#raise me up update

[saltlog]

i've made bigger version of this for testing use for !nprnt--- i wanted to order sticker + print for myself to see how those turn out so. there's few extra options, i'd love to try a phone case but i didn't check is my phone there yet. //////////// U CAN GRAB THE CHEEK PULLING STICKER HERE IF INTERESTED!!! and 15% off code -> -> KZIOWBIS (4 days i think)

#※saltlog #trigun stampede #-> NICE MUTUAL SUGGESTED THIS 1 I FORGOR IT EXISTED.. #-> i'm raises brow how you post links on twitter anymore i'll post here first.......... #-> the other print is there for me only sdfsd #-> as of now i assume the site has cleared up the update issues #-> but i've never done this before so? it's just easiest to try through them

[doubledyke]

it doesn't really make sense in the logic (lol) of the show but part of me loves the idea that edd is being raised by his grandparents.... kids who are raised by grandparents tend to be overly mature and a little uhhhhh off-beat. i feel like it could explain a lot.

#before you ask yes this is me projecting #i know some folks hc his parents as being a bit long in the tooth which i like too #but idk i just think it would explain so many things about edd to learn that he was in fact raised by senior citizens #and shit i still call my grandma 'mom' so to me its not weird at all that he'd call his grandparents 'mother and father' #everything else about them stays the same though #theyre still aloof and neglectful #and i still think the worst of them #anyway i love projecting my trauma onto edd specifically for some reason #he's such an easy target for angst i can't help it #oh and speaking of angst #for anyone who saw that post a while back and is interested in an update on my whole bastard landlord/roommate kicking me out situation: #i found a room and will be moving in 2 weeks 🥴 kill all landlords etc etc but hey at least i'll have my own bathroom #and won't be living with the final boss of millennials/reddit incarnate #unfortunately for you guys though that means i should be able to indulge in my tomfoolery again soon (shit posting and shit drawing) #even though it seems like our tiny fandom has gotten even smaller recently #alright i'll shut up now biiiiii

[heterophobiclanwangji]

AU where Su Xiyan kills the Palace Master and rules Huan Hua alongside her demonic boytoy

#scum villain #sv #svss #svsss #su xiyan #tianlang jun #uhhh i know there's a ship name for them but i can never remember it #my posts #listen im just saying that su xiyan deserves respect and tianlang jun deserves to lounge around handfeeding her fruit #i almost said something about lbh getting a gaggle of siblings but i feel like it's more likely that he's an only child #maybe one younger sibling #having a child is HARD sxy pushed him out of her BODY she is a SECT LEADER now #if tlj wants more kids he'll have to find a way around childbirth or figure out how to carry the kid himself #god sorry the sheer gomez and morticia addams energy that they have #lbh would be more well adjusted but thoroughly grossed out (up until he falls for sy and becomes equally sappy) #there aren't that many fics where lbh is raised my his biological parents but i appreciate it every time #anyway death to the palace master you were a shitty creep #tianxi #tags updated because someone told me the correct ship name 🙏

[bigmammallama5]

i turned in my paperwork to start selling pots in our art center's gallery shop, so now i gotta bust my ass again to get some more work churned out (which this is very cool, and i need to provide some mugs for a special instructor's "mug event" now). i went and looked around and there wasn't a terribly broad array of work? cups, bowls, mugs, some smaller serving dishes, mostly functional work. i'm thinking i'll do cups, mugs, some small bowls for ease, then i'm thinking some pumpkins (with or without a face or a lid idk), some little shroomies which are easy and cute, and then if i can get them right maybe some of those tumblers with the half lid for straws? maybe some wild clay slip...

but now bc i'm teaching more and i might have a little extra from this now, idk if i'll have the time to dedicate for illustration commissions like i had been hoping to do. im still gonna think about it, and at the very least might find a new online shop to offer prints that isn't redbubble. it's not a light decision to consider. :/

