Splitting on my bf
It’s a dangerous game, but if I get upset with him it’ll go to hell, and if I get mad just the right amount and pull it out in time, I can act like everything is fine. I feel like I’m playing a game where you have to click a moving bar as it passes color bars and you have to click it as it gets to the smallest sliver of green. I only get one try.
Ive been feeling iffy with him lately, but right now it’s just so bad. It feels like something he had said to me was a lie. I know it wasn’t, I think it was what he said, but also idk if I’m remembering it right or not.
All I know is I want to be his first choice amongst everything, but idk if that’s possible…
Part of it is knowing how he tells me his friend helped him through everything, and yet when he goes through shit I feel like I ask too much of him and become a burden. I’ll never be like her or his ex. I’ll always consider the concept that maybe Icwont be enough, no matter how hard I fught it.