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bloodshot-interactive · 3 years

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Our Love is Nothing but a Game

A one-shot drabble about how Bliss and Madison’s breakup went down. Be warned of implied sexual themes

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The Grand Metropolis skyline illuminated brightly with pride throughout the late night sky as the motorcycle sped ahead of the other vehicles on the road. Madison was clearly upset as he drove his way to a bar. Not only does he like and want to drink, but it was also his way to cope, to let loose and clear out whatever was holding him back.

Speaking off holding back.

He got reminded of what happened earlier…

Flashback a few hours…

As Madison returned to a cheap hotel from his gig, the entire suite was quiet. He assumed Bliss was already asleep so he walked further to the living room calling for Bliss that he was home. No response. The only noise was a cheesy old sitcom on TV.

“Come on, Bliss…” he muttered under his breath as he picked up the remote from the table and turned off the TV. He walked over the only bedroom in the suite.

Bliss wasn’t sleeping. She wasn’t there at all. The only things left lying about on the bed was a small note and a banquet of pink and red roses. The raven’s brow was raised as he picked up the note and read it.

“Sorry Maddie. It’s time we move on...” followed by a kiss mark…

End flashback...

He sighed, rolling his eyes as he parked in front of the bar. He took off his sunglasses, and stuffed it inside his leather jacket before walking inside. ‘Don’t worry about that, just have fun…’ he thought to himself.

Everyone at the bar is living lively, having a chill time talking, laughing and dancing, lights dimmed purple, magenta and blue. Madison sat down at the barstool and waved at the squirrel tending the bar.

“Gimme a glass of whiskey, extra ice” he ordered to the squirrel, and with that they were quickly right on it as requested. They slid the drink over to Madison as he caught it. Taking a small sip of the drink, the bird smiled. Cold. Exactly how he liked it.

As the raven turned around to watch everyone having a good time, he saw a couple making out in the corner, and another pair leaving the bar, happily drunk, holding onto each other for dear life and giggling at whatever. He sighed, leaning back on the counter, taking another sip. He really wished it was him….and Bliss.

There's a sudden faint floral smell in the room. That fragrance was all too familiar to him. Putting his drink down, he hopped off the barstool to follow it.

Is that really who I think this is?

That can’t be. Right?

The floral smell got stronger and warmer as he stood at the round table staring directly at who it belonged to. Madison’s eyes widened. Heart skipping a beat.

It was her.

“Bliss?”

As the moth was in the middle of her waiting daze, surrounding herself in heavy pink smoke from her e-cigarette, she turned to the voice belonging to the familiar raven. She tilted her head and gave him an unnoticeable, fake smile, her small, crimson sunglasses gave off a shine from the dimmed multicolored lights.

“Ohh, hi, Maddie! I didn’t think you’d find me here of all places. What brings you here?”

Madison folded his arms and glanced away at the silk moth. “Ah ya know, just trying to let loose, meeting new people, just vibing… ya know?” He chuckled sheepishly, hiding the fact by how hurt he was. He’s having the urge to ask her a question, biting his lower beak.

Bliss chuckled softly, taking a drag of her e-cig. She then blew out more smoke as she spoke, “That's good to hear. You deserve to vibe after all that hard wor—“

“So what’s up with the note?”

The moth’s antennae flicked at the sudden question from the raven. She switched her e-cig off and stuffed it into her hot pink purse. “Excuse me?”

Madison’s voice was a bit firm, held out his hands for gesture as he leaned a bit forward, “The note! And flowers on the bed. You left me!” his arms drooped down in a bit of defeat “Why? I thought our relationship was strong.”

“The note…” the silk moth thought for a moment with a mutter, “Oh right, the note! Yeeeaah, about that” she pushed her sunglasses down a bit, her pitched black eyes staring up at the bird. She clearly has no pupils but Madison can tell she was looking at him. “I got bored. So I left.”

“Bored…?” He muttered monotonously in question

“Yup” she laid back on the cushioned seat, one leg over the other, giving the raven a cold smirk, “honestly, I never actually loved you. I only wanted you for your money, but it seems like you have nothing left on you after you waved goodbye to that degenerate gang of yours. You really believed that our love lasted that long?”

“I DID!!” The raven’s yelling caught everyone’s attention to the former couple. They all stopped talking and everything they were doing, even the music came to a halt. All eyes are on them now. It made Bliss flinch quite a bit but it didn’t bother Madison none.

His feathers bristled, leather gloved hands clinched to fists, “You think our relationship is a game to you?! I put so much effort on my love for you! I gave you everything you wanted!!”

Madison’s brows furrowed with the sign of confusion and anger but didn’t break eye contact with Bliss. The poor guy was heartbroken. “Bliss! I loved you!!”

The silk moth frowned and turned away, crossing her arms impatiently. No response.

“I spent most of my money on a fancy dinner, an amusement park, the goddamned movie theatre! And on top of that, I ditched my fucking gang so I can spend more time with you while on a solo gig!” Madison facepalmed at the last thing he’s ever done. That was the biggest mistake on his part.

“My boss is gonna want me dead by now…!”

Bliss turned back to Madison, a sultry, cat like smirk returned to her face, “That's good! Dirt cheap men like you deserved it. Anyone I touch will suffer beautifully. And you’re one of them. I can see it on your pathetic little face...” her dangerous smile grew wide.

The raven was disgusted by her statement, “So you want me dead after everything we had together?! Are...are you fuckin’ hearing yourself right now??”

“Nope.” The silk moth got up, snatching her overcoat and purse off the seat, “I honestly don’t have time to deal with you right now. You men are nothing but sorry excuses who don’t know to treat a lady. It’s over between us. At least there’s someone else out there with better class!” As soon as she’s out of her seat, she sees someone calling her name. Her wings fluttered as she flew quickly away from the bird, calling out sweetly to the one bulky grey wolf. “Big Daddy~!”

Madison looked on at his ex and that wolf in disbelief.

“Aye, there’s my lil’ Creme Puff! Sorry I took so long, hadda take care of some business.” the wolf gave the moth a toothy smile, gently squeezing at her ass with a hug. He then took a look at a confused Madison across from him. “That bird botherin’ ya?”

Bliss’s gloved claws gliding elegantly, at the wolf’s broad chest, nonexistent hues staring pleadingly at him, “Oh Big Daddy~ indeed~! That mean ol’ bird won’t leave me alone!” She pushed herself against him, “Please, Big Daddy, make him stop!” As her silky, seductive voice and wanton touch puts the wolf under a spell, his clawed hand gently slides down at the moth's soft hair with a huff, smirking at her.

“Aight, let Big Bad handle this one. Ya stay put, my lil’ Creme Puff” the Wolf, known as Big Bad walked over to Madison, towering over him. “Ya gotta problem with my girl?”

“Your girl?” Madison scoffed and folded his arms, grayish blue eyes locked at Big Bad orange ones, “You mean, my girl, right. You hardly ever met her!”

“Oh yeah?” That’s when Big Bad grabbed Madison by the collar of his jacket, bumping each other’s heads. “Lemme tell ya somethin’, buddy, Bliss is my girl now. So ya betta stay away from her, or else we gon’ have some problems, ya feel me!?”

The raven growled in anger as he looked over at the wolf’s shoulder and spotted Bliss, who’s smiling deviously at the both of them. He looked back at the Wolf and pushed him away. “Yeah, I understand perfectly. Though, I got one advice for you, my man. You better keep ya eyes open, ‘cause you’re dealing with something that you’re gonna regret!”

“Tha fuck’re tryin’ a say?” Big Bad’s orange hues staring up and down at the bird, looking to punch this guy senseless.

“All I’m saying is, to her, you’re nothing but a pot of gold, but she’ll leave you to rot if you ain’t got shit for her like she did to me just now. So you better count your fucking days, bucko, you’ll be biting the dust before you know it!”

As soon as Madison was on his way out, he was grabbed from the back of his jacket by Big Bad, and was tossed towards the very back where the DJ was playing his tunes, crashing forcefully at the wall in the process. Everyone gasped and muttered about as to what’s going on.

Madison slowly sat up and took out his handgun

from inside his jacket. This caught everyone’s attention. “That does it, you’ve crossed the line!!” But before he attempts to pull the trigger, Bliss was in the way, hugging Big Bad lovingly, pecking kisses at his face. Madison lowered his weapon and stuffed it back into his jacket in defeat.

“Oh~ Big Daddy, you’re such a big, strong man~! You're turning me on already!” Bliss’s voice was too sultry, too sweet to resist, but her stare at the poor raven was deadly and devilish for sure.

“Heh, what can I say, they don’t call me Big Bad for nothin’ ya know?” The grey wolf wrapped his arm around the silk moth before they left the bar. “Let’s head over to my club, too many creeps n’ freaks up in this joint”

Watching this newfound duo leave, Madison brushed himself off in anger and kicked the dirt off the floor. He aggressively took off his jacket and threw it to the floor. He noticed all the patrons, even the DJ and the bartender were watching this in concern and fear.

“What the fuck are are you all looking at??” He muttered, grabbing his jacket off the floor and stormed out of the bar.

Driving back to the hotel, he smirked and started laughing to himself. What a fool he was; and to think he and Bliss had something special and now he’s been played. He should’ve listened to ZigZag and Diesel about leaving the gang, but he was too blindly in love with the moth that he had to. Now he’s a dead man walking and he had to figure out ways to not be seen by the bikers to get himself killed. Fuck that! He’s not gonna take shit from anyone. He’s gonna let everyone in Grand Metropolis know that he’s not a game, that he’s not the man to mess with.

And he sure as hell, karma will soon creep at that Bitch.

Their love was nothing but a game...

#[Stories to Tell]: Literature #[Tough Love]: MadiBliss #[Maniacal Shooter]: Madison #[A Femme Fatale with a Flowery Scent]: Bliss

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ezm-imagines · 5 years

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you give love a bad name: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: Greaser!Bucky one shot

Word Count: 4.8k

Warnings: cussing

Tags: biker!bucky, greaser!bucky, high school au,

A/N: I’ve been sitting on this story for MONTHS and I don’t like it too much, but I figure I might as well publish it if I’m never gonna do anything else with it!!

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“What are you doing tonight?” Bucky appeared out of nowhere, immediately falling into step with you.

“What, were you waiting out here for the past fifteen minutes since class ended? For little old me?” You replied sarcastically.

“Actually, for the past hour. I skipped last period.”

“Wow, my hero,” you deadpanned.

He chuckled and took a puff of his cigarette.

You plucked it from his lips.

“Hey!” he protested, smoke leaving his mouth with the syllable.

“First lesson, I don’t go out with smokers,” you dropped the cigarette on the ground and stepped on it as you continued walking, “So if you have more of those in your pocket, then I think the entirety of tonight is booked for me.” You grinned over at him as he shoved his hands in his pocket, defeated.

“Fine, fine, whatever.”

“What, am I not worth the chase anymore if it means you have to give up your gross addiction?” You fake pouted, actually hoping he’d agree and leave you alone.

“Aw, no, you won’t get off that easy, darlin’,” his strikingly white teeth sparkled as he gave you a large grin, “So, I guarantee, no cigs. Is tonight looking a little more free now?”

“It’s actually looking a little more boring. Wanda and I are having a study sesh for most of it.”

“Cancel.”

You stopped walking, “Cancel plans with my best friend that will help me do better in school in order to have some weird, ‘wild’ night with Bucky Barnes? You really think you’re hot shit, huh?”

“Nah, nah,” he replied, raising a perfect eyebrow, “I know I am.”

You gave a short laugh, “Ah, clever,” you picked up your gait again, “It appears there is a brain behind that big leather jacket.”

“You bet, sweetheart. Maybe if you’re lucky, I’ll let you take the jacket off,” he winked.

You laughed, unimpressed, “If I’m lucky? More like if you’re lucky. Try those BS lines on some other chick, baby.”

You pushed past him and continued toward your car.

“Alright, alright. You’re right.” He put a hand to his heart, “I would be lucky. So whaddaya say, darlin’?”

You tilted your head to the side and stepped forward to face him. “What do I say?” You repeated.

You grabbed the collar of his leather jacket and pulled his smug grin an inch away from your lips.

“The answer,” you whispered, “Is no.”

You grinned and pushed him away from you with a laugh, his eyebrow furrowed with confusion at how you not only rejected hooking up with him, but also even just a kiss with him.

“See ya Monday, baby,” you yelled over your shoulder, strutting down to your car at the end of the lot.

***

You sung along under your breath with the song playing gently in the background of your room as you typed in the problem into your calculator.

“Oh, perfect,” you frowned, looking between the calculator’s answer and your own, “That is nowhere near what I got. Amazing,” you pushed the books off your lap and groaned, sitting back against your bed. “This is hopeless. I’m gonna fail Calculus, and then I’m gonna fail high school, and then no college will ever accept me and I’ll have to spend my life trying to climb the ranks at McDonalds.”

“Mmm, yup, you’re right,” Wanda replied, laying down next to you. “This one test in one subject will completely blow past your 4.0 GPA and doom the rest of your life.”

“For once can you just let me be dramatic?” You whined.

“Hmm. No I don’t think so.”

You rolled your eyes, but laughed along with her.

However, Wanda interrupted your laughing by holding a finger up and pausing.

You quieted and waited for whatever she was doing.

“Hear that?” She mouthed.

You furrowed your brow and nodded. Yeah, you did.

It sounded like muffled yelling. And it was coming from your outside wall.

You stood up and turned off your main light in order to see the dark outside your window. You raised your window blind and squinted out into the darkness, before seeing a figure raise its arms in victory.

“Who is it?” Wanda asked, beside you.

“An utter idiot,” you replied, unlocking your window and pushing the glass open.

“What on earth do you think you’re doing?” You shouted down at him.

“Getting your attention. And checking your alibi,” Bucky looked Wanda up and down.

“Yes, genius,” you yelled back, “I wasn’t lying. I was actually studying. I know you aren’t familiar with that term, but it is, in fact, a real thing. Why are you even here?”

“I was in the neighborhood and I figured I’d stop by.”

“You’re always in the neighborhood. You literally live four houses down.”

