#really have to get my school assignments in order tho

[3am-dumbassery]

MC on their period

Prompt: I am in copious amounts of pain and because I can

A/N: Yea this is completely self indulgent. I feel like shit rn and need some demon comfort.

This version is just the Brothers, but I might do the others later

TW: mentions of period and things that go with it (blood, pain, etc). Needless to say, fem-bodied reader, AFAB, (reader only referred to as "you") fluff?, Comfort

Characters: f!mc, Lucifer, Mammon, Leviathan, Satan, Asmodeus, Beelzebub, Belphegor

Dateables ver.

Lucifer

Actually the best

He knows what you need and when

Heat packs, pain killers, water, comfort food

He won't admit it, but he's worried. He hates seeing his human so distressed

Really concerned if you're in more pain than usual/vomiting

Might try to convince you to see a gyney/GP about it if it's really bad

Will probably let you stay home from RAD

Human blood will attract demons after all

Fr tho, ask him for anything and he's already got it before you finish the sentence

Worried parent™

Mammon

Panic

He smelt your blood when he barged in one morning

Probably screamed if you were still in bed

Once he understands the situation he will look horrified and run away

Only to return with so much stuff

Wasn't sure what size pussy you wear

Somehow convinced Lucifer to give him money to get it all and to let you both stay home if you can't go to school

Might take you to his room instead because he can watch over you 24/7 that way

Only if you want to tho

He is your personal carer for the entire time and will do anything you ask

"Yer my human after all, of course I'll take care of ya.... Only cuz Lucifer is making me do it, ya hear? Yer a lucky human to have The Great Mammon assigned to lookin after ya!"

Will offer cuddles if you want them but insist it's a one off

Protective as fuck. Will probably put a KEEP OUT sign on the door or something

Totally not worried about you. Why would you say that?

Leviathan

Panic 2.0

His player 2 is taking bleeding damage? IRL? Not on his watch

Looks up what you need

Orders so much for you on Akuzon

Asks Asmo if he has anything for you in the meantime

Won't come in unless you ask for him. He doesn't want you to have to deal with a yucky otaku when you feel like shit already

Brings his games and some of your comfort animes to your room so you aren't bored

Probably asks his brothers to bring you comfort things from their rooms

He really doesnt want you to be bored

Will be equally flustered and concerned the whole time

Probably gets things a bit wrong at first

wikiHow is probably not going to apply to everyone

Will figure out the bleed damage and the "attack pattern"

Please tell him he did a good job. He tried very hard

Satan

He's read about this

Employs Asmo to go buy supplies for you

Will tell Lucifer that you are staying home from RAD until you feel better

Suggests you stay in his room because it's quieter

Will take comfort things from his brothers for you

He'll read to you while you cuddle together

Unless you have a headache/don't want to

Will be almost nonexistent if that's what you need

He casts the most spells out of everyone to make sure you're comfortable

Noise spells, pain killing spells, sleep spells, protection spells

Very understanding if you're moody

Asmodeus

He knew before you did

He was already stocked on every product you'd need

Convinces you to stay in his room the night before

Somehow convinced Beel to get your fav human world comfort foods and not eat them all on the way home

Actually a self care god

Insists you keep up a self-care routine/let him take it over for you

You'll probably feel better than before when he's done with you

Kind of makes you wonder if he's had a period of his own before

Beelzebub

Beel smelt it coming

Another one that knows what to do

He learnt as part of his sporting health and safety - to help any female players

Another to ask Asmo for products but also advice

He will discuss with Lucifer also

Very concerned for your wellbeing

Might bring you to his room so Belphie can watch over you while he's eating/at a game

Also might take you to see a pro if you're in abnormally high levels of pain

Will cuddle lots

Might ask his twin for help if you're having trouble sleeping

Belphegor

He found out when he was trying to sneak into your bed for snuggles

Smelt the blood and fucking lost it

He thought you were injured or worse

Once he knows what happened, he texts everyone to bring things while he cuddles you

Becomes your personal heat pack for the duration

Asks Beel to help out. (He's the avatar of sloth. Man is lazy)

Might also bring you to his room so Beel can keep guard and make sure the others stay away

Makes the best cuddle nest you've ever seen

Hey all, thanks for reading! I'll probably update this a bit later (the twins parts felt a bit slack). For now though, I'm going to curl up and play my PS4 while I cuddle my cats. I'm sending all the support to my fellow menstruators, especially those of you who are also knocked out for a week like me. Treat yoself and I hope it improves!

#obey me #om! lucifer #om! mammon #om! leviathan #om! satan #om! asmodeus #om! beelzebub #om! belphegor #obey me shall we date #obey me mc #fluff #comfort #period mention #kiri writes #headcannons

[grackleithy]

sooo about your trio of ocs, sorry if im late ( ; ω ; )

whats their friendship dynamic like

how did they all meet

how tall are they

I saw you mention Micheal having a pet rat on toyhouse WHAT IS ITS NAME YOU MUST TELL US NOW THIS IS A THREAT (/j)

what are their music tastes

do the others have pets, if not what would they want as a pet

okay this is a bit late sorry BUT here's your answers ( a bit out of order)

so Pom and Micheal met in middle school, they got put together for a school assignment and have been friends since. They met Matt in high school, they were sitting alone at lunch and Matt kinda just showed up one day and started talking to them. their dynamic is hard to describe (mostly because I cannot describe things for shit) but Matt and Pom are the biggest talkers of the group, Pom is the main planner, Micheal is off to the side not in a bad way. Its not that they talk too much or don't let him get a word in he's just quiet. He prefers to listen to a conversation more than be apart of it, just being there. Even if he doesn't look like hes paying attention he is. Just don't get him started on mushrooms, snakes, or welding, he does a complete 180 and will not shut up.

