#quitting adderall

[seariii]

Hum...

#im just thinking... im okay tho /gen #just thinking about the words the bestie said to me after I told him about my mental health... #particularly a phrase... he just said 'you are already committed' and when i asked what he meant he said 'to life' #its just... idk... it was impressive and had such a weird feeling... sadly i guess i am committed........ 'sadly' huh.... #sigh another important thing was that it was crucial i went back to therapy... i dont really want to tho... #but 'youve been feeling like this for a long time you need help' ... sigh... what i need is... #the future is so scary... sigh... okay #ill put an alarm to wake up earlier tomorrow and work on that! #seari talks #what i need is adderall- jsjsjsjsjs yeah... alr im sleepy time to mimir #tomorrow ill catch up with everything i missed too #also if anyone reads this dont worry pretty person! i got a bit scared/upset up there but its okay #im quite stable right now! at least enough to survive for a couple days! so yup! #miiiight have to look up a new therapist tho... since aside from help i wanna get a diagnosis.... #sigh... but okay that's not for rn seari it's for future seari. rn seari has to go mimir because shes tired #a mimir a mimir pat pat pat

[fictional-men-enthusiast]

Absolutely no way they meant to imply this about Louie but I’m running with it like Forrest fucking Gump.

#pikmin #pikmin 4 #shitpost #meme #screenshot #before I get the EERM NOT ALL AUTISTIC PEOPLE LIKE FIDGET TOYS YOU ABLEIST YOU CLEARLY DON’T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE AUTISTIC EXPERIENCE #I’ve been on Adderall for Cool Guy Syndrome since I was like 9 I just wany funny food man to be like me we deserve to #have more fucked up little guys (quite literally) as a treat

[writterings]

today is the day i come out of my unintentional isolation and message my friends again. today is the day. today is the fucking day.

#manifesting this shit or whatever the kids say nowadays #finally figured out WHY i socially isolate seemingly at random and WHY responding to messages sometimes feels like life or death #and this has been a problem for years and i literally. just figured out why. shant say here though. #i have like 50 texts 30smth ig dms 46 snapchats and quite a few messages on here to respond to so lets pop an adderall and lets go

[corellianhounds]

I just figured out how to finally completely fix a lot of the story, character, and pacing issues with the second season of Mando to make the story back about him and the kid again, while also fleshing out some of the one-off characters and fixing dropped plot threads

I think if I had Adderall I could type it up into 95 theses and nail it to John Favreau’s door at Disney headquarters

#hounds speaks #I can’t type fast enough to format an outline properly but I’m going back to writing tonight #thank you for indulging me #The Adderall comment isn’t a joke I have ADD and the generic brand of wellbutrin isn’t quite strong enough

[froody]

It has now been two weeks since my Adderall order has been sent to the pharmacy. It is still sitting there out of stock and unfilled. I am thinking about using my one last end of the world emergency Adderall that has been living in my murse for years. This is going to be like spending your lucky penny.

#the adderall shortage quite literally couldn’t have come at a worse time #my CFS is so severe I’m struggling to get out of bed #my brain fog means I can barely concentrate #in one of those sleep 15 hours a day pop an adderall to force myself to do laundry type of flareups #maybe going back on Ritalin would help???

[powergayser]

how did i interpret yuri on ice as subtle when i was a teenager?????? how the fuck did i look at this blatantly homoerotic show and think, "yeah their relationship is so subtle"

what the fuck was i on as a teenager

#yuri on ice #the answer is adderall i was on a lot of it at 16 #rewatching yuri on ice as an adult who is no longer repressed or closeted is quite the experience

[lettucesquid]

never ask

- a man his salary

- a woman her age

- an antonblast fan what time it is

#antonblast #lettuce's doodles #ITS HAPPY HOUR #< me after taking adderall #PLAY ANTONBLAST NOW DUMMY ITS QUITE GOOD

[mumblesplash]

okay i don’t remember when i started following you- i think you showed up in a fandom tag and i was scrolling and liked your posts? not the point. your post has breached containment. a friend of mine whos got a sideblog he solely reblogs from our friend group on has posted. he’s never even heard of you before today. send help. you’re my only hope (i kid, i am very amused. keep on being awesome)

born to post niche fan content forced to go viral every few months for breathtakingly unremarkable anecdotes from my personal life :pensive:

#ok i will admit my ability to go so long without finding out hetalia is a real anime sounds pretty impressive now that i have context #the fact is i just plain Was Not Very Online prior to quarantine #so all my knowledge of things like hetalia and homestuck was thirdhand rumors from my more knowledgeable friends #who i was quite frankly not listening to very well due to a fairly severe case of undiagnosed adhd i was self-medicating by being a jock #take away the gym and hand me a bottle of adderall and suddenly i start to Learn Things perhaps best left unlearned #splashasks #anonymous

[patheticgirlsteve]

not even vampire eddie but i just love the idea of eddie biting people for no fucking reason. is it a sign of affection? a sign of aggression? a symptom of rabies? nobody knows! but they do know to be wary of eddie’s bite because it fucking hurts

