#quarantine struggles

[songpasserine]

today I was chilling vodka in my freezer to depression-drink alone, and then I remembered I can just leave! I drove straight for the woods, with a picnic blanket and snacks and poetry and a narnia coloring book. and it didn’t make the sadness go away entirely but it reminded me how much I like myself, how much I love the world. there’s no moral to this story but I hope you get the chance to read a good poem or eat your favorite candy or find some beautiful flowers or see a funny raccoon this week. I hope we all get to live in peace and grow up together

#thinking about that poll about whether your 12 year old self would like you #very sentimental about my little nebulous tumblr girl gang all struggling to find our way through adulthood together and build good lives #sometimes I feel like I’m still in a quarantine mindset where I CAN’T leave and I have to STAY sad. but I can literally leave!!!!!

[calwasfound]

hypixel parkour housing is the 10th circle of hell

#cal doodles #these deserved to go on main tbh #i used to parkour for hours every day during quarantine #i could do ladder jumps with ease #and now i struggle to do a double neo #did all of these in 20 minutes. i do not want to study for my chem midterm

[clonerightsagenda]

The goddess Hera is jealous. (Or at least described as such. I think it’s pretty reasonable to be annoyed that your husband keeps chasing after everything under the sun, even if she punishes the wrong people for it.) Hera the AI doesn’t have a lot of opportunities to be jealous, but she’s insecure, dislikes being left out, and is resentful of the others’ ability to leave her behind, so I think she’d be a natural. My brother is the family cat’s favorite, and the first time he came home from college with his partner our cat was furious and sulked in front of the door every time they were in a room together. I can see Hera reacting similarly. Dominik is trying to catch up with his wife while a powerful superintelligence broods overhead about it. She tells him not to worry about it but he’s kind of intimidated.

#Hera's lack of familiarity with a lot of kinds of human relationships #and being used to having everyone work out their drama in front of her does not help with this #Minkowski: Could I please have some time alone with my husband? #Hera: Why?? What can't you say to each other in front of us??? #Jacobi who is still stuck in mandatory post mission quarantine with them for the sake of this joke alone: #Yeah Minkowski what can't you say to each other in front of us #is Hera jealous of a toddler? possibly it's complicated #perpetual perpetual ladies night #me thinking up ppln content: if nothing else I can always find something to say about hera #wolf 359 #the thing is some of the crewmembers have other people but Hera doesn't #the stress of knowing just because people are the most important people to YOU #doesn't mean you're the most important person to THEM #and while that is something everyone has to struggle with to some degree #Hera has a tendency to lash out about things #Minkowski: this is my husband #Hera: I hate him. why couldn't we all stay in space together until we die #is this post kind of an aro mood? maybe yeah what about it

[greeds]

if ur picking the last option PLEASE GO BUY SOME CHEAP LIL PLANTS IF U GOT THE FUNDS, I CAN GIVE U TIPS. ADVICE. WORDS OF WISDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i struggle to quarantine mine bc of my room size n how i gotta place the furniture akdnskkdkd #but i make do!!! usually ill bunch some of my older ones together to make enough space for the new ones to chill at a distance #for like 2-3 weeks

[sparklecookiez]

Still dying in my bed. 😭 someone cashapp me so I can get chicken noodle soup from wawa? 🥺🤧 $kittenkandyy

#covid struggles #quarantine #here i lay dying

[figureofdismay]

i need more post firewalker 30 day quarantine fics to read :c

#favorite genre rn honestly #and post darkness falls too #lock em in a room together for weeks at a time! forced domesticity! #idgi 'stranded together'/'captured together' fics are such a staple in sam/jack land i expected quarantine MSR fics to be way more popular #i've enjoyed the ones i've read but.... sure there are more? #tbh i'm struggling to remember how to use gossamer so that's part of it probably #i remember reading one like 20 years ago that I really enjoyed and i haven't found it again yet #scully was trying to spend the time writing a paper about their experience from a pure science pov #and mulder was trying to get her to decerebralize and spend time with him #icr if it was post Darkness Falls or post Firewalker -- or maybe it was an AU quarantine event? maybe that's why i haven't seen it? #anyway! it's scully's first case back post abduction and it it's *that* and then they're put in lockdown for 30 days! the possibilities!

