sometimes i think about how sam was always meant to outlive dean and how HARD he tried to change that. His big brother is dying of a heart attack, his big brother is dying of a car crash, his big brother is dying over and over on tuesday, his big brother is dying by the hellhounds, his big brother is dying by his hand, his big brother is dying in a barn and i just. fuck. your elder brother will always die first, that's the way it's supposed to go kid.
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Unmitigated and unreasonable distress!!!!!!! An incomplete list of things that did not fix it: crafting, tge audiobook, TWO mangas, a coffee, a snack, laying outside in the 40C humidity in direct sun like god intended and absorbing all the sunlight to store up for the Long Winter ahead, a shower, so much water
I'm just. AH.
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maybe I’m just a lil bitch, but I was honestly expecting to see more jealous and resentment towards the system with the bad kids what with people succeeding and failing a lot in constrast to each other. If I was adaine or Kristen or gorgug I would be out there burning down banks
no i get it i think you're onto something. i am always encouraging characters to get mad righteously or otherwise and i think in the case of the bad kids it's certainly the former. i'd like to see more jealously and resentment and property destruction if they wanna treat us but i think it probably at least partially has to do with what tbk have the capacity for right now. they have so much on their plates literally and emotionally and taking their issues up with The System (even though it is the root of many of their problems) is. abstract and difficult and not going to yield them the immediate productive results they need. it's all terribly unfair but trying to fix the unfairness is so much harder than chipping away at what they have with what they've got. that being said i do think they should scream and punch walls more probably
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i am really interested in writing and exploring young characters who embody the acute helplessness of what it feels like to be a kid in a world where they are smart enough to see what’s wrong and what’s bad and what harms people. and are smart enough to see solutions. but are too small, too individually powerless to fix it. and yet they say, “no, actually, i’m not” and fight to make things better anyways. maybe futilely, maybe not, but they fight for that better future with all the hope and desperation their body can hold.
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