Micheal has 3 pet rats actually! I plan to draw them eventually

Micheal jr. often shortened to just junior (named because he has little black patches of fur and Matt gave Micheal the idea as a joke and he went with it)

Nuke

and Dipshit (that he calls dipstick when hes around his younger brother)

the others don't have pets but Matt would probably have a turtle or some kind of lizard. Pom isn't really a pet person but probably a cat, which despite his claims of not wanting a pet he would absolutely spoil that thing.

music tastes is kinda hard because I absolutely do not know my genres that well. but ill do my best

Matt has multiple playlists for different moods and genre's vary but his main three playlists are a bunch of circus music, the world revolving added to the same playlist over 100x, and the misc playlist with 100 songs that do not match eachothers vibe at all. some artists I think he would listen to: 100 gecs, Insane Clown Posse,and Lemon Demon

Pom has one main playlist she dumps all her favorite songs into. but its a majority death metal some artists i think he would listen to: Scene Queen, Bear Ghost, Mother Mother, Black Dresses, Korn, and Necrogoblikon

Matt, I honestly have no idea other than its mostly My Chemical Romance I did make him a playlist (wip) on a whim tho because I was bored

and finally their heights! (as well as the redesign for Pom!)

I was going to finish this drawing first, but I lost all motivation for it.

#yes ik matts legs are wonky ill fix it later #asks #oc asks #(oc) Micheal Mush #(oc) Pom Saltatrix #(oc) Matt Makejoy #epithet erased oc #crowithy ocs #Micheal was going to be really tall because tall lanky emo boy but its probaly more realistic for him to be a bit shorter #because his epithet causes him to be pretty unhealthy #also short jokes #matt totally puts his elbow on Micheals head and thanks him for being an armrest #micheal has bitten at matt for this #keyword 'at' he didnt actually bite matt

[gffa]

Btw I only got sucked into the prequels fandom a couple months ago, and I was super fortunate to have found your blog rather early on... It meant I quickly realized I had some misconceptions and internalized weirdness from just western / Christian society and growing up on Legend's New Jedi Order stuff. (It's not that I ever disliked the Jedi, but I definitely didn't understand the difference between love and attachment and was otherwise mostly apathetic about them as a Culture... If they weren't Mara Jade, Jaina Solo, Corran Horn, or Luke Skywalker, I didn't particularly care about them at all).

Anyway my point is that I'm super thankful your blog came up soon because I am now very firmly in the Pro Jedi camp and am glad I only got a minimal amount of sw fandom toxicity about the Jedi before having my eyes gently opened to reality.

Best part is tho, I had a friend ask me a week ago for some star wars information. Her brother apparently was assigned to write about the differences between the Jedi, Grey Jedi, and Sith in a class about differing religions and ideologies (which... In and of itself is actually a rather fascinating concept for a school paper). Anyway I had fun linking a whole bunch of your meta posts and going "Respect the Jedi, they're absolutely wonderful! Grey Jedi aren't actually a thing - it's just video game mechanics and misconceptions! Sith are evil and if you write them as anything but I will hard-core raise eyebrows at you and want to throw hands!!" And such... Probably went more than a little overboard but she was appreciative.

My point in all this word vomit (dang my adhd is really prevalent rn isn't it) is that I wanted to offer some encouragement because I've learned the pro Jedi camp is a lot smaller than it should be and maybe sometimes feels like it's the same 20 people on tumblr? Your collective efforts as the Jedi Defense Squad are successful and I know that, personally, my life will forever be changed for the better. Bless y'all and keep fighting the good fight!

You didn’t even know it was my birthday yesterday and yet you sent me once of the nicest things I could get despite that! I admit that the pro-Jedi corner of fandom feels very small sometimes, especially because Tumblr is generally the only place where we’ve gotten together (COME HELP ME LOVE THE JEDI ON TWITTER, YOU GUYS, I NEED PEOPLE TO HAVE SILLY LOVE BOMB FESTS WITH), that sometimes it can feel very overwhelming the second I step one inch off my dash, but also I wouldn’t trade this corner for anything. I hope that I can not just explain why I love the Jedi and why I see them as being perfectly in balance with the core themes of Star Wars, but that I can help make being a pro-Jedi fan a fun experience.  I hope I can make meta about them interesting, jokes about them fun to play with, the pain of their slaughter and the genocide of their culture dig into our feelings the way the best of Star Wars does. If I can help kindle love for the Jedi in you (and I am certain I did not do so alone, there are so many really incredible people, every time I get to reblog Jedi content from more than a dozen people now I get this shimmer of joy in my soul, I didn’t always have that! I get to reblog art and fic and essays! people have such good thoughts and incredible ways with words! they’re coming up with adorable skits and AU scenarios! so many in this fandom work so hard to give us these delightful things and I am so overjoyed to get to reblog them), then I have passed on what was given to me and that makes it worth it. I am further delighted to help provide framework for writing papers about the Jedi, because one of the things that surprised me when I first started really digging into those Lucas interviews and behind the scenes/making of books is: Yeah, Star Wars is often silly, but it has themes and George Lucas stuck to them.  He thought about his mythology and what messages he wanted to convey, and whatever things he tweaked along the way, the core themes have always remained consistent. Star Wars is often imperfect, no creator is ever going to be perfect, but Lucas knew he wanted to tell a story about letting go and about good vs evil and choosing the light made the world work better and that we should care about each other and our communities, not just break the rules and do whatever we felt like, that you’re supposed to love people but you have to accept that life is impermanent, because you’ll suffer if you try to hold on too tightly. And everything of his Star Wars stuck to those themes and I really, really like those themes. My life has been made better by getting to know the story of Star Wars and getting to meet so many kind, thoughtful fans and getting messages like this, and so please know that this is incredibly uplifting and encouraging.  To be able to spark joy in someone else about these silly space psychic wizards, to be able to share that, it makes the whole Being A Fan Of A Thing a great experience.

