#realizing im a boy. that the masculine presence in me was greater than the feminine presence

[snekdood]

jkr, what if my trans identity came from a spiritual journey within, and not much influence from the outside?

#mood #??? #what say ye terf #like i 'stopped' being trans essentially (at least my nb identity after that was also suppressed and i was seen as a girl anyways) when i #was 16 bc i had so little support from the people around me who refused to see an inch of me- though most of those folks didn't really #get to know me or know shit about me or my internal world at all so yknow. not sure how they had insight on my gender #regardless. i stopped being trans. and i was off the internet for MONTHS just having a lil spiritual experience and journey #and somehow some way inspite of all my apprehension and shame somehow i came back to the same spot #realizing im a boy. that the masculine presence in me was greater than the feminine presence #so if mere exposure to the concept of being trans is people actively pushing transness down kids throats then ig all #'autistic girls' are gonna be trans you paranoid creepy livid cunt. leave people alone to live their lives #not only was i off the internet this is around the time i got so paranoid i dropped out of school and stopped talking to everyone also #the only thing i really did online was engage in weird mixed spiritual bullshit cherry picked by new agers. id look up concepts further on #my own so picked up SOME stuff from hinduis #m already but not all of it which is pretty annoying bc new agers just kinda steal and appropriate concepts from hinduism w/o giving #due credit or acknowledging the origins and respecting those origins and that culture... obv i was ignorantly guilty of this >-> but #and its even more annoying bc a lot of the concepts stolen are incomplete without knowing plenty of other stuff from hinduism #it either doesnt work or isnt that effective bc theres so many parts missing in teachings of chakras and law of attraction etc #but anyways i could rant about that for an hour so ill save that for later lol #so i was havin my lil spiritual journey and the only thing that really brought me back to being trans was the concept of aliging #the diving feminine and masculine in me #which one naturally would interpret in a trans way if they were brave enough to admit it hsdhjs #bc you dont embrace the divine masculine within without bending the gender binary @ cis women #anyways #trans agenda is fake #if the trans agenda is real then ig go back in time and try to stop hindus from having trans gods lol #good luck bro #HONESTLY the concept of the 'trans agenda' reminds me of JQ shit considering they think jewish ppl back in time were conspiring something #idk what but something lol #ig all the ancient trans people were just part of the trans agenda smh my head