#put off everything to do this

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

#spilled ink #warm up #“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol #btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can #run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her #but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like. #ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone! #like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate'' #we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!

[clownsuu]

i never leave asks but i NEED to say that ur interpretation of wally is the best i’ve seen in the fandom and my absolute favorite hdkgnskgs like hell yea go completely unhinged u tiny fucking freak /affectionate

in love with ur art in general <3

WHEEZE lmao thanks my guy! I try my best to appropriately display wally to the best of my ability

cw obsessive/possessive behavior

He’s just a lil silly, maybe even a lil goofy (and dare I say, even a lil quirky-?)

#I don’t quite like how I draw him tbh he looks too round and soft #Though I am very used to drawing more defining chiseled looks so maybe that’s why JDHDHDDH #Idk though I gotta play with his looks more he’s so simple yet complex with his head #Many round shapes LMAO #Also with expressions I actually quite like a very expressive wally some people do for him! #However I base a lot of his speech behaviors off of my own #That whole “not really saying much but when provoked tends to be very straight forward and direct” #Very complex lil fella #Welcome home #welcome home wally #Wally darling #welcome home howdy #howdy pillar #welcome home frank #frank frankly #I say I put my speech into wally #But I put literally everything else to Frank LMAOOOO he just like me fr fr

[dykefaggotry]

the way ppl see the star of david now is actually so gross and blatantly antisemitic it makes me sad. my gf's mom, who is jewish, got me a star of david pin w the trans flag like a year ago and I have it on a beanie I wear to work at a coffee shop sometimes. and today a group of Young White Gays came in & were staring me & the damn hat down like I'd spit in their coffee and they start whispering amongst themselves going "first starbucks and now this?" like abt the starbucks boycott lmfao I'm like

begging yall to understand that the star of david =/= israel and you assuming everyone you see wearing it is some violent islamphobe is actually incredibly shit. you should probably work on that. I've heard WAY too many stories of jews lately actually literally getting attacked for wearing one, which is much worse than annoying comments at a coffee shop to someone who's only jew(ish). if you Don't see an issue w that I really don't know what to say

#like do yall think the star came from the flag? #and that's not even getting into everything I could say about this but. #anyway. people suck so bad #antisemitism #also I hope some of yall come get mad in my ask abt this bc it's a free blocklist #edit: turned off reblogs not bc anyone was rude or anything #but this feels like a post that will get quickly out of hand so I'm putting a Stop Sign at 360 notes lmao

[masakia]

Everyday I fight the urge of writing a destiel fic where everything is the same but Dean has a baby girl (the mother didn't want to be involved cause they were both young, like 24 maybe.) So Dean is like "well I guess I'm gonna parent this child now" and yeah he raised Sam and he did the best job he could with the circumstances they were given, but something about this little girl makes Dean wanna cry everytime he looks at her and thinks how he doesn't know how to give her a better life.

Anyway she would be two at the first season and Dean would put her hair up in silly hairstyles and Sam just has to reset himself when he enters the impala during the first episode and there is just baby stuff on the back seat.

When Cas shows up the baby gets attached to him really fast and Cas, who has never interacted with a baby before, holds her by the back of her clothes like she is a kitten.

#spn #fic concepts #destiel #I just think that Dean would love his child and give her everything he didn't have #and Cas would too #he just doesn't really know how to interact with her during the apocalypse times #but after he begins to understand emotions he just buy her toys on impulse #ans Dean is like #Where the fuck I'm going to put those toys? #and Cas just tells him to figure out and goes off to do angel stuff

[orcelito]

showing off the commission i got from @ruporas for my fic, In the Next Life!

i'm still so incredibly excited about this. it's been some months since the story event that caused these scars, but i wanted SO BADLY to be able to see what they'd actually Look like... & Here They Are.

ruporas rendered the scars So Well, i just cant stop Looking at them... there's a Fresh & a Healed version, which ruporas was kind enough to give me without additional charge (Thank U Again😭😭) so i get to see what it looks like at different stages.