#jedi order #lumi.txt

[naumin]

may updates

more news from me

deadlines again

does it ever fucking end? actually im so behind this semester fr fr. i was really ill and then it was ramadan so i really didnt want to do shit at all. plus the assignments suck FAT BALLS this semester, if you saw me complaining about corporate illustration and the humiliation of being made to draw two hands cradling a planet earth youll understand why i sat on my ass playing computer games (play pentiment its really good).

the comic i talked about doing for my last deadline went well btw i got an A for that unit yay

an aquatint print i did of maliketh at the beginning of march but idk where i put it now lmfao

tumblr flagged my life drawing zine post for ghostly penis outlines

im sick to death of this website. and not just this website. every website

i did another art market

it was stressful but tbh im thankful to my school('s student union) for giving me an opportunity to make a lil pocket money and get some seller experience. im awkward tho i dont wanna stare ppl down so i just pretend to be writing something while they hover. lmao.

sticker of eevee (my cat) i was giving out with purchases. this person was like 'sorry can i have the eevee sticker?' and i was like waht do you mean. thats eevee. eevee... my cat, eevee.

huran enki

ive made some significant progress on huran enki (my longterm multimedia project that my ocs are from) im really thankful to have friends who are also working on original projects to have check ins and storytimes and theory discussions with <3 and tbh i also want to say thank you to just everyone who thinks about my works... i am learning i am like not good at talking to strangers online and easily confused (tbh i wonder how someone can be thinking about my charas when im quite secretive about the plot they belong to) but i know u are just being sweet and supportive and i think thats nice. so dont worry the kids are healthy and youll be seeing more of them from me. youll be sick to bastard death of them before long.

thats all i think. wish me luck w my work (which i ignored in order to write this) yay!!!!!! :-)

#diary

[aspiring-holistic-otaku]

Season 2 Ramble 2 - "romance" lol ver. 2

Greetings greetings greetings and welcome to another episode of MM..MANGA, the podcast about getting more people into more manga.

Not completely surprised but very thankful I held out doing the podcast long enough to do a part 2 of something. The format is a little different this time, instead of ordering my reads this month from awww to w-t-f??? I made 3 distinct categories of romance and give my top 3 reads of each

Before getting into all that though I thought I should give a light follow up on some titles I mentioned last episode:

I finished killer in love, fucked up all the way but with a surprisingly flat ending,, realistic ig but i thought they'd keep the drama going to the end idk idk

Caught up with bakemonogatari, art never off point as you would expect from the artist Oh! Great looking at their work on things like air gear and death note.  The story continues to increasingly excel despite the seemingly repetitive nature of relationships, people just go off and save themselves yk? definitely have to continue the anime since it's ahead. 

Caught up with insomniacs after school, not that much progression but still the cutest thing ever, very very aesthetic and my top cutesy romance read last year and I still highly recommend it. 

Finished Wake Up Deadman, finally, not worth it, not gonna lie that manhwa had a special little place in my heart that I can't rationalize rn but it's over, can't believe it went out that bad.. 

Caught up on boy's abyss which is still fucked up all the way round but still pretty up there if you're in for some good ol emotional drama and trauma,, can't believe it keeps getting more fucked tho tbh… 

Caught up with dandadan, still ridiculous, sort of feels like brain off stunting with the art but things are moving along so I'll continue to stay tuned… 

Anyways getting to the actual lists

Top 3

category 1 - that's fucked up dude:

#3 - I love you so I kill you by Sousou Sakakibara on story and Majuro Kaname on art (complete with 35 chapters)

The premise is that there's some disease going around that makes you want to kill the object of your desire.

Honestly I had seen a few panels of it floating around and was really excited to get to this one plus seeing the more fringe faces of love tends to be enlightening but it was kind of just a well drawn disappointment. 

The progression was pretty erratic, characters didn't really feel rooted in anything and a little bit of a spoiler here but they ended up getting supernatural powers which was like… why?? The premise was already set for a great psychological thriller which doesn't need any supernatural elements as alluring as they may be.

Anyways as you can tell by the name it's definitely fucked up, even if it ended up just being an edgelord jerk off the art was still a decent plus. Also it's pretty short so if you kinda just wanna see gore or people with powers doing the occasional neat thing and so on then forget what I said n go check it out. 

#2 Believers by Naoki Yamamoto (complete with 22 chapters)

Here the story follows three cult members, two men and one woman, who live on a small deserted island somewhere near Japan. They have devoted themselves to the "Deserted lsland Program" assigned to them by their superiors so they can throw off the corrupt influence of modern society and "purify" themselves. But as time passes two of the members begin to give into human desire..

Nothing too earth shattering, just a good ol' classic descent into madness but that's usually a nice treat anyway you slice it.

22 chapters so it's really short but it's paced really well for what they had and even expecting madness it still threw me a few times like really??? sure that's technically a course of action one could take but really??? 

#1 Dead Tube by Kitakawa Touta and Yamaguchi Mikoto (ongoing 86 chapters)

As part of the film club, the MC is asked by the main heroine to videotape her non stop for the next 48 hours. It's a simple enough task and she's pretty so he agrees. Her activities start off pretty mellow but at the end of the two days she murders someone on camera. As the days pass and the girl walks free, our mc confronts her about how this is possible and why she did it in the first place?

Enter dead tube, a video sharing site where the top views get millions in payout no matter what but those with the lowest views are punished by being made to pay for the fees and crimes of other video makers.

Grain of salt here, I'm only at chapter 28 but it's definitely fucked up, started fucked up and has only gotten increasingly fucked up the more I read but it was engaging, if not really on the survival game type beat but a little more on the mystery like why did bro get roped in, why is she making these videos? will they ever relax? etc

Fair warning again, pretty brutal from the get go and I'd suggest putting away any sensibilities you may have before reading this.

category 2 - isn't this just soft core porn?:

#3 how heavy are the dumbbells you lift? by Yabako Sandrovich on art and Maam on art (ongoing with 179 chapters)

Very simple story, the main character wants to lose weight to look cute so she checks out a local gym and it turns out they have a hot trainer so she sticks around.

