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psychocitysblog · 10 months

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I wake up everyday just waiting to go back to bed.

#kinda depressing #depressing shit #this is depressing #bpd #bpd shit #depressing life #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing thoughts #actually bpd #bpd mood #childhood ptsd #ptsd problems #living with ptsd #ptsd #ptsdlife #trauma #dissociative identity disorder #help help help

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nmolesofadrenaline · 8 months

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#abuse survivor #toxic family #toxic parents #toxic mom #dysfunctional family #emotional abuse #love love love #survival #actually ptsd #childhood ptsd #ptsdlife #tw ptsd #living with ptsd

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unspokenwordsbyhb · 1 year

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#poems and quotes #depressing poem #poemsociety #csa poem #poem of the day #spilled poetry #trauma poem #csa poetry #trauma poetry #poetry #writers and poets #poetic #ptsd tw #ptsd art #ptsdlife #ptsd thoughts #cptsd problems #tw cptsd #just cptsd things

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nyxiswrites1200 · 11 months

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Leon Kennedy Headcanons SFW

It's time to show how delusion I am about Leon Kennedy 🥰 This just my opinion but if you have any other ideas or headcanons I'd love to hear about them in the comments 🩷

Warnings: Leon Lore spoils, mentions of trauma/PTSD/insecurity. This is all my own opinion.

• We all know Leon has some serious trauma and PTSD from his job. If you were good friends with him or his lover, then he'd definitely be more vulnerable around you. There'd probably be moments where you'd see him be so gentle or break down but he never shows how much he's hurting in front of anyone else.

• Leon seems like the guy who would snuggle into your chest after a rough nightmare and just wants to cuddle. If RE2 Leon is anything to think about, he's definitely a softie at heart.

• Leon would probably try to avoid dating anyone in the first place. He feels his job is too dangerous and wouldn't want anyone to get hurt. He wouldn't want his lover to mourn or worry about him if something bad were to happen to Leon. He avoids romance or pushes the feelings away before they can become anything more.

• Don't be mistaken, Leon really wants love. With the way his life has been he craves to be that important to someone but he's also so used to going without it that he's learned to not expect it in his life.

• Leon also seems like he's the type who maybe has some insecurities. Seeing so many people in his life die has caused him to feel like he's not strong enough or not good enough. He works harder so he can save people but sometimes feels it's all pointless.

-----Now to get a little fluffy 🥺-----

• Dating Leon wouldn't be the easiest thing. He has a lot of unresolved traumas and a dangerous job. But depending on your perspective, it would be worth it.

• He would care for you deeply and do anything to protect you. If you loved Leon despite everything he's been through, he would love you more than anything else. He would cherish you and always make sure you're okay.

• Leon would probably worry that he burdens you but reassuring him is key. He would need your words of comfort to make him realize how much you care about him and that he's not any kind of burden to you.

• Leon would be a gentle lover, I think considering how much he's been through. He would want something soft and simple, that makes him forget about the struggles of his life and the reality of it all.

• Sometimes Leon stresses himself out and feels the weight of everything on him a little more than other days. Your touch and words are comforting to him. He'd want to be close to you during these times but would have trouble asking for it.

• I think Leon would have an anxious attachment style. Considering he never received the love and attention of parents through his childhood and that continued through his life. Plus he's been put through dangerous missions and training as well. He hasn't gotten the emotional growth that he probably needs. He struggles to try and ask you for things and needs a lot of reassurance and would never turn down a comforting hug or hand holding.

• But a relationship with Leon wouldn't be unfair. He'd comfort you and reassure you just as much as you do him. He loves you and would do anything to keep you happy and safe. He would work with your attachment styles and love languages to make you happy.

• Leon would come to you just to kiss you or hug you simply because he was thinking about you. But he only does this when you're alone, he doesn't really like publicly displaying himself as vulnerable.

• When Leon leaves for missions for his job, he'll often tell you that he will always come back because you're waiting for him. This is to reassure you but he truly does mean it.

• Probably one of the only people to know you two are dating would be Ashley. Leon would tell her or she'd probably walk in on you two kissing or something. Leon wouldn't really flaunt his relationship with you, but he wouldn't be scared to admit he loves you if someone asked.

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sleepyeye17 · 1 year

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Executive dysfunction is strong this week, so I wrote a little fic about it.

“Three… two… one… GO!”

Eddie looks up from his comic. Steve is cross legged on his sofa, his eyes bulging, his forehead creased with frustration.

