#previous book reviews have numbed me to this pain

[diariesof-kg]

Stand Still

05_28_23

It’s been awhile since i’ve written, I was locked out somehow.  I am impressed that people actually read my previous blog and reposted it.  Phew, what a time in my life.  Back in 08_2021, I stated what I wanted and I am ultimately shocked by the strength to bounce back.  The strength to continue to love and care when you don’t feel it being reciprocated.  This is more of a where I am entry.

I went to the beach yesterday like I usually would do when I feel numb, anxiety or my social battery has hit zero.  The urgency of wanting to be at the beach was as if the ocean was yanking me.  Poetically I can speak about love, the moon, etc.  It was the way the waves kept kissing the sand, every time it flowed towards the base of the beach.  It’s the the silent connection between the moon and the ocean that brings the waves.  I was able to release and cleanse a lot of emotions and pain.

I feel lost.  I felt like letting the ocean drift me away.  The coldness would feel like the warmth of a long and forever hug.  Maybe I could reach the horizon if I kept drifting, all the times of me writing poetically about the sun meeting the edge of the earth, I would be able to see it but not necessarily come back and tell it.  I honestly salute mother earth.  She honestly does so much for the dysfunctional human beings, even when she’s tired.  We have so much in common, I wouldn’t trade the year, month, time or date I was born.  

Lately, I’ve been self reflecting, I have yet to actually speak of December 2022.  But in the midst of self reflecting, I thought about my dating life and I’m not sure why.  About a month ago, I sat in my bed and cried, “I just want someone to choose me for once, i’ve chosen myself.”  I started rewinding after 2016.  Reviewing details of those I encountered as if I am Bosch trying to solve a open case.  I noted to myself that, everyone likes the idea of a relationship with Ke’Anna but don’t actually want to be in a relationship with Ke’Anna.  It was odd for me to repeat this to myself out loud while tears rolled down my face.  I know my worth and was disgusted at myself for feeling like this, but I needed to be honest to myself?  I could write a series of books for each individual that has made me feel this way.  I be feeling like statements just come out of nowhere sometimes.  

Honestly, I’ve talked to more women then actually dated them.  The compliments are nice, I suppose.  I always get the “you are so different.”  And I have been hearing that since my spiritual journey began.  “I like you, but I don’t want a relationship” (but gets jealous when I go on dates with others).  “I like how you think.”  It’s as if I give them a hint of who I am and they selfishly claim me, but IF it gets deeper, within the 30,60,90 days, and I ask about the first step to anything is friendship and dating, the crickets begin to chirp.  Perhaps that’s my default of not giving people enough of my time.  But I did give someone 12 months and she did not want to let me go, but did not want to be in a committed relationship, or in other words, 'enjoyed the cute dates, the attention, the love, the affection, etc from me, what a relationship consists of, but was unable to reciprocate.’  That situation wasn’t bad, but I felt like I was in a relationship by myself.  Relationships are not jobs.  And she later admitted to dragging me on, knowing she didn’t want to commit.  Back to the point...

I understand that in our lives we are at different levels of our journeys and when we cross paths with another that the universe has aligned this meeting for a reason.  This one women, till this day think she has a chance.  I’ve known her for three years and we talked but she said “im working on myself” and we kept talking but I knew after 90 days that it would be a dead end.  Right before I started dating the DV chick, I had asked her every six months about where she is on her journey and if dating was a option, she’d say I am still working on myself.  I also let her know that I am going to go ahead and date others and her reply was “you dont have to wait on me...” but then later said, “im jealous that they get to be with you.”  If anyone wants to explain the hows and whys to this?  This is why I feel as though a lot of people get to know me and it depends how deep I am willing to go, they love the idea of me but refuse to be with me.  I appreciate it, that’s why I say I enjoy rejection, its a redirection.  But at the same time it kinds of hurts?  Also, this person literally sexually assaulted me outside of my car.  This is why I feel like, people just want to have sex with me and they have to manipulate me in order to get it.  It’s sick.  Literally, went to give a hug goodbye, and like a ninja, told me “I didn't come all the way out here for nothing..” then proceeded to grab and touch on me as I am trying to push her off me, it was horrible.  Sometimes I honestly hate being small and thin.  I have no strength when it comes to off-guard situations.

Everyone is so selfish with me and it’s not even the healthy version of it.  Not everything is toxic, I think society views certain behaviors as red flags or toxic, by using their own past trauma.  The subconscious will get you every time.  I think people want to put me on a shelf like a book, so no one can experience me except them, but they won’t come back to the book until they are ready, in the meantime the book has to sit there until it’s opened and the words off the pages are set free.  I don’t like chaos in my life.  And it feels as though there is always some sort of chaos.  Also, everyone tends to treat me like I am disposable.  My ex fwb had a baby daddy and a child at the time, which she did not tell me that until almost 60 days later.  At which, things ended because I was accused of a lot of things I did not do.  I wont forget her screaming at me, “my family and baby daddy and child come first.”  But then would later say things to her child about how we going to be together and I was his stepmother.  After that she later apologized and admitted she loved me.  The damage was done.  You wanted me all to yourself, but knew that was impossible, but yet tried to bookmark me in your life.

I could literally tell stories as if we are at a campfire.  My life currently feels unappreciated.  This also includes family and friends.  I feel unappreciated.  I feel unloved.  I feel uncared for.  I feel like I am existing in everyone’s life, not actually living.  I don’t feel physically present here.  I feel like “people are in your life for a season.” is an excuse for people to reveal themselves and their behaviors.  I feel used.  I don’t feel missed.  I miss someone so much, that the day they departed should have been the day I departed.  I am accountable for allowing things in my life to happen like this.  But also, there are always wolves in sheep clothing aka manipulators.  I know that when I disappear, everyone will miss the ability to access me.  I have done it before, went offline for 3 months.  The amount of support and love was overwhelming.  But we shouldn’t wait until a person is simply offline, once a person departs earth, it’s not just three months, its forever.  I am not looking for sympathy.  I tend to bring that light into everyone’s life.  I be asking for nothing in return.  

I’ve realized in my dating life no one ever chooses me.  My ex chose her ex gf to move in and didn’t care about how I felt.  My ex fwb only chose me when it was convenient for her.  And yet, I choose people I care about or put their feelings before mines.  Perhaps I shouldn’t anymore.  Everyone I dated tend to hid me as well, I don’t want to be anyones secret.  Privacy is one thing but I think back and feel like, it was done negatively.  I feel bad for wanting to be offline, because I want to disconnect my phone as well.  Sometimes I feel like I will never be married.  Its a rash of emotions.  At this time I just cry, I haven’t cried this much in awhile.  I think the last time I cried they were trying to figure out if I had leukemia and I was dating the non-commitment girl.  I don’t want to feel numb at all.  I want to be wrapped in love.  

I’ll end this blog with a few or a lot of thoughts.

I want to be loved and cared for quite heavily.  I want to feel chosen in my dating life and not feel like I always prioritize the person, but I am always 3rd, 4th and 5th in their life.  I want my feelings to matter for once.  I want my friends and family to appreciate things I do when I am not feeling well mentally.   I am really not asking for much.  I want people to do things without me asking.  I really want to be treated kindly and gently.  I want people to actually love me and not just say “i love you...” if that make sense.  I can hear a newly ex friend of mine, “i love you so much key” but only shows up for the negative things in my life. I want people in my life to show up for all things positive.  I want someone to pour into me instead of simply just taking, that includes family and friends.  

#life lessons #life #love #family #relationships #Capricorn #earth signs #diariesofkg #sadness #pain #lgbtq #queer pride #energy

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Compete Review - Stones to Abbigale, by Onision

Disclaimer: This review will contain spoilers… if you haven’t already watched the seven billion book reviews there are for Stones to Abbigale. I won’t be linking to where you can buy this book because I don’t want to support Greg… James… whatever the fuck he’s going by now. If you look hard enough, you can find it for free online. 

Stones to Abbigale is the first book published by Onision. I’m sure we already all know about Onision and how horrible he is, if not I highly recommend going to Youtube and watching The Right Opinion’s videos on him. They’re very enlightening as to the kind of person that Greg is. Anyways, this review isn’t about Onision (kind of), it’s about his book. I couldn’t figure out where the book was published, aside from a small stamp at the very last page just saying it was published via Amazon.

The Summary: There isn’t one. Fuck. The Characters: James - Simp who likes to act like he’s the hero, but also the victim. Definitely Onision’s self-insert.

Abbigale (Abbi) - A very traumatized person who is written very poorly

Jason - The jock who’s there to make James look like the victim but also the hero

Davis - a character who has no impact on the story and could be completely written out. His presence affects nothing. 

Ms. Robertson - The school counselor who could never actually be a school counselor Mr. Hanson - The history teacher

The Problems: Aside from a multitude of grammatical errors and some spelling errors, this book is just a mess. The characters are incredibly inconsistent to the point of being unrealistic (e.g. one moment Jason is the bad guy and the next he’s James’s best friend). Actually, in general, none of these characters are realistic. It’s really easy to read this story in Greg’s voice because it all sounds just like him. They speak with the same mannerisms that he does and like they all read a psychology book in fifth grade and now they think that they know everything about people and how they work. It’s annoying and incredibly frustrating, actually. 

Another big problem that this book faces is that everything is written in big blocks of text, without regard for needing commas or periods. This makes reading dialogue incredibly difficult and at times can make it really hard to decipher just who is talking. I’m convinced after reading Stones to Abbigale that Onision doesn’t know what the enter bar is. Take this for example, “As we got closer to the gym Abbi was giving me a funny look, as I normally didn’t walk her that far, I said, ‘Don’t worry, I’m not stalking you, we have the same class now.’ She replied, ‘Manipulating your schedule to be with someone sounds like stalking Mr. Patrick.’ I said, ‘Not if you drop Mrs. Stanley.’ She pushed me playfully saying ‘Jealous!’” Let’s split the dialogue up now (and add in proper punctuation. 

As we got closer to the gym Abbi was giving me a funny look; I normally didn’t walk her this far. “Don’t worry, I’m not stalking you. We have the same class now,” I said. “Manipulating your schedule to be with someone sounds like stalking Mr. Patrick,” she replied.  “Not if you drop Mrs. Stanely,” I said. She pushed me playfully, “Jealous!” 

This is a lot easier to read and aside from word choice, it’s not terrible. It could paint a picture a lot easier with better word choice, but this is Onision’s first book so I guess I can cut him a tiny tiny tiny bit of slack on that. Actually, no. This could use better word choice to paint a better picture and make them seem less like cardboard cutouts. 

Another problem is the plot itself. The ‘climax’ of the book, if you will, happens almost at the beginning of the book, which is fucking absurd. It makes the rest of the book feel pointless and like it’s dragging on. 

The Book: 

Chapter 1

We meet our main character, James. Except we don’t know his name is James yet. We do know that he paints his walls, his ceiling, and even his bedframe a startling white however because he “likes to inflict mental torture” on himself. Not sure why he does this, but he does. I think I’ll be the first to say that in any white suburban neighborhood, you could walk into just about most children’s rooms and find white as the standard (at least, that’s how it is in my neighborhood). Why? Fuck if I know. White just looks nice with most furniture, I guess. 

Anyways, our main character is late to school and rushes out the doors with a note he scribbled for an excuse as to why he was late. Yay, we finally get James’s name from Mr. Hanson, who couldn’t give less of a shit that James was late. He just wants to talk to him after class. James starts people watching to an almost creepy extent, trying to get into people’s heads and assuming what they were thinking. If you haven’t read any of my other reviews, you should know, I am not overly fond of when someone tries to assume someone else’s thoughts in this way. Where they psychoanalyze them without have a single hint of qualification. It’s annoying in storytelling. That’s not to say I’m not guilty of having a character do that at times, but I’m trying to be more aware of it and to stop writing like that. With how James is written, however, it’s clearly intentionally and gives off r/im14andthisisdeep vibes. 

Anyways, James rushes off to art class so he can see Abbi. He has never talked to Abbi a day in his life but spends a lot of his time thinking about her and wanting to be with her and basically, just being a simp. He puts too much value on Abbi without ever having talked to her and having no reason to do it, his world revolves around Abbi and she has never so much as shared a word with him. 

But he’s basically staring at Abbi, waiting to say something to her when his hand brushes up against some chewed up gum under the desk and he yells ‘EW’. This doesn’t stop Abbi from wanting to pair up with him however when the teacher gives them an assignment they need partners for. Abbi was originally paired up with Jason, who I guess makes Abbi uncomfortable. That’s understandable that Abbi would want to switch if that was the case, but Onision doesn’t lay it out like that. Instead, it’s laid out that Abbi wants to be paired with James just because. 

Abbi has shown no care for James at the beginning of the book and seemingly before this even started she never seemed to care for or about James. Suddenly though, as soon as the story starts, she cares. She wants to, needs to be with and around him. Why? Because the main character always has to get the girl. 

Anyways, Abbi gives James a piece of paper with ‘NISEONE’ written on it. Apparently, this is her phone number because, on a number pad (the ones with the letters), it is 647-3663. It doesn’t state this outright, so it took me looking at some other reviews before I figured this out. 

We also learn in this chapter that the school is practically falling apart and is dripping with sludge or mold, or something, so I don’t know what kind of school James goes to, but it’s not a good one.

