#put myself back together

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 3: Enveloping Feelings.

(Part 1, Part 2, Part 4 (soon))

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #Yungmeng Jiang training arc AU #I wanted to try out a different paneling style for this one - sorry I'm a day late! (there will still be a post tomorrow to keep on track) #The original 3 panel comic idea was fine but the point of this new schedule was to take time to push myself a bit more. #I was taking a look back through some comic artists I felt inspired by #and I really loved how Lynda Barry fills her gutters with patterns and doodles! #Obviously I'm not going as absolutely wild with it as she does but it was a great exercise! #I truly think the gutters are the most important and most overlooked part of any comic. There's lots going on in that space. #It's the same with timeskips. The implied movement between moments that we don't see changes depending on how wide that gap is #You're here for the funny tags so here's some that ties this time talk together: #I think LWJ was thinking about that second note from day 2 but it took him 7 days of hazing to commit it to paper. #I think he sends it a day later and immediately regrets it. Chasing down the messenger and everything. #You know if something actually happened to his brother he would never ever forgive himself for putting the bad vibes out there. #Third time skip was the hardest because there was so many possible flavours of jokes here. Day 8/9 was a personal favourite. #day 14 was also funny (week by week). I think the debate on 'how long does lwj take to catch feelings' is more or less: #'how long does it take for him to arrive at a particular stage of grief and yearning (and awareness of it all) #This is a symphony. There is an act by act structure. Every day he is fighting to keep his old sensibilities. He is losing so badly. #(I'll be returning to the main comic soon but there is more of this AU to come!)

[vacueye]

looking through old tf2 stuff again + felt like reuploading some of my favorite (mostly spy) art throughout the years

#seeing the water themed ones makes me want to draw more of those lol theyre always so fun.... i just like messing around wit lines and color #tf2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 spy #tf2 pyro #tf2 demoman #tf2 heavy #tf2 medic #tf2 sniper #tf2 scout #tf2 soldier #tf2 engineer #miss pauling #tf2 miss pauling #spycrab #fanart #might put together a small artbook / zine of these as a sort of archive for myself / showing my art progress over time #i still have stuff back when i first started drawing digitally bc of tf2 (its rly bad) #bright colors #eye strain #- just in case

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 142

Dan came from the Flashpoint timeline, which was destroyed. Well, mostly destroyed. There were a few things that slipped through, which would be concerning if it was anything else. Honestly Danny has no clue what to think about the murder-grandpa Batman ghost, but honestly, he’s happy to get proper training and- holy fuck the murder-batman just oneshot Vlad away this is his new favorite person. 

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #Danny reminds Thomas of Bruce #And Vlad reminds him of Martha’s side of the family (the ones who were assholes) #Sure hope the GIW won’t try to pull something because Thomas was a surgeon #He knows how to put someone back together and knows how to take them apart #He is gently holding all of Team Phantom including Ellie & Jazz #The adoption instinct is genetic #flashpoint #Thomas: I have only had these tiny vigilante children for an hour #Thomas: But if anything happened to them I would obliterate everything in this timeline and then myself once more #Ghost murder grandpa batman who gets Powers #those poor goons who thought they escaped batman when they died #Now they get to deal with Double

[onceintwentylifetimes]

My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys - Taylor Swift

#My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys #my boy only breaks his favorite toys #taylor swift #taylorswift #the tortured poets department #vickisedits #tswiftedit #really wanted the arms seperate so like...its impossible to put herself back together #also the faceless thing was also a deliberate choice #there's a lot of intent here even if I lowkey was itching for a lightbox and a barbie to set it up myself to photograph...

[mewtwo24]

Not to be That Guy but like.

Am I the only one that can't stop thinking about how Tianlang-Jun says about Luo Binghe that he pretends to be cold-hearted like his mother. The hint of fondness there, the heartache in that utterance.