“GO!” Steve shouts again.

“Hey Steve?”

“Yeah?”

“What’s going on?”

“I want to shower.”

“Uh huh. Okay. Go ahead.”

“I can’t.”

Steve’s hands are in fists, and he’s biting his lip. Eddie knows the doctor mentioned this before, and he tries to remember what it was.

“Is this what the doctor said?” Eddie asks. “With your… frontal lobe?”

Steve shuts his eyes.

“Executive dysfunction. Yeah.”

“So you want to do something, but you can’t.”

“Right.” Steve drums his fists on his knees. “I’ve always been this way, but now it’s so much worse. And usually counting down helps, but this week it’s just been really bad.”

“Is it like…” Eddie tries to think of an analogy. “Sometimes I feel like I’m standing on a diving board and I want to jump off, but my body doesn’t let me. But it’ll be, like… doing the dishes instead of a diving board. Or whatever.”

“Yeah! Yeah, that’s exactly how it is!” Steve throws his head back and groans. “I feel like such an idiot, you know? Like, I want to shower. I really do want to. But I can’t make my body do it.”

Eddie stares at Steve, thinking. Then he stands up and moves to the radio. He picks out a tape and sticks it in.

As soon as the beat starts, Steve grins and rolls his eyes.

“Seriously?”

Eddie starts shaking his hips and singing along.

“Humidity is rising…

Barometer's getting low…”

He holds his hands out to Steve, but Steve shakes his head.

“No way.”

“According to all sources…

The street's the place to go…”

“You don’t even like the top forty!”

“'Cause tonight for the first time

Just about half-past ten

For the first time in history…”

Eddie throws his head back and slams on an imaginary guitar.

“IT’S GONNA START RAININ’ MEN!”

Eddie drags Steve up by the wrists, and they’re both laughing too hard to sing along.

It's raining men, hallelujah, it's raining men, amen

Eddie puts his hands on Steve’s hips and Steve wraps his arms around Eddie’s neck and they dance, still a little stiff and awkward from their injuries, shaking with giggles. Steve barely even notices that Eddie is leading them backwards, down the hall.

It's raining men, every specimen

Tall, blonde, dark and lean

Rough and tough and strong and mean

Eddie kicks the bathroom door open behind him, then steps them both in. He plants a kiss on Steve’s forehead.

“Behold,” he says, a little breathless. “Your shower awaits.”

#steddie #steve harrington adhd #living with adhd #executive disfunction #ptsdlife #steve harrington #eddie munson #steve x eddie #established steddie #stranger things #Joe Quinn #joe keery #joseph quinn #It's raining men #hallelujah

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childlikewhimsi · 9 months

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happy disability month to all my baddies that take zoloft

I have a secret for you

part of the reason that zozo is so horrible at first is because it basically zaps the magnesium and potassium out of you

so when I was on it, the side effects were kicking my ass until I started incorporating things like bananas and kale into my diet and it actually worked, the pain subsided.

if you are taking this and struggling id highly suggest making sure that you make some smoothies about it

#zoloft #ptsd #ocd #ptsdlife #actually ocd #ocdawareness #disability #disabled #ocd memes #pure ocd #ocdproblems #ptsd vent #cptsd tag #cptsd #cptsd memes

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thecommunalfoolboy · 1 year

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„I have ptsd“

❌ Boring

❌ Weak and breedable

❌ Gives in to your therapists agenda

❌ Gives fuel to your enemies

„I am plagued with visions“

✅ Fresh and sexy

✅ Threatening aura

✅ Keeps your therapist on their toes

✅ forces your enemies to consider the homoerotic subtext in your rivalry

#ptsd #living with ptsd #ptsdlife #ptsd tw #ptsd memes #ptsd culture is #therapy #therapist #shitpost #crack post #i cant remember if i stole this joke or not but here it is anyway #tw paranoia #paranoia tw #cw unreality #unreality

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bipolarmango · 7 months

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#actually mentally ill #actually bipolar #ptsd #complex ptsd #ptsdlife #ptsdawareness #ptsd treatment #actually ptsd #tw ptsd #ptsd recovery #cptsd #living with cptsd #actually cptsd #just cptsd things #cptsd problems #cptsd recovery

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shitpostingforserotonin · 1 year

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perks of being mentally ill: being able to rewatch shows every few years like I’ve never seen them bc of my memory loss lool

#cptsd problems #just cptsd things #actually ptsd #ptsdlife #mental health #mentally fucked #mental health memes #adhd stuff #bpd life #memory loss

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pyxisspeaks · 9 months

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“You are so mature for your age”

Thank you I’m very traumatized

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psychocitysblog · 10 months

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Why does being alive have to be so hard?