“Oh do I? Hmm, hadn’t noticed.”

You rolled your eyes, “What do you want, motorcycle boy?”

“Motorcycle boy? Oh, come on, doll, I’m worth more than that.”

“Well, now that I see how much you hate that name, you’re forever branded with it.”

“Fine, fine, I walked right into that one. But how about YOU walk yourself down here and go out with me?”

“Or how about no?”

“Come on, sweetheart, you’re gonna have to agree one of these times. I’m trying my hardest here.”

“I certainly do NOT have to agree. But you can keep trying all you want. In fact, feel free to wait outside this window all night. Hell, build a fort down there and sleep here. I don’t care. This is never gonna happen, baby.”

You waved before shutting the window.

“Aw, come on,” he grinned at you.

You closed the blind and huffed back on the bed, ignoring the muffled noises from outside the window.

“So,” Wanda laughed, “What’s the deal with him?”

“Oh, I don’t know,” you shrugged it off.

“He’s cute, you should go for it.”

“Wanda! Not helping!”

“What? What’s so wrong with him? He’s hot, and he seems pretty sweet.”

“Can we just stop talking about this? This is exactly what he wants us to be doing, and I refuse to give in to the enemy.”

Wanda just laughed, but complied nonetheless.

***

“Fancy meetin’ you here stranger,” a deep voice came from behind you.

You sighed and turned around, readjusting the grocery shopping basket in your hand, “You following me?”

“Believe it or not, sweetheart, you’re not the only one who needs to eat.“

You raised an eyebrow, unconvinced.

“Alright you got me. To be honest, I just wanted to get out of the house for a bit. But no, Miss Egomaniac, I had no idea you were here. I’m actually just here to buy this,” he reached past you to grab something, getting dangerously close as his shoulder-length hair brushed across your cheek.

You froze in your spot, not sure how to react, especially when jesus did he always smell this good?

He pulled back, though returning to a spot much closer than he was before.

He held up a Coke, spinning it around to see the label.

“Hmm, ‘Share a Coke with Your: Better Half.”

He looked directly at you, smugly, as he twisted the cap off and took a long drink.

“Oh, you’re one of those people, huh,” You spoke up, “Using the product before you buy it?”

He shrugged, swallowing the soda, “What’s it matter if I’m buying it either way? They’ll get my money soon enough.”

You shook your head and crossed your arms.

“Come on,” he waved it in front of your face, “We can’t disrespect the bottle, now, can we, Better Half?”

“We absolutely can. Those names are arbitrary anyway; it’s just to get more sales.”

He pushed the bottle toward your further, and you looked down at it.

Ugh. FINE.

You snatched the bottle and took a quick swig. You swallowed it and shoved the bottle back in his hand before pushing past him and down the aisle.

“Aw, come on, doll, it wasn’t that painful!”

“Yes, it was!” You called over your shoulder.

You heard him chuckling as you shook your head and turned into a different aisle.

***

You shut your locker to find Bucky on the other side of it.

“So, how’d you do on that test you studied so hard for?” He asked, one arm leaning casually against the wall.

“Good, I think,” you began walking, “But grades won’t come out for a few more days so that’s TBD.”

“Was it worth blowing me off for?”

“I seem to recall you made multiple appearances during my weekend, so I don’t know what you mean by that.”

“You still blew me off.”

“Only in your dreams,” you sniped back, staring him down with the statement’s double entendre implications.

He looked away, a large, impressed grin on his face, “Alright, that was a good one, I’ll admit it.”

“Plenty more where that came from, motorcycle boy,” you smiled, stepping away from him to go to class.

“‘Plenty more?’ So you admit you’ll keep talking to me?” He called after you, a proud smile on his lips.

“Don’t count on it!”

***

You were walking down the steps toward the parking lot to see Bucky leaning against his motorcycle and waiting for you. Again. Except this was the first time that you caught him before he caught you. But before you could start the conversation, Bucky had already seen you and was by your side.

He opened his mouth to speak but you cut him off.

“You know, you can’t just come up to me everyday to try to convince me to go out with you.”

He furrowed his brow, “And why’s that?”

You snorted, “‘Cuz, you just can’t!”

“Well, would you like me to stop?”

You bit your cheek, not sure. You naturally wanted to say yes, like you always did, but that wasn’t completely true. You kinda liked him bothering you. For some odd reason.

“What’s this?” Bucky teased, “Is the great Y/N hesitating in rejecting me?” He chuckled, “Either you’re losing your mind or I’m finally getting to you.”

“I’m gonna go with the former,” you replied, “Much more likely.”

“Sure, sure.”

He was wearing sunglasses that framed his face perfectly, and you were annoyed at the way they partially hid his (beautiful eyes) expressions from you.

So, you took them.

You reached forward and slid them off his nose, and then plopped them onto your own.

“I believe I was using those,” he squinted, his eyes readjusting to the brighter sunlight he was being exposed to.

“And now I am. Go figure.”

“Will I be getting them back any time soon?”

“I wouldn’t bet on it.”

He laughed, and you caught sight of the gum he’d been chewing in his mouth.

“Since when do you chew gum?” You furrowed your brow slightly.

“Since I started trying to quit smoking. Turns out it’s bad for your lungs or something. Who knew, right?”

You crossed your arms, smiling, “Yeah. Who knew.”

“Don’t look at me like that.”

“Like what?”

“Like you’re winning.”

“Hmm, well, it seems to me that I am at the moment...?”

“Shut up.” He was... kind of blushing. Woah.

“Look,” he continued, “As much as I love this exchange, I do have to get home right now.”

“Then go. I’m not stopping you,” you told him, beginning to walk away toward your own car.

“Maybe not purposefully but you definitely are,” he replied, hopping onto his motorcycle. You just shook your head, before straightening up and blinking in realization.

“Oh, hey,” you paused, “do you want your sunglasses back?”

He stopped for a moment before shrugging, “Nah. You look better in them anyway, sweetheart.”

He winked before revving his engine and speeding away.

‘You look better in them anyway.’

After seeing him wearing them, you weren’t too sure about that...

***

You were lying in bed, scrolling on your phone when you heard a familiar thumping.

Yup. It was him again. But 1am?! Seriously?!

You opened up your window and prepared to yell down at him, “Barnes, what the he-”

“Y/N?”

You frowned. That wasn’t his normal casual-and-smugly-charming attitude. Something was wrong. You could tell immediately.

“Can I... can I come up?” He asked quietly.

“Buck, my parents would kill me if-“

“Please?” His voice cracked slightly on the single syllable and you exhaled.

“Alright. I’ll meet you at the front door.”

You silently crept down the steps and to the front door.

Slowly, you opened the door to see Bucky standing there.

God, you’d never seen him so messed up over something. His face was twisted like you’d never seen before.

“What happened, Buck?”

His eyes flitted up to yours and you noticed the pain behind them. “Um, can we just... not... I don’t want to talk about it.”

You took a deep breath but nodded, “That’s okay. You don’t have to.”

You noticed the bruise blooming on his cheek and you could put the puzzle pieces together yourself. He didn’t need to say anything.

“Look, I know... I know you don’t really like me that much, and I know that I’m always joking around about this stuff but... can I sleep here tonight? I’ll sleep on the floor or whatever, but I just can’t be home right now...”

You nodded, “Of course. Whatever you need. Um, follow me. But, uh, you have to promise to be completely quiet. If my parents catch you here, then you won’t be able to stay.”

Bucky gave a sad smile, “Don’t worry, I’m pretty good at being quiet.”

Your heart tugged and you wanted to hug him, but instead you nodded before turning around and leading him up the stairs toward your room.

You gestured him inside and began clearing stuff up from the floor so he could walk without tripping over textbooks and dirty clothes.

He chuckled half-heartedly and you looked up to see why.

“Nice bra,” he nodded towards a black lace one hanging off your closet door. You rolled your eyes, feigning annoyance, but in reality, you were glad he was feeling better enough to joke around, even if the smile didn’t quite reach his eyes.

“So I guess I’ll be here for the night?” He motioned to the floor you had just cleared.

“Oh, well. I mean, you could,” you mumbled, “But you can have the bed if you want. I think you’ve been through enough tonight.”

“I’m not about to potentially get you in trouble with your parents AND steal your bed from you, come on. I’m at least slightly a gentleman.”

“It’s not stealing if I offer. And anyway, I wouldn’t really mind sharing the bed with you. I just don’t wanna make you sleep on my cold, dirty floor.”

Bucky paused and stared at you seriously for a long moment.

You returned the look. You felt like this might be the first time you were seeing the real Bucky. Not that that cocky Bucky wasn’t a version of him, but this was the Bucky beneath all that.

“Really?” He asked after a moment, “I know I can make some people uncomfortable sometimes, and I don’t wanna...”

“You’ve never made me uncomfortable,” you answered immediately.

He was giving you that look again. Like he almost couldn’t trust what you were saying. “Serious?”

You gave a small smile, “Yeah. I mean,” you slipped a smile, “yes, sometimes you’re tediously confident and repetitive...” you teased.

He chuckled.

“... But I trust you,” you ended earnestly. And it was the truth. You didn’t know why. But you did. He may be annoying and perhaps stalkerish, but you knew the second you REALLY told him to stop, he would instantly.

“Thanks,” he replied simply, not knowing what else to say to communicate how much that meant to him.

“You’re welcome.”

You two stared at each other for a moment longer, before you reached forward to touch his face.

Your fingers ghosted over his bruise and trailed down to a few cuts and a split lip, “Want me to take care of that for you?” You whispered.

He only looked at you with wide eyes, before eventually moving his mouth slightly to utter a dazed, “Sure.”

You gave him a soft smile and left the room to go get a first aid kit.

You returned shortly and motioned for him to sit on the bed, bouncing down next to him.

You clicked open the kit and poured some cleaner on a cotton ball.

You cringed at him slightly, “This is gonna hurt.”

“Not as much as it did when I got it,” he half joked.

Your heart broke slightly at that, but you continued on.

You counted down before placing it gently on the cut on his lip. You could tell he was trying not to show the pain.

“You don’t have to pretend like it doesn’t sting, I know it does.”

“Don’t worry about it, sweetheart.”

You sighed but pressed a new cottonball on his temple.

This time he let out an audible hiss.

“Sorry,” you whispered, pulling the cotton ball away. And, for a reason you didn’t know, you leaned forward and kissed his temple before rubbing a little Neosporin on it.

You pulled back and proceeded to work on another one of his cuts, fighting down the wild feelings bubbling inside you at the act.

You dared a small glance at him to see his reaction, and saw his mouth was slightly agape with shock.

Realizing you were looking, he coughed and replaced it with cool charm, “Can I get one of those on this one?” He quirked an eyebrow, pointing at his split lip.

“Shut up,” you lightly punched him in the shoulder.

You noticed the wince he tried, and almost succeed at, hiding.

But he couldn’t hide it from you.

“Show me.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

You took his face in one hand, “Buck. Let me help.”

He sighed, relentingly, grabbing the back of his shirt and pulling it off over his head.

Your jaw fell open at the bruises littered up and down his muscles. You could tell they weren’t all fresh.

“Come on, Y/N, I don’t want to-“ he looked away and cut himself off.

He seemed... embarrassed.

“Bucky, there’s nothing to be ashamed about. None of this is your fault.”

He was still looking away. You grabbed his jaw and forced him to face you, “Listen to me. None. of this. is your fault.”

He at least seemed to partly take in what you were saying, but he looked down anyway.

Most of his injuries were bruises, but there were a few more cuts you were able to bandage.

Once you finished, you cleaned up the bandages and trash, then shut the first aid kit.

“You can put your shirt back on if you want,” you replied, walking over and placing the first aid kit on your desk to be put away tomorrow morning.

“And what if I don’t want to?” He winked.

You rolled your eyes, “Just get in the bed so I can turn off the light and get some rest.”

“Yes, ma’am,” he grinned.

You shook your head, grinning back, and waited until he had slipped his shirt back on and was under the covers for you to turn off the light.

You sighed and climbed in next to him, raising the blankets up to your chin.

“Thanks for helping me,” he whispered into the darkness of the room.

“Thanks for trusting me enough to come to me.”

He only hummed in response.

***

You remember waking up at some point in the early morning, your hand somehow intertwined with his, and the sunlight from your open window streaming in on his beautiful hair and peaceful countenance.

You loved it.

You wished you could wake up to that every morning.

But before you knew it, you’d fallen back asleep. And the next time you awoke wasn’t as kind.

This time, an alarm was blaring, the sunlight was harsher, and there was no beautiful subject for it to fall upon.

You sat up and hit your buzzer, but saw nothing of Bucky anywhere in your room. You frowned and stood up, walking around for a second in confusion before your eyes caught a piece of paper tacked to your bulletin board:

Thanks.

You smiled softly and took the note off, tracing your finger over the 6 scribbled letters.

***

“What about this weekend?” Bucky persisted, appearing next to you and as you walked down the parking lot.

“You just never give up, huh?”

“I’ve been known to be a persistent asshole from time to time.”

“I think the ‘from time to time’ part of that sentence might be too generous of a qualifier.”

“Ouch,” a smile still cracking on his lips.

You shrugged it off, “I’m busy this weekend, too. You can’t just waltz in and expect me to clear my plans for you Buckaroo.”

“‘Buckaroo?’” He winced, “I think you’re slipping, doll.”

“You know what I meant!”

“You’re right I did. So, what about tonight instead?”

“What?”

“You heard me.”

“I told you I couldn’t do future plans as it was such late notice, so you decide to try something even MORE late notice? That makes sense...”

“Well, whaddaya say?”

You hesitated, “It’s a school night.”

“And I’m not hearing a no.”

You exhaled, “Fine. You get one hour. But that’s it. And I’ll set a timer to make sure!”

He grinned the widest you’d ever seen, “Pick you up at 7.”

He started running back toward his motorcycle, but you called after him, “Wait, what are we doing on the date?! What do I wear?!”

“Anything! Actually, scratch that, preferably wear nothing.” He winked.

You rolled your eyes, “You’re this close to getting cancelled on, Barnes! Don’t push it!”

He just threw his head back and laughed.

