#ppl separate and think it’s over i......can’t relate to that | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

chirpsythismorning · 1 year

Note

I feel like a big part of the reason Anti Bylers are so aggressive is because this is the first time in mainstream media where there's a chance that the main couple of the show may end up being mlm.

Not only is there a likelihood that the main couple will be gay, it will come after years of these fans assuming that the cliche, safe straight ship was going to sail from start to finish.

If you look at the "predictions" these individuals have for season 5, which honestly have less to do with narrative direction and more to do with what they want, you'll always catch a certain undertone to what they're saying:

"The heterosexual, white male audience is the default for media. We will allow the wlw ship, so long as it has limited screen time. We will accept Will surviving, and even allow him to have an acceptance arc. But you will not receive queer rep at the expense of a ship that we are nostalgic for. The straight male audience is the one that matters, and we will be represented by the main couple in the show."

My favorite is when they’re asked what they hope for Mike and El in s5, only to list off qualities of Mike and Will’s dynamic. I legit saw someone say that they hoped they finally took the time to talk through their problems (oh so you’re admitting they never do..) and that we’ll actually get to see them be a team…

Like, do you hear yourselves?

I would actually like to read off their play by play of how they imagine s5 going down. Not just their wishes but like what they literally imagine happening over the course of the season, episode by episode.

And I’m talking the confident milkvans ones that are like super hostile about it. I wanna see what they hypothesize will happen in early s5 related to Mike and El… I don’t think I could keep it together if it is anything along the lines of them instantly making up and being happy for the rest of the season… 😳🤣

They just don’t realize how dumb that sounds.

S4 created conflict and hasn’t settled it. It was considered the beginning of the end, meaning those parts are going to fit perfectly together. If Mike and El were lacking romantically more than ever before in s4, don’t expect that to change much…

And gentle reminder that rewatch value is everything. If milkvans have to skip 3 eps in s1 bc they’re not together or fighting, skip all of s2 bc they’re separated, skip most of s3 bc they broke up in the second episode, skip most of s4 bc they separated in the third episode…. What does that fucking tell you?? They are not being prioritized for rewatch value, that’s what. Whereas byler is. (Bylers also are capable of watching milkvan scenes religiously… I can’t say the same about milkvans being capable of handling more than one second of rewatching a byler scene. And it’s bc they know if they watch it the mental gymnastics they gotta go through to convince themselves nothing romantic is going on is near impossible…)

Byler endgame is going to make the rewatch for the entire series hit, while milkvans, even with a hypothetical endgame would probably watch s1 and s5 and say the rest doesn’t matter. Do they think that’s how the show is supposed to be watched?

With one season left, they should have been hoping that monologue wasn’t in s4, but instead s5. Bc now how can those two one up that? They simply can’t. It was put there to show that they’ll never progress beyond this point. Nothing will ever top it. This is as good as it gets and yet, they still lost. What should that tell you?

What are they gonna just repeat that monologue in s5, but have mike say it 20x and THIS TIME it works?? Yay? Like there’s literally nothing satisfying about that in the least.

Can’t say I wish bad for ppl that simply like Mike and El and are bummed that they’re starting to lose hope. That as a basic idea is like whatever. I don’t like seeing ppl sad. Even if I told off a milkvan directly, seeing them like feeling depressed afterwards, does make me feel bad.

But when it comes to the hostile ones, people literally resorting to harassing directly with complete strangers unprompted and threatening to dox, over people merely theorizing? Like?? Was it ever that serious?

If we’re so delusional and we’re just setting ourselves up for disappointment, why not wait to say I told you so when it’s all said and done, if you’re so sure? Why dedicate so much of your time trying to discourage people on the other side? Unless it somehow qualms doubts you have?…

What makes this whole situation such bullshit, is that if this were a queerbait situation, you still shouldn’t be out here being hurtful like literally spouting off how you can’t wait for people to experience getting queerbaited? Like it’s fucking weird? The prominence of queerbaiting is literally referring to show runners taking advantage of fans, making them think it’ll happen, even encouraging it, and then ripping it away, usually ending in a bury your gays situation. That is the norm in the industry and it’s only now within the last few years starting to change in mainstream.

The hypocrisy of it all, is that they think we should just accept what they believe is the only possibility, queer-bait. But you know if the roles were reversed, which they inevitably will be when s5 drops, they’re going to be playing the victim, saying nonsense like if queerbaiting is bad then so is straightbating!! and it’s just going to be so out of touch and pathetic.

It’s not the same. Whatsoever. And the fact that they can’t see that, that one result is lazy writing and one is epic subversion, and are literally making a mockery out of the situation, convinced they’re right bc they have history on their side and gays should just be used to never getting their way and THATS okay to them?

Like it’s almost painful to watch. Especially knowing the 180 they’re gonna pull when they end up in the situation they convinced themselves we were gonna be in.

#byler #ask #anti milkvan #reddit rambles

50 notes · View notes

connorshalstead · 1 year

Text

A few opinions about Chicago Med below unpopular, popular, I dunno, y’all decide!

Ava’s character had so much potential, but the way the producers wrote her relationship with Connor screwed her over.

As much as I love Rhodestead, I really, REALLY wish Manstead would’ve worked out. Albeit, give Will some therapy and teach him how to treat a woman !!

If we couldn’t have Manstead, we should’ve at the very least had Jeff Clarke with Natalie, he genuinely cares about her, but at the time, she was in love with Will. I wish they had more time together.

Elsa sucks. Period. I get, that it’s fiction and she’s meant to be quirky and not an average doctor? But she’s such an asshole to patients that I can’t respect her as a doctor.

Natalie should’ve had an arc where she was transferred to the peds department permanently. She would’ve thrived there.

I don’t like Nina. I understand people that do, but she’s personally not for me, I think her and Will’s relationship was… pointless? It was only to make Will realize he was truly in love with Natalie. Which, didn’t matter in the end cause of how badly their relationship ended.

The way Sarah left was absolutely insulting to her character and her relationship with Dr. Charles. Biggest punch to the gut ever as someone who relates strongly to Sarah.

Connor’s best arc was becoming a heart surgeon under Downey’s guidance. Their friendship was too short and underrated.

Lanik deserved so much more screen time. He was the best E.D. Chief and should’ve gotten more appreciation.

Maggie carries the show, I take not disagreeing on this one actually. /hj

April honestly deserves to be happy. She’s been through so much shit, and she and Ethan DESERVED that happy ending.

The “safe” drug use site was maybe Will’s worst decision. Next to Jennifer Baker and taking care of Burke.

And leaving Natalie in the dark ^

As bad as I feel for both Natalie and Will, she had no right to treat Will the way she did, having lost her memory or not.

There was a point where I DID NOT like Natalie. She was flat-out emotionally abusive to Will when he genuinely did care about her and tried to help.

That being said, Will still has faults. He should’ve absolutely given her space after the breakup and the Burke situation.

And I know he’s a highly secondary character but, I can’t help but feel bad for Owen? He saw Will as his dad, he was probably the first male figure he saw after he was born for… quite a while? It was shitty of Natalie to completely separate them. Especially after how much Will cared about him.

Second, to all of that, Philip was fucking pointless.

Ben was the best thing to happen to Maggie as well.

Jesus Christ, I feel like these people go through fiancés like cigarettes. (April with Tate, and in S5, Ethan)

And Natalie with Jeff, then Will?

Like, let people get married?? What is Dick Wolf so scared of? (Gay ppl probably)

Will deserves a STABLE RELATIONSHIP with a good person, not an ex-drug addict (who he fought with constantly and THEN SHE ASKED HIM TO GO TO LA WITH HER?), not Natalie, and Connor is gone so… :/ Idk, give him and Nina another chance even???

