#queer musings

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Looking back, I desperately wish the concept of non-binary gender was something I knew about when growing up. Like maybe I wouldn't have gone through such an intense "not like other girls" phase as a kid if I knew that "not like other girls" was a wider option.

#nonbinary #i was always the butchiest girl and preferred to spend time with dudes because then I was able to be tough #i was about as genderfucky as you could get away with in the boonies #wearing my one suit to all the dances and shit like that #so i didn't want to be a girl as it was defined for me #and did not want to become a woman like my mother #but I also knew I didn't want to be a dude either #i just wanted to be comfortably me #which i am still working on to this day #but anyway I wish that I could have started examining what the concept of nonbinary could mean for me much much earlier in life #queer #queer musings

[ghostlyerlkonig]

Really love being a lesbian and a dyke (and a fag a lot of the time) but more of a dyke in other people's perception of what those labels mean and represent post the lesbian feminist and terf heavy years and the straights taking to lesbian meaning one Really femme one and one femme with a "boy cut" that they don't think about them having sex and a dyke being a butch, the one with tits who can work a saw, an undesirable, a carpet/muff muncher, a deviant, a punk, etc. so i use dyke more, i understand for me lesbian is not just an attraction to femmes, the attraction to masculinity is there and therefore people who are often excluded despite claims of "enbys are included" would make people question it but, But they're the same in my head because i can remember the one old butch i had a real conversation with about the words and what lesbian means Internally and that all that matters is that the words I use make me feel like home because that's important.

#queer #i use queer a lot too #but dyke... is home #queer musings #lesbian #dyke #butch dyke #and not to say i am not attracted to femmes lmao #but mascs......... make a dog out of me #my train of thought is more of a minecart in an abandoned mine

[moddieeee]

If I literally hadn't just gone and written an insane thesis for my friends a week ago of the very much theoretical queer reading/viewing of Hayley's relationship with gender presentation over the years with her finally being able to present femininity in a way she's comfortable with and has full control over which in turn allows her to explore ways she can present that grubby boy aesthetic she very much loves in a way that isn't to either counter the femme aesthetics or to prove the point that "she's not like other girls, so she's allowed in the boys club"

#Why yes #I will post my own Twitter screencaps. #anyway i have OPINIONS #text #queer musings #paramore #hayley williams

[fagtasmogoria]

there is holiness in faggotry, in depravity, in sin, and when you realize all these can coexist together you are freed from any shame you might have

#gothic horror #queer horror #queer musings

[ilona-mushroom]

Cis men and women will never have half the swag of their trans siblings

#personal #queer musings

[plucky-passerine]

The concept of coming out is a weird one I think, and a lot more complex than people realize.

I don’t really “come out” to people in the traditional sense. I tend to actively seek out queer-friendly places and those places tend, by default, to attract other queer folks, so most of my friends either assume I’m also queer or don’t blink an eye when I mention my pronouns or attraction to multiple genders.

And if I’m not in a queer-friendly space, I stay more or less closeted. I haven’t come out in an official nature to anyone in years, and at this point I don’t plan on ever doing so again.

At the same time, “coming out” isn’t always an event. It’s not always an announcement or a pulling aside like you’re sharing a secret. Sometimes it’s just correcting people when they misgender me or mentioning my past girlfriend or making an offhand remark about my identity. In this way, the concept that I am continuously coming out to people is a very real one to me.

Most of the time it doesn’t really feel that way. Most of the time I’m comfortable enough that it just feels like part of my identity, no different than “coming out” about having cats or majoring in English.

But sometimes I’m not comfortable, and sometimes I have to make the very real decision whether to disclose those aspects of myself for the sake of authenticity or whether to keep those things private for my own safety.

So no, I’m never Coming Out again. But I am always coming out, and I don’t think that’s going to change any time soon.

#plucky squawks #queer musings #queer politics #coming out #tdov

[amateurletariat]

Being trans is like being a secret menu item at a fast food place

We're there, we exist, even if you don't know about us

In fact, you could say that without knowledge that the secret menu is even an option, some people would never know, and maybe not ever discover a part of themselves in that way

And just because some end up becoming aware and end up going to that 'spectrum' of the menu doesn't mean it's an epidemic, either

Stop trying to take us off the menu just because you don't like what's being served. You have other options

#the menu here is the menu of knowledge #'ordering' is learning #etc. #random thoughts I haven't fully fleshed out #being trans be like #queer musings