This is the same guy who does the story for the kengan series which he even references a few times so I can't help but think this piece is just to blow off steam. But in any case I've only read 29 chapters so far so huge grain of salt with whatever I'm saying.

So far it's been a pretty standard episodic gag but the dash of ecchi is the reason it's on this list. These basically come every episode in the form of serious informative workout guides that end up in "steamy" pinup type illustrations. 

As I said, I've only read 29 chapters, but so far those chapters have been pretty enjoyable, Usually get a good laugh every chapter, actually helpful workout tips and all it's just that as a standard gag manga I guess I feel like I already have a pretty good idea of what to expect and there were so many other more engaging reads in sight so I didn't read that much of it this month but it's definitely something to keep up with.

#2 Tales of the Corporate Slave Succubus by Gentsuki (23 chapters)

This one was pretty funny. Our heroine is a succubus tasked with finding men every day, taking control of their dreams and stealing their vitality, and in return, fulfill any desires they have, no matter how perverted they are. As the succubi population rate decreases our heroine finds herself more and more overworked in order to reach her rising quota. One day, she meets an exhausted corporate wage slave and she's surprised at what he asks for.

I'll leave what he asks for as a surprise, it's only 23 chapters so not much I can say just it's a succubus and romance so… yh… I will say the story is a bit cute tho… 

#1 please go home akutsu san by Taichi Nagaoka (ongoing 133 chapters, read all of them)

Another simple story, though definitively cuter than the other two. It was so cute I kind of wanted to include it in the next category but i had to be fr.

Anyways basically the mc is a live alone high school student who has his home taken over by a delinquent gyaru girl looking for a place to crash after school.

Over time they develop feelings but due to how their relationship started, she teasing him and he trying to get her out of his room, neither can be honest. 

Each chapter is pretty short and since the whole thing is pretty episodic so it all flies by and never overstays its welcome or take itself too seriously, especially as it's an ecchi… always weird to me when ecchi tries to be serious like be fr… 

honourable mentions: 67% inertia and gyaru stuff in general… 

category 3

awww:

#3 Tsurezure Biyori by Kei Hamuro (72 chapters)

On the first day of highschool, the main character finds herself awestruck by the beautiful transfer student, who also happens to be a returning childhood friend.

Very short. Very sweet. 

Not much time passes in story so them just focusing on the main cast, and characterizing them as much as they did was neat, but I think that has more to do with the simplicity of the characters and really the entire story than any above average writing or anything..

That said, a simple thing is no more or less difficult to execute than any other thing so I do respect that they pulled it off and mad props for their execution of what felt like a consistent warm fuzzy feeling inside.

Side note, The main cast really felt like a nod to Yotsuba's creator Kiyohiko Azuma, for their work on another manga of his called azumanga daioh,, there wasn't really any shortage of cute stuff read this month but I think that may have given it the edge to actually make it in this list idk idk

#2 Nisekoi by Naoshi Komi (240 chapters)

Nisekoi is one of those manga that have sort of always floated in the periphery. It's been a long time coming, I tried last year but the main character's hair clip reminded me of serial experiments lain and I blacked out,, I wasn't ready then,, old Twitter pal of mine had also been recommending it for a while actually,, I'm sorry it took so long but thank you.

The story goes that to prevent a gang war from bubbling over onto innocent civilians, the heirs of both gangs are persuaded by their fathers to pretend to date through highschool for the next three years…

From the jump you can tell there's a lot to work with and a lot of directions they could go. What I was really thankful for throughout was that the whole "oh no the gang's gonna find out and start fighting what do we do now???" scenario didn't get ground into dust. like I was really scared of that being some infinitei loop gag and I'm just so glad it wasn't. 

It's one of those very cutesy romances so the bits can be limited like guys come on how long can someone blush before you get a clue yk but it was kept interesting through a staggered introduction of the main cast who each brought new flavour and nuance to the story.

Now you may be thinking… wait a minute… this sounds like you're trying to sell me a harem… are you trying to sell me a harem? Let me tell you. I honestly thought it was just gonna be a simple love triangle, maybe with a few quadrangle quandaries for the laughs and was honestly surprised that it turned into some sort of harem looking thing. Again I was thankful that the usual "oh no we seem to have fallen into a provocative position" bit that usually accompanies harems was far out of sight. Hence it's on the awwww list. 

Of course there were some repetition of gags and a few things I would be a little stern in calling erotic here and there but the story direction and quality was really driven by steady build up of the characters through their interactions with each other and their world over time.

Very solid. pretty cute. pretty comical. never really appreciated the diversity a well done harem could bring to a story before now so there's that.. they really made use of the passage of time in showing how their identities and bonds developed throughout their entire highschool lives…  Consistently great art and the whole thing really just oozed ideal high school love drama vibes… to be clear I say that as an observer seeing as I don't really think there's any such thing as an ideal high school love drama 

#1 Hi Score Girl by Rensuke Oshikiri (70 chapters)

The story really begins when the mc, a bit of an outcast, encounters the heroine top student in an arcade, who then proceeds to easily kick his ass.

I'll start by saying the art isn't anything special, maybe even below average, and if I look within in myself that might even be the reason it took me so long to get around to it, but in the end I did and I'm really really glad I did.

The story is set in the early 90s and progresses along with the rise of arcade games that was happening at the time. We see the main hero and heroine duke it out through a number of games and tech advancements, their bond deepening through their mutual love for gaming.

Definitely a slow burn as the mc doesn't really see himself or others in a romantic sense. Like his sexual and romantic orientation is literally just gamer™ and the heroine is what Google says is a dandere,, meaning too shy to talk, like think early days Hinata from Naruto. The payoff is all the more sweet though as they grow closer despite themselves.

Great cast, really great dialogue, pretty dope aesthetic with the games and everything. A story that didn't take itself too seriously in a way that gave the feeling that the author was well aware of its position as a fictional piece of work and so more effectively used the tool of fiction through the medium of manga in a way that I don't think would be possible without that awarenesses. 