Chapter 2

James goes and talks to Mr. Hanson and it turns out that Mr. Hanson wants James for a TA position. Because ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? ?? I guess James shows a lot of potential, even though he’s late like… all the time. Anyways, the night before Abbi and James decided to make, not a Frankenstein(‘s monster) teddy bear by combining two of their stuffed animals, rather, they’re making a zombie stuffed animal. And it turns out that Abbi wasn’t at class. For what reason? I don’t fucking know. The next day Jason comes to bug the class for some fucking reason because he got kicked out of his own class. There’s absolutely no reason for Jason to be there aside for James to stand up to him because Jason was ‘bullying’ Mr. Hanson. Anyways, Jason gets pissed off because of this and while James is on his way to the art class, Jason beats James up. I’m pretty sure this was only done to make James look like the victim (wonderful :P). James gets suspended for two days because he pushed Jason and Jason is suspended for nine days. 

Before he can leave to go home, James sees Abbi and Seth having what I can only assume is a one-sided fight. Seth is yelling and being very aggressive towards Abbi, and Abbi is just taking it. So James walks her home after Seth gets pissed and leaves. I guess it was raining this entire time, so as they’re walking home, Abbi’s makeup runs and James sees the bruises on her face. When Abbi asks if James sees them, he says “I see a beautiful girl, who I very much enjoy walking with in the rain” (pg 31) (by the way I HAD TO NUMBER ALL THESE PAGES MYSELF). Anyways, cheesy romance, it’s clear Greg doesn’t read his lines out loud and I don’t think James does a single thing to try and help Abbi get out of her abusive situation. He just tells her that she’s beautiful. James is also absurdly upset about the suspension at this point. Like, ridiculously upset. Like you love school so much and the thought of not being able to go feels like the end of the world upset (I was that person in school). But… James has shown absolutely no reason for why he is as upset as he is? Like he genuinely is about to cry over this but he has shown absolutely no care about school before, so it’s just confusing.

Chapter 3

James has a dream that Abbi is being eaten by the ground. He wakes up and writes her a kind of creepy letter about how, despite having only had three conversations with her, he loves her and lives to be with her. He emails it to her and a few minutes later Abbi calls him. She wasn’t aware of the email but invites him to meet her at the Quick Shop. She says that she’ll read the email before she meets him there. She never meets him there (shocker). Chapter 4 

James finally goes back to school and sees that Abbi isn’t in the art trailer still. But the mishmash stuffed animal bear thing is there. Under it is a note from Abbi asking James to meet her behind the church. Rather than stay for the class or anything like that, James bursts away to go to Abbi’s side. 

Abbi tells James that the note weirded her out a little bit, but she was just nervous. She tells him that she has been absurd by Seth and that her mother abandoned her and that her father doesn’t care about her. The only comfort James is able to offer her is that every time he sees her, she’s more beautiful to him than she was before. 

Chapter 5

James’ Mom has a boyfriend who comes out of fucking nowhere named Rick.

At school, James has his schedule rearranged so he can be Mr. Hanson’s TA and so he can still have a class with Abbi. Now he has gym with her. We meet Mr. Mack, who I guess is Jason’s uncle. He’s also the only teacher that James bonds with, I guess. Ms. Robertson, while reorganizing James’ schedule gives him an ominous warning that Abbi is no good and that he should stay away from her. 

Abbi and James spend the rest of the night on the phone, talking to each other. 

 Chapter 6

A few days have passed. Rick and James’ mom announce that they want to move in together. James thinks his life is over and that he’ll never get to see Abbi again. Later that night James suggests to his mom that she just let him live in the house by himself with Abbi and she just agrees to it. Supposedly his mom doesn’t even have enough money to get him a shitty cell phone either, so I guess Rick must be fucking loaded.

Chapter 7

It’s the infamous school shooting. After figuring out that the school is being shot up by Seth, the bus driver does as any rational human being would do and drives away to get everyone to safety. Then he does something that nobody would do and lets James off the bus after James threatens to jump off (despite there being no way that he could?). James rollerblades to the school through the blur of his tears and bursts in. He sits in the puddle of blood in front of the school to get his rollerblades off before rushing in through his tears to find Abbi. He finds Seth first, but rather than being the one to save the day, it’s Jason who saves the day and beats the shit out of Seth. James finds Abbi after this and the two of them sit together while the paramedic patches up James’ feet because he ran through glass while looking for Abbi. Chapter 8 

They’re back at school and a spokesman for the president gives a speech. They see Mr. Mack on a projector and he tells them in gruesome detail about how he tried to take down Seth and how Seth shot him. Definitely what a bunch of traumatized teenagers needed to hear and see. Chapter 9 James and Abbi go to her house, where Abbi’s father drunkenly stumbles out and starts threatening Abbi. A policeman who James claims probably sees too much of this on a daily basis stands to the side (because he just so happened to be nearby with is K-9 partner) and waits for something to happen. Something happens with Abbi’s father smashes James over the head with a beer bottle. The K-9 rushes forward and latches on to him and James claims that the officer is sadistic and likes to see people suffer. He then claims not even two paragraphs later that the cop is numb to what’s going on. Which is it? Is he sadistic or is he a dead-beat cop who sees too much of this shit? 

Abbi’s father is arrested and James decides to press charges. This is how Abbi ends up staying with James. 

Chapter 10 

The president shows up and nothing comes of it. He promised that he would answer everyone’s questions and talk to everyone. He only talks to two people, James and another kid, named Chris. Chris just asked why the president was such a D-Bag and the president just says “that’s President D-Bag to you.” James asked what the president thought of what people said about him and the president goes on this long diatribe about freedom of speech. 

Chapter 11 

Abbi wants to talk to James but insists that they do it in the shower. For some reason, James agrees to this and Abbi comes out of the shower to show all of her self-harm scars. Once again, James does nothing than tell her she’s beautiful and that’s about it. They almost fuck after this, but don’t because James’s mom is home. 

Chapter 12 

James and Abbi stay home to help his mom pack. Later they go to the park to stargaze and affirm to each other that they want kids. 

Chapter 13 

Abbi leaves James a big long note for him to read in class about how she was raped by some boys. Mrs. Roberston helped to get those boys in jail, but after finding out that Abbi was pregnant, she insisted that Abbi keep the baby because she is very pro-life. Seth found out about the baby and punched Abbi in the stomach until she miscarried. James’ response to the note is to go straight to Abbi’s classroom and make out with her in front of everyone and on the desk. He goes back to history class and Mr. Hanson basically high-five’s him for doing this, despite the fact that he walked out in the middle of class to do it. 

Chapter 14 

It’s Christmas break. They fuck. 

Chapter 15

James beats the shit out of Jason because Jason was groping Abbi. For some reason, when the principle comes out to confront everyone about this, Jason doesn’t rat on James.

Chapter 16

While driving somewhere with James and Abbi, Davis rushes out of the car into the middle of the freeway because he sees a man hanging from a rope from an overpass. Davis is killed. This is the only purpose that Davis serves in the entire story. It’s to die so James can be the victim once more because apparently if he was never born so he could never be in Davis’ life then this would have never happened. Survivor’s guilt is a thing, don’t get me wrong. But what Onision is using here isn’t survivor’s guilt. It’s James twisting the situation so he’s the victim still. 

Chapter 17

Davis’s funeral. Nothing happens besides James playing the victim some more. 

Chapter 18

Mr. Hanson and Mrs. Roberston confront James and they want him to become Class President. James doesn’t want to but it doesn’t seem like they’ll take no for an answer. A little while later Abbi, while walking with James, is pulled into the front office for some questioning by police. Mrs. Roberston shouts in front of everyone that Abbi was responsible for the school shooting. Because… you know… that’s a reasonable thing to do…

Abbi confronts James later that night and tells him that she wrote in a note to Seth, when she was in a really bad place, that she just wished everyone would disappear (not unreasonable and something I’ve done before). James, being the little bitchy drama-queen that he is, storms off to take a dramatic shower. While sitting in the shower though he realizes that Abbi did nothing wrong and comes back. Abbi immediately accepts him again and isn’t upset that he suddenly stormed off after she told him something rather hard for her to do. They make out (and probably fuck).

Chapter 19 

Abbi gets a bucket of paint thrown on her while she’s coming into the school and James punches the kid who did it. The principle shows up and both intimidates and threatens the kid who threw the bucket of paint. He also calls Mrs. Roberston into his office after James tells him that she told everyone that Abbi was responsible for the shooting. 

Chapter 20

Mrs. Roberstson was fired and burned down the entire school in retaliation. All the students get passing grades for the rest of the year (which is about 6 months of school left by the way). James ends off the book by saying “Well, I guess this means I won’t be running for President.” 

The book drags and has a lot of pointless info in it. At one point it genuinely made me feel sick how he was using Abbi’s trauma throughout the book to write a very, very poorly conceived hero fantasy. All the characters are unrealistic and nobody means anything to the story other than Abbi and James. I’m just glad it was a fast read. There are huge info dumps in the beginning, but as you can see, the rest of the chapters can be summed up in less than a fucking paragraph. The climax of the book comes way too early (the school shooting) and in general, it’s just a poorly written plot. It feels like a first draft that should have been taken back to the drawing board to be reworked until the shooting could become the ultimate climax of the book. It was rushed, and because it was rushed, the rest of the book dragged on. 1/10 stars. I didn’t hate it as much as I’ve hated other books, but it wasn’t good by any stretch of the imagination. 

#bad book #bad book reviews #stones to abbigale #onision #i'm numb #previous book reviews have numbed me to this pain #review #reviewblr #bookblr #complete review

[razieltwelve]

My Origin Story

I’m often asked about how I got into self-publishing. It’s something I’ve talked about in previous posts, but I want to talk about it again. It’s been years since I started, and I think time has given me something of a different perspective.

I’ve wanted to be a writer for a long time. However, I first began to take my writing more seriously in high school. I started posting my writing on the internet under various pseudonyms, and I gradually honed my skills. I won’t say I was good back then, but I steadily became less horrible. It still wasn’t something I showed to people I knew in my everyday life, not even to my family. My writing was, in my opinion, still too rough and raw to present to others, except via the anonymity of the internet.

Fast forward to university. I continued to improve my writing as best I could. In fact, I devoted most of my spare time to writing. It was at this point that I began to write fan fiction. Now, I can already tell what some of you are thinking, but writing fan fiction was honestly the best decision I could have made at the time. Fan communities are wonderful things. You don’t have to be the best writer to be welcomed, and you can get access to a far larger amount of critique and advice than you would get as some random lone writer on the internet.

My writing improved markedly during this time since I was now getting regular feedback. Now, obviously, it’s true that most fan fiction readers aren’t professional writers or critics. Sometimes, all you get is “I like the bit where people got stabbed”. Yet amongst all of the one word reviews, random hate messages, and simple but welcome words of encouragement, you do meet people who are genuinely interested in helping you improve. I’m talking about detailed reviews that can be pages long, covering everything from sentence construction to overarching plot critiques.

In my Honours year, I finished my first novel. Before you ask, it’s not something that I’ve published although I do intend to go back and fix it up one day. What mattered wasn’t how good it was. No. What mattered was that I actually finished a novel-length story. It was a bit of mess at times, but it was 100,000 words of original fiction. Sure, it wasn’t great, but it was mine. I actually printed it out and had it bound in a manner similar to my Honours thesis.

During my PhD years, I continued to write, and I began to submit my short stories to fiction magazines while sending out inquiry letters to agents and publishers about my longer stories. Over the four years of my PhD I wrote three novels and many short stories.

And this is where my origin story takes a bit of a dark turn.

Do you want to know how many short stories I got published?

Zero.

Do you want to know how much interest I got from publishers and agents about my longer stories?

Zero.

That’s right. I got absolutely zero interest from anyone about my original fiction.

That’s not a good feeling, let me tell you. It can be very disheartening. I might have thrown myself into fan fiction with a bit more enthusiasm then because at least there, in those communities, people liked what I wrote. Despite all the rejections from publishers and agents, I could at least say that in certain communities, my writing was well-loved and respected.

After bashing my head into the proverbial wall for a couple of years, I began to look into self-publishing. If my writing was genuinely good, then surely I’d be able to sell at least a few copies if I self-published. I wasn’t going to get ahead of myself and predict best-seller status or anything, but I had to be able to sell something, right?

I spent the next few months studying the market and learning how to make eBooks and design covers. Finally, I was ready. The very first book I self-published was The Last Huntress. That book was a labour of love. I pored over every sentence. I obsessed about the characters and the setting. I promoted it as best I could via the communities I was a part of, and then I sat back and waited for the magic to happen.

That last part, the bit about the magic? That was sarcasm.

There was no magic.

In that first month, I sold something like 17 copies.

All told, that translated to around $6.50 for me.

Staring at that result was not the happiest moment of my life. I did the mental arithmetic. Even if I increased my sales a hundred fold, it still wouldn’t be enough for me to make a living via writing. Heck, I could increase my sales three hundred fold and it still wouldn’t be enough.

Luckily, my years of unrelenting failure had somewhat numbed me to this latest failure. I decided to try again. The sequel and some other stories actually managed to do a little better, but that was hardly saying anything. It’s kind of like how if your leg has been cut off, you probably won’t feel the pain of a broken finger all that much.

After a full year of massive failure, my knee decided to explode because of course it did.

Cue surgery.

Cue misery.

Cue six weeks with my leg locked straight in a brace.

Sitting on my couch with my leg propped up beside me, I decided that I wanted to write something different. No more serious fantasy. No more high fantasy. My humorous fan fiction was what had first endeared me to readers, so maybe it was time to write something funny. Besides, it might take my mind off the fact that I had weeks of my leg in a brace to look forward to along with months of physiotherapy.

And don’t even me started on how awkward it was to have a bath or use the toilet.

I was throwing around ideas for what kind of story I could write when a scene came to mind: a necromancer being forced to beat his own wayward creation to death. All I really had was that one scene. It sounded pretty funny to me, so I started writing just to see where it would go.

