#ppl seemed to like it on insta so im posting it here too

[frazzledazzlin]

thsc fans made me a kinder person wowie

#was talking with my gf some days ago and i have gotten less violent in my head HELPDGF #no bc personal rambles if ur not interested idm but #last year fucked me up so bad everyday i used to get strikes on insta for my private posts to vent it out #its the funniest shit to look back on tbh Help but i genuinely look back on some posts and go wow this motherfucker rly made me a violent- #person and he acted like all that happened to me was my fault #i seriously do not want another message from that fuck on ny birthday again i will make his life living fucking hell #this december will be full of copperright and thsc . i have not felt so emotionally vulnerable in so long LMAO #thanks to these little fucks i want to throw them around i love yhem #it took some silly gentle people of this fandom for me to realize perhaps i should tone down the violent humor #bc a friend in another friend group lately also opened up that hayy i think im. not ok with playful bullying anymore and i felt bad even #though i dont talk much there Fuck you timezones #i will admit the excessive usage of tone indicators in sticktwt seems too much to me but not a huge issue overall #i am but a reserved fucked up aunt of the thsc fandom that ppl seem to rly enjoy the reactions of when they post copperrifht HSGSSGD #i commissioned 5 people to draw copperright i think that's enough to tell the damage done to me by thsc #coping mechanism for when ur sick for a literal month without a day's break 👍 #anyway erm maybe i love u guys what are u gonna do about it #i cannot for the life of me talk in dms without being anxious but tumblr and discord servers are what save my life #i am here but hiding behind a pole cartoon style #gootbye

[respitelocklyre]

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[The following session summary is set up as a series of fast-paced tweets from Respite's private account, none of which posted successfully.]

>Heyyy so this is a longshot but does anyone here know spells that can undo, like, idk... transmutation magic? I think I messed w some fae shit and now im tiny and trapped inside an enchanted dollhouse lol [Attached are pictures of gigantic furniture, as seen from through a window, presumably from inside said dollhouse]

>As if my date night hasnt been going badly enough im gonna kms

>Okay for some context, if u follow my insta or dinkdonk u know im at the seelie market tonight and everything seemed rlly fun but it turns out there's some dark shit happening. so we wanted to snoop more while their main show was going on.

>(like ENSLAVEMENT kinda dark shit btw- we're trying to help ppl! there's a hag running the market and holding ppl hostage!! including my friend's sister maybe!!! I promise I'll have a whole other post abt that later tho lol)

>Anyways i talked to the guy running the ring toss & he said the show would be like 30min but didn't know if the big bad boss lady (Madame) would be there or not so we were being sooooo careful

>We even checked for divination magic but Sersh didn't find ANY magic at all, which was ultimately WAY more sus. Thad kept saying we should just leave which, like, FAIR, but i felt like we couldn't just go back empty-handed (mistake)

>Can't go into too much detail but i found my way into the totally unlocked Madame's caravan to try and search for the contracts keeping everyone enslaved. it was full of puppets and dolls and dresses and this crazy ornate dollhouse (foreshadowing)

>Also wait omg i almost got caught while sneaking in, but i used a bunch of cantrips to make everyone think there was an earthquake and then i pretended to be one of the marionettes inside the caravan when the goblin workers came to investigate lolol suckers totally fell for it

>And once they were gone i found a key and a couple slips of paper inside a wardrobe! The papers were these weird fairytales. Does anyone recognize them??? [Attached images of the uploaded document/story from the DM]

>The key went into a slot in the dollhouse so naturally, if a key fits im gonna turn it, right??? it must've been trapped tho bc that shit knocked me TF out

>So that's where im at rn. I just kinda woke up inside the dollhouse. im gonna keep trying to call my bf or my party but the service is spotty af. Any advice is appreciated 😭

>^^^For legal reasons this is all a joke btw and i didn't do any of this. Making it up for clout, etc etc

>Kind of urgent

>Also OMG I almost forgot the most important part: one of my party members showed me his fucking SOUNDCLOUD and it was so 💀💀💀 PLEASE go give it a listen and tell me ur thots lol his handle is @/ThadyT

>like dont be mean or comment anything bc he'll know whats up so be cool but omfg i just need someone else to listen to this alfkjasldf;fdhg

>Oh shit i dont think these are posting LMAAOOOO RIP TO ME 🪦 SEE U GUYS IN THE SHADOWFELL IG 🫡🐦‍⬛👑

#Strixhaven life updates

[heyharoldsboo]

Hi ARIES, look we know you lurk around here because Ana has mentioned how she gets weekly asks calling her a dickriding cunt. Gotta assume it’s you at this point. I know this is a long message but i suggest you read it.

We know you are the reddit poster. We also know who “the minor that percy groomed and abused” is and we know the age difference between them is not 5 years like you said (even though initially you said about 3-4…you should have read your proof better tbh) but about 2.5 years and we also know that this girl still follows percy and katie on ig. (For those who dont know, dont try to find this girl ppl its impossible she changer her name in ig). And he followed her before your army of minions bullied him into unfollowing all his friends and art pages on insta. If she was so terrified and abused by him why is she still following him and his current gf or ex gf wtv they are? Ohh and speaking of this minor, there is proof on ig of you doing drugs with her when she was still a minor and you were over 18. Thats not a great! People are not exposing her because its obvious she does not wanna get involved, shes only 18. But thats because Percy defenders have respect and dont wanna scoop low. That is also the reason why the reddit post proof has not been shared. So keep that in mind.

as for your SA allegations, i dont want to assume what SA is like for any given person but if you did meet him at a party, you yourself said he “ touched your back and hips and asked you to chill”. So basically he hit on you? you also said it was not violent and that you know some people will say its nothing. Why would you say that at all if what he really did was SA? I also find it strabge how you seem to post insta stories from ever party you ever go to lately but you didnt back then? During the age of smartphones. And also you should tell Kayla DMs dont get deleted when someone blocks you or an app gets updated.

but anyways, dont wanna get too much into debunking proof, there a lot if that on twitter. I wanna tell you that it is more than clear you are not well. The way you post on reddit, especially facebook. I know its not easy mental health wise and you need help. Those tweets you tweeted yesterday, about how you have done horrible things and cant apologise, dont know what thats about but if its about Percy you should come clean. I know you never will though, too much to ask for because what you and your friends have done is truly inhumane. You took a small toxic part of a teens life, when he was probably troubled and part of an awful group of friends with those girls and that brycen guy and embelished a situation to put a narrative out there that he was some weekly rapist. And you all know this, thats why you dont have better proof, thats why the only things you could provide was proof he cheated on Karis and told Desiree she wasnt a liar and had to inform himself because it was the first time he had to deal with this and it was a delicate situation. If he raped girls every weekend, why was it the first time he had to deal with that when desiree says she got raped at a party? Desiree does not deny whatbhe says at all. Also, why did Kayla text a rapist to call someone to make all this end? Why give a rapist any chance to apologize or “explain himself”? Makes no sense. you see Aries the very own ss you girls shared invalidate the narrative you were trying to put out there. Because you all knew simply saying he was a womanizer and a bully would not be enough to cancel him.

