some people can't verbalize their hurt so isolation speaks better for them instead

bemstar

The other day she said to me ‘sometimes I just feel like a gas station’ and I laughed at the statement before she explained ‘people stop by to get what they need, whether it’s sex, laughter, or someone to suffocate the loneliness, until they’re full again and the last thing you ever see is them driving away’ and now I’m wondering if a gas station is all I’ll ever be

02/02/2020

‘power’

Introverts desire temporary seclusion, not loneliness.

j. grey 

“tell me a secret” “like what?” “i don’t know anything i cant possibly know everything about you” “okay my secret is i’m afraid” “afraid of what?” (“i’m afraid of you of how much i love you of how much you mean to me because i’m afraid that you’ll get tired of me or decide i’m too much to handle that i’m not worth it anymore i’m afraid that you’ll realize i don’t deserve you that you can do better than settling for me and even though i want you to be different i’m afraid that you’ll end up like everyone else i’m afraid that you’re the best thing to ever happen to me and i’m so afraid of messing it up”) “i’m afraid of the dark” “really?” “yeah there’s just something about the unknown that really gives me anxiety”

(cc, 2019)

‘hello alone’

"After you are gone, joy lingers in the air much like a rainbow lits the sky after the rain."

e.v.e.

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you know that character you love so much? (you know -- the one from that movie you always watch when you’re feeling sad the one from that show you’ve seen so many times you can quote the episodes the one from that book or comic you’ve read more times than you can count) think about how much you resonate with them how they’re like a mirror image to the way you see yourself how they empathize with pieces of your soul in ways that a real life human cannot how they feel like a representation of you you see so much of yourself in them and you love them so much so why can’t you love you too?  if you can find it in you  to look past their flaws  and see gold shining in their cracks maybe you can do the same for yourself after all if your favorite character is a reflection of you, and you love them more than words can say maybe its possible for you to love you too

(cc, 2020)

‘life’

Toxic people will shame you for pointing out their poisonous personality and make no apologies for polluting your peace. Beware of these snakes because the only antidote for their venom is your distance.

bemstar

i wish loving someone as “more than” a friend wasn’t limited to romantic implications  because i do love you as so much more than a just friend there aren’t words to adequately say just how much you mean to me how important you are to me how lost i’d be without you just “friends” is nowhere near enough you are my family you are my home you are mine

(cc, 2019)

letting people in is something i don’t do trusting people is scary to me keeping my distance feels safe to me loneliness is a common place for me living life seems far away for me

t.m.

just please for a moment listen to me i know you aren’t going to believe what i have to say but i promise you it is the absolute truth so hold onto these words and revisit them whenever you need  to be reminded:

i.  it wasn’t your fault i know you’re hurting i know you’re bruised  but you didn’t deserve to be mistreated you didn’t deserve what was done to you it was never your fault

ii. you are going to be okay maybe right now you feel like you’re drowning but you’ve broken through the surface and battled the waves and found your way back to shore once before you can do it again

iii. you can keep fighting  i know you’re tired i know it would be easier just to give up but you are filled to the brim with strength and resilience and maybe you don’t believe in yourself but i believe in you

(cc, 2019)

ig : thetypewriterdaily

If you're hurting over someone who refuses To acknowledge that they've hurt you Then eventually you have to learn to move on Without ever receiving their remorse

bemstar

learn to clasp your own bracelets, your own necklaces; to tie your own ties or zip-up your own dresses just as you’ve learned to tie your own shoes what i’m saying is, teach yourself the kind of independence you’ve always craved (but in years’ time, have grown to fear) learn to stand on your own two feet even if you stumble and fall at first  it’s okay; it’s okay to fall just like it’s okay to be afraid just like it’s okay to need help  but don’t anchor yourself to someone else; don’t grow dependent on another when the person you really need to rely on is yourself  allow yourself to ease away from the safety of the shore to embrace the unknown depths that the world has to offer  don’t let the terror of drowning keep you from swimming 

(cc, 2019)

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