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yanderefan-kimi · 1 year
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"You won't leave me, right...?"
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bird-inacage · 7 months
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Only Friends: Sand's crushing reality 'It's never about me'
I've noticed a lot of comments wishing Sand could be open about his feelings for Ray. Though that's a fair assessment and would save us a tonne of agony, I've attempted to delve into why this isn't so simple.
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The Weight of Dignity & Mutual Respect
Sand comes across as someone who highly values dignity. Everyone deserves to be treated with due respect, and this is seen through how he interacts with others. Sand gets upset when someone questions his integrity, such as when Ray insinuates him to be a thief or questions him for bootlegging alcohol. He gets angry when someone tries to hurt Ray whilst his back is turned. Sand lives his life by an honourable and respectful philosophy, and the least he expects is for others to treat him the same way.
Therefore it's understandable that he hates being treated like a fool (whether that's being taken advantage of, humiliated or subjected to unwarranted judgement).
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Ray has consistently maintained that he doesn't see Sand as a boyfriend. Said so himself, repeatedly. (Despite his actions indicating otherwise but that's another post in itself). So if Sand were to reveal his feelings, when he has no definitive confirmation that Ray is taking any of this seriously, he's going to risk feeling incredibly exposed and ridiculous. One of the reasons why rejection is so painful is due to the shame that comes with it. A hit of crippling inadequacy and embarrassment. Being confronted with: 'You're not good enough for me. You don't meet my standards. You're not what I want'.
Sand has probably had to experience a fair amount of falling short. To be lesser than, but largely due to means outside his control. He's been able to rise above those things. However, with Ray, he's not comfortable being in a position where he may be stripped of his dignity.
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Boston being the one who dropped the bombshell is what made Sand feel incredibly stupid. For not knowing. For not being told. Which was arguably 100% times worse than hearing it from Ray himself. To be treated with respect is hoping someone will see you as an equal. Regardless of whether they are more than friends - even just between friends, Ray has never alluded to this. (To be fair, he may have been close, but now we'll never know). In that moment, it dawns on Sand how little he knows of Ray.
My belief is that if he were aware of Ray still being in love with Mew, he wouldn't make a move. Because that wouldn't be the honourable or respectful thing to do. So he’s been led to indulge in a fantasy that was never going to materialise. He wasn't in the loop. No one clued him in. He's not been treated equal. He feels like the butt of a bad joke. How could he possibly open up to Ray after that?
The 'Brave Face' of a Caretaker
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Sand is a man defined by responsibility. Due to having only one parent in his life, he's learnt to be his mother's rock; resilient and steadfast. The sacrifice of having a caretaker mentality is that your own wellbeing is often an afterthought. How frequently do these types of people in our lives get asked how they feel. How are they doing? They're so busy taking care of everyone else or taking care of 'business', that no one ever thinks to ask. Their cries for help are much quieter, much less obvious and go undetected.
Though Sand is not the best at hiding it, he'll quickly distract others from his own disappointment, upset and hurt for the sake of greater harmony or in consideration of someone else's feelings. 'It's not about me', he seems to remind himself. 'I've got to keep it together. I've got be strong. There's a lot resting on me'.
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Caretakers need others to take notice of them. To see past their seemingly infallible façade. They need others to initiate care and concern because they won’t put themselves first. Though Sand's mother evidently adores him, he’s clearly established a dynamic where he takes care of her. So who takes care of Sand? No one. He's on his own. He has no choice but to suck it up when things get tough and move forward as best he can. Life isn't going to stop for him.
Though hugely rattled, Sand immediately diffuses the fight. No questions, no demands that Ray explain himself. He’s still protective of Ray. No matter what happens, he comes second.
The Fault is Yours
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Sand really desires someone to see him as 'special', as extraordinary. His life often revolves around others, so if he’s someone else’s priority, that will be a sign. This is why Sand was so affected by Ray passing him up for someone else - he felt expendable.
The gut-wrenching thing about Sand is he doesn't target blame onto others. He doesn't resent his father (who has no idea of his existence). He doesn't resent his mother (who wasn't able to give him a good start in life). He doesn't even resent Ray when he finds out about Mew (because Ray knew Mew first). Instead Sand internalises hardship as a reflection on himself. The reason why Ray can't see him as a boyfriend must be a product of his own shortcomings. Perhaps he's unworthy of someone like Ray to begin with. Boston makes a passing comment that men with Ray's looks and wealth are hard to come by. Sand doesn't need to be reminded that Ray has options. Access to more options besides him.
Things were never handed to Sand on a silver platter, and so he isn't one to assume anything. Don't assume Ray's feelings even if you have a hunch. Don't assume that Ray will fight for you. Don't assume that when push comes to shove, Ray will choose you. Because who are you to assume those things?
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It's one thing to be told you can't have something. But it's another to feel like you don't deserve something. As if you never had the right. Never had a chance.
The fault is yours for thinking you did.
Because you're simply not that special.
(Note: So I'm going to need to see a situation where Ray takes care of Sand please. The boy needs it. He needs someone to fight for him for a change. Bear in mind this is just an analysis of what Sand may be feeling. A lot of these assumptions are untrue as Ray does care. But Sand doesn't know what to think anymore.)
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spaciebabie · 4 months
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sometimes when I have a moment ta think ta myself I step back and really reflect on how out of all the characters I've simped for, springtrap has been the longest lasting. and for what reason. why did my brain pick that guy. you know. the rotting corpse inside of a moldy bunny suit. that's the guy we wanna be insane over? okay.