Not a lot of people have any compassion left for you. Maybe im soft but I kind of do. Because I had a family member who had the issues that you are dealing with now and I know how hard it is. You need help, professional help and to find the right medication and the right dosage as well. And you need to get off social media, it is the worst thing for someone in your situation. You should come clean about how you feel and what you did and close it off. Disconnect, clear your mind and girl i dont know if you are seeing one or not, but you need a better doctor or therapist. I do feel for you a bit, even if so many people dont because i dont think you’re thinking straight and i think you are very confused and in crisis.

i dont know about the rest of the girls, but wtv grudge they held against percy from high school, they got their revenge. He will have haters forever, this will forever be a stain on his life and career. You have all done SO MUCH damage, you have no idea! So congratulations but now ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! From all you!

i truly wish you get the help you need one day

I'm glad there are still compassionate people in this world, because I am one of the people who have no kindness or compassion left for her or any of the Shitshow sisters.

I hope karma gets her good.

#i stand with percy #percy is innocent #heyharoldsboo

[loser-jpg]

THIS POSG IS OUTDATED, IGNORE IT

A lot of blogs seem to have intro posts so i decided to make one,

Hi im Loser, I write and draw so thats pretty much what im gonna be posting here. If anyone has prompts or ideas for me I'd love to hear them, or if you have questions i have the ask thing open.

Im in a lot of fandoms but mainly stranger things NOW TWISTED WONDERLAND :DD so thats gonna be most of my content. Im trans(he/it) and aroace spec. I might post cool photos I take or stuff like that too.

Really I just put up the stuff I want to share and if that happens to be stuff you like then thats great!

Ive had the ask box open but recently ive been trying to get myself to write more so if ppl have small prompts or reqs id love that, ill write for basically any fandom ive posted about but mostly prob twisted wonderland and stranger things. ill write x reader stuff but only gn reader or masc.

NEW EDIT: sideblogs!!!!

my orv brainrot side blog: @king-of-a-kingless-world

my war against tumblr bots side blog: @deathtothebots

my new side blog for my ocs aka willow night: town of landlock: @willow--night

tged side blog: @shovel-hooligan-frontera

Fic Master list

Ao3

And for a Moment, there was Hope:

Just a Favor:

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

other socials:

ao3: loser_jpg

tiktok: loser__jpg

insta: loser__jpg

cohost: loser-jpg

moot list because god damn theres a lot of you and i cant keep track:

lemonnya (irl)

rougeddie (stranger things)

transfem-2d (just tumblr stuff)

girlynb (ok ko)

navnae (stranger things)

shanedoesdoodles (ok ko)

kikizu (ok ko)

devondespresso (stranger things)

meowloomeow (just tumblr stuff)

the--falling--titan (irl)

demonlike-judge-of-fire (ORV :DD)

rhaenyyras (stranger things)

queen-shiba (twisted wonderland)

leonistic (twisted wonderland)

azulashengrottospiano (twisted wonderland)

officialdaydreamer00 (just tumblr stuff / twst)

the-flags (just tumblr stuff/orv/tged)

disteluria (WAKFU MOOT LETS GOOO)

fungifanart (tmblr stuff/twst)

#loser speaks

[golbrocklovely]

Im so glad I found older snc fans because I was starting to think it was just pretty young fans who can’t seriously discuss their relationships and lives and content.

this got to be a very long response, so sorry in advance lol

what i find very interesting about fandom culture as it is now is that when i first joined snc's fandom back in 2018, i was on insta only and literally there were confession accounts on there. basically in a similar vain to here, ppl would dm the person that owned the account "confessions" or opinions they had about anything related to snc and then the account would post it, and ppl would talk in the comments about it. usually those accounts would get out of hand eventually bc ppl would send in a lot of mean ones that would end up getting the person that owned the account in trouble.

wow, things haven't changed lol

but i think what ended those accounts was at one point there was an account that talked about a girl colby was possibly dating at the time, and the confession was shitting on her, and then colby commented on that post and said the equivilant of "hey i get you guys have opinions and i love that you want to share them and i don't mind seeing them, but if they are hurtful or mean i don't want that in my life". and i think that solidified the end of confession accounts, at least in this fandom.

i also think there was a major shift during the pandemic where ppl just didn't want to see anything deemed "negative" so now ppl are hyper vigilent to call out those that seem to be doing anything not positive. which i can understand sometimes, but i think a lot of fans take things too far. both sides do this.

my thing is, i've always enjoyed seeing other ppl's opinions, even when i don't agree. especially when related to fandom stuff. bc a lot of what we talk about on here is meant to be light-hearted and goofy and not to be taken seriously. i mean for christ's sakes we talk about the girls colby may or may not have hooked up with. and mind you, we barely have proof of any of them ! so again, it's all supposed to be silly and not urgent, important info.

but i think the reason why a lot of fans, sometimes younger, don't like seeing conversations like this is bc they think it's inappropiate or goes too far or bc it's not ultra positive all the time, it's deemed not worth having. which i get. i won't argue over that. my thing is….. yall are having these conversations too, you just keep it in dms and gcs. and if you pretend that isn't the case and "no i would NEVER talk about snc like this", you're lying. or you're very foolish to think that not everyone else around you is doing the same thing. the difference is i allow these conversations to happen publicly on my page.

i think bc i also allow ppl, for the most part, to vent about snc and others related to them, i'm seen as agreeing with their opinion - whether good or bad. but that usually isn't the case, but bc i'm allowing someone to have a voice when they otherwise wouldn't, i'm deemed bad or a hater.

