#quill speaks

[everyone-with-a-para]

How do you manage to keep your paracosms stable? Mine keeps jumping around from the middle to where I currently am at and then back to the beginning all while the details keep shifting

Short answer: I don't. Sorry to not be much help but I'm exactly the same. There's timeline jumps and aus and plot shifts all over the place

#quill speaks #ask #madd #maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming

[book-nonsie-not-anon]

𝙷𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘!

i'm the book anon that's been going around on the planet blogs, talking about some books! you guys can call me quill :) i am also a self-proclaimed mars fan

my tags are: #book nonsie not anon, #celestial same picverse, #quill speaks, #quill answers, #anons that made blogs club (probably more to be added)

i'd also appreciate if people either shipped me platonically or not at all as i am aroace :)

my name poll

my ask box is open if anyone wants to chat!

other celestial-same-picverse blogs:

@same-pic-of-the-sun-everyday

@same-pic-of-mercury-everyday

@same-pic-of-venus-everyday

@same-pic-of-the-earth-everyday

@the-real-earth

@same-pic-of-the-moon-everyday

@same-pic-of-mars-everyday

@same-pic-of-jupiter-everyday

@same-pic-of-saturn-everyday

@the-real-uranus

@same-pic-of-uranus-everyday

@same-pic-of-neptune-everyday

@same-pic-of-a-dictionary-daily

@steve-not-anon

@metal-frisbee

@earth-fan

@earth-hater

@court-artist-under-the-stars

@not-10-salmon-in-a-png

@hateful-daystar

@same-pic-of-andromeda-everyday

@same-pic-of-halleys-comet

@same-pic-of-titan-every-day

@same-pic-of-callisto-everyday

@same-pic-of-eris-everyday

@same-pic-of-kepler-186f-everyday

@same-pic-of-haumea-everyday

@same-image-of-7-iris

@same-pic-of-juno-everyday

@same-pic-of-a-blackhole-everyday

@tomblrmartian

@samepicofproximacentaurieveryday

@same-pic-of-the-stars-everyday

@same-cosmic-cliffs-pic-every-day

@rose-nebula-always

@same-pic-of-makemake-everyday

@same-picture-of-europa

@same-pic-of-wolftopia-everyday

@star-that-eats-the-sun

@same-pic-of-tres2b-everyday

@same-pic-of-nebula-everyday i claim you as my underling

tell me if i missed anyone!!

@celestial-same-picverse is the blog where all the main stuff goes on!

ooc: hey! the person running this is @labaguetteisdabest; figured i should mention that after i reblogged my oneshot :) also– the icon is how i imagine quill :)

#book nonsie not anon #celestial same picverse #quill speaks #anons that made blogs club

[lookwhatyoudidithasanxiety]

heyyyy guys :D what’d i miss?

/...Well. I'm here now, Mun God is with Anon Anon I think? Ghost and Star are still regressed - Solar is Ghost's dada now.

A lot's going on at once ^^'

Oh! I'm Quill, by the way!/

#quill speaks #asks #smolfangurl40 #meet quill: totally not a writer self-insert

[autism-shaped]

There is something so special about seeing another person using an identity term or phrase you've never heard before and realizing

wait

that's what I am.

or,

that's what I want to be. that's what I'm aiming for.

or,

I could be that.

#the term this time is 'gentleman dyke' #I have a really complicated relationship to queer labeling #I'm partially closeted even in extremely queer-affirming spaces because my identities don't fit the framework that others there use #but sometimes I will see someone say a Thing about their gender or sexuality #and it empowers me to explore again #quill speaks #butch #lesbian #queer #gay #gender stuff #gender nonconforming #genderqueer #sorry for overtagging I'm trying to get this blog out there a wee smidge

[quillaffinity]

wow! there’s so many more of y’all now.

hi!

consider this a reminder that requests for web weaves and comparatives are currently open! i’m running a bit low on inspo atm, so i’d appreciate your thoughts.

#comparatives #web weaving #web weaves #quill speaks #hi! this feels werid to just make a post with just my words!

[quills-house-of-fiction]

Welcome to Quill's House of Fiction

Hello everyone! This is a side blog where I'll be putting all of my writing and writing-related content. My main focus will be flash fiction, but I may occasionally put longer stories as well. As for genres, I will be writing mostly fantasy with a sprinkle of science fiction here and there. Each post will be tagged appropriately if it deals with any sensitive content. I'm pleased to have you read my work, and constructive feedback is always welcome!

#welcome post #writers of tumblr #writeblr #writing community #creative writing #quill speaks

[goose-speak]

Hey btw idk if yall knew but Goose is trans. Yeah Goose like Nick Bradshaw? Yeah he's a trans guy. Yeah hate to break it to you like this.