#pottery #stupid rant is stupid #teaching and the few pottery comms i have taken have helped me reach the savings goal i had for myself #and just living like i didnt get a life saving raise and putting so much of it away bc im paranoid #a lot quicker than i thought #which is great and im v thankful #but now i also feel bad about not being able to get the time to follow through on offering illus comms lmao #which i know is something i shouldnt feel bad about but i do and yes i need to go to therapy about that and a lot of other things #mmhhh #man almost losing your housing after years of living on the edge of losing a lot can really fuck you up cant it LOL #but anyways #life update #i guess #im also not expecting to be making a lot from the shop at all either #but its very cool #but the gallery DOES have an online shop #and they do have a shipping option #ill yell about it at some point lol #man if i wasnt in a tiny apartment and had room for a wheel #id have some of my logistics solved #one day lol

[sadaveniren]

🙄🙄

If that is what you got from me making a post where I joke about how actual society off of the Internet isn’t going to crucify me or harass me for enjoying something perceived weird, and thinking differently than the average person, all while staying in my own lane (and this isn’t even talking about me expressing that a lot of this is - probably - because of autism meaning my brain is LITERALLY WIRED DIFFERENTLY BUT THATS OKAY) I genuinely question your compassion for people who are different than you.

Like.

I honestly do worry how you handle meeting someone who’s just a bit different than you. You must be someone who immediately bullies someone you think is weird, even if they have done nothing to you except have fun.

#news flash! it’s okay to be weird! #it’s okay to enjoy weird shit! #and it doesn’t make you a ‘psycho’ or whatever!! #as someone raised with the family mantra of ‘let your freak flag fly’ I’ve always known it was okay to be the weird person #being weird makes you unique!!! #idk if anon can comprehend this but I actually have multiple friends who aren’t in fandom who LOVE hearing me update them about fandom #my sibling asks me constantly if there is new fandom drama #whenever I meet up with another friend one of the first things she asks me is what’s going on with Harry #I literally ranted to my husband’s best friend yesterday about fandom #and I have given (a requested) speech at a dnd game once to explain larrie #and even if none of those people believe it #or think it’s a little odd #they still enjoy my company #they still find me perfectly sane #because! being weird! isn’t a crime! #everyone would love much happier lives if we embraced our inner freak side #insert ‘don’t dream it be it’ from rocky horror picture show here #(okay actually people irl DO bully others for being weird and collectively as society we know THOSE are the bad people) #(but these anons don’t really understand nuance here)

[sapphicautistic]

My gf was listening to "White Blank Page" by Mumford and Sons and I once again told her that song is SO much better if it's gay.

She doesn't listen to the lyrics of songs but she's extremely good at literary analysis and this time she actually looked up the lyrics and has now come to the following conclusion: "It makes no sense if it's not gay."

My (objectively best) reading is this:

The narrator was in love with a guy who strung him along, never willing to be in a committed (or public) relationship with him and maybe insisting that it's extremely heterosexual "helping a bro out" sex, except in more intimate moments. Finally out of nowhere guy is suddenly committed to a woman and when Narrator confronted him, guy spat out homophobic vitriol and claimed he's not gay like the Narrator.

(For extra flavor imagine them as closeted, straight passing Midwestern flannel wearing, love-bonfires-and-camping guys who sat next to each other at church and elbowed and annoyed each other like best friends do and were each other's go-to source of emotional support! And then to suddenly shut Narrator out for the first time ever, by abruptly marrying a woman and insisting that he's always been straight and their relationship meant nothing...)

Here are the lyrics:

Can you lie next to her And give her your heart, your heart As well as your body? And can you lie next to her And confess your love, your love As well as your folly? And can you kneel before the king And say, "I'm clean! I'm clean!" ? But tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Oh, tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage You did not think When you sent me to the brink, to the brink You desired my attention But denied my affections, my affections So tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Oh, tell me now, where was my fault In loving you with my whole heart? Lead me to the truth and I Will follow you with my whole life Oh, lead me to the truth and I Will follow you with my whole life

Why call multiple people "you" in a totally unclear way? Why would you claim that your female ex's new man can't love her AT ALL (not just as much as you did, AT ALL)? And invoking the judgment of God is so fucking tedious if you're just shaming your female ex for moving on or even cheating/getting with your friend. Also you look like a creepy asshole if you think a girl broke up with you for "loving her too much".