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gayvecchio · 4 days
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raynavan · 26 days
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spoilers for chapter 6 of misfits by @hehe-hoho-ohno (and also tw: panic attack)
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acasternaut · 2 years
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genuinely unable to stop think about this picture of ray. this is the embodiment of pure fucking happiness. this might be my favorite picture of ray toro ever in the whole entire world. i would do anything for this man.
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thatgirl4815 · 7 months
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Sand had to know he was prone to getting his heart broken when he started referring to his “friend” as the “25th hour” of his day
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hiskinndbodyguard · 7 months
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Literally a princess (even Sand said so)
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5racha · 2 days
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Every SandRay Scene (40 ¦ ??) (feat. BostonNick)
B: "Hey Ray." R: "Ton, you bastard. What are you doing here?" B: "I think that's my line. What's with you and Sand?" R: "What? We're friends. and you and Nick?" B: "I'm here to talk about that hostel project." N: "Sorry, dude. I interrupted you guys again. I'll be in my room." B: "Hey, hang on. Since we're all here, let's party." N: "You're just bothering them, come on." S: "Hey, it's alright. Let's drink." B: "Sand. This ain't your typical stuff, isn't it?" ... All: "Cheers!" ... R: "The cookie's getting to me." S: "I told you to hold back." R: "Good thing I'm not driving. Can I stay over?" S: "More often than this I'm going to start making you pay rent." R: "Go ahead." N: "Sand. Can I ask you something? Are you and Ray going out? You two talk all lovey-dovey like you're a thing, you know?" S: "Look at his face. Look how squishy he looks. He looks just like a dog my mother has." R: "You jerk, I'm not a dog. And I'm not his boyfriend." B: "Ray. I bet Sand likes you. I can tell." R: "Really?" B: "So what is it, Sand? Do you like him? My buddy here has both the looks and the dough. His type is hard to come by, you know?" S: "Now that you said that, my answer has to be yes now, doesn't it? But if you really want to know, ask me again when I'm sober." R: "Do you like me?" N: "Oh, oh, oh? Kiss him. Kiss him, man. Kiss." B: "Even if you really like Ray, I doubt it will work out between the two of you. Ray's whole ass is owned by Mew." R: "What the hell are you saying?" B: "Sand doesn't know you've been in love with your best friend for years? But Mew is with Top now. Someone beat you to it, man. What a shame for my pal. Oh, wait. My bad. I remember you and Mew making out. Did you take his virginity?" R: "Ton, what the shit are you going on about?" B: "Oh? I saw everything. I took some photos, actually." R: "What the hell did you do that for, bastard?" B: "What? I just want to keep track of my best friend's romantic moments. Was I wrong?" R: "'Keep track'? Jerk." N: "Hey!" S: "Hey, Ray!" N: "Ton. You're drunk. Stop it!" B: "Sand has every right to know Ray is in love with Mew. They even screwed. But good thing you came along, Sand. He needs to get over Mew." R: "What does it have to do with you?" B: "Then why the hell did you get so mad? If you're not in love with him anymore, then why did you get so mad? Oh... Are you going to be two-timing." S: "Ray, stop!" N: "Ton, enough!" S: "Stop! Go to your room! I said go to your room!!" N: "Let's go." R: "Nick? Let me warn you. If you plan to fall for him, your life will be miserable. Because the likes of him don't know how to love anyone but himself." N: "Crap."
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seagull-scribbles · 8 months
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Some doodles from my 6th read of MMPR X TMNT II
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raylex · 8 months
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I sketched this because I was sad. then I was sad again so I lined and colored it
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bird-inacage · 7 months
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Only Friends Episode 5 | "This has nothing to do with me."
Other than the fact this scene broke my heart into a million tiny pieces, and had me screaming into my pillow - can we acknowledge THE SUPERB ACTING??!!
The way Sand turns to finally look at Ray as if he's finally seeing him without the rose-tinted glasses. Like a sudden slap of reality/clarity has shaken him awake. Yet he's desperately searching for something on Ray's face that will prove what Boston said was not true. He doesn't find it. Sand is slowly retreating into himself. He's so hurt, he's mentally flinching back. He's putting his walls back up.
And when Sand says "this has nothing to do with me" (aka your business is none of my business. There's no we, there's no us is there?) - the sheer horror on Ray's face as it dawns on him that this is the moment he loses Sand before he really even had him. Before he even had time to process what 'this' was. I can literally hear Ray's heart racing with stricken panic.
After Sand takes a few moments to compose himself (and you can hear his voice on the cusp of breaking), when he looks at Ray again he's wearing his brave face. His nonchalant, 'this isn't affecting me' smile but Ray knows darn well Sand's holding it in. There's a hint of self-deprecation mixed in his expression, 'Of course you don't see me in that way. I was stupid to ever entertain the idea. I'm the idiot. I'm the fool. Jokes on me'.
Ray has no idea what he can possibly say to mend the damage. He feels desperately guilty. He's still conflicted about his feelings for Mew, so there's nothing he can say. After seeing into Sand's life, after having Sand open up to him eagerly, he never intended to hurt him. Someone whose never done anything but take care of him. Ray feels helpless.
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princessg3rard · 2 months
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the algorithm is so correct
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my boy <3333 I will die for him <333
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sea-buns · 10 months
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If we really do enter the reunion ep with 11 players crammed at this table please put Laura and Marisha next to each other again I BEG OF YOU
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ao3statistics · 1 month
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This is self-made. Date: 15.03.2024
The Clinton Jones meant here is the character from White Collar.
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new pfp hunt already to a TERRIBLE start why is he holding her like that :((((
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