#ppl might get mad at me ab this

[astr0logywh0r3]

astro observations pt. 2

1.) venus square mars ppl have trouble with balancing their masculine and feminine energies. they can feel this internally and it can make them feel insecure. one second they feel hyper feminine and the next they feel more masculine. they wish they could find a way to balance both sides of them but it’s a struggle. they could come off too strong from time to time as a result of their inner conflict (might come off too strongly feminine or masc in the moment) and then they’d feel bad ab it later

2.) i think neptune in the 1st/conjunct the asc might be good at making other people feel special 🤨

3.) mars-pluto ppl have that confident inner power within themselves

4.) cancer risings remind me of fluttershy from mlp 💀

5.) saturn conjunct asc/in 1st house might have been extremely shy kids. they have a lot of determination within themselves though. makes a very strong-willed person. go after what they want with resilience and understand the importance of taking calculated steps to achieve their desires. definitely the no-bullshit type

6.) pluto on the ascendant always reminds me of tony montana from scarface for some reason 😭. i guess it makes sense since al pacino has pluto conjunct his asc so idk. it’s just that archetype. tony wasn’t afraid and didn’t stop at anything to reach where he got. a phoenix risen from the ashes. stubborn. that “don’t tell me what tf to do” type energy. intense, babe. their eyes are crazy too (it’s like they store all their inner intensity and deep emotions in their eyes ..lotta depth). also the no-bullshit type. if they’re mad at you ……be afraid 💀 they will plot revenge and start conspiring some shit

7.) taurus risings are pretty in a “oh, they’re cute” way. they have short little noses and pretty eyes

8.) pisces risings… are y’all good at telling stories? 😭 i think you guys get a little sidetracked

9.) chart ruler in the 9th makes someone adventurous… they just wanna explore and do everything. try everything there is at least once. could have a great sense of humor too

10.) scorpio moons are really protective of their family. they guard their families just like they guard their emotions

11.) unpopular opinion but scorpios aren’t mysterious to me 😐 i’m not sure id call any zodiac sign mysterious tbh it really depends on the whole chart. scorpios to me are just super honest people who have pragmatic opinions that they aren’t afraid to state out loud. if a scorpio has an opinion they feel strongly about they won’t be afraid to let others know how they feel, which i admire about them to an extent. they like getting to the nitty gritty of situations. some of them can actually be very kind people. funny as well due to their honesty and boldness. oh, and they just love dark reds. search up “maroon” and that is literally their staple color you cannot tell me otherwise

12.) i’ve met leos who i’ve found boring before which goes against their stereotype 💀 sometimes their personalities are just the bare minimum honestly unless the rest of the chart says otherwise

13.) mars in the 11th have big dreams for themselves. they wanna make a difference.

14.) 8th house sun makes someone intriguing and mysterious. it can also be a placement that grants beauty.

15.) moon in the 4th just wanna belong.

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[celestie0]

HI ELLIE OKAY I JUST FINISHED TTPD AND I AHVE OPINIONS 😭 first half of the album was ehh idk how to feel abt fortnight considering it’s the single for this album I think it was good not that good though it wasn’t amazing like lavender haze I really loved ttpd (the song) I think my boy only breaks his favorite toys were good but so long London was a HUGE disappointed I think we all hyped it up so much and we all ended up getting disappointed because it wasn’t what we wanted or expected but daddy I love him WAS SO GOOD especially the lyric Where it goes “I’m having his baby no I’m not,but you should see your faces” GAGEDDD I WAS GAGED I also really liked fresh out of the slammer especially the kind banging sounds ik it wasn’t banging but bear w me 😭😭 guys English isn’t my language you can’t blame me fr 😂😂 who’s afraid of little old me WAS SO GOOOD and I can do it with a broken heart especially when she goes “I’m so depressed I act like it’s my birthday everyday Im so obsessed with him but he avoids me like plague” and the upbeat music makes it so much better the anothology was so much better then the normal version definitely really loved the black dog that song really stood out to me imgonnagetyouback WAS SO GOOD I saved that one I hate it here was also really good 😭 thanK you aIMee THE SHADE THROWN AT KIM ?? Taylor mother fucking swift did it AGAINNN 😭😭🤞🏻 she ate her up so bad if I was Kim I would be so embarrassed rn 😭☠️ Cassandra also stood out to me I think this was abt the kimye situation Robin was ehh I think it’s a grower for me honestly but the Bolter and the manuscript were pretty good as if noe I think I’ll probably enjoy the album way more if I just listen to it more a little disappointing but that’s fine cuz there were amazing tracks on here and tbh I am not mad at it now I just need to watch the fortnight music video but I’m too overwhelmed rn so I need a break a little 🥲 now I’m just probably gonna wait for Somone to break down the tracks and point out the hidden clues in the mv 😭😭☠️

hiii bb omg your opinions are pretty much exactly mine LOL <333

yeahh i agree w you, w midnights lavendar haze was likee....it set the TONE for the album yknow hahaha. i remember first listen for it n i was like aight im locking in after hearing that. but i heard fortnight n was like...ehhh i hope it gets better. i liked ttpd too i thought it was lyrically p good song plus the line ab the ring omg i was gagged. yea SLL was disappointtinggg i was rlly looking forward to that one ripping my heart out LOL but it...didn't

"but daddy I love him WAS SO GOOD especially the lyric Where it goes “I’m having his baby no I’m not,but you should see your faces” GAGEDDD I WAS GAGED"