You kept walking, annoyed, but couldn’t fight the grin off of your face.

***

At 7:00 on the dot, you heard a motorcycle engine outside your house.

At least he was punctual.

You took one last look at your tank top and skinny jeans in the mirror before dashing off and out the door.

“I see you didn’t follow my advice,” he motioned to your outfit as you stepped outside.

“Is that a problem?”

He grinned at you, “Not at all.”

He tossed an extra helmet at you and you caught it just in time before it could hit your face.

“Nice catch,” he chuckled.

“Very funny. Where are we headed?”

“Aw, now you don’t expect me to just tell you out-right? It’s a surprise, sweetheart. Don’t worry about it.”

You slipped the helmet on and took his outstretched hand. He helped you onto the motorcycle and moved your arms to wrap around his.

“Comfortable?” You teased.

“Very,” he purred, sliding his helmet back on.

He jolted the motorcycle forward without warning, attempting to make you jump with the fake-out.

“You’re gonna have to try a lot harder than that to get me to jump.”

“Don’t encourage me.”

Well, let the adventure begin...

***

“Aaaaand, right here,” he tugged on your hand and got you to stop next to him as you both looked out toward the moonlit playground.

“After weeks of build up, I give you one hour with me and you take me to a kiddie park?”

“Hey, it’s not a kiddie park if there’s no kids around!” He motioned around to the emptiness.

“Cuz it’s past their bedtimes. And they’re smarter than to go on dates with know-it-all bad boys who bring girls to parks. What do you plan on doing, vandalizing?”

“Would you relax?” he chuckled, stepping to face you head on, “I’m not sure if you’re familiar with this concept, but I brought you here to have fun. You seem to have forgotten what that’s like.”

You narrowed your eyes at him. He narrowed his right back.

“Come, on, Doll, it’s really not-“

“Ah!” You screamed as water spat up and hit you from behind, and you squealed, launching yourself forward and away from the sudden attack.

... And right into Bucky’s arms.

“Well, hello there,” he smirked, “Huh. I guess we must be standing in the water fountains area of the park... Wonder how that happened...”

You gaped, “You got me to stand there on purpose, didn’t you?”

He shrugged a shoulder, failing to fight back a grin, “Maybe. Maybe not. You can’t prove anything.”

You shook your head, “Oh, you are SO going to get it!”

He gave one more laugh before running off in the opposite direction. You chased after him, dodging and screaming as water spurted out of the holes irregularly.

He ran in circles, attempting to dodge you, ducking under one fountain stream and another. You couldn’t reach him, but you tried to thwap and splash as much of the water towards him as you could.

You held your sides from laughter as he got on the ground and rolled, pretending the fountains were like lasers in a spy-action thriller.

You were so busy laughing that you hardly noticed when he stopped and started running directly at you. You screamed right before he body checked you, then lifted you up and over his shoulder.

“Bucky, no!” you wheezed in between giggles.

He purposefully walked right in front of fountains, making sure to angle you and get you the most soaked as you kicked in protest.

He eventually put you down and you charged right back at him, knocking him to the ground along with yourself.

You landed on top of him, and one shared look sent you both into hysterics of laughter, the feeling of his chest rumbling beneath yours only making you smile brighter.

“You are so full of it, Barnes,” you huffed, catching your breath.

“Oh, am I?” he replied, but his usual cockiness dimmed as he looked at you, biting his lip slightly.

Your eyes slid to his lips and your breathing shallowed. It would’ve been so easy to just lean down one more inch and close the distance, feel his lips on yours and see if he was really as good at kissing as you had been imagining him to be.

You reached up slowly and threaded a hand through his long hair.

He hummed into the feeling, contentedness flickering in his eyes and stretching across his mouth in a smile. And suddenly, he was just too beautiful. Him, lying beneath you, so peacefully content, was just too beautiful that you couldn’t avoid it anymore.

You stared in his eyes for one last moment before moving forward and connecting your lips.

Fountains bubbled up around you, splashing you with cold water, but you hardly noticed.

It began tentatively, with gentle care and simplicity.

But as the kiss’s length grew on, it became harder, hungrier.

Bucky sat up, guiding your arms to reach around his neck as he reached around your waist. You slid your legs forward and wrapped them around him, pressing yourself as close as possible as the kiss picked up steam. He let his hands slide further down your back as you drug your nails through his hair.

He gasped slightly against your lips, and you grinned, kissing him harder.

It wasn’t until the fountain directly beneath you went off that you finally broke apart for air.

You chuckled quietly, nuzzling your head into his neck and biting back the massive grin across your face.

You heard Bucky’s chest rumble with a chuckle and pulled back to look at him.

He motioned to his watch, displaying the numbers 7:58, “It appears that I’ve used my whole hour up. You still sure you wanna go back to studying Calculus right now?”

"Just shut up,” you rolled your eyes, grabbing his collar and kissing him again.

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u n s e e i n g e y e s f o l l o w a p p r o a c h i n g f o o t s t e p s . . .

“ hope you’re not try’na be a sneak. it’s unbecoming. ”

a warning laced with poison. she stands by the window. no cane. no fear.

friend or foe, they’ve got one thing she’s after.

“ got a light ? ”

( jodie comer, gorgon, she/her & cisfemale ) is that ( bad reputation ) by joan jett & the blackhearts ) playing? (clementine cornelia carmichael ) must be nearby! heard folks say the ( one hundred fifty ) year old ( ex-mercenary ) was at the thanksgiving fair, ( lightin’ a cigarette by the kiddie play pen ) when chaos ensued. during the glitch, ( she dropped her cane while jumped by some no-good, possessed werecreatures, ‘til a mystery someone swooped her off to safety ).

b a c k g r o u n d .

clementine cornelia carmichael was the second of two daughters born to the carmichael family in georgia... and the disappointment starts there. her parents had been vying for a son, but alas –– with one x chromosome too many, they had no choice but to amend their planned wills. their family fortune, derived from plantation money, would go to the first daughter to marry, and her husband.

the catch. clementine didn’t know about this policy. only her older sister ( wanted connection ) was aware. so when clementine married her first husband, jeb, at 16, her older sister began brainstorming ways to sabotage their marriage to get the inheritance back in her name. it began with petty things. flubbing house parties. planting rumors. attempting to seduce jeb. eventually, it became clear this love was strong and she wouldn’t break it alone.

and then her lucky break struck. jeb and clementine’s efforts to have a child grew more desperate in the third year of their marriage. by 19, clementine had two miscarriages and narrowly escaped with her life. little did she know, getting so close to death activated a dormant gene in her...

all carmichael women are gorgons. her older sister knew about the family lore but clementine had never bothered to listen to her mother’s old tales of men turned to stone. it was only folk tales, old wive’s tales designed to scare both daughters into staying prim, proper, and well-behaved.

imagine her shock when, while they were making love, jeb turned to stone. talk about yikes. clementine flipped. her older sister came to the rescue –– with a pick axe and a sledgehammer. the two women pulverized the stone and buried it in an urn in the back yard of the young couple’s yard. widowed, clementine was reduced to nothing. no joys in life presented to her. the kicker? gorgons can reverse their own stone-turnings. and her sister? the bitch bloody lied to get her hands back on the inheritance.

a year and a half later, gorgon hunters stormed the house and mistook clementine for her sister. they kidnapped her and planned to kill her, until the quick-witted lady pitched an offer they couldn’t pass up: she’d provide them with mercenary services in exchange for her life. all of a sudden, their hunting jobs got ten times easier.

clem before jeb’s death was gentle. docile. calm waters, soothing breezes, dog-eared pages come morning. now? she whipped at the world with a vengeance. why deny what she was? why fight her essence?

clem later turned her captors to stone and privatized her mercenary jobs. her body count rose and rose, with no evidence left over for incrimination. but... by the late 1960′s, she grew tired of running. tired of hunting. with fresh dust on her hands, she finished her last kill, collected her hefty bill, and used the money to relocate to tiny letum falls, oklahoma.

there, she began to help out at the garden emporium, adding to its statue collection from pure boredom. she’d go to the bars, sleep around, repeat.

in the 70′s, she met manny otero, and the two have danced around one another ever since –– fuck buddies. she’ll never admit she actually might have feelings for the man.

in september, descendants of the hunters clem worked with and killed arrived in letum falls, searching for a blonde gorgon –– they found what they were lookin’ for, but not exactly who. again, mistaken for her sister, clem was attacked and left for dead in an abandoned house by the woods. dumb asses. didn’t know a gorgon can’t die unless you behead her.

clem awoke from the incident bloodied and blind. she can make out light and some loose peripheral shadows, but the blows to her head damaged her optical nerves enough to render her legally blind. she begrudgingly carries a cane when absolutely necessary, but she’ll more often than not defy using it by just... struggling her way through things. it’s messy. inelegant. but she’d rather stumble and trip than admit she needs assistance.

unlike other people, who might view tragedy as a way to make amends and realign with the world, clem’s attack just fueled her fire. she’s agitated. bristly. ready to snap at anyone who gets too close. it’s a miracle she hasn’t done a number on manny yet, or xander. ( she’s got a bit of a soft spot for the guy. )

t h e f a i r .

she went ‘cause everyone expected her not to. idiots. of course she was going to prove assholes wrong. of course she was going to light up a few cigs near the kiddie play pen. who do you think she is ? a changed woman ?

like clockwork, the first screams rang out when clem finally heard her lighter catch. so she took her time. lit the cigarette, took a looooooong drag. then came the footsteps. the snarls. the corner of her lips turned up in the teeniest of smirks.

she smelled it before she felt it. the blood. but just as soon as the pain blossomed ‘round her right forearm and shoulder, she was being pulled in the opposite direction. practically carried.

yeah. someone saved her ass. and she’s pissed about it.

c u r r e n t l y .

spends her time drinking, smoking, ‘n adding to brooks baker’s gray clouds over at the bakery. when she’s not there, you can find her sitting in her favorite diner booth sipping her umpteenth black coffee or tearin’ into a big fat slice of key lime pie.

aw. you scared ? you think some big bad glitch is gonna come back to take you, too ? cry her a river, hun. this ain’t nothing.

the local bartenders already know to pour her a double whiskey, straight as soon as she walks in the door. clem’s got this presence about her –– she turns heads and makes ‘em want to turn away all in one go.

c u r r e n t c o n n e c t i o n s .

fuck buddy / savior – manny otero. she’s got him right where she wants him... in bed. these two ooze libido and become a show almost anywhere they go. sometimes she’ll let him buy her a drink. other times, it’s just easier to cut to the chase. since becoming blind, things with manny haven’t changed much, and clem’s thankful for that. little does she know, he’s the asshole who saved her life at the fair.

unlikely ally – xander chapell. these two share late night cigs after clem gets some and, xander, well... does not, due to a variety of freak and unfortunate incidents. often clem barging in pre-bang. they have a special trust between them. xander opened up to clem about losing bez the night after the glitch. and she opened up to him, a little, about her past. it’s uncanny. but their bond works.

w a n t e d c o n n e c t i o n s .

enemies. give me people who really rub clem the wrong way. it ain’t hard to do.

her older sister. their relationship is dysfunctional. deceptive. manipulative. you’d think they were the heads of opposing armies, not borne from the same flesh and blood. surprise surprise, clem has since uncovered a gorgon’s ability to reverse their changes. needless to say, she’s wanting to seek some kind of comeuppance. the issue? her older sister has been the only person to succeed in forcing help on her after losing her sight. and killing her own caretaker? that’d look pretty gnarly, from the outside lookin’ in.

drinking crew. they’re not close, but they share a dark sense of humor and a penchant for dullin’ the senses.

garden emporium customers. i would love to have a connection whose relative / dog / etc. were turned to stone and showed up at the emporium the very same week they decided to snag some kind of lawn ornament to complement their new landscaping... let’s make it crunchy, and awkward, and terrible.

hookups / past flings. she’s been here a while. been around the world for a while. so i reckon while her body count for kills is high, her body count for beddin’ gives it a run for its money.

mentor / mentee type of thing. someone’s looking to learn from her. why ? who knows. but she’ll offer ill-founded advice and bitter philosophies. doesn’t have a good reason not to.

#othqintro #intro.#death tw #blood tw #miscarriage tw #this sucks but yeet

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messedupessy · 5 years

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HoneyBBQ...? the one w rus xD im very bad at this *squints in aro* but yeah, please! XD

Sup vass and heck yeah it’s HoneyBBQ yes UwU ❤

warning for some very suggestive themes and mentions of like panic attacks etc

who’s the cuddler: Both are very cuddly, Stretch is more cuddly tho as Rus’s cuddles most often turns very sexual bc he is fucking insatiable so his cuddles do not count. Tho Rus is very clingy and often ends up needing comfort especially when he gets his panic attacks or just when he don’t feel good, which Stretch is always happy to give him.

who makes the bed: Stretch, but very rarely only when he suddenly gets the need to clean all properly but it does not happen often, as after all the bed will get ruined really fast anyway because of Rus and his way too high libido pft.

who wakes up first: Rus, because he got some serious fucking sleep issue’s and have for years only slept for about 2-3 hours a night, some nights not even sleeping at all, he do get better especially with the fact of Stretch been there, but he still has trouble sleeping for overly long, but he usually don’t get up he just enjoys having Stretch so close to himself and watches him sleep, a bit like a creep but he can’t help it, he is still so shocked anyone would even bother be with him when he is such trash and srs do not deserve someone like Stretch at all.

who has the weird taste in music: Stretch as he is into pretty much anything and everything as long as he finds something he likes ye, tho Rus isn’t that far after he is like into like srs extreme growly metal like super screamo and stuff, and also into like asmr which Stretch actually can’t stand at all it creeps him out.

who is more protective: Rus, he is extremely fucking protective af, which could easily turn controlling if not checked but luckily Stretch is not afraid to tell him off for his sometimes possessive and controlling behavior which can arise at times, but yeah Rus is very protective tho Stretch can be a bit protective too not as much of course he chill af but he will stand up for his trash of a boyfriend anytime

who sings in the shower: Stretch usually sing when he shower alone while Rus don’t as most of the time when he actually bothers to shower like the filthy boy he is, is because he is having a breakdown and sitting in the shower clothed etc helps at times to get him through it, but when showering together they don’t really sing tho Stretch can end up humming a bit etc.