Like it drives me absolutely insane. Imagining her putting on a front of strength, cold and driven and unrelenting. Why does TLJ say that about her. Did she secretly look for solutions that meant reconciling with demons instead of hurting them when her sect wasn't looking? (I wonder this because I feel like his weird fondness for SQQ would lowkey track if it's connected to the woman he once loved.) Did he mean that she was tasked with basically assassinating him and she fell in love with him instead (re: failed step one)? Did he mean that she was fond and doting in her own way (e.g. conceding he was attractive, paying for his exploits and humoring him)? Did he mean that, like LBH, she thought that power would be the thing to protect her--and that it was disguising a person who was deeply and privately wounded? All four????? I don't need sleep I need a n s w e r s

Did she know about the Huanhua Palace Master's skeevy ass intentions before she met TLJ? Or did those only come to significant light after she fell in love with TLJ? Is that why she never anticipated that level of betrayal, because initially she had no intention of being with anyone romantically? And HHPM just assumed she would be under his thumb forever?? Was she furious at her own indiscretion or did she try to use the pregnancy as a bargaining chip, a way to try to stop the immortals of Cang Qiong Mountain from attacking TLJ (plus the bonus of marriage entrapment no takesies backsies this is where LBH gets it from)? Did she try to use that claim on her to dissuade HHPM from his covetous advances, framing herself as tainted so that she could finally escape? Did she dream of a life by TLJ's side, far away from Cang Qiong Mountain?

Like. Literally every single permutation of what this could mean guts me to hell. Do you ever just cry about tianxi because I--[loud bawling noises]

#svsss #tianxi #tianlang jun #su xiyan #like this shit keeps me awake at night #i'm trying to put fic ideas together and every time i go back to that line i just #find myself trying to parse and hone out su xiyan's mannerisms/personality #zzl's descriptions help a great deal but i also love that they're limited in the sense that #1. zzl was clearly scared shitless of/disconcerted with her LMFAO #2. he was suspicious of her (as a cultivator fundamentally) and its fascinating that TLJ did not seem to share this suspicion at all #or one could argue tlj just didn't care beyond his attraction and glee being around her jkahglfdskjhsfkhjg #there is also the hilarious implication that part of what turned tlj on so much about sx is the fact that she could prbly kill him #tlj really said 'i love a woman who can and WILL kick my ass' #'none of that soft power seduction shit manhandle me or nothing' #like he always believed deep down--or at the very least wanted to believe--that she loved both him and lbh dearly #i'm not usually the fix-it fic type but the Way I Need To See Su Xiyan Destroy Huanhua Palace Master's Entire Life. #i just want sx and her boytoy to live happily ever after is that so wrong? #i also think of that person (im so sorry tumblr user i dont rmr who u are at the minute) that said there had to be trust between tlj and sx #because YES. ABSOLUTELY. I AGREE. AND I WANT IT FOR ME #don't mind me just the usual descent into madness anytime i think too hard about svsss #i need to outline damn you airplane and your refusal to expand on LBH's juicy ass backstory #ill never forgive the chinese (joke)

[pokeberry5]

your tim is soooooooo beautiful i can’t stop looking at him 😍

do you have any good tim whump fic recs? like the classic comm cuts out when he’s in trouble or really anything

(thank you!! im glad u like my tim art)

(in reference to this, where i mentioned liking whump fics where tim ends up on the ropes alone and his comm cuts out)

i was digging through my reading history to try to find some recs and it seems??? i may have extrapolated fics based on what i wanted to read rip

i did still put some fic recs together! but these are slightly to the left of your original requests. i'm gonna put them in order of relevancy. broad warning to please read the tags on all of these

Little Pig, Little Pig, Let Me In by nierembergia

tim's on the line with damian when suddenly a harmless-seeming interaction at a gala turns sinister (wip)

buy the ticket, take the ride

wherein tim is attempting to deal with things on his own after finding himself alone in vegas, at some point calls jason to "consult" him about blood spatters, and then has to hang up on him because he's getting shot at

the days of theft (no more) by SilverSkiesAtMidnight

gen omegaverse, jason takes tim and in the process snaps the bond between bruce and tim. including this one because the pack bond snapping between bruce and tim has, to me, the same emotional impact of a comm getting caught (wip)

