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paynomindtomyidiocy · 3 years

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Hi guys life update:

I have a bunch of positivity appreciation challenge spreading or whatever asks in my inbox and I want to answer them and send them to other ppl I really do but also I’m kinda tired so I’ll do it at some point

I’m lowkey thinking about saying I’m heteroflexible?? I was browsing Reddit the other day in a quest to find additional information about Duccio and somehow I discovered the term? Idk I just feel like it summarises where I’m at with my sexuality crisis (I say crisis bc I like the word and I have a lot of crises but they’re always at like the back of my mind so it’s not stressing me out too much).

Then again, I might not lol. Almost every single one of my friends is queer and it’s gotten to the point where the word hetero makes me cringe a little lmao idk if I want to refer to myself as hetero anything, but also it feels more straight than saying bi with strong preference which I appreciate kind of with my whole issue about not feeling like I can say I’m gay? Idk I may or may not come to a decision, maybe my indecisiveness will last long enough for the oestrogen to kick in or for me to emotionally mature and I’ll have a crush on someone and then the crisis will be resolved a little. Who knows? Am I procrastinating figuring out my sexual identity? Yeah I guess you could say that it’s pretty in character for me ngl

Also I’m trying to be more productive and I have exams coming up and we actually have study leave this year so it’s a bit more serious n I may be a littttle lax in replying to stuff etc

So I’m being a little dramatic with this because I don’t actually care that much but if I hear one more person tell me I’m lucky I don’t have periods I think I might like, scream or something. Internally probably but who knows maybe this art history revision will push me off a cliff I didn’t know existed. That’s a metaphor I am once again making it known that I’m not actually depressed.

But yeah just someone I was pretty sure knew found out today and was like omg ur so lucky u don’t have to bleed out of ur vagina, etc etc and I was like

yeah bitch but I also have a lack-of-sex-hormones induced sexuality crisis, a snowflake complex (which is actually rly bad because not only am I autistic and adhd but I also have this like super rare disease oh boo hoo it just enables all the self pity ugh do you ever just find yourself insufferable like I literally have nothing to feel sorry for myself about I kinda want to smack some perspective into my subconscious), am at risk for osteoporosis, pretty severe heart disease should I not get enough oestrogen (which is worse considering I’m also Indian, and like a bunch of my relatives have died from heart attacks), have to take vit d bc Indians are low in it and it poses complications with the POI and shit, not to mention I can’t have children plus a bunch of other shit

Also I’m seeing that that whole last bullet point is just one big block of self pitying bullshit about what are ultimately my first world problems n I’m rly wishing I could just shake some perspective into my subconscious right about now UGH

I kinda want to rewrite it without the self pity but I cba bc I’m so tired just bear in mind I’ve gotten like no sleep as of late :)

This all sounds much angstier than intended but I am actually doing ok and I’m not super sad or depressed or angry at all I swear

I’m actually pretty well balanced

Well, relatively. Idk

Now I’m kind of wondering what the point of this post was

Oh well

Enjoy the life update ig

– Anya :D

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lustingtc · 5 years

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19th September 2019

Sorry 4 it being late xd

We 🤪 mento illness ☺️☺️

But 😳😳😳 it was open evening

So I got a lot of SHIT to chat abt 🥴💅🏻

Before that

I finally know where T is for duty 😔😔😔✌🏻

He’s in the main plaza thingy so 🤪🤪

I hang out the whole asa other side of the school so I mean not cyte 😔😢😔😢😔

BUT OPEN EVENING >:3

We did the art dept first and 😳😳😳😳

My old art teacher asked me if I was still stalking T and the others ☺️☺️✌🏻✌🏻

BUt my current art teacher was like

“Stop. This makes me feel uncomfortable.”

So F. She’s 😡😡😡 just!!!!!!! A 😤😤😤 h8tEr!1!

Lolololol

But we went to maths and 🥴🥴🥴

Dogman 💝💞💓💗💖💘💕

SNACC 🤤🤤 💝💞💓💗💖

He smiled at me and went “Alright?” But some patrol teacher started talking to him 🤮🤮🤮

Fuckin whore he is

We didn’t do the activities cuz... IM A BUSY WOMAN,,, plus it took all of us 20 mins to do a decoding thing,,,

So we left 🙄🙄👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻

TO SCIENCE 👉🏻😎👉🏻

Which was a ...

Gay mess

Lemme tell u I’m #CRINGE BRO rn 😟😟😟😟

She was like “Hey guys! What if I told you that you could drink orange squash WITHOUT EVEN DRINKING IT!!”

I- it was an experience. Even now. 4 days later. I cannot go into detail about this experience…

I was staying in the back to like,,,, NOT interact

But her adorable smile 😔😔😔😔

I gave in to her weird experiment

I DIDNT EVEN GET ANY OF THE AIR I WAS IN SUCH FUCKING PANIC 😫😫😫😫😫

FUCKKKK 😡😡😡😡😡😡

So... did I embarrass myself? 💁‍♀️💁‍♀️

Of course 😊😊✌🏻

Hnnnngggg 😔😔😔😔😔

But the grand finale 😳😳

We pull up to his block

He’s chatting to some ppl n like 😔✌🏻

But I got distracted by the English depts Christmas theme so 😳👋🏻🏃‍♂️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♂️🏃‍♀️

After that lil trip (which was shit)

So we went in and let A’s little sister do all the activities 💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️

T came up to us and fucking went

“Ya guys!” 🤠🤠🤠

Idk what this man who or what he thinks is up... but this was like HIS CATCHPHRASE??? Like every time he spoke to something he opened with Ya... 😳😳😳

Mad man he is

But anyways 🙄👋🏻

He was talking to A, abt GCSE shit and if her little sister could do the same shit

Her sister doesn’t rly remember much Spanish so T was like

“Will you help her???”