Though it’s Rus we talking about and showering with him will most likely turn them both to sing a completely different tune if u catch my drift pfft

who cries during movies: Stretch but only when it involves animals, Rus is not a big of a cryer unless he is in some sort of panic etc

who spends the most while out shopping: Stretch because he is one big impulsive buyer and a hoarder and loves buying weird af stuff he finds neat, Rus just never have any fucking money so he like can barely ever buy anything to start with, tho when he finally gets a job of some sort and gets actual money he spends them most on cigs and stuff, maybe some mechanical tools as he likes to tinker but overall he don’t spend much, except maybe if he wanna get something for Stretch then he will prolly use all his money for something he thinks Stretch will like

who kisses more roughly: Rus, he loves it rough tho he do his best to be much softer with Stretch as he don’t wanna hurt him and stuff, but he can’t help himself at times and Stretch srs do not mind when things get a bit rougher.

who is more dominate: Rus, they do ofc switch allot but Rus usually most of the time ends up been the one leading and been the dom, as he is hella way more experienced in that department like hella lot while Stretch is not, but its usually pretty equal and they switch allot ye

my rating of the ship from 1-10: 10/10! Yes I know I have given all ships as of yet full score but god I love and adore all these ships af man xD like these two are kind of disasters there is so much pain and hurts and comforts happening, with Rus been a literal garbage fire of guilt regret and in srs need of help while been trash boi and bit of an ass while stretch been a overly helpful chill guy who is willing to help rus with his shit with barely nothing in return bc he can’t help himself and god love these two ye

Ship ask thingie here ye

#honeybbq #papcest #fontcest #MessedUpEssy #Essy Answers #Essy's Undertale Headcanons #ask thingie thing #god i have so much with these two planned #like got so many fic ideas and just darn #so hope i can get to them someday #bc its some srs good stuff man #and just rus is trash #that is all pfft

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kweebtrash · 6 years

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Greedy (M)

Sexual Liberation Ch 5-Kino/Hui

Pairings: Hui/Kino/Hongseok/E’Dawn x Reader/OC

Features Full Sex Scenes with: Hui, Hongseok, Kino, E’Dawn, Hyuna

Genre: College AU, Heavy Smut

Summary: College is about experimentation, being free, and having no strings attached fun. Hui, Kino, And E’Dawn have messed around with their best friend ever since last spring. Now that summer is over and they’re back in America, their sexual antics have intensified especially when everyone starts catching feelings. Throw Hongseok into the mix and it creates a swirling mess of emotions and an ultimate decision that might hurt everyone.

Warning:

Features: threesomes, anal, public sex

Word Count: 5.4k

A/N: I sometimes flipflop between stage names and real names. italics are for past events. Updated edits are done for this chapter! Enjoy.

Sexual Liberation Masterlist

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“Um...hey…” I swallowed hard, my throat still dry from sleep and nervousness building. “What’s everybody doing here?”

“Well we live here so….” Kino took a bite of the cereal from the bowl he was holding. “What are you doing here...in Hui’s room?” He asked with his mouth full.

I adjusted the scarf around my neck. “I need to get to class.”

“Oh, honey, it’s 8 at night.” Hui came over to me and smoothed out my bedhead. “You were so tired I didn’t want to wake you up.”

“HUI! I needed to go to class! It’s my dance class! My professor is going to kill me.” I groaned.

Hui wrapped his arms around me. “Sometimes you have to put yourself first. I’m glad that you slept in. Do you want to hang with us? I was just about to kick Hongseok’s butt in Mario Kart.”

Hongseok looked up quickly when he heard his name. His eyes caught mine for a second before darting over to Hui’s. “It’s hilarious that you think you’re that talented. Stick to singing.”

Time had passed and there was no reason for me to fuss over something I couldn’t go back and fix. I would just have to get chewed out next class. I needed to focus on what was going on currently- me being an animal trapped in a cage surrounded by the men that made my mind, body, and soul go crazy. Their curious stares were still kicking my nerves into overdrive and I wanted to shift the attention back to their brotherly banter. I patted Hui’s chest and sighed. “He’s right, Hui. You couldn’t beat anyone at Mario Kart. You’re always last place.” I teased. He made an adorable pout and whined at me for taking Hongseok’s side.“Besides, everyone knows that I’m the champ and no one has beaten my streak yet.”

Hyojong looked straight at me and had the audacity to final utter any communication my way. “Why don’t you put your money where your mouth is?” That was all he had to say? My brows furrowed in anger.

“Why don’t you learn how to text people instead of just using them?” I spat back at him.

Hongseok traded glances between Hyo and I, a look of confusion on his face. “Am I missing something?”

“No,” Hyojong replied. “It’s nothing at all.” He avoided looking at me now as my eyes were filled with hurt and bitterness.“

Hongseok seemed to take that answer though he was still unsure of the whole situation and I wanted to keep it that way. He rubbed the back of his neck and chuckled nervously. “Well, you’re more than welcome to stay and play with us.”

I shook my head. “No, I wish I could but I should really get back to my dorm.” That was my blatant excuse for not wanting to be surrounded by the men I fucked and the one I wanted to fuck but couldn’t. “I've got a lot of things to catch up on.”

Hui rubbed my back gently, his overbearing nature poking through. “Do you want me to walk you back?”

“I’ll be okay, don’t worry about me.” I kissed his cheek before grabbing my backpack and dealing with the awkwardness of goodbyes. Seeing Hyo again really hurt, especially since he hadn’t even acknowledged me in class and his only words to me now were related to a game. It was too casual and felt like he didn’t give a damn about me at all. I couldn’t deal with it all at once. I was halfway down the hall when I felt a presence appear beside me. I glanced over and saw the devil himself which made me roll my eyes.

“Hey.” he said rather softly. I didn’t answer him and continued walking, increasing my speed a little. That didn’t deter him and he stayed quick on my heels. “They caught me up on what's going on with you.”

My jaw set in anger. “Nothing is going on with me. You’re the one that forgot we were friends and didn’t bother to talk to me all summer. Now we’re stuck in the same class and working on a stupid project together. I know where I stand with you, Hyo.”

“No, I don’t think you do but you sure seemed to have gotten back on track with Kino and Hui.” He quipped.

I stopped and whipped around, almost crashing into him. “Hui knows how to treat people kindly and is working towards rebuilding our friendship. I wouldn’t say I’m back on track with Kino just because we slept together. He’s still an asshole but you’re an even BIGGER asshole!”

“I am not an asshole. I was busy and I’m sorry that my life didn’t revolve around answering you back. I don’t want us to be fighting, ok? I do want us to be friends again. I don’t want you to think that you aren’t important to me because you are. It was a bit hectic back home.”

“If you want to be friends so bad then start acting like it and stop acting like I’m an inconvenience.”.

He slipped his e-cig out of his pocket and took a deep drag off it. He exhaled slowly, the smoke pouring out of his nose and mouth. “I’m sorry. Things were...they weren’t easy for me to deal with when I went back. A lot of stuff went on that I can’t exactly talk about.”

I scoffed and rolled my eyes. “i'm glad everyone has excuses.”

“Look,” He took another drag. “I’m ready to move on with you. We have good chemistry; musically, sexually, platonically. I know i messed up but would you please give me another chance?”

That was a difficult decision. The rationality in my brain was telling me that I shouldn’t give in a third time but my heart and body wanted to fall into his trap. He was also right in some ways. When we made music together it was amazing. Our raps were pristine and his beats showcased how much of a genius he was. I loved the way we sounded. Avoiding him was going to be almost impossible with this project. I dreaded us working together but parts of me were still excited to spend time with him. I was basically defeated in the war against myself

“We'll work together for the sake of the grade, ok?” I stated, deciding that was the best solution I could come up with for now. I would try my damndest to not let it go further than that but there were no guarantees. ‘But once someone hurts me I'm not quick to trust them again.”

Hyojong took my hand in his and placed a kiss on my knuckles. “I’ll work hard, on the project and on getting you to trust me again. I promise.”

“Yeah, yeah….” I sighed and gave his hand a small squeeze before resuming my walk. He kept my hand in his and stayed beside me. “We can set up a day to work on it. Oh, I just thought of something. Have you heard from the others? Yuto, Shinwon, Yeo One, you know?” Our friends had returned back to their home countries once the spring semester was over. My conversations with them were sporadic at best due to the time difference but I was at least able to stay in contact with them.

Hyojong nodded and explained that he had classes with a few of them. There were fortunately gaps of time where we could band together and have lunch or practice which i was ecstatic about. “I'll make a group chat in Line for us and invite you.”

I smiled. “That sounds good. I can’t wait to talk to them. Yanan told me he’s been really sick ever since he got back to China and almost didn’t make it back for this semester. I checked in on him a few times but I still want to see him.”

Hyo nodded and stopped as we arrived at my dorm. We stood in front of the large glass doors, readying our goodbyes. “I’ll set it up tonight, ok?” He promised.

I nodded and pulled my keycard out of my backpack. “I'll probably be up all night since i took that nap but what else is new. My sleep schedule is always shit. Dance club is tomorrow too and hip hop club is the day after. I'll just die, it's fine.”

He chuckled. “You wont die. Just don’t wear yourself out so much. I don’t want you to get sick.”

“Is this you trying to care about me?”

He stepped closer so that our bodies were almost touching. “I'll always care about you, dumbass.” He took another drag and before I could even retort, his slender fingers wrapped around my chin and pulled me to his lips. He shared the smoke between us in a small stream, reminiscent of our first hookup. It still made my knees weak as did his slow kiss that followed. I pushed him away gently.

“D-don't do that.”

“Why?” He whispered in a seductive voice that was dangerously enticing. He knew exactly why he shouldn’t do such a thing but decided to tease me anyway.

I swallowed hard. “You'll make me want to take you upstairs and do bad things to you.” I admitted.

“I like bad things. I especially like when you do them to me.” He tried to give me another kiss but managed to jerk my head away quickly.

“No! No.” I commanded both myself and Hyo. “I'm going upstairs now. Away from you. Go home, E'Dawn.” I swiped my card in quickly, not giving him a chance to protest or worse- seduce me, and ran through the doors getting away from him before i ripped his clothes off and fucked him hard.

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Later on that evening, I was bent over my laptop typing up some parts of my research paper. My roommate was asleep and I was trying not to disturb her. Our room lights remained off and I was left to strain my eyes against the minimal light of my screen. Suddenly, my phone vibrated beside me and I saw chat bubbles pop onto the screen. Hyo was adding every one to the group chat as he said he would. It was slow going at first, as expected since it was late at night, but soon enough a few of them started to respond. Each time I got a new notification it was a moment of saving grace. My brain was starting to fry after working on this stupid paper for so long and I was only five pages in.

Another vibration signaled a new chat altogether. I recognized the tiny profile pic as Hongseok and my heart skipped a bit. Holy shit, what was I going to do?! Of course I accepted his request but I was nervous and unaware of what I should actually say.

Hongseok: Hi :)

uh, hey. How are you?

Hongseok: I’m good, what are you still doing awake?!

I cant really sleep now after that giant ‘nap’ i took this afternoon so I’m working on my paper. What r u still doing up?

Hongseok: Studying:( i have a test in two days and im worried i will fail.

He seemed so proper when he texted. I didn't want to look like a complete illiterate fool.

What class is it for?

Hongseok: History of European Music. It's kind of boring, ha ha.

I took that class. I think i still have my notes from it. Do you want to take a look at them? Also do you always type like that?

It felt weird for me to text so grammatically correct.

Hongseok: Like what?

Like all perfect with your grammar and everything.

Hongseok: Oh, sorry. It just helps me keep up with my English. Sometimes I can be a bit rusty.

Oh, I see! I was just wondering. it’s kind of cute...

I hit send before I could take it back and internally hit myself. I wasn’t supposed to do that. I wasn’t supposed to flirt with him. Would he even see it as flirting? He didn’t respond for awhile and I started to panic, thinking that I had somehow offended him. I flopped back onto my bed, trying not to check my phone every so often but ultimately failing. Still nothing had come through so I decided to try and get back to my paper. I made it about three more paragraphs before my phone finally vibrated again. I scooped it up quickly and smiled when I saw his name pop up again.

Hongseok: Sorry, i was showering. But if you’d like we could try meeting tomorrow?

Ok, so he didn’t completely sound upset that i called him cute. It wasn't entirely an accident that I called him cute but him ignoring the comment in general was a little heart breaking.

Sure. I can meet you somewhere. I get out of class around 2?

Hongseok: Two works for me. Is the library, ok? We can go back to the top floor.

Oh lord...the library.

Yep! That sounds good.

Hongseok: Amazing. Have a great night :)

That seemed to be the end of our conversation which also disappointed me. I didn’t know what exactly I wanted the outcome to be of our talk but at least we were getting somewhere as friends. A study session would be fine as a first hang out. I just had to keep telling myself that it was purely platonic.

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I sat uncomfortably staring at the table that I had been fucked on just a few days before. The ache in my hips was just starting to go away but the urge to feel Kino again seemed to be coming back. My mind swirled with memories of being bent over and feeling Kino’s cock relentlessly fill me. It was the most perfect sensation and- my thoughts were cut short when I heard a voice coming nearer.

“Sorry, i’m late.” Hongseok huffed as he pulled back the seat beside me and sat down. “My vocal lesson ran over and I rushed here are fast as I could. I didn’t want you to think I had forgotten about you.”

I cleared my throat and tried not to be too obvious in my blushing. I didn’t think I could ever be mad at him even if he was late. I didn’t mind at all and I was definitely grateful for the distraction from my barrage of Kino thoughts. “You didn’t have to rush. I was totally fine with waiting. I haven’t really been here that long anyway.” I pulled out my tattered spiral notebook from my backpack and set it between us. “Sorry it’s a little torn up but the notes should still be fine. If you need help studying i got you. I got a B.”

