#rambly

[proxyedgy]

I devoured (pun intended) Dungeon Meshi in a week because I got curious about a manga page that came by my dash at some point. Amazing story and my favorite part has to be how the entire climax ends with the main villain going "Laios what do you have there in your mouth. Laios. Laios stop eating that this instant" very dog owner behaviour.

#rambly #dungeon meshi #it's a surprisingly light comedy considering the heavy places it goes to sometimes #and the art... oh i just adore the sight of every character and every monster #really great really well written. and the Themes #also and i'm sure everyone remarked on that already but. the autism (touden) siblings <3

[butchbarneygumble]

"Bees make way too much honey anyway so it's ok to steal" listen here bucko I have approximately 200 individual pieces of Donkey Kong merchandise which is at least 180 more than the average person needs but I'll still throw a fit if someone decided to take even one of them

#this is about veganism #rambly #i don't eat honey

[mossandb0nes]

LISTEN!!

listen, human beings

I love you. You are so amazing. Keep on doing your best. If it's going well, hell yeah! If it's not, you can get through this.

And alterhumans!! Even if you don't consider yourself mentally/spiritually/psychologically human, you are still very cool and awesome and I love you!!

Everyone: be nice to yourself (and others), remember that your body is the only body you get so treat it well. Food is fuel. You are loved: if by nobody else, by me.

Ok I'm done rambling at you :)

#positivity #hopepunk #yay life #rambly post #i love life #I love living!! #the world is so cool #rambly

[raggedles]

how to stop letting my emotions spike and ruin everything for everyone i love, no borax no glue

#gl #lesbian #wlw #women loving women #lesbianism #sapphic #wlw yearning #wlw post #sapphic yearning #wlw community #yapyapyap #rambly

[bananabumbleb33]

I already miss boops

#rambly #it truly was so nice to just cassually interact with people on here for a day

[featherlight-whispers]

i love jiang cheng immensely, but when i first watched mdzs i despised him. he reminded me too much of my father when he has a bad day. too angry. too unstable. too cold.

but as the chapters went by, i started unearthing the character and more reasons why i didn’t like him. he was the result of an abusive, dysfunctional household. just like my father. just like i am going to be when i grow older. and just like that, he started to grow on me. i started seeing my own anger in his scowls and scathing comments

jiang cheng was made to pick up on enormous responsibilities at a horrifyingly young age. he needed a defense mechanism, and as a grumpy person, anger was probably the easiest one to pick up. it’s the one he’s most familiar with, too. hiding a papier-mâché heart under rage is surprisingly easy

his defense mechanism is the flashiest one, especially compared to characters like nie huaisang (who literally depends on being the opposite to that), wei wuxian, and lan wangji. they’re all more subdued than him

i like subdued. but what i think draws me to jiang cheng, and sangcheng, too, is precisely how different jiang cheng is to the rest of the cast, the contrast between the headshaker and a man with a famously bad temper. he’s what i can become. what i fear to become, while nie huaisang, a smart man, someone who wears his masks to his advantage, beyond survival, is someone i want to become

what i want to say with this is that jiang cheng may be an asshole, and you might hate him for the very reasons i just said. but he’s someone’s comfort because seeing anger in a complex, genuine character displayed like that can be like a balm. sometimes i read a scene with him and it’s like being told “rage is valid. it’s not pretty. it’s not healthy long-term. but it’s a valid option too.”

#mdzs #sangcheng #nie huaisang #jiang cheng #canon jiang cheng #jiang cheng lovers club. assemble. #antis if you find this post please refrain from commenting because ill block on sight #this got personal #and long #featherlight-screams #rambly

[ali-dot-txt]

yo i played persona 5 for the first time (III)

Alright, so this post (previous one here and first post in the chain here) is going to be about my general final notes and about Hina as a character.

Despite all my gripes, I did end up enjoying the game. I wouldn't have poured 230 hours into it if I'd hated it.

But most of the enjoyment I wrung from it was a result of the mod and the personal headcanon I spent the whole game developing. I really don't think this game would've been for me without that, which is why I don't intend on playing Persona 4 (well, at least until that game's female protagonist mod gets off the ground). I might play Persona 3 Portable as that game's female protagonist after a little break, though.

The final tally of Hina's Confidants:

Sorry to all the Yusuke fans.

Everyone's final stats:

In 2017, this would be about 88,000 dollars? Which is an absurd amount of money for her to just have on hand.