HELP SAME HAHAHA I WAS WATCHING A BUNCH OF TIKTOKS YESTERYDAY OF PPL REACTING TO THAT LYRIC AND IT'S SO FUNNY xD tbh when i first heard it it didn't really sink in for me so i was just vibin w it but then i was like damn. imagine if she announced to the world she was pregnant through a song like that ahhah i was shocked when i heard it again in second chorus. she was so insane for that

agghh idk 'who's afraid of little old me' and 'i can do it w a broken heart' were big time misses for me lol i haven't listened to them again since first listen but it's just cuz i don't really like those kinds of songs from her (specifically referring to the lyricism on these ones) but idkkk i could just be a hater LOL cuz my friends rly liked icdiwabh but it might grow on me, we'll see,, it's def catchy!! kinda silly but she kept it so real

YESSS i think the black dog is in my top three from album :'') i had it on repeat driving to work yesterday and i cried ??? w every listen ??? idk something ab the end of the bridge where she holds the note on "old habits die screaming" omg i sob. and i'mgonnagetyouback was also SO GOOD i think that song is the type of edgy ts lyricism i enjoy (as opposed to icdiwabh & who's afraid of lil old me)

THENK YOU AIMEE WAS WILDDD i think that's the song that had me the MOST GAGGED BC GAT DAYUM. the part where she alludes that kim's kids will be coming home from school singing songs that SHE WROTE that only the two of them know are throwing shade at kim plsss. that's wild n i'm so glad she had the balls to release that song hahah good for her

i also really liked clara bow, the part where she said "you look like taylor swift" alluding to how someday she too will be gone n only remembered for her legacy was wilddd n made me emotional ngl. also i lovedd peter too def in my top three too. also loml is probs my fave

sameee i haven't watched the new mv yet haha i think i might stream it on tv later tonight. sorryyy bb that' you're overwhelemd hope you're taking care of yurself n that your exams szn is going okay!! <33 ty for sharing your thoughts w me

#ttpd #taylor swift #asks

[b1rdeyes]

Alr so watched first two eps of s5 wwdits and my thoughts (in a numbered list woohoo):

1) Wait so the doc is called “what we do in the shadows” in universe?? Are they gonna have like a premiere ep way later in the series (like the offices qna kinda thing).

2) honestly I’m much happier than I was with the s4 premiere. I remember being pretty disappointed that we didn’t rlly get much from their Europe trip. I was so hoping that nadja and Guillermo would be friends/have mutual respect (quite a few ppl were talking ab it and I felt like it could have worked well and in hindsight we might have avoided the Freddie incident 😭). I remember being so mad like WHAT WE SKIPPED A WHOLE YEAR AND NOTHING CHANGED WITH GUILLERMO HE GOT SHIPPED IN A CRATE AGAIN?? I did like plenty of s4 (go flip yourself ep my beloved) but I wasn’t OBSESSED like I was with s1-3. I feel like this season might get me back into it more

3) love Colin he’s just always the same it never gets old lmaoo

4) just realized Derek’s wearing a collar and like punk pants lmaooo he’s getting a new look (maybe it’s not new at all but I only just noticed it now 😭)

5) the Sean fight at the bar lmaoo AND THEY STOLE THE POLICE CAR 💀💀 also laszlo’s pronunciation strikes again (“mutha-fuck-aas”) AND THE EVIL LAUGH AFTER “eat shit TERRY”

6) I KNEW LASZLO DIDNT ACTUALLY KNOW (well I only started thinking that when he was ab to confront Guillermo but 😭) WHYD U LET IT SLIP GUILLERMO

7) Based on some of the promo plz let Guillermo and laszlo be friends (I’m so desperate for at least one of them to treat him with a little bit of kindness consistently)

8) I want Guillermo to do some cool stuff so bad 😭. Like cmon do some special van helsing vampire kills. Ig he can’t slay anymore cause he’s also a vampire but PLEASE

9) Saw someone talk ab how the camera crew is more involved and yes it’s very interesting 👁👁

10) wondering ab what they’ll do with guide cause they added her to the intro (I am fairly certain that wasn’t in s4) cause she wasn’t in the first ep AT ALL

11) I hope they bring nadja into the main story with smth unique. Laszlo found out and is getting involved (kinda training him considering the promo). Guillermo is nandors familiar so there’s a lot of possible material involving nandor regarding his vampirism. Nadja rn seems like she’s stuck in this b team plotline with the guide. I will definitely wait and see, but considering it seems like just the guide faking the hex and nadja learning to be nice I’m prob going to be more into the Guillermo stuff (and that seems like it’ll mainly involve just laszlo and nandor)

Anyways, I really enjoyed it and I’ll just keep hoping that Guillermo will one day have one of the main vampires be kind to him (((:

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #wwdits s5 #me and my numbered list 🤠 #honestly I might react like this with all my fave medias cause this is great #otherwise I’d be pacing and talking to ms 😭 #bye void!!

[lowkeyrobin]

my rules!

dream team stans + wilbur soot/lovejoy stans dni. same w anyone who idolizes/defends abusers/creeps in general.

if you're a bigot (racist, homo/transphobe, abelist, antisemite, zionist, etc) please leave

same with proshippers/proship defenders/anyone who sexualizes actors/characters/ppl especially when they state that's not okay/they're minors. ( lots of actors probably don't even know what fanfiction or fandomculture is, just respect them as actual ppl and don't be weird about them)

^ I don't condone parasocial people/activity. if you are parasocial, creepy or invasive, please block me. do NOT interact with my content nor read it. you're not welcome here

any adults who say minors dni and then interact with minors also dni. L. although if you're over like 25ish or so actually dni lmao ain't no reason for you to be here other than older content creators

seriously, don't ruin anon requesting, I'll turn it off if I have too to figure out who you are and block you

if you request a person/character who isn't on my list then there's a big chance I'll ignore it lol I'm sorry, those are just ppl ik the most and I can make not very ooc and I'm comfy writing ab them!

don't request any smut. it makes me and most of the ppl I write about uncomfortable lmao

I only write they/them / gn readers, sorry. I will write transmasc/transfem readers but only if requested, and bare with me on that cause I'm just a little nonbinary guy, idk much about being trans masc/fem

respect me as a person, I'm not a robot, I'm a real human lmao

(as in I might take a couple days to a week to get your request out and I apologize if I misunderstood your request! I might not do some due to lack of ideas so I apologize)

please please tell me if using cc's real names or writing about them is against their boundaries so I can fix my mistakes!!

