I can tell non-psychotics about my hallucinations just fine because people get that I can’t help those, they just happen. But I absolutely do not tell anyone about my delusions and only a few people about my paranoia, because I have learned the hard way that non-psychotics tend to think that those symptoms are directly my fault. They don’t really see them the same as hallucinations (things I can’t control). If I have a delusion, then surely I don’t believe that! That’s ridiculous! I’m way too smart to believe that! And if I’m paranoid, I’m just being rude and annoying, of course! Annoying. Fuck off with that.
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sending bonus love to all my aspec psychotic friends on this fine asexuality week!!! 💜🤍🖤
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isn't it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators...
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psa to everyone on antipsychotics during the summertime
some antipsychotics can make you more susceptible to heat exhaustion because they make it so your body cannot regulate your body temperature correctly. I learned this the hard way last summer, I got really nasty heat exhaustion while on a high dose of quetiapine. so check if your meds react badly to heat, and if they do, please be sure to wear your sunscreen, have light cover ups on or with you, wear a hat, and stay hydrated! be safe
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*removes headphones to make sure random ass noise was part of the song and not psychosis*
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Psychotic people NEED more coping mechanisms that aren't just "take your meds" . Seeing a psychiatrist is expensive and inaccessible for many, not to mention the fact that for some people, the side effects of antipsychotics are worse than the psychosis itself, and the fact that antipsychotics often don't remove symptoms entirely!
So, here's what I learned, after nearly a decade of being unmedicated due to financial constraints and a religious family that was fairly anti-psychiatry for most of my life:
- STRESS MANAGEMENT. A stress-free life is impossible in this society, but you can definitely lower your stress levels with lifestyle changes. Stay hydrated, exercise, take your vitamins, spend time with loved ones, eat nutritious meals, spend some time outside in nature.
- It's very hard to keep on top of all of this when you're dealing with negative symptoms, and many of us can't access all those things if we're poor, but every little bit helps. To-do lists and bullet journals help me keep on track with this stuff.
- PROPER SLEEP. Sleep deprivation is one of the number one causes of psychosis. Try to get at least 8 hours a night, or however much your body personally needs.
- Stay away from weed unless you already know for a FACT that it doesn't negatively affect you. If you don't know, don't risk it, because it makes paranoia and other psychotic symptoms much worse for most of us.
- When in an episode, it's good to have a safe person around who you can confide in. Someone who will listen to you nonjudgementally, without encouraging your delusions or hallucinations. If you don't have a safe person, psychosis forums, support groups, or even just a private diary are all good places to get your thoughts out.
- One of the best ways I dealt with some of my less intense delusions and paranoias was my "I Don't Care" method. People are watching me through cameras everywhere I go? Whatever, let them watch. I'll put on a little show for them while we're at it. I'm living in a horrifying simulation and if I just look through the cracks I can see the rotting world beneath? Whatever, why would I want to do that? This fake milkshake tastes pretty good, I'm going to go on a fake walk.
- Obviously this takes some practice, because psychosis activates all the parts of your brain that are like FEAR ALERT, FEAR ALERT, SET ALL SYSTEMS TO PANIC, but after some time it's a skill you can hone pretty well.
- Breathing exercises! Tormented by horrifying prophetic visions? Hallucinating bugs all over your body? Your food looks suspiciously like human organs and that's really freaking you out, man? Wrap yourself in a weighted blanket and breathe in for 4 seconds, hold it for 4 seconds, breathe out for 4 seconds, hold, and repeat.
- Avoid the tempting cycle of triggering yourself on purpose, whether it be self harm, curiosity, what have you. When you get the urge, do something distracting instead.
Feel free to add onto this post anything else you've learned!
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your reminder that the “psychotic-disordered person is actually just able to see all the magic portals and has powers!” trope is not only overused but can also actively harm ppl w delusions especially
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what a nice pride month to remember neurodivergency complicates stuff
so here's to everyone whose delusions make it hard to tell who they're attracted to, or can't tell if their gender experience is the way it is because of a delusion
here's to everyone whose gender fluctuates and changes due to their hyperfixation or special interest changing and evolving over time
here's to everyone who can't quite figure out if their gender is theirs, or someone else's bleeding into yours
here's to everyone with any type of neurodivergency.