[fishybehavior]

I am so jealous and angry rn, and I have no good reason to be

#i suck at making friends #i cant even talk to anyone consistently here #let alone in the real world #im so jelous of everyone here who has frie ds and talk consistently with their friends #im so jealous of my brother who has always struggled to make friends that he now has so many #and i know i can fix this if i just TALK TO PEOPLE #but i also cant get myself to fucking care and i hate it #i hate it so fucking much that i cant get myself to do shit #tw rant #rant #i just #i feel exhausted talking to people #like i realize halfway through our conversation i just dont want to talk anymore #even if im enjoying the conversation #it might've been quarantine and moving in the start of it #and maybe i just haven't talked to people (besides my job) ery much for like 2 years #and maybe its like a muscle i have to train #but idk how to anymore #tw oversharing #oversharing

[jona-the-whale]

a struggling quarantine babe // pt. 2

#quarantine babe #queer babe #boy #gay boy #gay ftm #transgender #transisbeautiful #trans visibility #top surgery #ftm hrt #testosterone #hot twink #hot jock #self portrait #gay boy selfie #struggling #mental health #anxienty #gimme love #finally caught covid #quarantine #berlin

[amkgal]

Hnnnngggggggg wanna go back on discord.

But if I go I will spoil like. 99% of what I'm working on.

And I don't wanna do that.

But uggggghhhhhh... Brain why is progress the only thing you want to talk about??????

#Too many projects #no way to keep brain from spoiling all of them #so here I sit #trying my best to finish like. 10ish fics? #IDK I don't want to count #I refuse to get rid of any of them #they are my children #I am just. I am just struggling not to blather these plots to my coworkers who don't play bug fables #on the discord? spoiled in an instant #Spoiler Self Quarantine

[1smolbean]

the spider has been gently transported outside so she can live her best spider life outdoors and not worry about getting eaten by a grumpy indoor cat

#lee speaks #my cat isnt usually grumpy she’s just very stressed #because my mom has the plague and thus is quarantining #and her bedroom has a bathroom attached to it which is where the cat’s litterbox is #so the litterbox has been relocated to the living room #which is a Whole Thing bc my cat and my brother’s cat are having some sort of power struggle related to the hierarchy of our indoor pets #i will elaborate later but shits been getting real and it’s A Lot #including some very weird displays of power???? namely one eating the other’s food #and my brother’s cat using my cat’s litterbox which is like. less weird but she’s super territorial about it???? #like girl that’s not your bathroom please go shred some curtains and stop hissing at everybody #anyway yes spider safe

[jedi-bird]

I have a chance at finding a finger lime tree today. It's a very small chance; the garden center that advertised it only has a few locations the sell citrus trees left and each location only ever used to receive a few. This is the first chance I've had to go look. If I don't find it, it's not a big deal. I'll find one eventually. Might have to order it from far away and wait for it to quarantine, but I'll figure it out.

#adventures in gardening #i had a chance to buy one six years ago when i first started this garden but was still struggling to keep things alive so i waited #then they disappeared from stores until now and most of that places stopped selling citrus trees #due to a pest that they're trying to contain and quarantine regulations most places don't want to deal with it #there's a online nursery that will ship to my area but it's much more expensive so they're a last resort #at least i got my yuzu before my favorite store stopped carrying them

[theculturedmarxist]

In 2020, Robert Kuciemba, a woodworker in San Francisco was infected with covid by a co-worker after his Nevada-based Victory Woodworks transferred a number of sick workers to the San Francisco site for a few months. 

Through the proceedings of the case it turns out that the employer knew some employees might be sick but they transferred them anyway and ignored a San Francisco ordinance in place at the time to quarantine suspected covid cases.

Kuciemba was subsequently infected and he then infected his wife, who ended up in ICU on a ventilator.

The California Supreme Court just ruled against Kuciemba on the basis that a victory, while, in the court's words, "morally" the right thing to do, would create "dire financial consequences for employers" and cause a "dramatic expansion of liability" to stop the spread of covid.

There’s a few stunning details to note in this case. First, the court agreed that there is no doubt the company had ignored the San Francisco health ordinance. In other words, they accepted the company had broken the law. And then concluded “yeah, but, capitalism.”

Secondly, the case was so obviously important to the struggle between capitalism and mass infection that the US Chamber of Commerce, the largest business lobbying organisation got involved and helped the company with its defence. Remember, this is a tiny company in a niche industry. The involvement of the biggest business lobbyists in the country tells us a lot about the importance of the principle they knew was at stake.

Thirdly, the defence of the company is very telling. They said “There is simply no limit to how wide the net will be cast: the wife who claims her husband caught COVID-19 from the supermarket checker, the husband who claims his wife caught it while visiting an elder care home." 

Well, exactly. Capitalism couldn’t survive if employers were liable for covid infections contracted in the workplace, and the ripple effect of those infections. And they know it. 

This case is something of a covid smoking gun, revealing what we always suspected but had never seen confirmed in so many words: the public health imperative of controlling a pandemic virus by making employers liable for some of that control is, and always must be, secondary to capitalist profit. 

This ruling is also saying out loud what has been obvious to anyone paying attention for the last two years: employers don’t have a responsibility to keep your family safe from covid. You have that responsibility. And if you give a family member covid that you caught at work and they get sick or die – even if it was a result of law-breaking by your employer – that’s on you buddy.