He chuckled and smiled that perfectly stunning smile at me. “I might take you up on that offer. I don’t know why I can’t seem to grasp any of the concepts. Maybe I’ve just been distracted or something.”

“Distracted?” I asked. “By what?”

Hongseok avoided me and instead looked down at my notebook, flipping through some of the pages. “Um...I’m not sure. Maybe just all the TA stuff…”

“Yeah, you do have a lot on your plate. But you’ll make it. I know you will.” I smiled at him and scooted my chair a little closer. “Here, what Unit are you on? I should remember most of what we discussed. Tell me what you need help with.”

Hongseok licked his lips and rubbed this palms over his thighs. I noticed our knees had touched briefly when I moved in closer but I didn’t really think much of it. What I did notice was the faint smell of his cologne lingering on the collar of his shirt, the same he had worn when we first met at the library. It was the perfect scent to get wrapped up in. I realized that he hadn’t said anything then and wondered if he had even heard me. “Hongseok?”

“Oh, right, yes!” He seemed to have snapped himself out of whatever distraction was capturing his attention. “So, I’m having trouble with this.”

We sat huddled together for hours as I explained whatever I could remember from the course. Every once in awhile i would catch him staring at me and I didn’t know what to make of it. I was over thinking about what I felt made me unattractive, wondering if that was why he was staring so much. I questioned if my breath stunk, if i needed more deodorant, if my hair was turning into a mess. I had been twirling it in my fingers it in for awhile now and had probably made everything frizzy. However, in the midst of studying, or conversations started veering which provided me a bit of relief. Questions about music class switched to comparisons of Avenger superheroes. He was such an Ironman fanboy and I argued that Hulk and Thor were much better. He said that I only liked them because Mark Ruffalo and Chris Hemsworth were attractive and I had to school him in my knowledge of comics. It only made him laugh and smile more which made my body seem like it was radiating warmth. That laugh was infectious and made my insides bubble with excitement. I didn’t want anything to end with him but soon after Hongseok noticed the time on his watch.

“I would love to stay and talk to you more but I’ve got to get going. I have one more class coming up in a few minutes.” He stood up and gathered the notes we worked on and stuffed them into his backpack. “It was um...” He swallowed hard. “I had a really nice time with you. Would you want to maybe help me study again sometime?”

I agreed a little too quickly, absolutely ecstatic that he wanted to hang out again. “Yeah, of course! I would love to. Just let me know when you’re free next.” Could I sound any more thirsty?

“Will do.” He gave me one last smile before getting up from his seat and heading over to the elevator. I stood behind and set my head on the table once he disappeared. Why was he so damn beautiful? I guess I was a masochist because I loved just piling on one exchange student after the other to make my life a living hell. I was also becoming a pathological liar to myself. No matter how many times I told myself not to get involved with anyone else I would still go and do it. Sometimes I wondered why I was trying to get my Bachelor’s Degree in music when I could just get it in “Roping Gorgeous Men into My Life that I Don’t Need” Studies. Tuition was free and I was already getting stellar grades.

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I stood face to face with the bane of my existence, staring him down as i was ready to destroy his ego little by little. Our groups had been chosen by our dance club to do the usual after-lesson battle. We were the leaders and I was determined to have my girls go harder than ever. I wanted to drop him down a few pegs and remind him that he was nothing to me (no matter how much of a lie that was). I squatted down to stretch out my hamstrings and popped my gum obnoxiously. “Try not to get a boner, Kino. It’s just a dance battle.” i teased.

“Try not to squirt all over the floor this time.” he spat back with a wink. I rolled my eyes at him and scoffed.

“Pig!” My teammate shouted to him.

“Shut it and pick.” He rolled his eyes and gestured towards the coin we had to make the decision for us. “Heads or tails.”

“Oh, we don’t need to pick.” We’ll go first. Song is ‘Swalla’. Watch and learn boys.” I said.

He scoffed. “Boring and overplayed.”

I ignored him as our fellow club member started the song. Room was made for the dancers and we settled into our beginning moves. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Hui within the crowd. I hadn’t expected him to come but he was already clapping and cheering in excitement. It made me smile and become much more confident as I landed each body roll and pop. Kino was quick to retaliate with his own teasing moves that were a bit sharper than mine. He worked his way over to me, adding a few body rolls of his own while lifting his shirt and sticking his tongue out. I wanted to roll my eyes into the next century at his fuckboy ways.

Oh so you want to play dirty then?

When our team switched turns i danced closer to Kino, bouncing my ass and dropping low into a split, which got a lot of cheers from the crowd. I danced my way back up to my feet and bent over at my waist, shaking my ass a little more. The rules were that the teams couldn’t touch each other while dancing but we could sure as hell gets as close as we could. I could tell he probably wanted to smack my ass to get me to move away but had to be a good boy. I looked out into the crowd and saw Hui biting his lip. He probably just came here to see my ass move, that pervert. I pushed my hair back and ran my tongue against my lips, smirking because I knew we had won.

Kino took his last chance to tease me. He got close to me too, rolling his body and biting his lip as his teammates battled with mine. I wanted to push him away but also i wanted to wipe that smug look on his face by winning. The song ended and the jury went to the crowd. I gave a little wave to Hui who had his hands suspiciously covering the front of his jeans. He only smiled at me in acknowledgement.

My team was announced as the winner and I stuck my tongue out at Kino who had to swallow his crushing defeat. Our club president got everyone’s attention and announced that time was up. We were already running a little bit over and had to wrap up quickly. I went to my gymbag and pulled my crop hoodie off. I grabbed my towel and dabbed at the sweat on my forehead and neck.

Out of the corner of my eyes I saw Kino toss a bottle of water at me. I caught it and twisted it open, taking long, fast gulps. “You were ok, I guess. You rely on your fat ass too much.” Kino quipped. Hui came up to us quickly.

“Don’t insult her like that.”

I chuckled. “Don’t worry Hui, Kino likes it too he just won't admit it.” I felt Hui’s hand outline the curve of my ass. “Hwitaek, is that your way of flirting?”

He blushed and moved his hand. “Sorry.”

Kino looked around as the room was mostly empty now. He and Hui exchanged a suspicious look. “What?” i asked sternly, knowing they were up to something.

“Nothing...nothing.”Hui said.

“Ya'll are weird. Goodbye.”i grabbed my stuff and exited the dance room. It was pretty dark out and the way back to my dorm wasn't really illuminated enough. I hated coming this way, even with the short cut but i did it for dance. I adjusted my gymbag on my shoulder and browsed through my phone. I was hoping someone had posted a video of my team's dance so i could see how well i did. I was scrolling through our dance clubs instagram when i heard a crunch behind me. It sounded like a twig snapping. I swiveled around like an owl, trying to find out where the sound was coming from. But no one was behind me. I swallowed hard and started walking a little faster.

I could still hear the crunching behind me and i was ready to start running when i felt someone grab me. I tried to scream but my mouth was covered. I was picked up and taken into the more densely tree packed area, towards the back of the dance building. I tried squirming and wiggling my way free when i was suddenly let go and pushed up against the dance building.

“Did we scare you?” Kino laughed.

“I told you you shouldn’t have done that! She’s gonna kick your ass and I’m gonna laugh and watch.” Hui added.

I growled. “If you ever...EVER pull that shit again I will end you.”

Hui pulled me closer to him. “I’m sorry baby. I wouldn’t let him really hurt you.” He kissed my cheek gently.

“Ahh, c’mon, what’s a little fun?” Kino rubbed my hips gently. “Besides it was Hui’s idea to do something a little...public.”

I glared at Hui who held up his hand in defense. “I just- i mean i thought- i just wanted to…”

“He was just so turned on by the way you shook your ass.” Kino whispered in my ear. “And maybe i was too.”

Hui stepped closer and rubbed my thighs. “We couldn’t help ourselves, baby.” He placed a kiss flush against my lips. “Can we show you how much we enjoyed your dance?”

“I’m hot and sweaty and angry.” I said sharply. “What makes you think that I want to fuck outside in this woodsy ass shit behind this danky building? Hmm?”

“Maybe not, but we think you’d want to be filled and cum so hard you see stars.” Kino licked the shell of my ear and nibbled slightly..

“And you’d know that if i’m on my knees I’d do anything you’d like.” Hui said lowering himself down to his knees in front of me.

God, he looked so good down there. He was already sliding my leggings down my thighs, kissing them as they became exposed. I was still mad as hell but Hui loved kissing every inch of my skin and had in fact spent hours doing it once until it lulled me to sleep. I wanted to curse him for exciting every nerve inside me. Kino was already shoving his hands beneath the band of my sports bra, pushing it up and over my breasts so he could cup them. The chilly night air hit my heated skin, making me shiver.

Hui took off my sneakers and made me step out of my leggings. His lips went to my center, kissing and nibbling at the fabric of my thong.

“Hyung, get her against the wall.” Kino commanded. Hui stood up and tossed his jacket aside before pressing me to the cold concrete. I pulled my sports bra up and over my head, tossing it by my gymbag.

“Don’t make me wait so long. You’ve both already pissed me off.”

Hui reached into his back pocket and pulled out his wallet. He tossed something to Kino and tore at a small packet between his teeth. He spit away the part he ripped off and Kino pulled my thong down quickly. Hui’s fingers slipped between my cheeks and i gasped as i felt the cool lube against my rim. I gripped Kino’s shoulder tightly as Hui’s fingertip rocked little by little until he pushed through. “Have you been practicing for me, love?” He cooed in between kisses to my shoulder blades.

Kino’s fingers teased at my other entrance. “You know she did, Hyung. I can almost see her on her bed with her legs spread. That cute vibrator you got her stuffed in her ass while she fingers herself.” he slid his fingertips up my folds and rubbed my clit for a second before stroking me again.

“Is that right, Baby? Do you still use the vibe i got you?” His finger was firmly pushed inside me now and my ass struggled to relax around it. I bit my lip and nodded.

“I got bored. No one to play with and I couldn’t travel like 7 thousand miles to fuck.” I grabbed Kino’s wrist and rocked against his fingers faster. “M-more.”

Hui’s second lubed finger pressed against my hole, squeezing in beside the other until he scissored me open. “Fuck…” He breathed. “Relax for me, baby, I want to fuck you good.”

I was panting already, my clit throbbing at both sets of fingers inside me. My body eased into a comforted lull wanting to hold off just a little longer until they were both inside me. Kino kissed at my neck, licking wherever he pleased.

“Your hickies are starting to go away, it’d be a shame if you got some more. You’d look like a cheetah.” Kino moaned against my sweat slicked skin.

“You do that and I’ll make sure I bite you so hard you bleed.”

“Damn, is that a threat or a promise, princess?” He said the pet name mockingly. I leaned back away from him, pressing my back to Hui’s chest and guided his head towards mine. He didn’t even hesitate to slide his tongue into my mouth and moan my name into the kiss. I gripped his dark locks as his third finger threatened to join the others. I winced into the kiss and mewled.

“Hui...ahhh…”

Hui drizzled a little bit more lube between my cheeks and his fingers went in even smoother. He gripped my shoulder with his free hand, pushing me down slightly so his fingers could dig in deeper. In front of me Kino had dropped his shorts, his cock suddenly bobbing free, a bit of precum glistening at the tip. “I’ll punish that mouth of yours, sweetness.” He grabbed the back of my neck and pulled me to his cock, completely bending me over between them.

Kino pressed the tip of his cock against my lips, forcing my mouth open to envelop him. I grabbed his hips, desperately trying to anchor myself as my mouth stretched open mimicking my gape. He was already rocking his hips which made him slide deeper into my mouth. My tongue tried to keep up, swirling around and rubbing against his veins but his grip on the back of my neck kept me in place. Hui’s fingers left me for a moment and i heard the clang of his belt buckle hit the ground. I had a little bit of time to catch my breath, popping off of Kino’s cock and swallowing down his precum. He tilted my head up and looked down at me. “We’re not done yet, princess.”

“Call me that one more time.”I said through grit teeth. “And you wont have a dick for me to suck.”

He gripped his base and traced the outline of my lips with the head of his cock. “Be a good girl and don’t scream, would you?”

I felt Hui spread my cheeks apart, the length of his dick sliding up and down my slick hole. He stopped every once in awhile to pressed against my hole, pushing in until i sucked in his head. As soon as Hui made his way in Kino resumed his invasion of my mouth. My moans remained trapped in my throat as both men rocked their hips into me. My hand made its way between my legs rubbing the wetness that was already building up. I shoved three fingers inside me, wanting to be filled in every whole. I wish Hyojong would suddenly appear and fill my pussy so i could be complete. My fingers would have to make due for now. But even that was taken away from me. Hui pulled my arms behind my back and pinned them in place.

“No, love. None of that.”

“You’re mouth is mine tonight and Hyung said I could have your pussy too.” He yanked my hair back so my mouth was freed of his deep thrusts. Then, in one fell swoop, Kino set my legs on his shoulders and lifted me up completely. Hui braced himself against the building wall, thrusting straight up inside me while my dripping center lay fully open for Kino to see. I was sandwiched between them, panting as my knees were practically against shoved to my ears. Kino quickly rolled on the condom, which i assumed that was what Hui tossed him earlier. He kept me propped up against them both and thrusted deep. I couldn’t help the scream that escaped me. Their thrusts were hard and fast and god did i love getting fucked like this. My head rolled back onto Hui’s shoulder where his labored breath ghosted across my nipples. Every inch of my skin felt so sensitive now, like i could cum at any moment just from one touch. I never wanted their cocks to leave me.

“I want to cum so bad,” I panted. “Please.”

I could hear Hui’s hips slap against my ass as his thrusts got rougher. “I know, love. But we want you to feel so amazing first. We know you love being gaped open like this.”

I nodded quickly as i bit down on my bottom lip, tearing it open. I could feel myself tiptoeing closer to the edge. My slick sounds of Kino fucking my wet heat filled my ears. My thighs quivered and I heard Hui whisper, “Your ass is so fuckin’ tight for me.”

“She gonna cum everywhere, Hyung. Just look at her.” Kino swallowed hard, trying to keep up the facade that he wasn’t going to burst at any minute either. Hui was the opposite. His face was already twisted in pleasure, cock swelling and stretching me further.