Lichtenberg Figures. in terms of actual scarring, lightning strikes that people survive don't tend to leave permanent scars, but the lichtenberg figures that they (usually temporarily) leave behind are just So Cool... Now, what happens when you get someone who can survive an amount of electricity/lightning that would be Frankly Lethal to any normal human person?

This :]

#speculation nation #trigun #vash the stampede #vash #in the next life #itnl shit #itnl art #there's a certain amount of Suspension Of Disbelief surrounding this whole injury #do i think it's necessarily realistic? not really. but the fun thing about fiction (especially for a nonhuman character like vash) is #I Do What I Want. #and so i DID shoot him with (what shouldve been) a lethal amount of lightning and it DID leave him with (what wouldve been) 4th degree burn #but his healing ability is fucking insane so it really only put him out of commission for a week or so #functionally. he's still dealing with pain from it though (not that he's gonna admit That to anyone) but yeah #im so in love with how ruporas drew the scars overlapping. he mentioned he did research for it and MAN it really paid off #and. man. vash really does look Chewed the Fuck Up huh #ultimately tho just one more scar for the collection! it just happens to be.. the most extensive single scar lol #but he'll be fiiine he's totally fiiine (pay no attention to the world-weary look in his eyes)(he's totally fine guys everything is Fine) #alternate caption for this commission piece: Chewing on him Chewing on him Chewing on him #god ruporas's art is so fuckin good. best money ive ever spent

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The Start of the Truth [End of season 1]

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan jingyi #lan sizhui #a-qing #xiao xingchen #tulu xuanwu #And that's the end of season 1! 70 + (6 bonus) comics since I set out on this quest....and I would do it again B*) #I really wanted to push myself for this comic and make something pretty to really cap off this journey. #Art is actually very fun I love having a vision and making it into physical reality! Everyday I get a little better! Yippeee! #I never imagined I would have the kind of support I currently do as I've been making these comics #Hard to imagine I thought art was something I wouldn't have a shot at. Much less have the opportunity to have a community behind me #I want to keep growing and improving! I appreciate every single comment and tag and encouraging message! #I have a *fanart* folder. The me from a year ago could have never thought that could be a thing #Just...wow....thank you all so much for everything. I mean it more than I can put into words B'*)

[kedracka]

I decided to finish the sketchbook by drawing only in danmei, yes

#svsss #svsss fanart #the scum villain's self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen jiu #luo binghe #luo bingge #binqiu #I'm doing everything I can except summer internship for uni #which I put off as much as I can. #I just want to listen to music and draw all day #am I asking so much??????

[johnnyspells]

#candelaobscuraedit #mygifs #crit role spoilers #candela obscura spoilers #candela obscura #critical role #critroleedit #criticalroleedit #sean finnerty #auntie bee #starting off with the lighthearted moments (even though this is still twinged with a bit of sadness in reference) #i do love their dynamic #lbr marisha puts everything into her roles and im so grateful for it #so her and brennan? chefs kiss

[onaperduamedee]

Moiraine and Rand, alone again, naturally - 1x08 || 2x06

#The Wheel of Time #wot show spoilers #wotedit #wot on prime #moiraine damodred #rand al'Thor #wot s2 spoilers #wot season 2 spoilers #wheel of time s2 spoilers #wheel of time season 2 spoilers #mygifs: wot #you're a cool one #never not feral about them and all the parallels between them #it makes me so sad that yet again the both of them are going into this finale thinking they are better off without their friends #at some point someone will have to gently shake them and tell them they matter outside of how they can serve others #but hey today's not the day and I feel such a sad bean about them #what hurts the most with Moiraine is that she's so convinced there is no point in trying to make herself more palatable for others #she might burn everything and everyone as long as she can accomplish her purpose #and now she can't even do that #to say I'm worried about her is putting it mildly #Rand at least is drawn toward his friends because it makes him feel good still #light you can see the relief with Mat and the disappointment when Mat didn't turn up #Moiraine's just like 'I don't deserve anything good ever again' #although the Barty convo is a step in the right direction

[mozzaremi]

[brookheimer]

looking at the 'midseason trailer' and seeing roman fighting his siblings, roman shitting on gerri, roman working for fascists, roman walking proudly through ATN like logan did just two days prior... it's not surprising, but it is fucking sad.

logan's death will not free roman. instead, it will reforge the chains he's worn all his life, casting them in iron -- that's what roman deserves for thinking, for the first time in his life, that maybe he wants the chains off. that's what roman deserves for killing his father by not loving him enough, by not loving him correctly or at the right times. logan's death will not free roman at all. if anything, it will imprison him.

