Had a dream last night that u tried to indoctrinate me into a cult. Unclear at this juncture what this means. It may just mean that if u started a cult, I would be v susceptible to joining it. Happy Thursday!
applying for jobs is literally wild like sometimes im working on an application for hours and don’t receive any feeback at all and this morning i literally only changed the company details and the position im applying for and got an invite for a video call like 3 hours later
as mentioned on my last stream ive been meaning to make myself a work schdule and then i did! posting it mainly to annouce that thursdays are my planned stream days, starting in the late afternoon and going into night starting at 6 or 7pm my time
Happy International Lynx Day from your favorite lynx siblings🎉
(Yes, I know I’m a day late, hence the the rushed sketchy piece, but just pretend I’m not)
And BONUS: a quick tour of the 5, yes, count ‘em, 5 (I honestly surprised myself) times I’ve drawn this pose, dating back to before squirrel was officially a lynx. It was fun to remember the circumstances around each, above or below choice, design, companion, etc.
#1 (Early ‘17): The beginning of a long train of poor head shapes, but still respectable as one of the first sketches ever.
#2 (Jun. ‘17): Still didn’t perfect that head shape, did I?
#3 (11/22/17): My extra floofy phase✨ take me back🥺
#4 (Nov. ‘19): A step back in my opinion, but I’d just come back from a long break period, so I’ll accept it.
#5 (Jul. ‘20): I know this was during quarantine heck, but despite that, it was the era when I got the most enjoyment out of art. And no, that’s not Bea yet, but essentially a version -1.
So remember a couple weeks back our “Corrin dies, everyone else comes together to beat Garon’s ass for it, Corrin becomes a puppet of Anankos” AU? My thread for the battle dialogues of the siblings fighting Corrin had gotten unwieldy in length again even though I broke that off from the original AU post, but I never finished the last of it.
So here is the link to all of the previous dialogues I wrote of four siblings (Ryoma, Xander, Hinoka, Takumi)/Azura fighting with possessed-Corrin, and then this post will be the last four (Camilla, Leo, Sakura, and Elise).
Camilla: Oh, dear Corrin. I looked away from you for a moment, and then you were gone. I’ll never forgive myself. All I can do is make them pay, everyone who did this to you...our own father, even, and now this Anankos. I swore that I would cut down every single person who would stand between me and them. How could I have ever dreamed to find you in my way?
Corrin: This...is my purpose. To fight...you... Anankos wills it...
Camilla: Yes...it is he, not you. Your sweet heart would never. I love you, Corrin, but I must strike you down. It would be so selfish of me to leave you like this. To be under someone else’s control, to not remember who you are or those you love...it must be agony.
Corrin: Yes...it hurts. My head...I can’t...
Camilla: Close your eyes, darling. And I’ll sing you to sleep, just like when you were little. It will only be a moment.
Elise: Oh! You’re here again! Azura says it isn’t really you, that it’s just your body being used by someone else, but you’ve still gotta be somewhere in there, right? With your heart and your memories and everything.
Corrin: I don’t...know...
Elise: Well, then I’ll tell you! I’m your little sister, Elise! And I love you more than anything in the whole world, and I’ve missed you...so much. *sniff* I’m so glad I...got to be your little sister...for as long as we had together. *sob* I wish it was longer. I want you to come home. I want us all to be a family again, more than I’ve ever wanted anything else. *sob*
Corrin: Don’t cry... Your smile...I...missed it...
Elise: You remembered! You remembered something! I don’t want to fight you, but maybe it will help you remember more about who you are? If that’s what it takes...I’m ready!
Leo: I was so jealous of you, you know. You had all of our siblings’ attention and praise lavished upon you, and I felt all alone. And then you died and left us with all of these troubles and even now everyone just keeps talking about Corrin, Corrin, Corrin. Always everything about you.
Leo: I couldn’t ever hate you for it. Not when you were alive, and certainly not now. ...Ugh. I don’t know why I’m telling you this. You clearly don’t remember anything about who you are. That should make this easier for me, but all the same...whatever you are...whatever Anankos has done to you...we’re family.
Corrin: My...little brother...
Leo: Come on. There’s only one thing left for either of us to do now.
Corrin: You...know me? Do I know you...?
Sakura: Oh, Corrin! *sob* This isn’t fair! We were supposed to be together with all our siblings and be h-happy. If we had to f-fight we should have been side-by-side...and not against each other. *sob*
Sakura: You don’t remember...but we all wanted to be a family again. Even Takumi, I know he didn’t say it but I know he hoped...just like the rest of us...
Sakura: NO! Don’t be sorry! It wasn’t ever your fault! I should be sorry. That we have to f-fight. I can’t walk away, for the sake of the rest of our family, even if I w-wish... *sob*
Corrin: Don’t apologize... Not...ever your fault either...
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