“Yes!”I hissed. “Kino, baby, make me cum. I want both of you to make me cum!”

Kino’s thrusts were becoming sporadic and wild and Hui was following suit. My nails dug into my arms Hui was still holding captive, my toes curling in the night hair, and my lungs burning as i moaned loud. My orgasm came gushing out off me seeming to never end. My body seized and thrashed against them as i felt them cum with me. Kino stayed inside me for a moment until his arms couldn’t support me any longer. My lower half fell instantly, with only Hui keeping me from falling completely. Kino rolled onto the building panting heavily.

I shivered and Hui kept me close, petting my sweat drenched hair and whispering that it was ok. He slipped out of me slowly so i could lay flush against his chest. His heart was racing with no sign of slowing down. I kissed him gently and pushed his hair back.

“Get a room,” Kino panted. He made his way over to me and kissed my shoulder. “You ok?”

I parted from Hui momentarily and kissed Kino. He nursed my bleeding lip gently. “Hmm, you bit your lip hard.”

“Yeah well...shit happens. I don’t think I can walk.” I said.

Hui finished buckling his belt and putting on his jacket. “I’ll carry you to your dorm.”

Kino looked down at his drenched shirt. “You’re lucky I have some more clothes in my gym bag. You soaked everything.”

My face turned bright crimson. “I didn’t mean to, ok?”

Hui laughed as he helped me to get dressed. “Don’t listen to him. We love it.” Once i was sensibly dressed for travel back to my room, Hui hiked me onto his back, giving me a piggyback ride while Kino carried our gymbags.

Kino tossed the used condoms in the trash as we headed back to my dorm. “Is your roommate home?”

I could barely keep my eyes open. “I have no idea. But honestly she’s probably at Bible study or something.”

“Where’s your key?” Hui asked me. I barely motioned to Kino who was already digging through my bag.

“Got it.” He swiped into the building and I didn’t even notice the awkward stares we were getting. The elevator ride was short and down the hall was my room and most importantly my bed. Kino swiped the key and flicked on the light and illuminated the empty room. Hui laid me down on my bed and rubbed my legs.

“Do you want us to stay here a little bit?”

I nodded, still not really opening my eyes. Kino lifted my legs up so he could scooch into my bed. He propped himself against the wall and set my legs back down on his lap. Hui occupied the top of my bed, lay my head in his lap. I felt their caresses slowly work across my body easing me into a deep sleep.

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Dating Zayn Malik

Here's a taste of my writing.. (Also, these small situations are all just random little ideas, no hate towards anyone or anything mentioned!)

Dating Zayn Malik as a fellow artist was not easy. Everyone knew that Zayn was an extremely private and introverted guy, especially for a celebrity. He rarely appeared on interviews or TV shows, is usually inactive on social media other than a tweet every so often and does not promote his music in any way, much to his fans' dismay. Although they respected his choices and were always highly proud of his achievements despite his inactivity on the media. They also loved his music, how real and genuine it felt to listen to it, especially because it's 'hand-made' by Zayn.

You however, are the exact opposite of your beloved boyfriend. You loved interacting with your fans, online or offline, no matter where you are, you can always be spotted chatting with them, taking selfies, giving autographs. It felt like you owed it to them, and it was the least you could really do for those who unconditionally supported you regardless of your relationship with them- strangers.

You regularly promoted your music, always performing live at concerts, TV shows and even talk shows like Ellen, The Late Late Show With James Corden, The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon and many more. You also made regular appearances at radio stations, Buzzfeed and hundreds of magazines for your modelling career.

Acting was much less common, but it was still something you did. A couple of main roles, a few cameo or special appearances did much to boost your name as an 'all-rounder celebrity'.

So to say the least, dating Zayn Malik was not easy. In fact, your personalities clashed a little too much for the idea of even being friends, let alone being a couple.

Initially, Zayn had objected to the idea of revealing your newfound relationship. In fact, you agreed, not wanting to ruin the first few months of dating. The feeling of a fresh, unknown and private relationship was a lot more beautiful than one could imagine, especially when it came to being a public role model. It felt much more meaningful and romantic when you weren't being plagued with fans, magazine rumours and always making it on the headlines if you're seen with the opposite gender. Of course, you don't blame them. Never did, never will.

Sometimes it's just hard to live in the spotlight when you want peace and alone time to spend with friends, family and loved ones.

However, as time went on, it wasn't really news to you that both you and Zayn were suspected to be involved with each other. Fans find things out a lot quicker than most could imagine, it was almost scary. However, Zayn's constant denial made you upset. What was wrong with revealing your relationship? It was common, even amoungst your past relationships. This ended in small arguments that were pointless, but eventually, to save your relationship, he gave in. Anyway, it would have been found out sooner or later and the both of you had been getting annoyed with the many articles being released, "Zayn Malik & Charlotte Parker infatuated with each other?", "Couple or 'Just friends'- Zayn Malik and Charlotte Parker", "Has Zayn moved on from his relationship with Perrie?", "Is Charlotte over her recent breakup with Cole Sprouse?"

"And what, Zayn? Why don't you want people to know about us? Is it something about me? Am I not bloody good enough for you?"

You knew it wasn't true. Zayn loved you with all his heart, and it didn't matter if you were a celebrity or not. Zayn didn't care about these things, he made that clear from the start.

But it was getting out of hand; the rumours. They knew, fuck, they probably suspected it from the beginning. What's wrong with telling the world?

"You know that isn't fucking true Charlotte. I love you, you know that. It's just-"

"What? Just what Zayn?"

Zayn remains silent, his brown eyes refusing to meet yours. Neither of you said a word as you sat in the piercing silence.

Zayn quietly turns to look at you, he knew you wanted it. Could he sacrifice his privacy for you?

Secondly, it is very well-known that Zayn has been in One Direction, and of course decided to cut all ties with his former bandmates. Except, you've been together while Zayn was still in One Direction, and friends when he joined the band. This meant that a friendship with the other boys was definitely going to happen. However, when a bandmate who just so happens to be closest to you leaves, it will lead to more drama. You cannot count the amount of times fans have pleaded- begged you to reconcile their relationship.

Some Directioners even accused you breaking the band because of your relationship with Zayn, which was absolute horseshit. The boys have stepped in to defend you, but it didn't stop some fans from blaming you whenever they found something that was close enough to be called 'evidence'. This was the exact reason why sometimes you wished Zayn would suck it up and apologise for leaving so abruptly and fix their friendship. However, if it were that easy, Zayn wouldn't have left. You don't blame him for not doing that.

Many useless articles have also came up with news whenever you were spotted spending time with the boys. Yes, the relationship has soured between the members, but did that stop you from being good friends with them? No. Problems only arose whenever you tried to fix it, and it didn't seem that either party were willing to cooperate with each other. Moreover, with their busy schedules and sizeable media exposure, it was hard to find a time and place to mend their friendship. So maybe, maybe when everyone had the chance to get together, you'd try.

"Can't you just try, for them? For me?"

Zayn sighs, holding his head between his hands. You knew he didn't want anything to do with them, but you never really understood how someone could abandon a 5-year friendship, especially if you've lived together more than half the time.

"Baby, you know how I feel about it. I'm just not ready. Moreover, it seems that none of the guys want to either."

His words only make you grit your teeth. The guys seem like they don't want to because none of you try to help the problem! Everytime you manage to gather the boys together, it always ends in shouts and awkward silence.

"Well... Fine then. I guess I can't force any of you."

Lastly, it's common knowledge within your fan base and even outside of it that you abhorred smoking and drugs. The visual made up for it's disgusting nature, but you still preferred to stay away from those cancer sticks. With such a negative view towards cigarettes, it was certainly a surprise when your company revealed you got together with Zayn, considering he smoked a ton.

Fans were worried that he had lead you astray and bombed him with hate for quite awhile, but once you cleared the issue up, many were questioning, why?

Some said this only shows how powerful your love was, that you could oversee a flaw in the Bradford man and still love him for him. However others said that this only proved you're there for his money, which didn't really make sense, considering you earned just as much, if not more for the amount of promotions you did. So that theory was long diminished.

Cigarettes were small, but to you, they held a lot more power than one could imagine. It was not only addictive after a few smokes and lethal, but it also seemed to be able to put a strain on your relationship with Zayn. You hated that those things had so much power.

"Baby.. I thought I told you no smoking inside the house! If you want to smoke, go to the balcony."

You sigh, coughing a little as the pungent smell of smoke stung your lungs. You honestly didn't know why Zayn turned to smoking when he could do other things to relax and let off steam.

"It's just a little smoke babe. Deal with it."

"Perrie did.. So why can't you.." He mumbled, clearly not realising just how loud and clear it was to you. Tears filled your eyes and anger ran through your veins. So this was what would end it all, a fucking cancer stick.

"Fuck you Zayn." You breathed out, wiping away your tears before slamming the door to your shared room shut.

You definitely did not miss the regretful look in his eyes, but honestly, you could care less at this point. If Zayn missed Perrie so much just because she could endure a goddamn cig in the house, he can have her all he wants.

You eventually made up with Zayn. He came over to your friend's place where you were temporarily staying at 3am, drunk while slurring out constant apologies. It truly did hurt you to see him like that, however, what he said, you would never, ever forget. He promised he would try to get over his habbit, just for you. It comforted you that you were able to get him to try his best to overcome this life-threatening habbit. Because hey, you might not have been able to endure it for him, but you potentially saved him from health issues in the future.

Of course, Zayn's smoking habbit did bother you a lot more than you would admit, it's just that you didn't show it to the public. It was a turn-off, especially the lingering scent on his body. Even after showers, the foul smell always lingered on him. After the fight, you had managed to lower his smoking frequency by a substantial amount, but it still wasn't enough to you. As a biology student in secondary school, your knowledge over the toll smoking can cause on a person's body was not small, and you've heard many stories from your teacher about how smoking almost lead to her father's permanent blindness. You were bent on not letting that happen to Zayn, let alone even getting close to that state.

His fans are more than thankful for that.

But they didn't just love you for helping his problem with smoking. In fact, they loved that once you appeared in his life, his mood seemed to always be playful and happy. How did they know that? Because of your weekly Instagram posts with him. Zayn may not be active on social media, but you constantly made it a point to give the fans a little taste of him outside of work. It seemed to do the trick, because many of them loved it.

There were also less Twitter rants made by him. It used to be common for Zayn to post whatever he wanted to say on Twitter without directing it to anyone, but he rarely did that anymore, and he kept to more positive tweets.

The part fans were most excited about was that Zayn seemed to quarrel less with the his ex bandmates. Their Twitter war likely came to an end because of you. Overall, fans were content with the positive influence you had on him.

"How does it feel to be in a relationship with Zayn Malik?"

The female interviewer asks, almost grinning with adoration when your eyes lit up at the sound of his name.

"It's difficult because of our differences. As many people know, he's much more introverted and less active than I am in the community, but despite those differences, it's still amazing. We love each other and that's all that matters. We give each other balance, and we're always there for each other whenever the latter needs support."

You pause, biting your lip.

"Zayn is the best thing that's happened to me. He's a great guy. I'm so thankful that I can have him in my life, even if I can't boast about our relationship."

The interviewer chuckles, many found it enduring whenever you talked about your relationship. She's not the first.

"Do you have anything to say to Zayn?"

Crossing your legs, you smiled shyly, tucking a strand of black hair behind your pierced ears. You had plenty to say to Zayn, but it wasn't practical to say it all out on camera. No matter how extroverted you were, baring your heart out to the world was still a hard no in your book.

You faced the camera, the corners of your lips curving ever so slightly.

"Zayn, I know you hate publicising anything about us, I know it's tiring when we go out together, especially when fans and paps disrupt our private time together. It's been hard on you, and I'm sorry. But we grew together as partners which is all that matters, and we learnt to give way to each other, even if it meant sacrificing a little. So thank you for putting up with me. I love you."

The interviewer quietly squeals beside you, clapping at your small speech. She then goes on to talk about how real your relationship seemed to be, as compared to other public relationships. But you listened to none of it, because, you were watching Zayn stare at you quietly from behind the camera, with watery eyes and the widest, goofiest grin on his face.

#one direction #zayn malik #he'll forever be in 1D #fanfic #imagine #longer than an imagine..#readerxzayn

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These are actually solid questions

1. First thing you wash in the shower? my hair

2. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker? i can’t stand coffee. and alcohol might as well be my blood at this point

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? haha noooo. he was nice but i felt literally nothing. was like kissing a brick wall or something. tbh i never feel much when i kiss boys

4. Do you plan outfits? YES. i’m a drama queen and a diva and flamboyant and i need to look good always. i have my graduation in 2 days and i still haven’t planned what to wear and it’s bothering me

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? tbh pretty numb. like not happy and not sad. just. .... chillin

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? my track pants

7. What would you do if you opened your door and saw a dead body? well with the mood im in now, i probably wouldn’t react. but the logical side of my brain would kick in and i’d phone it in to the police.

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? it’s still that one about the creepy old dude touching me in the car.

9. Three of your current feelings? -introspective -apathetic

-wistful

10. What are you craving right now? tbh i would very much love to hug my stuffed pink harold. but he’s downstairs and i just don’t have the energy to walk haha

11. Turn ons? not rly in the mood to answer these

12. Turn offs?

13. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? this vine

14. When was the last time you cried? Why? idk like over a month ago. i had to work a thursday night shift which is always super stressful. and that day my sister just started beating the shit out of me so the anxiety was like double

15. If you could be a superhero, who would you want to be? ironman. any day. or spiderman because it’d be fun to just swing around the city listening to music peacefully

16. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize? nope. she doesn’t even know that i know about half the shit she did. never ever apologised about the stuff she knows i know about. no acknowledgement. no apology. just pretends it never happened

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? lick it

18. Favorite movie ever? idk i like frozen and pride and prejudice and the hunger games

19. Do you like yourself? i like myself, but i can’t seem to justify why. i don’t really have an identity. i don’t know what i’m like. and so it’s hard to like myself when i don’t know what i like about my self, or why i do. but i enjoy being myself.