This song is tepid, badly written, and makes the narrator look like an asshole if it's NOT gay.

The gay reading is the ONLY compelling one.

#i don't even care about m/m romances lmao i get bored when there's no women BUT #this is objectively the best reading #anyways my gf and I came up with the main beats for an entire romance story about these guys #as a dyke raised in the church i really like the religious midwestern reading here too #also there's SUCH a phenomenon of guys having secret sex out in these rural areas and insisting even to themselves it's not gay #so this reading is very compelling to me #i also like to think the woman is like fine. there's nothing wrong with her she's sweet and friends with both of them. #gf said what if she's Narrator's sister? #like i think it's better narrative wise if the woman has no idea and isn't trying to 'turn him straight' #bc the ex CHOSE this. he caved and all so he can stand before God and insist he's 'clean' #which to me... very very resonant #updates on my boring life #also I think the ex can be either bi or gay like it doesn't matter because either way Narrator is convinced ex loves HIM still n not wifey #god i could go line by line but no one wants that lmao it's extremely funny that i fixated on this #i did not even know it was a mumford and sons song or that they are british until gf told me both facts today #i am in no way a fan #im jsut a sucker for religion flavored gay angst i guess or at least this variety of it

[kakusu-shipping]

I finally got the Splatoon DLC sense wave 2 is coming out soon and man. The nostalgia for being back in Inkopolis is way worse than I'd thought it'd be. I really missed this place, and these characters.

Anyway, New Jellysona lore; Jelonzo's his older brother who practically raised him after they moved to Inkopolis. This also makes hims Jelfonzo's uncle, which is a fact about Jelfonzo I forget about constantly. My precious accident baby nephew.

Also sense I'm spending so much time in Inkopolis catching up with my brother I can only image La Fluer is getting increasingly insufferable by the day. Best of luck shoppers. (little cameo by @delightfuldevin because they're the only inkling reference I have on hand kfdsjgkdf)

#Emile's Arts #Jel La Fleur #Jelonzo really had to Learn a brand new language Raise his younger brother And work himself through collage all at once huh #I will forgive the surprise nephew a lot was happening to Jelonzo when he was young #My beloved squishy big brother <3 #The nostalgia got me right away okay he raised me fr fr <3 #My S/I in this case grew up in Inkopolis and moved to Splatsville to be with La Fluer #That was already canon just wanted to state it again #I love that Jelonzo has La Fleur's card in his Table Turf deck it gets to me #Brother in law <3 #If they DO add Inkopolis Plaza as a place you can be post finishing the DLC and give us those old shop keepers back #They'd BETTER update Jelonzo's deck to have Jelfanzo's card this is important #That is his SON

[binarybitex]

monday, 04/08/2024

below the cut: updates on Heart Hollow, a snippet from today's writing, as well as a little peek into my busy body kind of day :-)

genuinely such a productive day. I slept for like 14 hours, had some wacky dreams, and woke up feeling completely revitalized !!

I wanted to get some writing done this morning but ahhh kinda stressed out. this week I have a lot of responsibilities to tend to. so I decided to just get a bunch of chores done and brainstorm out loud to myself as I tidied up. and wow what a motivation tactic! I have so much fun just spit balling while doing mindless tasks like cleaning that I just... kept cleaning!

