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someone out there loves you // my chemical romance

so am i // super whatevr

Are you blocking all the things

That have to do with me?

Is it easier now?

Do you feel any release?

A Day to Remember - Leave All The Lights On

Now that you left me here to suffer

I only know how to bleed

Agony.

Autumn x The Front Bottoms

pictures aren’t mine I was just bored and had saved a bunch of these lyrics so anyone’s welcome to use them

Kinda hate myself tbh

I am not sure if this is helpful or not. But I feel like I have to say something mainly because of my own feelings regarding the SA stories coming out about All Time Low, Pierce the Veil, and Panic at the Disco.

It’s okay to be heartbroken and confused. It’s okay to take the time needed to process.

If any of the bands helped you through a difficult time, it’s okay to still be thankful for those moments.

But it is NOT okay to blindly accept bullshit excuses/statements just because they are coming from your favorite bands.

When I first heard about these stories, I almost immediately wanted to deny the truth behind them. But I put myself in the shoes of the victims and realized how much worse they must have felt. Many were fans themselves!! I realized that the denial came from wanting to protect myself from disappointment, heartbreak, and confusion. I had to realize that these people that had helped me in the past had also hurt others in the worst way.

If these accusations were being made against any other person, you would believe them. If you heard those formal denial statements made by anyone else, you would call out that BS! You know its bullshit! You know that they are not fully owning up to their actions! I know it sucks! But in the end, we have to do what’s right! We need to support the victims and believe them.

One of my biggest pet peeves is when people are talking about bands that broke up or artists that stopped making music, and they say something along the lines of "Well wouldn't you rather they quit on a high than keep making music till they are putting out trash?" Or "it's better to stop making music rather than keep putting out more and more music because you just end up making trash" etc

Because it is such a consumeristic view of art. Do you think individuals just stop making art after a period? Of course not. We do it throughout our lives, it sustains us. Artists are just making art, whether it's good or bad to you doesn't matter, the point is that they will always have the urge to create and will keep doing that till they die whether or not you see it. The fact that any art is shared with an audience is just a way for the community as a whole to enjoy it, not for mere consumption.

And I've talked before as well about the conflating of art with "content" saying artists put out new "content" instead of saying "music/art/film/poem/novel" whatever. Once people get in their heads that everything that is shared is done with them in mind as the consumer they see it as a product and art itself just loses meaning. Now that I write this down I'm recalling all the people I have heard say this and they have largely been privileged men, particularly white men, so there does seem to be this idea of entitlement at the core of it. They don't seem to be doing it maliciously so much as it's so ingrained in them to see everything as existing for them. People have spoken on this in terms of like, representation in media and how men, particularly white men or other privileged men in other cultures, hate it because they view things as existing for them and that entitlement is something they have to work to unlearn.

And that mixed with the consumerist idea of art as content (and I KNOW some things are content not art, like whatever the hell influencers have going on) is destroying the way in which we engage in art. Behind that is an individual or a group that has just made it for the sake of making art. Even if they were forced to not share their art, they would still make it. But we survive on that community and that validation and having our creations recognised so we share what we make. And it's a privilege to be able to share in someone's art to be honest, even beyond the compensation. Yes I paid my friend for a painting I bought of hers. Yes it is still an honour to be able to share in that art, she could have just as easily kept it at home. Yes, the bands I love probably get compensated from the listens they get on Spotify. Yes it is still an honour to share in the kind of emotions that went into the songs.

Would I rather my favourite bands keep making music as long as it makes them happy? Even if their music changes, evolves, "turns trash", becomes something I don't personally like? Yeah dude. Yeah. Because I would rather also keep creating and sharing than be stifled by an idea to pass a test of eligibility before I can put a work out there. That's not at all what art is about.

Here’s my face again

Sometimes I get dressed and pretend I’m not a mom of 3.

The wonderful @heyitsish tagged me for a selfie (thank you!), so I took this before TFB show last night 😊

I'm tagging @lifes-not-0ut-to-get-y0u, @enjoli-paige, @puklaw, @pizzagrenades, @keeyo7, @fillmyheadwithcolours, @the-cy-lentone, @justlivebreathe, @himynameischapi, @katabelle, @sodapoppypunk, @whatseparates-me-fromyou, @captainamericanidi0t, @thewonderbeers, and @the-ghost--inside.

lately, all i want to do is lay around with you

you're not a REAL emo until your birthday is tied to the death of a wrinkly old racist fuck sorry :/

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