I really wish we got more “casual” crossover content. Like, I wanna see scenes of Casey, Severide, the Halstead brothers, Upton and maybe even Ruzek? Just hanging out at Molly’s :(

I really think Sarah and Connor were a missed opportunity. Especially with all the weird shit that happened in the first two seasons? It wouldn’t have been too far-fetched.

Better than Sarah and Joey 😭

Sarah deserved a love interest and someone to help carry her burdens. That girl had been through enough

Along with wanting Will to have a stable relationship, we should’ve gotten more Reesestead scenes…

Crockett is kind of a dick…? Especially to Ethan in his earlier episodes. But, he’s redeemable.

I really like Noah! But, I think he’s better suited as an E.D. doctor, not a surgeon.

Also, as much as I LOVE April and want to say she does no wrong, the way she treated Noah was extremely childish and unfair. He truly could handle himself and him becoming a surgeon goes to show that.

Finally, Chicago Med is absolutely shit at trans and gay representation. To the point of sometimes blatant transphobia in some episodes… (Looking at Claire…)

Thank you for reading, and remember that these are my opinions ! Feel free to disagree but remember, sending death threats is a crime !! Respect people’s opinions.

#chicago med #one chicago #will halstead #connor rhodes #sarah reese #rhodestead #manstead #natalie manning #daniel charles #sharon goodwin #unpopular take #opinions #hannah asher #ava bekker

64 notes · View notes

colorfulyetsinful · 1 year

Text

I wrote this on my phone again😀

You could tell with the amount of emojis I used, anyways

Tim is literally my favorite I never shut up about him and bc of that this list is so goddamn long. I honestly tried to be consistent but I was going off the top of my head

Enjoy and become apart of the Tim Drake cult😈

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Tim Drake hc!!! WOAH!

Nepotism baby

He’s a rich child with inheritance and basically running two separate businesses

Nepotism at its finest✨

Since he was usually on his own (due to his parent working) he used Batman and Robin as a form of escapism

Kinda lonely

He’ll talk to himself as if he was talking to Batman and Robin

Definitely ran a Batman and/or Gotham vigilante stan account on Twitter

Toxic fan **tm**

no literally, he would argue with anyone who disagreed on him that Batman was the best hero,

especially if they were Metropolis

bc why tf do they always have to involve themselves in everything Gotham🤨

Two words: Parasocial relationship

had an unhealthy obsession with Robin!Jason,

Robin!Jason saved him ONCE (1x) and it was down hill from there

Def locked himself in his room, sobbing, screaming, pulling his hair, and throwing up when Jason died.

News: Jason Todd, son of Billionaire Bruce Wayne, pronounced death! Read more to find out.

Tim: NOO!

Vaild tho,

who wasn’t crying when Jason died?

(The joker)

Wha-

He had a celebrity crush on Dick (not ship related),

no one knows about it (it’s all over his stan account that he made sure will never see the light of day),

he’s taking that secret to the grave

I say this a lot about Tim, but

Whore **tm**

have you seen his body count?!

definitely followed in Dick’s footsteps

Strange is what ppl say about him,

vaild tho,

if I had to sit next to Tim in class, I would find him strange too

Adhd coded,

why do ya think he keeps himself busy?! He literally can’t sit still

Also no insomnia,

he just suffers from chronic nightmares that keeps him from getting proper rest,

So de just decided not to sleep

“Nightmares can’t effect me if I don’t sleep”

Yeah, scarecrow has nothing on him,

poor guy’s had worse

Even after getting adopted, he never really felt part of the family,

Always feeling like he has to prove something to Bruce to stay as robin,

Which is why, when Dick had Damian be Robin, Tim felt like he had no place in the family anymore

That’s why he went a little insane

It’s cool, they’re fine now…

Speaking of insane,

Tim is like the one robin in the family I would not want to fight

Like compare to the others,

(Dick has experience form doing it for so long + mf is giggling and joking while kicking ass,

Jason is just kid with daddy issues and a gun, it’s America, been there seen it,

And Damian has both daddy and mommy issues, angain nothing really special)

Tim is just purely unhinged,

he’s got everything to prove without the care in the world what happens to him,

don’t forget his mad scientist era

What I’m trying to say is that Tim is scary and you have a better chance fighting Damian or Jason

(at least they kinda make it quick)

Ok back to silly goofy hc :D

Tim used to write Batman fanfics,

it’s true I was his screensaver

He used them all wattpad, fanfic.net, ao3, tumblr, etc

It was mostly “original character” fics, that were actually self inserts

as escapism

(He’s def taking that to the grave)

Stephanie found out about it and he was planing her “disappearance” within a rive minute timeframe

Speaking of Steph,

They cringe every time someone brings up the fact that they used to date

*hold cute picture of Steph/Tim* Awe you guys were so cute, ashamed you two broke up

Them: *gag*

He loves Steph tho, she’s his ride or die

As I mentioned in my Accent hc,

Tim knows a lot of languages bc rich kid

Him and Damian talk to each other in mandarin, mostly bc it’s a language they both know fluently

He tried to learn Arabic so Damian could feel comfortable talking to him,

(This is after the many times he’s tried to kill him, but hey what are brother’s for..?)

He couldn’t quite get the pronunciation right, and just said “fuck it we speaking mandarin”

Literally, they don’t even speak in English to each other anymore,

Like if it’s just them talk, other ppl they’ll translate or they’re talking shit

Tim and Damian actually get along,

Like it was rough at first, but living together really forces the two to get along

(Imma add more about them in a different hc)

Also Dick Grayson!!

Did I mention he had a parasocial relationship?

Yeah, Dick was not excluded from that

He knew Dick was mostly giving him the time of day bc he felt guilt about not being there enough for Jason,

But he doesn’t care

He knew what he was doing going to Dick about being Robin,

“You gotta be Robin again. Batman needs Robin”

“Idk who you are kid, but I am not wear that thing again. Plus blue is more my color. You wearing if you think it’ll help Bruce”

*Tim already at the display case* “I mean…if you insist”

Stalker

Nothing else to add to that

He’s the best to take to galas (or just to deal with high society in general) having grew up with lessons on how to be a “proper young man”

Study abroad at one point,

It was in Switzerland

Has a staring problem

Literally. Imagine just minding your business in a public area and turning to see (👁️👁️) staring death at you without blinking

Don’t worry, it’s just his adhd taking over the most part of his brain

He actually hates black coffee, but it’s the only think strong enough to have him away (so he won’t get nightmares)

He watches anime,

Specifically, shonen anime and BL (boylove)

He watches anime with Damian while arguing about the main pairing not working bc the “male love interest is obviously gay”

He wrote fanfics, you think he won’t be a shipper?

Can sing,

Like really good

Jason caught him singing in his room at like 2:30 in the morning and sent a video to the group chat

*jason sent a video*

Jason: ya see this shit😀

Everyone goes crazy bc Tim sounds so nice

The thing is, Tim never hid the fact that he can sing, just never said it out load

But if you were really pay attention to him, you could have caught him lightly singing to himself any indie or viral tiktok song while he does basic tasks

Everyone now has a mission of trying to catch him in the act,

Only Alfred and Cass knew he could sing

Bart knows about his identity before he told the team,

Bc Yk future and all

So him and Tim just naturally became closer over time as Tim could rant to Bart without worrying about his identity being blown

(More about this in another hc)

Cannon that he cross dresses

I think that’s it for now…

#batfam #batman #dick grayson #tim drake #jason todd #bruce wayne #red robin #robin #dc characters #batfamily headcanons #batfam headcanons #dc headcanon #idk what other tags to add #I have more hcs for tim but I can’t think right now it’s 12am #I love Tim Drake #hes my favorite robin next to robin!Jason

97 notes · View notes

arospecbandgeek · 3 months

Note

I'm baaacccckkkk with a doodle and questions.