I don't write anything w pregnancy tropes, kids (other than qsmp eggs) and character versions of cc's (mostly bc I can't remember a lot of c! lore and whatnot), aus (other than soulmate & apocalypse aus) incest, rape, stepcest, age regression (personal discomfort) age play, etc

if a person/character has (platonic) next to them, that's me warning you I might only do platonic stuff with them because I don't feel romantic attraction to 12yos (I'm not weird, you don't have to worry about me lol)

^with that just note that anything I write about those can be viewed as mostly platonic and I in no way find the child I'm writing about romantically attractive, thank you

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I'll also write things with (underage) drinking & smoking but I'm not gonna go to into detail about it, and I'll put it in the warnings when it happens

don't sexualize anyone I write about!

it doesn't matter if they're adults or just fictional characters, I find it wrong to sexualize people who prob don't even know what fandom culture is / sexualize their every move. find another blog if you're that mad about it. (I mean as in its your whole personality, just keep it away from me lol)

[ididkn0w]

Baby good morning😞 I’ve missed you so much I’ve been thinking about ur face. So lemme tell u ab my day so far. Babe I don’t want u to get up alrrrr😞😞 I haven’t stopped imaging us together like us pretending to be babies and sad for a kissss😭. We would hold hands everywhere n talk like best friends and take the coolest pictures of each other and laugh all the time. Ok so I’m at a resturaunt now I typed everything from before yes like nothing but bc bro I’ve been on this tour n I haven’t been able to have anyone off my fucking ass n when he talks n we stand there like I can’t be on my phone. So basically Idek if I alr started but idc I’ll repeat myself. So we hadda leave and whatever and we met up with the tour guide and I was not feeling good at all man I had the biggest headache n I was so nauseous man I was feeling so so bad like horrible. We got on a like team I guess from the city and we got to the first place and he was explaining shit I never payed attention bruh I’ve been bad in the morning and then the rest of the day I think I’ve been like hella dissaciated I’m ngl I might not even say much cus the whole day I’ve just been feeling like shit n I rlly was not like present. So then this was at like 9:30. Bro I can’t with my grandparents they treat me like I’m 7 all day every day it’s so much bro. Ok so then they were going into this sultans palace and Ik all ab this btw😅 I like history especially the ottoman one. Ok so we alr went there when I came like two years ago so I was like aight imma head out like u guys go check that out I’ll wait for u guys here bc they haven’t come before. So I waited for them and so i fell asleep on a bench😭 for two hours😭 like straight up public bench at a park n ofc I woke up every once in a while but I was so bad like I couldn’t keep falling asleep n like everytjme I woke up it was random ppl sitting next to me and whatever n I would check the time like damn they’re still not back. But thankfully I was sleeping bc wtf would I have done for two hours n then finally I woke up all super good n happy n motivated I felt so much better and then I was like fuck like how much longer will I have to wait like awake doing nothing. N thankfully they came like 15 min after. So then bruh I literally don’t even rmb what we did lemme see my pics. Oh yes there’s a pic of a baby bc I want to have a baby with u. And that was the bench where I slept at. N then we went to a cafe nearby n we tried postres and I had this drink it was rlly yummy. And more moon underthink sorta signs. Then we went to this underground thing and like I wasn’t having it so whateverrrrrr n like it used to be an aqueduct for the sultan some shit like that. And it was actually cool n they had Roman gods and goddesses in there bc the ottoman used to be scared of the Roman’s. Then we went to a very pretty mosque. I LOVE GOING TO MOSQUES. Middle eastern countries are def my second favorite place to go/have been after Thailand. Yes Ik our number one is Thailand😆😆 I love that we twin like that I love you. Ik we’re gonna go together. I need to be rich and travel with u. My number 3 is Russia. U have to take me to Ghana. Then we went to a market obv spice market but they had other stuff especially fake stuff this is where I brought my fake yeezy slides😭 imma buy another pair😭 easy to like trash them yk what I mean n I also want a fake bag but u might convince me otherwise lmk (u my stylist) imma go to those shops tomorrow. Then we went to a rooftop n im showing u my pimple. Then we left n then we got on the metro n we’re at this popular restaurant I took pics of ppl who have been here before for u that yk. Bro oh my god I just got up the did a whole show for us they even threw a plate and they made me hold this bread that said Colombia I was so fucjing red oh my god. If I didn’t give u much details or I’m not all being funny n shit perdon Bebe I’ve been pretty mad. I’ve just been wanting to get home n talk to u. Acabo de comer bebe now I’m in the bathroom shitting. The food was very yummy im just anxious bc I just wanna talk

[lovingaquarius]

things about my own chart that i find… interesting.

yes i may be exposing myself a little but i have 10h moon i’m meant to share my thoughts i guess 🙄

❤️ first i feel like i have so many placements that kinda contradict eachother like it’s a battle ground constantly in my head ex: first we got the earth dom chart you’d think grounded right!?😁, wrong. 9h aries mars and 7h pisces venus like my craving for independence and cap mercury is constantly FIGHTING FOR ITS LIFE to keep me grounded in reality against my 7h venus. and THEN we have gemini moon, virgo rising and aqua sun which is a recipe for ANXIETY and overthinking like here’s an ex of my thoughts: *sees hot guy online*😋 *gets the ick from him lip syncing.* 🥴 thats mean jalyn you’re never gonna find someone who meets your standards….no yes you will i have a feeling they’re out there🥰…..ugh god you’re so annoying you don’t need anyone.🤬 i would be fine living alone with my cats forever‼️…no i wouldn’t don’t lie. 😔

