Because I’d forgive you if you ever meant your sorry.
But you treat me less than human… and I don’t know how else I can say I don’t want to be a sex toy anymore.
You make me feel worthless.
I am so much more than my hands and my knees and my mouth.
I have so much more to say than the anger you induce.
So much more to show you than tears.
I just want you to see me.
But with you I must be so guarded, because the person with whom my heart is…
Makes me feel less than a common whore.
Because he can have me for free.
I want you to see, I bought the armor because of you.
The shield, the fence, the weapons, so that I could still get close to you like I wanted to…
Without risking my life.
You don’t have to stab me, just ask me.
I’ll tell you that I bleed red… you can ask for what’s in my heart instead.
Because I love you, I keep no secrets.
Except I keep this… pain that lingers on.
I keep it off my face.
I hide it in rage.
Because you treat me like I’m nothing…
And nothing I can be.
So I vanished from every place you could ever see…
And I know you miss me.
Funny how much space nothing can fill…
Even when it’s what you feel.