I really loved how well they integrated games, as in they weren't just some to the side thing the characters did from time to time, it was clear to see from early out how important games were to the main character and to the story on a whole.

I really didn't expect to love it as much as I did, like it almost feels like one of those definitive before and after reads. Maybe it was the amount of impact in the short amount of chapters but in any case it was definitely the best read this month overall hands down. 

honourable mentions:  you and I are complete opposites, the guy she was interested in wasn't a guy at all and a story about smoking at the back of a supermarket

(I have to say some of these were probably cuter than the ones I actually listed but definitely not better and all incomplete in any case so I am less inclined to list them but they were honestly just too cute not to mention)

that's it for stuff this month, not gonna get too into old stuff this episode but to note the top 1 reads for each category before this month.

that's fucked up dude: Flowers of evil been a long time champ but I have to mention drifting net cafe by the same mangaka which I read last year. Gave it a good little run for its money. You wouldn't hear it mentioned in the last episode tho because I read it after the episode was put out. but yeah.

isn't this just soft core porn?: my balls definitely.

awww: good ending

Grateful for the new reads as always this month, really hope you can find something you like and thanks for listening, there's a little bit of a ramble after this but if you're heading out now, all the best until next time. 

#just another day #mm..manga #writeup #romance lol #i love you so i kill you #believers #dead tube #how heavy are the dumbbells you lift? #tales of the corporate slave succubus #please go home akutsu san! #tsurezure biyori #nisekoi #hi score girl

[martian-garden]

(Brief content warning for appetite disregulation and talking about eating habits)

So in light of ADHDAlien's cool posts and some of my ADHD friends and family starting college or being newly diagnosed, let me, a whole ass adult (somehow?) with a job, also share what has helped me with my ADHD so far! Conversation time!

Background: I was diagnosed at 7 and prescribed methylphenidate 18mg ER, starting immediately upon diagnosis and having maintained the same dose except for during college, where I scooted up to 20.  I'm very responsive to medication of any kind, and higher doses make me uncomfortable physically, so be aware that this is the babiest of baby doses.  Ritalin has a stronger effect with less intensity than Adderall, and for people who have severe symptoms, Adderall may be the only one that works.

In high school I began doing organizational tutoring to better manage my course load, and that was the single most helpful thing I did, but that may not be accessible to anyone.  So here are some things that I've employed on my own.  They may not be helpful for everyone, but in the event that they are...

-Time is fake, and the sooner you realize it, the more sense it'll make.  We can't connect the current events in our brain to the end result, (usually done via anticipatory dopamine, which is literally what ADHD is: lack of that) and ergo we can't process that 2pm is [_______] from 3pm and we need to get ready at 2:15 or something...  Like what.  That's fake.  The time it takes to complete a task is also fake.  Divide your tasks into days/assign sub tasks based on either 1. necessary order they need completed in, and 2. energy, instead of based on estimated time.  For me that's been far more intuitive.  

-Body Doubling or inviting people over as an external motivator to do a task.  Invite a friend over to motivate yourself to clean your room or make food.  Either bc they show up and help or even just tell you to do it, or bc you want your space to be nice when they've arrived.

-SNACKS.  Eat eat eat!!!  You are hungry, more often than your body will acknowledge!  Small things like fruit snacks or a pack of crackers you can eat slowly, one every few minutes while doing a task are ideal.  Since we have shit anticipatory dopamine, we just have to reward ourselves, and food does an ok job.  That said: be careful with dark chocolate, it can be an appetite suppressant if the cocoa content is high.  Same with caffeine.  My stimulants also make me more sensitive to caffeine side effects.

Also, take snacks with you during the day, because if you're like me, you get tired easily if you don't eat often.  Chocolate milk or drinkable yogurts are great fast energy boosts.  Plus they're fortified with vitamin D, which in my latitude is in short supply.

-In the same vein: Have low effort, high calorie food on hand.  You will have times when you can't summon the energy or get sucked into a hyper focus wormhole and don't have time or spoons to cook.  Frozen dinners/personal pizzas/canned soups... whatever to get meal-quality food into you fast.  If you eat meat, take advantage of cured or preserved meats that last a long time and are harder to let spoil.  Some are stable at room temp, like jerky.  If you don't, peanut butter seems to serve people well (can't relate tho, allergic)

-A lot of this is revolving around food, but ime regular meals and easy foods I can get myself to make and eat is something I struggled and still struggle with a lot.  Prep snacks when you have spoons and time to do so.  Hard boiled eggs before bed.  Make extra portions' worth of rice with your dinner. Anything to have extra calories on hand ASAP.  Also, rice cookers and any kind of automation is a lifesaver.  Just set a timer to remember to get it out later, or pair it with when you're hungry and motivated to get it out and won't forget >.>

-Setting timers. Sucks.  it really does.  but it's better than not setting timers.  If you have a "it's time to leave for class or work" alarm, make sure you have everything packed and you're dressed BEFORE the alarm goes off.  With time blindness, that can be hard, but we do typically process abstract "x BEFORE y", just not "15 minutes before y".  Switching from direct numbers to just "this has to be DONE by y time" is easier ime. 

-Wear an analog watch.  Helped me with time blindness so much.  I could watch the minute hand crawl as I walked across campus and it cemented how tasks or going places took.  I can link "this takes this space on the clock" easier than "this is (abstract number)".

-AUTOMATE WHATEVER YOU CAN. I'm not just talking about rice cookers and dishwashers and roombas, though those absolutely count.  I also mean computer programs--zotero for citation formatting, writing or finding macros or scripts for file processing so that you reduce the number of clicks while working.  LEARN TO USE EXCEL and clone sheets, if applicable for your job.  Anything you can press a button for instead of having to think about is more that will get done during a day.  

-If you have a pressing task that is making you sad or just has been hovering over you, or a big assignment: take the anxiety as a sign to prioritize it, and set aside an entire day for it.  I'm not joking.  Take a mental health day and do your taxes.  Even if it only takes an hour, time is fake to us.  Energy is not.  Escapism or productive procrastination (doing other tasks that do need done, though less pressing, while avoiding another) devour insane amounts of time.  If that is your One thing slated for that day, then it'll get done.  Promise.  