on twitter, i think a lot of the disconnect comes from this idea of younger fans vs older. i think a lot of the younger fans don't want to interact with the older, and that's totally understandable. god knows 16 year old me wouldn't have wanted to talk to someone a decade older than me. and vice versa. i think the issue that arises is that the younger fans see the older ones as… too old to still be here. they see someone my age and go "why are you still around, you should have left already" or that i shouldn't be on social media to begin with. that whole idea is funny to me bc i've been online longer than some of them have been alive (but please note i ain't saying that as a flex lol). i also think a lot of older fans make younger fans uncomfortable, especially on twitter, for being very…….polarizing. and i think the older fans see the younger ones as annoying. like younger siblings that just won't fuck off.

do i agree with either one? no. i don't see younger fans as annoying, for the most part. and i don't see older fans any different. i think a lot of the problems that have appeared over the years is bc of the pandemic; too many ppl stuck inside for too long with nothing to do, mixed with a terrible world getting worse, and now everyone just feels the need to be assholes whenever they can bc they're sick and tired of being sick and tired all the time. and it's easier to take it out on one another in fandoms than it is to do it irl, but even that doesn't stop those from doing it.

i will note that there are a decent number of older fans on twitter in the snc fandom that make it very hard to be an older fan. like a lot of the ones that are on twitter say a lot of extremely sexual shit about colby. and look, i don't mind talking about that man sexually. but there's also a level to it. some of these women borderline write fanfics about him, but include themselves in it, and then all of that is one twitter. and that can be off-putting. i won't name names, but some just need to take it down a peg or two, that's all.

but that also isn't to say that younger fans don't do the same in some regard. i'm just saying some of the older fans take it farther than necessary.

i think there is a lot of nuance to this, and a lot of reasons why ppl act the way they do. i'm not trying to blame any one or any particular age demo, i'm just saying what i've witness and what i believe to be true. doesn't make me right however.

#ask #personal

[notebook-of-elle]

lowkey im a bit heartbroken over a guy(s?) and i will never, NEVER, admit that to any one irl so im gonna share here instead, you can skip, i just needed to get it out :)

so this guy became my first and closest friend in college. we really clicked, genuinely had a lot of fun together and despite my best friend from home continuosly teasing me if i liked him (because he is literally my type through and through) i always told her that no, i don't like him like that.

few weeks pass and i can't get it out of my head, maybe i do like him? but i kept pushing it down... idiot. since then, he fucked a girl in our group which i wish i could say didn't hurt, but after too much time thinking about it and processing, yeah it did hurt. they (the group) didn't seem to know, and they don't need to know honestly. i kept pushing him to talk to this one girl in our class and he kept pushing to talk to this cute guy as well. idiots.

we went and got tattoo appointments together and he went over a lot and one occasion we crashed at a friends house (one bed troupe style.... yeah) not like we woke up tangled up, i leave that to works of fiction.

skip to christmas holidays and he's thinking of dropping out. okay, that's okay i'm here for you and all. he still comes back and he's.... weird, always on the phone blah blah blah and i asked him okay dude, who's that? like ohhhh go get them boy (genuinely happy for him, it takes me sometime to process emotions okay??? i only let myself feel hurt way wayyy later) so yeah he got a girl back home. and of course i'm supportive as fuck.

new year's comes and he's dropped out and gone home. at first he's still talking to the group chat but it's been now nine months and he's not talking to me. he talks in the group chat occasionally, and to the other couple in our group... just... not me, really. ah ah ah yeah that definitely doesn't hurt.

you know the worst?? after he left, my friends in the group told me it was clear something was up between us and that they thought he liked me. like we we're the only ones not seeing it. but then then why would he fuck our friend.... like i don't know if it was how we interacted, how we looked. i don't know and i don't care. i don't.

skip to yesterday.... he's texting me because when he went home (9 months ago, never visited despite our (the ppl still at college) best effort) he took my powerbank and we've talked three or fours times to arrange him mailing it to me, so we finally got that done, and he sends me a "i miss you" and asks how i have been. boy it has been nine months, can you be so clueless, so fucking- ugh.

fucking fuck me

im shutting that convo down as i'm also writing this.

now the cute guy that he was pushing me to be with. buckle fucking down. because for as long as i denied the crush i had on my friend i kept this crush on the cute guy. like he's cute and he talks to me and we have things in common. it was enough for me at that point. anyways yeah that was starting to happen and then he dropped out too, one month or so after my friend. but he stayed in the city because he works there, and like i know where he goes i walk by it often and all. one month after he dropped out he has a girlfriend :) like fuck me. and so today i woke up and see an insta story of their 8 months together :)

yesterday the i miss you and today the anniversary post.

i just feel like the unluckiest person in the world when it comes to this, seriously. the fact is, i'm not even gonna get into my girl crushes and moments because then i'll never stop talking.......

if anyone at all read this.... thank you and i'm so sorry :')

#rant post #lil rant #vent #because im legit heartbroken #heartbreak #i hate college #tw men #yes #that's a tag now

[merry-the-cookie]

so there was the jatp poster renewal day on instagram a couple days ago and this was my contribution!!! not a poster exactly lol, more of a banner?? but still!

this was a lot of work but i’m super happy i did it! you can also check it out on instagram

#jatp #julie and the phantoms #jatp fanart #julie molina #flynn jatp #flynn #luke patterson #reggie peters #alex mercer #willie #willie jatp #carrie wilson #trevor wilson #bobby wilson #nick #nick jatp #caleb covington #my art #fanart #ppl seemed to like it on insta so im posting it here too #also i fixed a couple mistakes from that version lool #1k #2k #3k #4k

[awsugar]

I don’t understand why some big mcr blogs slate anyone who believes gerard and frank had a thing, like our view didn’t arise from nowhere there’s clearly evidence that has led us to think this. I get disliking those who push frerard in frank and Gerard’s faces (barely anyone does this nowadays) but slating people for believing they had something in the past is kinda ridiculous imo. Franks solo music speaks volumes but if you read into it you’re demonised as a frerardie

mmmmm am i down to clown today... ok i will speak.

actually im going to put this under a cut bc my last ask was a long one and i feel like i am going to talk about this for way too long bc its 1am and im honestly a little tipsy.