Two Necromancers, a Bureaucrat, and an Elf is what that idea became.

That book sold more copies in a month than all of my previous books combined had managed in a year. In fact, it managed to outdo all of my previous books combined several times over.

I can’t tell you how much it meant to me to see those numbers rolling in. It wasn’t a bestseller by any means, but it was the first time that I began to think that maybe, just maybe, I wasn’t wasting my time, that maybe I could actually do this.

Things have changed a lot since then.

I’ve written more books, and although they’ve had varying degrees of success, they’ve all done so much better than I could ever have imagined during the doldrums of that first year. Humour, it seems, is what I’m best suited to, along with slice of life, and I’m more than happy to embrace that. I’ve even been lucky enough to have some of my books turned into audiobooks.

So there’s my origin story.

It’s easy, I think, to only remember the things that worked, but it’s important to remember the failures too. Writing isn’t an easy thing to do, especially if you’re aiming to make a living out of it. People can be cruel. You’re going to get reviews from people saying that you’re awful, that your story sucks, and that you should quit writing. But you’re also going to get reviews telling you that your story made someone’s day, that you made someone smile, that they can’t wait for the next book.

I wouldn’t be the writer I am today without those years of failure and disappointment. One of the most important qualities to have if you’re going to write humour is the ability to laugh at yourself and to make light of both the very strange and the very mundane. Moreover, a writer should be honest with themselves if they want to improve.

You can argue with reviewers. You can argue with critics. But you can’t argue with $6.50 worth of sales in a month.

I suppose that’s why I tend to be quite sympathetic to the underdog in my writing. I am one. I know what it’s like to put your heart into something and come up empty handed. I had that happen to me for years. I also know how important it is to celebrate the little wins and the small triumphs. Sometimes, they lead to bigger things, and sometimes, they’re all you have.

Well, that’s it. That’s my origin story.

It’s not exactly glorious. It’s filled with more than its fair share of failures. But it is my story. Mine. And that matters. Anyone who tells you that there isn’t some luck involved in the writing business is crazy. Luck is definitely a thing. But just being lucky isn’t enough. It takes years of hard work to become good enough to make the most of that luck, and it takes a certain level of idiocy/stubbornness to keep going despite everyone slamming doors in your face.

It’s a good thing, then, that I’m a lucky, stubborn idiot.

If you’re interested in my thoughts on writing and other topics, you can find those here.

I also write original fiction, which you can find on Amazon here or on Audible here. Also, just in case you missed it… The Sheep Dragon is out on Audible now! Get it here. It’s 26 and a half hours of fun, humour, and adventure!

#personal #musings #writing

[andoqin]

C-Novel Rec

So, I have a Deep Abiding Love for Chinese Webnovels, but not often do I get one that actually gets me deep in my heart in a way where I think about it after I’m done and so I wanted to talk about it a little here.

The novel I want to talk about is called Rebirth of a Star General (重生之女将星) , by Qian Shan Cha Ke (千山茶客). If you’ve read (hetero) c-novels, you might know her name, since she also wrote the novel Rebirth of the Malicious Empress of Military Lineage, which is almost a classic in this kind of rebirth genre. 

This Rec/Review/overlong essay is going to contain spoilers, so if you’re completely allergic to those I’ll just give you my TL;DR here: I preferred it a lot over RMEML.

Now to my endless wall of words:

Rebirth of the Star General is pretty much what it says on the tin, main character He Yan, is a famous general in her own right, but no one knows about it because she was only the stand-in for her sickly brother. When her brother grew up and was no longer sick, the family decided that he should receive the military honors she had earned and she would be married off. This was possible thanks to the fact she had always worn a mask, so as not to be discovered.<o:p></o:p>

He Yan was not entirely happy with this decision, but she thought she would make the best of it. Of course, it gets worse because not even a year into her marriage she is first poisoned and then blind as a result and later murdered by her cousin, a concubine of her husband.

She gets reborn as He Yan, beloved and spoiled daughter of a city guard and vows revenge, both on her former husband and on her family, but most of all she longs to become a general again, but this time under her own name and with acknowledgement of her being a female general. 

If you want your rebirth novels to include lots of face slapping or intricate revenge plotting, this is not the novel for you, since soon after she is reborn, she kills a guy out of self-defense and when his family and the city guard are after her she uses this chance to enlist in the army, disguised as a man. 

This is where she meets her arch-rival in her previous life, a man so gorgeous, once again entire paragraphs are filled trying to describe his magnificent beauty - a hallmark of this author if I ever saw one. She decides she will use this chance anyway, her knowledge of military tactics and her knowledge of her rival (and former classmate) possibly being beneficial in this case. 

The author makes it a point to emphasise that He Yan struggles initially to keep up with the military training, since she is now inhabiting the body of a woman who does not have experience with hard work and that she has to work twice as hard to be even mediocre, in the beginning. Obviously mediocrity does not lead to quick military advancement, so her getting incredibly fit very quickly anyway is not very realistic, but even before she had enlisted, He Yan had trained her new body and she has many years of experience as to how to get better and fighting experience, so I gave the novel a pass on that one. 

Up to this point the novel was entertaining, but it didn’t really grip me too hard, although I was impatient enough to MTL it, but as the story goes along He Yan really developed into one of my favourite c-novel heroines ever. So often in novels like this, the female character is treated as exceptional and all other women are dumb bitches, often just in the way of our main couple and dispatched accordingly. But He Yan does not treat other women like this and over the course of the novel builds lasting connections with all sorts of women.

And then there is the scene that made me go: okay yeah, this is going right up the favourite list.

He Yan meets up with the Second Male Lead (who never really is a serious threat to the OTP, He Yan only ever sees him as a friend and somewhat nice guy) and he tries the “oh you’re so unique and special, no other woman is like you” speech, but He Yan stops him and rips into him and the patriarchy in such a beautiful way, that even MTL doesn’t hamper:

   "A-He is very different from ordinary women."

     He Yan looked at her, "What's different?"

     Chu Zhao continued to walk forward, his voice still soft: "Most women, even though they are faced with such a predicament, are already numb and indifferent, and do not think as much as Ah He does. If A-He is thinking about them now, it is very likely that they wont enjoy it, and they will even complain that you are meddling in their affairs."

     He laughed: "This sounds a bit condescending."

     Chu Zhao smiled, "Why do you say that?"

     "The court is a man's court, the world's affairs are a man's world affairs, even when studying in the battlefield, it is men who are the only ones who have the grace. It is so unreasonable that men take advantage of the world, but in turn blame women for being numb-minded and unmotivated, what is this if not superiority?"

     "Brother Chu thinks that I am different from ordinary women because I have studied, I have left the house, and I even went to the military camp. But if you let those women be like me, who have seen the snow of Liangzhou Wei, the water of Jiyang City, the long moon of the desert, the rivers and mountains, do you think they would still be willing to be trapped in a jealous mansion, would they still be complacent and numb and foolish?"

     She smiled a little bit like Xiao Jue, "I think the men in the world are worried about this, so they have set up many ridiculous rules to bind women, breaking their wings with the three rules and five rules, and using those unwarranted 'virtuous wives and beautiful women' to judge them. The more foolish they are, the more reassured the men are, and the more they say, 'See, the women are shallow', when they are the ones who caused it!"

     "Because they also know that once women are given the chance to 'choose', they will never become a vase in the harem with their hands outstretched waiting to be fed by their husbands. Those good women would become generals, chivalrous men, scribes, staff, and compete with them for the grace of the world, and they, in turn, might not win."

     The girl's eyes were as clear as the water in the springtime of Ji Yang City, transparent and clear, seeing clearly and distinctly, as if they could reflect the most splendid daylight.

     He was always able to speak well and would not bring the atmosphere to an awkward point, but at this moment he did not know what to say. It was as if there was nothing he could say to refute the person in front of him. It was clearly a ridiculous, insouciant, naive and annoyingly righteous statement, but it shone out the shadow of a human being, with nothing to hide.

    He was also uneven in his heart.

     Although pretending to be "He Ru Fei" had brought her a lot of pain in her life, it had also taught her to see sights that many women would never see in their lifetime. If she hadn't pretended to be "He Ru Fei", she would not have known that men could do so much more than women. If you were talented in literature, you could be a bachelor with a full belly, if you were skilled, you could be a general with a good war record. Even if you were mediocre at everything, you could still be the most ordinary man on the street. To put it mildly, even at the Raketongzhuang, women were gambling prostitutes and men were gamblers.

    It was only because she later became "Madam Xu" and worked as both a man and a woman that she realised that the world treats men and women so differently, that it is not that men do not suffer, but their suffering can be the basis for judging themselves. The women, on the other hand, spend their lives waiting for the men's affirmation of their hardships.

    It is obvious that they are both born as human beings, but who is more noble than the other? It is ridiculous that some men still look down on girls from the bottom of their hearts, which makes people speechless.

and this is when the author pretty much states why He Yan would never be with SML 

   Chu Zhao and Xiao Jue were, after all, not the same. With women, they both considered them weak and unable to protect themselves. But the former's judgement had a hint of negativity and condescension in it, while the latter, as evidenced by the treatment of the female corpse in the Sun family's backyard in Liangzhou City, had more to do with pity.

And I loved that so much??? Yes, both the ML and SML have patriarchical attitudes towards women, but for He Yan there is a subtle and important difference. And this continues to be a theme throughout the book. One woman later keeps telling her son “Don’t underestimate women!” to later add, after He Yan has become a female general in her own right, under her own name, that He Yan might not be the only female general, there will be two, three or even more.

The romance is of the very, very slow variety and the main couple doesn’t even get together until the last quarter of the novel, officially, but before that we have all sorts of delicious fake relationship, cohabitation and other delightful tropey shenanigans.

The slow romance and relatively easy way the revenge is dealt out might mean this is not for everyone, but if you’re into a nice novel about a woman realising her goals, with a man who will always support her by her side, this might be for you.

And yes, she continues to lead armies after they are married :D

#rebirth of a star general #i read stuff #rec #novel rec #het novel

[introvertguide]

Gone with the Wind; AFI #6

Our next film for review is the classic epic drama, Gone with the Wind (1939). This movie was the big award winner from a year that is often considered the best year for movies in American cinema history. The film won 8 Oscars including Best Picture, Best Director, Best Screenplay, and Best Actress. Notably, the film also had the first win for a black actor with Best Supporting Actress going to Hattie McDaniel (although she had to get special permission to sit in the back of the room since the awards took place at a segregated hotel). All these wins came against competition like The Wizard of Oz, Wuthering Heights, Stagecoach and Mr. Smith Goes to Washington. Although this film is considered to be one of the best American films of all time, there has been a lot of complaints about the depiction of house slaves and slavery in general in this film. I want to discuss why it is still great and the takeaway from the film, but first a quick synopsis of the plot will help. This movie is almost 4 hours long, so it will be much more condensed then usual, and I relied heavily on Wikipedia and IMDB entries to summarize this particular film. I do want to do the standard...

SPOILER ALERT!!!! IF YOU ARE AMERICAN, THEN YOU SHOULD PROBABLY WATCH THIS FILM AS ALMOST A CIVIC DUTY!!! IT IS A MAJOR PART OF AMERICAN CINEMA HISTORY AND SOMETHING THAT SHOULD BE EXPERIENCED!!! IF YOU HAVEN’T SEEN IT, I IMPLORE YOU TO GO AND WATCH IT BEFORE READING ANY FURTHER!!!

In 1861, on the eve of the American Civil War, Scarlett O'Hara (Vivien Leigh) lives at Tara, her family's cotton plantation in Georgia, with her parents and two sisters and their many slaves. Scarlett learns that Ashley Wilkes (Leslie Howard), whom she secretly loves, is to be married to his cousin, Melanie Hamilton (Olivia de Havilland), and the engagement is to be announced the next day at a barbecue at Ashley's home, the nearby plantation Twelve Oaks. At the Twelve Oaks party, Scarlett makes an advance on Ashley, but instead catches the attention of another guest, Rhett Butler (Clark Gable). The barbecue is disrupted by news of the declaration of war, and the men rush to enlist. In a bid to arouse jealousy in Ashley, Scarlett marries Melanie's younger brother Charles before he leaves to fight. Following Charles's death while serving in the Confederate States Army, Scarlett's mother sends her to the Hamilton home in Atlanta, where she creates a scene by attending a charity bazaar in her mourning attire and waltzing with Rhett, now a blockade runner for the Confederacy.

The tide of war turns against the Confederacy after the Battle of Gettysburg, in which many of the men of Scarlett's town are killed. Eight months later, as the city is besieged by the Union Army in the Atlanta Campaign, Melanie gives birth with Scarlett's aid, and Rhett helps them flee the city. Once out of the city, Rhett chooses to go off to fight, leaving Scarlett to make her own way back to Tara. Upon her return home, Scarlett finds Tara deserted, except for her father, her sisters, and two former slaves: Mammy (Hattie McDaniel) and Pork (Oscar Polk). Scarlett learns that her mother has just died of typhoid fever and her father has become senile. With Tara pillaged by Union troops and the fields untended, Scarlett vows she will do anything for the survival of her family and herself.

(Little bit of a side note, this seems to be where several of the commenters on IMDB thought the movie ended as the phrase “ends with Scarlett vowing never to go hungry again” showed up more than once. This is the point of the intermission and the two halves are very different from each other, but this is by no means the end of the film. It is a very good time to take a break if you are watching it so I suggest taking more than the intermission time to stretch your legs. This is a really long movie.)