#Nick Bradshaw #top gun #top gun goose #quill speaks

[quill-reads-books]

if you think I'm coming back from twitter, you are mistaken. i have been here all along, lurking in my little corner. the chaos has drawn me out of hibernation

#quill speaks #text post #idk man i just live here

[usaigi]

A found family can really be a human, an alien with autism, another alien with autism, another other alien with autism, a raccoon with bpd, a tree that also an iPad kid, an a time travel variant of a girl you used to know.

#gotg #guardians of the galaxy #marvel #gotg 3 #guardians of the galaxy vol 3 #mcu #Peter quill #rocket raccoon #groot #I am groot #usaigi speaks

[everyone-with-a-para]

is 'paraculture' a thing? like an original culture for your paracosm.

(like madd culture is being sad clothes from your paraculture aren't real)

I don't think so and I gave it a quick Google too to make sure it doesn't have any other meaning. It's free to coin!

#madd #maladaptive daydreaming #immersive daydreaming #paraportal #quill speaks #ask

[book-nonsie-not-anon]

send me asks please :)

i'm going to eat lunch now and when i get back i don't expect a full inbox but i do at least hope i have one or two asks

#quill speaks #book nonsie not anon #celestial same picverse

[lookwhatyoudidithasanxiety]

Crow chirps and wiggles again

"Nes! NES! Wam!"

/Yep! Nest is warm, huh? *scratches their head* Comfy? I can get another blanket./

#quill speaks #asks #crow anon

[autism-shaped]

Hello! I'm Quill.

[EDITED 12/5/2023]

Greetings! I made this blog to explore certain aspects of my identity and experience, primarily around disability and atypical dysphoria, and hopefully find community. I'll also engage with fandom and other interests. Asks are encouraged!

In this house we prioritize disability liberation, equity, and pride. I aim to respect and uplift comrades with diverse disabilities. Disability rights and dignity should be a priority for everyone, regardless of ability status.

I reserve the right to block people for any reason. Disagreement is fair game, but disrespect and hate are not. If your blog is blank, I will block you, as will most of Tumblr. Put something there.

TAGGING: I plan to tag stuff thoroughly and may update this post with key tags to search (ha) or block. This post is tagged for visibility.

MORE INFO BELOW! Content warning for self harm, medical talk, and ableism. If you spot a mistake, let me know!

I originally made this blog to learn more about BIID and "transabled" identity. The aim was, and still is, to engage in open, respectful discussion with people of both experiences. Everyone is welcome to learn. That said, I am not a radqueer and do not ID as transabled.

What is BIID?

BIID stands for Body Integrity Identity Disorder, also known as Body Integrity Dysphoria (BID). People with BIID experience distress, discomfort, and/or a feeling of wrongness—dysphoria—related to their lack of a certain disability. For example, many feel that a particular limb should be gone, or that they should be paralyzed, or that they should be blind.

The distress and dysphoria can lead people to try to create the disability they feel they should have, either by finding a doctor who is willing to disable them or by harming themselves. This is deeply controversial. Some people feel that disabling oneself in this way is a form of self harm, which should be stopped; others feel that the right to bodily autonomy includes the right to modify one's body in non-normative ways, including disabling ways.

What is being "transabled"?

Some people with BIID call themselves transabled. More prominently, people ID as transabled because they...

identify as having a particular disability (without meeting the diagnostic criteria)

want a particular disability

feel that they should have a particular disability

have a particular disability, but want it to be/feel that it should be more or less severe

Some of these people may have BIID, with or without knowing it, while others do not. BIID is primarily associated with specific physical disabilities (missing limbs, paralysis, and sensory disabilities like blindness), whereas transabled people identify with a broader range, including mental illnesses, disabled neurotypes such as autism, and even just the need to use particular disability aids.

Transabled identity without BIID is highly controversial. Because disability is a lived experience with material realities for disabled people, many people find it offensive or flippant for abled people to claim disability identity or want to be disabled. Others suspect that transabled people are actually subconsciously perceiving disabilities that they really have, but misidentifying them or not realizing that their experiences are not universal.

What does predisabled mean? How about temporarily able-bodied?

Both terms acknowledge that a person can become disabled at any time in their lives.

Personally, I use them because they help to express that I am disabled while also being able-bodied. It is important to me to acknowledge both my disabled identity and my able-bodied privilege. Additionally, my family history suggests that I will probably gradually acquire a physical disability before I am elderly, so these terms help me to express that lack of a hard boundary between total able-bodiedness and clear physical disability.

Why are you, Quill, interested in this?

I have been fascinated by disability, medical topics, and mobility aids for as long as I can remember. At some point, I also developed atypical dysphoria that does not fit typical narratives of BIID. Some of this mess can be explained by my diagnosed disabilities, but some of it is a total mystery, and I'd like to find community.