Into the Brighter Night by shoalsea

the set up of this fic is tim manipulating the bats into following a plan he misrepresented and then purposefully going dark, although the majority of the fic deals with the interpersonal fallout of tim's actions (complete)

children of the stars by Scarlet_Ribbons

jason takes tim in because jack drake's a piece of shit and ends up doing his own growing in the process. not sure how to explain why i'm including this without spoiling it, but there is a Big Moment later in the fic that to me is equivalent to tim purposely cutting his comms off to deal with a situation himself (wip)

Call to a Lonely Earth by Drag0nst0rm

in the midst of brucequest, tim ends up on an earth where there are no longer any children and bruce has lost both his sons. i'm mostly including this one because i like it a lot, but—mild spoiler—tim does make a call explaining what he presents as a hopeless situation that he can't be saved from and then hangs up! (first fic is complete but sequel isn't)

also, while it doesn't quite have the same emotional force of what i was looking for, detective comics (1940) #698-99 is where i originally got the idea from and it does feature protective dick and alvin draper!

#tim drake #dc #fic rec #asks #red talks #THANK YOU FOR THE ASKS THO #i hope these are still ok #i love all these fics!! they're just not as relevant to what i originally wanted #i would kill for a fic like what i was thinking about #also this took a bit to put together bc i read an obscene amount of tim-centric fic in a three month haze during the summer of 2022 #and i never bookmark anything #AND THE RANKINGS OF FICS HAVE CHANGED SINCE THEN #this was very close to becoming a rec list of tim centric fics containing emotionally charged “phone calls” but i held myself back #im also pretty sure have of these are quite well-known already #i would also recommend silverskiesatmidnight and scarlet_ribbons more broadly for their tim-centric angst

[xenturyn]

shizumafuweek2023 day 2! snow AND rabbits

#project sekai #prsk #shizuku hinomori #mafuyu asahina #shizumafu #shizumafuweek2023 #ryn art #man my back......shrimposture #edit: I feel I should clarify that in addition to shrimposture I was putting together ikea furniture on the same day so #it's mostly bcs of that rather than the drawing itself #but thanks to those who unshrimps my back and say I should take care of myself yall are very sweet!!

[cathalbravecog]

scenecore misty back at it again!! + a speedpaint! :D

it wasn't meant to be a youtube link, but uploading the video file itself won't work, so apologies about that i know youtube links are annoying on tumblr please don't kill me </3

#it's very hard to label this design honestly - it is not exactly scene ESPECIALLY NOT the hair. however i consider scenecore different from #it and more like an aesthetic based on scene that may or may not include the culture like the music and raves and such more #leaning on internet nostalgia if anything #so id say that fits better so the adopted scenecore misty title does fit. i originally didnt wanna use that myself believe it or not #anyways hope you like this it took longer than intented as always. whoopsies #and enjoy the music in the speedpaint heehee #i didnt check it while it was rendering so if theres goofy stuff or missed recordings/skips then whoopsie @_@ #flashing #bright colors #rainmaker #misty moonsoon #scenecore #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #guz art #video_guz.mp4 #abt what i said earlier tbh genuinely how i made this design i just slapped stuff i like together #i loooove putting rainbows and stars on stuff... and lots of purples #also i gotta like make a pinned post on my main so i can credit back the textures i use #if i dont forget... its like 4 am though so! yeah no not rn . also sry more tags than usual i do want ppl to see this + my usual sortin tag #Youtube

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Not sure if this theory makes any sense at all but I'm starting to believe that there's no time skip between Wally's phone calls and what we see/hear in the show's Media/Merchandise. If we see the Toyland call being made before the Homewarming episode then it would make sense that Wally's expecting Barnaby to come over soon. As well as the Homewarming sketch from the prior update. (I don't know, still kind of brainstorming this perspective)

that theory Does make sense and i've been considering it! the "timeline" is such a nebulous thing right now because we still... don't really know! there are too many variables and too many Maybes for any solid answer.