[tinystepsforward]

idk how many of you remember this but a few years ago tumblr ran a universally panned ad campaign for (us american) pride month that went "the gayest place on the internet".

well someone planning that campaign dropped in to ask the queer automatticians for advice on that and universally me and the other trans people involved were like "don't do it. i am so serious. don't do it. people on tumblr won't understand that it wasn't automattic who instituted the porn ban, or they will, but they'll recognize that automattic hasn't done anything, hands tied or not, to reverse it. nobody will like this. it will be a disaster." and they thanked us for our thoughts and went ahead with it anyway and then had to do retrospectives about how badly it went and were like "we just didn't know" and [gestures] yeah [edit: i think the person who rbed saying it was queerest place on the internet was right, my brain is fried, sorry! and that's... even worse lmao]

#tony muses #hello new followers. for clarity if you are expecting intense amounts of goss about tumblr specifically i am not your person #when automattic first acquired tumblr they asked queer staff who wanted to transfer over to something that was dear to a lot of us #and i specifically did not want to shit where i eat so to speak #which was the right choice. i just have other info about automattic more generally

[peppers-ghost-posts]

I guess all sexuality and gender labels are just attempts to describe and define my feelings.

It’s not a label that tells me who I am, it’s a descriptor of what I’m feeling in this moment.

#personal #queer musings

[ksfoxwald]

(Crossposting from Twitter to get my thoughts out in longform.

One of the writers I follow put forth a question to their transmasc asking what sort of representation they wanted to see in fiction, and a bunch of thoughts I've been having about the progression of queer YA sort of condensed all at once.)

I've been thinking lately I don't see much queer lit with characters in the questioning/revelation/coming out stages anymore. Like, I get for a time all we had was the Coming Out/Trans 101 novel, but I think we overcompensated.

It's like there's an assumption that The Internet Exists now so everyone knows about trans people and can figure themselves out once they're old enough to google, and that's just... not the case? Gender is complicated, and people are in all sorts of situations.

Mostly I feel like we jumped from the 90s Coming Out novel to the 2010s Already Out novel and completely skipped my generation of "I know what gay people are but I don't know how to be one"

Or maybe YA is always just Like That with adults trying to mush their experiences into contemporary settings in ways that never quite ring true.

Queer YA in the 90s/2000s: "I have a secret...I think... I might be...gay. I am The Only Gay In Existence, except for the Hot New Guy who I fall madly in love with, even after we experience A Homophobia, so I guess there are 2 gays in the world. (Trans? What's that? Don't know her.)"

Queer YA in the 2010s: "We are going on adventures, we just happen to be two people of the same gender falling in love. Yeah, I've heard of homophobia but we don't care about that here. Also, did you know trans people exist?"

Queer YA in the 2020: "what up nerds, me and my Entire Pack Of Queer Pals are here to fuck shit up"

You know what, now I think about it, each of these trends is less indicative of the state of being a queer teen at the time and more a reflection on the older generation's wish fulfillment fantasies.

Queers growing up isolated in the 80s and writing in the 90s wished there had been even One Other Queer with whom they could have shared their experience with. Maybe even fallen in love with.

Meanwhile actual queers of the 90s/00s were like "yeah I know the Other Gay Guy at school and I don't really like him." They wrote the '10s novels from wishing they could have had queer stories that weren't just Coming Out angst, just "normal" stories with queer characters

And I'm guessing the 10s generation reading those stories were like "what's with this normie bullshit? I'm not a boy who 'just happens to' fall in love with another boy, I have a queer identity and a community even if I'm not in a relationship." They're less interested in mainstreaming and more interested in celebrating queerness in all its ambiguity and complexity, especially gender.

It'll be interesting to see what the next decade brings. I'm guessing a greater attention to homophobic backlash. My (00s) generation of teens dealt with a lot more implicit and unspoken queerphobia, which is probably why our generation of books just ignored it. We kind of just hoped it would go away on its own, didn't we? Maybe the current teens are reading the current crop of queer books like "love your enthusiasm for happy queers, but that's super not realistic and I don't want to pretend it is."

I mean I guess I could like. Ask a Real Live Teenager. But also the things you experience as a teen and the way it gels into something you write about a decade later are very different, so only time will tell for sure.

And yes, obviously queer YA writers are a variety of ages, and their works grow and change and are influenced by a variety of factors. But also, Alex Sanchez is still out here writing the same queer narrative he's been writing since the 90s.

So that's why I feel like my 00s experience of being a queer teen is missing from YA lit, because we skipped from Coming Out to Mainstreaming and missed the awkward in-between stage of "I know more than one gay person but I don't know how to form queer community."

