#queenofpastel

[our-pastel-queen]

I live!

I havent been on in months [or updated my fic] but i might pop up every so often. Im working on my next chapter of “No Laughing Matter” so expect that soon ish!

#noirfox #queenofpastel #scarecrow #writing is hell #writing this scene is so hard #i cant believe ive used that tag before #why is writing casual romance so hard? #My brain rejects fluff

[dorkydinosaur]

again, such a wonderful weekend with ma favourite boi😻😘 Moviepark for the win💪🏻 #bestboyfriend #selfie #usbeingcute #usbeingsilly #iloveyou #💘💘💘💘💘 #moviepark #queenofpastel #couplegoals💑 #lel #bunny https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo7fxVDiIF6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=14dt0belws9zc

#bestboyfriend #selfie #usbeingcute #usbeingsilly #iloveyou #💘💘💘💘💘 #moviepark #queenofpastel #couplegoals💑 #lel #bunny

[our-pastel-queen]

Someone stop me from following people just cause i think they’re cute I’m pan this’ll never end!!

#pansexual memes #pansexaul #queenofpastel #someone stop me

[our-pastel-queen]

Halp me Decide

Starting to write fics again because my family is steadily leaving me be, but im stuck between three ideas.

Persona 5 fanfic Scarecrow fanfic ive been sitting on for months And a YOI one First two would involve an OC but YOI one would probably be more of a songfic/drabble type thing. Anyone see anything they’d actually read??

#Halp #writing is hell #ao3 #decide for me #im indecisive #NoirFox #queenofpastel

[our-pastel-queen]

Not gonna lie ableism normally doesnt get to me much, but with this virus so many people are assuming that everyone in danger is older. Im sorry that just because im 20 means automatically that I won’t die if I catch this. Sure, being young will just gloss over all my issues, mental or otherwise. It just irks me

#coronavirus #covid19 #ableism #shit abled people say #queenofpastel

[our-pastel-queen]

Me: Ah, i should work on the next part of my fanfic!!

My Brain: But wait I have this really cool idea we cant use for a lonnnng time

Me: Okay, but like, next chapter ideas first, alright? My Brain: But this SCENE

#plez help #writing is hell #queenofpastel #fanfic struggles #this is why it takes me forever to do anything #my brain

[our-pastel-queen]

Internal Screaming!! (The good kind tho!!)

So as some people know I have an AO3 account named Noir_Fox, and as of about 5 minutes ago I posted my first fanfic! Since getting into the Scarecrow fandom a few weeks [months?] ago I’ve fallen into a rut of wanting to make a fanfic but never having the time, then the pandemic happened. So now, with much more free time, I have made one of my goals a reality and posted a fanfic onto AO3 called “No Laughing Matter”. It’s a Jonathan Crane/OC fanfic and so far I’ve uploaded my shortest prepped chapter for just a small taste of my OC and her relationship with Jonathan. I’m hoping to upload more in the coming weeks, and am super open to any suggestions for chapters from anyone who reads it! Here’s the link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/24936439/chapters/60353980

#queenofpastel #ao3 #scarecrow #fanfiction

[our-pastel-queen]

Why learning at home is hard sometimes

So, I’ve done cyber school before yes, but this is college and my courses are hard. I also have OCD and need things to be a certain way when I take a test or write an essay. This makes learning at home an interesting time, because one day nobody will bug me and then the next it seems like im covered in neon signs saying, “Talk to me”. Today I had a few lectures to listen to and an exam, pretty easy right? Well, if its quiet and nobody talks to me, yes. So...that being said.

WHEN I SAY “HEY GUYS IM ABOUT TO TAKE AN EXAM CAN YOU BE QUIET” WHY DID ONLY ONE PERSON OUT OF THE FOUR OF US HERE LISTEN!?

I should not have people standing in my damn doorway having an LOUD conversation that didn’t need to happen with someone two rooms away. THAT IS NOT OKAY These are the same people who will immediately question me if im not “in class” until dinner-time So im balls-deep in this exam, can’t focus, and I’m being timed. Guess what? My anxiety is through the roof, and yet people decide to come INTO MY ROOM until the one person who actually listened to me told them to leave. I should not have to deal with people talking about “OH HOWS YOUR BOYFRIEND TODAY? OH THATS GOOD HOW’S YOUR GAME GOING?” when im trying to remember what accountants need to know during an economic crisis [special unit for topical relevance, woo] SO, if any parents are reading this, just know, WE ARE WORKING HARD PLEASE RESPECT OUR BOUNDARIES.