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nmolesofadrenaline · 6 months

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#abuse survivor #toxic family #emotional abuse #dysfunctional family #toxic parents #toxic mom #ptsdlife #ptsd vent #actually ptsd #childhood ptsd #living with ptsd #tw ptsd #complex ptsd #ptsd #on god

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theycallmemomo · 9 months

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Life is miserable. Recently got diagnosed with PTSD and BPD so there’s that. Medication I’m on doesn’t really feel like it’s working and I feel like I’m just constantly sad. Some of these pictures are quite deceiving because even though I look fine or possibly happy, it’s been the worst time of my life. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore and I’m just lost. I have this non-stop physical pain I feel in my chest, my heart feels like it’s on the verge of just completely giving out. It might be due to all the stress and agony I feel but there’s not much I can do. I feel alone, sad, devoid of any happiness or excitement, angry, and empty all at once. Nothing makes sense anymore. The silence is so deafening and I’m so close to giving up. If this is my last post, so be it. I really have nothing left. No one. It’s just me and my tormenting thoughts.

#journal #diary #life #personal #woe #selfie #dark #woeful #goodbye forever #life is meaningless #pictures of me crying #bpd shit #ptsdlife

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kaysweet22 · 11 months

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⚠️Let us be who we're meant to be and give us strength to be able to stop pretending to be something we're not, something that's not even real! Society brainwashes young people into believing our bodies aren't good enough and they edit their models to create a "perfect" image that is surreal and unattainable so, people start hating themselves and becoming depressed and suicidal because they believe they should look like that when that's not even reality but they don't know any better. It either takes their life or ruins it forever because now they will forever have a stigma attached to their brain that was unwillingly put there by our society and they will constantly push people away feeling "not good enough " and constantly asking themselves why? And cutting themselves just to take the edge off and to feel something other than "that" unwanted ugly feeling. These people are forever effected with PTSD, OCD, Anxiety, Depression, Anorexia, Bulimia, self harm, racing thoughts, fear of being rejected, losing out on the life they should have had if only these images/thoughts/preconceived notions hadn't been forced upon them in the first place!! If only my voice mattered enough to change our world. Commercials/ADS should have real people and never have underwear/lingerie/swim suit ads because it may be offensive to others and is definitely inappropriate for younger audiences!! If we can't wear it into a store than why should it be on TV or billboards for anyone/everyone to see??!!

I am 32 and I still suffer greatly from what society has done to me, my quality of life is gone and can't be fixed. It's too late for me but not for others!! #RaiseAwareness 💕

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cubkodaeducates · 1 year

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How Ageregression is SFW and how it shouldn’t be tied to other NSFW communities + how they are harmful.

Hello everybody, today I will be discussing a topic that is somewhat controversial, but it must be talked about and must be taken very seriously. Please when you are reading this, try to take it in, don’t just dismiss what I say even if you disagree, at least not until you’re finished reading everything . Please be aware that I will be mentioning NSFW things and communities , if that is a problem for you then please do not read . So let's get into it!

Today I will be discussing why Age Regression is completely SFW and why it should be treated as such as well as why some communities aren’t sfw and why you shouldn’t associate them with Age Regression . If you don’t know what SFW stands for, it means : Safe For Work, in other words, family friendly. If you read my first post then you probably already know where I stand on this, which is that Age Regression is SFW. Before I get into why it’s SFW, let me refresh you on what Age Regression is . Age Regression is a mental defense mechanism , which means that it’s the mind's way of protecting itself. This defense mechanism puts a person into a younger state of mind , for example , a toddler . For most people it isn’t controllable or able to just do it on command, although for some, they have mastered how to control it and continuously use it as a coping mechanism .

Now that you have it in your mind what Age Regression is, let me inform you on why it is Safe For Work. Because Age Regression is a defense mechanism and puts a person into a younger state of mind , typically of a child, sexualizing it in any way, goes hand in hand in pedophilia . When you sexualize someone when they are regressed, it is basically the same as sexualizing a child. Because this person who is regressed is mentally like a child, they should be treated as such whilst regressed, that includes the way in which you are viewing them, treating them,and talking to them . The question you should ask yourself is, would you sexualize a literal child, if you’re a sane person then the probable answer should be no . Therefore, you should not sexualize Age Regression .

