#probably gonna delete later

[brewed-pangolin]

Soap MacTavish bored out his mind at a meeting starts texting you...

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Soap: Bored. Send nudes.

Reader: ( . )( . )

Soap: Cute. Send ACTUAL nudes.

Reader: sends...

Soap: What. The. Fuck.

Reader: Told ya your 🍆 looks like a naked mole rat.

Soap: Haud yer wheesht.

- 15 minutes later

Soap: Get the lidocaine gel.

Reader: Why?

Soap: Your ass is mine.

#i dont know what this is #probably gonna delete later #soap squad™️ #why not #johnny soap mactavish #john soap mactavish #soap mactavish #john mactavish #soap x you #soap x reader #johnny mactavish x you #johnny mactavish x reader #call of duty #cod

[soaps-mohawk]

This isn't related to Call of Duty in any way but I just feel like I need to say it.

Sometimes in life, we have moments where everything just kind of comes together, and you have a realization. My roommate likes to call them "Ah ha! Moments." Moments where something gets unlocked in your brain or you finally get an answer you were looking for. They're not always easy. Sometimes, they're hard to hear, hard to admit, hard to accept. Deep down though, you know your future self will thank you for having that realization. Even if you do nothing about it, it's good to know the truth.

#having a mental breakdown at 8 am on a saturday #probably gonna delete later

[sublimenightmaregarden]

🙈

#trying to be more confident in my body #probably gonna delete later #body positivity #yes im helping them lmao #myself #side blog

[littlemisstired]

something that has always fucked me up is the frankly terrifying exponential skill acceleration in the creative field. so many of the young artists I know now, even myself, are at a skill level that 25-30 years ago could have gotten them real jobs in animation or game design, even lauded as being top of their line of work, but are hardly even a blip on the radar in today’s industry where the skill ceiling is now miles above achievable for so many.

I look back at the kinds of art that was being made by the professional artists back in the 80s and 90s for comics and animation and some of it is downright amateurish compared to today’s work. It was roughshod, silly, scratchy, experimental. It wasn’t preoccupied with fitting into the bland Triple A standards or warping to fit what huge corporations expected, because those expectations simply didn’t exist yet in a world where video games and animated film and fantasy illustration were still in their infancy. The art in concept art felt so much more alive, more human. Nowadays I see people trying to get their feet in the door slaving for years trying to learn rendering techniques or portfolio tricks to even get their work in front of a recruiter, making stuff they don’t even care about just for the chance to be taken seriously. Strange how now more than even bigger studios are being ridiculed for their bland and uninteresting design/writing choices, where smaller studios with more creative control and more ready access to independent voices and visions are cranking out wildly popular, original titles left and right.

this sort of ended up longer than I expected, and rambling, but it’s something I’ve felt for so long as an artist who spent 15 years desperately trying to “get good enough” for a professional studio. The problem is that in the corporate capitalist hell we live in here in the US, “getting good enough” is almost never achievable, because those goalposts are always moving. You want to be a background artist? Well you need to learn how to do 3D modeling, texture mapping, physics simulation, how to use lighting in game engines. You want to be a character designer? You need to know rigging and clothing simulation and how to apply animation in X software. Also you need to do every style known to the world plus more, except in the end the studio will probably just ask you to photobash three dozen designs that all look the same anyway.

I understand there’s more to this than I’ve mentioned, that the world has changed in the 3 decades since the mid 90s, that there are millions of artists and only a few hundred thousand jobs in any creative field at any given time, that it’s reasonable to expect people to learn new things to better work as technology advances… but it seems so particularly crushing to artists, who oftentimes pour so much of their own heart and soul into what they do, and who are still expected to monetize, adapt, and distribute their skill like it’s some corporate tool and not a gift from evolution for us to record and express ourselves. Art and design are the building blocks for humans to understand and capture beauty and pain, joy and sorrow, and it’s disheartening to see that vulnerable creativity stripped away in favor of producing sterilized, corporate friendly “products”.

#Probably gonna delete later #Ramble

[ccrisntok]

Thinking abt an old Ace & Levi comic a made that was like 50 panels long that I didn't post anywhere bc. No one would read 50 panels 💀 and I also never finished it.

It was low-key Acevi, but it was a fix it au basically where they were making up and being friends again.