20. Have you ever met a celebrity? i met stan walker once? he’s a minor celebrity in australlia

21. Could you handle being in the military? part of me would thrive in the structure and forced exercise and socialisation. another part of me would completely crumble because like i have anxiety

22. What are you listening to right now? i don’t give a ... - missio

23. How many countries have you visited? india, america, canada, australia. so 4 i guess

24. Are your parents strict? you betcha

25. Would you go sky diving? sure yeah. i’m afraid of heights so the adrenaline would be wild

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? nah. i dont give a shit about him. maybe i’d go if he paid for the food.

27. Whats on your mind right now? literally nothing. mostly thinking about endgame. i’m also thinking about taking my mum’s anti anxiety meds since she doesn’t use them and i have anxiety. but i don’t want to take them without professional advice. but also, i am a professional advice. and like what could happen? i’d get mentally ill?

28. Is there anything you want to say to someone? nah i dont really feel like talking atm. i guess i’d ask if they wanted to go for a smoke. i would love a cig rn

29. Have you ever been in a castle? no but i would love to!!

30. Do you rent movies often? not really, i just watch stan/netflix

31. Whats your zodiac sign? cancer sun, leo moon, libra rising

32. When was the last time you had sex? i haven’t had sex

33. Name five facts about yourself. i honestly don’t think i know enough about myself to do this but let’s give it a go -i have short hair -i love music more than literally anything -i turn 21 this year and i have no idea what to do for it -i’m thinking of getting a motorbike soon -i’ve never broken a bone

34. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened? nope

35. Do you believe in karma or predestiny? i used to. and i absolutely would love to believe in all that stuff. but not to sound angsty or whatever, i’ve had so many shitty things happen to me that it’s hard for me to believe that it’s all part of some big plan or that there is any justice in the world. i think people just do shit and that’s it

36. Brown or white eggs? ive never had white eggs so..... brown?

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? nah we dont have it in australia

38. Ever been on a train? yeah man i love trains

39. Ever been in love? not mutually, no

40. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it? it’s a million bucks. absolutely. one night of terror to never have to worry about anything ever again. i’m a witch too so as much as i’d be scared, it’d be fine.

41. If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with? someone rich and famous. maybe harry styles or freddie mercury. i’m sure they didn’t have it easy, but it’s certainly easier than things have/ever will be for me you know?

42. If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to become more attractive, would you do it? absolutely

43. Whom do you admire and why? i tend not to admire irl people. but i do admire tony stark a lot (GOD this is so lame ksajrsjkfs). i admire his charisma, his confidence, his humour, his good looks, his intelligence, his eyes. he embodies everything i feel like i can never be. but everything i’ll always want to be. i admire freddie mercury. for his work drive and ethic. for his confidence and stage presence, his ability and talent in singing, songwriting, musical instruments. his flamboyancy, his sense of humour. again, these are all qualities i would love to have.

44. What was your favorite bedtime story as a child? oh i never really got read bedtime stories

45. You’re walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do? internally, i’d be like “that sucks for you” and walk away. but i can’t be a dick, so i’d assess the extent of the fire and see if there was a way to save the baby. i’d try if so, if not idk what i’d do. panic and call 000?

46. If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you? nah man. gotta let kids live their lives

47. What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol? alcohol: the night i just moved out of home 2 weeks ago. my roommate invited a friend over, and we all had fun and played never have i ever and i flirted with this really cute guy and had so much fun. i hadn’t really had any experiences like that before because i was - anyway. it was nice to feel like a normal 19 year old just for a second weed: either the time i was drunk and high at our housewarming party and went to the park and felt like i was on a fucking rollercoaster, or the time i got super cooked after work and had a shower which felt amazing and then went back to my room and listened to beautiful people beautiful problems. i didn’t hallucinate per se, but i closed my eyes and could like see the lyrics “blue is the colour of the planet from the view above”. it was like i was in outer space and could see the earth and i was so relaxed and it was so magical mdma: my halloween party! there were so many people and no one knew i was high and we had a mad dance party and i met some of our neighbours and i just had so much fun talking to everyone and Living.

48. What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol? alcohol: being around boring people when drunk is boring. especially because when i’m drinking i really want to have a good and fun time. weed: ahh i have anxiety so i used to get a few panic attacks when i was smoking mdma: eugh it was my friends 21st at the time and we took mdma and i thought it wasnt kicking in because all we did was sit in bed and talk. literally so boring. im so mad that i wasted my first time like that

50. As your walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it? nah, i’d probably hand it in to the police. actually, i dont trust the police so i’d probably google what to do with it. but probably police because i cant have stolen money or give it to someone else.

51. If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them? not hanging out with someone because of that has literally never even crossed my mind

52. In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive you’d receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger? nah. i’m actually going places now days

53. How old were you when you lost your virginity? tba

54. Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampires? nope

55. If you could live forever, would you want to? yeah probably. i’d like to give it a trial run though. i’m very anxious, so being lonely and immortal might make it worse. but at the same time, being immortal might make it easier to not give a shit and to be less anxious

56. Which fictional movie character most resembles who you are? honestly i feel like jane villanueva or peter parker

57. If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit? i would love to be a victorian bitch with a bomb ass dress and waist

58. If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it? probably not. unless it was someone i really hated, i wouldnt give a shit

59. If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it? i mean i wouldn’t be the best person for the job, but i also wouldn’t be the worst. if i could have time to properly study politics then yeah i’d consider.

60. If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to? i’d probably want a girl but i dont really see any reason to not have a boy

61. Would you rather live longer or be wealthy? be wealthyyyyyy

#mine

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I'm gonna ask my dad to add me as a second driver on his car insurance etc. In order god him to do that I think I need to be insured but how can I get insurance if I do not own a car. How does t it work?

Did you get your insurance from an agent or a wholesaler?

is it possible to get your private insurance from a wholesaler? is it cheaper?

Should the government ban gender discrimination for insurance rates?

Why is it legal for car insurance companies to charge males more than females when they have the same driving record, same age, same car, and same everything else?""

What car with...cheap insurance?

Hi all.... Well I have my test in 2wks I have 2x 2hour lessons a wk so I best pass! Ha Anyway I need abit of advice on cars and insurance, I am 21year old female. Can anyone suggest any cheap insurance company and what type of car may be best I have 2000 pound currently saved for my first car! Thanks xx and wish me luck ha x""

Covered California individual plan?

Hello, I am a grad student with no income currently. I'm signing up for covered ca for an individual plan. It is asking for number of people in household, do I just put one for myself or am I supposed to write all family members even though it is for an individual plan? From the research I've done it seems I probably won't be eligible for obamacare and may have to sign up for medicaid. My mother is currently putting me through school and paying for my current health insurance. If I don't qualify for Obamacare couldn't I just sign up with a new plan under my current health insurance provider that my mother will pay for or would it be better if I just went with medicaid? Thanks for your advice.""

How much would car insurance cost me?

I am male 31 yr old, have 1 yr experience driving on a provisional license, how much would insurance cost me for a 99 fiat punto 1.2?? Also if its possible to pay it monthly or whats the best? Would appreciate any help.""

My car got totalled and my car insurance expired. HELP!!!?

My brother totaled my car and i cant get it fixed because my car insurance expired. Can I wait to get my insurance renewed and get it fixed or just forget about it and get a new car under a new insurance policy?

Is car insurance more or less the same price in every state?

In Tennessee, my car insurance is $263 a year on a 2002 Ford ZX2 ... can I expect to pay the same amount in the State of Washington?""

CheapEST foreign cars to maintain? (Audi / Lexus / Volvo / Volkswagen )?

Which of these cars is cheapest to maintain? (Oil changes, brakes, tune ups, insurance, etc) I realize they're all foreign and they'll all cost more than a Ford would. But which is cheapest? Which is most expensive? Please help! I need someone with experience! Thank you so much!""

Car insurance question?

Hi! Let's say I'm driving my parent's car by myself, and worst case scenario, I end up in some kind of small accident. (Didn't happen. I'm talking hypothetically here, alright? :D) Does insurance cover the car itself, or only the driver of the car (i.e: either my mom or dad?). So if I get caught in an accident in Mom's car, am I covered under her insurance? Or do I have to get my OWN car with my OWN insurance, in order to be covered? Thanks!""

Commercial business insurance and homeowners insurance?

I am closing soon on a small commercial property. It is a smaller restaurant/bar and has an apartment in back where I will be living. I'm a little confused regarding insurance. Do I get commercial business insurance for the building, and then separate homeowners insurance for the small apartment in back? Though I feel that would be strange as it's one large building essentially. Just curious what others have done, it's too late to call now, yet I will in the morning.""

Will car insurance go up if I get a speeding ticket?

Will my car insurance rate go up if I got a speeding ticket? Im in California. This is the first one ever, and I've been driving for about 4 years now. Anyone with an answer? Thanks in advance!""

Car insurance rate differences between the years question?

Okay, I'm almost going to be looking for car soon, and I'm wondering, since I'll only be a 16 year old boy, insurance will be really damn high for me, and I was curious, say you have two cars of the same model, trim, style, transmission, driving record, miles, engine wear, etc. One car is something made in the late eighties or early nineties while the other car is late nineties or early 2000s. What I basically want to know, is, which car would have a cheaper insurance premium? (approximately. I know you cant give me an exact number.)""

""Both Canidates say they will make insurance affordable, no #'s are given - what is affordable?""

Both Canidates say they will make insurance affordable, no #'s are given - what is affordable? Some people cant afford $2.00 a week or a month...they are living on nothing. My ...show more""

Looking for health insurance?

I am looking for a health insurance. Which way you found yours? Are there special topics to look about? Would be happy about your advice :-)

Car Insurance question?

I am 17 years old, and I have a provisional license. I was wondering if it was legal to drive my parents car without me added to their policy. I live in New Jersey.""

""Which is cheaper for liability insurance, in Alabama: Geico, The General, or 21st Century?""

I am buying a little beater, just need some el cheapo liability..cant compare w/o VIN number, don't have that yet..""

Medical insurance coordination of benefits help?

Husband & wife both have group medical insurance with their employers. His insurance is a bucket plan through Cigna called an HSA. It pays for the first $750 & then he has to meet another $750 before anything else is pd. Her insurance is Healthlink PPO with $250 deductible. If husband's insurance pays for his chiropractor bills in full (as not over $750 total) can these bills be submitted to her insurance to help meet the family deductible of $500? We live in IL. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Are lincoln town cars cheap to insure?

i am thinking about a new car. i am 20 years old; no tickets or accidents the car i want is a 2000 gray lincoln town car with low mileage i drive on average 15 miles a day and can afford gas and repairs. i dont want no cadillacs or imports

Can i use my car insurance to pay for damage to my car?

Some idiot decided not to own up to denting my car at the weekend, so now i am left to foot the bill which judging by the damage is not going ot be cheap. The moron whoever he/she is has dented both passenger side doors. As i have never been in this situation i am not sure if i can use my car insurance to pay for the damage, especially as i dont know who damaged my car in tyhe first place. I am fully comp with Tesco.""

Are the extreamly wealthy required to have driver's insurance?

e.g Bill Gates, Warren Buffett, Donald Trump... Assuming that they are proverbial multi-millionares/billionares who and can easily prove that they would be able to pay any conceivable liability costs out of pocket if necessary.""

What is the best medical insurance for unemployed or self employed?

Whats the average cost for teenage car insurance?

im going to get my permit soon and i would like to know what the average teen car insurance cost is.

What are some quicker cars that are lower in insurance?

I'm looking to get a quicker car, I've been looking at WRX, Speed3, and GTI, but they are all really expensive on insurance for a 19 year old, are there any comparable cars that might be a little less on insurance rates?""

Why the heck do I have to legally own car insurance? It is unconstitutional!! I should have the right not to..?

buy car insurance if I don't want to. That should be repealed.

How much do you pay for full coverage car insurance?

i'm 19 and going to buy a car soon but i'm trying to get a ball park figure on how much i can expect to pay

A new car ? when does the new insurance apply?

does the new carpet needs insurance from the financial company

""Can Doctors offices charge you, when they lost your medical insurance card?""

I got my appendix removed in California and used the state insurance at the time (since I was low income and never had insurance). All the hospital bills are payed for; however, the surgeon has charged me an additional 1,445.00. I never even saw the surgeon after the hospital. I went in for follow-ups to his office but would always miss him. I gave my insurance card to front desk girl and she told me she didn't need it but just in case she made a copy. Now two years later I come to find out that there is this bill. What can I do?""

Teenager car insurance?

Hi there. I have heard that there are special companies out there that deal specifically with teenage car insurance. I am 17, own my own car, and will have a stand-alone policy. Does anyone know names of these companies? I live in Ontario, Canada. So far, the cheapest company I found was Bel-Air Direct, with an annual premium of $3100 CAD. Thanks people!!""

Added my newborn to my insurance after 30 days?

help ! after i had my new baby things wre so hectic for me. he had jaundice and in and out of doctors.. my toddler had dental promblems . i had post partum issues myself and by the time i called to add baby to insurance it was abt 12 days after the 30 day period . my insurance is united healthcare thru my previous employer that im currently on cobra with.. they denied adding my newborn and said they wll send me a letter so i can appeal but im afraid that wont help . any advice on what i can do .. i cant imagine nt hvng insurance for my baby..especially we just got home from the hospital yestrday bcz he has broncholitus .. so i wl be billed for that . i know i called to add him late but hopeflly there gtta be something i can do. i means its for a child i live california .. any advice on how to handle this

How do you beat the under 25 y/o car insurance scam?

We're bought a toyota corolla for $9,500 and its going to cost $1700 just to insure it, we've heard of putting it in the parents name but if you name an under 25 year old as a driver the price goes up so i was wondering if anyone knows a way to beat it""

How much will buying a 2005 Mistubishi Lancer Evolution 8 raise my insurance premium?

I'm looking into buying a new car and I'm a bit of a motor head and like to race. The Evo 8 is my next choice, but I can't find out how much it will raise my premium. Anyone know? If it helps, my insurance provider is Allstate.""

Mandated Health Insurance is different from Mandated Auto Insurance how?

