#practice for uh...idk

[gale-force-storm]

He refuses to fall for the first person to show him kindness. He may be feeling sorry for himself, but that's a bridge too far.

Even if they are beautiful. And kind to everyone, not just him. And brave. And clever. And strong. And they love animals, and reading. And they have a wry sense of humour that he adores.

He won't. He can't. Besides all else, this is decidedly not the time. A bomb in his chest and a worm in his head and a weight on his shoulders and a shame in his stomach and a shattered heart he's still trying to gather the pieces of. Desperately clinging to the cloak of his past, wrapping himself in his former confidence, pretending it hasn't been worn threadbare with time in isolation and eaten ragged by the moths of doubt and fear and past mistakes.

He fell from grace so far so fast, but he cannot beg affection off the first hand to offer him help up, even if it is the first time he's touched another person in months. Even if that hand did send a sudden warmth through him and feel so right in his own he could almost cry from it.

...This is getting out of hand.

He can just be friendly with them, surely. How does one make friends, again? Shared interests? He mostly just has the one, so he'll share what he can. They pick it up quickly, and the warm magic that surrounds them is a balm on his soul. Right up until they imagine kissing him, and his heart skips a beat. It can't be. It can't be. They can't want him back. It's not possible. And how, after it all, after everything, is he meant to resist the overwhelming temptation of being wanted?

They don't let up, either. Lingering glances. Warm smiles. All but propositioning him at the tiefling party. If there is a single positive thing to be said about his year of orb-imposed abstinence, it's that the willpower he had to build up and the practice denying himself were the only things that enabled him to decline their advances.

Well, that and the risk of blowing up the both of them, along with everyone else in or near the camp.

The warm smiles and lingering gazes and casual touches still continue, though.

This is fine. He's fine. He can't remember the last time he felt like this, someone cared for him like this, and he can't do a damn thing about it, but he's fine. Everything is fine. As fine as it can be, anyways, given everything else about the situation.

He supposes he should probably be more upset about Mystra's orders. At this point, though, it's hard to feel like it's anything besides a way out. A relief that he can be good for something. One more miserable experience, and then he's done with it, and all their problems are solved. There are worse things.

Except.

They're so angry about it. Everyone is, but them especially. Arguing with both him and Elminster the entire time, insisting there's another option. That they'll find or make one. Whatever they have to do to keep him around.

Gods help him, but he does want to stay with them. Stay for them.

He sleeps that night, and awakens with a jolt, a groan, and a realization. He's glad that prestidigitation exists to clean himself up without leaving his tent and risking the others' notice. His body had, apparently, caught up with certain implications before his brain. Though from what snippets of his dream he remembers, maybe it was only his waking mind that had been lagging behind.

He wants them, and he can finally have them. Can give them as much of himself as he's able, in the time he has left.

He had refused, at first, the idea of falling for the first person to show him kindness. And he hasn't. He's fallen for someone who is so much more that that. And he will not, cannot, die without letting them know. If he has to leave them, and he fears he will, then he will not leave them feeling unappreciated, or uncherished, or unloved. Not when he can finally embrace the full depth and breadth of what he feels for them. Has felt for them for what can't have been more than a tenday or two, but feels like a lifetime and a moment all at once.

He will not leave without showing them the full scope of his admiration and appreciation and sheer joy at their presence. The full scope of how impossibly deeply he already loves them. Not while he has any say in it.

#bg3 #bg3 fanfic #gale dekarios #gale x tav #gale of waterdeep #my writing #is this prose or poetry? idk! is it long and rambling? absolutely. #did i write it in a weird fervor at 1 am last night? you bet i did! #i'm trying to get in the practice of actually sharing the stuff i make again so uh. here it is! #angst #pining #i can't seem to stop writing angst about this man

[vampyjester]

Gay boy I mean veneer

#my art #doodle #trying out the style I was practicing with #I need to draw more of him he’s so goofy #idk why I have the same pose in both but um uh DEAL WITH IT #Trolls #trolls 3 #trolls band together #trolls tbt #veneer trolls #veneer

[lerildeal]

wow Ace attorney doodles two days in a row?

yes 😔

I finished the first case of the second game and boy it was surprisingly queer

#ace attorney #The great ace attorney #Tgaa2 #idk how y’all tag over here uh #Suasato Mikotoba #ryuunosuke naruhodou #susaori #i think at least idk #just wanted to get these out #trying to practice digital more for no reason genuinely #it dose make it easier to instantly post things #screw getting my sketches scanned #Just sketch on Ipad in multiple layers then delete #boom #easy #digital art #im in a classic i dont care if my art is bad phase run #rn #and its going pretty well honestly #im just gettin shit done it’s pretty nice #hopefuly over my break i can work digitally and get some bomb ass fan art #because my brain is in AA rott for no reason #i genuenly have no clue where it came from #like a switch #‘you like ace attorney a lot again’ #but TGAA is honestly really fun so im stoked it happened #anyway im done #see y’all tomorrow probably lmao #susarei

[braisedhoney]

Draw your favorite ghost! Mine's Ember.