So now that we are on the same boat about not sexualizing Age Regression and how it goes hand in hand with sexualizing children, let’s get into the different ways that you could possibly do so without any intent and how it is harmful to those who regress and people in general . One of the many ways and examples on how sexualizing Age Regression has harmed Regressors, Minors, and people in general, is some of the NSFW communities, such as : ADBL , MD/DDLG MD/DDLB , CGL , and Age Players . These communities take Age Regression and or the theory of children and childlike state of minds and sexualize it in many ways .

How do these communities sexualize children and Age Regression ? Well, MD/DDLG/LB started out as a coping mechanism from the BDSM community where the Dominant in the relationship also takes over the ‘ parental ‘ dynamic in the relationship and the Submissive takes on the ‘ child ‘ dynamic in the relationship . It was another way for people to heal their inner child, of course then it started to become perverted when people continued sexual behavior during this part of the relationship . Meaning that while the ‘ Sub’/ ‘ Child ‘ was still in their child-like state of mind , the ‘ Dom ‘ / ‘ Parent ‘ would take that into account and sexualize them in lots of ways, and both would still partake in ‘NSFW physical activities ‘ . So if you don’t understand what I am saying through all of that, let me make it simple, MD/DDLG/LB is a relationship where both participants sexualize the relationship between a parent and their child . If that isn’t a red flag to you, I don’t know what will be .

ADBL just like MD/DDLG/LB sexualizes children and Age Regression as well as Diapers . ADBL is a community of people that ‘ love ‘ to wear diapers , use them , and then sexualize it. If it doesn’t already sound gross then just wait . How does this sexualize children ? Well, obviously children wear diapers , use them , but you don’t sexualize that do you? It’s almost like they’re trying to promote that using diapers should be sexual . A lot of Age Regressors use diapers because they regress into such a young age that they cannot control that part of them, although some just like to wear them because it makes them feel comfortable whilst regressed . Now lots of people, especially disabled people, wear diapers . It isn’t a choice for them and I can guarantee that someone who has to wear a diaper because of their disability doesn’t want people to perceive them in a sexual manner because of it . Would you ?

CGL is basically the same thing as MD/DDLG/LB except it specifically sexualizes Age Regression . This relationship likes to sexualize the relationship between an Age Regressor / Little and their Caregiver , ( the person who takes care of them in and out of their regression). Why is this harmful ? I think it’s pretty self explanatory . Age Regression should NOT be sexualized, therefore, CGL is morally wrong .

And of course I have to make sure not to leave out the Age Players, what I would consider to be the grossest out of the bunch and the most harmful! Age Players are in their own specific community because a lot of people in the NSFW communities can acknowledge the fact that Age Play is beyond morally wrong . Age Play is when two or more people who are participating in sexual activities ( most of the time sex ) , pretend that one or both are children or babies . Just writing that out was disturbing for me, I can’t imagine what you’re thinking whilst reading this. If you still don’t understand, let me explain how that is harmful . It is not just sexualizing children and babies, it’s sexualizing Age Regression because people like to tie the two together, it’s giving BDSM a bad rep because whether or not you think BDSM is okay, most people in that community dislike Age Play and Age Players but Age Players continue to tie themselves with BDSM as well as other communities .

All of these communities that I’ve mentioned like to tie themselves to Age Regression, which is just a defense mechanism . Minors and people in general should not have to see these things/communities pop up when trying to find out about Age Regression. They are trying to find out more about themselves , others , and good coping mechanisms, not perverted nonsense that will only hurt them emotionally and mentally . It is super harmful especially to minors who shouldn’t be exploited to those types of things at such a young age. It makes it hard for people to come out about their Regression to anyone because they’re scared that people will automatically get the wrong idea because of all of the gross stuff that has been put out there about ‘ Age Regression ‘ which in reality is just gross communities taking on the label of Age Regression . It prevents people from getting the help that they need because they’re too embarrassed to talk about it . It has created a stigma .

This healthy defense / coping mechanism should not be sexualized any more than you would sexualize a child, therefore it should not be tied to communities and things that sexualize themselves, children , and others in any way . If you have participated or are continuously participating in those types of communities / things , then please sit down and think about what I have written, because I guarantee you that you’re doing more harm than good for yourself and others by just ignoring this post .

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unspokenwordsbyhb · 1 year

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