Without you: Taehyung
W.C: 1.2k
Taehyung x reader
Summary: You meet with Taehyung after he comes home from tour. You feel a bit lonely but he’s quick to talk you through your feelings. Reassurance is key right?
Masterlist
BTS Masterlist
A/N: Phew, it's been a while hasn’t it? Being a writer is hard haha. Anyway, ever since Yoongi dropped those pictures and Fuji Kaze reposted them, I’ve been obsessed with his song and kinda got inspired by it to write this! I thought Tae would really fit the vibe so here he is <3 I’m trying to get back into the swing of things so bare with me :’) Enjoy!
-
The cold was almost too much to bear. You didn’t have that type of endurance, to stand in the cold like this. It didn’t help that it was starting to get really cold in Korea and you really missed the later fall weather at home. It was times like this that made you tear up with homesickness. The icy wind blew right through your supposedly thick jacket and you hugged yourself tighter, hoping the time would go by quickly.
Honestly, it was pretty ironic that you had to stand out in the cold and wait for your partner to sneak out of his big, warm apartment to be with you. He would always be the one in the spotlight, and you? You were some random person to be hidden and loved in secrecy. The cold seemed much icier tonight than usual. This was much easier to do on summer nights, you thought while you crushed a dead leaf with your toe.
As you sat on a park bench and nudged forward your fourth dead maple leaf, you heard footsteps coming from the trail. You looked up and smiled weakly, the cold had deteriorated your want to be outside.
Taehyung walked down the path with an inconspicuous but totally him trench coat flowing behind him. He seemed to breathe an air elevated from normal people. Even his 40 dollar plain cap seemed too nice for you. He smiled and jogged to you with joy as soon as he spotted you. He held a small bouquet of yellow roses and a convenience store bag filled to the brim with items unfamiliar to you. You got up, keeping your hands in your pockets and you tilted your head up for a kiss as he neared.
“Jagiya!” Taehyung breathed after parting from your kiss. He set his things down quickly but carefully and instantly embraced you hard.
“Tae! We’re outside!” You giggled as he lifted you off the ground.
“I missed you so much.” Tae whispered as he set you down. He snuggled into your neck as you both settled into a familiar hug. You struggled to keep your eyes from watering as your breath caught in your throat, overwhelmed with emotions. You felt so appreciative of Taehyung, who worked so hard to keep you happy while being away for so long. You felt loved from how genuine he said these things. You felt sad at how little you felt you did for him, despite him assuring you that you did more than enough. Most of all, you felt the longing for him in your bones and it made you so happy to be able to hug and kiss and caress him again.
You sniffed and pulled slightly apart from him while giggling.
“How was your trip this time my love?” You wiped your eyes, hoping the tears wouldn’t freeze your lashes. He smiled and gazed lovingly into your eyes.
“I really mean it when I say I miss you, you know that right?” He rubbed your back.
“I know. I miss you so much. All the time.” You said this carefully and slowly with a slightly disappointed look on your face.
“I’m sorry baby. I know this is always so hard on you, more than it is on me. I promise I’ll make it up to you. Look! I got you some things!” He quickly nodded his head in the direction of the flowers and bag. “Manager mentioned yellow roses mean coming home and longing for the familiar so I got you some. I also collected a bunch of stuff from the places we went to on tour. I know you like snacks and knick-knacks.” He let go of you and literally ran to the bag to show you its contents. You blew on your hands to warm them and walked after him.
“Look, I got this from Paris, it’s a special type of pastry. And this is from New York. I saw so many things I wanted to buy for you but I couldn’t. This is from Mexico city. This is from Barcelona and this-” Taehyung went on listing things from the cities he went to. You stayed silent and listened attentively.
Suddenly he stopped talking and looked up at you with this look in his eyes.
“Y/n? What’s wrong?”
“It’s just so cold out here Tae. I’m cold. And tired.” You smiled despite the harshness that came from these words.
“I love you Tae, I really do. But it’s so cold out here sometimes.” You gazed at him and looked down at your toes. The wind had picked up and looking down preserved your eyes from the dry breeze.
Tae set down the bag and embraced you once again, despite you still having your hands in your pockets.
“Jagiya. Y/n.” Taehyung’s voice broke and he turned to protect you from the wind. You sacrificed your fingers to embrace him back and grip the back of his jacket. You felt tears well up. “Tae, I just- I’m so happy for you that you get to travel like this. It’s so amazing and I support you so much. I’m so proud of you.” You spoke into his coat. You felt his heartbeat and you closed your eyes.
“I miss you so much Taehyung. I hate being alone. And when we are together, it’s like this. I want to be with you truly. I want to be warm and happy and comfortable, not cold and sad and lonely.”
“I didn’t know you felt this way Y/n. I hate being apart from you so much, you can’t even imagine. You're my baby Y/n. My first priority. Always.” He sniffed and you could tell he was crying. He felt the same.
“Babe, I just want to be with you for you. I want to tag along and stick with you for the long haul. Right now, it just feels like I’m a random person on the street you picked. I want to feel like more to you.” You pulled apart and looked into his puffy eyes.
He nodded solemnly.
“Thank you for telling me that. I don’t want to keep being apart from you like this. I always feel like its so unfair to you.” He paused and his mouth twitched.
“I want you to feel like you are the star in my life. Like, I want to show you that you are my number one and never anything less. So I will. You’re so far from being a stranger, some rando on the street. You are the most important thing that has ever happened to me. You are my purpose Y/n.” He gazed into your eyes and smiled. You laughed and wiped a tear from his cheek.
“You look so goofy when you cry babe.” Tae wrinkled his nose before picking you up and spinning you. You cried out and laughed out loud, not caring if anyone heard.
“Now let's go home. I want to eat something, I’m hungry!” Tae reached over to the bag without letting you go and shuffled to start walking in the direction of his apartment. You picked the flowers out of his hands and admired them before admiring your partner. “Of course you are Tae.” You rolled your eyes jokingly and started to jog ahead of him while holding his hand.
“Yah! Careful with those flowers!” He laughed and jogged to catch up with your pace in the direction of the place you two could call home. One to build together and keep as a safe space for the two of you. You laughed as the cold wind began to warm up your face while Taehyung held onto you for dear life.
45 notes
·
View notes
Still seeing feminists in 2023 claiming that ‘emasculation isn’t real’ and it’s still baffling me.
How can you look at the lived realities of Asian and Jewish men and think “yeah these men totally aren’t emasculated and viewed as lesser males or less masculine than white men and it’s totally not dehumanising or racist or anything 😌” like. Racism against MOC doesn’t always look like portraying them as aggressive or dangerous, it can also look like viewing certain types of minority men as ‘failed’ men and ‘lacking real manhood’ as a dehumanising tactic. Myths about Jewish men previously portrayed them as having periods and being ‘basically women’. Asian men are fetishised and stripped of their manhood frequently by K-pop stans and people online who don’t realise that masculinity and gender roles look slightly different in non-western cultures.
Also… trans men. Who are FORCEFULLY emasculated and feminised against their will, by genocidal bigoted conservatives, and sometimes even somewhat by other queer people telling them to ‘tone down’ their non-toxic masculinity to avoid making others uncomfortable, making themselves dysphoric and detached from their gender identities to remain palatable.
What about disabled men? Are they not also viewed as failing to achieve proper manhood? Are they not also emasculated and viewed as ‘un-male’ or ‘less male’?
Minority men absolutely can and do experience emasculation. And it’s not ‘toxic’ or misogynistic to bring it up. Feminists who care about POC in particular should not be pretending otherwise.
2K notes
·
View notes