(as always, this got very long, so keep reading under the cut!)

this was the worst case scenario for roman. not just logan dying, but the exact way everything played out. he betrayed his siblings, he fired gerri -- for nothing. he could have been on the plane with his father in his last moments -- he refused. his last interaction with his father was leaving logan a voice message that called him a cunt -- the first time roman has ever, ever, questioned or stood up to his father, and also the last. we don't know what killed logan. we probably never will. but god if it won't feel awfully coincidental to roman: the one time he fought back against his father or even showed the slightest hint of doing so, his father died. is it likely that logan heard roman's voice memo and keeled over because he called him a cunt? no. but is it just as possible as anything else? entirely. roman might have killed his dad. roman murdered logan when he could've been on the plane with him holding his hand, if he were a good son. he didn't even tell logan he loved him. not that he needed to, it fucking oozed from his every pore and the desperate nature of that love was one of the reasons logan could never quite stand him -- but that's not the point. roman's one attempt at agency, at setting boundaries, at standing up for himself killed his fucking father.

logan dying would never have been good for roman, at least in his current state, no matter how the actual death came to pass. people often talk about abusive relationships as if the end-all-be-all fixer to abuse is independence, and it's not. independence isn't always enough to heal, especially not when it's forced upon you rather than something you choose. this is especially true for roman, i think. what roman needed was not just to gain his own independence, but to realize that independence and love are not mutually exclusive, that gaining one does not mean losing the other. logan's always hammered in roman's weakness, his wrongness; roman was never someone who deserved to be loved on his own terms. roman's never considered himself to be someone with agency and authority in his relationships -- he's been told over and over again that he isn't a real person, that there's something deeply wrong and unfixable in him, and he believes it. he's never set boundaries with his father or even his siblings because i don't think he really realizes he has the power to do that. he's simply there until people decide they no longer have use for him or want him around, and he'll always come crawling back after a kick because he doesn't realize he's not on a leash -- that he doesn't need to be on a leash. independence has been unreachable all his life, he isn't normal or real enough to be a real normal independent capable person, but if he grovels and shows his use enough, then maybe he can be loved. but his dependence and loyalty is all he's good for. independence means no love, no family, no relationships. and roman desperately wants, needs, those relationships in a way that none of the other characters do (or at least can admit to) -- he wants his father in his life, no matter what; he wants his siblings in his life, no matter what. but independence, being his own person, separating himself from logan's side means he'd lose everything else, everyone else. he's not good for anything anyways. it's not like he has other options.

...until the start of season four. that's why this is all so tragic -- more than anyone else, it seemed like roman was on the road to healing. it seemed like he was finally realizing that independence and love might not be as mutually exclusive as he's been made to think: maybe he could be independent while still having a relationship with his siblings and even his father. maybe he could have his cake and eat it too. he's realized that he's capable, that he has his own worth, and that he can be successful without living under logan's thumb -- and, more importantly, could still text him on his birthday and try to rebuild a relationship, this time outside of business. outside of "that room" in waystar royco. an actual fucking family relationship. that's what escaping the cycle would look like for roman — not complete separation, not a metaphorical killing of his father, but the ability to live alongside him, to have a life outside of him, to love his father without living for him. so simply removing logan from the equation wouldn’t help roman, not when what he needs most is to realize that self-respect is not mutually exclusive with love, that being your own person isn’t a betrayal, that family and love aren’t dependent on how low you can kneel and won’t be whisked away the moment you stand up. and for the first time in his life, it seemed like he was on track to discovering this. maybe he and the siblings could have the hundred, logan could keep going with atn, and in a few years down the line they'd all get together to talk shop and joke around and coexist -- for the first time, he had started to think of himself as enough of a real, okay person to be allowed to coexist with his family, rather than naturally subordinating himself in every interaction.