I went to the grocery store too, and made chocolate chip cookies for me and my partner. took a shower to wash off all the cleaning chemicals I felt lingering on my skin. yucky. thinking about it, all I had to eat today was a coke zero and a chocolate chip cookies. no wonder my stomach hurts lmao

I wrote down some of the ideas I've had over the weekend. I'm reworking the structures of books 2 and 3. it's hard not to get too ahead of myself... I still have a first book to finish!! ahhh.... I just think book 2 is going to be a lot of fun to write. I just love writing romance so much.

around sundown I decided to actually sit down and open up Heart Hollow. the past week or so I've been aching to rework what I have for chapter 10. like I've been saying, this chapter has been killing me for months. I think I finally got it down though.... I really needed to consider what lewis was feeling after certain events in the upcoming chapter Boss Babysitter. (so hard to talk about it without spoiling !!)

i wrote until a quarter till midnight and now I'm finally laying down in bed ..... had to force myself bc my document was starting to look like a jumbled mess to my tired eyes lmao... oh and I guess bc I have time sensitive responsibilities tomorrow too.... whatever tho 🙄 lol

and, from today's writing burst, a little snippet. the only snippet I could share that doesn't flat out spoil anything aaagghh.......

eeeeek I can't wait for boss babysitters release. I know I keep saying that I JUST want to be prepared before I send it out into the world. id like to have more writing on deck so I don't leave y'all hanging on ANOTHER cliff hanger for months ...... sorry about that btw. I know the mirror break is a fat fucking ball to drop and leave off on..... lmao 💀

#when will i get to be a stay at home boywife that writes novels in between tending to the house. WHEN. #its unfair that i have to make money. bc i raise you: i HAVE to write heart hollow!!! #i had a moment today where i was reading my work and i was like.... bro wtf i wrote this?? #it was like an out of body experience but for my own writing. #writing hh just comes so naturally to me. like the story lives up in my brain and im just the vessel its chosen to get it out into the world #its crazy for me to say that but its honest to god the truth. yes i labor over it but its purely out of love and admiration #ok i guess its bed time... ooooh yippee i get to deliberate over hh before i go to bed!! #heart hollow #max speaks #writing update #wip update #novel update #indie project #indie novel #book update #indie books #oc #original characters #oc writing #original writing #tumblr writers #ocs #heart hollow update

[allthegothihopgirls]

i wish my cat was stupid so badly

in the middle of the night he'll meow at my door until i let him out of my room. which i don't, because he wants to come back in 5 minutes later, and WILL repeat the cycle. but he knows whatever the time is, if he uses his litterbox, i will get up to clean it. so he's started sitting in the box, pretending to use it so i get up, then run out of it to sit at the door. and he thinks that because i'm already up, i'll let him out. (he's wrong)

#its 3am i cant deal with his attitude #he did it 3 times before i noticed what he was doing. he has never done this before #but also with the whole out-in cycle he's a menace. he will yell at me until i let him out #then run around the house meowing as loud and for as long as possible until everyones awake #and then decide he wants back into my room #there have been nights where he has done this parade 10+ in a span of less than 2 hours #that was a whole phase of his. he's calmed down recently though #if i only let him out when its later than 4am he'll run around for a bit. and then go and sleep in my brother's room until i wake up. #so that's what we've been doing #but i get up around 4-5 times a night anyways. so you best believe he makes his most incredible efforts to escape every time that door open #admittedly i might be the problem with that because i let him follow me out for water at the bathroom sink for at least 2 of those #but he behaves for me when we do that! at least until he's done. then he starts running marathons and dodging + weaving #and makes me chase him down before we can go back to bed #this is why i don't sleep #i think i'd be well-suited to raise an infant. i pretty much already do it #alden updates #. #gothihop speaks

[theshadowrealmitself]

Nvm sadness over what the fuck

#was feeling sad because one of the people who raised me health has been terrible lately #well kinda sad #sort of conflicted sad #so I checked their Facebook for updates #and it was some of the most vile shit ever #like oh that’s right you weren’t just cruel to us #you’re just a cruel horrible person in general #see this is why I don’t have them as friends there #I don’t give a FUCK about ‘oh but they raised you they’re family’ #barking up the wrong tree with that #holy shit all that was vile #ruined my night in a completely different way #ew #no fandom

[izzy-b-hands]

The PP IT guy admitting he's the only one available to help prep and do chart work for telehealth appts is. Something. Makes me feel for everyone working there rn even more than usual

