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everything chastity / 11.30.2021

a pastor’s son i used to love once told me how his father would never allow himself alone with women in a room. i cannot read the bible now without feeling phantom tugs at the skin between my legs. things that never happened but could’ve. i wonder how much i will never know about the people i know no longer, if i’ll keep reaching out to grab information that isn’t there. a sick dog waiting at the door for owners that will never come back.

this is what you’ve done to me: i cannot get dressed without letting my fingers hit my thighs, drumming beats onto my flesh of a million different ways to trip up a man and punish a child and hide the skirts i don’t want you to see. i dye my hair unnatural colors and repierce the backs of my ears with a rusted needle. i play god by ripping my own jeans and pages of books i can’t unread. i wait for someone to touch me and then bark until they leave. it is easy to hate abstinence but harder to leave it.

this is everything chastity. this is the sort of bitterness you can throw but never shake. a dog knowing their bone is harmless but fearing it too much to take.

It's really sad how we always focus on being independent, while independence is an important thing we should also learn to lean on people because we need them. We need people, we need their support and reaching out to people is something that should be encouraged rather than looked down upon.

WEBSITES FOR WRITERS {masterpost}

E.A. Deverell - FREE worksheets (characters, world building, narrator, etc.) and paid courses;

Hiveword - Helps to research any topic to write about (has other resources, too);

BetaBooks - Share your draft with your beta reader (can be more than one), and see where they stopped reading, their comments, etc.;

Charlotte Dillon - Research links;

Writing realistic injuries - The title is pretty self-explanatory: while writing about an injury, take a look at this useful website;

One Stop for Writers - You guys... this website has literally everything we need: a) Description thesaurus collection, b) Character builder, c) Story maps, d) Scene maps & timelines, e) World building surveys, f) Worksheets, f) Tutorials, and much more! Although it has a paid plan ($90/year | $50/6 months | $9/month), you can still get a 2-week FREE trial;

One Stop for Writers Roadmap - It has many tips for you, divided into three different topics: a) How to plan a story, b) How to write a story, c) How to revise a story. The best thing about this? It's FREE!

Story Structure Database - The Story Structure Database is an archive of books and movies, recording all their major plot points;

National Centre for Writing - FREE worksheets and writing courses. Has also paid courses;

Penguin Random House - Has some writing contests and great opportunities;

Crime Reads - Get inspired before writing a crime scene;

The Creative Academy for Writers - "Writers helping writers along every step of the path to publication." It's FREE and has ZOOM writing rooms;

Reedsy - "A trusted place to learn how to successfully publish your book" It has many tips, and tools (generators), contests, prompts lists, etc. FREE;

QueryTracker - Find agents for your books (personally, I've never used this before, but I thought I should feature it here);

Pacemaker - Track your goals (example: Write 50K words - then, everytime you write, you track the number of the words, and it will make a graphic for you with your progress). It's FREE but has a paid plan;

Save the Cat! - The blog of the most known storytelling method. You can find posts, sheets, a software (student discount - 70%), and other things;

I hope this is helpful for you!

(Also, check my blog if you want to!)

I'm once again fighting the urge to fake my death and move to a small city and open a little florist shop or cafe filled with books

paintings.

' I put my heart and soul into my work, and have lost my mind in the process '

— Vincent Van Gogh

Me??? Obsessed??? Over something I found only a few hours ago??? Yes

-Benedict Smith, I wish I wrote the way I thought

it’s a very greek idea

and a very profound one

beauty is terror

whatever we call beautiful

we quiver before it

~Donna Tartt

—Lilllium, from my piece This is How We Self Destruct

death is an unwelcome guest tonight

I can feel its eyes on my chest

piercing through my heart

looking for love, for weakness, for love,

tailoring the heavy coat of grief

it's an oversized fit

my love has always been too big for my bones

will I collapse under it's heavy weight?

will I wear it like a crown

as if to prove to myself

that I have carried someone's heart in my hands

and kept it safe till it's last beat?

as if to prove to others

that that last beat

taught me why

comets were named after people

The end of ADHD awareness month is

coming near. So let me tell you what

ADHD has done to me.

It's not just fidgeting.

It's not just trouble focusing.

For me, it's not even hyperactivity.

ADHD makes my brain late.

To everything.

ADHD effects my everyday life.

It has made me depressed.

I have difficulty maintaining relationships.

Because of executive dysfunction, some

days I don't get out of bed.

Chronic unemployment.

I forget to pay bills.

I can't focus. Even with no distractions.

Just can't focus.

Hyperfixations.

Obsessions.

All or nothing thinking. Black and white.

Mood swings of the worst kind.

Unintentionally scaring my loved ones.

Choice paralysis.

I can't make up my mind.

I can't decide.

I'm not confident in any decision I make.

I have poor sense of time.

My emotional regulation is almost absent.

I can’t stick to one task.

always look like I'm not listening.

Even though I'm always listening.

Even though I care what you're saying.

I'm listening. I swear.

I can't focus on anything.

Not even things I'm interested in.

I want to read this book I'm interested in.

I can't get past the first page.

The words make no sense.

I can't understand what they mean.

I forget to eat.

I forget to go to the bathroom.

Sometimes I even forget to sleep.

I'm always tired.

Always. Tired.

It's not just fidgeting. It's not just trouble

focusing.

It's debilitating.

If you can relate, offer yourself some grace.

Medication and therapy can help.

But your brain will always be different.

Because we are wired differently.

It's not all bad. We just have too much

attention.

It's not a deficit. It's too much attention

with no idea where to put it.

Hang in there.

You're not lazy.

You're not a bum.

You're different. Like me. Like many of us.

Hearts are meant to be broken and mended, broken and mended, broken and mended

—Ada Limón, ❝The Noisiness of Sleep❞ in Bright Dead Things

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I just want to sit in front of the ocean for a little while and listen to my comfort playlist.

Write hard and clear about what hurts.

~ 𝘌𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘏𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘸𝘢𝘺

Bitches stare at a blank word document for 2 hours and be like "I'm a writer." It's me. I'm bitches.

midas touch, your golden eyes,

all your pretty poisons lure me away...

but all that glitters isn’t gold.

at least, that’s what i am told

your optimistic eyes

seem like paradise

to someone like me