#rdc.all

[cassiesboy]

[tw: mentions of vomit and substance use, flashing lights]

james novak is a good christian businessman who goes to church and loves his wife. unfortunately for him, god predestined him to become the ultimate partygirl against his will.

#creativecaviar #spnamvarchive #castiel #jimmy novak #james novak #rdc.mp4 #rdc.all #blog summary

[cassiesboy]

left and right drawings are based on pics of young jackles and megalyn echikunwoke, imagining them as young dean and cassie for day two (athens-era) of @deancassieweek! plus a little bonus early shot of that center thing bc i enjoy the expressions they had there :)

#deancassieweek22 #deancassie #dean winchester #cassie robinson #creativecaviar #rdc.png #rdc.all #when i tell you i have never been more proud of a sketch than the cassie one here. #oh my god. i've been staring at it for 20 mins as of saving this draft. i love women #also funny to me that i opened krita to draw the middle one and now it's my least favorite drawing out of the set lmao. #i just couldn't get their faces right it's been too long since ive done cartoonish work </3 #blog summary

[cassiesboy]

statue of an angel weeping

#sam winchester #spnart #creative caviar #sam #rdc.png #rdc.all #blood cw #eye trauma cw #not quite as clean as i wanted it to be but i'll be honest with myself i fully gave up once i went to add the blood streaks LOL #call it a speedpaint

[cassiesboy]

has anybody seen his samurai sword...?

i am always, on some level, missing sammy’s bloodfreak psychic era.

#creativecaviar #sam winchester #spnamvs #spnamvarchive #supernatural #rdc.all #rdc.mp4 #i love you sufferinggirl...

[cassiesboy]

@deancassieweek​ day three: gold & green and hope for the future <3

i like to imagine a lot of mornings like this for them, where it’s just chilly enough to warrant cassie borrowing dean’s leather jacket on her way to work, but always stops to kiss dean before she goes. (if she ever forgets, dean’s happy to needily remind her.) meanwhile dean stays home and looks at odd jobs in the area. some inspo also from tags on this post by @casitito​:

#deancassieweek22 #deancassie #creativecaviar #dean winchester #cassie robinson #rdc.all #rdc.png #in my mind this is the furniture au btw <3 #dean literally does not look like dean here but i could not be fucked he is there to be cassie's love interest full stop

[cassiesboy]

hello patrons of spnblr! i recently found out i'll be needing to move places. as i prep for that, im opening up commissions for character busts like those above ^ to pad my bank account. things as completed as those will go on a sliding scale of $15-30, pay what you can/want.

restrictions: no w*, no baby jack, etc. needs to be a character with live action reference. i am also willing to draw "reimaginings" of existing characters with different actors -- e.g., andrew garfield as sam (bottom left image). busts (shoulders-up) only. because of time constraints limited color pallets will be preferred, price range differs if you want real skin tones in the piece. i reserve the right to turn down any request if i feel i cannot fulfill it or am uncomfortable with the subject.

im gonna set up a paypal and/or ko-fi tomorrow, but feel free to dm me ahead of that if you're interested!

#rdc.all #.txt #rdc.inf #commissions #spnart #creativecaviar #remaking this bc of formatting issues w the previous ppost

[cassiesboy]

saying grace ◦ @jimmynovakweek​ very late for the vessel prompt

#rdc.png #rdc.all #jimmy novak #creativecaviar #jimmynovakweek #time is fake and i forgor </3 but jnw is so important i tried to break a LOOONG art block for it #jimmy

[cassiesboy]

so  this is what you look  like when   your   father   doesn’t see you.              this feather bird, this              small and savored               animal. how long             will you let me hide               your soft sides?                   how long will you                burrow into clay, how             deep will you                        recede into the                folds of this sightless              safety? if you let              me, i will hold your             eyes when he returns,           so you never see            his face again. if               you let me, i will burn            out every candle, i              will snuff out every                   light, and you will                never have to hide                 again. we’ll all just                  hear each other.

                                      .rdc

#creativecaviar #spnpoetry #deancassie #dean winchester #cassie robinson #rdc.docx #rdc.all #ejecting some drafts #(inspired by the furniture au)

[cassiesboy]

have been floating a lot of ideas in my head about cassie not necessarily becoming a hunter, but wanting to learn supernatural self-defense, after her experiences in route 666, and then that sort of intensifying over time (particularly after dean’s season 3 death) to where cassie’s not a hunter, but is equally as capable as one in combat against supernatural entities. SO this is my wish fulfillment episode intro to a post-season 3 episode about cassie’s status as a pro bono/accidental ghost hunter, which ties in immediately to my wish fulfillment 4x01 where dean calls cassie and tells her he’s back from the dead.

#rdc.fic #rdc.all #cassie robinson #deancassie #creativecaviar #extremely long-winded caption but i couldn't figure out how else to explain this LOL #SPECIFICALLY cassie becomes a ghost hunter. she specializes on accident. like she never makes a decision to become a hunter #she just kind of. wants to help people escape ghosts #and then she realizes also that some ghosts shouldn't be hunted they should be spoken to and healed #and then they can actually help her find their body/remains as they want as badly to be released #as most of the time the people haunted by the want them to leave... #but all this happens crucially without either sam or dean knowing #all dean knows is that cassie decided to take self defense classes after route 666 #and that she's got a good amount of info from what dean passed on to her on their regular phone calls #since she mentioned she wants to be able to defend herself in the future #because like. as much as she trusts dean... he can't come running every time she's in danger #blog summary