(did also gently say to him to maybe not mention that to anyone else bc like. That's not necessarily on with good practices re: chart work in my experience at the old clinic job, but also I personally don't care bc he's v nice and I trust him with my info. Others might not tho when they're expecting a nurse or a nurse tech/etc role to be calling ahead of the appt instead)

#text post #bless him he was so worried abt them not having correctly updated parts of my chart yet but #i was like dude dont even worry abt for now bc it's been like that since fall of last year lmao #I'll just keep reminding them of what ACTUALLY should be charted and offer again to link up my old mychart to the new one to try and help #they've refused every time but i refuse to stop asking bc like. some of my allergies are wrong so it is kind of important! #and i really wouldn't mind doing it so they have access to my old charts from my ND doc #anyway shoutout to Steve IT for being amazing and patient and kind to me #he deserves a raise and a month of PTO for that alone in my opinion

[poptartmochi]

schedule send for emails, my sweet darling child 😭💖

#so the manager thing has become official today because i got a pay raise for it! #but being full time here means i am. Wholly Unavailable for substituting at the schools.. if i am not at work there is nobody to run the #store (which ... 😮‍💨) SO i finally mustered up the courage to email the substitute team about the whole thing bc they asked me to update #them as we got closer to my manager's due date + it is now That Time #so 🕴️im so scared lol.. they were willing to block me out for august + just asked for an update if i needed to be blocked out for oct and #november so im sure it will all be fine but 😖😖 i didn't have september excluded and. i will not be substituting this month as u can tell #🥴 #i think it will be okay but our employment terms explicitly state we are supposed to sub 4 days a month 🕴️ just nervous I'll get in trouble #for Not Doing That this month 🕴️ but I'm more than willing to make the time up later in the year when things calm down at work so!!! #fingers crossed everything works out.. anyways i scheduled the email for 8am tomorrow bc I'd feel unprofessional emailing them abt this at #This Late Hour ykwim 😶 pray for me comrades! 🙏🏼🥣🌋 #sriracha.txt

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #working on the selfship blog is just like. okay i will work on this after this semester. okay i will work on this after artfight prep. #i will work on this after artfight. i will work on this after i finish this collab. after i finish this fic. this project. this comic. #oh look at that next semester is starting up. #full plate after full plate and no room for dessert. but i love having projects. i wish i could do them all. i wish i could do everything. #selfship blog is one of many things; but its also one of my most self-indulgent projects. which means that it brings me overwhelming joy- #but its also always set to the backburner. i have a lot of other projects i need to do. silly little f/o time will have to wait. #its such a problem with my energy spending. i /know/ i have low spoons all the time; i have to utilize them better. #that selfship animatic idea is cute but ultimately lacks precedence compared to school or chores or socialization or other projects #i cant bring myself to raise that priority level with so much else on my list. sighs. woe and alas. #selfship blog is lookin cute though <3 i still dont have the colors quite visible yet but i love the ''at agent's bar'' vibes going on #anyway its really late/early. i should get to bed. i have a lot to do since i didnt manage my time very well. #college work and this project and that other project. wish i could do it all. #goodnight i love you <33

[sapphicautistic]

I had such a specific and strange upbringing in many ways and there are so many ways in which joining my partner's family has really brought that home. Again and again.

My partner and I have so many things we have to explain to each other, like we're from different cultures almost even though we're essentially not. And it's normal for different families to have different traditions. But I'm always aware of the fact that her family's traditions and foodways and social expectations and history are essentially normal in a way my family's never was or will be.

They have their little family-specific things of course but overall, they have a shared history and culture with lots of interconnected families. They can so easily find people of a similar background that they expect many of their traditions and expectations and history to be not just instantly understood but frequently shared even among the people they meet as strangers—and they often are.

But there's so much that my siblings who came up with me are the only people in the world can really understand.

When I ask my partner about something her family does, it's often essentially a question about how things are normally done for people of their background. When she asks about mine, I'm often finding myself grasping for words to explain arcane knowledge so specific that half a dozen people at most can fully understand it.