🧡 having a balance of elements is cool tho because i can get along with / relate to anyone about pretty much anything young or old. i feel like kids and old people/ older adults tend to like me too… unless they are like super conservative…

💛 see now this one is kinda juicy bc i have virgo jupiter in the 1 house w 7h pisces venus- favorable placement for people liking you/having a good rep- but then i have my 10 house gemini lilith😭😭 and for extra spice venus square pluto (4h) like when i tell you i’ve seen all of those play out like the friends i had in childhood were oddly controlling and obsessive over me. like my bsf of 8yrs would be so mad if i hung out with anyone more than her or even talked about my other friends to her. and then said friend had developed resentment towards me and would essentially go on to bully me and talk bad about me and my FAMILY to everyone. that was just atrocious of her. like you can say anything you want ab me but the second you mention my family it’s on sight. (lilith in 10 esp in gemini tend to deal with rumors spread about them). i also have saturn in the 11h tho …

💚 so i have an aquarius sun and usually we tend to have a certain distain for humanity (the darkeness of it) and i definitely do esp with my 9h aries mars i take everything PERSONAL and want to solve it RN! but then it all goes back to my PISCES VENUS and it being in the 7h just really tops it off bc then i start thinking “we’re all human, or hurt people, hurt people” like no sometimes ppl are just evil and there’s nothing you can do (this is a pill i’m STILL having trouble swallowing) example:i will see someone litter and cus them out and then see a bunch of people having picnics at the park and will cry about how cute humans are all in the same hour . yes it is exhausting. yes i see a therapist. shoutout to heather 🫶🫶

💙 my jupiter being in the 1 house and then being in virgo RX… when i was younger i used to always say i had the worst luck (still sometimes catch myself saying this) and then one day i said 👆 what if i start telling myself i have rlly good luck?? and thus my good luck began but also with a spiritual awakening that smacked me on my ass but still to this day i will find myself saying “ 🙄 just my luck” and then go wait -👁️👄👁️

💜 sexualization of 10h lilith is real bc since the BEGINNING OF TIME i have recollections of someone “crushing” on me (this is NOT me trying to flex either trust me) or projecting their sexual energy onto me (i also have an aries mars so that could be another factor) the ppl sensitive to energies will know what i’m talking about. as a pisces venus i’ve had to learn when to know what i’m feeling for someone are really MY feelings.

💕 just a question tbh but i’ve been trying to see if i can find anywhere in my chart that would indicate me being against having kids, don’t get me wrong i like kids.. we’ll… i like behaved kids, and babies, but i just don’t think i want some of my own 🫶 it might sound selfish but then i guess i’m selfish because i like my alone time too much. could it be some hyper independence? maybe. or is it my my aquarius placements 😫😋 i just know how much time alone i need and i don’t think a child would fit me. but i’m thinking my saturn in cancer could show this?!?! thoughts anyone??

🤍 i’m upset because i have a 6h stellium if you count uranus, with my aqua sun, aqua neptune and pisces uranus but i don’t resonate much with what i see about them. the things i read about 6h stelliums is they may be workoholics but that is not my case 😭 bc instead i’m chronically ill. (i have P.O.T.S and some other shit) i’ve seen that a stellium here could indicate health problems so that checks out. i also love animals and have had experiences with claircognizance since i was young. i’ve always felt like i have one foot in the spirit world and one foot here. i still feel like that. my dreams are so vivid sometimes i don’t know if i’m dreaming or not i have a lot of dreams within dreams i hate them 🤬. but the neptune/pisces/uranus influence there is inch resting.. coincidence i think NOT!

#astrology #astrology observations

[ghosttotheparty]

another vent bc the universe is testing me lately (cw disordered eating and just general negativity bc i’m going through it)

i am so anxious!!! i’ve been taking my meds!!! but my third year starts this month and idk wtf i’m doing w my life!!

why am i studying art i don’t even have a consistent art style; but i don’t have ANYTHING else i could possible do

my gender is going bonkers and i wanna kinda transition but i just want to be more androgynous but idk how i could do that and i’m not even out to my parents and idk if i ever will be bc my dad is Not an ally to trans ppl but i love him so much and he loves me so much but idk if he’d still love me the same if i came out to him

there’s drama in my friend group and two of my close friends aren’t friends anymore and it’s been a while coming but it still sucks and idk what to do bc i love them both sm but i am so on one side bc the other is so in the wrong but idk how to tell her without her getting mad

i still haven’t made an appt to see the surgeon ab my cyst and im so anxious ab it bc i hate medical things and it’s been making my arm sore (which happens when i think ab needles usually but it hasn’t happened in a while and i hate the sensation so much it’s so fucking scary)

my psychiatrist hasn’t responded to me email bc a prescription bc i’m almost out of one of the pills i take and im stressed

i think i’ve gained weight and i’m trying so hard to not be upset and to be neutral ab my body and how i look but my new apartment has a full size mirror and i can’t help but analyze myself in it; i changed my outfit three times today bc i hated how i looked in two different pairs of pants (one of them i wear fairly often and now i never want to wear them again even though they’re so comfy i hated how they looked today)

i’m trying to eat consistently but all of the above with my anxiety is fucking up my appetite and i do not want to go through all of this again i was doing so well this summer

i’ve been so spacey and i do not feel real lately but everything just feels so heavy and i am so fucking tired

and usually when i feel particularly Heavy i just watch community or buzzfeed unsolved or a documentary or something while i write or draw so i’m preoccupied and thinking ab too many things to think ab what’s upsetting me but laptop kicked it (getting a new one this weekend 🎊) and my tv is frozen and won’t even turn off (it faces my bed and is quite bright i might have to cover it w a blanket; which makes me anxious bc it feels like a fire risk) (also i’m gonna have to go to reception tomorrow and tell them and i don’t want to be my social anxiety has been going ham lately and i’m just UGH)

anyway i am very tired and i cannot wait to go home this weekend and see my parents and my dog (i have a dentist appt and i’m trying not to think about it) and i just want to go to sleep