-Yes, use a schedule planner, but GET ONE WHERE YOU CAN SEE THE WHOLE WEEK ON ONE PAGE SPREAD.  That way, when you break up assignments (I may do a post about how to do this, but it's integral and entirely what my organizational tutoring was for) you can see how everything fits into the week and where you will put tasks that roll over between days.  Teacher planners are good for this.  This shit got me through my college projects.  Also: write in the assignments and important deadlines for your whole class syllabus right when you get it, for students.  It'll take like 2 hours but you can SEE where things fit in physical space instead of abstract time.

-Write lists, not for the purpose of doing the things on them, but just to sort out what's rattling in your head.  I rarely LOOK at lists after making them, but knowing it's all down on paper means I'm no longer worried about forgetting it, and threads it into my brain piece by piece, I can process each individual concern.  What should be on these lists?  Anything bothering you: deadlines, worries, emotional chaos.  Anything that circulates in and out of your conscious thoughts.  Chores you haven't done, inadequacies.  It's like defragmenting a drive when you write it down.  

-Your RSD makes it feel like people don't care for you.  Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria is literally so central to my experience, and I don't see it talked about beyond "it exists and it makes me feel The Awful".  It impaired my ability to have healthy boundaries and connections to people, because it compounded with my insecurities to make me feel like people weren't showing me they cared or giving me enough encouragement.  I got frustrated and I felt like my emotional needs were unfulfilled.  It took a lot of therapy to get to the root of it: that I felt unsupported and was reaching to people I shouldn't for external support, when most of the pain I was looking to heal was internal.  It is okay to ask for help!  There's just a part of RSD where you have to learn to separate what is your OWN pain in response to yourself, your own echo of self-loathing attaching itself to another's behavior, and what is genuinely hurtful behavior.  I don't mean that you are accusing anyone of this; rather until you separate the pain you feel from the impact of others, you will feel trapped and controlled by their reactions.  It's complicated.  I advise therapy if it's accessible, but even knowing to look out for it will help.  Admitting the words "I am in pain because I hate something about myself, and their reaction makes me aware of it" is a huge first step.  Yes, spoken aloud.

-If you're breaking stim toys or wringing your hands, crushing things... You're freaking out and you need to go deal with whatever is bothering you.  Your unconscious movements will register before the importance of the emotion itself will.  I find my emotions are like my appetite, it's inconsistent when I will actually process them on a conscious level.  Learning to watch my hands helped me realize when I was overwhelmed.  It may be another cue for you.

-Go decompress when you're overwhelmed.  You may still feel functional: you should not attempt to work through it.  It will continue to haunt your processing until you go stare into the void over your water bottle and breathe for a while.  I advise going home early too, if possible.  Our emotions tire us more than we process.

-Try taking an ibuprofen or acetaminophen when you're starting to get physically tired or frazzled.  Dopamine disregulation also prevents us from modulating background pain signals adequately, I notice I get achy.  

-Exercise if you have the means and time.  Especially if there's a facility at work/home/school so you don't have to convince yourself to go to a secondary location.  Somatosensory and kinesthetic feedback good.

-If you take a break from something, go touch stuff and move around.  Again, somatosensory feedback good.  Walk around the block and touch bricks, etc.

-Use your scenery as a memory aid.  Your workspace is your working memory, your HUD.  I have told my coworkers not to move anything in my work area for this reason.  Where I have left things and what is nearby reminds me what I was doing.  Same principle as listing; all of it externally in front of you, digestible without worry of slipping your mind.  

-In tandem with above: control clutter.  Excess input that is no longer relevant will only confuse you.  Old notes, etc.  It's okay to throw things or memos out that you wanted to do but don't feel like you ever will.

-Your physical location and status ground you.  Going to specific locations to get work done, or dressing specific ways for certain tasks helps link what you're doing now to the task later, and signal to your brain that you're in focus mode.  I can't get shit done in pajamas.  If I'm not dressed by 12pm, that day is gone. 

-If you can't see it, it doesn't exist.  Chores, clothes, etc.  The best ways to store things are in plain sight.  Clear bins, cubbies, etc.  Again, your space is your brain.  Sort items in places that are relevant to their use.

-If your space makes it hard to do chores, your brain will too.  Arrange your furniture to the best of your ability in a way that facilitates easy movement and makes sense to you.

-Cut your losses sometimes.  If you cannot finish the project you started that's taking up space in your room, you're not a bad person for throwing it out.  Plants you can't save.  Art you won't finish.  Waste production is a societal problem, but you have to prioritize your mental health.  Using disposable lysol wipes instead of rags that will add to laundry, etc.  It's okay to need the time saving route.

-If you have the means, it is okay to spend extra for convenience.  That's literally why the product exists.  If it's more compact or automates something, it was built bc it will help people, especially you.  Time IS money, or for us, tasks ARE spoons.  Pay extra for delivery if you can't leave the house.  I was raised very frugal and disposable anything was very hard to justify to myself, but sometimes it is just necessary to have something DONE and not need to clean or maintain things.  You are rationing your energy, it is not laziness.

-ENCOURAGE YOUR BRAIN TO BE ITSELF.  It will feel forced, especially if you've been masking hard for years.  I had to direct myself to go touch flowers awkwardly or pick up bugs, and at first I didn't feel anything.  I just reminded myself that the bug was cool and tried to look real hard at the details.  Reminding myself I used to love this.  And then at some point I wasn't pretending anymore, and I was sending pictures of jumping spiders to my colleagues like "look what I found outside!"  That love some of us have for the present experience, the deep connection we have to our surroundings due to how much we rely on them for our processing... that is so valuable and such a source of joy.  Fight for it.  Fight your mask, fight the expectations people have for you to act a certain way, fight the notion that unbridled interest with and engagement with small details is "childish".  It is not. The world is free dopamine.  Grab heaping handfuls.  