I am also an adult with a degree and extensive experience with disability scholarship, so there's that.

Thank you for reading all of this! I hope you find what you're looking for here.

#tagging for visibility #biid #body integrity identity disorder #body integrity dysphoria #actually autistic #neurodivergent #quill speaks #atypical dysphoria

[wizardemotions]

pinterest showed me some screenshots of posts that gave me the concept for an au where both harry and ron are sorted slytherin & draco is just slightly less rude in the first book. i could go into why i think this makes a lot of sense for ron but i won't. i've affectionately dubbed them the platinum quartet in my head and they will not leave me the fuck alone

#quill to paper #draco malfoy #harry potter #ron weasley #hermione granger #romione #drarry #slytherin harry #slytherin ron #golden trio #platinum quartet #actually i'll go into why it makes sense for ron here in the tags. #imho a major slytherin trait is ambition #and ron *has* ambition he's just never had it actively encouraged and fostered #book fucking one the mirror of erised shows him winning the quidditch cup & being head boy and all #he HAS ambition! and by god does he have something to *prove* #youngest weasley boy who desperately wants to do something different from his family #not get lumped in as 'just another weasley' #he's the anti-sirius in this context tbqh. old pureblood family of gryffindors and he's plastering his room at the burrow w green and silver #in my head draco is also in the train compartment when ron walks in and asks to sit there & harry speaks first so draco shuts up #a little tense but draco also relaxes a little bit. he's ELEVEN he just wants FRIENDS. #ron watches the boys he sat with on the train both get sorted slytherin and has just the biggest burning desire an 11 yr old can have #to get into slytherin instead of gryffindor. to do something different from his other siblings at the gryff table. to Prove Something #the hats like 'ohh. a weasley huh. but so much to prove... there's real ambition #and the potential for cunning... slytherin? alright #good luck! slytherin it is!' #and draco's smug little ass is like 'i suppose there's hope for the weasleys yet if they can turn out a slytherin #and ron is psyched out of his eleven year old gourd bc harry fucking potter is grinning and clapping for him #and also because percy n the twins look SHOCKED AS FUCK as do half the profs #snape is over at the table realizing w complete clarity that he's going to be put thru the ringer as slyth head of house these next 7 yrs

[desos-records]

The part I appreciate the most in the Lockwood and Co show is how it handles depression and suicidal thoughts in teenagers. As a theme, it’s not often (ever) done well. Lockwood and Co is the only story I can think of that depicts it in a nuanced, realistic, non-romanticized way

but first, before I get into it: [if you’re in crisis or need someone to talk to and don’t want to/can’t use your national hotline, highly recommend Samaritans, genuinely saved my life] okay, let’s go

Lockwood is the most obvious, with his general disregard for his own life and admitted suicidal ideation. Lucy struggles with her self-worth and the intensity of the emotions she’s subjected to. George worries that he doesn’t belong, that there’s something useless or wrong about him. The show depicts these thoughts and feelings in a way that isn’t overblown or dramatized, it’s all but casual. Which is how it happens. Depression or suicidal thoughts don’t crash into you all at once, they creep into your life without you noticing

But more importantly (and again, something I’ve never seen anywhere else), the show also offers counterpoints to those thoughts and feelings. It shows that there is a way out, even though you may feel trapped and hopeless. This is crucial for the show’s target demographic. Bad media depictions of depression or suicide get internalized, contribute to the stigma, and make it harder for people to ask for help. This show doesn’t do that. This show tells its audience that, yes, things are scary and painful and it fucking sucks, but it’s not hopeless. And it says it so well

In the second episode, when Lucy wants to quit, she admits something that I’m almost certain she’s never told anyone

“sometimes I just think I’d be better off dead”

And when I watched this the first time, I expected Lockwood to react the way I’ve seen people react in my own life; with silence or panic or downright dismissal. But he didn’t. He stays calm and he says something that is so so important to hear when you’re struggling under the weight of feelings like this

“I understand that”

Saying this tells someone several things: that you’re on their side, they aren’t strange or monstrous for feeling like this, and that you’re not going to attack or abandon them because of it. And you can see the impact it has on Lucy, the way her face clears. She went from struggling to breathe and near tears to calm and steady. It’s no mistake that in this moment we hear his and Lucy’s theme for the first time (those simple, beautiful guitar strings)

The next thing he says is also important

“and it’s not true”

Simple, to the point, directly addressing her feelings, and (the most common mistake) doesn’t make it about him. Telling someone that you love them or that they’d be upset to lose you might sound nice, and it can be later on in the conversation, but in a moment like this, it’s infinitely more helpful to confront the thought itself