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it’s interesting to watch neurotypicals grapple with the concept of the anti psych movement.
like they think that this belief (which comes so innately to anyone who’s been forcefully institutionalized for long stretches, has a “scary” disorder, or has been cheated and abused by doctors) is inherently harmful for us.
they think we need groups of people with the power to strip us of our bodily autonomy for the crime of having uncontrollable symptoms. that’s genuinely their idea of good psychological care.
and it’s funny cause they’re usually self proclaimed leftists too
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Shout out to people with heavily demonized mental illnesses and symptoms, you aren’t bad, you aren’t evil, you aren’t a burden. And I really hope you get support systems that work for you and uplift you.
People with ASPD, NPD, BPD HPD aren’t evil, abusive, or monsters.
People with psychosis aren’t violent or aggressive.
People with DID aren’t murderers.
People with little or no empathy aren’t cruel or evil.
You’re good people, people who deserve love, compassion, and care. People who deserve proper treatment and help from people who genuinely understand how these things effect you.
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Why being forced to hide psychotic symptoms is detrimental to recovery:
Hi! it’s your friendly neighborhood schizoaffective and i have a story to tell, a story that’s backed by research.
my psychotic symptoms were early onset. my earliest memory of psychotic symptoms was 6 years old, when my parents were changing the locks on the house and i had an intense belief that changing them would mean someone had broken into our house and hadn’t left. i believed my toys had human emotions and felt sad if i played with another toy, so i refused to buy new toys because i was so scared of making my toys sad.
i had a very flattened emotional response (which i would later learn is a symptom of schizophrenia), and in kindergarten and first grade when we learned about emotions, i learned to fake the look of emotional response. i learned how to put a smile on my face when i felt happy and to put a frown on my face when i felt sad. when i was alone, i would practice, but some days i was too tired to do it and i kept my face in the natural way: flat. it wasn’t that i wasn’t feeling emotions, i just couldn’t express them the way people wanted me to
during my elementary school years, i made up words constantly to communicate. i couldn’t form proper sentences, something was blocked in my brain and everything felt scattered and scrambled (disorganized thoughts and speech). my teachers broke that habit in me, not by helping me learn to organize my thoughts, but by teaching me not to speak unless i knew exactly what i was trying to say.
then came middle school and i started hallucinating and my delusions got worse. but everything i had learned from teachers and tv was that hallucinations are scary to people, and i didn’t want to be scary. i would be laughed at if i told anyone about my strong beliefs (delusions) so i didn’t tell anyone. i didn’t tell anyone that i believed that the characters in my tv show were real and the government was hiding their existence and if they knew that i knew they’re real, they’d put me on a watch list. i didn’t tell anyone i was hearing sounds that came straight out of a horror movie. i hid that.
i hid it so well that i avoided treatment. i had an acute psychotic episode, and all i said was that i was having panic attacks. i didn’t tell anyone about the delusion that school was going to literally kill me, or that i heard blood curdling screams in the hallways and when i was trying to sleep at night. i avoided early intervention.
for other reasons that i won’t get into, i was put on seroquel as a mood stabilizer, but as many of you know, it’s also an antipsychotic. this was the first time in my life i felt some kind of relief from my symptoms. i didn’t connect the dots because my psychiatrist called it a mood stabilizer, not an antipsychotic, so i didn’t know why i was feeling better in those areas.
it wasn’t until 10th grade when i was taking a psychology class from a teacher i trusted that i connected the dots. by this time i knew i had psychosis. i had access to the internet and i had googled what was wrong with me, but it wasn’t until a class where he emphasized getting help that i thought ok, now i should bring it up.
by this point, i had had 2 more acute psychotic episodes that kept me out of school, but because i was taught to hide everything, i still didn’t tell anyone the real reason why i couldn’t function. “paralyzing panic attacks” became code for “whatever the real reason is that’s keeping him out of school”. but my teacher made me think i needed help, especially because we were learning about schizophrenia in class and i had a sneaking suspicion that i, someone with a family history of schizophrenia, had it.