#i think my period might start soon #listening to spotify and it gave me a noah kahan song #the universe rly just wants to see me break doesn’t she #just me talking

[ravenkinnie]

cw//text wall of disorganized thoughts

"there has to be sediments of resentment and anger with the way things played out" im so happy you brought this up bcs i really wanna talk ab some of jinx's feelings toward silco that are a bit more complicated like i know she loves him and i wouldnt say she hates him but i think the way she talked ab silco backstabbing vander makes me think that there IS unresolved frustration she has to silco deep down but she blocks that out bcs of guilt and hipocrisy bcs to be upset at silco for leading to the death of her family she herself has to truly face her own sins that lead to her family's death

like oh she thinks silco is unforgivable for killing vander? but she killed mylo&claggor, so is she unforgivable too? and its unbearable for her to think too much about so she doesnt and suppresses it and doesnt get mad at silco for being a killer bcs she is a killer too and he even ends up being one of the very few ppl she loves so dearly but the guilt would still be there tiny and quiet but stubbornly lingering in the crevices of her heart, that inner voice that frowns upon her for loving him battling against other voices that tell her silco is the only person who understands her now and she cannot lose him so just put up with the guilt that eats her up inside bcs in the end she found someone that is just like her.

yea ofc silco himself likely using manipulative mental acrobatics on her has a part in it but jinx has her own heart and mind and that is ultimately the most fascinating element when talking ab these things for me. like thinking ab all this astounds me how messed up their relationship is more than i already knew which is insane but i love them for that!!

exactly exactly you get it

I think honestly jinxs view of vander is so interesting because its so heavily influenced by silco and silco's projection of him and vander on her and vi. I think somewhere in that reddit AMA it was said that jinx doesn't hate vander the way silco does but she thinks he made the wrong choice and I can't believe you can just drop a line like that like the implications of this aren't crazy. there's clearly some guilt or grief there or else he wouldn't be a part of her hallucinations at all but then she believes silco was, in a way, in the right too, the cognitive dissonance of it would make anyone lose their mind. and the way she says that he stabbed vander in the back like he was going to stab her, like obv he stabbed him literally and i dont doubt silco would be like yeah i did that HSHDHJSHS but I wonder if there is an underlying sense there that it was a betrayal, it just wasn't as much of a betrayal as what vander has done to him

and then ofc she does love him and she depends on him emotionally, both because he fostered this dependency and just from a plain position of being his child. and even more so she relates to him, like its clear that a lot of their connection on both sides is projection and kinship, she thinks he is like her. so exactly like you said, except I do think jinx already thinks she is unforgivable and considers herself monstrous to a degree because she's aware of herself but as long as that one person she cares about accepts her as she is she doesn't care. she only starts seeming unsteady in it when vi shows up who, of course, would never accept her as that violent uncaring person. I think they tapped into something so interesting there at the core of this dynamic and its that being loved is addictive enough but being understood and have that be unconditional is a hell of a drug. and silco might be daddy's perfect little manipulator but he's not just her abuser, he's also her enabler first

and obv I'm a silco stannie and I feel like I should disclaim that jinx was ofc a child, she was an abandoned child and then became his child so she will always have less power in this relationship, whatever she was fed she would probably accept, regardless of what dynamic silco would impose on her. but I think it's also true that if he was yk. a less evil person ehshsj this bond wouldn't be so tangled or strong because jinx wouldn't relate to him on this level

#asks #jinx #silco and jinx

[huggy-bears]

still don't get how ppl r expecting Kinn to have a plan to explain his decision of locking Porsche up at the end of ep 9 where as the reasons are presented on the table; the unauthorized listening device. Ppl dont want to hear this but Porsche made a mistake when he bugged Tawan's room w/o permission & followed Kinn & Tawan afterward. Viewers know about Kinnporsche relationship in others's eyes he's displaying mole behavior, listening in his boss, tailing him in his secret appointment. Kinn got canceled for not telling Porsche ab his plan (if there's even one) but Porsche was also acting in secret here. Tawan knew ab the bugs but waited and exposed Porsche when he showed up at Tawan's apartment. Porsche was caught red handed and confronted infront of the guards. Not even talking who's the mole, Kinn's position as a leader is challenged bc Porsche broke directives protocol. There are rules in such organizations and everyone knows ab it. Kinn as a leader is left with no choice but to follow it through. Kinn ordering Porsche to be locked up is the correct procedural decision. I don't understand why ppl were mad ab that? No where did it state he didn't love Porsche or chose Tawan over him.

I think people are mostly pissed off at the amount of touchiness and closeness Kinn allowed from Tawan in front of Porsche's salad. Also, if he has a plan (which I hope he does and recent interviews with Mile suggests Kinn does), I think if you're going to involve someone in it, everyone involved in said plan should know about it instead of having them think you don't love/trust them anymore and making them believe you trust your snake ass ex more than you after two or so episodes of passionate love making and basically professing your love for one another... also, when Kinn saw Porsche and Vegas at the pool, it can be interpreted as Kinn being vengeful or getting even with Porsche by going with Tawan so... it just doesn't look great for Kinn in that regard...though I agree that Kinn had to look like an objective and not subjective leader by going through formal investigative procedures and such as one would with a potential mole.