As the O'Haras work in the cotton fields, Scarlett's father attempts to chase away a scalawag from his land, but is thrown from his horse and killed. With the defeat of the Confederacy, Ashley also returns, but finds he is of little help at Tara. When Scarlett begs him to run away with her, he confesses his desire for her and kisses her passionately, but says he cannot leave Melanie. Unable to pay the Reconstructionist taxes imposed on Tara, Scarlett dupes her younger sister Suellen's fiancé, the middle-aged and wealthy general store owner Frank Kennedy, into marrying her, by saying Suellen got tired of waiting and married another suitor. Frank, Ashley, Rhett and several other accomplices make a night raid on a shanty town after Scarlett is attacked while driving through it alone, resulting in Frank's death. With Frank's funeral barely over, Rhett proposes to Scarlett and she accepts.

Rhett and Scarlett have a daughter whom Rhett names Bonnie Blue, but Scarlett, still pining for Ashley and chagrined at the perceived ruin of her figure, lets Rhett know that she wants no more children and that they will no longer share a bed. One day at Frank's mill, Scarlett and Ashley are seen embracing by Ashley's sister, India, and harboring an intense dislike of Scarlett she eagerly spreads rumors. Later that evening, Rhett, having heard the rumors, forces Scarlett to attend a birthday party for Ashley. Incapable of believing anything bad of her, Melanie stands by Scarlett's side so that all know that she believes the gossip to be false. After returning home from the party, Scarlett finds Rhett downstairs drunk, and they argue about Ashley. Rhett kisses Scarlett against her will, stating his intent to have sex with her that night, and carries the struggling Scarlett to the bedroom.

The next day, Rhett apologizes for his behavior and offers Scarlett a divorce, which she rejects, saying that it would be a disgrace. When Rhett returns from an extended trip to London, Scarlett informs him that she is pregnant, but an argument ensues which results in her falling down a flight of stairs and suffering a miscarriage. As she is recovering, tragedy strikes when Bonnie dies while attempting to jump a fence with her pony. Scarlett and Rhett visit Melanie, who has suffered complications arising from a new pregnancy, on her deathbed. As Scarlett consoles Ashley, Rhett prepares to leave Atlanta. Having realized that it was him she truly loved all along, and not Ashley, Scarlett pleads with Rhett to stay, but Rhett rebuffs her and walks away into the morning fog, leaving her in tears on the staircase. A distraught Scarlett resolves to return home to Tara, believing that one day she will get Rhett back.

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While discussing this film with my mom, she mentioned that the film has had a different effect on her each time and she felt like it was because she was a different person each time she saw it. I have had the same experience and I find that rewatching the film is a good way to see how your own perspective has changed over time. I first saw this as a teen and thought Rhett Butler was a cold man who could could not forgive a suffering Scarlett who was trying to figure out her priorities during a trying time. In my twenties, I could only focus on the depiction of slavery and thought that people should not watch the film at all. In my thirties, I hated Scarlett and wished that she had died instead of her friend or the daughter because she was dramatic and made bad situations worse. I recently turned forty and watched it again...

I still find Scarlett to be dramatic and the cause of many of her own problems, but at the same time I would expect this from somebody her age (I think I finally separated the age of the actress from the age of the character) with her “Princess of the South” upbringing. I can’t really empathize since her life was much easier than mine, but I can sympathize after working with many rich teens who are spoiled and don’t know how to act in an emergency. I think I understand better about how the author of the book was trying to portray this plantation lifestyle as almost royalty and the slaves were like the 1850s Southern United States version of royal attendants. I find the language very cringy, but all of the house slaves at the O’Hara plantation have their place in the story. This is probably an accurate depiction of what somebody from the old South would want to glamorize plantation life as being to people living in the 1940s, and thus historically valuable. I find Rhett Butler to be somewhat similar to Han Solo: somebody who looks out for his own best interest but softens for good people and good causes. He seems to do good things except when he gets drunk and forces himself on Scarlett (marriage and sexual assault are not mutually exclusive). He is otherwise pretty faultless, but that scene drops him quite a few pegs in my eyes.

One thing that sticks with me each and every time is when Scarlett is working at the army hospital and the doctor wants her to help with an amputation. They have nothing to numb the pain and there is a young man screaming not to cut into his leg...I can’t even imagine yet I know that this was not even uncommon during the height of the war. I remember watching a documentary on the Civil War and a real photo showing a pile of amputated limbs at a makeshift tent hospital. The pile looked to have more than 100 limbs and I am sure they did not have enough morphine for all of these men. The best field doctors were said to be more strong and stoic than accurate since being able to saw through a man’s leg quickly was a major commodity. This horrifically honest portrayal of war in the midst of the Nazi threat and a couple of years before the entry of the U.S. into WW2 took courage. I was able to sublimate a little more during this viewing since there was no on-screen cutting. I also tried to imagine the man doing the voice over and screaming “Don't cut my leg!” in a sound studio. It helped. Another thing that I didn’t know during previous viewings was that when she exits the building and sees the hundreds of soldiers in the streets, half of the bodies on the ground are manikins. Look very closely at the middle picture above...half over those bodies are fakes.

I learned a lot from the extras that were with this movie since I borrowed my friend’s DVD box set. It was unexpected to me that the three slaves were my friend’s favorite characters (Pork, Mammy, and Prissy), since my friend is a black woman in her 70s and grew up during the Civil Rights movement when films that depicted slavery in this way were generally looked down upon. My friend said she was glad to see black actors at all from the era and the movement had to start somewhere. The actors seemed to be of the same opinion with Hattie McDaniel saying she would rather portray a maid and get paid like an actor than have to actually be a maid. Speaking roles for black actors were very few, especially in big budget movies, so there was not a lot of concern about the character being portrayed. This makes since, especially after the Great Depression. Having a role playing a stereotyped house slave still meant a great paycheck at the end of the week. I also liked that one of the things that Rhett Butler wanted and had difficulty getting was approval from Mammy concerning the courtship of Scarlett. Mammy was a slave, but she knew a lot of secrets and was not powerless.

My favorite character this time around was Melanie Hamilton because she is just a good person. She is not helpless and she doesn’t complain about her problems, she just handles her business and keeps supporting her family with a strength that I am not likely to truly know. I was saddened to hear that the actress recently passed away as, similar to her character, she seemed like a real survivor that would live forever. Apparently the actress, Olivia de Havilland, was not nearly as demure and liked to play jokes on her fellow actors. She also made a lot of fun about the age gap between Vivien Leigh and the actress playing Scarlett’s mother (there was a real life age difference of 4 years). Havilland also had the crew tie her to a chair that Clark Gable was supposed to lift her from and he nearly threw out his back.

It is a little surprising how much adversity occurred on set since there were a lot of injuries, actors who didn’t really like their character (Vivien Leigh described her character as a “raging bitch”), giant sets that were lit on fire so only one take was possible, and the portrayal of the South and slavery in a favorable light. However, like so many other films on the AFI list, it seems like the difficulties are what bonded the groups together to make classic cinema. It seems like a little adversity and strife can bring out the best in film makers.

So does this movie belong on the AFI list? Maybe more than any other movie ever made. It is the top film from the pinnacle year of the Golden Age of Hollywood. It is a historical drama about a singularly American topic based on an American best seller. I think a list about great American movies should probably start with films like this and go from there. Absolute classic. Would I recommend it? Yes, and I would actually recommend multiple viewings because your interpretation will change throughout your life. This is a superiorly good movie that should be viewed, no matter how it is interpreted. Just make sure to plan a break because this movie is epic in scale and in run time. Still totally worth it.

#gone with the wind #vivien leigh #olivia de havilland #clark gable #golden age of hollywood #classic film #american film institute #depictions of slavery #academy award winner #best picture #introvert #introverts

[mochalattea]

It’s been a long time since I’ve written anything.. but I’ve “come home” to dl again recently, and in reviewing some of the stuff I’d written in the past, I wanted to write a response to something I wrote a few years ago.. as choppy as it is, I’m trying to get my creative gears turning again.

Winter whipped up around her, in violent gusts of relentless snow and ice that pelted her frigid body. She’d gotten her wish: to succumb to the cold and watch the inky black figure of the being accompanying her vanish in the white-grey distance. Her fingers curled weakly in her gloves, feeling hot enough to burst under the pressure and cold. The storm quieted in her ears as her senses dulled and eyelids grew too heavy to keep open.

There was hardly any reaction at all when a tall creature encroached on the tree-lined path. A faint flickering up of her eyes came when she sensed it, but over the rim of her glasses with her consciousness already slipping, she couldn’t make out the long white hair which elegantly whisked around. Nor could she see the golden eyes that were so inhuman. No—this entity shrouded in billowing maroon robes was hardly perceived at all. A mildly intrigued snap of his fingers sounded and got carried off by the winds; lost, now. He disappeared just as inexplicably, leaving her stuck in time, slumbering through the storm.

                                                            ❈

There was no dawn, nor midday, nor dusk, nor night when she awoke to the oddly gentle sound of glass—ice?—shattering. The snow and ice that built up on her back weighed on her, now that it was no longer suspended over her in a delicate, timeless cocoon. There was only stormy winter and ambiguous white-grey that blurred the division of land and sky.

When she looked up, it appeared that there were eyes in the sky. Dozens of single, unpaired gold eyes blinking at different intervals; what would have been surrounding skin and eyelid blended in with the expanse of cloud. Fear jolted through her spine as these eyes began squeezing shut and popping, audibly, until the illusion broke and sky returned to normal. Dizzied and repulsed by the sight, she coughed hard enough to expel blackened bile, rolling slightly from her front onto her side, and gasped against the cold snow as the snow that had encased her crumbled off of her.

Her clothing crunched as she moved, stiff like cardboard with the slightest bit of give. She had no sense of the time that had passed. Had it been moments? Her brain reeled wildly. Days? That’s impossible. Years? Even more so. Suddenly, it came back to her—those fading memories of a black coat drifting over the banks, being peppered with white snow, freshly falling. Her stomach churned again, and she wretched once more, but nothing except strings of saliva came up this time. Tears pricked her eyes. Terror gripped her, as hot as an iron pressed into the small of her back.

   …I don’t want to fade away and disappear!

Shakily, she began to move. Her fingers stung, ballooned and swollen from the conditions that they were dumb, and hardly braced against the ground beneath her as she struggled to rise to her feet. The trees shuddered; sheets of snow collapsed from branches and landed thickly on the banks below. The howling of the winds were sick laughter. The bare branches chattered against one another in the wind, mocking her.

                                                           ❈

It was unclear how long she ran in the winter. The winds hushed her cries, muting her until her voice was hoarse and dry. So thoroughly oppressed by the weather, it played with her relentlessly. Frost creeped into the bridge of her nose and tears froze on her cheeks as quickly as they fell from her eyes.

At last she stumbled upon her destination and threw herself against the heavy oak door, the closest one she happened across, up an abundance of stairs. A newly installed one that must have been a renovation completed during her undetermined absence. Her arms were paralyzed and uselessly fell to her sides. Again and again, she hurled her shoulder against the door, uncaring as to how bruised and battered she became, until it opened, and in through the doorway she fell.

It is a wordless encounter. She only sees the fine tailored dress pants and polished shoes before black begins to eat at her vision.

Reiji’s eyes fix on her. His lips press into a thin line. He gives a wry laugh, bending down to clutch the collar of her jacket and drag her up on her knees. “Oh? I see. So on the brink of expiration, you thought of nothing other than returning to my side.” His voice is measured, but the words sound unmistakably barbed to her ears. They are neither whispered nor hissed.

The door shuts firmly, hitting her feet in the area it sweeps across. She doesn’t flinch.

His hands worm their way under her armpits and lift her until her feet dangle freely with no ground beneath them. He chuckles against her ear, nose pressing through her hair—matted from the wind and overgrown since she’d last been in his presence. Fear, too, was something the cold has numbed her to.

“Did you think this would please me? I know not whether to praise you for returning to your senses,” his nails dig through the layers of fabric nearest to her flesh, “or to wring your neck the rest of the way myself.” He drops her. “I have absolutely no need for an expired vessel.”

Her legs fold in on themselves and she collapses under her own weight. She pools onto the now-wet carpet of his study. She breathes choppily, still unable to muster words, but finds the sights and smells familiar comforts that make her weep. Reiji leaves, going into an adjacent room after muttering that her reaction was so undeniably human, giving her time to collect herself some. The study is blurry through her tears, but she can tell it is much like she remembers it. A fire burns in the fireplace.

“Stand on your feet and come along, you unbecoming thing.” He stoops some once he returns and helps her along to the bathroom. The process of shedding her winter wear is a painful one, and he scolds her, speaking of the very real possibility of the fabric bringing her skin off with it. Perseverance prevents this, and a new set of dry clothes are swapped out for the wet and weathered ones. The warm knits crunch faintly as he brings them around her shoulders, the threads not used to being stretched after sitting unworn for so long. Reiji removes her glasses, polishing them with a square from his pocket before placing them back on her face.

He next sets about working through her hair. “Well, I suppose even at its best your hair tangled easily, but this…” Starting at the crown of her hair is futile, and so he changes tactics, swiftly bringing the comb through the matted ends. He speaks few words otherwise, aside from the reminder for her to keep her head up, occasionally slipping his gloved hand under her jaw to level her head as it tips forward from fatigue. Once he finishes and can see her hair cascade in limp waves past her shoulder blades, halfway down her back, he readies the scissors.

Locks of her hair fall in coils onto the floor. Slowly, her head feels lighter as her former hairstyle is restored, the ends of her hair narrowly kissing her shoulders. She’s shaking, from the cold and exhaustion, as he brings his fingers down the short length of her hair and curls the side pieces in to frame her face.