Doodle-

Teehehe I gift my silly drawings to people

1- What's her Music taste?

2- Is she only scared of Bonnie because shes a juvie convict? Or is she scared of all convicts in general?

3- Do you think that the cheerleaders, and Color Guard would have sleepovers after the performances/games? And if so, would the two be separate? Or would both teams be together?

4- Favorite animal and food?

5- Is she scared of cops? Like she knows she's a banzai blaster, so when she sees a cop or Percy (or even someone related to Percy *cough* Parker *cough*) does she get anxious like Carcrash does?

6- Any info on Blaries family? Any siblings? Is she close to anyone in particular?

7- Have you been hit by the square anon yet?

Again, I lurk and I love OC development so I'm gonna be here. Feel free to like, not answer. And don't be afraid to like ask me abt my characters. Again, I like talking Abt them and hearing ppl talk abt theirs.

thanks for the doodle! length warning again.

BLAIRE KATCHADORIAN (EE OC)

1- What's her Music taste?

Mainstream rap (90s - Now) and alternative pop (Basically the in-universe equivalents to Lana Del Ray and Florence and The Machine).

2- Is she only scared of Bonnie because shes a juvie convict? Or is she scared of all convicts in general?

Yes and no. She’s afraid of Bonnie because she could be a threat, her being an ex-convict is the main part of her reasoning, though. She knows that people go to jail for many different reasons, even if they aren’t violent, it’s just that Bonnie is a mix of both which makes her worried.

3- Do you think that the cheerleaders, and Color Guard would have sleepovers after the performances/games? And if so, would the two be separate? Or would both teams be together?

Yes. Note that I plan on showing other OCs that are cheerleaders later (I’m working on Monica, the head cheerleader, but I draw slow as hell so I’ll probably be done days from now), and I feel like they would have sleepovers. I can’t speak too well for the color guard, since they’re not my OCs, but I think they would too.

I don’t know if they’d mix sleepovers, but it would honestly be funny if they did. Like going from bickering over a practice field on Friday to watching a movie and eating ice cream the immediate day after.

4- Favorite animal and food?

Unicorns and vanilla ice cream. Unicorns because she’s an avid MLP (or equivalent) fan. She keeps that a secret though because it would be “lame to like a kids show”. She likes vanilla ice cream because it’s sweet but simple.

5- Is she scared of cops? Like she knows she's a banzai blaster, so when she sees a cop or Percy (or even someone related to Percy *cough* Parker *cough*) does she get anxious like Carcrash does?

If this AU takes place before the redwood run arc, then no. If it takes place after, then only Percy. She also wouldn’t be afraid around Parker after finding out who her relatives are, but just makes sure not to do anything illegal around her.

6- Any info on Blaries family? Any siblings? Is she close to anyone in particular?

She’s an only child with two parents named Isabella and Daniel who are (un)happily married. Blaire isn’t that close with either of them, with Isabella being a borderline neglectful wine mother who cares about business more than her kid, and Daniel being an enabler.

7- Have you been hit by the square anon yet?

The who? /gen

Again, I lurk and I love OC development so I'm gonna be here. Feel free to like, not answer. And don't be afraid to like ask me abt my characters. Again, like talking Abt them and hearing ppl talk abt theirs.

No, you’re fine. If anything I actually kinda appreciate these asks. I genuinely have nothing better to do right now. 😭 By the time the weekend’s over I’m obviously not gonna respond this quickly, but I still probably will.

I’ll ask about your OCs too, I’m just idea bankrupt right now.

thanks for the ask! 💞

#epithet erased #epithet erased oc #epithet oc #epithet erased au #bonnie murdoch (sadsoftserve)#parker king (sadsoftserve)#blaire katchadorian (arospecbandgeek)#sadsoftserve #bandgeek-oc #bandgeek-writings

8 notes · View notes

digital999placebo · 1 year

Note

(different anon) now im curious so i gotta ask whats your interpretation of gilbert, at least in relation to ludwig (i love reading you talk about lutz!!)

WHERE TO BEGIN ON THESE TWO…. Get ready for the longest thing you’ve read in your entire life. Ok so in my country timeline for them I like to divide their relationship into Pre 70s and After 70s. After the 70/80s I imagine their relationship is similar to their canon way, very casual n full of brotherly love expressed in healthy ways. PRE 70S ON THE OTHER HAND.

Gilbert loves Ludwig as well, it starts out as a bit of a narcisstic thing considering he built ludwig himself out of corpses, but he genuinely loves Ludwig. Ludwig is his number one priority ALWAYS, Gilbert wasn’t made for tenderness but for ludwig he will try his hardest to be, in a room full of ppl he’ll only have eyes for Ludwig. Anyway, that doesn’t mean he showed his love in a healthy way, or in any way at all. Gilbert was not the best parental figure, he was a product of his time, nationalism n patriarchy, and thought if he wanted ludwig to grow into a big strong manly macho man, he couldn’t be babied so 0 physical n emotional affection for Ludwig. (Also Gilbert DID NOT like Ludwig being around Feliciano… like yea Gilbert liked Feliciano and given the chance would bend him over a desk, but HEY this is Ludwig we’re talking about, he can’t b messing around with non traditionally masculine men…… it might distract him from the things that matter like blood and honour and grease from tanks. Aka Gilbert had a lot of rules for Ludwig that he did not abide by himself, he was a “do as I say, not as I do” type of caregiver).

BUT Gilbert’s lack of affection, save a pat on the shoulder occasionally, meant that Ludwig was super weak mentally. Someone could be a little nice, touch his cheek a little too softly n he would crumble because he was TOUCH STARVED!!! AFFECTION STARVED!!!!!

Anyway the Berlin Wall is put up and they’re separated. Btw i don’t headcanon Prussia as east Germany, I think Ludwig is both east n west, but Gilbert took the role of east Germany so Ivan would take him instead of Ludwig, bc Gilbert didn’t want Ludwig to endure that. Anyway they only meet very few instances, too risky, and it’s still this big cliff between them as a result of Ludwig’s idolisation. Ludwig can’t bring himself to show emotions in front of his brother, he wants to cry, badly, but he won’t let himself so their meetings are brief and awkward because Gilbert is no longer this grand nation Ludwig used to know, he’s beaten down and starved, bruised and bleeding. Anyway, one day, Ludwig cracks and he begins to cry over dinner in Gilbert’s lidl apartment in Moscow… and Gilbert hasn’t seen Ludwig cry since he was a child (save for one time in ww1 they never speak of) so he doesn’t know what to do n just sits there like 😐😐😐uh… u good? Lol. Uhm” but anyway it helps to humanise their relationship a bit, n they open up slowly n after a few more visits, the fall of the wall n everything, they’re like regular, close brothers.

#Sorry THIS IS SO LONG #I also completely misunderstood ur ask n thought u wanted my take on the Beilschmidt brothers #UHM ANYWAY #Gilbert analysis on his own will come I promise give me time #asks #hws Prussia #hws Germany

84 notes · View notes

tiptapricot · 11 months

Note

I was going to ask abt transfem marc too but they beat me to it lol

You said you had headcanons about the system and their relationship to gender? I'm listening,,,,,,,,,

YUSS!! I’ve talked ab stuff off and on in various other posts, like the ones I’ve done on clothing, Jake’s sense of self/home, and some of these, but I’d love to do a lil dedicated hc post just on my gender vibes for em :-)

Since I’ve just done the one on Marc I’ll do only Steven and Jake in this one, though Marc’s gender stuff can vary, again, based on the headcanons I work with (like sometimes he’s a cis man sometimes he’s a trans man sometimes he’s ?? sometimes he’s transfem, etc).