And it's extra complicated because my experience of being a queer teen was unconsciously surrounding myself with other queer teens while we all pretended to be straight and that's a really hard thing to depict in literature in an interesting way.

Add to that the fact that a lot of people my age were like "uhh... I guess I'm gay?" in the 00s but then later came out as things like nonbinary and asexual and things that we had no way of knowing about as teens.

Anyway setting YA in the near past like the 80s or 90s is like, a Thing now I guess, but I'm not actually surprised no one has tried to depict this in fiction because how even the fuck would you? I see it in memoirs here and there, because I'm now old enough that peole my age have memoirs I guess. But in fiction?

The closest thing I've found is the anime "Monthly Girls Nozaki-kun," which is a probably unintentional but strangely perfect depiction of teens who are all some sort of queer and haven't realized it yet, but that is very much a fan reading. I've never seen it done with intent.

IDK, this was maybe just a very long way of saying I wish we had more Coming Out novels that were actually complicated and nuanced and maybe showed someone cycling through several identities, instead of just being a vehicle for Queer 101, but also I understand why the Coming Out Novel is kind of dead.

#queer musings #queer lit

[johannestevans]

Where do I find the queer people?

Making friends and finding social & community spaces as an LGBTQ+ adult.

Originally published with Prism & Pen. Also on my Patreon.

Photo by Brett Sayles via Pexels.

A friend and I recently went to a Queer Open Mic night after I saw it advertised on the same afternoon. While we were on the way back, she asked about how I’d found it.

“I just feel like you always know loads of queer events that are on,” she said, “and I don’t know how to begin to find them.”

I sat down with her a few weeks later and showed her some of the ways I find events, regular or otherwise, and where I look for others — especially given that on social media in the past few days I’ve seen a few people talking about the difficulty of finding and meeting with new queer people when not online.

I thought it might be useful to put it together here.

It’s quite hard with the pressure on and elimination of many third spaces to go out and easily meet people, and given that most of us use a lot of online socials and dating apps, it can feel difficult to seek out and engage with in-person spaces without knowing exactly what the protocol or format of the event is going to be.

Especially given that many people are still more isolated than they were before the start of the Covid pandemic, and/or struggle with seeking out events for themselves having finished school or university or other more structured environments, there can be a lot of anxiety about attending events or meeting new people. But it’s worth it to remember that pretty much everyone else is in a similar spot, and there’s nothing weird or unusual about wanting to make friends or have social time with others.

I am based in the North of England and generally go between the UK and Ireland. So this guide might be less useful depending on where you are. Obviously, in countries with more repressive legislation on queer identity, community groups will by definition be far more underground. Even in areas where this isn’t the case, some of these suggestions might be more viable than others depending on how densely populated your area is, how accessible different venues and events are, and how active your local queer communities are. So, just take what’s good for you and leave the rest.

Finding Local Queer Community Groups

In your search engine, put in simple search terms — [queer] [group] in [my area].

If you can, narrow your search to websites updated in the last 6 months to 2 or 3 years — you’ll sometimes find a website from six or seven years ago where the events haven’t been running for half that when you were already excited about it.

Search your town, city, or county first, and then widen your search — I normally initially look for Bradford and Leeds respectively, but then might broaden my search to West Yorkshire or even North England depending on the time of year and if I’m more willing to travel for certain events, e.g. looking up summer events around Pride, or specific holiday events if you’re looking at Halloween, Christmas, New Year’s, etc.

Combine:

“Queer”, “LGBT” or “LGBTQ”, “Trans”, “Gay Men’s”, “Lesbian”, “Transgender”, “Transsexual”, “Gay Rights” or similar terms

With:

“Charity”, “Support Group”, “Social Space”, “Community Space”, “Meetup”, “Society”, and similar terms

Swap around the terms and find what language seems to be used in your area — remember that depending on the age group and demographic you’re looking at or for, there might be terms you prefer.

I personally search for a lot of gay men’s groups because the average age tends to be a lot older and focused more on the experiences and social spaces of men who love men rather than general queer spaces, which I find can be a bit too young and fast-paced for my speed.

In general, I find that there’s a loose separation between younger trans and queer social groups, which tend to be a mix of differing identities and ages but with a big emphasis on young adults in the 18–25 area, and then specific gay men’s or lesbians’ groups, which will have a wider swathe of ages and might be a little bit less online.