I may write up a followup for the fundamentals of organizational tutoring; it was what really carried my ass through college/uni and more people need access to it.  

Anyway, I hope this helps someone.  Not everyone's ADHD is like mine, and not all of this is universal, but maybe you and I have enough in common that my experience is valuable to you.  

#adhd #mars #adhd tips #eating disorder content warning--not discussed but potentially triggering relationship with food for people in recovery #neurodivergence

[nogenderbee]

Hey there! Can I request a Project Sekai event request? I’m not sure my last request came through (bad internet), so if it did: could you please only take this one into consideration? Sorry and thanks in advance! (Also, if you don’t mind, I have a preference for guys - but you don’t have to take that into consideration if you want).

* What nickname would I call my lover? - Well, I only use nicknames if I’m really comfortable with someone. When it comes to that, I go all out. Babe, darling, sunshine, sweetie, light of my life, anything flamboyant or dramatic enough. Also, various words or names that remind me of their original names (like Anna - Annie, Annabelle, Anode, Anion - don’t ask). I usually say these things in a joking manner.

* What are my hobbies? - Oh boy, this is a tough one. I love doing anything manual that I can do while listening to my favourite music or audiobook. This includes painting, sewing, gardening, anything really. I also love horse riding (anything with animals).

* What is my perfect date idea? - I honestly wouldn’t mind anything as long as I can spend quality time with my lover (just us two, so not a nightclub). However, I love going for long walks and talking about any topic that comes to mind with my lover. These can be in the city (fun walks, pointing out pretty houses or stopping by interesting shops), but I’ve always wanted to go for a long hike with someone in a secluded, beautiful place where we can enjoy the nature.

* What is something I hate in others? - Goodness… I really hate when people are overly argumentative and pick fights just for the sake of conflict. I hate when people are superficially nice without being genuine (they also often give backhanded compliments). I don’t like it when people underestimate or ignore me. One last thing: I hate it when people do tasks assigned to me themselves or try to explain things I already know to me.

* What are my main personality traits? - I’m a different person in many surroundings. Around people I don’t know or I’m not comfortable around, I’m shy, quiet and a total airhead. Around my friends… I’m dramatic, funny, flirty and confident. I also have a side I rarely show to anyone: deep down, I can get really sad. I’m sometimes very sensitive and very unsure of myself. I’m very, very imaginative.

* What activities/hobbies do I like? - Like I said before, I live anything manual and active. I like horse riding, sailing, arty stuff (not drawing though).

* What activities/hobbies don’t I like? - I really don’t like studying (even though I get good grades). I don’t like group projects at school (I like doing everything by myself or I won’t have to motivation to do my part). I don’t like highly theoretical conversations or activities.

Thanks for reading! 💖✨💞

Hii! I did saw your previous order but you were just kinda long in the line so it took me some time... But I kept the order and just took this one instead of previous one! I also kept in mind that you prefer boys so let's get into it~

I pair you with...

🥁🥁🥁

Rui Kamishiro!

⊱ believe me when I say, you exchange many different nicknames all the time, like there could even be different nickname per sentence! And he definitely loves it~

⊱ you cannot tell me that he doesn't make his inventions with music in background so he wouldn't mind that in you! Be it both of you listening to something else on headphones or listening to the same thing through speakers

⊱ as for dates, he's kinda similar but even tho he doesn't mind crowd that much, he does prefer focusing on just you. And when it's about walks, he's a big fan of evening walks but he can understand if you prefer ones during the day. And he definitely won't mind either of them, especially since he can spend time with you and possibly hold your hand~

⊱ now for your traits! He's friends with Nene so he's used to you acting a bit different around star gets and around people you're close to. As much as he finds your shy self cute, he enjoys your flirt side much more as you two can just flirt with each other as if it's competition. As for side when you just feel sad... Rui is rather observant type so he quickly noticed that and is on his way to secretly comfort you through it or if you tell him yourself, he'll be more direct with comforting

⊱ as for the fact you like doing things himself, he does understand it and obviously let's you but he also sometimes asks you if you need help just out of care for you

Currently you and Rui going back home from the calm walk. It was already evening so of course he couldn't just leave you like that. On your way you passed through many shops and even if they were closed, you just liked to ramble about what you recently bought there for example. It was just usual walk full of ramblings for both of you.

"Darling, I was actually thinking of going to the same cafe you just pointed out! I take it as a hint that I should take you there for our next date~"

"Well who am I to refuse, sunshine?"

"Fufu~ I'm just irresistible I guess~ But don't worry, I promise I'll make this date worth your time~"

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#pairing #project sekai #colorful stage #project sekai colorful stage #x reader #project sekai x reader #colorful stage x reader #project sekai colorful stage x reader

[pashminalamb]

Hi belle! Im so sorry for a late reply I was not online so much because I am so busy with all the activities in school😭. I’ve not really taken a rest yet but I’m fine! I try to take in between breaks when I do my activities so I’m hanging in there! And anyways I kinda have an Imagine with Oliver. So I am currently obsessed with Marvel right now, me and my family watched it in timeline order and I loved it so much!! So imagine watching all the movies and series with Oliver and the both of you are just simping for the characters and the actors😂 so yeah thats it hehe

How about you belle? Have you watched any marvel movies/series?

-💙

Don't worry abt it Blue! ( ∩´͈ ᐜ `͈∩) take your time and reply when you feel like it okay? no pressure ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝)

And same, my writing time has been cut down due to assignments and papers that i have to work on- so i'm taking it easy ૮ ˶´ ᵕˋ ˶ა its okay to not keep up with timelines (cause i have fomow both here and irl- so i'm working on that)

Marvel movies! I actually wanted to say this for halloween- Aiku in a spiderman suit. but since he is obsessed with cowboy hats- he's just gonna wear that a pair of boots since it suits his very 'laid back personality'.