Some of this esp Jake’s stuff will get into heavy hc territory but I hope I can give my vibes for my thoughts in a cohesive way anyway. This will also ofc be an examination of their genders through the lense of western/American systems of gendering, as well as through English language understandings and descriptions of those experiences. There is so much that can also be filled out culturally and through the lens of different languages when it comes to concepts and connection to gender and the self. So while this is limited to a certain scope, I hope it can still spark some thoughts and ppl are welcome to add on their own ideas as well :-)

Let’s go!

Steven’s vibes to me are generally autigender man/cis+. He would use the label of man, he doesn’t necessarily feel outside of the binary or like he connects strongly with anything outside of being a man, but it’s different for him conceptually and in experience than it is for neurotypical cis men.

He doesn’t really think very strongly about the role he’s meant to play, the stereotypes he’s meant to fit. Gender isn’t really a concept on his mind as far as something to worry about or adhere to or live up to. He’s just… vibing. He’s soft spoken and friendly and snappy and awkward. His experience with others is more shaped by how they accept him for his behaviors than how they perceive him for his performance of masculinity. Because he doesn’t try very hard.

He likes loose clothing for sensory reasons, big sweaters, comfortable pants and shoes, things with patterns that make him happy and relate to his interests. And that includes skirts sometimes, maybe occasionally dresses if they’re long sleeved. He doesn’t think “I’m a bloke I can’t wear a skirt” he just does. He talks to people and connects with them, he’s earnest and kind, he cries and loves his fish. He doesn’t have this same weight that can come with trying to fit within the bounds of gendered expectations.

I feel in some ways if he had to try and conceptualize his own gender it would be strange, a role that’s not exactly been strongly felt or enforced (he wasn’t a part of a lot of the hypermasculine parts of their life, doesn’t have the same input Marc or even Jake do), but he also feels comfortable in being a man, in that being his label and the space he occupies.

He likes suits, he likes being called someone’s boyfriend or husband, he likes being called Mr. Grant, he likes the memories of receiving his tallit on his bar mitzvah, and still leads blessings over wine and challah on Shabbat, but none of it feels like an obligation. He also thinks makeup can be really fun and expressive, he likes wearing earrings or bracelets if they add a pop to his outfit, and he lights the candles on Shabbat without feeling out of place (until he encourages Marc to start doing it, to heal through that reclamation of the motherly role [idea courtesy of @fdelopera ]). He’s just comfortable where he is, not feeling the need to do too much and not feeling a need to change.

His brain experience plays into that conceptualization of gender and self, something that can’t be separated when describing it and in some ways can’t be described. Gender is experienced differently when you do not meet the same social expectations/understand the same social cues for it to be taught to you, when the rules themselves don’t make sense, when you have a blended experience of life.

So Steven is Steven, and that’s all he needs to know, and all he needs to be :-)

Jake is more complicated. Again I’ve talked about it before, I think perhaps even in its own post, but I forget the things I’ve ranted about on discord or in various ppls dms versus actual posts. Most of the text I’ll give here is from a wonderful conversation with spicyboelives over on Instagram, as that’s one of the best times I’ve been able to express my thoughts on this, but the ideas themselves have grown from multiple conversations with multiple people.

Essentially though, Jake’s having a ball.

Gender is one of his ways to reclaim and take hold of his sense of self, of his personhood, and as such it is multifaceted and strange. It has pieces to it, distinct ways of experience. To delve into his gender I have to delve first into my thoughts on his existence, and how he feels about that existence, because they’re deeply related and hard to talk about separately.

Jake Lockley protects. In my headcanon of his role and actions he’s a gatekeeper, a physical protector, and an extractor. He handles things Marc can’t, and his goal is to get them away from the threat or neutralize the threat so they’re safe, whether that be a direct attack, or self harming tendencies Marc may be enacting.

When he’s not out—for fast moments, for adrenaline filled snapshots of an outer world—he keeps them steady on the inside, makes sure whoever’s in the front seat is who needs to be and that no memories are trying to backseat drive them into a car crash. With such limited time out, and such a specific purpose, I think personhood as a concept would be complicated. He doesn’t get to experience things the same way Steven and Marc do, and he’s got a lot of responsibility and awareness from the start on what to do and how to do it.

He’s their transport, their traffic coordinator. He’s not fully a person, and he doesn’t get a chance to Be someone for a long time. So he builds it on his own, finds what he likes, the things he can take and repurpose into his own meaning and use, make them his so he has something to keep and someone to be. He defines his own edges, his own boundaries. Jakob wrestled with G-d and Jake takes that for himself. He is the lock and key for memories and he takes that. He forms himself into a man, into an experience, into a tool and a vehicle and a weapon. He is himself, and he is nothing. He is a man, and he is no one.

Jumping forward, for a moment, there was a joke in fandom early on about Jake using she/her pronouns. This came from that scene at the end of episode two where Khonshu threatens Marc with making Layla his next avatar, but he says “you may not like my next candidate, near and dear as she is to you.”

And as Khonshu ended up always wanting Jake, some people were like “omg she/her Jake real.” And then as me and other people are wont to do, we took that seriously. I’ve seen a lot of transbian Jake headcanons and similar stuff, and I realized I really liked some kind of gnc aspect for him. It tracks. Gender is a part of identity and self definition, and queerness is contradictory and strange and powerful. So then I headcanon Jake with the following:

—he/him for the man, the boy, the cabbie, the smile

—it/its for the tool, the entity, the weapon, the space he displaces, the cracks in between

—she/her like how you reference a car or a boat, taking power from things he loves and the weight of painted nails pushing a flat cap up, or lipstick under a mustache; gender nonconformity is confusing and not stuck to the binary idea of people and men, and he is not wholly a person, not wholly a man

He is Jake, and his boundaries can’t be defined by anyone else but himself because they are his to control and his to grip with moon-shielded knuckles, to pull back beneath the suit and tie into the practiced Someone he’s chosen to be.

In line with this, through a semi-recent conversation, I realized something else for him. Cars get people from place to place, they’re an escape, the rumbling engine and headlights showing the way, and for the system Jake is their transport. He gets them out, gets them away, pushes them off-road when they have to dodge an obstacle.

And I think there’s something there that really connects, that feels right. Humans anthropomorphize vehicles of all types, see them as a friend and a companion, and isn’t that what he is? I feel like Jake really connects with cars on an identity level, just with what feels right, with what he does, with how he experiences the world and the ways his brain connects with things and people and himself.

So like… in more modern terms, I feel like he might be partly cargender/otherkin for cars as well. He’s not a fully human headmate, and vehicles are something he aligns with, connects to, and loves on a self level. Maybe he’d even be a car in headspace sometimes, stuff like that can happen, and I think it’s an interesting layer to explore for him and his actions and who he is (and can even add an interpretation to the Shiva memory scene of the cab in the background being Jake, being him watching over Marc at the time, hovering in the periphery).

With all of it, with all of him, it is complicated. But she knows, she gets himself. Jake doesn’t need others to understand it, to know why it is the way she is. He just is.

Just Jake.

#and there we have it…#I love these guys sm n I love the crossover of gender and life experience and personhood and lack of and wOOOO #moon knight #steven grant #jake lockley #mikes mk meta #moon knight gender #<I’m gonna wanna find this post again ik it #the fruit is talking again #the fruit is headcanoning again #the fruit is answering again

18 notes · View notes

cocktailjjrs · 2 years

Text

TR Manga Spoilers!