“It is finished,” he says, “your appearance is as it should be.” His smile is somewhat pleased—but who’s to say that it’s more of a matter of admiring his own handiwork or the final result itself. He ushers her back into the study and into his armchair as he retreats back into the bathroom.

                                                           ❈

The fire is warm, almost too much so, as she finds herself sitting more at an angle to protect her legs from the immediate heat coming off of the hearth.

She looks around the room, languidly surprised at its abnormal state of disarray. Books are off of the shelves and sit in thick piles. Skimming some of the titles on the spines, she recalls them as having been recent additions to his ever-growing collection not too long ago, yet now they are in need of repair. She averts her gaze, not wishing to question how much time has passed and how it’s even possible that it’s been long enough for her to witness such decay. At Reiji’s desk are more books at various stages of being restored and rebound. Stained pages being aligned and pressed between wooden blocks, ready for glue to be applied. Another book has a threaded needle sitting atop of it, ready to be bound by hand. There’s paper and card used to stabilize covers, and odd bottles and jars of glue.

Still finding her at a loss for words upon his return, he accepts her silence. It’s a return to normalcy. Before, he’d grown accustomed to her company. Something about it is nostalgic to him. He readies another kettle of water so that he can remove the glue from the loose pages soaking in a shallow container on a side table.

Once the kettle starts whistling and he removes it from the burner heating it. A nice aroma fills the room as his tea steeps. After he tends to his work, using the rest of the boiled water on the pages needing glue removed, he turns towards her and starts across the room, cup and saucer in hand. “The temperature is less than ideal for drinking, so I no longer need it. You, however, will not protest to drinking it, I trust? Your tolerance for hot beverages was always quite low.”

“You didn’t have to go to the trouble…” Her first words.

He sighs. “Good grief, must you make me repeat myself?” He sets it down on the table beside her chair. “You have increased my workload plenty with your reappearance. This is simply not allowing my previous efforts to go to waste, understood?”

She nods meekly.

“Speak of your gratitude in a way that is acceptable. Open your mouth; use your voice.”

She thanks him, taking the cup and saucer to her lap before bringing the cup to her lips.

“Very good,” he praises. He swiftly returns to his desk again, beginning to handle the wet papers and scrape the seams clean.

                                                           ❈

Time passes. After she’s had her fill of warm tea, she begins to doze, and finds herself slouching in her chair. She’s never out for very long, and once she’s up again, she watches how he is always switching tasks, seeming to make quick work of the array of books that are repairs in progress. He pulls thread through perforated pages in slow, strong motions. She nods off again.

Eventually he finds himself at a standstill, waiting for glue to set, letting wet paper dry, and weighing down a leather cover that he retouched the gold lettering of. Only then does he bring his attention back to her, still seated in the chair he set her in. He notices that some colour has returned to her cheeks. Her lips and eyelids are no longer an icy purple either.

He saunters over, bringing himself to her level. “Well, how are you feeling? Your condition looks noticeably improved. Come now, sit up properly. You are a lady, after all.”

She’s easily coaxed into shifting in her seat once his words stir her.

He’s so close to her now; the hand she’s had on the armrest is where his falls to, covering it delicately. “Your temperature, now…” He brings his other hand to her hair, smoothing down the back of her head so that her forehead presses against his, and his fingers and palm settle against her neck. “…Could be improved.”

She musters a half smile.

His voice falls to a whisper; softer, gentler. The tone she was hoping he’d greet her with. “Warm yourself soon, for cold blood is as unappetizing as cold tea.”

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“So, what’s up with you and y/n?”

Yamaguchi was sitting in Tsukishima’s bed tossing his volleyball in the air. Tsukki was scribbling in his notebook, finishing his reviewer notes for the upcoming exams. He looked at Yamaguchi shaking his head.

“We’re good.”

“So are you two back together now?”

“You wish, we haven’t talked about that. She keeps annoying me every day, begging to tell her stories about everything before her accident.”

“That’s kind of stressful.”

“A little, it still hurts to think she can’t remember anything, not even the slightest detail. Her head would eventually hurt if she think about it too much.”

There was a knock on the door, followed by a loud voice that made Yamaguchi and Tsukishima’s eyes widen. They stared at each other, hesitating if they were going to answer the person at the door. With a sigh, Tsukishima stood up groggily before he left his room, Yamaguchi following him close behind.

“HEY HEY HEY!”

“What are the both of you doing here?”

“Oya? You’ve grown Tsukki.”

Kuroo ruffled Tsukishima’s hair, Tsukishima glared at him, swatting away his hand. Kuroo chuckled shaking his head. Bokuto’s voice filled their apartment unit, disturbing the peaceful ambiance, which gravely annoyed Tsukki.

“If you’re here to annoy me, sad to say I’m busy. Okay, good by-”

“Hold up Saltyshima, someone was missing you too much that we decided to crash by your place.”

Kuroo stood aside, revealing your figure. Tsukishima’s eyes widened as you smiled sheepishly at him. Bokuto and Kuroo looked at each other then back at the both of you.

“Y/n!”

You stared at Yamaguchi who was shocked at your presence. He kept on blinking, doubting if this was real or not. You smile at him reaching out your hand.

“Hi, I’m Y/N.”

“yes, I know. I’m Yamaguchi Tadashi, Tsukki’s best friend.”

“Oh yes, Kei has told me about you, I assume we were also close before right?”

“Of course we were!”

Tsukishima sight, letting their visitor in their apartment even if was against his will. Kuroo and Bokuto already found their way in the sofa making themselves at home, You sat beside Bokuto, also making yourself feel comfortable.

“We don’t have food, just so you know.”

“Don’t worry Tsukki, we bought some.”

“Whatever, Yamaguchi, please entertain them for a while, I’d be finishing my notes for Biology.”

“Notes for Biology?

“Yeah why?”

“Can you let me borrow?”

“Make your own notes y/n”

“Kei, please.”

You pulled your usual puppy face hoping that Tsukishima would lend you your notes. Tsukishima stared at you, a smug look plastered on his face. He walked towards you bending down a little to poke your nose

“Your puppy face will never work at me.”

Tsukishima was heading back to his room when he turned back to look at you, who had your arms crossed and a pout on your face while you sat next to the boys. He threw his crumpled paper at you to get your attention, once you looked at him, he motioned you to come with him.

“I said make your notes, not slouch on the couch and be a lazy potato.”

Kuroo laughed at Tsukishima’s remarks he slightly nudged your back, motioning you to go with Tsukishima. You turned to look back at Yamaguchi and Bokuto who nodded their heads. Teasing the both of you to use protection. Tsukishima clicked his tongue rolling his eyes before he vanished inside of his room, leaving his door slightly open for you. You followed him to his room, his room was surprisingly tidy. You found his mini collection of dinosaurs neatly displayed on his top shelves along with some of his history books that he used to read whenever he had the chance.

“I never knew you like Dinosaurs.”

“You knew before, but yeah I like them.”

Tsuskishima stood up, bringing out his folding table beneath his bed, setting it up in the center of the room so the both of you could share notes, your eyes still wandered in his room, spotting a small picture frame in beside his laptop. You picked it up, surprised to see a picture of you and Tsukki during your second year high school. You were smiling towards the camera while Tsukishima had his arm slung at your shoulders, his smile directed at you instead of the camera.

You gasped at the sudden pain in your head, dropping the frame as you stumbled down the floor. Tsukishima ran to your side picking you up, his voice ringing through your ear but you can’t hear him. You just stared at him in shock as he yelled for the others as you see their figures dashing to his room. Your head was flashing with scenarios and memories that you haven’t seen before You saw yourself being immersed in a world you never saw before, your past memories. It made your head hurt like crazy, your vision became blurry as everyone around you was panicking, Tsukishima was already carrying you rushing outside of their apartment. You wanted to call to him but you were too numb and weak to call out his name.

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Is CoolSculpting permanent or temporary?

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One of the most noted results are minimal soreness, wounding and some tingling. Research studies have revealed no modifications in blood lipid degrees or liver function.

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These fat cells are naturally processed and also eliminated, so they will not move to an additional area of your body, so there's no adjustment to fat cells in untreated areas. Losing or gaining weight typically does not increase or decrease the variety of fat cells. Cryolipolysis is a tried and tested approach of freezing stubborn fat cells to beween -1 and -10 degrees.

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Her follow-up was organised for 14 weeks post-procedure where I observed a substantial decrease in the lower abdomen, and also the flanks were significantly enhanced. Sasaki et al showed a boost of 21% in fat decrease in therapies that made use of post-massage compared to a control. Their cryolipolysis therapies are readily available in a number of beauty parlors throughout the UK, among which is the Omniya facility in Knightsbridge. Fat freezing, or cryogenic lipolysis, is exactly like what it appears - fat cells are frozen for a period of time in the objective to lower them, and also it's a non-surgical choice to liposuction. New for 2021, CryoSlim Hybrid is an innovation in sophisticated cryolipolysis.

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They can not endure at this temperature level, freeze, and then are removed normally by the body. You are entrusted to a smoother shape as well as a new degree of body confidence. YouGov, it was disclosed that more than a 3rd of people in the UK are miserable with their body weight as well as image. It's no surprise that fat that gathers on our problem areas can cause feelings of low self-esteem as well as self-consciousness. Cryolipolysis and fat freezing will certainly target fat to reduce it, providing you a much healthier and extra toned appearance. Cryolipolysis is suitable for locations where weight loss is difficult to attain through lifestyle alone, for example, the chin, stomach, love takes care of and back.

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Fat Freezing and Other Fat Removal Techniques A procedure called CoolSculpting – or cryolipolysis by its scientific name – uses a machine to freeze targeted pockets of fat. While CoolSculpting does target your unwanted fat, it doesn't actually get rid of it for you.

Before positioning the applicator, a certain cryoprotection cloth will be placed on the area to be treated, in order to protect your skin. Occasionally, in a treatment plan greater than one session are imagined for the picked body area. After an in-depth anamnesis, we will certainly talk about with you the best training course of treatment for you. Our most current award-wining cutting-edge method for non-invasive fat reduction making use of cryolpolysis. With such sophisticated modern technology, the Clatuu Alpha triumphes. Not just is the Clatuu Alpha with the ability of 20% stronger suction, but users can likewise adjust the air conditioning as well as suction levels using giving personalized sessions for individuals and clients.

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It's not a treatment for weight problems, and also individuals who are really overweight will not gain from the treatment. Although we might keep fat in different locations, Coolsculpting works on both men and women, and also in the majority of locations of the body. For insurance coverage as well as treatment evaluation functions we will need to use up close pictures of the areas to be treated.

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So, throughout the treatment, an exterior applicator (non-invasive) offers controlled cooling down to the locations with collected fat, thus eliminating fat cells normally as well as painlessly.

Our certified professionals already know composition and how the body functions so you can be assured you are in skilled hands. You will be required to complete a clinical type on arrival as well as all aspects of your previous history will be throughly examined to ensure you are risk-free to proceed with the treatment. Our long well established facility in Hitchin, has full-time function personnel and also an online booking solution. LipoGlaze ® Cryolipolysis Fat Freezing is an effective type of treatment for locations of fat that are in hard to move locations. You might have simply had an infant, you might will obtain married or go on vacation. Regardless of your lifestyle as well as situation Lipoglaze has extraordinary results.

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The bridge job is actually impressive, below's hoping I require absolutely nothing more than routine checks for some time. Yes is the easy response however the very best point we can do is to reveal you prior to and after photos of fat freezing so you can see the results on your own. I think you will certainly not discover a much better bargain on the market for a comparable treatment. It will not surprise you to discover that although this treatment is fairly brand-new to the UK, it's currently extremely popular in the United States. Beautique Medispa proprietor, Karen, claims this therapy is ideal matched to someone who remains in reasonably good shape, yet with fat bulges like a muffin top.

These will never ever include your face and will certainly be stored electronically in accordance with existing data as well as personal privacy regulations. We will certainly never ever share photos publicly without your specific permission. Fat freezing functions best on upper body fat which normally see wonderful outcomes after simply one session. Depending upon the degree of contouring asked for a second session might be needed in order to cover all the locations or for specifically persistent areas. However if the area is too huge after that the treatment will certainly not appropriate as a result of body make-up as well as the constraints of the machine. As a general guideline the therapy appropriates for UK clothes dimension 16 and also below.

Some people benefit from simply one treatment, some people might require monthly sessions or added top ups. fat freeze Walsall differs on the preferred outcomes, this will be completed you throughout your appointment.

Can you exercise after fat freezing?

If you choose not to exercise during or after your CoolSculpting series, you could risk the return of fat cells. The same habits that created the fat in the first place will eventually cause it to come back. Exercise is a proven method of maintaining long-lasting results.

The gadget is able to reach its target temperature much faster than previous versions, once more enhancing time efficiency and ease for the individual. CoolSculpting is non-surgical, non-invasive, requires no anaesthetic as well as has no down-time. Sometimes moderate pain may be experienced during as well as right away after the procedure, with short-lived side-effects likewise feasible yet generally short-term. These might include momentary feeling numb, soreness, swelling or suppleness of the treatment area, localized bruising, prickling or stinging. The CoolSculpting treatment is non-surgical, non-invasive and-on the entire- entirely pain-free. Throughout the first couple of mins of therapy you might feel some pressure, deep pulling and intense cold. This quickly dissipates and most individuals do not experience any kind of more discomfort throughout the therapy.