I know it's not that deep and we have much more in common than not. But my isolated and weird upbringing haunts me. I'm not only an outsider for being autistic and disabled, two traits her family readily accepts and are supportive of. I'm also constantly playing catch-up with what's normal. I don't even know what I'm expected to already know by default. It makes me feel alien.

And then I call one of my siblings and they know without any explanation a hundred things I don't even know how to articulate to my partner. It makes me feel very far from home, even though our family was never really integrated into the place where we grew up either. We were strangers there too.

#it's not about feeling unaccepted to be clear #her family are so amazing and have welcomed me so enthusiastically and i love them and feel loved by them #there's just this chasm of experience I don't know how to bridge #from things my aunt has told me I think she and my mother and their siblings were the same way #raised apart from the local customs in part due to eccentricity and largely due to abuse and neglect #there are good things about my history but I don't always know how to explain it all #my partner often says my stories about growing up sound like a basis for a literary fiction story #there's just so much that's strange and hard to explain #updates on my boring life

[toelessbastard]

yall my nephew is literally so cute did u know. he broke my back bc he loves walks and his alr so heavy for a 5 month old but its like!!! ephew!!!Nephew!!!! baby!!!

also my chicks r HUGGEEE rn Jimmy is the width of my lil bros whole torso. humongous.

#my momma is literally a farmer rn. #like. #if u told me last sum.er id have 4 flicks of chickens to raise id call u crazy but here we r #perhaps it is the late hour but i feel chittery so theres a life update for yall #okay gn i rlly should sleep while nephew is sleeping if i want to have a chance at being coherebt if he wakes up #nothing gets a bi5ch more autopioleted than heating milk for a crying baby & then comforning said baby

[blurglesmurfklaine]

(*.*)

#not that anyone is actively incredibly invested #but this blog is my diary so I’ll post what I want #but also I didn’t wanna make like an actual post post so I’m ranting in the tags #so no Stick Season update today bc I don’t have it in me!! and I’m opting to force myself to relax!!! #bc it has been A Day #and for no reason really????? like I was having a great day!!! #and then fifth period started #WHICH IS TRUTHFULLY MY BEST CLASS #like oh my god SUCH good fuckin kids in that class #and yeah my altos are incidentally the weaker section this year #but today it felt like they were doing it so APATHETICALLY and PURPOSEFULLY that I stopped rehearsal #and I was like ‘hey. sopranos are giving 100% and altos I think like maybe half of you are giving 50.’ #and I was like if you don’t want to go to UIL let me know AND SOME LITTLE SHIT RAISED HER HAND but I stayed calm!! #and she’s getting an alternate assignment!! bc I understand Choir isn’t for everyone but also LIKE WHAT ARE U DOIN IN THIS CLASS THEN #but then some other altos were like ‘no we wanna go’ #and I said something along the lines of ‘great but it’s gonna require more effort than what I’m getting right now’ #‘and that sucks because you guys could be REALLY good if you wanted to’ #AND THEN I JUST STARTED FUCKING CRYING LIKE A LITTLE BITCH #like not ugly crying I held it together long enough to tell them to pack up their stuff lmao #But then they lined up and one girl came back to hug me and ask if I was okay and THEN I lost it #like I’m actually laughing now bc ITS SO RIDICULOUS SNDBAJDNSJ LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???? #and then three more girls came back when the bell rang and they were all telling me how much they love my class #and I started crying harder #and I had my tenor bass class next (boys. rowdy AS FUCK) and from outside my portable I hear the girls say: #‘BE GOOD TODAY AND DONT TO ANYTHING TO MAKE HER UPSET!’ #and I’m very emo about it #and two altos came to apologize me and asked to ‘please not go all emo on us again we’ll try harder’ #and honestly I’m laughing my ass off I’m such a weak educator but I love my kids jajshsjsj #ANYWAY so I need some fluff and laughs this fine afternoon and do not wish to write today so SORRY #blurgleshutthefuckup