Favorite characters? I guess I'll list the characters:

Hina (cop-out, i know, but I like her a lot)

Futaba

Haru

Lavenza/the twins

Sojiro

Sumire

Ann

Ryuji

Akechi (he really jumped up in the last arc)

Hifumi

Sae

Morgana (he really jumped very late in the game as well)

Yusuke (sorry, Yusuke fans)

Iwai (I feel like I'd like him more if I'd got further in his Confidant)

Chihaya (same as Iwai)

Makoto (a sudden and incredible fall)

Maruki (he's the worst therapist ever, but he's pretty interesting when he's not talking way too much and his final scenes are really good)

Skilled Gamer (gonna be real, I don't remember his name)

Ohya

Takemi

Mishima (would have preferred if he was removed entirely)

Hina never met Kawakami outside of class and never spoke to that politician.

Anyway, as for Hina...

She's maybe my favorite player character in any video game ever. The slight jankiness of her implementation lent her so much charm, and characterizing her was a ton of fun, especially with how close my trans headcanon seemed to the game's reality. Does that affection transfer to Akira/Ren, or other people's genderswapped Jokers? Well, no, not really. I can't say I'm an expert on the way people view Joker as a character, but from a cursory glance, I feel like Hina's distinct enough from the popular interpretation that she's basically an entirely different person slotted into the role of protagonist. Maybe that's conceited of me.

Hina has the most common family name in Japan, and I thought Hina was the most popular given name in Japan in 1999, the year she was probably born. Turns out that wasn't the case, Hina is actually much more popular recently. The actual most popular name for 1999? Miku. So if I'd had accurate data, she may well have been called Miku Satou. Probably not though.

Hina didn't have friends in her hometown, partially because she was really quiet as a kid and partially because everyone started avoiding her after she started coming to school in a girls' uniform.

Hina's parents have been supportive from the beginning. In fact, her name is from them (she requested it). Also, they sent her to Tokyo with a maid outfit in her box of stuff, which is extremely funny. She calls them once a week, early on Sundays. She doesn't tell them about her phantom thief activities.

Hina's legal name is changed, but not her legal gender (people only ever call her Hina, even in situations where they'd have only read her name off legal forms, so her name must legally be Hina).

Hina largely doesn't react when people misgender her because she's used to it.

When Maruki mentioned that Hina might make a good counselor herself someday, the headcanon wheels started turning in my head and I realized that that's really fucking good. Hina wants to go to university to become a youth counselor, because she saw what happens when someone has the worst counselor ever. Not to mention Hina wanting to help kids like her who might not react well to an authority figure telling them how to live is really sweet.

Hina's trying to create a real version of her Phantom Thief outfit she can wear casually. She has red gloves in her winter school outfit! Why else would she have those? She's going to get white glasses frames next.

Hina isn't good at talking to people, but she comes off as confident because she also has a hard time speaking in any particular tone, so she almost always seems to be talking without reservations.

Hina is an only child. (Fairly sure this is an element of most people's imagined Jokers. No way does this person have siblings.)

I don't think most of the harsh things I put in quotes to indicate that Hina said them are things she actually would say. I think she's probably thinking them.

Hina has a gaming PC in her hometown. Her buying that laptop was because she was going stir-crazy from not having access to a desktop computer.

Hina likes Morgana much more than I do. She doesn't think of him as a big brother (lmao), but she does love him like a brother.

In contrast, I think Hina has exactly as much disdain for Mishima as I have.

Hina isn't really invested in Akechi. She thinks he's a terrible weirdo who she wishes would stop talking to her. When she learns about his actual motivations, that switches to thinking of him as kind of pathetic. She wishes he would have talked to her about his issues at all, because she probably could have helped him deal with them like she helps literally everyone else, but she's not so broken up about him not being in her life anymore. (In contrast, I actually quite like Akechi now that I get what they were going for with him.)

Hina is good at schoolwork, but she's lacking in common sense.

Takemi actually never misgendered Hina, and Maruki only did so once. It's pretty funny how the medical professionals are consistently the least transphobic people in the game. I wonder why that is? 🤔

Hina got really good at making coffee and curry in the year she spent at Leblanc.

Hina being shorter than regular Joker is especially funny because her animation speed has to be adjusted, so she walks really fast in cutscenes where she moves places. She has to move that fast to keep up with people.

Hina's relationship with Haru is going to cause an absolutely awful scandal if it ever becomes public. I have no idea how they're going to deal with that, but hopefully they'll figure it out.