Be warned, there will be spoilers from Manga chapters (Mostly 200 - 262)

FYI, I have not studied Medicine or any related branch, so what ever i have here is completely based on what is available on google and TR manga. Pardon me if i make any mistakes. I acknowledge the following symptoms can also be associated with any other disorder, but i’m considering only one here.

So i read the manga from ch 200 onwards thrice after ch 262 (yeah, it was one heck of a ride and i lived through the pain thrice) and something just kinda clicked. So Yeah! there are Manga spoilers, read at your own risk.

Coming straight at it, I have a feeling that Mikey most probably has Split Personality Disorder.

For those who dont know (Source Google) -

Split Personality Disorder or Dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a mental health condition. People with DID have two or more separate identities. These personalities control their behavior at different times. Each identity has its own personal history, traits, likes and dislikes.

People may experience: Behavioural: impulsivity, self-destructive behaviour, or self-harm Mood: anxiety, feeling detached from self, or mood swings Psychological: altered consciousness, depression, or flashback Also common: amnesia or blackout

Why did i reach to this one? Well the most glaring instance was this -

Ch 200

When i first time read this, i didn’t think much of it. But as we go farther in the manga, this line makes so much sense. In the consecutive page he even names it as a “Dark Impulse” - like a person.

In the same chapter, it is stated that - “The ones who held that impulse back were probably my older brother, Emma and Baji” - but to me it seems like Mikey had people for whom he tried to maintain control over his “Other Self”; but as they dwindled in numbers, he gave up trying to control his own body, letting his “Other self” take over more often than not. (This one have its flaws, im not totally convinced myself) So he did what was best, pushed everyone away (Ch 217 where draken has a small falshback explaining to Mitchi how mikey made them hate him) thus we reach the bonten timeline, where if we compared BontenMikey to the Mikey pic pinned on Naoto’s Memo board(or whatever that is called), to me it seems like the future got worse and worse for Mikey himself with every iterative time-skip. Like in the origianal timelike he atleast had some flesh on his bones and was not just a skeleton giraffe.

Even after all this, Mitchi still went to see him (bless our crybaby hero, he is going to need it ch 263 onwards). I think there Mikey snapped.

Idk how much this counts, but i think the sign of Dark Impulse / Mikey’s Other Self is not just mikey’s eyes turning white. Because, in Ch 202 we see him having black eyes throughout, but there is a subtle difference.

Like this panel (ch 202), its when he shot Mitchi. Insted of having horizonal lines like most of the manga (for almost all characters), here we see them to be swirly or circular. And this, after two chapters is followed by (Ch 204) -

Here two things,

“When i came to, i had shot you” - implying someone else (Most likely his ”other self”) had taken over and shot Mitchi. Symptoms say it is common for people with split personality to have blackouts.

His eyes are back to having those horizontal lines, again implying maybe he wasn’t in control of his own action

And then we move to the final arc (which i can’t believe is still going on!!!). We get more characters from here on. Honestly, i was confused about who belongs to which gang for half of these people till the second read, but then i realised it was mostly just Tenjiku ppl joining Rokuhara Tandai, while Brahman basically had all 1st gen Black Dragons lead by Senju (On side note - she is a badass girlboss and deserves utmost respect from every single one!)

By the next time we see Mikey (Which a long ass time) he had stopped caring for whatever is happening, his sorrounding, comrades or the situation as whole (apathetic is the word here) Symptoms say for people with split personality have a feeling of detachment from self (I’m gonna add and say it also extends to detachment from their surrounding).

I also think that South having “Dark Impulse” was a clickbait; Mikey thought they were “Dark Impulse”, but to me it seemed like South had an extreme bloodlust riding on pure demonic pleasure that cannot be cured until it kills someone (I’m not saying Mikey doesn’t get these, i feel its his “other self” who has the Bloodlust)

In Ch 231, we see the “Dark Impulse” taking over Mikey, that’s after he fells emply inside - no pain or suffering from Draken’s death or Kakucho’s punches. (Depression is feeling emptiness; which also contributes as a symptom to split persoality)

Interestingly, in the same chapter there is this panel,

It looks like some demon’s POV. That again made me think, its Mikey’s “Other Self” and that is how he views his surrounding, because this other personality only knows darkness, nothing else.

And then we see South vs Mikey, which is then followed by Mikey killing South and almost killing Mitchi (Now this Mikey sure has bloodlust, he asked three different people how they wanna die and told the fourth that he should die, not to ignore the fact that he actually killed one). Mitchi is only alive because Senju stepped in and disbanded Brahman (does that count as an off trigger?), i think its poetic how he saved her just earlier that evening and she returned the favour; equavivalent exchange i guess. (Okay, that was complete off topic and i touched a tanget there)

We then come to the whole Senju blaming herself for Mikey, Baji and Sanzu changing forever. Like most people, even i believe (or hope that atleast) there is a lot more to this story than just a toy-freaking-plane breaking. We don’t see Mikey after senju tells him it was sanzu who broke it (i can never hate her for that - i remember doing the same thing many times in my childhood just to save my skin, its general kids tendency).

Also, Senju isnt the most reliable source here, she herself mentioned she couldnt remember why she lied, so it’s totally possible this whole matter had POV distortion, also the whole Sanzu getting scar seem to have happened after some time than the plane incidence - Even Sanzu mentioned that was just the trigger, Ch 250 (yeah, im still waiting for the explanation for that line Wakui san). But one thing can be, this maybe the firstime Mikey’s “Other self” made apperance (White irisis and all) - Something traumatic is to heppen for a person to be diagnosed with Split personality - here i debunk my own theory saying that there wasnt anything traumatic at all (unless we get the whole story, its pointless)

When the Final War begins between KMG and Toman 2.0, Mikey says “Is there a need for two “toman”? There’s no need for that right?”; because to him Tokyo Manji and Kanto Manji can be used irreversably, it felt like to him they are one and the same. (does that make sense?)

[Ch 245, when Mitchi punched Kakucho, that was the first emotion of Surprise final arc Mikey had shown contrasting to his apathetic behaviour till this moment]

And then we have savage mikey, sitting on top of container watching the fight unfold like he is having the first row sit for an action thriller (Only popcorn are missing, lol). Everything seems Normal till this point, way too normal to be good.

And then we have the recent chapter. (I remember laughing when in Ch 247 Mitsuya said he will be dragging mikeys ass down, because i knew once Mikes decends from his perch its over for Toman 2.0 - which is basically Ch 262)

In all this, Sanzu’s role is a bit weird to me, there is Ch. 256 where he assures Mikey “no matter how deeper he fell into shadows”, Sanzu will always be with him because he is his only friend (Baji and Draken won’t approve of this though). But in Ch. 262 we see him clearly declaring he was specifically waiting for Mikey to be consumed by the said darkness, for Mikey’s “Other Self”. Now here’s the thing, for a person with split personality, their each personality has a different history, trait, likes and dislikes. Does that mean Sanzu is after something only Mikey’s “Other self” can give him? Was it about revenge? or something completely different that is yet to released?