The Supreme Court will be deciding if the government can force us to buy health insurance from a private corporation. The government forces us to buy auto liability insurance from a private corporation. I am at a loss to see the difference.

Which insurance company has the quickest claim?

Okay so I want to know which insurance company would give me the quickest claim without any problems between: state farm, farmers, hardford, and all state?""

How much does insurance cost?

in california? my mother is on a stupid hmo, i was wonderingif i paid for a better insurance if it would get better.""

Allstate insurance?

does allstate have medical insurance

HElp With A PROJECT on CAR INSURANCE!?

ok so i have a project and all the car insurance places are closed and i can't finish it! so umm can anyone help?? this is all the information i have, i just need an estimate for a monthly payment 1996 eagle talon married couple 25 years old driver low milage on car car is paid for, goood driving history car is used for job too for dilivering pizza live in florida umm if you need any more information let me kno please helpp worth 20% of final grade in class!!!!""

Insurance 2 be a cheer leader???????

do you have to have health insurance to be on a high school cheer team? and if you dont then do they not let you on the team?

Approximately how much would Comprehensive car insurance be for these luxury cars?

Im currently doing an assignment where I have to compare running costs of three different cars. I can't get an online quote for comprehensive insurance for these three luxury cars: Let's say the driver is a 30 year old with a perfect history/driving record. BMW 740i (Price: $183,000) Audio RS4 (Price: $187,500) Mercedes CLK-63 AMG (Price: $199,100) How much do you think APPROXIMATELY, the comprehensive car insurance would be for each of these cars? (Annual) AS A GUIDE.""

""I knocked over a stop sign with someone else's car, whose insurance company do I use?""

Nothing happened to the car, I just need to pay for the stop sign. (I still don't understand why they can't just stick the sign back in. Nothing happened to it.) Anyway, I'm wondering if I should call my insurance company, or the person's insurance company. The police took the insurance # of the car's owner, but to file a report, do I call my company or his? (We both have the same company, USAA, but I don't know what policy # to use.)""

How long does it usually take to get car insurance?

Hi. I'm an 18 year old teen. Recently obtained my drivers license. But I can't drive yet because I don't have car insurance. I was wondering how long it usually takes to get car insurance as a teen. From researching it tells me it may take as short as 3 days and as long as 7 days. (Business days only of course). I've been waiting for around. 11 business days. Is that normal? I have no idea what the car insurance company my parents are using because they know i'm going to call them and complain. My friends who are...Allstate,Geico,Triple A, ETC. Have told me they got their car insurance in about 3 business days.""

Does anyone know any really cheap car insurance companies for old cars?

I have an R Reg Corsa 1 Litre, and 6 years no claims, but it seems to be the age of the car that's bumping up my insurance policy? HELP!""

Who has the best car insurance?

Im looking for car insurance, and I need it soon. Sorry for the flood of questions, but no one is answering... And now the question- How has your insurance company been to you? Since most of the companies I've looked at have similar rates, I have the freedom to choose a company not by pricing, but by how good they actually are. I've spent hours searching reviews of all the major players, and I've seen almost exclusively horror stories about how bad the companies are once you file a claim. Geico, Allstate, and especially progressive (defended policyholders killer in court to weasel out of paying out claim), all seem to have a pretty bad reputation among their customers. Now I'm not a fool, I understand that most reviews are written by people who have been wronged. People are much less likely to write a positive review because their company has followed through, as this is what is to be expected in the first place. It is entirely possible that behind that sour review, there are several satisfied customers who didn't feel a need to review their service. If any of those people read this, please help me out with this choice. Additionally, anyone who may be in the wronged group, if you have a reason that you would not reccomendation your insurance co please let me know! Thanks for any help!""

Women pay more for healthcare insurance?

It appears women pay more for insurance than men even if they're the same age. Insurers say this is justifiable because women tend to have more health risks than men especially after they give birth (urinal incontinence). Here are some of their reasons: -women tend to go to the doctor more and get check-ups every year whereas men do not -even if the insurance doesn't cover maternity care, some states mandate that insurance covers complications of pregnancy Not all insurance covers maternity care but it still costs more either way: -In Ohio, a woman pays 49% more than men of same age -In Texas, women pay 39% more from the state insurance pool -Nebraska is 32% more on average What do you think of this? Do you think it's justifiable to charge one sex more than the other because of potential higher risks? Or do you think that both genders would have to given the same costs? http://www.nytimes.com/2008/10/30/us/30insure.html?scp=1&sq=healthcare%20policy%20women&st=cse""

What can I do about uninsured motorist?

I was driving at a green light and the person made a left turn into me without a turning signal. I swerved right to avoid them, but we still crashed. A car then hit me from behind because of it. Their car has no damage, but I'm pretty sure my car and car 1 is totaled. I'm worried because car 1 might not have insurance. I have a dislocated thumb, that I need surgery on and won't be able to work for a while. My job won't give me short term disability. I have liability insurance in PA. Do I find car 1? Can I go to car 2's insurance and get anything? I heard PA is a no fault state but I don't understand any of that. If anyone could explain anything to me and let me know what to do next, I would really appreciate that.""

How much should i be paying for car insurance in the state of ohio?

I am 17 years old im a male i drive a 2000 chevrolet blazer i have no accidents no tickets and i get decent grades

Is it really worth it to get Full coverage insurance on a vehicle more than 10- 15 years old?

How much is a Car for a 17yo?

How much is a car, insurance, lessons, test, tax etc.... Everything! For a 17 year old Guy. Just for a cheap second hand car ie. Peugeot 106 (second hand) But how much will it all come to? Thanks""

Car insurance help and rules?

Okay so I am 18 years old living on my own completely dependent. Now if I put my dad as a secondary owner to my car so I still have possession of it and got on his insurance would it be cheaper? Or would it have to be his car. I live in Oregon by the way. And also could I get better rates if say I got on my grandma's insurance? Is that possible considering she isn't my guardian or anything and I don't live with her? Because she has the best credit known to man and I know that affects your rates. If you have have any tip on how I can stop paying 250 a month on my 94 Accord which is 4 door (yes I'm getting very raped by American Family) I would appreciate it.

I want to buy a Mazda RX8 with 69xxxx miles. is it a good car and how much does insurance cost for these cars?

How come i don't see many of these cars around?

Should a 22 year old buy life insurance?

Okay, my friend who is 22 years old has a dead end job does not have a family of his own and is still attending college was asking me if he should buy life insurance, I think he shouldn't but what those everyone else think. Let me know""

How much do you pay for full coverage car insurance?

i'm 19 and going to buy a car soon but i'm trying to get a ball park figure on how much i can expect to pay

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1/14/17, 5:41am - can’t sleep

too much stuff on my mind. and a bit of a headache. I know I said I’d quit this thing, but I can’t. but as far as I’m concerned, if I’m going to cop out of that I’m at least going to swear off the kiss-and-tell braggadocio though. And tone down the negative vibe.

This aboutta be some feelgood shit up in here.

I mean not everything’s going great. To be totally honest I still have literally no idea how this financial situation is going to work out. But I’m sure it will.

But my friends have been so good to me. I love them all so much.

Need to start with the excellent gourmet kingdom dinner that I went out to with the smash fam on wednesday. Lucas, Corey, Dylan, Patricio, Clem, Jwilli, Spencer all treated me. Fuck I hope I’m not forgetting someone lmao. I know I’m forgetting like one or two mofukkas. I wasn’t going to go ofc, but since I wasn’t going to go because money was tight they offered to pay for my meal and I reluctantly accepted. [as much as i’d do it for anyone, I still feel a little bothered accepting these kinds of gifts from my friends. I don’t really feel like I can’t take care of myself or something, I just feel like I... shouldn’t. Because if I can’t plan on coming out of my own financial problems how can I plan on paying them back and how can I accept a gift in the first place then?]

Thursday I got to team with Ian, and it was some of the most fun I’ve ever had playing in tournament. We DOMINATED the winners bracket of that tournament. only lost one game and had some of the filthiest combos I’ve ever seen in my life. Just got cold waiting for grands and didn’t play as well. Was so much fun though, really made me happy to have poured so much time into practicing. Just gotta keep doing better.

After the tournament a whole ton of people came over to my place to play for the night. Can’t even get into it but it was great. in all I played from 4pm until 6am and only stopped because I got a splitting headache and felt like I was going to die finally hahahah... Probably should have gotten some dinner or somethnig lmao.

I was supposed to try to play with Kevin today, but instead I spent the day with Weilin. Him and a few people had crashed at my place, so we went on a mini road trip to take Decker back to greensboro. We spent a little time trying to get his phone fixed, spent some time trying to find me new pants, ate some delicious gyros and had a long car talk about hentai and the pursuit of happiness and financial goals and life and melee and everything, man. So glad that happened.

We met up with Arun, Arvind, Irene, and Broscious to eat at Bali Hai and do an escape room out at durham. Got a huge ass plate of meat thanks to weilin covering for me, and had a great time solving the 90′s themed puzzles with the gang. We tore it up, too. Only got stumped by a cd in a book and a madonna song hahaha. Those guys are all some smart motherfuckers, I’ll tell ya whattt. And while we waited for this safe to unlock me and Broscious got to slam down some Pogs and mostly just slap them around on a table hahahahaha. I was supposed to go to a party tonight that my old pokemon go team was throwing to celebrate Kelly turning level 40, but there was no way I was gonna pull myself away from those guys for anything. We spent a couple hours playing board games and talking/gossipping/catching up and getting cookout. Excited as fuck to do it again tomorrow.

But the real reason I’m writing this post is because Irene wanted us to do this neat little thing that was admittedly a little lame but amazingly feelgood and really made me happy. I think she called it a compliment circle, where we all had to think of at least a compliment for each other, and we took turns doing whatever the opposite of a roast is. I really don’t want to forget any of the things that they said, because it’s not often that people go out of their way to give you honest totally-for-nothing compliments, yknow? They’re not verbatim because my short term memory sucks, but I’ll do my best here.

“You’re the best.” “you have a beautiful smile and jaw structure and face and eyes and you’re just a great looking dude and if I were a chick I’d date you and if you were a chick I’d date you, and if we both were chicks I’d date you.” “it seems like you always have a lot of things messing with your life, but despite that you’re always a great person to be around. you never seem to let things get to you and you always have a smile on your face and you’re never a downer.” “you do a lot of things for your friends and the melee community and just people in general. you never really seem to expect anything in return and I don’t think that gets brought up much.” “You make me push myself to be better.” “I like your nose” (weird. broscious, you don’t read my blog, do you??) “you’ve got a really warm personality and do a really great job of including everyone when you try to talk to them and like in the puzzle room.” “You’re always there for me, even at times when nobody else was.”

goddamn, man. I don’t even care if it’s narcissistic to put those down here. I have to put them Somewhere. Literally shed a tear writing them down, I feel so good about all that shit. It really couldn’t have come at a better time with everything hitting the fan and all of my self image issues recently. Maybe they knew that.

What I didn’t think to tell them then was that it’s friends like them and everyone I hung out this week and everyone in my life that cares about me still that make my life so happy in the first place. It’s like... when I finally get to be in a room with people I know and can enjoy their company it’s like all the bullshit that exists outside just isn’t important anymore. Relaxing by talking and playing games is so fucking wonderful.

Speaking of my issues again, might as well follow up on new years goals and self improvement stuff.

Feeling much better about my teeth. Got my cavities filled (I had fucking TEN), got my teeth cleaned for the first time in years, I’ve finally got this image out of my head that my crowned tooth looks dead. Forreal, idk if it was the cleaning, or just talking to the dentist about whether they think it matches and then thinking about it, or what the deal is, but I Swear ever since I decided it wasn’t worth having my crown replaced again it’s looked better. Matches color better and more consistently, doesn’t look off balanced, I just look good. I really want to blame it on the cleaning but maybe it really was just a mental thing... Idk. I’m just happy my teeth are finally healthy, holy shit thinking about my mouth too hard the past couple years has been horrifying. Right now my gums hurt because I flossed for the first time in forever. Might be why I can’t sleep, but starting good habits.

Don’t know what’s up with my weight, haven’t been keeping track of that yet.

Have been doing Great about drinking water. Have only drank soda on a few occasions at all, back to living on powdered lemonade like I said I would. Probably should still be drinking more, but off to a great start. Still haven’t been on reddit since the new year (though I don’t think I wrote this resolution down), but still passively start to type it in the search bar sometimes. Shit’s difficult. Progress on my septum is put on hold for now, family doctor is waiting to refer me until I have a followup visit with them about my lab work. Supposedly I had “small red blood cells” so like either dehydration or anemia. Probably both lolll. Hopefully not something more serious, but who knows. Been taking a multivitamin daily. Been spending less money lmaoooo. Haven’t been cooking for myself the past few days but DID start doing that finally. Just gotta keep it up. Still no good on exercise. Still haven’t bought a pack of cigarettes. Smoking a lot of that pipe tobacco, but it definitely doesn’t make me feel cravings like cigs do. Pretty great there. Started goofing around on tinder again just to get that out of the way. Got a few matches, but I’ve been sandbagging this game really hard lol. e.g. I’ve been a lottt more picky about who I swipe, way too detailed about how nerdy I am in my profile, and not playing with it all that much tbh. I.e. doing all the things that are probably healthier dating habits but are def not anything close to how you need to play tinder to be successful from what I’ve ever experienced. That being said I’ve already partially rediscovered my hatred for it and think it’s a waste of time, but whatever. Not entirely motivated to meet new people right now anyway, so even if I’m not exactly happy to be swiping through a couple dozen people without matching I’m definitely not let down either. It just doesn’t feel like the right time for me, and also I totally wouldn’t have money for dates now that I think about it lmaoo. Last thing I’m gonna mention is that I haven’t been fucking with my fingers nearly as much. Just lost my week-or-so streak I was on, fidgeting in the car today, but def doing a lot better.

Everything’s doing a lot better. I’m still totally fucked, but I feel pretty great and I’m doing pretty great and everything’s going to be even more great soon enough.

#pogchamp [6:52am. never gonna sleep oh god rip hahaha]

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