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Preserve a healthy way of living and also drink a minimum of 2 litres of water per day. Our expert will review your medical history as well as validate that there are no factors that may avoid you from having a cryolipolysis treatment. AESTHETIKA Clinic Sheffield provide a. big range of Surgical and also Medical Aesthetic therapies for Men and Women and we specialise in the Ageing Face. Whether it is love handles, top thighs, back fat or bra fat coolsculpting could be the remedy you are searching for. We will certainly collaborate with you on a therapy plan that's customized to your individual demands. It might take as low as one center check out with follow up to accomplish your goals. With various applicators to choose from, we will make a treatment strategy to aid attain you accomplish your goals.

CoolSculpting ® treatment is not to be viewed as a weight-loss solution for individuals who are overweight. Our customized treatment strategies are thoroughly taken into consideration, and we include your objectives, your budget plan, and also the demands of your body at every action to make sure optimal security and also contentment with your treatment. An exemption applies to the therapy of firm body areas, such as the outer legs or satchels. In this instance, a copyrighted plate applicator is used, which thoroughly deals with the equivalent zone without making use of vacuum.

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Review: The Obelisk Gate by N. K. Jemisin (The Broken Earth #2)

Length: 391 pages. 

Genre/Tags: Fantasy, Science Fiction, Apocalyptic, Post-post-post Apocalyptic, Female Protagonist, Antagonist POV, First-Person, Second-Person, Third-Person, Gray Morality, Dark, Great Worldbuilding, Great Character Development, LGBT Characters, Diverse Cast, Trilogy

Warning(s): Like before, this is not a happy book. Child death, abuse/torture, graphic violence and gore, major body horror, and a whole lot of murder. References to slavery. Pretty par for the course at this point.

My Rating: 4.5/5

**WARNING: THIS REVIEW (INCLUDING THE SUMMARY) CONTAINS MAJOR SPOILERS FOR THE FIFTH SEASON. IF YOU WANT A SPOILER FREE REVIEW, PLEASE READ MY FIFTH SEASON REVIEW (X), OR, BETTER YET, JUST READ THE BOOK.** 

My Summary:

A Fifth Season is well and truly underway, but unlike the dozens of others humanity has weathered through the ages, this one threatens to cast the world into ash and darkness for a million years, ending life as we know it. Essun’s search for her missing daughter has gone cold as she discovers Castrima, a strange underground city built into a geode, led by— bizarrely— a feral orogene. It is here she finds Alabaster— once her friend, mentor, not-quite-lover, and most powerful orogene alive— on his deathbed. He tore open the giant Rift in the center of the continent, kicking off all the death and destruction since the Season began. His actions and goals seem incomprehensible. Then, he tasks Essun with the impossible: use the power of the obelisks--the ancient, floating relics of a bygone era--to return Father Earth’s missing child. 

But stranger forces are at work. The stone-eaters— immortal, statue-like humanoid creatures--have taken a sudden interest in humanity, and orogenes in particular. Essun herself is trailed by Hoa, the story’s narrator, a stone-eater wearing the disguise of a human child. He assures her that not all of his kind want the same thing, that he is on her side, but what does that really mean? 

Meanwhile, Essun’s daughter Nassun grapples with the reality of her life— one in which the world is ending and everyone thinks of her as a monster. She will soon come to realize that love comes cloaked in pain— with dire implications for those around her.

There is a thing you will not see happening, yet that is going to impact the rest of your life. Imagine it. Imagine me. You know what I am, you think, both with your thinking mind and the animal, instinctive part of you. You see a stone body clothed in flesh, and even though you never really believed I was human, you did think of me as a child. You still think it, though Alabaster has told you the truth— that I haven’t been a child since before your language existed. Perhaps I was never a child. 

You should imagine me as what I truly am among my kind, then: old, and powerful, and greatly feared. A legend. A monster.

Minor spoilers and my thoughts follow. 

As I mentioned in my Fifth Season writeup (x), this is a hard series to summarize and review. By their nature, these books are full of unexpected and strange twists, and half the joy of reading them is discovering new things about the world and characters. So, it’s difficult to get specific without spoiling a lot. At the same time, it’s impossible to describe any context for this book without spoiling some of The Fifth Season, so… fuck it.

Did I like this one as much as The Fifth Season? I don’t think so— it’s still great, and much better than most of what I’ve read— but I tend to struggle with second books. The Obelisk Gate is very heavy on characterization and worldbuilding, and it definitely feels like setup for the third book, which might explain part of my reaction. That being said, as middle books go, this one has plenty going on and a lot of interesting drama. The writing itself is exquisite and very entertaining to read. There’s all sorts of lore details that shed a new light on the events and characters of the first book. And, well, there’s a very good chance I’ll look at this one in a new light based on book 3. I’m willing to bet these are very interesting to reread when one knows all the little twists and turns.

(As an aside, I randomly guessed a Big Twist in this one while reading The Fifth Season. So… go me, I guess).

Like The Fifth Season, this book follows three central characters. There’s Essun, of course, who once more serves as the main protagonist. But joining her now are Nassun— her missing daughter— and (of all characters), Schaffa, the main antagonistic figure from the previous book. These latter two offer a very different and interesting perspective on things. For example, early on you learn Nassun HATES her mother, which seems totally at odds with what we know to this point. Schaffa is also an interesting choice— we don’t see his perspective much, but we learn a lot about him and the Guardians in general. Why the fuck are they so creepy? Why do they smile all the time? Boy, you’re about to find out, and it’s not gonna be great.

One thing that continues from The Fifth Season which I really dig is the narrative style. I didn’t want to mention it in my previous review, but the whole story is technically in first-person, narrated by Hoa. He shifts into second-person when describing Essun’s life, whereas Nassun/Schaffa are both third-person. In The Fifth Season, Hoa seems like an odd choice of narrator, as he’s a fairly minor character, but that changes big time in The Obelisk Gate. There’s also small interludes from his perspective (my quote is one of them). Toward the end of this entry, he occasionally lapses out of second-person entirely for the Essun passages. This never felt jarring— in fact, in context it made sense. Or maybe Zero Escape numbed me to that type of thing.

And I super don’t want to spoil why, but Hoa’s an unreliable narrator. Which is great. I love unreliable narrators so, so much. You can probably pick it up in the first book, but this one really gets into the nitty gritty of it.

The stone-eaters in general are super interesting. They’re certainly not par for the course compared to typical fantasy races. In The Fifth Season they’re just sort of bizarre background characters, except at one or two key points. But you learn quite a bit about them in this one. Something I find especially interesting is that they don’t fall into the trap of “X fantasy race wants Y thing”. In fact, Hoa’s quite direct when he says his kind have many differing goals, much like the humans they follow around. I don’t think we get the full implications of that in this entry, but I bet it’s going to be an interesting thing to explore in the next book.

As for the characters, The Obelisk Gate doesn’t introduce very many new ones. I think Nassun is the only one who really qualifies outside of the very minor. Instead, the story focuses on active character development, or glimpses how certain characters have changed over the years. And everyone does (or HAS done) some real questionable shit. There’s certainly a sense of gray morality in the previous book, but this one drives it home. EVERYONE is morally gray. Fucking everyone.

Alabaster, my fave from last book, isn’t doing so great in this one, but he’s still the snarky asshole I liked in The Fifth Season. Schaffa gets some real unexpected development. Ykka, the rogue orogene leader of Castrima, is pretty interesting as well; she’s introduced in the previous book but you really don’t see much of her until this one. I continue to find Tonkee fucking hilarious (thanks for making the weird feral scientist trans, by the way). Nassun was absolutely not who I expected her to be at all, and she’s definitely set up to play an interesting role in the future.

Of them all, though, I think Hoa’s my fave this time around. As I’ve mentioned, he has a much more prominent role in this one and is just super intriguing. Definitely looking forward to his role in the conclusion. 

I’ll state for the record that The Fifth Season put me on an emotional rollercoaster. The Obelisk Gate is no different. I feel so invested in these characters, flaws and all, and I’m interested to see where each of them ends up as we reach for the conclusion. 

So where does that leave us? Well, kind of in the awkward place of a middle book. I really enjoyed this one, even if not as much as The Fifth Season. I think it’s a crime that this trilogy has practically no fan following, because it’s excellent. Maybe one of the best fantasy series I’ve read? I guess we’ll see with the next book. Either way, please read these books.  I need more people to talk to about them! 

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The Crimes of Grindelwald — It Might Be Time to Mourn Our Childhood

This film was too disappointing to spend too much time on, so let me get this out of the way: it was all plot with no character, heart, or theme. The small message that was vaguely gestured at was absolutely no different than what was explored in Harry Potter, please do something new. The CGI was numbing and very done, not impressive or necessary. The various twists were eye-roll-inducing. Grindelwald was just Voldemort 2.0 and way less cool ’cause Ralph Fiennes can kick Johnny Depp’s ass any day. And finally, the hints to things from the original series (portkeys, Travers, McLaggen) were so obviously fan-service that they weren’t even fun for us die-hard Potterheads. The only good parts were the cute creatures, Queenie and Jacob, and Eddie Redmayne being awkward. That concludes my technical review. Onto being emotional:

I was as excited as the next person when Fantastic Beasts was announced a few years ago. Cautious, sure, but excited. This will come as no surprise to anyone, but I was one of those kids. One of the millions who stood in line every year at midnight to get the next book, who read it feverishly as if my life depended on it, who prepared every year by re-reading all the previous novels, and who still, to this day, can answer any Harry Potter trivia question (within reason).

The movies were hard, as they were for most of us. This story became our bible, our text explaining good and evil, right and wrong. Harry Potter taught me how to be a good friend, how to be brave, how to trust my gut, and how to love the weirdos with good hearts (and love myself for being one). Even though I’m only now healing from what Alfonso Cuaron did to Hermione’s character in the third movie, and I’m still working on forgiving David Yates for his glossy, overexposed interpretation of my favorite quiet moments (don’t even ask about Mike Newell, that man is dead to me), I’ve come to terms with the films because Daniel Radcliffe, Rupert Grint, and Emma Watson are my trio. They are perfect, they are beloved, and they shaped my childhood and enhanced this world that I spent so much of my life exploring.

As an official Potterhead, how could I not be hopeful about a movie starring all the monsters from that little red book that I bought as a kid? And continuing the world by going to America and learning about the history of wizards? Hell yes! Of course I was nervous after the disastrous finale of Deathly Hallows pt. 2, but still cautiously optimistic; and I was pleasantly surprised! The monsters were adorable, especially the niffler, Eddie Redmayne did a fine job, and David Yates began redeeming himself in my mind.

In this latest iteration, however, I was quite disappointed, and it’s come to that unfortunate time in my life that I must consider how to move forward. This sounds melodramatic, but I feel I’m in a state of mourning for a couple different reasons. First and foremost, I must accept that no expansion of this universe will ever live up to the original series, not necessarily because J.K. Rowling doesn’t have it in her, but because I am no longer in a place to accept it. I don’t need another sacred text, the one I had as a child is still in fine shape. Revisiting Harry, Ron and Hermione is satisfying enough, I don’t need anything else. I also must come to terms with bringing J.K. Rowling off of her pedestal. She’s only human, not some superhero as I saw her in my youth. She’s trying new things, and they’re not very good, and that has to be okay. It’s painful and this probably won’t be the end of my denial, but it’s a step, and feels oddly important to my growing up.

I credit Harry Potter for a lot of the strength being used by our generation. We were raised to break the rules, to find the good in people different from us, to fight evil until the very end, and that love is the most powerful kind of magic. I find it to be no coincidence that the Harry Potter generation is changing society to be more inclusive, more loving, and more noble. For this, J.K. Rowling will always have my undying respect. It is time, however, to part ways. I hope she does well in her future ventures and I hope she can manage to inspire a new generation of wanna be wizards and witches the way she inspired us, but the time for me to be awed by her creations has passed. I will go back to my beaten up old copies of Harry Potter, reread them shamelessly, and learn new things each time, and that will have to be good enough.

Rating: Disappointing. In my bottom 5 of 2018.

Some Issues 37) Halloween 38) The Spy Who Dumped Me 39) Disobedience 40) Boy Erased 41) Bohemian Rhapsody 42) A Star Is Born 43) Pick of the Litter 44) A Simple Favor

Disappointing 45) Fantastic Beasts: The Crimes of Grindelwald 46) Beautiful Boy 47) Lizzie 48) The Party 49) Ready Player One

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You must also ask to see several of the surgeon's recent prior to as well as after pictures from comparable procedures they have actually executed. It is essential to meet with your picked professional prior to therapy to make sure that you are completely comfortable with them as well as they understand what you intend to achieve. All our experts are on the professional register of the General Medical Council, and also lots of are also participants of the UK's leading cosmetic as well as plastic surgery associations.

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They often tend to vary by the sort of incision, number of tissue layers dealt with, the location of the face that is targeted, and also their level of invasiveness. Normally, a facelift is executed under general anaesthetic, although for some surgical treatment such as a mini-facelift local anaesthetic and also sedation might be utilized. A facelift will certainly recover definition to your face, jaw and neck line as well as ravel deep lines. deals with loosened skin, lines as well as creases, absence of muscle mass tone, as well as other signs of aging by lifting up your skin, deeper cells and bordering muscles. A lot of cosmetic surgeons will wrap your face to reduce discoloration and swelling. These plasters will remain on for 1 or 2 days, and the stitches will certainly be gotten rid of after seven or eight days. Renovations and necklifts are typically lugged under a general anaesthetic or a local anaesthetic.