In Ch 261, Sanzu said “Mikey’s fate has been sealed since he was a kid”. When i checked how young can split presonality be diagnosed, the result showed between age 5 - 10; and wasnt this the same age Mikey was inseperable from Baji and Sanzu? Makes me think, the trigger he talked about had lead to something way more than imaginable, like a domino effect - only the succeeding pieces grew larger and larger. Maybe somehow, down the line Sanzu was convinced that if Mikey stays in darkness others wont have to? (Not sure here)

(I’m not going into the whole second time leaper thing, it makes my brain hurt with all the possibilities, theories and what-not’s)

In the latest ch 262, the trigger seemed everyone cheering Toman; it looked like Mikey had flashback’s of all the times they used to cheer for him, but now its against him. I’m gonna go a bit out of the way to say Mikey is currently in chaos himself, confused with two Tomans (KMG and Toman 2.0) and his own two personalities, add to that fact that Mitchi told him BontenMikey reveled his true feelings asked to be saved which might also feel threatening to one - someone knowing your deepest thoughts and thus he snapped. And we know the end results.

There seems to be no cure for Split personality, the only thing that can Help is various forms of therapy (And we have all been saying to take these kids to a therapist for a long time now!).

We are almost at the end now, makes me wounder how Wakui is gonna wrap this up; coz a haste work will take the whole manga to waste. I really hope there are legit reasons for the blank spaces that we have, i wish its not the ‘power of friendship’ that saves Mikey but an actual therapy or honest to god fight (which seems like asking for too much after ch 262)

Because this last panel actually scared me, makes me think someone is going to join the party in heaven soon. (Let’s pray that doesn’t happen either)

With this, i rest my case.

Wow! That was long, i touched tangents a few times there. It had been going on in my head for quite some time now so i just had to get it off my chest.

Anyways, thank you for coming to my ted talk! Toodles!

PS: in chapter 224 we see “Kamikaze” written on Mikey’s bike, i was curious what it meant.

‘A Japanese aircraft loaded with explosives and making a deliberate suicidal crash on an enemy target’ (also known as “ reckless or potentially self-destructive.”) - objectively something self-sacrificing that takes out the target, like Mikey taking out everyone in his path (like in every freaking timeline!) while also self destructing (Manila Mikey and Bonten Mikey)

Yeah, sounds about right.

34 notes · View notes

rockerfemme · 10 months

Note

girl i... i dont wanna step over the line, like im just a stranger on the internet and i dont know him, but it doesnt seem like hes actually worried, it seems like he wants you to think that hes worried so he can manipulate you into not doing what he doesnt want you to do. dont go there for your safety, even though you werent in danger. those ppl will have bad influence on you, even though youre an adult and you know for yourself not to do some stupid shit. its not like youre some easily impressionable teenager anymore. it looks like he would try to separate you from your friends too in the long run. this plus the boundary crossing he did earlier that you wrote about... idk he seems toxic as hell girl, my fucking fight or flight activated just reading that. and im sure that hes gonna make you feel like youre blowing things out of proportion and overreacting and hes just worried for your safety, but if it walks, talks and acts like an abusive guy...

i told him almost exactly that: i haven’t done anything wrong right now, you’re just psyching yourself out because you think i might. you don’t trust me to handle myself and refuse any hypothetical drugs i might ever be offered. but then he pulls out the whole “i trust you, but i don’t trust everyone else, what if someone sneakily drugs you, what if someone starts a fight and you get beaten, what if what if what if”

which like that’s the same line of reasoning my parents used to keep me basically on a leash until i was 18, and it’s not fair because ANYTHING theoretically could happen. i can’t promise him that nothing bad will happen to me so there’s no way to defend myself against that argument, and i hate it.

i want to be super fair to him and represent his perspective bc i’m looking for help, not just validation: the boundary crossing stuff? ceased completely after i spoke to him about it. he really is committed to me and working with me to smooth things over about this.

i called him controlling, he emphasized that he completely supports all the other friends i hang out with and his problem isn’t with me going to do stuff on my own, it’s just the punk scene he hates. i understand the weird drunk guys and the people using whippets freaked him out but it’s like he’s written off the whole scene after 30mins of being at one party.

edit: he said one more thing this morning i really have an issue with: if you’ve seen my posts about my intimacy issues, he brought that into it -_____- he said he didn’t understand how i could trust a bunch of drunk strangers enough to go into the cramped little basement and dance with them yet he had spent months earning my trust and i …. don’t want to fuck him very often (?!??!!?) i told him those are two completely different things but somehow he disagreed!!! and thinks i “gave up my trust too easily”!!! he’s making it all about himself. my issues in that regard are 0% related to him or how much i trust him

3 notes · View notes

majicmarker · 1 year

Note

Sliding into your inbox to just scream about how much I love Demisexual eddie!

Evryone is entitled to their own ideas for the character but Demi eddie will always hold a really special place in my heart. It just feels so right to me and I love how you write him!

I’m regard to your newest fic I’m obsessed with Eddie’s pov! It’s peak queer experience lolll I relate too well

I will say eddie messed up by not trusting Robin to set him up with Chrissy tho! Always trust your local lesbians!

(the fic in question)

listen. he knows he totally biffed it, okay. he's just a demisexual dum-dum lollipop and he's doing his best with that. frankly he’s intimidated by lesbians, they get too much done too efficiently, he can’t keep up, man.

(if you want to know if this is based on my own personal experience, i will tell you… absolutely yes it is.)

yk—and while you didn’t ask for this, i’m offering it free of charge anyway—also this just made me Think abt, is that it’s weird to think abt now, bc when i first started writing eddissy fic, i really didn’t give much thought to either of their sexualities. i was just getting my sea legs with them and everything, and, for me, i think it speaks to my own experience as a demisexual—the sexual aspect didn’t matter until they were with each other (aside from the jason factor, i suppose, but from my perspective as the writer, even that spoke less to chrissy’s sexuality and more to her sense of “duty” in their relationship).

the catalyst was largely due to @agentmmayy's og virgin!eddie fic—a definite lightbulb moment for me (the quintessential Oh. moment, if u will). eddie had never struck me as a particularly sexual character, anyway (not to mention he’s only like, 20, tops? why are we out here believing this idea that everyone has vast sexual experience at such a young age? is this because of one tree hill?)—i just hadn’t really examined that bc, again, once i paired him with chrissy, well, all bets were off, he really wants to kiss her, etc.

and, like, okay, bit of a rant abt the larger implications of this topic ahead, whoops my hand slipped—

truly just. bonkers. that the assumption is that you must have experience to be good at sexual activity. idc how many ppl you’ve hooked up with, EVERYONE is different—their bodies, their turn-ons, orgasms aren’t one-size-fits-all. communication with your partner(s) is Far More Important than your track record, otherwise you’re just some asshole who thinks they know someone’s body better than that person does.

and i really like exploring demisexuality through, like, a male lens—because men are so socialized to be sexual, so what happens to their sense of self when that’s just not their inclination?

like, i am. so sick. of even the most progressive of media making the same tired joke abt how all men want sex all the time, or that there’s something “off” or “not right” if a guy isn’t ready/wants to wait.

it happens constantly in so-called feminist media, and it does such a disservice to what feminism actually is—that one of the tenants of the movement is that men aren’t incapable of checking their baser desires, they’re not wild animals who can’t control it; they’re fully-realized human beings who need to be held responsible for their actions, regardless of their “physical reaction” to their attraction to someone.

so, ultimately, we have these two separate but fundamental ideas here: men deserve to feel validated in their sexuality, and they’re also responsible for how they act on it. basically, toxic masculinity can be propagated by anyone, and it hurts everyone.

and just—god, SO OFTEN aphobia is disguised as sex positivity (maybe not intentionally, but still harmfully; casual aphobia is all over seemingly progressive spaces), but sex positivity needs to also acknowledge that not experiencing sexual attraction, not wanting sex, or only experiencing/wanting those things under certain circumstances, etc., is okay, it’s normal, and it’s not less-than.

sexuality is not this cut-and-dry thing, you know? like ik glee did a number on our perception of sexuality as this strict dichotomy of “gay or straight, that’s it,” but like. c’mon guys, time to move past that, we can all heal together.

so, yeah. tl;dr there’s a lot to unpack with ace spectrum characters, and that’s def where i want to park my wheelhouse.