Thank you for spending time and giving me your thoughts. I can understand from Porsche´s point of view the amount of uneasiness and insecurity seeing his boyfriend sharing a moment with the ex right in front of him. The series presented it rather clearly but I don´t know if the audience grasped how big of an impact Kinn and Tawan´s past relationship left a mark on Kinn emotionally. Pete talked about it in ep 2 how it made Kinn turn from being kind and caring to cold and ruthless. Kinn father brought up what happened every chance he could and then we have Vegas telling Porsche a skewed version of the story to mess with his head, but one thing remained unchanged was the aftermath of that relationship. Kinn believed he killed his ex lover, betrayers must die, but the pain changed him as a person and he still kept his picture with Tawan after all of it. He admitted to Porsche in ep 8 that it was because he couldn´t move on from Tawan completely. It was much easier to accept that when both of them thought Tawan was death. Kinn was ready to move on by throwing the picture away and went to make merit with Porsch. Tawan coming back sort of unlocked all the memories and trauma from the past. On top of it, he presented a potential solution to a long standing problem Kinn and his family had. Kinn obviously didn´t trust Tawan but keeping him around and playing his game might help them get to the bottom of it.

Now on to the ´´Korean´´ incident that made the entire fandom scream blood. There are 2 schools of thought on this matter. One believed that Kinn had a plan and was only leading Tawan on by pretending to be caught in the moment with him. However he should have informed Porsche in advance to avoid any misunderstanding between, because Porsche ended up cutting Kinn and Tawan´s conversation short out of anger. It could very well be an on the spot decision from Kinn since Tawan was the one who brought up the pictures first. Kinn made a spontaneous plan because the opportunity presented itself and therefore was unable to tell Porsche beforehand. The other school of thought was that Kinn genuinely slipped back in his memories when he saw his past photos with Tawan and Porsche snapped him out of it. From my observation in these past days, the fandom could somehow tolerate the first option but would definitely destroy and cancel Kinn if it was the second scenario. I personally think what happened was the latter. As someone who had first hand experience in traumatic first love I could understand how Kinn could potentially be genuinely caught in the moment. It was not because of any love or residual feeling he might have for Tawan, but more of the person Kinn was when he was with him. The innocent smile, the carefree trustful spirit, the love in void of any fear or doubt, they are the things that Kinn could never get back. First love is powerful in a way that if it ends badly it would left a permanent scar and makes people mourn the person they were before it happens. And i think that was what happened with Kinn. Do I like it? Absolutely not. I was screaming along with the fandom at that moment as I watched the episode, but I could understand it because I could relate to it. It was a very real human emotion. It was unfortunate that it happened right in front of Porsche so I could also understand his frustration and insecurity. Now I may look like a total clown if in a few hours the next episode reveals that Kinn indeed had a plan at that moment, of which i would be happy to don the make up tbh :). However if it was the other scenario and he truly got caught in it, it is up to each and everyone´s judgement if they could find it in their hearts to empathize and forgive him. 

You mention that Kinn deciding to go alone with Tawan as a payback to Porsche spending time with Vegas and I have to unfortunately disagree. Kinn had no idea that Porsche was listening in to him and Tawan so his decision to whether or not to go alone with Tawan should have had no impact on Porsche because Porsche simply wouldn´t know about it. Payback requires the other party to acknowledge the impact of their action and the counter-action to it, like that verbal slapback in ep 7 when Porsche point blank brought up Tawan and said Kinn killed his ex lover out of mistrust (Vegas´ skewed version of the story) and Kinn knowing whom Porsche got this version of the story from and seeing Porsche not only heard but trusted Vegas with it lost his wit and insulted Porsche back. Episode 9 was nothing like that Kinn was on his way to have a conversation with Porsche after Tawan´s request of a 2-person-only meetup. Seeing Porsche with Vegas sharing a moment probably severed Kinn´s trust that he could include Porsche in his future plan. Vegas and Tawan respectively mirrored Kinn´s and Porsche´s mistrusts and insecurities in their relationship with each other. It´s a genius use of parallel from a storytelling perspective, giving the audience a very clear view of Kinn and Porsche´s relationship status without them having to verbally tell us. Someone on the KP tag said episode 9 wasn´t about Kinn vs. Porsche but Kinn and Porsche vs. the obstacles laid out for them by external forces. They had to deal with in their own way and sometimes their methods collided and conflicted with one another. With all the major plots have yet to be revealed, I expect even more fall outs to happen before they could pick up the pieces and get together again. 

I apoligize for this insanely long reply. I wasn´t aware of how long it had gotten until I was finished with it. 

Hopefully we have a better watching experience the next few episodes and the fandom wont be as divided as it is now.

Thank you for stopping by. Have a nice day! 

#kinnporsche #ask #ep 9 meta and the likes

[jayflrt]

alice as one of the older kids on sfw enhablr (not saying ur old !! 😭😭 it’s just that there’s a lot of minors on here) how do you feel abt the current content for the maknae line? like ik it’s not always super sexualized or anything but sometimes i see stuff that’s just the way it’s worded really rubs me the wrong way ☹️ esp bc some of the kids on here are so young it makes me feel like if they see stuff like that , they might start think it’s okay for others to treat them the same or vice verse … whenever i see edits of niki on tiktok , i have to avoid the comments bc there’s almost always like a “daddy” , “how is he 16” or “you don’t know what you do to me” like wtf he’s a literal child ?? it makes me so mad and honestly so uncomfortable :( and i saw an article on kboo today too that said niki apparently has around 200 explicit or mature fics written abt him on ao3 … sometimes even the fboi trope (usually when it’s written abt minors) bothers me bc i see minors writing abt it (like 13-15 y/o) and i don’t understand why they don’t just use the term player or smtg … bc they’ll go out of their way to mention how the character has sex a lot an whatnot , even that feels way too suggestive for me personally for a minor too write let aline abt a minor too , sorry for the rant,, i was just wondering how you felt … omg also though tbh i noticed that some of the minors on here / blogs in gen seem way too comfy on here like they’ll be sharing where they live , their actual names and sometimes like giving a lot of personal info … like did they not learn abt internet safety or do they just no care? as one of the older kids , i kind of worry abt them :( i really hope everybody stays safe on here <3 & some reminders: never be afraid to block anyone ! bc i’ve seen a lot of minors on here get sent stuff from the p*rn bots or just weird dms :( & u don’t need to force yourself to interact with someone , make sure ur comfy with them first !