Hina doesn't really find any new friends when she moves back home, but she's alright with keeping to herself and focusing on her studies while having friends she can talk to online and a cat who can talk.

Hina might be rejected from a lot of universities for her criminal record or her transness. She might've had her record expunged, but she still spent time in juvie, not to mention the heavily political implications of her actions might risk scandal for any university that she enrolls in. She might end up having to apply to universities abroad, where the Phantom Thieves and the events surrounding them weren't so much in the public consciousness.

Anyway, that's Hina Satou. I might write fic for her someday? But she requires a lot of context to really understand her. I care about her a lot, and people understanding her is important to me for some reason.

And finally: some of my favorite screenshots of Hina.

#persona 5 #post series #p5r #persona 5 royal #p5r spoilers #persona 5 spoilers #joker persona 5 #trans joker persona 5 #hina satou #satou hina #modding #postmortem #trans headcanon #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #persona #rambly #very rambly #extremely rambly

[phatburd]

Sometimes I wish I knew something about Overwatch. Then I could actually do something about Jean-Baptiste Bessières being mistagged into Overwatch by writing the world’s worst fusion fic.

#rambly

[diogenescynic2288]

Gender Stuff and Hobbies

In fifth or sixth grade I was interested in the Babysitter's Club novel advertised in the monthly Scholastic Books advertisement catalog pamphlet thing. The description of the plot sounded like something that would be amusing to see on a sitcom. A girl classmate saw me circle it and teased me for being a boy that wanted to read a girl book. Also, my parents didn't end up ordering that one.

I don't have the experience some trans women have of: "I was always more into pink and dresses and Barbie than blue and trousers and GI Joe". I'm kind of neutral on colors*, I haven't tried wearing a dress yet, and I enjoyed playing with my GI Joe, He-Man, Thundercats, and Transformers action figures as a child.

I also did enjoy watching the GI Joe and He-Man and similar boys' action figure advertisement cartoon shows but the selection of things to watch was narrow enough that I also liked My Little Pony and Care Bears and She-Ra Princess of Power, which I think were more for the girls' marketing demographic.

I did own one She-Ra action figure that may have been a thrift store or garage sale find.

Somewhere I found out that one of the enjoyable things to read, for me, is books in the intersection of chick-lit and YA marketing demographics segments. Things like The Princess Diaries. Or everything Ally Carter writes.

Somewhere else I spent time on the internet and started learning that gender is a spectrum and that things like nonbinary and genderqueer identities exist, and had some realizations.

Recently I picked up the first of the graphic novel adaptations of the Babysitters' Club books and enjoyed reading it.

Most recently I had a good paycheck and felt like disposing of my disposable income in some specific ways I picked up the core rulebook for the Transformers RPG and another Babysitters' Club graphic novel, which seems to be second in the series: The Truth about Stacey.

I took that picture when I had both books with me. I finished reading the graphic novel in one long sitting at a restaurant. I'm still working on the Transformers. I'm about a hundred pages in, which is around a third of the way.

I was thinking of just posting that picture and a short text caption like "Enby's reading list", but it felt too reductive, and even though I am an enby and that is my reading list it sounded in my head too close to old people claiming schools have to put in cat boxes for catgender students. Don't ask me why.

*I do wear a bit more pink now as a deliberate FU to gender norms. In fact, I think when I get dressed and go out today I will wear my pink t-shirt with Wonder Woman circled by a rainbow.

Thank you to @thewizardofsass of enduring an early draft of this.

#reading #gender #nonbinary #genderqueer #enby #Transformers #Baby-Sitters Club #comics #RPGs #Transformers RPG #autobiographical #rambly #autobiographical ramble

[proxyedgy]

The chaser, the runaway They are forming compositions of their feelings

I've wanted to draw these two for the longest time

#rambly #i made dis #blazblue #arakune #litchi faye ling

[butchbarneygumble]

They need duolingo for programming/coding languages

#rambly #am i right? who knows #programming

[inurealea]

Now that I think about It, why did almost everyone assume that Undyne is gonna appear in chapter 3?? I mean Toriel did call the police, but Napstablook is also part of the police, so maybe they're gonna be the one that shows Up?

I think it would make sense since they are related to Mettaton, the one who is a TV star in Undertale, though not in Deltarune...