“That would be me. Surprise.”

(ayyy flaming hair favs club :D)

#danny phantom #danny phantom fanart #dp #dp fanart #dark danny #dan phantom #ney’s art #okay let’s not pretend this is shocking #but still #uh. here ya go! #the last like three requests have all had dan in em too so ig you all like him as much as i do #for the life of me i cannot draw this guy in the same style as the others #he just. doesn’t translate in my brain #maybe i should do some studies idk lmao #on the bright side it makes for great muscle practice!! #can you tell i’m doing as many of these as quickly as i can #because i definitely am. trying to take advantage of the brainrot has side effects #namely—hand cramps #stretch people! do as i say not as i do. #you've got great taste btw op—ember is great #I'll add her to my to-draw list

[thatgayoctopus]

I am rotating and contorting him in my mind

#had to practice anatomy #and he's the only thing my brain will draw #so uh... happy birthday...? #the autism made me do it #im actually so proud of these tho #sorry guys but the hair #and the waist #mm #I'm winning actually #idk if you knew that #doctor two brains #dr two brains #word girl #wordgirl #doctor two brains word girl

[weaselmcdiesel]

done!! two of my little guys ive been sorta thinkin about ^^ everything about them their names their outfits all tentative because i cant make decisions to save my life thanks <3

#YAHOO #i was uh. maybe thinking about doing splat oc comms for a bit... but i would maybe have to practice splat anatomy some more before that #idk. if anyones interested and readin my tags lol lmk mwah hugs and kisses #my art #splatoon #splatoon oc #ocs #oc reference #frick i never remember my tags #fan art

[cranberrytea451]

If you have an questions feel free to DM.

No backgrounds atm!

Also if you want a GIF I’ll be willing to do simple movements but cost for that would probably be a baseline 50.

Examples of other work:

#I’ve never done this before uh #art commisions #idk if I’m low balling it here #all commissions will be full colored I am not just doing line work #I need practice with digital coloring anyway

[gatoszn]

#trigun #trigun maximum #trimax #vash the stampede #my art #gatart #uh i couldnt think of a silly caption #its a redraw from chapter i think 45? i cant remember lols #its right before they toss him onto the arc when hes duking it out with knives #pretty sick chapter!! theres so many other panels ill probably redraw in the future but i thought this one was cool as hell #love when his face gets feathers!! yass bitch lose control of your thin veener of humanity while facing down its greatest threat!! #a mirror image of YOU!! #everytime i redraw a panel just xpect it to be some color practice bc idk how to color anything!!! #enough of my dissertation in the tags

[lunarharp]

“sorry i dont always get it” (from april) & “sorry i dont always understand” the sequel 🍷🍓

#witch hat tag #orufrey #cw for..Dread idk. cw dread. IDK man. witch hat is a lot..it's almost too much for me.. #SCRIBBLY !!!! i think i improve a lot doing these things cause the first part def looks older..lol. i want to actually practice PANELS #to build skill for starting proper original comics.. but it's just SO much work.. #ps i love orufrey #also???? i dont KNOW what qif wears to bed. i feel like it's been implied it's his..Shirt Thing. which would be regular i guess #since they have instant laundry things you really could wear the exact same thing every day of your life at all times. #BUT right..why did coco act like she'd see the laundry thing for the first time in her life when she met sinocia. or does qifrey do it all. #i feel like they would uh do their own laundry. considering it's INSTANT too. i need to know boring everyday details sensei. :/

[pearl-kite]

Been complaining how I need to learn to draw multiple people, so here, multiple people o3o;;;

#kirehn draws #flats actually looked better than shading once the paper texture it applied so this went a lot more quickly than usual o3o #seeing things that I wish were different but we're just gonna call this done #I give up trying to figure out what sam looks like in my head and I'm just going to settle ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #uh idk I think I'll try to do more things with multiple people for practicing and such #ref from pinterest o3o #redacted asmr #redacted sam #redacted darlin #redactedverse #pk:adrian #going to start doing different oc tags that won't be too generic I guess #anyway hc that darlin is intensely touch averse except once they get used to sam #then they become ridiculously clingy

[iamahunkofcheese]

i finally put ibis paint on my new phone but i haven't transferred the brushes i use. so i made this little thing to kill time

#mk1 #mortal kombat 1 #dumb doodle #silly doodle #doodles #can you tell which one's I'm down bad for? #anyways yeah uh take this shitpost #kinda shitpost??? idk #I'm not used to drawing more realistic characters tbh #lowkey was also practice bc i want to figure out how to draw their faces 🫶🫶 #shang tsung #mileena #reiko #mk reiko #mk1 shang tsung

[espi-epi]

#uhhh doodles ig #taranza #kirby #shadow kirby #kirby series #I am not tagging all those characters in the doodle page nuh uh #the two other drawing were shading practice #but I got carried away with the kirby one lmao #uhhh idk man #kirby art #or something idk im bad at tagging

[storfulsten]

You know what would be good? A SpongeBob SquarePants movie reference with Patrick in heels and small SpongeBob but instead it’s Whitty as Patrick and BF as SpongeBob!