note: i just finished answering this it took me an embarrassingly long amount of time and i dont think the person who asked this is even going to read it but i apparently have a lot of thoughts and no one ever wants to listen to me lol 

firstable yea actually unfortunately anytime they do a livestream, or anytime anyone SOMEHOW RELATED to them does a livestream. there are ppl in the chat talking about frerard. they both have comments off on insta now, i didnt actually read the comments that much and franks have been off for ages but im positive there were people in the comments talking about frerard. i mean fuck, franks LAST tweet he qrted someone who tagged him in the replies of a pic of The Kiss. so i mean yea its definitely not a majority but it still happens extremely frequently.

this is like. genuinely really funny to me bc im sure frank didnt see it, i think he knows enough not to look at the chat for the most part. but the moral is that its 2021 and people STILL dont know how to act. i wont go on about it but it actively enrages me anytime i watch a stream. rule one of real person fandoms is keep all that shit in your fan spaces. which is actually why i prefer tumblr. none of them are on here. actively engaging in mcr fandom on twitter is too close for comfort, especially since frank follows a handful of my friends and also like. knows me.

so like moral of my most times unavoidable wall of text is that ppl are right to be frustrated with the fans who act this way. i am extremely frustrated with them. and i think for the people who have never like tinhatted or anything, this type of behavior stands out and makes an impression and becomes the like. poster child for ppl who are like 'hmmmmm but what if.' about the frank and gerard stuff.

anyway, moving on, i think a lot of peoples hang up is that they view it as rpf. which i have a couple things to say about actually. its no secret that i have read a lot of rpf. i had never heard of fanfiction until i started getting into mcr in 2008. that was my introduction. and at the time, in that community, it was completely normal. and it was for a loooooooooong time. i knew of people who didnt read fic or felt weird about it but the majority of people i interacted with DID read fic. and on top of that, the people who didn;t were nothing like they are today. we all got along. no one was like demonizing people who did read fic. in 2012 when i think mcr tumblr was at its peak, ALL of the most popular blogs were "frerardies" (hate that term). they all talked about and recced fic and a lot of them wrote it too. everyone had a boyfriends tag. anyway when i came BACK to the mcr fandom in 2016 after a couple years away post-breakup it was still like that. people talked about fic all the time and you didnt have to like, hide it in fear of being labeled as a terrible person.

i always discussed this stuff, fic and theories, openly on this blog. for YEARS. the first time i noticed the rpf shift was 2019 tbh, when my blog was suspended and i (not related) had a mental health crisis and i spent a handful of months off tumblr, when i remade on a different blog suddenly it seemed like people were like noooo you cant talk about that. ppl who read fic are disgusting. if you think something happened between them you're homophobic. i was like honestly baffled bc i didnt know how it had seemingly changed so much in a matter of like 4 months or so. but thats the society we live in now lmao.

anyway the other thing about rpf is that i think most of these people are hypocrites. bc almost everyone makes an exception for unholyverse. theyre like ok i will dabble in the most popular fic and see what its about while still demonizing the people who read OTHER fics. like ugh.

also i have noticed its an age thing. a lot of the time. almost every mcr fan i personally interact with or know, which is a lot of people, read fic, used to read fic and just sort of grew out of it, and/or (usually and) believe something happened between them. but everyone i interact with is an adult and all of my closer friends are long time mcr fans like me. i feel like the percentage of fans who are minors who are extremely anti-rpf is way higher than the percentage of adults. and i think thats just due to the fan culture we grew up with and the fact that young people a lot of times are like..it seems very performative in an attempt to be the least problematic person that ever lived.

also random side note its really funny to keep updated with this debate on twitter. they literally yoyo there. frerard is ok on a bi-weekly basis.

anyway back to what i was originally saying which was that people view tinhatting as rpf and therefor not okay. which like idk maybe i sound crazy but i also always said this when i was in the phandom and discussing like dan and phil and whether or not they were soulmates before they came out, i don't think tinhatting is rpf. or like. idk theres a part of me that can see why people think rpf is a bad thing even though if i was famous i wouldnt care if people wrote fics about me. but like. analyzying the real life things that people have done and said in public (important). in order to try to contextualize their relationship or understand that dynamic better. well i mean first of all its not fiction. but like i do think its a lot different than writing explicit bdsm fic about them.

and i know a lot of the people on here who dont like actively participate in these conversations do like. see where we're coming from. with the frank lyrics and millions and like all of that stuff. they just dont talk about it. i mean *I* have stopped mostly talking about it at all unless its vague, due to the current climate and opinion. and sometimes we'll all have a moment of hysteria where we've all decided its ok to speak about. me right now apparently.

anyway im positive no one read all of this. i need to learn how to be brief but ive been saying that my whole life. but you're right. to me its clear that there's a bigger story behind it than frank and gerard just being buddies who were in a band together. a logical conclusion. and i wish we could just all get along again instead of people being sooooo mad about it.

#anonymous #asks #im gonna make queue bend and break #frerard

[petewentzisblack1312]

no see i wanted you to keep going its great!!!! haha. and yeah same about being on here w her and leaving then coming back lol. what was your old url i may have followed you??? and i feel like i know the poetry you mean and while i am white that is absolutely insane to hear because i also read it as being about his blackness????? did white bandom really manage to whitewash that??? like maybe its because (unlike a lot of ppl on here it seems like) i have real life black friends around me all the time and grew up with black folks but i find it strange even still if just from a critical thinking perspective djdjsjxjsj. like i am pea brain but STILL wtf lol. anyway... re: the photoshopping.... what is his actual skintone? im kind of confused by the photos you posted in regards to the editing bc i just really don’t understand saturation etc rip. ANYWAY feel free to ramble more i literally adore learning about it. like i dont need more whitewashed pete content i want who he really is. it makes my heart so full i love him so much 😢

im glad you enjoy hearing me ramble about this haha!!! i had a couple urls that i was known by. i was deadnarrival, soulpunkboxes and diykordie at various points in time, although the last one was the one i deactivated under. i went by just mellie at the time, although now i go by dils more often (though mellie is still my name and is short for my full first name, amelia)

wrt the poetry, its possible that people didnt so much as miss the blackness as much as they didnt feel qualified to bring it up at all?? and while its fair to not discuss it, it was really alienating for no one to even mention race at all. i wasnt friends with any black fob fans at the time, the ones i knew of had moved on bc they felt kind of unwelcome, which is pretty common in all subcultures, so i was just like reading people talk about how sad and emotional it was like he was some kicked puppy and then reading this poem full of tangible anger and resentment and frustration and a desire to fix the world and a desire to not be part of whats broken and it was like. damn. yall just see sadboi shit?? wild.

