#questionable pain feelings

[stil-lindigo]

the parade.

a short comic about when love dies slow.

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#i think that like #the pain of losing someone you love slowly is so much worse than having a relationship die instantly #its such a helpless feeling #and one thing i hope i conveyed in this is like the part where you question yourself as its happening #i don't know how to tag this really #comics #thats one thing #emotional #i can only hope it tugs a few heartstrings #starting my new comic project off hopefully strong with this one #ive had the poem part of this in my notes app for a while now #im glad i put pen to paper and brought it to life #thank you for reading #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics #its 10pm

[wol-questions]

Does your WoL wear hats?

#wol questions #wolqotd #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #warrior of light #oc questions #i am so sorry viera and hroth wols i feel your pain i am one of you

[skneees]

walks into a dead fandom. hello. i have gifts,

#im only on season 9 so no spoilers please #but heres my babygirl. holds him out #hi rvb fans i come bearing gifts #rvb #red vs blue #rvb church #do i uh. tag all of his names. #rvb epsilon #rvb alpha #rvb fanart #red vs blue fanart #leonard church #this is my s1/human design for him #he gets a little funky later on #see i wanna know how they gave him a human body. explain that one. #did they get a clone?? an empty body?? was it an android programmed to look and think its human and feel pain??? #so many questions #regardless i am standing strongly by my brown eyes church idea #im telling you if theyre HIDING THE AI. WHY WOULD THEY MAKE HIM REMOTELY INTERESTING OR OFF-LOOKING #like dont get me wrong i love the neon blue eyes #however. this i feel strongly on. they said make a genaric white man and they did just that #anyway hes my favorite teehee #my art

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

✨ ARCTIC MONKEYS ASK GAME ✨

favourite record opener track?

have you been to a live show? if so, feel free to share a photo/something particular that struck you about your experience!

humbug or tbh+c?

which member of the band would you most like to spend the afternoon with and why? how would you spend your time?

which album means the most to you?

if you had to pick one song from their discography to never hear again, which one would it be?

how long have you been a fan? tell us about your journey!

do you have any cool arctic monkeys memorabilia or keepsakes that are meaningful to you? (eg wristbands from a show, merch you’ve bought, signed stuff, tour posters)

what’s the first song you heard that made you fall in love with the band? where were you when you heard it?

what’s your favourite alex era hair? feel free to share photo examples!

have you ever created any fanart or fanfiction inspired by the band/involving anyone in the band? feel free to share a link!

do you have any arctic monkeys tattoos? if not, do you want any?

what are some of your favourite lyrics alex has written? (doesn't have to be arctic monkeys, can also include tlsp/ other artist collaborations/the submarine soundtrack)

do you own any physical copies of any of the albums?

favourite arctic monkeys b-side?

if each of the albums was a person, which one do you think you'd most be like and why?

favourite album cover?

if you could ask each member of the band something and have them answer honestly, what questions would you ask them?

what's your favourite quote said by someone in the band? feel free to share a link/clip!

favourite record ender track?

#this is what happens when i'm in bed all day with a chronic pain flare and don't have the brain power for writing 😅 #anyway it was a fun little distraction coming up with these! #feel free to reblog and share with each other 🥰 #and even though i came up with the questions i'd love to answer some too #so feel free to drop some in my ask box! #have fun! 😘💖 #arctic monkeys #alex turner #matt helders #jamie cook #nick o'malley #ask game #ask games #bands #lulu posts

[wizzard890]

#succession #tw: csa #like the constant CONSTANT jokes about the topic where he's the victim #the sudden bedwetting before he was just sent away to school #the feelings of responsibility for keeping his family happy and together and Good we're all Good #his self-loathing around sex and intimacy #the way his siblings refer to his physical abuse in a pretty blase way but everything around When He Went Off To School is vague #the show spends a ton of time showing that his actual memories of his childhood are on two tracks: what his siblings saw and what he felt #his father convinced that there's something wrong with him #some fatal crack that can't be fixed - and roman agrees #and PARTICULARLY in the most recent episode when he reveals he couldn't breathe normally around logan #and shiv goes to ask frank and karl 'how bad was dad' #like I don't think logan was the one who did this specifically to roman #but it was clearly someone logan knew #shiv the girl with the selective memory but the girl who knew not to be around those men #being moved enough by her brother's pain to confront the panicked sliver of a question: did dad do this? and if not - did he know? #logan didn't like women but he loved his little girl #shiv was safe #roman? not so much #'why bastard? why base?' why indeed roman