HAHAH dw anon i know what you meant !! plus i’m aware i’m on the older side of the enhablr audience 😵‍💫 you actually bring up a point that’s been my mind a lot recently because i’ve been seeing a lot of suggestive undertones in comments directed towards riki especially on tiktok lately 😭😭 as you said, i get that there’s a trend of comments that are like “how is he only 16” and “the things he does to me” but i always feel so weird about the first one especially 💀 idkkk i thought i was just being a buzzkill but the comments do put me off a little LOL like these ones

yeah idk ab minors writing fuckboy tropes bc it’s like veryyyy suggestive and very much toeing the line of borderline smut 💀 also i don’t get the point of a fuckboy trope for riki :/ i feel like it adds absolutely nothing to the plot too if the point is just a “bad boy au” other than fanservice so i truly don’t understand the point. and riki has over 200 mature fics written for him??? that’s so horrible oh my god 😭

i think it’s much more common to share more information over the internet now than it was years back, and it’s a little scary sometimes 😵‍💫 i do hope everyone is practicing internet safety tho bc there are some evil evil people out there <//3 also i actually find it hard to block ppl HAHAH but yes don’t be afraid to block porn bots and people who are being suspicious !! i actually blocked a porn bot just a while ago 💀 i’m not sure why there’s soooo many of them on tumblr all of a sudden :o

#💌 : love notes #anon

[sweetescapeartist]

Okay, I got a **** rating for my birthday on the 4th by a Australian cam woman who's content I like a lot, and she outright love my ****! Which is ironic given the mad shit people talk about how short guys aren't packing. Like how people bitched about Uzaki being unrealistic for being short young adult with big breasts, people would do the same if they see a short guy with big **** like Krillin and I. Hell, women came forward about how it isn't unrealistic for short women to have big breasts, but nothing much on the opposite end sadly.😶

I want to say "nice" but out of context that might sound like I'm interested in guys lol. So I'll say "cool" instead because it sound more respectful.

And not to go too much into myself... I'm 5'6" now, (I guess that's considered kinda short to people) but I used to be shorter until I hit a growth spurt when I was a teen. However, as a used to be short guy and a now kinda/almost average height guy, I can personally say short guys shouldn't be judged by their height.

And its interesting to me that folks say guys need to be taller than their women. I guess its a "a taller guy looks dominant" type of thing. Maybe some insecurity from tall guys to make themselves look better too? And I guess women think shorter is cuter for themselves? As long as the woman is cool, I don't care how tall or how short she is. (Never really been a guy that likes big boobs tho. I like thighs & abs.)

As for the Uzaki Chan thing where ppl said she looked like a kid who the artists gave large breasts... I guess those ppl never saw a short adult women with large breasts before? Short women can have big breast & short men can have big dicks.

Kinda off subject, but I hate when ppl say a if a woman is short & flat chested, she is a child. I know women like that who are older than myself. And ppl say that if a girl has big tits, she is an adult. When I was 13 & 14, I knew girls my age who had bigger breasts than grown women. I dont use breast size to judge if somebody is an adult or not. Boobs are very misleading & thats how you quickly get in serious trouble.

I make sure I know the person's age first before I assume anything. Cause I look & sound like I'm 16. So its weird when teens try to hit on me & weird when adults hit on me then say they thought I was 16 or 17. Like... You thought I was underage & you still tried to get with me?? Were you tryna groom me or something? Ew...

#rokta #ask #short kings

[coldbones222]

so y’all . I know from the shxt I post I prob sound toxic asf but I’m actually a deeply understanding person. I wanna tell y’all a bit ab myself so u can understand me better

I’ve been to mental hospitals 6 or 7 times I can’t remember which but def 6 at least and not 8 times so in between there. I’ve been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder , complex ptsd and major depressive disorder and i grew up moving around a lot. I went to a lot of different schools and never kept friends for long . I always just cut ppl off. Or ruined things bc I could.

those times I went to hospitals, I probably wouldn’t have went if I had someone to talk to abt what was going on, my mom couldn’t handle all of my issues and never listened to me. she’d get overwhelmed and so I turned to sh and s0bstances , a lot of them..

I’ve been completely sober for over a month now and on nov.12 it’ll be 2 months!!!!! it might not sound like long to some ppl but for me, I used to party so much, every single day, and used s0bstanzes recklessly . one time I d1ed and had to be brought back to l1fe at the emergency room bc of an od.

I’ve been given another chance at life and I want to be happy. The happiest times of my life in these 19 years so far have been when I was at my lw…

I’m not sharing that fact to encourage anyone to l0se lbs or to say u won’t be happy unless ur th1n . ur perfect the way u r. but for me, even tho I was diagnosed w atypical Ana (atypical bc my body weight isn’t underweight but everything else aligns with “normal” Ana. idk. I rly don’t understand it but the way I was treated made me feel so special. I’ve never felt more special and beautiful than when I was at my lw and that is my motivation.

