No nut November is nearly over.
It’s time for dick me down December.
Lifes hard but when you’ve been through the struggle you come out on top better than ever. Its worth the pain.
god & consumption:
1. “ God announces itself as affliction, as a pain that is gruesome. God doesn’t eat, but wounds. You have to know this in order to live. “ - Fanny Howe, Saving History
2. “As the Bacchae knew, we always tear our Gods to bits, and eat the bits we like.” - Adam Gopnik
3. “I am rivering I am watching / there is a hollowing-out / hunger inside me / I could eat god” - Alex Lemon, XX
4. “But when I lean over the chasm of myself — it seems my God is dark and like a web: a hundred roots silently drinking.” - Rainer Maria Rilke, I have many brothers in the South
5. “Our theory is that there is a god, and he is hungry.” - Carmen Maria Machado, Especially Heinous
The persuit of knowledge is truly wonderful. The obsession to watch one more lecture, read one more chapter is invigorating. How I love gulping down information like sweet milk, and treasuring it in the late hours of the night.
When the world’s not kind
If we have each other then we’ll both be fine
Eliot, Tate, Auden, and the earlier Robert Lowell intended devotion in a number of celebrated lyrics and meditations. I cannot read these without remembering once again Dr. Samuel Johnson’s strictures: the good and evil of Eternity are too ponderous for the wings of wit. The mind sinks under them, content with calm belief and humble adoration.
That can produce poignant prayer but only weak poetry.
“You must love the desert, but never trust it completely. Because the desert tests all men: it challenges every step, and kills those who become distracted.” ~ P. Coelho
Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.
“On the heels of a fiver-year recession, from 1878 to 1887, the desire for cheap or ‘free’ Indigenous land in Dakota Territory infected white settlers like a fever. The decade, during which the white population in the region nearly doubled, was known as the “Great Dakota Boom.” In 1887, under increasing pressure to open more of the remaining 1868 Treaty lands, Congress passed the Dawes Severalty Act, signaling a new assault on Lakota and Dakota lands. Dawes sought to disintegrate collective Native identities and communal land practices by allotting private plots to Native families and opening millions of acres of ‘excess’ land for white settlement.”
Our History is the Future, Nick Estes