I understand the fear some people have of these spaces being more transphobic than younger spaces — that’s not personally been my experience, as transphobia and lateral bigotry might happen in any social space, but unfortunately, you just don’t know the specifics of an event or a group until you get there and actually meet and talk to the people.

Some charities or community groups that run a variety of spaces might have specific age or identity guidance on group titles — some might be particularly for younger or older people, be for trans people more than cis people, and some might focus on particular sub-communities, such as BIPOC queer groups or specific religious or ethnic meetups, disabled queer groups, etc.

You also might find meetups that are centred around certain hobbies, professions, or interests — boardgames or Magic the Gathering, Doctor Who or fantasy novels, medical professionals or blacksmiths, etc, depending on how big the area you’re in is and how populous it is.

If you are already a member of an institution or society, whether that’s your school or university, your union, some workplaces, your temple or other religious institution, etc, you might find that there are already events running for you!

Finding Queer Events Online

There are almost certainly queer events on, and they’re probably advertised, but where do you find them?

What’s annoying about the Internet as it exists, corporate online spaces and otherwise, is that most events will be posted in one or two spaces out of hundreds. The good ones will sometimes be hard to find because there’s a bunch of shitty advertising in the way, and because individuals and small charity or community advertisers don’t necessarily know about things like search engine optimisation or how to make a good, searchable post. There will be really cool events that are advertised online, but just aren’t tagged or easy to find.

This means that it’s worth looking often but keeping it casual — glancing through the top page for events that might be coming up or meet some keywords, but if most of what you see is ads, just leave it and move on. Digging through for the good events in busy areas that are also ad-heavy can take ages and might not even turn up much.

If you find socials for local community groups or charities, even if they don’t run events themselves, they might regularly share other local events or cool ones, so it can be worth following them!

Ditto for other queer people in your community — follow local artists, performers, academics, creators, public speakers, craftspeople, or any local community leaders or public figures, and see if they share and boost local events.

They might boost special interest events that are of interest to you if you follow people who share certain communities or interests. If, for example, you have an interest in lolita fashion and follow queer lolita dressers in your area or in areas you can travel to, they might post events that are of interest to them and maybe to you — whether that means specific lolita events, other clothing and fashion events like gothic or steampunk markets and shows, or even anime cons or renaissance faires or whatever.

Obviously searching on social media can help — looking for keywords like “queer event” or “LGBT social” on one site or other can be especially good if it’s a site where you can localise your search results, such as Facebook or Instagram.

With that said, Facebook and Instagram are increasingly difficult sites to use given how much they’re overwhelmed by sponsored and corporate posts as well as spam and bot posts. So, it’s generally worth it more when you focus on either events in smaller and limited areas, such as small towns, or when you’re looking for crossing over of different areas of interest, such as particular queer hobbyist or interest groups. When you start looking for broader spectrum events in a busier or more populous area, you can get inundated by spam and copy-and-paste duplicate ads that have all been promoted. But it’s still worth it to have a glance and see if anything is up at the top!

Sites and apps like Eventbrite or TicketSource, or equivalents in your area, will often let you search for specific events . As with social media, these sites can have the same problem of sponsored events coming up first, and annoyingly you can’t block particular event providers or organisers to make sure they don’t show in your search results if they’re not your thing.

Use every option that comes up and see if you can cross search where you can — pick a particular location or area, click on free or paid events, pick events at certain times, pick a certain kind of event, add in tags like LGBTQ or similar if it’s a site that allows it, etc.

If an event comes up that you like the idea of, note it down, then look the organizer up on social media and see if they run or share other events.

Looking for local tourism sites will let you search for other local events as well — especially if you live in a city or regularly visit one, they’ll often have a What’s On page or a Visit [Blank] website or equivalent, and you can search through that — most of them will have cultural events or a specific LGBTQ section you can glance through.

Here’s the Visit Bristol site, for example:

What’s On in Bristol — VisitBristol.co.uk Click here to find out What’s On in Bristol!…Get the latest information on the latest Events, Festivals, Carnivals…visitbristol.co.uk

For obvious reasons, sites like most of the above will focus on paid events, especially evening and party events. Pub quizzes, drag events, bingo nights, balls, drinks offers, parties, etc.

These events aren’t for everybody — and if they’re not for you, focus on events that take place, if not in cafés and restaurants, then in libraries, universities, museums, and other public buildings.

Queer Events Locally Advertised In-Person

Wait, do people still do that?