#Idk if this is an original thought i just had or people have been saying it #i just think it would be neat to see Napstablook as more of a main character #so maybe? #Deltarune #deltarune theory #Rambly

[lemon-mint813]

🍃tag nine people to get to know better🌽

tysm for the tag @foolishfreckles and @snfbabydrop ! 💖

🌊three ships: dnn, au!sunshipduo, c!drunz

⚓️first ever ship: Percabeth (I don't really know my first ship, but they were the first ones I got truly invested in and are just the og for me lol)

👀currently watching: Adventure Time! (My friends have been marathoning it and I pop in and out, it's been fun)

🎬last movie: Brave

📖currently reading: Chain of Iron by Cassandra Clare (I've only read the prologue but it's all I got for this question, trying to read anything other than fanfic these days is difficult ok aksnakdkjkpoekw)

🥦currently consuming: cereal! (Honey nut cheerios and rice krispies if you were curious) (yes in the same bowl it's very good trust me)

🥞currently craving: fresh hot white rice :(( (I miss home the rice at school isn't as good)

tags (apologies if you've already been tagged, also feel free to ignore this if you want! No pressure 💖): @nimonasnap @soyaintolerant @brightest-stars-blog @karl-not-found @luminal-space @wack-wizard @jupitersthirdstar (I know this isn't nine people but idk who else to tag I'm nervous ok /lh)

#ty for tagging me! these things are fun #no pressure to the people I tagged tho! #tag game #rambly

[bananabumbleb33]

WERE ALMOST THERE CMON FRIENDS

#rambly #im so close to max received yall

[shrimpmandan]

Ngl I always find it interesting to talk to non-LGBT/non-discourse involved people about LGBT discourse and inter-community politics because there’s very much a noticeable dissonance of “well, this thing doesn’t affect me, so why does it affect you? Why are you bothered by this?” while simultaneously acknowledging that they aren’t involved in the community, and/or community politics.

It’s very easy (and arguably fairly rational) to say people should be able to identify however they want, but it often comes at the cost of ignoring science or incidentally bigoted history. Autistic people being scapegoated by an allistic to “justify” the existence of MOGAI, pansexuality existing as a “replacement” label for bisexuality since either the 1920s or 1930s, the very definition and criteria of gender dysphoria being willfully ignored or changed when the term is already highly inclusive of a variety of different trans experiences, how “gender is all fake bullshit!” can help one trans person and harm another, all of the varying and complex opinions people have on various slurs being reclaimed, I could honestly go on. LGBT people are highly variable in the opinions they can hold and this has been a universal constant truth. The age of the internet has definitely made these politics and discourse more accessible-- as well as opening the door for a whole host of misinformation-- but to act as if community in-fighting and discourse is a recent invention would just be absurd. The issue will always come down to when community politics and discourse distracts from fighting for our actual, tangible rights. If you prioritize identity politics and label discourse over actual people being killed or our rights being under direct threat, then you genuinely need to re-evaluate those priorities. It should also go without saying that other people are not mandated to engage with you and staying in your lane and being reasonably amicable towards things you don’t understand or simply fundamentally disagree with is the mature option in the vast majority of cases.

I have VERY strong opinions about biphobia and bi history, the ableist history of MOGAI, misinformation about gender dysphoria, and the scientific/neurological basis of gender in general. All that can be discussed WITHOUT going out of your way to attack random internet users hoping that they’ll engage you in a discussion you aren’t entitled to. You’re allowed to be frustrated with other members of your own community, but that frustration should never take priority over the rage you should feel towards the bigots in positions of power, nor your ability to evaluate if arguing with a random teen on the internet over their identity is worth it. Trust me LGBT discourse and politics would be so much more fucking productive if it wasn’t a dick measuring contest over who the “real” bigots of the LGBT community are and instigating random strangers, as opposed to, oh I dunno. Posting actual sources pertaining to community history and being open to other perspectives as opposed to being rude and accusatory towards each other? Just a thought.

#lgbt discourse #rambly #neither incluses or excluses are some ontologically evil force can you guys be fucking normal for 5 seconds #nothing in particular really prompted this im just tired and cranky #ngl I think most lgbt topics have more nuance than people give them credit for so I've leaned away from a lot of strictly pro/anti labels #but outright community separatism is killing a LOT of that nuance

[iwantsomethingsoft]

Was sad that I couldn't like and rb all of someone's art then remembered this is tumblr!!!!! It actually HELPS an artist to do that instead of hurting them!!!! Woooooooo!!!!!

#this website can be a great place #rambly