#i just have a lot of feelings #jimothy-and-spockums #ask #kattyshack fic

19 notes · View notes

just-my-latest-hyperfixation · 1 year

Note

Get to know your fic writer numbers: 2, 10, 16, 32, and 55

2. Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

I’m very firmly on the “planner” end of the “planner vs. pantser” spectrum. My multichapter fics all have an outline in a separate doc. It doesn’t have to be super detailed and I’ll also deviate from it if I notice that something isn’t working out as planned. But I do need to have a general idea on where the story is going, how it’s supposed to end and how I wanna get there, or I’ll give myself anxiety attacks. I actually wrote and published the first chapter of Hic sunt dracones without having a complete plot outline down and I nearly peed myself until I figured it out. 🤣

10. Cltr + f “blinks” on your WIP & copy paste the first sentence/paragraph that comes up

The kid is babbling excitedly, but Steve can't make out a word over the deafening roar of his own blood in his ears, needs to swallow and blink violently to focus.

16. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?

Besides Hic sunt dracones, I’m currently working on my fic for the Steddie Big Bang, which I obviously can’t talk about yet. 😏 Apart from that, my To Write list contains four ideas right now, which are in various stages of being fleshed out.

One of them is a modern AU in which Steve owns a restaurant and tries to seduce Eddie through food. Eddie, who thinks that putting grated cheese on top of your SpaghettiOs is haute cuisine. Or, alternatively: Steve soft doms Eddie into basic self care. (It would most probably be Eddie’s pov, which is a first for me, so I’m a bit nervous about it.)

32. Name three of your favorite fanfic writers.

That’s a tough one. There’s so many amazing fics by so many incredibly talented writers out there and I don’t get around to reading half as much as I wanna in the little free time I have. That being said …

Azriel Green's fame is well deserved. I’m pretty sure You’re Divine changed me on a spiritual level. I am always awed and humbled by how they use language to build scenes and atmosphere.

Ayes comes up with the most mindblowing AUs, their writing style is absolutely beautiful and the stunning art collaboration with itskleo is the cherry on top of the sundae, really.

Gorgeousgreymatter writes the most wonderful stuff at incredible speed and their smut is what I aspire to, honestly. They are also an incredibly cool person who I am proud and happy to be friends with. I legit died the first time they told me that they liked my writing. 😭

55. Of the characters you write for, which is your favorite? Has that choice been swayed at all by your followers/readers’ reactions to certain ones?

Listen, there’s a reason why I have churned out over 150,000 words worth of Steddie fanfic and (almost) all of it in the same pov. Steve Harrington is my little emotional support blorbo. I relate to him on so many levels. I too, am perpetually stressed and lowkey annoyed, as well as a chronic people pleaser who puts others before myself, so most of the time, his perspective comes real easy to me.

Apart from that, Robin Buckley is my spirit animal and I squeal every time somebody tells me that they like my take on her.

And, obviously, I'm beyond thrilled that ppl are liking my dragon!Eddie so much. 😏🐉

#steddie #steddie brainrot #steve harrington x eddie munson #steve x eddie #steddie fanfic #fanfic #fanfiction #fanfiction writer #my writing #ask game

3 notes · View notes

neyxmessi · 1 year

Note

um both 💀💀

sorry for late reply!!

i feel so bad bc i feel like if i knew the context of the edit i’d better be able to come up w a caption?? im not that funny originally 💀

but if you want like outta pocket ones where you expect people to comment: ayooo 🤨 kinda vibe then these comments might be for you?? idk if it’s like a neymessi cutesy edit or like a “they’re hot” kinda edit thing

—> “take me to paris (not the city)” is kinda funny that relates to psg and stuff that I saw in that comment section btw (had to scroll a bit lol)

otherwise you could always add a portion of the song you chose in the caption or literally just go on a random tangent ab something. i know ppl will just comment wild shit that went on in their day and the ppl just comment like “caption???”

or you could always type something in the caption ab separate neymessi things that have gone on. like make a joke ab neymar being a dad, something about messi’s haircut or the 15 bags he brought w him to barcelona💀💀

also there’s always the simple “my fave duo” or “neymessi come back home” or “i miss them” if you can’t think of anything else cause those are always adequate enough

sorry i couldn’t be of more help :( but if any of my followers have any funny captions for anon over here pls feel free to comment them. y’all are funnier than me anyways 🫶🏼

4 notes · View notes

darkestcorners · 2 years

Note

It made me sad to see how many ppl hate the mc/find her pathetic or annoying. I have social anxiety myself and like, I think we’re just easier to manipulate unfortunately 😭

Hi babes! ❤️

Ahh no, don’t be sad! I totally understand ( I have anxiety as well ) Unfortunately, some people may just not be able to relate or sympathize with her character because they simply don’t suffer through that or have never experienced those types of feelings and behavior that anxiety can bring. Its common for a lot of people on the outside to not understand anxiety and get frustrated because it’s not a condition that seems to be taken that seriously at times, a lot of people can view it as an easy problem to fix because again their brains are wired differently. Like why can’t you simply control yourself? Why can’t you just calm down and see that you’re fine? It doesn’t work like that but that’s what a lot of people may wonder because their brains don’t go into that flight or fight mode. And that’s completely fine! Not everyone is going to relate to her or even like her but that’s just how it’s meant to be in the real world as well haha.

Don’t be discouraged though, I’ve received a lot of asks of people relating with the MC and her anxiety ! Anxiety is very common and it has different degrees that impact everyone on a different level so there’s been a lot of readers who have seen themselves in her for sure!

But yes, the MC’s anxiety can definitely make her mentally vulnerable because a lot of the time with anxiety disorder & social anxiety, it makes it hard for you to stand up for yourself. It can make someone get easily intimidated and hate confrontation which undeniably makes it a lot easier for people to sort of step over them or manipulate them like Jungkook does to the MC. I’d also like to make clear that the MC in general has a very passive & ‘meek’ type of personality that’s completely separate from her anxiety so it does amplify how much of an easy target she can be for certain people with ill intentions and who are much more confrontational in nature ( Like Jungkook )

Thank you so much for reading my story babes! I hope you have a lovely day 🥰🫶🫶!

#asks #polarity #<3 #anxiety #character analysis

11 notes · View notes

drainthislord · 2 years

Text

Just saw a post abt “disability pride month”. Disability. Pride. Month. Soon we will have to apologize for breathing or smoking bc we’re offending ppl with lung cancer and shit. “No you don’t get it that’s not the point” i don’t give a shit. Everything we start allowing the left to do sooner or later they need to make a bigger deal out of it. Gave them homosexual rights now they must make obnoxious gay parades and must include at least one lgbt person in any movie or show as if it were the norm when not even half the population is part of the lgbt community. Created a community to makes them feel less bad about their weight but now they will demand advertising unhealthy, obese people on Calvin Klein. Gave women more rights to be as “equal” as men but now they want to have a paid menstrual leave. That is not equality but equity. Every little thing achieved in the name of progress is later exacerbated and therefore deformed in the name of progress. That being said, I’m sick myself and I wouldn’t wish to shove down peoples throats that I’m sick and that “there are other people like me and that we need to normalize it” or “raise awareness” mf . Normalize what. You can’t normalize sickness. Awareness is enough and you do not need a fucking pride month for that. I’m sure soon we will have body positivity pride month. And women’s pride month. Bc a day is not enough. Oh but wait, womens pride month, huh, women, that’s a controversial topic. Think about the non binary and genderfluid people, you will soon need to separate each from the initial lgbt community bc what once was something related to gender roles in society now wants to achieve the status of sex. There is too much liberty. So much so that people get misinformed and think oh well let people do what they please. Let them eat themselves to death. But also how dare you not get vaccinated you are putting other people at risk. The left is as intolerant as it is contradicting and obnoxious. Too much liberty is just as bad as very little liberty, neither can help a society thrive. Laissez faire is good depending on the country bc of its people. Sure you don’t get mass shootings and a high crime rate in Switzerland bc people there don’t have the same mentality and mistrust and fucked up government. It’s the country’s people that matters, if you see America is filled with retards killing each other bc one gave a bad look to the other then it is best to take the guns away. Sure it’s impossible to ban guns in America now you just have to deal with the people you’ve made. It is your own shit you are eating. Europe isn’t any better. Nor the rest of the world. We are paying for our own stupidity. I fear we won’t learn from our mistakes or we might need a lot of time to get over them and improve. God is no longer dead. It’s just taken the shape of Technology. Technology is God and no one is forgiven