#my boy has a lot of biting power #quite the chomper my ed #love that guy #people will be like lol yeah eddie’s a freak but then they just make him act normal #give him weird habits and shit you guys freaks act odd #tell me you’re not and never have been a freak without telling me that you’re not and never have been a freak #sorry if i’m being weird or mean my adderall hasn’t kicked in yet and my impulse control is evaporated #eddie #anya.txt

[stephaniedola]

so i (mostly) cut caffeine in an attempt to reduce my muscle spasms and you wont believe it but they're pretty much gone

#im also on muscle relaxers which is surely contributing but like #if i cheat even a little with the caffeine i start to get them again #ive known for quite some time now that caffeine makes me feel worse than better #but im genuinely like #ok but how am i gonna do my homework this semester..? #caffeine is my adderall #idk i giuess my current plan is to keep not drinking it much until i really need it #and then use that boost to my advantage (even if i suffer as a result) #i shouldnt have even been drinking caffeine at all with my blood pressure this high yet it took me a year and a half to bother stopping #my BP was also lower than it has been in a while at my last doc appointment after i quit #hmm i wonder why that might be-- #thots et al

[caffeina-felina]

When your stimulant medication hits and you're suddenly filled with so much love for everything and everyone

#then it starts to fade into anxiety because the dosage isn't quite right or it's a new medication #here's to hoping I either get used to Adderall or can get back on Vyvanse in short order 🤞🤞 #ADHD #ADD/ADHD

[pinkspiraling]

i drank and i feel so icky and sleepy now

#naturally i am going to have adderall for energy and then drink more to get rid of the bad feelingssss #i actually really hate being alive rn it’s quite awful i’m so sleepy #pink’s word vomiting

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Today I learned that essays and written work isn’t that hard. I just have adhd

#not in the funny haha quirky way #as in. I’m finally getting a diagnosis and got to try adderall and what would usually take me a week to write I wrote in 7 hours #it’s not that bad when you don’t write a sentence and go god I hate this! and take a 40 minute doom scroll break #like. thank god there’s something that works!! definitely made me nauseous and kinda gave me a headache. head might’ve been from no sleep #i finished out the semester #and still helped my ex study til one after 2 huge assignments #that’s crazy. usually I can’t form a sentence after 1 #i was able to just. do stuff #thought. i should quit doom scrolling. and just closed the app?? #and this is a normal thing people can just do #which sounds so fake but also. man. screw that. ur telling me that if someone when I was younger actually referred me to get tested I could #have had this sooner?? that I didn’t have to suffer for 20 years first??? #it’s a really weird feeling. my head was just quiet. no loud obnoxious thoughts. when something did cross my mind I easily pushed it away #i was even more creative. i had ideas and I remembered them long enough to write down. it didn’t just slide right off #i didn’t go oh god my room is a mess I cannot work if the vibes are off #i didn’t even need music #i just up and worked #my ex kept popping in my room and laying down with me and I didn’t immediately jump into bed with her and take a 5 hour nap #i was able to talk to her and do work #and get up and sit with her for a little and go back to work #this is like. genuinely life changing #now I just need to find a good dose #probably not til January. i don’t need meds if #no. no. i definitely don’t function in general. i was gonna say I’m fine until there’s homework #and then I remembered laundry #however I still can’t do anything til I get back from Christmas break cause I gotta go thru my college #but there’s hope! next up is anti depressants #soup talks

[vampirepunks]

Attempt number two of quitting vaping… wish me luck folks

#it’s so HARD #I started smoking cigarettes when I was 16 and it’s been impossible to drop nicotine since then. #i switched to vaping years ago because its somewhat better but yeah I need to quit for my health at this point #being on adderall should at least make it easier than the first time I tried to quit #but we’ll see I guess #logan.txt #personal

[sukimas]

an interesting thing about having (treatable by medication) motivational and attentional problems and (not treatable by any means) vague problems of personality is that taking medication for motivational/attentional problems will slightly change your personality problems. without fixing them

#adderall shortage monday #not quite diagnosable personality issues for the win!

[thedemonsurfer]

Man like... one of the weirdest things about writing is piecing together the setup for a scene.

Like, for example: I’ve written a scene for way on down the line for my story. I don’t have all the setup hammered out yet, I don’t know what all happens from the current point to that scene.

And it’s wild figuring out like... okay, the protag complains about how dark everything is, and that tells me that he loses his flashlight before getting to that scene. He doesn’t try to call for help, so I now know he’ll lose his means of communication.

And like!!! I didn’t know these things when I wrote the scene! I just wrote how it seemed like it should go! It’s like peeking into another dimension where the story is already finished and just getting a glimpse of things.

Anyway other authors already know this but if you didn’t know, most of the time the author doesn’t know what’s going to happen next until they’re writing out the sentence immediately before it.

#writing #idk #i took my adderall and its kicked in so im in babble mode #ive bee trying out a new technique with this fic #which is 'fuck transitions just write whatever scene you're feeling at the time and bridge the gaps later' #and it's working FANTASTICALLY #the side effect being im not quite certain on how long things are until ive got about 70% of the chapter written #and then i can figure out 'oh this is too long we gotta move some stuff around'