I might finish it one of these days and make it into an animatic format so it's less grueling to read 😭

Here's some silly panels out of context

I'm sure you can guess what the premise is

#probably gonna delete later #just looking through old projects rn #eh might as well tag it though #ace markey #levi fontana

[parokka]

i hate being grumpy all the time i wish i could feel friendly and silly for once like the characters i create

#probably gonna delete later #not related to the au #i feel like miyazaki #although he actually can be silly at times im just kinda lowkey angry when i do literally anything

[anti-dazai-blog]

it’s so wild that I started watching bsd when I was atsushi’s age. and now I’m turning. 21.

#Probably gonna delete later #I was more stressed about turning 20 though. 21 is chill #Im fine with this #but #isnt the passage of time fascinating #iirc I started watching bsd very shortly after my birthday #Less than a month after at least #Which means Ive been interacting with bsd material for nearly 3 years now

[linterteatime]

Someone just tagged me in a post with a bunch of artists I have blocked (because they have drawn weird shit) and like bruhhhhh 😭 way to get blocked yourself okay

#probably gonna delete later #way to start the day #it was a artists that i like post and i was like oh okay cool lets see who is in her- #oh #not all of them were weird artists! #but just enough for me to be like bro... #to be fair it was totally expected from someone of that specific fandom but like #i wanted to think better #but i guess not lmao #sorry for rambling but i did not expect this today whoops #not art

[idekguys]

Does anyone else think that Billie Ellish’s song no time to die fits perfectly with red Queen by Victoria Aveyard??? Especially the chorus, like just listen to these lyrics-

-Was I stupid to love you?

Was I reckless to help?

Was it obvious to everybody else

That I'd fallen for a lie?

You were never on my side

Fool me once, fool me twice

Are you death or paradise?

Now you'll never see me cry

There's just no time to die-

It almost perfectly describes how Mare felt about maven after he betrayed her especially since she's so set on not letting him see that she's scared or hurt and how she can't even really think about it because there is no time to die

#red queen #mare barrow #glass sword #maven calore #cal calore #billie eilish #victoria aveyard #ya romance #ya fantasy #no time to die #is it just me #possible spoilers #if you haven't read the first book #marecal #books #sorry if it's dumb #probably gonna delete later #because I'm insecure #mare x maven #booklover #anyway

[mossyflowers]

Augh I wanna interact with some people so bad but I'm worried I might end up coming off as annoying hiofrshuisffuh

#been seeing stuff where peopke can throw their ocs at others for stuff and like.. i wanna do that so bad! #but also <:[ what if i end up beinf annoying or bothering them or smth #probably gonna delete later

[askthehiddencaste]

I know this is supposed to be a fun place and just goof off and whatnot with characters but IDK. Recently it's been a burden to even open the app. I see the same people over and over, the ones that I don't like and the ones that I do.

People who wrong and those that do right and even more That decide that the only way forward is to completely start from scratch or complain that things don't go their way.

Depression is hard hitting, thoughts of just leaving this place have been hard tacked into the brain.... I just don't know what to do.... Everything is stagnant now and even introducing new characters has lost its appeal.... IDK if the library will stay open or not....

Who knows maybe I just need a small break from everything, maybe open the expanse to characters like Rain and Shazahd who aren't part of homestuck.... I don't know.

Ignore me Im. Just rambling.....

#kanny things #kanny speaks #probably gonna delete later #ignore me #depression talking

[emthetimelady]

*arrives in your notifications*

May I offer you…… a silly hc?

*disappears from your notifications*

#is this how you get friends? /j #probably gonna delete later

[piki-miki]

i fucking hate that alcohol is a socially acceptable drug 😍😍☺️☺️

#super long rant #probably gonna delete later

[jibril-thelibraryangel]

All I can say is that entire scenario was very unfair.

Like they were just thrown in a no win situation through no fault of their own and now 3 PCs are dead?

All the fights in this campaign have been crazy, like at least 3 people go down EVERY combat. I didn’t comment on it but I don’t think that should be happening every time.

My biggest hope is that this was a plan lose on Matt’s part and the PCs are going to be brought back with whatever magic they unleash.

If that’s not the case I straight up don’t want to keep watching, this way too much stress every episode and why would I keep caring about characters that drop like flies?

Ultimately it’s their game, I’m glad they’re having fun but I’m just not anymore.

#probably gonna delete later #I’m just really upset #critical role #critical role spoilers #cr #cr spoilers #campaign 3 #cr3 #bell’s hells #bells hells #bell hells

[3amclothesmonster]

Having a breakdown rn, trying not to cry loudly cause I don't want get yelled at

#Vent-ish #Vent I guess idk #Vent #Probably gonna delete later