ANYWAY to address your questoon about skin tone, to tldr, saturation is how bright a colour is. 100% saturation is pure colour, while 0% saturation is pure grey, so lowering the saturation makes colours duller. exposure is the amount of light a photo, so low exposure makes a picture look too dark, and high exposure makes it look too bright, and can make everything look white, or at least much lighter. so lowering the saturation makes colours duller, raising the exposure makes the image paler, doing both... ya.

but here are some pics where petes not edited or isnt super pale!!! as a rule of thumb on the red carpet or next to people who are darker than him pete will probably look darker. black fob fans pass these around like currency lmao. these are mostly early pics bc theres definitely more later ones but these are what i have saved.

that last one is a super special rare pic of pete when he was in arma playing cards outside of a convenience store. his melanin is POPPIN.

something that compounds this is that a lot of filters on social media like insta and snapchat are live action whitewashing. like itll be like "beautify✨" and then you r 5 shades lighter and your nose is slimmed down.

#dils declares #anyway heres som Stuff

[elliethesuperfruitlover]

tw/venting

so im once again randomly sad at 1:30 and honestly i hate it. i always seem to get really just down and upset during the early morning. (probably because i need to be sleeping) but this is stressful to be honest. im feeling a ton of guilt that i shouldnt even feel bad about. right, so we all know that im how old? a minor, and like.......im fine with that. im fine being this age. but like....i feel like im carrying feelings for things that dont even have to do with me. some people are like “yeah, i dont want minors interacting with my content” and for some reason, i always wonder if it has something to do with me. it doesn’t, but i feel this secondhand guilt for some reason, and it hurts. and i know it’s really selfish of me to do that, and im victimizing myself with this. i always obey the “MDNI” on people’s posts, but sometimes i feel like i did something bad. like with smut, specifically, i completely understand why people wouldn’t want minors interacting with that, it makes so much sense.

then i start feeling really upset about how i literally write smut, and read it. im starting to feel like there’s something wrong with me for having written smut, and had a specific audience read and react to it. i sometimes feel gross for just wanting to read smut. and a lot of the fandoms i read smut for may have the “MDNI” on it, which is fine, but after that, I feel this deep trench form, and it’s the worst thing. i just feel like im weird, and dirty for wanting to read smut about characters. and here comes the argument of me, a minor, reading smutty ass fanfiction about grown characters, in some scenarios. of course, i imagine myself older, above legal age, but that doesn’t stop the nasty feelings I feel. and with characters that are my age, or around my age, like with my hero academia, like sure, i crush on sero and everything, but i feel awful about reading smut for him. or even thinking about smutty things.

this also briefly dips into how i interact with my mutuals’ fics, particularly the smuttier ones. i think ‘oh god, am i being gross by interacting with this’ and i know that if they have an issue with me interacting with their fics, they would say it, clearly, and explain what needs to be explained. and i love that. but i always feel like im the weird one here, like im the odd one out, i guess because of my age. and i absolutely love and appreciate that they’ve created a safe space for me. it’s just an internal thing that’s really bothering me. and i absolutely love my mutuals as well. and i know that they also love and appreciate me, i guess i just feel that guilt.

and i know that it’s completely normal for kids my age, and teens to think about, and sometimes desire sexual things. and i know that it’s fine to explore those thoughts. sometimes, though, i just feel like im being a hypocrite. i. e. some shoes marketed towards teens, such as euphoria, and riverdale (off the top of my head, not biased) portray teenagers that might not be accurate. i don’t know what it’s like to be y’know present in a high school, and there, but for my own experiences, at least, i feel like it’s not true, or at least not in all of its glory. im like the outlier for a lot of that stuff. and i know it probably exists in some places, but i feel like this is how society views teens, and what they expect from us. i feel this odd pressure to be everything that society expects me not to be. and on some posts and stuff, i see what seems to be a bit of a disdain for kids of my generation, or at least gen z and i just kinda freeze and panic. i go “oh god, do they think this of me” “do they hate me” and i know that they don’t but it’s this lingering thought of “this is what they think of other kids in the same group as you”. i know it doesn’t represent the entire view but i just feel like i cant say anything, or bring it up. it makes me feel like im the problem.

anyway, i feel like i can’t do some of the things that i want because im scared of what people will think of me. like, sometimes i just feel hot, y’know and of course, send nice photos to a pal or two, but i’d never post that shit publicly. why, you might ask? because im a minor, and just because i feel nice about myself doesn’t mean that i need other ppl being gross about it. some people always say “these teens are always posting stuff all over social media. they share everything on there.” one, yes, we do, some people should know better. but also, two, this is new, people are being misled, mistakes are going to happen. plus, when you dont have that outlet to do other things, you go where you may feel safer to do something. it may not even be the best choice either. i agree that teens shouldnt post everything to social media, but i also believe that we should be allowed to make mistakes too? and have a bit of fun (where it’s morally correct, im not talking about driving people to suicide, or posting nudes (or semi-nudes on insta when you’re 13, that’s just wrong) anyways. i just feel like i cant do anything bc im gonna get shit for it, and further promote an agenda, but at this point im kinda starting to tear myself down about other people’s opinions, and that’s shitty.

also i feel like teens cant do shit in GENERAL, but that’s another conversation for another fucking day.

i always try to keep my opinions and everything at bay, because i hate when conflict is directed at me. and i dont like the panic of waiting for someone to text, or message me when i had what could be considered a hot take. i feel like i cant disagree, or think differently. or even sometimes just speak my mind because im scared of the repercussions. so i kinda just shut up, and stay in my little corner, and i absolutely hate that. but i also dont like being vocal about my opinions because of the fear that it produces.

and also sometimes some of the shit that people come up with im like......okay, i feel like i cant joke about. like when i talk about “MILF dennys” or “DILF buffalo wild wings” I DONT WANT TO BE A MILF, NOR A DILF. i dont even want kids, so ahaha. i say that shit as a joke.