It is the same old capitalist story: the shunting of responsibility for ills that should be shared across society, including employers in that society, onto individuals.

This ruling essentially helps codify workplace mass infection and justifies it as necessary for the smooth functioning of capitalism.

This is not new. This is where the ‘just a cold’ and the ‘mild' narrative came from. It came from doctors and healthcare experts whose first loyalty was to capitalism. Not to public health. To money, not to lives. Abetted by media who uncritically platformed them.

While this ruling tells us little that we couldn’t already see from the public policy approach of the last two years, it is revealing (and to some extent validating) to see it confirmed by the highest law of the land in the United States. 

#covid 19 #capitalism #eugenics #class war

[inutaffy]

cheryl pissing me OFFFFFF

"we'll go but we're keeping our jackets."

"fine, but i need that egg back." (they stole a glamorge egg from the lodges)

"come again??"

"you need to give me that damn egg or Veronica won't give us the protection contract."

"why the hell would i care? i'm not a serpent anymore."

"because I believe that you still have honor, Cheryl. and it's getting cold out. and the rest of us don't get to go back to Thistlehouse."

#thistlehouse is her cushy mansion where she lives by herself bc her mom is a bitch #she gave the egg up btw thank fuck #cheryl was saying all that in front of toni i'd be pissed as fuck if i was her gf #the protection contract was to give serpents jobs bc they've been struggling since the quarantine

[plague-of-nice]

My thursday in-campus classes are so funny with just 15mins in between

Bc I gotta do a mad dash triathlon to get from one building to the other

#joie ponders #not saying this in a bad way per se. even if ik my post-quarantine butt will deffo struggle KBDJDJDJHDJD #considering thw time in the morning. it's literally just a morning jog no worries

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i miss hanging out w puppies

#we were potentially gonna foster some but shit came up #they were cute too. little German shepherd puppies #im gonna be quarantined in the basement for break now so my brain is just kinda. focusing on the puppy pictures in my camera role ig #the trauma is coming back to bite me babes #when u don’t see anyone for over a month and finally pull ur finger out bc it’s not healthy to be isolated n instead the responses to trauma #which uve been beating back with a stick so you don’t #become agoraphobic but instead shit happens and the trauma responses get More Intense #fingers crossed im one of those people who mysteriously don’t get covid even with close contacts but ive done that more than once already #and i don’t think ill be that lucky again. i hope so and i pray so but im being logical about this #also though a bunch of stuff i need for college is gonna be pushed back too which. not sure what im gonna do about that #im most upset though because i won’t be able to celebrate Chanukah with my family. or alone really. i kinda struggle to touch or interact #with certain things because i feel dirty and don’t want to touch them if i could be sick bc covid already took enough from me and affected #enough in my life so it’s not right for important objects or my religious practices to have to potentially come in contact with it #yes i understand that’s deeply illogical and also a relatively unhealthy mindset but i already had one of my favourite holidays taken from #me so let me have my trauma and unhealthy mindsets at least #i get to watch a lot of hockey and if i feel ok im gonna study but at least ive kept up with a lot of the covid studies and news so i know #that i have to take it obnoxiously easy to reduce my risk of long covid #especially because i love what i do but im able to do that only because i know how to work with my body properly in order to succeed #while still being disabled even in more physical situations #im also more at risk for long covid because i already have issues. gdwilling if i get it i’ll be fine after but if im not then it could #literally fuck up my entire life plan and life course el oh el #so anyway. #vent tw #covid tw #when ur staying in the basement where you stayed when ur dad first got sick so almost every memory of ur dad having covid and continuing to #get worse is tied to where u have to stay for all of break. im totally normal and definitely not reliving the worst two months of my life

[hugoweavingbaskets]

Just had to euthanize one of my fish aghghggghhgghgghhgh. This is the first time Ive had to do it and it was quite unpleasant haha. I tried to incorporate the clove oil slowly over 5 minutes like the internet says but she was gasping at the surface so I feel like i did it wrong.

I'd been putting it off because I felt like doing it meant I didn't do enough to save her but there's no way she wasn't suffering

Get some rest little one 💙

#wdip #wdip fish #she was really sick #looked like the fish version of what chronic wasting disease does to deer #really hard to watch #i have to leave her in the bucket for a half hour to make sure shes dead and then im gonna sanitize all that equipment #i wish i could have done more for her but she was really struggling #hoping thisll give her some peace #pet death #hey so um this week sucks #id like another one please #on the plus side this clears up my hospital tank so i can start quarantining some corys #the ground isnt frozen solid so thats good #i know my Corys have gotten more anxious since the last one died #i assume it died #i have no idea where it went #overnight it went from 5 to 4 #anyway adding more corys will help them feel safer so this is good to have that process started