[sleepinglionhearts]

No no get started on the whole "new adult" thing, I desperately want to hear

Ok, so here's the thing about New Adult:

It's a genre that's been emerging lately in the catalogs I view when doing frontlists (essentially just pre-orders for upcoming titles) for the book store and I'd been wondering what the hell it was. I'd noticed it was especially common in the descriptors for the romance books, but it was often the ones with that sort of sexy-but-not-full-blown-erotica kind of book that also tended to have the sort of description full of fanfic trope terms and "for fans of [usually a Young Adult title]" or "like [popular title] combined with [other popular title]!!" <- and here it's important to note that the popular titles don't always sound like they would mesh well.

And finally, FINALLY, one of these books is highlighted by the sales rep who works with us and she's got a little blurb about it and I get my first useful description of what "New Adult" is:

"Imagine the golden age of YA - The Hunger Games, Divergent, The Mortal Instruments - but aged up and spicy."

S P I C Y

Which would explain why they're not-quite-erotica type books, you see, we're not straight up PORN we're just ✨️spicy✨️

Nevermind that a lot of these books do have sex in them, but whatever, it's SPICY because that's what's popular to say on BookTok!

Oh. Right. Yeah. BookTok also gets mentioned a lot in listings for this sort of title.

And yes, this includes the Court of... books by Sarah J Maas and things like The Infatuated Fae books by Jeaneane O'Riley. In fact, I'm pretty sure O'Riley was described as a "BookTok darling" in the contributor bio part of the listing, but don't quote me on that, I'd have to look at the listing again.

Anyway, these are some of the biggest offenders regarding that whole "we will describe this with fanfic buzz terms and BookTok girlies will eat it up :)" issue.

#replies #answered #again i think Macmillan and Sourcebooks have had some of the more... interesting entries in the New Adult category #oh haha also go look up the LJ Shen Sinners of Saint books those made me laugh and also cry when I was looking at the listings #and yes another point i didn't put in the body of the post is like.. u know all those books that came out after titles like Hunger Games #where they completely miss what made it popular #yeah i feel like there's a lot of that in the New Adult stuff especially w certain character types #idk how they make every single protagonist sound exactly the same or make every male love interest cold and distant #hhhhggghh slogging through these books is soooo boring and painful sometimes but u get through it to find the couple of #interesting looking titles mixed in there #i complain a lot about the deluge of romance and new adult titles but there are some cool looking books upcoming too #i might make a post about that later but here u go i hope that answers ur question hsgshsg

[sevenhundredyears]

lost trio in the ta au

So I have this au where there is this child AND legacy of Apollo on the andromeda, right, and they see in a vision the lost trio just doing their thing. Somehow they get the kids full names, and the ta is just like: fuck it, let’s kidnap the children.

so the lost trio gets kidnapped (the ta already knows about camp Jupiter ) and it’s basically they can go anywhere on the ship just don’t leave.

and it takes a while, after many sleepovers, they trust both each other and several members of the ta.

Leo also convinces Beckendorf not to blow up the ship, which is nice

after the Hera Incident, they slowly get all their memories back of the ship.

and it is amazing because these really sweet kids suddenly are like trained assassins with a weird grudge against Percy Jackson and no one really knows what’s going on anymore.

Also the three of them are dating. No questions.

#leo valdez #piper mclean #jason grace #Jason x Leo x piper #titan army #pjo #pjo hoo toa #I just love them and want them to feel pain #And be very much more than slightly insane #Once they have their memories back on the Argo they go find alabaster no questions #alabaster torrington #charles beckendorf

[soldier-poet-king]

Will my suffering never cease

- went to good Friday evening service even tho it's not a day of obligation, didn't go yesterday evening to Maundy Thursday for a variety of reasons

- priest manages to fit homophobia and transphobia into his sermon. Not even gay marriage. Just unions, that let ppl share taxes and have hospital visiting rights. And big bad scary surgery. Like. Completely unrelated to the matter at hand. Says SO LITTLE abt the Passion, managed to talk for 10 minutes without really saying ANYTHING. Takes Pilate's 'what is truth' and instead of engaging in the long philosophical and theological discussion around that question, decides to use it as a rallying cry against wokeism and a godless progressive society.