[cassiesboy]

open wide your wounded heart/feel yourself be blown apart

#deancassie #creativecaviar #spnedit #here's another long-stewing thing from the drafts #rdc.all #rdc.png #parallels #shoutout to ivy i remember you recommending this song aaages ago and i went wild in your dms making this

[cassiesboy]

in another world jimmy novak notices from a young age that he has a superhuman ability for endurance (as a result of his chosen status for vesseldom) of some truly wild shit (like the boiling water), and it sets him apart so starkly from his peers, some fascinated and some horrified in turn, that he ends up joining the circus. when castiel finds him, jimmy isn't an advertising salesman for am radio, happily married with a kid and a thriving place in his local church.

instead, he is sitting under the low canopy of a circus tent at night, passing plastic bottle vodka back and forth between a man who swallows swords for a living. the cold air of the night puffs slowly against their fronts as the show goes on through the open flap behind them, casting a warm yellow glow on their backs. laughter and gasps of shock and the soft explosion of the firebreather at work. above and behind jimmy, the only two places he has ever felt at home: the circus and the stars.

#jimmy novak #james novak #castiel #creativecaviar #what does jimmy do? not sure. maybe he's the human pretzel #rdc.all #rdc.fic #jimmy

[cassiesboy]

and i’ll admit it (someone has to): i’m still trying to be holy. you always say i don’t need to. if that is right, you’re the only one who can make it so.

so let me choose prayer. let me kneel before you and almost mean it. let me choose mercy. let me open my arms and almost reach for you.

let me choose kindness. let me see your face and almost feel your touch. let me choose understanding. let me hear your voice  and almost listen to your words.

let me choose hope. let me believe in you and almost believe in me. let me choose love. let me feel your heart and almost love you right back.

let me choose prayer. let me kneel before you and almost mean it. let me kneel before you and almost mean it.

let me pray and mean it.

let me pray and mean it.

                                                 .rdc

#spnpoetry #creativecaviar #sastiel #? maybe. idk it could be a number of things LOL but i think i originally drafted this with sastiel in mind #rdc.docx #rdc.all #could also be casjimmy let's be real #scheduled

[cassiesboy]

more of this 3x17 / 4x0.5 script on ghost-busting Cassie, speculatively titled 1234567890 GOOD BYE or Treat the Spirits with Respect. first pass at a conversation where cassie asks dean to fill her in. not sure if this would be a good format for a full-length fic but it’s really fun to write in script format

#rdc.fic #rdc.all #wip #deancassie #4x01 666er rewrite #weaves all my deancassie headcanons in together for max wish fulfillment per page #blog summary

[cassiesboy]

scrapped sketch from that deancassieweek spread that i didn’t end up keeping in -- decided to build on it tonight as a stress relief. still not 100% on it but the process was neat

#rdc.png #rdc.all #dean winchester #supernatural #spn #creativecaviar #hi it's 2:30am LOL #his eyes are still messed up imo #and i kind of prefer the expression in the early sketch #but idk it was neat

[cassiesboy]

Hey I just read "Birdbones" and Wow. The "single match flicking out in a vast expanse of a nebula" is masterful imagery. Also I like how Castiel didn't realise he was crying; it was very him. I loved how in-character-weird their life was together - terrycloth and cold metal lampposts, hard cover books. Comforting, strange intimacy. They're both kind of strange. Strange situation. You are extremely talented. Thanks for writing it, it's on my mind very often.

AHH oh my god im emotional thank you, this was so sweet... with that section with the terrycloth and all, there's definitely a strangeness to it. to me, the core of cas and jimmy's pre-series relationship is like, okay, this guy upended my life and stuff, but im realizing there's this deep sadness in him because he's spent his whole time on earth separated from the people and the experience he's living and fighting amongst.

so jimmy decides to show him what it means to be on earth, to have that experience of the terran humanity, and what it came down to for me writing it was like, how do i break down this dip into the human experience into a few fragments that cas can hold onto? and so the idea was to put together a loose, broad set of sensations and experiences so that if you squinted, you would see the vague outline of humanity appear in it. so laying out in the sun, staring up at the stars, waiting for a bus in the cold, jumping into a lake and drying off with a towel that's both rough and soft at the same time. humanity as a tactile experience, humanity as a way to ground someone from dissociation.

it's all of course still strange and disjointed, because this still amounts to jimmy trying to condense his whole lifetime experience of being alive into a series of what can essentially be understood as daytrips for cas to take. and with cas inherently experiencing it all from the perspective of a divine soldier going intermittently awol, there's still going to be that disconnect of like, he's holding a handful of brightly colored stones in his palms, and he thinks they're beautiful, but he's still just sort of looking at them, if that makes sense. he both wants to understand and is terrified of understanding what jimmy is trying to show him, or maybe more specifically, terrified of the effect jimmy's lessons is having on him being found out by his superiors.

ANYWAY digression over, thank you so much this like made my morning fr <333

#ask #anonymous #saved #casjimmy #jimmycas #rdc.docx #rdc.all #one thing that you have to know about me is that i will elaborate

[cassiesboy]

i can’t keep doing this. can’t keep breaking into your mind like a burglar and stealing your love. can’t keep convincing myself the alarms will turn off soon. can’t keep picking your pockets. can’t keep hiding your keys before i leave. i love you. i hate the house you make yourself live in.

                                           .rdc

#deancassie #spnpoetry #creativecaviar #this is cassie by the way. she mentions he was emotionally distant in the breakup and i always forget that #clearing more out of my drafts today hiii #rdc.docx #rdc.all