0 notes

newathens · 3 years

Text

so here’s the thing

#i get attached to people and not even in a severe sense #i don’t fall in love i don’t think im bffs with everyone I meet #but if i talk to you. if I share moments with you. if I share personal things with you #no matter if it’s online or not. if we form a bond then.....I know you #I will remember you. and even if memory lapses at certain moments all u need to do is remind me and I’m THERE #I will always care for you. TIME DOES NOT DETER ME #u could ask me for a coffee after not seeing each other for five years and I will GLADLY spend hours with you #idk how else to explain it but I care always. I value always. I love always #and you know other ppl aren’t like that I think #ppl separate and think it’s over i......can’t relate to that #and I think that leaves me feeling alone ALL THE TIME bc no one realizes how I feel and there is really no way for me to translate that #so I’m just heartbroken. and waiting #but waiting for what you know? ugh. years #*tears

5 notes · View notes

chordata-on-alterhumanity · 3 years

Text

The Chordata Guide to Otherlinking

Hello! This is a guide written from my own experiences, and a tiny bit of consulting with other ‘linkers. If you can think of ways to improve this, let me know, and I’ll update the original post. This is Version 1.1.

What is otherlinking? What is a linktype?

Otherlinking is the active choice of identifying as something. This sounds very vague, so let’s have an example: Imagining yourself as a lion makes you more confident, so you like doing that frequently. Identifying as a lion becomes a part of your identity.

For many of us, otherlinking includes consciously taking on traits of out linktype (imitating/“fake it ‘til you make it” OR strengthening already existing traits by focusing on them through a linktype). This is a form of mindfulness training. For example: I would like to be as calm and collected as insert-fictional-character. In stressful situations, I think “How would they react?” and try to act that way by imagining myself as them. If this revolves around already existing traits, a linktype can help amplify those traits.

Let's get some vocabulary out of the way first, for everyone who comes across this and isn’t familiar with otherlinking.

● Linktype / Otherlink / 'link- A voluntary identity a person takes on. I.e. I identify as a woodpecker because I want to. This identity can be of a real existing or extinct animal or plant, a mythological being, a fictional being or person, an object, a concept, et cetera.

● Otherlinker - A person with a linktype.

● Otherlinking - The act of having a linktype.

● Copinglink / C'link - A subcategory of linktype. A copinglink is a linktype created for coping with trauma, stress, et cetera.

● Copinglinker - A person with a copinglink.

● Copinglinking - The act of having a copinglink.

Requirements

You might ask yourself: "I want a linktype. What're the requirements to get one?" Well, you already got all the requirements down. To take on a linktype, you need to want one. Whether you feel compelled to take one on, or you feel it could help you in some way, or you decide you want to try this just for the heck of it, it's all valid. You want, you can.

How?

This is the trickier part, and it varies from person to person. I will give a basic rundown. Adjust this for your personal needs where you see fit.

1. Find your being/thing/concept.

2. Examine your reasons for why you want to call this yourself.

3.a. Your reasons for wanting the linktype might already be enough to make the identity feel right.

3.b. If you don't feel yourself clicking with the potential 'link, and struggle with identifying as it, analyze it to find the traits that don't resonate with you. You can change parts of the 'link, or view it through a different lens to make it feel closer to home. I.e. For fictional characters, it can help to disengage from fandom interpretation, or canon characterization, and instead put your own spin on them.

4. Once you've established a connection, you can reinforce it if you want to. A linktype can feel very faint at the start, so here are some examples for what you can do to make it feel more 'You':

● Wear clothing you can associate with the 'link.

● Inform yourself about new hobbies that you can associate with your linktype. I.e. If your linktype is an archer and you've never tried archery before, see if you can find an archery range open to newbies nearby.

● If you are a visual artist, create drawings of your linktype in a way that relates to your irl person. I.e. Draw the linktype in your clothes, or in irl places you've been in person.

● If you're a writer, write something including your linktype in a way that relates to you. I.e. Include them in a story inspired by real life events that have happened to you.

● Make the linktype your social media profile picture.

● Let people know they can use the linktype's name as a nickname for you.

● Change your social media alias/username to be related to the linktype’s name.

● Talk to people who will treat you as your linktype (and not just view it as roleplaying).

Don't be ashamed of expressing yourself in fear of other people’s opinions. Unless you're dependent on them (for money, safety, or other physical and mental health needs), it doesn't matter what they think.

Caution

If at any point in your journey you notice that a linktype makes you feel worse about yourself than you do without the linktype (i.e. feeding into anger, self-hatred), stop it. These dangers can already crop up during the ‘link creation process. Here are ways to go about this, and possible causes:

● Stop engaging with it. This sounds very 'It'll go away if I ignore it long enough', but that's exactly it. A linktype should fade when you don't engage with it anymore. Don't approach this by thinking "I'm not allowed to think about this anymore", but instead, every time when your linktype comes up, acknowledge it, and replace that thought with something else. If you struggle with this, examine what 'triggers' you to think of your linktype. Mindfulness is a powerful thing that often goes underestimated.

● Replace it with a different linktype that doesn't bring these problems.

● If your linktype started off without these issues, try to find out what caused it to change to become negative. Maybe there are other factors in your life that're putting stress on you and it shows through your linktype.

● Maybe you’ve outgrown your linktype. People can change over time, and your linktype could be preventing you from taking the next steps for personal growth, and this can negatively influence your well-being. Try letting go of the linktype. It might turn out the be a freeing experience.

● Talk to a therapist (, or, if you can’t access therapy, an understanding friend). Yes, tell them specifically about the linktype and the problems you have with it. A second person can shine a light on aspects you didn’t notice.

Good to know

A linktype can become an integral part to yourself, and at some point you might find it hard to separate it from yourself. Is this still a linktype? Is it a kintype (otherkin)? That is for you to know and decide. The lines can be blurry, and at the end of the day you are the only person who can decide what labels you want to use and what community has the most in common with you (if you even want to label yourself and interact with ppl w similar experiences). Unless it is harming you (or others), a linktype turned integral is nothing bad. Our environments shape us as people constantly, and a linktype over time can contribute similarly.

🐟

That’s it! If you have questions or need help, feel free to contact me through Asks or DMs. If I’m unavailable, search around a bit to find other otherlinkers who might be able to help you. ♡

#otherlink #copinglink #linktype #voluntary identity #otherlinking #copinglinking #otherlinker #copinglinker #c'link #quoiluntary #alterhuman #fictionlinker #fictionlink #otherlink guide #own post

349 notes · View notes