- my two ex best friends were there. Ran into them. + One's husband, who I introduced her to a decade ago. Like I'm mostly over that, no longer shitty and resentful, fully know that it was partially my fault and born from my own terribleness at 19 and undiagnosed untreated mental illness. Still uhhh hurts tho??? As a reminder?

- music bad. Ok I'm petty. I'll give the trads (1) point. I don't like guitar mass. I will NOT agree with the trads in assigning moral weight to my aesthetic preference. It's simply a preference, which does not make any musical form inherently superior to the others. But the triduum really lends itself to Latin hymns and chants, in my heart. My other fave church music is traditional Black spirituals. I would greatly prefer either. But just. If it sounds like an acoustic version of a pop love song. I just. I can't. I KNOW I'm the weird about Jesus romantically girlie. But I am not vibin with this folks

Literally would have simply Walked Out. Hit da bricks during the homily. But was with my family so 1) cannot out myself 2) did not have house keys on me, so I was suck regardless

Anyway I said I wasn't going to do fun things today but I'm so upset and cranky and I did chores all day, I am going to catch up on dungeon meshi. Marcille is my best favourite cringefail girl I'm obsessed with her and surely the wlw neurotic fussy mage who loves her friends will not betray me like this

#the duality of fran #faith tag #also like #.highly unlikely that i was the only closeted queer person there #and obvs extra full of the triduum a lot of non regulars attending #so GLAD that they decided to make it such a lovely and welcoming environment for THE BIGGEST MOST SIGNIFICANT WEEKEND IN THE FAITH. #surely this will encourage people and make them feel welcome and loved and cared for #yes yes there's that flannery oconnor bit abt not judging priests harshly #but also. its one thing to have a bad homily #not discussing the philosophy of pilates question is fine. i get most ppl are not versed in greco roman thought #but the absolute just. whining reactionary social conservatism #ON GOOD FRIDAY??? #even going as far as to be like 'those few of us who keep the faith' #okay sir. this isnt some uwu im so special and faithful unlike all those abomination degenerate queers #gonna get gay married for tax purposes/green card out of spite #(green card both ways i can get u cad citizenship lmao) #remove my reproductive system. idgaf. uterus free to a good home. all it does is give me health problems anyway #tho that last one is less dysphoria and more just. it's a fuckin pain in my ass medically speaking #also the triduum is THEE celebration for the gay chrisitans. its john the beloved. its judas. its projecting for us ok

[genderfluidgothwitch]

For those who are unsure of whether or not they really have the "sensitivity to cold" symptom of fibromyalgia, because you think that it's just you not being able to handle colder temperatures like other people, that's one way of putting it. The other way is, when it's winter and the temperatures start dropping, do you feel your pain more intensely? Do you feel like you have more problems with your joints? Is your partner always commenting how cold your fingers and toes are, but it somehow gets more frequent in winter? Those are other ways to consider being sensitive to the cold.

#just a little food for thought #I'm thinking bc I'm high af #I had to take an entire 50 mg gummy tonight because I had some serious fucking pain #I didn't realize it was going to be a consistent pattern of winter making me feel like shit #but here we are in year two of No Longer Ignoring My Symptoms #and I'm still questioning whether or not it's actually fibromyalgia #like I 100% definitively know what it is #I just still don't have the doctors sign off bc I hate phone calls and I'm getting new insurance next month #so I figure might as well wait to see if the new insurance covers any differently #things to look forward to with the new job #anyways I'm forever grateful I didn't have to jump through every stupid ass hoop my husband did when he went full time with my company #it's explicitly designed against people who aren't neurotypical and it's honestly the most bullshit program ever #no they don't give full time by merit in my company #I really only got the job because my file boss wanted me explicitly for her job when she retires #and I will be eternally grateful that she saw something in me that no other manager saw #anyways ignore all these tags anyone who reads this that found this in the fibromyalgia tag instead of my blog #fibromyalgia #>.> #kudos to those who read this far #your journey shall reward you with a small token of my gratitude #🐦‍⬛ a friend for you

[batwynn]

Ok maybe a weird question but maybe not because I’m stressing about it now but

Do I come off as aloof? Or something like that?