Good idea right? 😉

hmmm yeah sure

they r goofy goobers yea

#bombeep #whittyxbf #I spend way waaay too much time on this #so I'm too tired to point out stuff I don't like #so uh yeah #good practice I guess ha #matching couple cosplay or halloween costumes maybe idk lol #idk if you just wanted the pose or whatever but I figured #both of them could work them outfits for fun bc reasons ha #so here you go #idk what else to say atm so #enjoy or don't #whatever floats your boat #fnf au #fnf shipping #not the shippiest true but still valid #boyfriend #whitty #bf #spongebob squarepants movie reference #goofy goober rock #pose from that specific part of the movie look it up on youtube or something if you're curious lol #I draw what I want #thanks for the suggestion #stay groovy friendo #edit: under cut now bc yea

[turtleplushi]

hi

#heyyy im alive #im sorry i havent been on tumblr much #i havent finished a lot of art recently either so im sorry the tmnt one is so messy #it was fun to make though #OH #yeah uh #ive been really into tmnt recently #rise specifically #and i havent really been focusing on kirby lately #i still really like kirby but idk.. ill try to draw more of it though #anyways #the first drawing was for a school project (that i should probably be working on right now..) #and the second was for practice because i really wanna learn how to draw mikey #i might try drawing donnie or raph next #leo scares me ngl #like he's so.. oddly shaped? very pointy #ok time for the real tags lol sorry for ranting #kirby #hello kitty #sanrio #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #tmnt michelangelo #rottmnt mikey #rise of the tmnt #wow thats a lot #turtle's art hoard #oh fun fact i didnt even really like turtles that much recently #i have no idea why thats my username

[theygender]

Drank a vitamin water today that made my tongue tingle almost as if it was carbonated for no discernable reason (I drink this flavor all the time so I know that's not normal. checked the expiration date and checked for holes in the bottle but everything looked fine?) and then for dinner I accidentally ate undercooked tilapia. Am I going to die

#the vitamin water was from my fridge and the whole rest of the pack was fine so idk what was up with this one? #i didnt finish it but i drank probably about a third of it before i finally decided for sure that something was off and i wasnt imagining i #and with the tilapia uh. my gf cooked it. and shes cooked tilapia before shes a good chef #the right half of my filet which i ate first was totally fine #but the left half was. different #at first i just thought it was tough bc i was starting at the edge of the filet #but once again about a third of the way into it. once i got to the meatier bits #i realized hey this doesnt seem to be tearing like it should be and also the mouthfeel is kinda like when i eat raw sushi? #also it looks kinda translucent instead of white whats up with that. wow this is getting REALLY hard to tear now huh #and um. apparently 'translucent and doesnt tear easily' is a sign that the tilapia is undercooked 😐 #i looked up if you can get sick from eating undercooked tilapia and the only results im finding are: #1) reddit post saying that fish is the least dangerous type of raw meat and its practically harmless #2) news articles about a lady losing her limbs to a foodborne illness that she got from eating undercooked tilapia #so. i could either be absolutely fine or i could be really really not fine. very comforting lol #rambling

[grokebaby]

Deconstructing this A. Cola named entity... What's under that faux fur..

#Oc art #Mewmew Agricola #Surreal art #Cat oc #Mecha oc #(kind of??????? Idk that's the point) #Pencil art #notebook drawing #Creature #Should we really start thinking more deeply about an alien mech creature who somehow turns into a normal looking cat #AND TWO DIFF VEHICLES #Ngl I want Mewmew to also turn into some more. Practical everyday vehicle #Uh anyway I had some thoughts about this #Mewmew being so abstract and being born out of simple joy for having something whimsical and nonsensical #Shockingly‼️(sarcasm) lends well to cosmic horror. Or body horror. Maybe. Idk. #But hey it's a silly kitty #I'm not trying to dig too deeply under mews skin bc I feel like. They were already trying that back in the alliance #Mew deserves to retain some mystique and will to just. Exist. But #But..... (sits here ominously) #On a more normal note I am enjoying notebook drawing :)