roman could’ve been his own person, could’ve escaped the cycle, could’ve started a business with his siblings and tried to heal, but now he won’t. he can’t. roman can’t become his own person now, not when his first attempt to do so is exactly what killed logan. it’s his fault. he fucked up and now there’s no dad. he gained his independence, but at what cost? love. that’s the cost. it always has been and always will be. nothing could be more detrimental to roman roy than the exact series of events that occurred in this episode, because just as he started to see a world beyond his father, logan dies -- proving once and for all that the only world beyond logan is one without him in it at all. that’s been roman’s fear all along and why he’s stuck so close to his side: roman loves and loves and loves and is terrified, terrified, of death. of loss. but in a moment of 'weakness,' roman wobbled (he tried to stand up to logan rather than just taking the kicks as he's supposed to, as he always has), and his father paid the ultimate price. there’s no more dad. there’s no reviving him.

…unless, of course, there is. unless roman can undo his error by choosing his father again, and again, and again. becoming logan is the closest roman can get to resurrecting him, after all. and besides, doesn’t he owe it to dad after killing him? after calling him a cunt, choosing not to be with him on that plane he ended up dying on? after forgetting to even say “i love you dad” before the end? roman needs to fix things. needs to make it like dad's still here. needs to make it like he didn't kill his own father by refusing him for the first time in his life. so roman will be the firebreather logan wanted -- he'll do ATN, he'll push for mencken, he'll do whatever it fucking takes to try and make things right. if it's his fault logan's no longer here, then he needs to do everything he possibly can to fulfill his dying wishes, to do what logan would've done, were he alive.

"dad can't die, he's dad." he can't ever die. he's immortal, and his immortality was solidified by the circumstances of his death -- logan will not die. he’ll live on in roman, as roman.

roman will make sure of it.

#to clarify -- i do not think this is roman's endgame. i Hope it is not his endgame. i just think based on the previews and everything we #know about both him and the upcoming episodes... i think this is where his arc is heading for now. and it will be UNBEARABLE to watch #i'm hoping things get better by the end. that there's reconciliation and an ending open enough to allow for a slim possibility of future #healing. but as of right now... i think things are going to get a lot - a LOT - fucking worse before they get better (if they get better..) #k it's 1:30 am i haven't read over this at all so fair warning there. but yeah. told yall i had a lot of thoughts re: what this might do to #roman. hats off to jesse armstrong for creating the literal worst situation imaginable for him. fucking ingenious. i too love putting this #sad little man in situations! but yeah. gonna be watching thru my hands but eating it up while weeping etc etc etc #succession #succession spoilers #roman roy #succession meta #succession s4 #connor's wedding #logan roy #casey shut the fuck up about roman roy #100 #500 #succession speculation

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i always hate it when someone walks in while i’m pants-less and watching my prisoner from an unreasonable number of old tvs surrounding me in the floor :/

dnkinktober day 6: voyerism

#death note #death note fanart #l lawliet #and technically #light yagami #even if i put exactly 0 effort into drawing him on the screens #lawlight #my art #dnkinktober #i actually wasn’t planning on doing anything for today #but this image appeared in my mind while working on tomorrow’s stuff so i just had to indulge #plus i love doing this sketchy style #and these colors #i have been healed from my day that wasn’t actually bad but everything was just slightly off #sketching L w/o pants ftw #have i just drawn L so far for kinktober #yikesssssss #i meant to do more than just him and i will #L is just so natural to draw atp #fun fact: L isn’t my fav i just draw him a lot #my fav is light yagami. bc me and him are the same person adn i want to beat him to death :) #but something about him does not compute with drawing in my brain #anyways *drops this in your lap and leaves*

[ctl-yuejie]

"It will just end how it started"

#only friends the series #only friends #ofts #neo trai #mark pakin #i am living for them #glad nick found out in ep 3 and we have now a bunch of episodes of them just making everything worse for each other #nick really worked so hard on keeping boston i want to hug him #his proud smile after jerking boston off ;A; #and he tries to voice when he is uncomfortable and at the same time already realizes that boston is very much not on the same page #and my boy is already escelating listening in on the car sex #possible intended the bug for other reasons but baby - do not put yourself through hearing the whole thing in stereo....you could already #see them from the outside #have to had it to boston: he really nearly doesn't care at all about getting seen #p'jojo getting in his tweet <3 #it is very telling that nick clearly knows who boston is but in his mind their encounters are just a tad more romantic with a focus on the #kissing they are doing and not so much the sex itself #fyi: i saved these gif files under the ship name 'tonnic'

[demynom]

The thing about the ffvii remakes is that you will enjoy them more if you’ve played the original. You will also hate them more if you’ve played the original. It is impressive.