Feel free to answer on anon if you feel more comfortable. I’m just out here stressing over my general affect again. 🥲

#general vibes #question #autistic things #sorry if this is random I just uh #someone said a thing that sounded like they thought I was like #’popular’ or something and they said they were too nervous to talk to me #and now I’m like: 😰 #if I do give off that vibe I’m really sorry #I promise I don’t think I’m better than anyone 🥲 #I’m very tired and in a lot of pain and very sick #so I think my #tone maybe gets flat? #or maybe it’s how I talk? #I don’t know #but feel free to let me know #and I’ll work on it

[reactionimagesdaily]

#to answer the question you actually put here - I feel like I don't wanna make ms paint images their own tag #partially bc it'd be a pain to go back and re-tag them all but also because they feel more like a medium than a genre #it'd be like giving screenshots from shows their own tag or something (ok maybe not THAT broad but you get what I mean? xD) #anyway thanks for the trinket henchman I approve #reaction image #reaction meme #daily reaction images #image mood: genuine wrath #submission

[vamprisms]

i love how most showrunners won't talk about endings or spoilers and try to keep it vague and then every time kripke gets a question about homelander he's like yeah im killing that bitch btw

#it must be like. physically painful when he gets questions from hl fanboys i do feel for him #inevitable character death 🥺😭😔 (billy) vs inevitable character death 🥳😝🤣 (jonathan b homelander) #the boys

[sag-dab-sar]

Medical professional: *who has no actual reason to know why I'm using my wheelchair* so why are you using a wheelchair?

Me: Legs don't work well 🫤

Medical professional:

#cpunk #cripple punk #mobility aid #wheelchair #void post #result of talking to a friend #about how i get upset when medical professionals who DO NOT NEED TO KNOW #ask me why im in my wheelchair #and i feel obligated to answer because well they are medical professionals #and she called them stupid because ''are they stupid maybe it's because walking can be an issue for you'' #''its like asking me why i wear glasses— well sir because i prefer to see'' #it's actually for legs back overall pain and heart but do they really need to fucking know all that? #and i thought of a better way to answer their dumb question #legs dont work well #not a lie #short simple and probably makes them feel a tad stupid for asking

[aspd-culture]

living in a society that’s so ableist is so wild because as someone questioning if they have aspd the ableism makes you wonder if you REALLY do because you’re just “too human”. like yeah, i see children hurt and i get uncomfortable, i see parents post pictures of their children and i worry. is it really true worry? who knows! point is, the idea that you’re inhuman for it is just drilled inside you so hard that anytime you show any sort of “humanity” you wonder if you are actually antisocial, even if you fit the criteria fine because the idea of being antisocial is boiled down to being evil and incapable of emotions; subhuman in a way. I hope that makes sense and resonates with anyone; been questioning for a while if we (system :)) could have aspd because ableism keeps making us believe a false idea of how it appears on people.

aspd-culture is

#oh gosh I feel all of this #Please remember that pwASPD are still very much human #and whilst those of us that fit these stereotypes exist and are entirely valid #many of us if not the majority of us do not #many pwASPD feel for children in pain especially because that is what caused us to deal with this #and worry is in no way mutually exclusive with ASPD #it sucks that the world we live in makes pwASPD question themselves just because they act ‘’human’’ #It makes it hard to recover when prosocials shove us in a box like that #because we struggle with healing vs feeling valid in our diagnosis #and that is just not a question anyone should have to worry about at all #aspd-culture-is #aspd culture is #aspd culture #actually aspd #aspd #aspd awareness #actually antisocial #antisocial personality disorder #aspd traits #tw ableism #cw ableism #anons welcome

[attackoneyebrows]

what do you become then?

#warrior nun #warriornunedit #wnedit #avatrice #instead of the original revenge implications #i think this quote personifies bea's journey #as someone who sought out the church to repress her pain #found ava who brought everything to the surface (good and bad) #allows herself to feel something for once #and now that avas gone #shes almost on this self (re)discovery journey #and it's truly a question of what do you become then #also who doesnt love a poi line lbh

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #I had to go out and run some errands since my wife can't do them while she's in the hospital #I got it all done and I've been aggressively medicating but wow I am super tired and sick #my normal available energy in a day is 'sit uprightish on the couch' not 'walk around town for 2 hours' #she feels well enough that she would be comfortable coming home tomorrow #it's just a question of whether the weekend staff is willing to do the paperwork or not #cuz a lot of places don't do weekend discharges for her stuff #so she may be coming home monday instead. #we are working together (along with her more official types of support) to make sure this doesn't have to happen again. #(one of the people from her work wants to go visit her sunday if she's not home and offered to give me a ride) #(which will be uh. also really exhausting and painful.) #(especially with all my ~medical trauma~) #(but it would help her feel better.)