A similar moment in the first book stuck with me too, when they’re underneath Combe Carey Hall and Lucy almost steps into the well. What she’s hearing in her head (and the general phenomenon of malaise that ghosts produce) is very similar to depressive or suicidal thoughts. Before she can fall, Lockwood pulls her back

“no, Lucy, that’s not the way it’s going to be”

Depressive and suicidal thoughts deal in absolutes, so sometimes it takes an absolute to counter it

In the last episode, George has that heart-breaking moment where he says all the awful things he thinks about himself, partly because of the influence of the boneglass and Bickerstaff, but it’s also been building up, there in the background. Increasingly, it’s Lockwood and Lucy working together and George working on his own, which picks at old wounds (engineer, engineer, engineer, weirdo). He bonds with Joplin because he feels like she understands him in a way the others don’t

“it’s nice to have someone to show off to”

But Lucy pushes back against all that because she sees herself in all the ugly things George is saying, because she’s felt that way too. She understands that. She’s so surprised and horrified to hear him saying those things, resigning himself to dying down there, she’s not going to let him go on believing them

“you’re not a third wheel or an oddball or whatever it is that you think you are”

“you’re the best of us”

“we are not losing you, Georgie”

Flo called him that earlier too, but Lucy wasn’t there for that and coming unprompted from her it sounds so much like something you might call your slightly annoying younger brother. She’s so absolute about it all, with no opening for doubt, and you can see something like surprise on George’s face (but also pain because now Lucy’s in danger too)

For all Lucy knows, the boneglass will kill her. I don’t think for a second she genuinely believes her talent will protect her; she told Joplin that to protect George. It’s unclear when exactly she came up with the plan to use the skull, but she was willing to risk it anyway. And she knows, she knows, George will blame himself for this (because she would too, if it were the other way around), but even then, she’s very clear

“this isn’t your fault”

Their whole scene down in the catacombs is two kids trying to keep each other alive, physically obviously, but on the inside as well. And, oh god, George almost crashing down next to Lucy after he’s knocked over the boneglass, trying to wake her up. His voice

“Lucy, Lucy, it’s me, it’s me, say something, speak to me”

I think it’s down in those catacombs that George and Lucy really understand each other for the first time. In their own ways, they’re both curious and suspicious about the Problem and what causes it, trying to learn more about it (and stressing Lockwood out in the process). They both left their families; they both struggle with feeling strange and different than everyone around them. That connection pulls them both back from the edge

Lockwood, for all his confidence, is practically in crisis or was fairly recently (I suspect living with George helped). It’s fairly common, actually, for someone suicidal to overcompensate with an exterior shell to hide it, which can manifest in different ways depending on the person (they may not even realize they’re doing it, I didn’t)

And I love how the show handles it. He’s not made into this dark, tragic figure. He’s so full of life it hurts. He jokes around with George and Flo, fights with Kipps, admires Fairfax. He has dreams (plans) for the future. He’s struggling with trauma, they all are, but he’s not Broken™ in the way similar leading characters are often made out to be, in the way we often fear we are

And, of course, there’s Lucy, a wreaking ball through the precarious balance of Lockwood’s life. It’s not so much that she gives him a reason to live (although she definitely helps), but she holds him accountable in a way no one else does. This is the difficult part of recovery that no one talks about. Having people care for you (George) and sympathize with you (Flo) is great and necessary, especially early on. But at some point, you have to take responsibility for yourself and the noise in your head (you have to open your door on the landing)

What that looks like is complicated and messy and different for every person, but seeing it played out in a story is remarkable. I’ve never seen anything like it. This is a difficult thing for anyone to learn (many adults never even try)

That shot of George, Lucy, Lockwood (and Kipps) rising up on the catafalque sums it all up for me. Each of them fell into darkness alone and rose out of it together. They inspired each other to fight and win their individual battles, even when they couldn’t be there to help

#lockwood and co #lockwood & co #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle #george karim #george cubbins #quill kipps #lockwood and lucy #lucy and lockwood #locklyle #lockwood netflix #flo bones #She speaks!

[goose-speak]

words really just cannot explain how much I love top gun- it's just. they're such fun movies? like yeah, there's drama, there's angst, as is a requirement for all movies- but overall, it's just really fun. everyone's having a good time, they're enjoying each other's company.

while everyone has some really good dialogue and character interactions, little to nothing is explicitly stated- so it's up to interpretation

are they rivals or are they exes? do they hate each other or do they 'meet up' on the regular? are they best friends or are they married?

it's up to you.

and that's how a lot of the character's personalities are, too! a lot of characters barely get any background, so you get to make your own things for it- and I think that's really cool! you can show how their experiences has shaped their personalities yourself!

I just really like these movies-

#quill speaks #top gun #top gun maverick