kids, get future milf out of your bio, unless you put a “/j” or “/hj” after it. also, you don’t want to be a sex worker, or a stripper. im pro sex-work, but don’t look at that as your ONLY job option. that shit gets people killed, or tortured, and mistreated. if it’s a joke, it’s a joke, but it’s a dangerous choice, and it’s your grave bestie. and no, people contradicting you isn’t sexist, or misogynistic UNLESS IT’S LITERALLY THAT. people can be like “i think your opinion is a little harmful, ngl” and you can respond respectfully and be like “do tell, im open to  listen” and not go off about someone not supporting your choices. if it’s something that you can avoid, do it. IF IT’S ILLEGAL, DONT DO IT. like, prostitution is illegal where i live, so if yall try to do that shit, dont expect to be given special treatment. people already see kids, women, and sex workers as what? OBJECTS. you’re nothing to people who may be incarcerating you one minute, and calling you for a 5 minute hookup the next. it’s not empowerment to be on places, and letting yourself be groomed and taken advantage of by nasty ass people who need to be locked up. i understand that you should be able to do what you wan, and wear what you want, but there’s some disgusting people out here.

and it’s also the usual shit bothering me, the pandemic, school, my brother saying fatphobic stuff, yada yada. i want a HUG. and i need to sit in someone’s lap for god’s sake anyways.

im also pretty sure that it’s NOT normal to have this many extreme changes in mood. like i was fine earlier yesterday but as soon as i see one thing that hits too close, im upset so....anyways.

also yes i feel bad about this because i really need to talk to someone about these issues, instead of y’know, letting them pile up and haunt me until im emotionally unavailable because i hide my feelings. this is further promoting other people’s view of teens oversharing on social media. but to be honest, people are going to hate gen z, and teens for a lot of shit. and i cant stop them from doing that. i can, however, keep myself out of their line of sight and dont cause issues about it. anyways, im gonna go rewatch some invincible (wow 3rd time now). and try to keep my mind off of wanting to be in someone’s arms while we make out. :) 

[kylejsugarman]

Hiya! Love ur blog content and also I 100% agree with everything u had to say on Simon and Jeanette. I'm really glad there's actually someone out there who understands how great their friendship is! On other branches of this fandom like on twitter or insta, there's some toxic talk here and there and ur post really made me happy because u mentioned every aspect of them that a lot of ppl overlook. Btw, can I get ur opinion: does this differ in Alvinnn!!! or have I been on twitter too long? 😅 Thx!

hey!! thank u for ur kind words, im glad u enjoy my ramblings about those two!! tbh i don't really engage with fandoms on twitter or insta, those communities tend to be largely younger kids and teens and i use those social medias for communicating with my friends, not talking chipmunks, but ive heard there can be some drama in those communities....as for alvinnn!!! there really isn’t the same level of simon and jeanette being close friends or even interacting as much imo but thats largely because the chipettes are so often relegated to the sidelines and the show seems less invested in going deeper into relationships, its a problem with the show itself tbh, but those moments where simon and jeanette interact do still give me nice shades of their complementary friendship and fondness for each other!!

#syd squeaks #ask #anonymous #tbf im critical of alvinnn like a lot so take this all with a grain of salt

[fairycosmos]

Honestly I wish I could delete social media because if I really wanna keep in touch with someone I’d get their number but everyone is on it and then if I delete it I can’t keep up with what’s going on in people’s lives. Not all people, just the ones I care about obviously. But social media is so engrained in our generation that if you don’t have it it seems like you miss a massive chunk of “socialising” you know? Does this make sense??

yeah makes perfect sense!! i think a lot of people feel that way but are just too used to social media and in need of constant low level distraction (often used as a substitute for socializing irl) to the point where they can't give it up. like you said it's basically second nature for us with the way we were raised. by now we'd feel like we were missing an arm without being able to scroll and constantly update our brains 😞 but it's totally understandable to feel bored and disillusioned by it bc after all it is sort of an empty vast medium of false vulnerability and ads. like i love the internet and it made my adolescence infinitely less lonely but it's not exactly healthy in excess and excess is kind of the?? only way we know how to use it?? 😬 sigh.....yeah it's so easy to fall behind when you don't use twt, insta, snap etc like you should see the way ppl look at me when i say im not really on them. it's like they think im just lying cause they can't conceive of going without it. ultimately i think if deleting will give you peace of mind then go for it cause you can still keep up with your friends through text but i totally get why you're hesitant. personally i go through phases of being Too online and then like never posting anywhere depending on what i feel comfortable with in the moment. it's your call, no pressure. not counting this schewpid place btw. im always aggressively on here 💔

#anon

[golbrocklovely]

Im not that anon but i disagree, her and snc arent the same, nowhere near and i dont get what you or any of you consider a social media person but shes not fam. They are actual social media content creators who make videos, travel for those videos and have a team. She is a friend who posts nonsensical tiktoks because lets be transparent where is the talent in what she posts?, im not being mean im serious. I dont get the attraction or interest in having fan accounts for her or doing art for her, what does she do? Plus she ignores plenty let me tell you. She got her rave promo thing and did a membership which according to one girl its just her going on walks or not doing anything worth having a subscription for. I wanna know what the interest is for someone who is a friend of theirs (nate doesnt get this attention and i bet ANYTHING if Colby didnt post her, her platform wouldn’t be growing a crazy amount because no one cared when she was just Kats friend) and i ask you because ive seen your tweets, ive seen your ig and your view of her is totally different like you see her at a creator level and i wanna know why… wouldn’t that mean you’re a creator too?

i don't think stas is on the same level as snc. or kat even. but she is an influencer. no one normal casually has 107k on insta. whether or not she gained that all by herself or with the help of being snc/kat's friend doesn't change the fact that that is how many followers she has. she has brand deals and sponsor codes. at the end of the day, she is an influencer or content creator.

is the content she makes worth paying a subscription over? i would say no. i wouldn't pay for anything she does anyway, but that's me. if ppl want to spend their money like that, that's their choice.

there are plenty of ppl that make the same type of content she does and have even more followers than her. clearly on the internet it has never been about the quality of what's being posted. it's about whether or not ppl like them, and if they do, they get a follow.