The mini lift is the perfect procedure for anybody in their 40s or 50s seeking to turn around the preliminary indicators of ageing. I have actually reviewed and also understand Cadogan Facility's Personal privacy NoticeFrom time to time we may wish to keep you current with info, offers as well as promos we really feel will be of passion to you. The treatment is typically combined with fat transfer to recover shed face volume. Fat is harvested by means of liposuction surgery and then used to increase the cheekbones, cheeks, temples, eyebrow, chin and also anywhere else where it will boost facial equilibrium as well as framework. The Cadogan Center only supplies 'mini' or 'mini' facelift methods to our clients, usually in mix with invigorating fat transfer shots to the face.

An US study that reviewed YouTube videos on face cosmetic surgery has found that most video clips are deceptive and also not instructional. Ramsay Health Care UK Procedures Limited will certainly utilize your individual details to provide you with an action to your enquiry such as to confirm treatment/specialist availability, a therapy rate quote or booking a preliminary consultation. Information gathered using our call type or phone number displayed on this website might be shared with medical care consultants who offer therapy concerning which you are enquiring under strict privacy arrangements.

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Although chemicals and vaginas are not a good mix, applying potassium alum to the vaginal walls has been touted as an effective home remedy. It's said that the astringent properties of the chemical are good at tightening the vaginal tissue.

As a specialist, it helps me learn more about my patients even better and also builds a bond with them, which isn't feasible with a basic anaesthetic. But do not simply take my word for it, look at video clips of real person experiences on the website, our clients truly are Bella Vou's best adverts. The Majority Of Bella Vou's individuals locate the experience relaxing as well as worry-free. We beware about making certain the area is entirely numb, as well as we talk throughout the treatment to ensure that each person is confident that they remain in safe hands. Bella Vou incorporates sophisticated treatment and also professional quality with the high-end, convenience, as well as discretion of a medspa as well as the hospitality of a luxury resort. Bella Vou offers competitively priced plans of care, without concealed additionals.

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The Idea ™ Facelift is generally performed under regional anaesthetic, although sedation and general anaesthesia are likewise offered. It is a day case treatment, so there is no demand to remain in the center over night. The face is meticulously numbed so that the treatment is pain-free, and Bella Vou's professional staff will provide assistance, advice, and also music to keep you relax, comfortable, and also unwinded throughout the treatment. The Idea ™ Facelift is a cutting-edge new method established solely by Bella Vou.

Amir made me feel completely secure, I really did not really feel worried at all. A pleasant yet professional group of individuals that made me feel super at ease at every visit. I am amazed at the results of my current treatment with Rohit and also can't start to thank him sufficient for the distinction it's made and also neither can my other half. After the operation, you can loosen up in the convenience of Bella Vou's healing suites. The encouraging staff will certainly use you a drink and also biscuits after surgery as well as discuss your aftercare as well as what to expect as you recoup. In the Bella Vou theatre, your surgeon will chat with you throughout the treatment.

Your previous case history will certainly likewise be tape-recorded (consisting of previous surgery, drugs, allergies and so on) as well as an assessment of your physical fitness for surgical treatment. I was scared yet the nurses put me at ease and everyone made me feel very calm.

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... Working with both the face as well as neck, it'll also enhance your skin's flexibility as well as shapes the face contours.

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It rejuvenates the face in a manner that looks natural as well as renewed instead of limited and also mask-like. It is carried out under neighborhood anaesthetic, providing a quicker recuperation, lowered bruising, as well as much less downtime, to make sure that you can get on with your life.

Is Femilift FDA approved?

FemiLift is extremely safe and received FDA approval because it meets the criteria of effectively treating vaginal laxity, with no risk to the patient.

The facility is positive in the abilities and professionalism and reliability of the staff and also provides a benefit warranty to offer clients with satisfaction. If there is a trouble or difficulty, the client will be looked after throughout, without any additional bills or costs. The laceration for the Idea ™ Facelift is short, running from the front of the ear to behind the ear, leading to a smaller sized mark as well as no loss of hair contrasted to traditional strategies. The skin is lifted together with a muscular tissue tightening up SMAS lift, to provide natural-looking, resilient results. The Idea ™ Facelift smooths the skin of the cheeks, lifts them to their original placement, and also gets rid of dewlaps, bring back meaning to the jawline.

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Complying with surgical treatment, your loved ones ought to see that you look well and also fresh, but it ought to not be promptly obvious that you have had a procedure. The Idea ™ Facelift has actually been created to give a fresh as well as all-natural look. This kind of facelift surgery does not result in the very limited, mask-like look that some conventional renovations can develop. It is additionally not planned to make people look twenty years old once more, however instead to resolve the signs of aging that have actually made you look weary or older than your years.

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Please check out Spire Health care's terms for full information of what's included as well as omitted in your set price when spending for yourself. Financing options are available via our partner Omni Resources Retail Finance Ltd, 10 Norwich Road, London, EC4A 1BD. If you make a decision to have your treatment with us, you will be cared for by a knowledgeable multi-disciplinary care group. A more youthful looking face can share vigour and also power and rise self-confidence in your social, personal and also working lives. If you feel that your face no longer mirrors your vigor and you intend to do something about it, you could be considering getting this treatment. Review right here to find out more consisting of the process of the surgical treatment and the recovery.

Ramsay health centers are registered with the Treatment High Quality Payment, as well as are well-equipped with expert cosmetic surgery resources. Facelifts are taken into consideration relatively risk-free, yet as operations they carry possible risks that are inherent in any kind of operation. A revision facelift, likewise referred to as a restorative facelift or additional facelift, is succeeding facelift surgical procedure after currently having had a facelift. Generally, you will certainly have one to 2 weeks off job and also three weeks if you've additionally had blepharoplasty surgery. Various other added surgical treatments are often executed with a facelift, such as blepharoplasty, rhinoplasty and also, facial implants to better enhance your outcomes. Mini or short-scar facelift consists of the MACS lift, s-lift as well as mini lift.

After meeting Amir for the first time, I really felt that I had actually made the appropriate decision. The procedure was quick and well-performed, with the help of his excellent group. I have very little scars, which are recovering nicely as well as I never had discoloration, by itself a wonder for me. I'm so happy I picked to go on with my treatment with Bella Vou. My scars are barely visible and also the customer care is extraordinary. I've had nothing but praises, and also I really feel far more certain.

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My best advice would certainly be if you have this procedure, stay calm, rest a little bit after that, even without a general your body needs a little time to recoup and also like your outcomes I recognize I do. Thank you Amir and your team, unique reference too for Will, he was terrific company throughout my op. I would definitely suggest Amir to anybody who is interested in a cosmetic procedure, my experience at Bella Vou was superb and the outcomes were every little thing I expected as well as much more. After a facelift, your expert will want to see exactly how you're doing. We'll prepare a follow-up consultation each time that's hassle-free for you. Having had a basic anaesthetic, you'll be asleep while the specialist as well as medical team do the surgical treatment. They can remind you of the important things you intend to review as well as work as an extra pair of ears to absorb info you can talk about together later.

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It makes the experience kicked back, stress-free, and assists establish a close bond in between you and your specialist. Your face will be cleaned, and also local anaesthetic infused to avoid any kind of pain or discomfort.

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These s are much less intrusive and also make use of much shorter scars that often quit at your ear to use marginal scarring. They are recommended for people with a light degree of jowling as well as drooping skin as well as are frequently carried out on younger ladies who desire a fresher look. There are different types of facelifts you can select from based upon your aesthetic goals, face makeup as well as your choices around healing as well as the dangers entailed.

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Which locations Of The Body appropriate For Fat Freezing?

Hifu For Face.

just How Do I reserve a Specialist appointment?

how Much Time Does A Facelift Last?

You should likewise ask to see several of the surgeon's current before as well as after images from comparable operations they have actually done. It is very important to meet with your picked specialist prior to therapy to make sure that you are completely comfortable with them and also they understand what you intend to accomplish. All our professionals are on the specialist register of the General Medical Council, as well as numerous are additionally participants of the UK's leading cosmetic and also plastic surgery organizations.

A fixed cost for this therapy might be offered on enquiry as well as following a first appointment. Spire Healthcare can supply you with a single, set cost so there are not a surprises.

lifting face With Facial massage.

They often tend to differ by the kind of laceration, variety of cells layers treated, the location of the face that is targeted, as well as their level of invasiveness. Normally, a facelift is done under basic anaesthetic, although for some surgery such as a mini-facelift neighborhood anaesthetic as well as sedation might be used. A facelift will certainly restore definition to your face, jaw as well as neckline as well as ravel deep lines. treats loose skin, lines and wrinkles, lack of muscular tissue tone, and various other signs of aging by raising your skin, deeper cells and also bordering muscles. Most surgeons will certainly wrap your face to lower bruising as well as swelling. These bandages will certainly stay on for one or two days, and also the stitches will be gotten rid of after 7 or eight days. Renovations as well as necklifts are typically brought under a general anaesthetic or a regional anaesthetic.

The mini lift is the suitable procedure for any individual in their 40s or 50s looking for to reverse the initial signs of ageing. I have read as well as understand Cadogan Center's Privacy NoticeFrom time to time we might desire to maintain you updated with details, offers and also promos we feel will certainly be of rate of interest to you. The treatment is typically incorporated with fat transfer to bring back lost face quantity. Fat is harvested using liposuction and afterwards used to increase the cheekbones, cheeks, holy places, brow, chin and anywhere else where it will certainly enhance face balance and also framework. The Cadogan Facility just supplies 'mini' or 'micro' facelift techniques to our individuals, usually in mix with renewing fat transfer injections to the face.

A United States research study that examined YouTube video clips on facial plastic surgery has discovered that many video clips are deceptive as well as not educational. Ramsay Healthcare UK Operations Limited will certainly use your individual information to supply you with an action to your query such as to confirm treatment/specialist accessibility, a treatment rate quotation or booking a preliminary consultation. Information gathered through our contact form or telephone numbers displayed on this website might be shared with health care specialists that offer therapy about which you are asking under strict discretion agreements.

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As a surgeon, it assists me be familiar with my people even better and builds a bond with them, which isn't feasible with a general anaesthetic. Yet do not just take my word for it, take a look at video clips of actual patient experiences on the web site, our individuals actually are Bella Vou's finest adverts. A Lot Of Bella Vou's individuals find the experience relaxing and trouble-free. We are cautious concerning making certain the location is entirely numb, and we chat throughout the treatment to ensure that each person is certain that they are in secure hands. Bella Vou combines cutting-edge treatment as well as medical excellence with the luxury, convenience, as well as discretion of a medical spa and the hospitality of a luxury hotel. Bella Vou offers competitively priced plans of treatment, without any covert additionals.

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The Concept ™ Facelift is normally done under local anaesthetic, although sedation as well as basic anaesthesia are likewise available. It is a day case procedure, so there is no need to stay in the facility overnight. The face is thoroughly numbed to make sure that the procedure is pain-free, and also Bella Vou's expert team will certainly give support, support, as well as music to keep you calm, comfy, and relaxed throughout the procedure. The Concept ™ Facelift is an innovative new method established exclusively by Bella Vou.

Amir made me feel entirely secure, I really did not feel nervous in any way. A pleasant but expert group of individuals that made me really feel extremely at ease at every consultation. I am astonished at the results of my recent therapy with Rohit and can't begin to thank him sufficient for the difference it's made as well as neither can my hubby. After the operation, you can kick back in the convenience of Bella Vou's healing collections. The supportive staff will certainly provide you a beverage as well as biscuits after surgery and explain your aftercare and what to expect as you recuperate. In the Bella Vou theater, your surgeon will chat with you throughout the treatment.

Your previous medical history will also be recorded (including previous surgical procedure, medicines, allergies and so on) and an analysis of your physical fitness for surgery. I was petrified however the registered nurses put me comfortable as well as everyone made me feel very calm.

... Servicing both the face and also neck, it'll additionally enhance your skin's elasticity and also forms the face contours.

I had my examination with Dr Shirin this week she has actually advised having Hydrafacial therapies to boost the appearance and also thinning of my skin, I have actually scheduled these on her recommendation.

I was very satisfied with the consultation and also was comfortable with Dr Shirin.

She has actually additionally recommended more procedures to give some volume to my face and also improve deep lines.

By raising and tightening your skin, it really can do away with that dual chin!

As the high-frequency ultrasound beam of lights are focused on a specific tissue site listed below the skin's surface area, there's no damage to the upper layers of the skin and also no immediate noticeable signs of treatment.

Many people observe a difference immediately after the Ultrasound Facial, with the best outcomes noticeable at around 3 months when your body has had time to create even more collagen.

It revitalizes the face in such a way that looks natural and also refreshed instead of tight as well as mask-like. It is done under regional anaesthetic, supplying a quicker recovery, lowered bruising, and less downtime, to make sure that you can move on with your life.

Is Femilift FDA approved?

FemiLift is extremely safe and received FDA approval because it meets the criteria of effectively treating vaginal laxity, with no risk to the patient.

The center is positive in the abilities as well as professionalism of the staff and also offers a benefit warranty to give patients with satisfaction. If there is a problem or issue, the customer will be looked after throughout, with no added expenses or fees. The laceration for the Idea ™ Facelift is brief, running from the front of the ear to behind the ear, leading to a smaller sized mark as well as no loss of hair contrasted to standard methods. The skin is raised along with a muscular tissue tightening up SMAS lift, to give natural-looking, durable outcomes. The Idea ™ Facelift smooths the skin of the cheeks, lifts them to their initial setting, and removes jowls, restoring definition to the jawline.

Hifu For Face.