maybe the reality that the neighbors live in exists outside of time like you say, and like half of me suspects. there's so much reality fuckery already present, but I'm also... unsure of how much merit this holds given what we know / can infer about how time passes in Home. i'm putting this theory on a low shelf to look at but not prioritize

maybe it really has been 50 years, and Barnaby is either still around / Wally is still in contact with him, or Barnaby... isn't there. who knows, maybe Wally was just verbalizing some Wishful Thinking. i mean, Wally is a bit of an unreliable narrator, isn't he? we can't assume that everything he says is entirely accurate or truthful. and i mean, if it's been 50 years it makes sense that Wally would be pushing for connection / to revive WH. who knows how long he's been trying.

hm... i mean. it could be a mix of that and the Outside Of Time theory. who knows, maybe W is receiving calls from different points in the timeline - Wally may have started out just calling, and has just graduated to invading the WH website / getting pushy with the envelopes and media that's been sent to the WHRP. maybe Wally got tired of waiting for W to respond before W was even born. who's to say!

#i mean. idk the emphasis wally puts on Its So Quiet makes my brain tilt its head #it feels like wally breaking composure before he pastes the Facade back on with '-during homewarming' #that and just the way he phrased 'everyones usually so busy so its just me and home for a long while' #Usually so busy. Usually. why not Always? or Is? #usually. #and then the 'its just me and home for a long while' #the phrasing here has Connotations i think! #homebogging #welcome home speculation #wh speculation #OF COURSE. I HAVE TO DEBUNK MYSELF! #what we hear / see from Wally is - ironically - more genuine than the WHRP's or W's recovered media (save the eddie excerpts) #the WH media shows us the ideal homewarming - where everyone is getting into the spirit and spending time together and the like #but then wally could be telling us what homewarming is Really like - lonely. quiet. #WHICH MAKES SENSE THEMATICALLY! and it mirrors how christmas time is. its marketed as this joyful thing that brings people together #when in reality its lonely and stressful. i know i certainly never feel more lonely than i do at that time of year! #so there's just. layers. right now im simultaneously believing in the time discrepancy And them existing outside of time #im leaning on the first one but you know! #BUT!!! IM CONFIDENT THAT THE HOMEWARMING WALLY WAS CALLING FROM WAS NOT THE ONE WE SAW IN THE UPDATE. #wally spoke with enough familiarity about the time of year to make me think 'hes lived through many of these hasnt he' #it could be that time Has passed for the neighbors and its been many homewarmings. #it could be that it Started as what the commercials/update showed us. #but as time passed maybe it became a time where everyone just... Isolates for one reason or another. so now it's just quiet and lonely #im still rolling it all around in my head! many factors and implications to consider w/ this update! #Take All Of This With A Grain Of Salt As Usual!

[crtastrophe]

YAHOO ANSWERS DOT COM HOW TO GET ANTS OUT OF COMPUTER

doing Artfight again, I'm team Bloom!

#as always I put off updating my refs until last minute ;; #my page is kinda empty rn but I'm gonna try to throw some stuff together #digital art #artfight #artfight 2022 #team bloom #object head #tv head #robot #OC: 01 #accidental comedy of not drawing them for a full year then bringing them back all crusty and overgrown #idk. I'm not as much of a tv head guy as I used to be and I don't rlly feel the need to represent myself through an abstracted sona anymore #but it's nice to have Cool Robot so they're not going anywhere #entomophobia tw #insects

[phantangled]

mr amazing back at it with his ✨iconic✨ annotations

(+ i’m glad he’s doing okay 🥹)

#I’m so glad he’s getting the help he needs and I’m so glad he’s found the right therapist for him 🥰🥰 #love u mr amazing xxx #but also Phil’s annotation game is never weak so here I am putting them all together for y’all #and for myself cos I love these posts hehe #tag urself #I’m ‘just bring back dil’ #LMAO #and so true bestie please do that #long post #YouTube #amazingphil #phil lester #dan and phil #phan

[helpimtrappedinthetextbox]

A fnc fic where they met as kids, either by Chip obtaining a way to the under sea and meeting Gil some how or Gil running away to an above sea island and meeting Chip, where they know each other for no more than a month, but fundamentally change the course of each other's lives.