if you want to argue that her content isn't good or isn't content, that's fine. to her fans clearly it is, so regardless of how you feel it doesn't change that. the reason i call her a content creator or influencer is bc that's how i see her. anyone who has a decent size following and posts on the internet is a content creator/influencer in my head. idk how else to explain it.

fans like her for a lot of reasons. i like her bc she seems nice and i don't outright hate her when she appears in snc's content. that's basically how deep i care about her. i only argue in favor of her on here more often than not bc a lot of you guys don't like her, some to the point of downright hating her, so i feel the need to try and either give the benefit of the doubt or be favorable towards her bc otherwise this would just be a shit-on-stas fest. not saying that's what you're doing, just saying that that is what most of my asks about her are like.

i do my best to see the good in ppl. so that's why i usually disagree with a lot of you. i don't see stas that way bc i assume she's good. until that's proven wrong, i'm just gonna keep thinking that way.

and no, i'm not a content creator. no one on tumblr is a content creator lol

#ask #personal #stas

[cnc-hoebayb]

The boys as supportive hype men bfs

For when you’re lookin extra fine and they just wanna hype the shit outchu

.

Zabdiel

-“dimelooo mamiii”

-literally that ^ but with different inflections on dif syllables everytime depending on mood/situation lol

-not a very big social media man, but will post a quick story of you like “🥴❤️” dressed in something reeeeaal nice then delete it later (bc he want u for his eyes only duH!)

-but in public tho !!

-wow

-that’s his game, he’d be huggin all up on you like no ones watching

-Defintely would get caught by the paparazzi for some “provocative touching/staring” with each other

-Buys you everything

-flowers in that little shop on the corner? Done. Ice cream on the street that looks way too good? Chocolate vanilla swirl it is.

-Would probably go all out and buy you a new fancy piece of jewelry too

-its his own lil ritual to get u a new pair of earrings that match with the particular outfits he loves to see you in uwu

-he honestly seems like he’d want to hype you up all day but then spend the rest of the night with you in private

-hype you up in his own personal way ayooo

-details? I think a lil bit

-whisper dirty praises in your ear about how good you look

-goes in between rough and tender touches over his favorite parts of your body

-dead eye contact the whole time so it’s super intimate

-k that’s all u get u thirsty hoes

Erick

-does that thing to random strangers like “that’s my gf” and points at u

-for literally anything

-like when you’re ordering food for you both at a fast food place and he’s watching you lookin snackish tell them you’d like two number 5’s

-he leans over to the old lady next to him like “that girl- mi novia 😉”

-he’s also very vocal

-just likes you or him (or both) to be the center of attention

-“SHES WALKING IN AND SHES SO HOT GUYS WATCH UR FUCKING SELVES”

-kinda embarrassing but at the same time so sweet and way flattering so u don’t front bout it

-doesn’t really show you off on social media, but more in public or to his family

-Just wants to show his favorite ppl his fav person and how amazing you are

-compliments you all day

-really bad pick up lines mostly

-but they’re so bad that they’re actually really cute and funny

-pretends that youre a stranger at a store and hits on you like you’ve never met before

-“Erick please not here,” you’d beg while in line at the busy concession stand of the movie theater

-“im jus asking if u as sweet as those cookie dough bites u got right there mami mmhmmm”

Joel

-literally the cutest of them all

-not super extra, but very lovey and sweet

-you’d walk in the room all dolled up and he’d be super star struck like “oh my god dude you’re so beautiful”

-for literally any outfit too tho

-You can walk in with his sweatpants and necklace on and he’d lose it just as hard

-stares at you all day

-buys you flowers just for the heck of it

-sweet gentle touches and kisses all day too

-when he talks about you in public it’s all super down to earth and him saying how gorgeous you are doing anything

-takes you out to show you off

-somewhere where he knows a lot of press and people in general will be

-makes it super obvious you’re there together

-“don’t worry HONEY, I’ll grab the door for you BABE” and looks other homies dead in the eyes for dominance purposes

-he really would take you anywhere to show you off tbh. The dog park, museum, grocery store, you name it

-he fills his camera roll with candid pics of you through the day

-when you guys get really rowdy at the end of the night bc you’re tired, he records you the whole time dancing n singing and being a crackhead

-but its wholesome content of you guys being happy in love and having so much fun :,)

-he posts it all and everyone is like “couple goals wowo” and it makes your heart melt bc you’re with someone who makes you confident and happy and he’s everything

Richard

-literally not one second where his hand would be off of you

-ESPECIALLY in public

-hand in your back pocket, on your waist, in your hand

-also the type of guy that would be super extra and do things like hold the door for you dramatically, carry you over potholes or puddles in the street like “no te preocupes amor, i gotchu”

-a master at subtly tho

-and subtle teasing

-would mention how fine you look at the beggining of the day with a low whisper in your ear and a hot neck kiss

-then totally drop it for tension purposes

-would ignore u in person for a bit or maybe he just doesn’t see you much that day

-then would post a fire pic of you like “sheeesh🥵”

-comments under all your recent pics suddenly with thirsty shit

-all the fans are freaking out like “GET UR MAN”

-but he’s still avoiding you personally bc he knows it gets you all riled up

-so you watch him post and hype you all day until he gets home finally and wants to touch you and love you

-and you’re like “NO! No touching bc u can’t play these games Camacho”

-He smiles at you and puts on his nasally play voice while swooping in to lift you off your feet, tickling your sides and kissing you all over

-“mira que sexy ohmygaaad”

-ok but also

-he’d take his time with you when it got down to business, letting you know everything going through his mind when he kisses you, every time he removes another piece of clothing, telling you how perfect you are

-slow passionate intense nights that feel like they could last forever

Christopher

-constant screaming

-“oye mamiiiii”

-his million stories on insta are all of you with dif filters, emojis, and captions

-he’s singing or yelling in the background every one, but honestly no one can tell at this point

-besos every other second

-you’re just *taking a bite of pizza* and Chris would drop everything like “fucK pls kiss me now”

-a lot of seductive glances from a distance

-intimidates everybody in the room tbh

-will be that guy talking to anyone being like “doesn’t my baby look ultra fine today- well i mean she always fine, but today it just hits different”

-probably very sweet like Joel but in his own sappy Chris way

-will sing to you every love song that comes on in the car or while you’re standing around