Complying with surgery, your loved ones must discover that you look well and also fresh, however it must not be quickly evident that you have had a procedure. The Principle ™ Facelift has been developed to provide a fresh as well as natural appearance. This kind of facelift surgical treatment does not cause the very limited, mask-like appearance that some conventional renovations can create. fat freezing Worcestershire business is additionally not planned to make individuals look 20 years old again, however instead to deal with the signs of aging that have actually made you look exhausted or older than your years.

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Please read Apex Healthcare's terms for full information of what's included and also omitted in your set price when spending for on your own. Money alternatives are readily available with our partner Omni Funding Retail Money Ltd, 10 Norwich Street, London, EC4A 1BD. If you make a decision to have your procedure with us, you will be looked after by a seasoned multi-disciplinary care team. A more youthful looking face can convey vigour and power as well as rise confidence in your social, individual and functioning lives. If you feel that your face no more mirrors your vitality and you intend to throw down the gauntlet, you could be thinking about getting this treatment. Review below to learn more consisting of the procedure of the surgical treatment and also the healing.

Ramsay medical facilities are signed up with the Care Quality Payment, and are fully equipped with expert cosmetic surgery sources. Facelifts are taken into consideration relatively risk-free, however as procedures they bring feasible threats that are integral in any type of procedure. A modification facelift, additionally referred to as a rehabilitative facelift or additional facelift, is subsequent facelift surgical treatment after currently having had a facelift. Normally, you will have one to 2 weeks off work as well as 3 weeks if you've also had blepharoplasty surgical procedure. Other added surgical procedures are frequently carried out with a facelift, such as blepharoplasty, nose job and also, face implants to further boost your results. Mini or short-scar face lift includes the MACS lift, s-lift and also mini lift.

After fulfilling Amir for the 1st time, I felt that I had actually made the ideal decision. The treatment was speedy as well as well-performed, with the assistance of his excellent group. I have marginal marks, which are recovering nicely and I never had discoloration, by itself a wonder for me. I'm so delighted I chose to go on with my treatment with Bella Vou. My marks are hardly noticeable as well as the client service is unbelievable. I have actually had just praises, and I feel much more confident.

Is V Tight Gel permanent?

A V Tight Gel, when used in the right manner, will certainly have long-lasting effects. However, its outcome is not permanent. The user must keep using it on a regular basis to enjoy its positive results.

My best suggestions would certainly be if you have this treatment, remain calm, rest a bit after that, also without a basic your body requires a little bit of time to recover and love your results I recognize I do. Thank you Amir and also your team, special mention as well for Will, he was excellent firm throughout my op. I would definitely suggest Amir to anybody who is interested in a cosmetic procedure, my experience at Bella Vou was amazing and also the results were everything I wished for and a lot more. After a facelift, your consultant will wish to see just how you're doing. We'll prepare a follow-up consultation each time that's practical for you. Having had a general anaesthetic, you'll be asleep while the specialist as well as professional group do the surgical procedure. fat freezing Luton @ La-Lipo can remind you of things you want to talk about as well as serve as an added pair of ears to soak up info you can talk about together later on.

It makes the experience unwinded, hassle-free, and also helps establish a close bond in between you and also your consultant. Your face will be cleansed, and neighborhood anaesthetic infused to avoid any type of pain or pain.

Is FemTouch covered by insurance?

FemTouch is currently not covered by insurance, however it should be covered by your HSA plan.

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You ought to likewise ask to see some of the specialist's recent prior to and after images from comparable operations they have actually executed. It is necessary to meet with your selected expert before therapy to ensure that you are completely comfortable with them and also they understand what you wish to accomplish. All our specialists are on the expert register of the General Medical Council, as well as numerous are additionally members of the UK's leading cosmetic and cosmetic surgery associations.

A set cost for this therapy might be offered on enquiry and also adhering to a first assessment. Spire Health care can give you with a solitary, fixed rate so there are not a surprises.

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They have a tendency to vary by the kind of cut, number of cells layers dealt with, the area of the face that is targeted, and also their degree of invasiveness. Commonly, a facelift is executed under basic anaesthetic, although for some surgical procedure such as a mini-facelift neighborhood anaesthetic and also sedation might be made use of. A facelift will certainly recover definition to your face, jaw and also neckline as well as ravel deep lines. treats loosened skin, lines and also wrinkles, absence of muscle tone, and also other indications of ageing by raising your skin, much deeper cells and also surrounding muscular tissues. The majority of cosmetic surgeons will wrap your face to reduce bruising as well as swelling. These plasters will remain on for one or two days, and also the stitches will be gotten rid of after 7 or eight days. Facelifts and necklifts are generally carried under a general anaesthetic or a local anaesthetic.

The mini lift is the perfect treatment for any person in their 40s or 50s looking for to turn around the initial indicators of aging. I have read and recognize Cadogan Center's Privacy NoticeFrom time to time we may wish to keep you current with info, offers and promos we really feel will certainly be of rate of interest to you. The treatment is commonly combined with fat transfer to bring back shed facial quantity. Fat is gathered via liposuction surgery and afterwards utilized to boost the cheekbones, cheeks, holy places, eyebrow, chin as well as anywhere else where it will improve face equilibrium and framework. The Cadogan Center just offers 'mini' or 'micro' facelift methods to our people, usually in mix with rejuvenating fat transfer shots to the face.

What are the best lasers for skin tightening?

Now let's have a look at 3 of the best and most effective laser treatments for skin tightening: Fraxel, Titan, and Nlite.Fraxel. The Fraxel laser treatment is mostly used to diminish or eradicate aging skin. Titan. Thinking about a Titan facelift procedure? Nlite.

A United States study that assessed YouTube videos on facial plastic surgery has located that a lot of videos are misleading and not educational. Ramsay Health Care UK Operations Limited will utilize your individual information to provide you with an action to your enquiry such as to validate treatment/specialist accessibility, a treatment price quote or reserving a first consultation. Info accumulated through our contact type or telephone numbers shown on this website may be shared with medical care experts who give treatment regarding which you are checking under stringent privacy contracts.

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Can alum tighten the Virgina?

Although chemicals and vaginas are not a good mix, applying potassium alum to the vaginal walls has been touted as an effective home remedy. It's said that the astringent properties of the chemical are good at tightening the vaginal tissue.

As a cosmetic surgeon, it assists me get to know my patients even much better as well as develops a bond with them, which isn't feasible with a basic anaesthetic. However do not simply take my word for it, take a look at videos of real patient experiences on the web site, our patients really are Bella Vou's best adverts. A Lot Of Bella Vou's patients locate the experience relaxing and hassle-free. We beware about making certain the location is completely numb, and also we talk throughout the procedure so that each individual is positive that they remain in safe hands. Bella Vou integrates cutting-edge therapy and scientific quality with the deluxe, comfort, as well as discretion of a day spa and the hospitality of a luxury resort. Bella Vou supplies competitively valued bundles of treatment, with no covert additionals.

Which areas Of The Body are Suitable For Fat Freezing?

The Principle ™ Facelift is generally carried out under local anaesthetic, although sedation as well as basic anaesthesia are also offered. It is a day situation procedure, so there is no requirement to stay in the facility overnight. The face is very carefully numbed to make sure that the procedure is pain-free, and also Bella Vou's expert staff will give assistance, assistance, and also music to maintain you soothe, comfy, and also kicked back throughout the procedure. The Concept ™ Facelift is an innovative new strategy created specifically by Bella Vou.

Amir made me feel entirely secure, I didn't feel anxious in any way. A friendly yet professional group of people that made me really feel extremely at ease at every consultation. I am astonished at the outcomes of my recent treatment with Rohit as well as can not begin to thank him enough for the distinction it's made and also neither can my hubby. After the procedure, you can kick back in the convenience of Bella Vou's healing suites. The supportive personnel will certainly use you a drink and biscuits after surgery as well as clarify your aftercare as well as what to anticipate as you recoup. In the Bella Vou theater, your doctor will chat with you throughout the treatment.

Your previous case history will likewise be videotaped (including previous surgery, drugs, allergic reactions etc.) and an analysis of your fitness for surgical treatment. I was petrified yet the nurses place me at ease and everyone made me really feel very calm.

As the collagen boosts, this leads to firmer skin with less wrinkles.

... Servicing both the face and also neck, it'll likewise enhance your skin's flexibility and also shapes the face contours.

I had my appointment with Dr Shirin this week she has advised having Hydrafacial therapies to enhance the texture as well as thinning of my skin, I have reserved these on her recommendation.

I was extremely happy with the examination and was comfortable with Dr Shirin.

She has actually likewise suggested additional treatments to offer some fullness to my face as well as improve deep lines.

This implies there's no scalpels or needles included and also no recuperation time required.

By lifting and also tightening your skin, it really can get rid of that dual chin!

As the high-frequency ultrasound light beams are focused on a specific cells website below the skin's surface area, there's no damage to the top layers of the skin as well as no prompt visible indicators of treatment.

Many people see a distinction promptly after the Ultrasound Facial, with the most effective results noticeable at around 3 months when your body has had time to produce even more collagen.

It invigorates the face in a manner that looks natural as well as rejuvenated as opposed to tight as well as mask-like. It is executed under local anaesthetic, supplying a quicker healing, minimized bruising, as well as less downtime, so that you can get on with your life.

Is Femilift FDA approved?

FemiLift is extremely safe and received FDA approval because it meets the criteria of effectively treating vaginal laxity, with no risk to the patient.

The facility is positive in the skills and also professionalism of the staff and supplies an advantage guarantee to give individuals with comfort. If there is a trouble or complication, the client will certainly be cared for throughout, without any added expenses or charges. The incision for the Principle ™ Facelift is short, ranging from the front of the ear to behind the ear, leading to a smaller mark and no loss of hair compared to traditional techniques. The skin is lifted along with a muscle mass tightening SMAS lift, to supply natural-looking, long-lasting results. The Idea ™ Facelift smooths the skin of the cheeks, lifts them to their original position, and also gets rid of dewlaps, restoring meaning to the jawline.

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Complying with surgical treatment, your family and friends should observe that you look well and fresh, however it should not be instantly evident that you have had a procedure. The Concept ™ Facelift has been developed to provide a fresh and natural appearance. This kind of facelift surgery does not result in the really tight, mask-like look that some conventional renovations can develop. It is likewise not planned to make people look two decades old once more, however instead to address the indicators of aging that have made you look weary or older than your years.

how Do I book a Cosmetic Surgeon appointment?

Can my boyfriend tell if I slept with someone else?

Your boyfriend could even recognize that you have been with another man. When you're having sex with someone, it's very easy to leave physical evidence behind, so to speak. Even if access the Lipo Sculpt 3d lipo Lancashire here clean up thoroughly, your boyfriend might catch subtle hints that you have been with someone else.

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Please review Spire Health care's conditions for complete details of what's consisted of as well as excluded in your fixed price when spending for yourself. Money alternatives are offered through our companion Omni Funding Retail Finance Ltd, 10 Norwich Road, London, EC4A 1BD. If you choose to have your procedure with us, you will certainly be looked after by a skilled multi-disciplinary treatment group. A more youthful looking face can share vigour as well as power and also boost self-confidence in your social, personal as well as functioning lives. If you really feel that your face no longer mirrors your vitality and you wish to throw down the gauntlet, you might be thinking about obtaining this procedure. Review here to figure out more consisting of the process of the surgical treatment and the healing.

Ramsay healthcare facilities are registered with the Care Top Quality Compensation, and are well-appointed with expert cosmetic surgery resources. Facelifts are taken into consideration fairly safe, but as operations they bring possible dangers that are integral in any operation. An alteration facelift, also called a rehabilitative facelift or additional facelift, is subsequent facelift surgical procedure after currently having had a facelift. Generally, which programs will have one to two weeks off job and three weeks if you've likewise had blepharoplasty surgery. Other additional surgical procedures are typically done with a facelift, such as blepharoplasty, rhinoplasty and also, facial implants to even more boost your outcomes. Mini or short-scar facelift consists of the MACS lift, s-lift and mini lift.

After fulfilling Amir for the 1st time, I really felt that I had actually made the right decision. The treatment was quick and also well-performed, with the help of his terrific team. I have very little scars, which are recovering perfectly as well as I never had discoloration, by itself a wonder for me. I'm so delighted I picked to go on with my procedure with Bella Vou. My scars are barely visible as well as the customer support is extraordinary. I've had only compliments, as well as I feel far more confident.

My finest recommendations would certainly be if you have this procedure, remain tranquil, relax a little bit after that, also without a general your body needs a little time to recover and enjoy your results I recognize I do. Thank you Amir and also your group, special mention also for Will, he was excellent company throughout my op. I would absolutely suggest Amir to anyone that is interested in a cosmetic procedure, my experience at Bella Vou was fantastic as well as the results were every little thing I wished for and more. After Lipo-Sculpt 3d lipo Herefordshire app , your specialist will certainly wish to see exactly how you're doing. We'll prepare a follow-up consultation at a time that's practical for you. Having had a general anaesthetic, you'll be asleep while the surgeon as well as scientific team do the surgery. They can advise you of the things you want to review and work as an added pair of ears to soak up info you can talk about with each other later.

how Long Does A Facelift Last?

It makes the experience kicked back, trouble-free, as well as helps establish a close bond between you as well as your professional. Your face will certainly be cleaned, and also local anaesthetic injected to prevent any type of discomfort or pain.

Is FemTouch covered by insurance?

FemTouch is currently not covered by insurance, however it should be covered by your HSA plan.

These s are less invasive and utilize shorter scars that typically stop at your ear to use very little scarring. They are suggested for individuals with a light degree of jowling as well as sagging skin and are usually performed on younger females that want a fresher look. There are various kinds of facelifts you can pick from based on your aesthetic objectives, facial composition as well as your preferences around recovery and the threats included.

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