#queenofpastel #quarantine #cyber school #school from home #parents of tumblr #are there any parents here? #Idk anymore #ocd #exams suck

[our-pastel-queen]

How did i get here?

You ever just zone out so hard that you forget what lead you do what you’re currently doing? Last thing i remember is having my bio textbook open, writing a chapter summary for class, you know, like a good student. Next thing i know im scrolling through this black-hole of a website with a spoonful of peanut butter in my mouth.Like....what happened?

#delicious tho #student life #zone out #queenofpastel #peanutbutter #textbooks be boring

[our-pastel-queen]

I cant wait till my online classes start again on Monday, because i cant type anything in this house without someone asking “Oh, who are you typing away to?”

Like what am i supposed to say??? Fanfiction isnt a person so like?? I can only use the scholarship paper excuse for so long

#queenofpastel #fanfic struggles #writers on tumblr

[our-pastel-queen]

Introduction~

Hello! I’m here to reblog trash and occasionally plug my AO3 account, NoirFox, which doesn't have any fics on it since i’m too scared to post any yet.

I’m big into DC and Marvel comics, pastel aesthetics, true crime/mysteries, way too many youtube fandoms to count, medical documentaries, writing, and all the anime/manga you can imagine.

#intro post #ao3 #halp how do i tag #im just trash i swear #queenofpastel

[our-pastel-queen]

Writing is hard, but since its spooky month i’m so desperately trying to update No Laughing Matter twice. Once for the next chapter, mostly plot heavy which hurts, and then once for halloween-y crack. I don’t promise anything, but let’s try this out

#;w; #writing is hell #fanfic struggles #noirfox #queenofpastel #plot hurts to write #why am i like this

[our-pastel-queen]

My house: Several people are busy so you’ll actually be alone for once Me: I should use this time to write! I have so many ideas! My Brain: hmmm, but what about your headache? Me: What headache? My Body: Oop, my bad, missed my cue, here ya go

#why must the gods forsake me #queenofpastel #fanfiction #fanfic struggles #ao3 #its also hot as balls today #so there's that #imma just put this here #and go lay down #writing is hell

[our-pastel-queen]

Finals are next week and honestly im filled with a pit of dread, anxiety, and relief more powerful than other semesters. Usually I only feel these emotions so strongly because I have to deal with leaving my found-family at school and coming home to this one that doesn’t respect my boundaries, but I’ve already had to leave them, so why? I think its just a purely academic reason, I don’t have my professors friendly faces or words of affirmation to guide me through this next week. I feel as though these passed few weeks I have been stumbling through my classes, needing extra help that just isn’t there, so a final exam feels almost cruel to me. Im scared of failing, because my family will hold it against me. Im scared that school might not open up next semester, so this will all happen again. Im eager to get it over with so I can work on cosplays and other projects. But, most of all, I’m sad I can’t be with my friends and loved ones this next week as I was before I know that my situation could be worse, and I’m thankful everyday that I am still breathing, but my mind keeps wishing to wake up and have this all be some kind of weird dream.

#queenofpastel #quarantine #college finals #finals week #rip to us #online tests means prof. quizlett coming in handy #someone stop me

[our-pastel-queen]

Being someone sensitive to loud noises stuck in a house with someone who only, exclusively, makes loud noises is making this quarantine thing so hard. Every five minutes my panic response flares up because they’re slamming their hand on a table or yelling at someone

I just cant wait until this is over and I can go somewhere quiet again

#queenofpastel #quarantine

[our-pastel-queen]

This whole quarantine thing is really hard on me, since i normally have such a strong connection to nature. Like, every time i hear the birds outside I can feel my whole body just wanting to be out there

Then i remember i live in a city and only have like a tiny patch of grass to call a yard.

#queenofpastel #quarantine #who woulda thought #the girl who always reblogs birds likes nature #witchy vibes #I also enjoy flowers for the record #but birds are where its at