-dances with you in public just to spin you around, kiss you, and tell you how good you look

-you’re always afraid to look like that one annoying pda couple but the way y’all make it look is actually rly sweet and sincere

-also does that thing and records you being a crackhead at night, but he’s actin just as wild so all the videos are so hard to follow

-they’re all of you guys SCREAMING and CACKLING SOO HARD and no one can form out anything anyone is saying bc you’re both just being idiots

-he records you dancing like a dummy in the dark corner of your room and he’s just there like “AYY AY DALE MAMI AY”

-for some reason i just see him at the end of the night wanting a long, deep makeout sesh more than anything

-bc sometimes kissing can be just as intimate and passionate when you’re with the right person, and Chris is exactly that guy

-he’d be kinda vocal and mumble every time your lips disconnect abt how much he loves you and how crazy you make him by being so god damn beautiful all the time

#need me a zabdi or a chris ngl #someone who can handle me bc im a lot #and i oop #esp during crackhead hours #tag which boy u need the most rn lol #cnco #cnco headcanon #zabdiel de jesus #erick brian colon #joel pimentel #richard camacho #christopher velez

[straw-bana-blog]

lmao why are people getting so shitty about us getting mad??? It’s almost like they think we’re just gross horny ppl who only care we won’t get porn anymore,,, 🧐

Listen, if I want porn, you know where I go? To porn sites. I sure as fuck never look anything up here. Why? Spam, loli and shota, creepy ppl I don’t wanna interact with.

So why am I mad?

1. Because of the timing. I don’t fucking think its a coincidence that right after apple takes tumblr off the store, they fucking scramble and start deleting blogs left and right, a lot of which did nothing wrong, then turn off safe mode and clear out the nsfw tag (and other related ones) and finally ban nsfw content outright.

They have known about the cp and the fucking bots and the nazis and EVERYTHING for YEARS. I’m sorry but it’s true. They will never admit it, obviously, but they’ve been ignoring it and excusing it by saying ‘oh how could we know!! Our site is so large we can’t keep track of everything!’ Meanwhile waves of tumblr users have been making posts and reporting it to them. 

They’ve had the time to fix it, they COULD have been working on an algorithm all this time to fix it, but no. It wasn’t a concern until suddenly ppl couldn’t download their shitty app anymore (which is just. Riddled with issues of its own anyway). So they throw together an algorithm that doesn’t work, then decide to just nuke it all because it’s just easier that way.

2. It’s literally going to destory the site. I’m sorry, YOU might stay and try to cling to this garbage site because of xyz, but I’m not. You can make excuses, you can try and convince yourself that you don’t care, you’re just here for the fandom/the art/the community, whatever, but the truth is? This is the last step for me.

Tumblr has been a hellsite for years, its been a mess and its become a joke. Everybody laughs about how they don’t wanna be here and they can’t wait for it to die. But nobody leaves because tumblr seems to survive anything.

Nobody’s happy here anymore. Sure, they might be happy with the community side of things, the actual people on here, but NOBODY is happy with the site. I know its hard to please everybody these days, but pissing off everybody? Its seems impossible, but tumblr managed it! All the bugs, the lack of communication with any decision, just everything. Its not a good site.

People are going to lose income from this, possibly friends who only talk to them through tumblr and get their blogs deleted. A lot of people are just going to leave. Because yeah, maybe I don’t get my rocks off going through the nsfw tag on here, but a lot of people do, and you know what? You can make fun of them for leaving, you can call them horny and gross but at the end of the day, its going to be a lot of people. Even if they’re like me and go to other sites, for a lot of people its a big issue. They want the OPTION of seeing nsfw stuff, even if they won’t ever seek it out. They don’t want to have to worry about being censored of having their blog deleted for showing some fucking nipples. 

And when they start leaving, some of their friends will too, and more and more until eventually no one’s left! Sure, I might be wrong, it could still survive, people might not actually leave, but the core of tumblr will permanently be changed, no matter what happens after December 17th.

3. Its just further proof that Tumblr just doesn’t get it’s users. This one has been coming for a while, honestly. We all know this. We makes jokes about it. They make silly cosmetic changes and ignore the bugs, they randomly go on purges of normal accounts, but the bots seem untouched, tags that are KNOWN to be full of cp/abuse/other shitty things have just been left alone!

They think we want all these fancy new features when really we just want them to address the things that are already wrong with the site.

And now that they’ve been caught out for their biggest issue that’s been going on for so long, they’re finally fixing it. But not in a way that’s good for the site, certainly not in a way we want. It’s a lazy way, nuking all nsfw stuff so they can claim to be family friendly and hopefully get back in the store and stay in apples good books. It’s so they won’t have to make an actual algorithm and keep on top of it in the future.

No, they’ll just make another shitty algorithm that targets all nsfw, have their users report things that aren’t kid-friendly and then they’ll be good again!

Except we never wanted that, never asked that. And if they had have just listened to us in the first place, they could have gotten started fixing the issues a long, long time ago. They could have had enough time to come up with a proper solution rather than just nuking the entire fucking site.

So I think we have a right to be mad. You can make jokes all you want, but we’re pissed because we have all wanted tumblr to get better for so long. We have waited, we have tried asking them, talking to them, begging them to fix things. They don’t listen.

So for a lot of us this is just. Too far, finally. We’re done waiting for them to step up and become a better platform. They’ve proven they don’t listen, they’ve proven they don’t really care about anything except profit. So I’m mad. Because I’ve made excuses for them in the past, justified using the site because of the community aspect, but they’ve finally made it impossible for me to do that.

I’m not going to be using the site anymore. And you can make fun of me for not leaving sooner, you can stick around. I don’t really care. I’ve spent years on this site just trying to ignore all the flaws. But I’m done! I’m sick of waiting for the next bug, the next shitty decision, the next fuck up.

I’m just gonna go to other sites from now on.

So here’s my Twitter, my Ao3 and my insta is @awuum.

Edit:Oh! I also do have a discord, so if you want that then just simply ask!

#this is honestly just a vent post lmao #also I don't use my ao3 a lot #or my twitter #but I'm gonna switch to using them more bc I just #cannot with this site anymore #the ppl!!!! are great!!!! #the site? #shitshow #hate it #over it #i'll come back if they ever decide to fucking fix it #<3