Where Chip shows Gil that it's not always black and white, that life is colored in shades of gray, that the Elders approval isn't everything.

Where Gil shows Chip how to allow himself to be, where he doesn't shave to chance his adoptive father's legacy, he can just be himself.

Where they sob in each others arm for hours knowing it'll likely be the last time they meet.

Where Chip, as he grows, learns to dream for himself, be himself, not chasing a shadow of a time long gone.

Where Gil, as he grows, learns to live for himself, be himself, not trying to fill impossible shoes for a Prophecy that could never be for him.

They do meet again, many years later, when each other is barely a wisp of a memory.

Chip in that boat with Jay, sure of himself and his own journey.

Gil floating in the open tide, having left his home to be free.

They don't recognize each other. They remember the person they met in their childhoods. But names and faces were lost to time.

They become crew, they become family.

One night, in an emotional conversation brought on by feelings of longing for a person long gone, they tell each other about the friend they had in their youths.

About the friend that forever changed their lives.

And maybe they realize, maybe they don't.

But regardless, they're together now. And forever.

#jrwi #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #jrwi gillion #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #chip james #jay ferin #jrwi jay #(mentioned but not a focus) #fnc #jrwi fnc #jrwi fish and chips #GOOD GRIEF THEY MAKE ME INSANE #bout made myself cry with this one bois #yes i did mean for it to come across as gay :) #chip is such a gunky gooey bastards. makes me wanna take him apart and put him back together over and over again #fnc brainrot #i miss them #my soul longs for that which it cannot have #SOBBIGN RN #apparently having a cry session in the tags about just wanting my silly goofy bois back #the title for the fic would be 'Finding My way back to You“

[handledwithgloves]

“Draco. The center’s name was Draco. The light accepted it as a joyous fact, a bit of himself that had been attracted by the growing gravity of the clump—light, mind, physicality, Draco—and returned of its own accord. And then more and more bits began to attach themselves, and lose their individual character in the generality of a whole, and the person that had become light remembered his own name.

Harry.”

god. currently reading ‘Forgive Those Who Trespass’ by Lomonaaeren on ao3 and this is god-like writing. beautiful.

(this excerpt is from ch.17 btw)

#this is so goddam romantic like FCUK #so if one day i turn into a burning light if i become the sun will you be my center of gravity? 🥺👉👈💕 #and when i lose myself will remembering your name bring back all my senses pick up all my pieces and put me back together again? 🙈💖 #this shit is so sick and twistedddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #harry potter #drarry #drarry fic recs #drarry fanfic

[cupacoat]

Being a Link Click fan is getting stuck in our collective time loop where we rewatch scenes over and over again for the 091305th time and being like “damn this is so depressing and gay” as though it somehow exponentially increases the gay depression level each time we rewatch it

it’s also about refreshing any link click tag again and again because we’re somehow starved for content

it’s ALSO ALSO about over analyzing every little detail in every little thing after the season 2 finale reveal

It’s ALSO ALSO ALSO about forgetting shiguang is part of the shows name and doing a double take every time you hear the word out of context in official content

#Season 3 come faster I’m stuck in brain rot and I’m about to loose my mind cause every minute that I dive back in time every single existe- #So like wtf would happen if they dived into a screenshot??? Like they can dive into regular photos on their phones just fine why not those #Maybe I’ll put together a bunch of questions about this series into a different post #Link click #shiguang daili ren #This is a callout post but specifically to myself #I escaped the link click brain worms for one week and got dragged right back in help