i brought it up to my doctors and i was started on antipsychotics, this time with the official name of antipsychotics. but it was a bit too late. my psychiatrist told me that if we had caught it earlier, i may have reacted to treatment better.
i’ve been in treatment for years and the longest i’ve gone without an acute psychotic episode is 5 months. i’ve done my research and in patients with psychosis, the first few months after psychotic symptoms are present are vital to the treatment and recovery of the patient.
it’s not just, oh you won’t suffer as long, it’s literally you will have a better chance at recovery. if you catch psychosis in the prodromal stage, it can greatly reduce the chances of another psychotic episode happening.
by being taught to hide my illness from a young age, i lost the chance at having an easier recovery. yes i learned to confine myself to societal expectations and appear “normal”, but i caused myself more pain in the long run.
early intervention is key to an easier recovery, and i’m going to leave a few links to show you what i mean.
ted talk about early psychotic intervention
psychosis prodromal phase
talking with a psychiatrist about early psychosis intervention
early intervention of psychosis
benefits of early intervention
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psychosis is not:
something that makes someone evil
a descriptor that means “a bad person”
a stigmatized disorder that makes people struggle with distinguishing reality
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as halloween comes closer here’s a reminder to try to be aware of harmful ableist stereotypes in horror movies and stop supporting movies that contribute to these stereotypes. horror as a genre has a huge tendency for demonizing psychotic people (e.g. schizospec people, bipolar people, etc) and people with antisocial personality disorder (the psychopath/sociopath trope) so when consuming horror media try to stay alert so that you recognize these stereotypes and don’t internalize harmful beliefs targeting psychotic people and people w aspd. also please don’t use us as a costume, don’t dress up as an asylum fugitive, don’t dress up in a straitjacket, and try to make sure your costume doesn’t play into any ableist stereotypes
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Friendly reminder that if you are mentally ill or neurodiverse in some way and can’t work: it’s not your fault. You are not a failure or less worthy than people who work. The workplace is inherently ableist and tends not to accommodate people with mental health conditions of any kind and it is not your fault that it is this way or that your condition makes it harder for you to work than someone who doesn’t have it.
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if you have hallucinations and/or delusions i love you. youre not bad or evil, and struggling to tell what's real or fake isnt a personal flaw. you deserve happiness and safety, you deserve to be listened to and taken seriously, and you deserve a loving group of people who will support you and treat you well.
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okay can you guys seriously leave mentally ill people alone? like, for real?
i cannot tell you the number of times ive seen an anonymous person go into someone's inbox and say some shit like "hey so you said you have bpd and i dont have anything against people with bpd but my ex had bpd and constantly manipulated and emotionally abused me, am i valid for hating her?" like. good fucking god.
first of all, random tumblr users are NOT your therapists. you shouldnt be going into ANYONE'S inbox and traumadumping without permission, regardless of who they are or what you're asking them.
second, seriously? like..... seriously? you think that's okay?
imagine going into a queer person's inbox like "hey so you said you're queer and i dont have anything against queer people but i was bullied by a gay person in high school so is it valid if i hate them? nothing against queer people btw i just have bad associations <3" like WHY are you making that somebody else's problem.
i dont care if your abusive ex had bpd, i dont care if your abusive father had npd, i dont care if your shitty ex friend had aspd. you do NOT get to traumadump that onto another mentally ill person who is NOT YOUR FUCKING THERAPIST. how on earth do you think that is okay. it does not matter what your ex with bpd did to you, you do not get to make that another person with bpd's problem.
quit further pushing the idea that ALL people with x disorder are abusive. we are already mistreated enough just for having stigmatized disorders, we do not have to deal with the additional pressure of having to reassure YOU that not all people with x disorder are bad. take that up with a therapist or with someone who has GIVEN YOU PERMISSION to vent to them about it. do not bring that shit into a random stranger's inbox.
like. im sorry you went through that, and it sucks, but the way that you people feel like mentally ill people are obligated to be your teachers or your therapists is ridiculous. we aren't here to make you feel better about yourselves. please, leave us alone.
this is free to reblog but do not use this post to traumadump about how someone with x disorder hurt you and how you use that as an excuse to hold a bias against mentally ill people, i don't wanna hear it.
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