#I’m never going to be over shinra manor. everything about it sucks ass in rebirth. #where’s the ambience. where’s the suspense. where’s the literally anything. #oh wow cool you’ve put a clusterfuck of furniture everywhere to show the disrepair….cool…? oh you’ve blocked off the stairs. #oh you’ve added. a pristine elevator. #directly next to the entrance. #to ferry you to the plot. #me foolishly: ah maybe in the return visit there will be more #no. #go to the elevator. #endure the worst mini game goofy ass dungeon you’ve ever had the displeasure of experiencing #they quite literally sucked every bit of atmosphere from nibelheim on a level I did not know was possible. holy shit. #like I’m just. in awe. #they don’t even pretend to make it unsettling. they’re just like ‘yup and here’s beloved nibelheim where things are generally chill’ #like. they didn’t even do a bad job of portraying the Incident. so why then did they decide to remove all nuance. #WHY IS THERE A HOJO HOLOGRAM THERE TO TAUNT YOU. #Ffvii rebirth spoilers #ffvii #ffviir #final fantasy vii

[satuwn]

having adhd, i realized its such a silly jester disorder.. like what do you MEAN when i want to do something but someone else Tells me to do that thing i already wanted to do, my brain will turn around and be like 'fuck YOU in particular' and then i dont want to do it anymore. are you Kidding?!

#this might not be part of adhd for everyone ofc #but its like. i still want to do the thing. but. everything in me screams we WILL put this off however long we can #saturn says #adhd #also dont come for me this post is intentionally silly ofc there is other much harder things me and other ppl with adhd struggle with #just covering my bases

[solargeist]

in my ending of the dsmp, wilbur finds out abt exile and captures dream, dragging him back to that sorrow filled sand and trades him to XD, the revival book in human form, XD loves his rules so he accepts. XD turns dream into a portal to Limbo, where wilbur gets to see ghostbur eye to eye.

They get to talk, 'i thought you hated me.' 'i could never hate you'.

wilbur wakes up in the sand alone, but with a fullness in his chest.

He makes amends with who he can, he leaves the door open and the window cracked. He rebuilds Lmanberg with his friends and family, on the side of the crater, homes line the walls with ladders, stairs, and porches. There are long tunnels expanding out to other nations, other homes and towns, they trade together, they visit.

Hes not president, he doesn't want to be, theres no cabinet, just people. Tommys taken on the leader role, keeping the history alive is important to him, Wilburs proud of him, and he knows when he leaves, theres something to always come back to

its not perfect, things never will be, but its their life, a life they've dug out of the mud and polish everyday.

#as much as i love ghostburrrr i like the idea of a bittersweet ending? to be wilbur's soul. to be put back together #he has a somewhat.. Fern ending? Just promise to plant me there. #this is just from a wilburians pov ok this is abt wilbur idk how anyone else is doing #that one scene from steven universe where steven dances with his diamond self ? THATS WILBUR AND GHOSTBUR!!!!!!!! #*The reason why I imagine XD being at Exile is bc he is drawn to misery. he feeds off it. #i know theres the whole realm thing with karl but shshshshsh #i also like hte idea of Tommy fitting into a ''president/leader'' role without any official title or anything- #-bc of how he was told ''you'll never be president'' in pogtopia and told he doesnt have a home in exile #anyway this whole idea also ties back into Hamiliton. FORGIVENESS. CAN YOU IMAGINE!!!!!!! #lmanberg was everything i miss her SHE DIDNT DESERVE IT .... #commune lmanberg for the win......