[puppyeared]

37

37: share a secret

send me a number!! 💌

#my friend made me watch hetalia when we were kids and. yeah you can probably put the rest together #this is probably the most harmless secret i could think of but im still turning reblogs off bc its really embarassing lol #god i remember using the honorifics and everything. with the pointy anime men chins. god damn #canada called britain senpai i believe. i think i wantto go back in time and stop myself from doing that if i could but as it is #it shaped me as a person and theres nothing i can do abt it. they were hot though #i just know maja is going to add this to their pile of 'things im never going to let puppy live down'. i just know it #CROW IF YOURE SEEING THIS IM SO SORRY. I MADE OUR COUNTRIES MAKE OUT SLOPPY STYLE #ask #answered #ask game #doodles #yapping

[lavenoon]

Did I plan on adding to the reveal comics I made? No. Have a prequel to this one anyway. Fully from our little Hunter's perspective this time, so no heartbeats in this one (just me going wild with lines from the fic). Protective idiot hellbent on the belief that all cryptids are evil is confronted with the fact that 1) their buddies are what they consider to be an "evil thing" and 2) have proven again and again that they care deeply about them and protect them right back. That won't cause cognitive dissonance for sure! (:

@naffeclipse Hi yes hello I am still SCREAMING about the newest chapter literally every time I think about it too much I have to get up and move (made drawing this a unique challenge LMAO) I need to physically shake someone about it. Finally time to drop the lie I am so not normal about this fic

Lines in the first panel: "Speak no more." "It looks just fine to me." You've never detected an entity this strong before. He stays back as you flick holy water throughout the rooms. [...] a pitch black flat face, circled by deep blue and blood red jutting angles [...] "I don't know what you got in you that keeps setting off my equipment, but it is strong." Its remaining three eyes aren't upon you but on something above you. "They don't think, they don't feel. They exist to terrorize and torment." "I think you scared it." "We are scarier than it." Somehow, he closed the gap between the two of you in a moment. [...] nothing short of another threat could make it give pause [...]

Second panel: You're grateful Moon is here with you. "Breathe," he says, warm as sunshine, calm as the new day. Moon lifts you off the ground, clutching you close around the waist. Moon's optics frantically flick to you, wide in alarm. You are first aware of cool fingertips stroking the top of your hair. "We will stay with you," he murmurs in a tender tone that makes your heart swell. [...] your electronically recorded gasp causes Sun to bristle. [...] expose your shoulder to Sun, who makes a rather deep, unpleasant noise when you both find angry red marks [...] You have each other. You're not losing that. "I assure you, little hunter, I'm not leaving your side." [...] kept anchored by the safety of Sun's hand. [...] you squint to make out Moon at your backside, holding you close. "You take care of the scary things." "You won't be near us." By the glow of his eyes, he almost seems to admire you. Sun presses you to his chassis. "We, and our soot, are at your mercy, little hunter." It certainly wouldn't have lent a hand in taking down another cryptid. [...] he flings it away from you. Well, the slightest bit of intrigue, or is it confusion? "You're hurt." Because of him, you raise your voice. He taps once. "You have a dauntless heart." "We must come with you." "That's what we adore about you." "You kept me safe," Moon says softly.

#post let luce #my art #fnaf sb #fnaf sb au #cryptid sightings #cryptid!sun #screaming crying wailing I need to bite something oh my god #Need to hold myself back to not go off again I was already unhinged on ao3 #Need to somehow infuse the chapter into my brain like tattoo it on the folds or something #I need to ABSORB it #I have lost all semblance of normality or put togetherness #DEMON BEHIND YOU. SPEAK NO MORE. #I took another walk through my room #I cannot WAIT for how you'll do the reveal I'm going to be so unhinged about it #(I can and will wait ofc. Take care of yourself. Health over writing always. I'm just *vague gestures*) #Okay okay okay okay I'm done #if everything works out all lines should be legible tho u might need to open the picture in a new tab