Look for poster and notice boards in:

Libraries, museums, community centres, university lobbies

Vintage and alternative clothes stores, music venues, etc

Your temple, church, or other religious institutions

Gay bars, queer cafés, LGBTQ centres, queer bookshops

Doctor’s offices, GUM clinics, and sexual health clinics

Anywhere else you see a noticeboard with events showing!

Also look on flag poles or in windows around your local gay bars or businesses if you have any, generally around the gay village if there’s one to go through.

How do you know the events are good? How do you know they’re legit?

How old does the poster look? Do you see many copies of it around?

Look for dates for the event(s) they’re advertising on the poster, and then look up the venue the events are meant to happen at. Do the dates match? Is it a regular event? Is the event showing on the venue’s website or social media?

Is the event run by a local group, collective, or charity? When you search them, do they have socials or a site of their own? Do they seem active?

If a local queer poster gives you socials, check those socials out — do they have any followers you’re familiar with? Do they post their venues publicly and have defined and public meeting times? Do they seem to have active and engaged commenters? Is there a face or faces behind the social media, or are they anonymous?

If an event is run by anonymous people, or if it seems like they don’t have many followers on social media or very active ones, that might be a bit more suspicious — ditto if an event just gives you a phone number but not any further identifying info.

It’s not inherently suspicious for a queer event to be at an undisclosed location, because of course people do want to ensure some safeguarding and vet people before they come, but if it’s an undisclosed location in combination with anonymous organising, that might be a bit suspicious, and should probably be avoided.

Finding Queer People in Specific Hobby or Other Community Spaces

You don’t have to go to queer-specific events to meet other queer people — any hobby or community you can think of, there’s probably queer people in attendance.

If you’re in a busier or more populous area, say there are 5 events that centre around the same hobby — of those 5, some of them will have more queer people than others, and it might be worth checking them out just to see if you click with anyone there.

My partner and I attend queer-specific board-game evenings that are run out of gay bars or by queer clubs, but pretty much any board-game night is likely to have one or two queer people knocking about, whether they know or would identify themselves as LGBTQ+ off the bat or not.

While there are obviously more open queer people at the queer events, I would say that when we went to a local board-game night run by older straight guys, about a quarter of the attendees were older queer people.

Of my queer friends, pretty much all of them have varied interests and attend different groups or clubs with a lot of other queers knocking about without them being labelled or explicitly queer events — knitting and crocheting, computer coding, electronic music and DJing, fandom, blacksmithing, glassblowing, stand-up comedy, improv, cooking, gardening, board games, cosplay and historical costuming, LEGO, live-action roleplay, tabletop roleplaying games, Magic the Gathering, Yu-Gi-Oh, and other trading card games, poker, burlesque, sports games and clubs, swimming, cycling, fishing, photography, book clubs, bug collecting, birdwatching, weaving, painting, sculpture, pottery, video games, singing, songwriting, poetry…

The list goes on.

Hell, half the people I know seem to go and meet new dates at the local climbing wall, where it seems like all the lesbians and gay guys are crawling all over one another. Another friend of mine attends their local WI, and have met other queer people there.

Other Tips

Remember you can meet people on dating and hook-up apps and that doesn’t necessarily have to be for sex and relationships, whether that’s Grindr, Her, Lex, etc — or you can ask hook-ups and casual dates where they go or if there are local events they think are good or fun. Poly people are particularly useful for this, because they’ll often have a whole network of regular events crossing over and diverging.

If you’re nervous about going to an event alone and you don’t have anybody to go with you, it can be worth checking it out on socials first and see if you have any mutual friends with people that are going — if not, it’s worth heading along anyway, because people might well speak to you before you have to open the conversation with them.

Community groups will often have icebreakers or sessions where people swap names, pronouns, and basic introductions, and that can ease the way into getting used to the space.

If you see somebody else on their own who seems nervous to talk to people, they can be good to approach and say, hey, I also don’t know anyone here, what brings you here? And so on. Remember, other people are pretty much always in the same boat as you.

For me, one of the biggest anxieties about going to new events alone is the fact that I’m disabled and dependent on public transport, and that combo can make it tough on me if I get to a place and it’s inaccessible or just not my speed, and then I have to sort of immediately turn heel and leave, but wait ages for a bus in the meantime. I’ve missed more than one event I was really excited about just because transport didn’t line up for me.

Some considerations to keep in mind when you look for events:

Is the event free or paid? Is this clearly marked? Do you need to buy tickets in advance?

How recent is the posting about the event? Is it posted on a web page or a social media page? Are there recent comments or engagement on the entry? If there is a contact for the event, is it active and responsive?

