25th, but I'm glad I stayed. ✌🏼🐔

#bo burnham #happy birthday bo #i'm turning 33 #not me #bo is #I'm 41 haha #suicide prevention #please reach out to someone #i am always here if you are struggling #intrusive thoughts #complex trauma #cptsd recovery #shame is the root of it ALL #and BOY the Catholic church did NOT help #especially since I am bisexual and hid that for years too #be your authentic self #inside bo burnham #bo burnham inside #30 #7 years to go #standupcomedyhistorian #I love you all #and I feel lighter and happier now #wounded inner child #tim fletcher #shame #both of these videos help with cptsd #brent charleton