I just wanted to share a little bit ab myself here bc I’m still pissed ab this girl I talked ab in a post a few hrs or so ago, the girl claiming she was in recovery and she didn’t like that I said recovery triggers me.

it made me mad bc I felt misunderstood. She said my post saying recovery triggers me was stupid asf.

but it’s not, to me. it never will be. I didn’t say that to be trendy or whatever she thought, or to be pro. I’m not pro except for myself , and i mean that. I look at ppl with so much love and respect no matter their weight.

it’s just with myself, I have experienced two completely separate lives. one when I was overweight, and one when I was at my lw. and the feelings I had then, I want back so badly. THAT is why I’m here on tumblr.

also to be there if anyone needs someone to talk to. it would make me feel better to be able to use what I’ve been through to be able to help someone else bc I’ve been through so much terrible shxt I couldn’t control and was dragged into by my family growing up. I just wanna be that person I wish I had to talk to during those hard times.

it doesn’t matter if nobody understands bc nobody is me, but I wanted to explain myself just bc I can. there is logic and emotion behind my actions , and I was triggered by that girl. she’s like so many ppl who tell me I don’t need to lose weight.

when ppl tell me I’m fine the way I am , it just makes me feel like they don’t see the happiness I see in me being th1n, which in turn makes me feel very alone.

ofc I hope someone reads even just a part of this post, bc I rly wanna feel seen and understood, not just some wannabe sk1nni girl.

the emotions I feel are very real and although what I post about may seem shallow, the feelings behind my posts run very deep.

#4norexi4 #4n4m1a #4namia #4n4rexia #3d f4st #f4st!ng #th1gh gap #th1n$po #th11n$p0 #f4tspo #tw ana diary #tw ana related #tw ana thoughts

[lostacelonnie]

Im gonna thank modern medicine when i go on hrt soon got that appointment to make tomorrow. Well call & have them call me back when they are open. Oh yeah for sure i need to go back to the ocean again soon. Yeah for sure trial by you have to sure helps when you gotta pick up the languages. Oh big mood my spoken spanish is. Not as good as what i can understand. Remembering the two polish people i met in 2013 makes me definitely believe that im not sure i ever got their names right. Definitely noted i wouldnt travel anywhere in spring or summer anyways. Oh? Ill have to build her for sure then. Give me something to do while i wait for bronya to come home & seele to re run. Im honestly starting to care for genshin less so its fine by me. Sounds like people just wanted to start fires? Or were being some type of silly? Welcome back from your vacation i hope you had fun i was waiting to reply til you got back

OH THATS SO COOL CONGRATS ON THE HRT!! i wanna go on hrt sooooo badly one day but well see how doable it will be in poland. tho i am optimistic about the future since the current extremely conservative ruling party has lost a LOT of support over the years theyve been in charge so. theres hope! and good luck with that, i luckily will get a chance relatively soon with that school trip i mentioned. tho im not 100% sure if im gonna be confident enough to be in a swimsuit in front of my class since i dont even particularly like most of them. and yeah it really is like that with languages sjfgkkgkd the only reason my spoken english is good is bc i had a LOT of one-on-one lessons with a native speaker so i went through a lot of practice. and thats ok sjfjkfj its extremely common for foreigners to not be able to pronounce polish names [and for a reason. hell language even for us] so as long as you even try nobodys gonna be mad ajjdkf. tho in my personal case its very funny bc my birthname is literally identical in a lot of languages so ppl just accentuate it incorrectly. and soften the r. i unfortunately travel mainly in spring or summer since thats when i have the most free time, but im gonna try to convince my mom to go to more colder places [i miss tromso that was my ideal climate]. anyways, yeah thats a good idea!! seriously claras counters are so unbelievably cracked since 1. big big dmg, actually her main source of it, and 2. unlimited. everytime she gets attacked she immediately counters [after her ult, she also does this for allies attacked twice] so yeah i got her very early [30 pulls on standard, my beginner 5* was bailu] and since got her e1 and rec 10/10. im waiting to get bronya as well and since i dont have kafka guaranteed and won 50.50 twice in a row im not very confident ab getting her, i hope that if i lose its at least gonna be bronya. or welt. welt is cracked. i actually uninstalled genshin from my pc a while ago since i stopped playing altogether but i might come back from fontaine since im always curious ab the new regions. tho i did completely ignore the chasm coming out when it did. idk didnt excite me that much. and yeah i also think thats the case but at the same time Hm. average day in warsaw. AND YEAH HI IT WAS SO FUN OH MY GOD I ACTUALLY HAD A MEETING YESTERDAY WITH A COUPLE FRIENDS FROM CAMP + AVERY SINCE IT WAS AVS BIRTHDAY AND. AHHH. BEST CAMP IVE BEEN ON I THINK. also one of my campmates had hair dye so i have red hair now. fun!

#AND since av was helping everyone with eyeliner like everyday to the degree that she barely had time to do her own #im gonna Train until next vacation to help them next year #asks #pen pals

[jeremy-knox-knocks]

i think it’s a crime that there aren’t more kevallison posts and fics

#ppl might get mad at me ab this #allison reynolds #kevin day #aftg #kevallison #andrew minyard #neil josten #the foxhole court

[vanityloves]

hnnrhg my work is pissing me off bc ppl keep calling in sick but i think its bc they need to quarantine - i got a message from work saying some1 tested positive in the restaurant so now im all Fucked Up bc im VERY VERY anxious since i have a large family so 👨‍🦯

#brainworm ivy #im getting to the point where i might call in and if they wanna fire me thats fine bc idk #covid mention #covid tw #i gotta get this damn booster fbc Fuck jsnggh chrostsmanss. #ALSO im not mad at the ppl that need to quarantine im just Upset ab the situation #only bc im paranoid so im just high strung

[munamania]

why wont my roommate leave the kitchen...

#. #honestly ik its pointless to keep complaining ab my roommates but why did i get fucked over w my situation so heavily this yr #at least other roommate is also mad at her now for using our shit without asking and ifeel less crazy #oh my god now shes singing #girl get tf out i wanna make my brunch so i can go outside and enjoy whats left of the day jesus f christ #like. i could go in there and make my food but its so teeny tiny and i HATE doing shit w other ppl in the kitchen ughhh #im not so excited about being at home for a month when none of my friends will be there but #i am so excited to have a long break from roommates #the week was nice. a month might give me a chance to be fully refreshed and not hate my life #plus the worse roommate will b gone next semester < #3 #lol nature is healing #abby talks #roommate rants