A was lik “No. I’ve got GCSEs to focus on”😡😡

So he was laughing n went

“What if K needs help??? Would you help her?”

We just looked at each other like 😐😐

“Being honest. No.”

T BURSTS OUT FUCKING LAUGHING

This man-

THIS MAN!!!!

He just like finished up and was like “See u”

So. That’s something I guess 😳😳😳

But 💝💞💓💗💖💘💕

He was talking to parents and shit

I kept looking over my shoulder like🥴🥴🥴🥴

He’s so lovely 🥰🥰🥰🥰💝💞💓💗💖💘💕

But we placed outta there back to our homeland of the art department 😰😰😰

I had a few... issues. I was temporarily homeless but thankfully I found a place 🤪🤪🤪🤙🏻

So we left when all the teachers left 😳😳😳

Dogman came out with the rest of my maths dept ☺️☺️☺️💝💞💓💗💖💘💕

He rides home w another teacher 🤧🤧🤧

WHAT A L0ZER!!! 😂😂😂

But I had to run to where I was staying 😳😳

#XanxietyGang

I feel like Dogman saw me 😔😔😔😔 but that’s probs my cheeky paranoia 😋😋✌🏻✌🏻

But to make the day end in UwUs

My friends place is right on the main road so I was looking out the window n ☺️☺️☺️

I was T walking home 💝💞💓💗💖💘💕🥺🥺🥺🥺

I,,, love him,,,, s,,o,,,,, much 😔😔😔😔😔

He seems to enjoy his job so much n like 💝💞💓💗💖💘💕 I love,,,,

#teacher crush #tc #teacher crush community #tc community #Z #P #Dogman

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misfitjohnnys · 7 years

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faq/about

let me get this out of the way: yes my stomach tattoo says Jopping because i’m an idiot

name

tomi but call me tommo!!!

birthday/zodiac

january 12,1997 so im a capricorn and my chart is hella wild oops

height

like 5′8 but im stretching the truth a lil

gender?

i dont fuckin know! lmao! i dont feel anything tbh. agender makes sense (they/them preferred but i could not give less of a fuck)

Sexuality™️ by TAEMIN produced by SMEnt 2016

lesbian!!!!! i like girls and strictly celebrity men

groups you stan?

i heavy stan exo, nct (ot23), shinee, red velvet, and superm is the best thing that ever happened to me!

sometimes ill vibe with block b, stray kids, and a few others

im rly bad about being updated but i grasp onto information i find like im hanging off a cliff u will learn that quickly

do you swear?

a lot..... im so sorry

where do you live/where are you from?

i live in louisiana in the states! I dont plan on staying here at all so I’ll let the world take me where i need to be!

have you traveled?

yes! ive been to quite a few states, mostly southern states but ive been to california, new york and england so thats p cool

what are you here for?

updates abt kpop and to rant to people who dont give a shit bc ive got adhd and i have to talk someones head off and i think tumblr is a good place for that

what do you blog about?

mostly nct, taemin, and exo but every once in a while i switch it up and throw some other stuff in here and i talk a LOT

favorite thing you don’t blog about?

waterparks, the maine, all time low, generic pop punk honestly it consumes my life im just an emo kid really,,,,, any bands similar to those i prolly listen to just ask

favorite shows?

TEEN WOLF I FUCKIN LOVE TEEN WOLF and parks and rec! i watch a lot of netflix originals mostly!

favorite movies?

i like rom/coms, marvel films, horror movies, i love movies i aint even gonna front

iron man 2 is a blessing to this world

music you listen to?

punk, pop punk, kpop, rnb, modern music mostly

odd things you want people to know but dont want to have “the conversation” about?

i have adhd rly bad so my focus is either all on one thing for long periods of time or i cant focus at all. mentally ill but im winging it daily

favorite food/drink?

i frickin love popcorn dude but i honestly.... love louisiana food. and spaghetti........ i dont eat beef so like anything chicken or turkey is great w me!

i love coffee and coke zero and i use those weird liquid things in my water bc tap water is awful here

what do you do for a living?

management, hairdressing, and art!

met up with anyone from tumblr?

yes!!! ive met up w like 8 people i met on here!!!! some i went to england to meet so that was rly cool

how long have you been on tumblr?

since like..... 2010 i think ............ fuck

is this your only blog?

nope! i run an unbleached jungwoo tumblr!

what do you look like?

im overweight, kinda tall, a lot of tattoos. white, blue eyes

body mods/tattoos/piercings?

i have 30+ tattoos and i post some of them

ive got like 6 ear piercings, my ears stretched to 7/8′ and both nostrils plus my septum !!

why did you join tumblr?

in the 8th grade my friend talked about tumblr n she was rly cool so i was like ILL BE COOL LMAO and never fuckin left

song you could listen to forever?

ace by taemin. straight up man

anything you want to add?

i’ll literally talk about anything???? mostly nct! im bad at responding but i love casual conversation sometimes :)

#about

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