Is this event regular or recurrent? Is it for a special occasion, and does it have sister events or concurrent events?

Is the event exclusively online, exclusively in-person, or do they change between the two formats? Would you prefer to attend online before you attend in-person?

Do you want to go to a closed and more private group — for example, one that has you message them for the time and location, seems to have capped attendee limits, seems to have a regular community. Or do you want to attend a more casual event in a larger, open space where people might not notice as much as you come and go? Is it going to be very crowded or more spaced out?

Where is the event located, and will you be comfortable in that venue? Is it in a community building such as a charity space, community group, religious institute, school, or university? Is it in a café, restaurant, pub, bar, club, or late-night venue? Is it an explicitly or dedicated queer space? If you are not out to other members of your community, will going into this space reveal that you might be a member of a queer group?

Is the venue age-restricted, and will it require ID? If you must provide ID, will providing your ID in a dead name or in a different gender presentation to your current one be anxiety-inducing or a potential problem for you?

How accessible is the venue to you? Is it walkable, on a regular bus route, or does it have appropriate parking for you? Does it have ramps or elevators? Is it well-ventilated, and does it have a HVAC or other air filtration and purification protocol? Is masking enforced, and/or are masks provided? If you might be watching something together, is there a hearing loop, will there be subtitles on a screening? Is there a first aider at the event? Does the venue serve food or drink, or provide refreshments?

If you are attending alone and have specific needs or requirements, or might need to leave abruptly, is there someone you can let know at the event, such as a first aider or community leader? Are there regular buses, a taxi rank, or online taxi access if you need to quickly head home? Have you let someone else know where you are going, just as a safety concern?

Is the event activity-based, or is it a space where people just sit and talk? Would one or the other of these feel more natural or comfortable to you? Do you have to bring your own activity, such as with a craft or knitting circle, or are supplies provided, such as boardgames or a screening?

Does the group or host for the event(s) have social media? Do they advertise the regular events on socials, or have a newsletter, or some other helpful reminder system?

Most community events will be free, but if it’s an activity group or society, or if it’s a private event, especially one where they buy equipment or supplies, there might be an up-front ticket or access fee, a membership fee or a collection jar or similar — most events will tell you in advance if there is a fee or if they might request a donation.

Most importantly, like… Have fun.

If it sucks, hit the bricks — there’s no obligation to stay anywhere if it’s not fun or doesn’t satisfy you in the way you were hoping.

There’s always other events out there, and you’re very unlikely to truly be the only gay in the village, even if it sometimes feels that way. Good luck!

#musings #queer pride #lgbt #gay community

[urpurplehairedsage]

if y'all want CANON alloaro rep in manga, read last gender, and go to chapter no.5 for the pov chapter of the alloaro character, thank me later :)

#🧙🏾‍♀️'s weird musings #sharing is caring~! #aromantic #aro #arospec #aromanticism #alloaro #aroallo #aromantic allosexual #queer #lgbtqia+ #🍍🍍🍍

[fagtasmogoria]

cw for gutfuck

he wasn't dead yet, but he was to me, and as i moved about in his guts i thought about every time we'd done this prior, every time he'd said no and stop and wait and how now he was lying back and taking it, and maybe this is what he needed, to be utterly and completely mine, dead in all ways but the flesh, and as i released and filled him his eyes glazed over with a lust i hadn't seen on him in years, and i bit into his neck and he wrapped his arms around me, and yes, i realized, this is what he needed, dead in all ways but the flesh, subjugated and subservient, mine.

#nsft #queer nsft #dead dove do not eat #dddne #queer horror #gothic horror #toxic relationship #my writing #queer musings #musings #prose poetry #queer sexuality #mlm nsft #gay nsft

[ilona-mushroom]

I’m ok with she/her pronouns in a gal type of way. I ain’t a girl but I am sometimes a gal with a torch. A gal with a tool bag who bests her dude classmates at black iron piping.

#gender stuff #queer musings #personal

[recklessandyoung]

Reblog to platonically make out with your friends

#platonic love #may’s musings #all kinds of love #queer love #spread the love

[tinyhorror]

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#last week miss xunami muse delivered us the lesbianism we all deserved #so thanks to my best friend who planted this idea in my head #i had to draw karlach wearing this look #bg3 #baldurs gate #baldurs gate iii #baldurs gate fanart #baldurs gate 3 #karlach #karlach bg3 #xunami muse #drag queen #drag race #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 fanart #bg3 art #queer artist #lgbtq artist