As for watching Marvel movies... I have seen a few- and on an unpopular opinion, Toby Maguire will always be my fav spider man (like ik tom holland and andrew garfield are cute- but just... nah. Toby is my childhood ૮꒰⸝⸝> <⸝⸝꒱), apart from that i've seen avengers, winter soldier and yeah that's it. I don't watch a lot of marvel movies tbh... my friends and roommates are maniacs tho (and they're telling me to watch the boys- i'm not sure if its marvel tho) i'm more of a DC girl- and the latest series i watched... its just romantic killer (anime) and i'm waiting for Ragnarok season 2 to come in...

Small Oliver Drabble - angsty fluffy cause i couldn't help it and he's my fav ૮꒰/ฅ//ฅ//꒱ა :

Oh yea if there was a marvel movie marathon ik he's gonna go with the popular opinion and like black widow- and banter with you, even if he doesn't mean it.

"You know if I weren't stuck with you, i'd totally trade you with Natasha Romanov." he said, grabbing popcorn and putting them into his mouth.

"Mhm hm... pretty sure you can do that now, since you have a football career and the world hasn't run out of red heads who speak Russian and latin- any girl would kill to have Aiku Oliver as a boyfriend." you replied humorlessly, resting into the sofa.

"You wouldn't?"

"Hm... not when you have Thor, Loki, Tony Stark, Peter parker, Steve Rogers and Bucky to entertain you. Its a different feeling when you want someone you can't have yet you're satisfied with it." you ranted, shrugging your shoulders, taking some popcorn into your hand and eating it.

"So you'd rather have characters portrayed by people on screen who don't even know you rather than me?" he contested, his voice sounding more serious rather than the tinge of amusement he got into friendly arguments.

It fueled your desire to tease him, your mind curious and the want to entice a reaction out of him.

"I mean..." you drawled out, a smirk making its way on your face. "I might not bag them in real life, but I am pretty happy with the view I'm getting. I did this before my first relationship and I also did the same thing before I met you. A girl can dream you know?"

"Even if you have me?" "Even if I have you."

"I'm gonna go get some water." he said, rolling his eyes and getting up from the sofa. Letting a few minutes pass you set the bowl of popcorn on the table, pausing the movie to follow him.

Standing at the door of the kitchen you watched as he stared at the counter, clutching a glass of water. Walking behind him, you circled your arms around his torso, nuzzling your nose into his back, hugging him close to you.

"You know that i was only teasing right?"

"Mhm." "Is Oliver upset with me?" "..." "Did I make my Oliver angry?"

"..."

"You know that I didn't mean it." you pouted, feeling him sigh.

"You're lucky you have me. I don't think Bucky and gang would be able to put up with your annoying ass." he said with a scoff.

"You brat." you laughed, biting into his back, making him yelp. Turning around he caressed your face, placing a lingering kiss on your head, his heterochromatic eyes staring into yours as he rubbed his thumb against your cheek.

"Jeg elsker deg." he murmured. "Jeg elsker too deg."

He chuckled.

"Let's go back. I get to pick a movie this time." [Jeg elsker deg is Norwegian, but Swedish and Norwegian sound really similar even if the spellings are different and Oliver can speak both.]

#Belle.☏ #.lost sheep : 💙 anon #olivercomehome #Belle.🥛

[besidesitstoowarm]

"Army of Ghosts" thoughts

i really need to stop doubting russell. he put his whole pussy into some of these episodes

so this is one of those stories i've never rewatched, ever. the ending to "doomsday" devastated me so severely in high school (11-ish years ago) that i shied away from ever returning to this story. so far, it bangs

it begins w narration from rose about nothing ever having happened to her in her entire life, you can actually hear billie smile when she says "and then i met a man called the doctor" and like. i really can't stress enough. rose is the insane one in their relationship. rose carries the brunt of the derangement. house/wilson, hannibal/will, i am a huge sucker for pairings where the "normal" half is the sickest person alive and that is the most interesting interpretation of rose, to me. she is so bored of normal life that she would literally rather die than return to it, and she LOVES it, she craves it, the danger is the appeal not the doctor. she obviously has feelings for him (mutual) but it doesn't matter if he's ancient or ugly or whatever, she needs this life. rose is insane. bless

i do love her kindness tho. her being very delicate and gentle w jackie over the ghosts thing, reminding her that her dad is dead, saying she wishes she could smell the same cigarette smoke but she doesn't

and the doctor's reaction to the ghosts. "don't you think it's beautiful?" "i think it's horrific" ouch. he's right but ouch. i do think jackie has a point, though not the one she thinks she's making. the fact that people have the capacity to love so deeply, so intently, that they see blurry figurines appear out of thin air and assign qualities and personalities and scents to them, they see a footprint and vividly reminisce about the boot, i do think that's beautiful. the human capacity for love even in the strangest circumstances is, to me (a historian by schooling, vet med by profession) one of the most endearing, admirable traits of humanity

rose blowing off jackie's concern for her new lifestyle by being like "i worked in a SHOP" [ie my previous life had no meaning or value] and jackie defensively saying "i've worked in shops" yes girl. retail workers have value and are in fact braver than any us marine (source: worked in macy's on black friday). rose has this nice dichotomy that feels deeply real, where she is kind of ashamed of her life (living at home, working retail) but also protective of it (defends her mom, always makes a point to talk to "the help")

we get our first allons-y this episode

we also get the resolution to 1000 mentions of torchwood this season. my boyfriend actually didn't know torchwood was a dw spinoff before he started this watch w me, which is kind of funny. torchwood isn't really worth all the buildup, tbh. it's not worth the hype. huge shoutout to burn gorman tho, wildly underrated as an actor. "we must defend our border against the alien" and wanting to harness the power of the hole between worlds in order to "never depend on the middle east again" wow really not subtle here. even ignoring the plans to reinstate the british empire. davies is virulently anti-establishment in this show (and i assume irl) and it's deeply refreshing; i think doctor who can be a little too liberal-centrist for my tastes at times (capaldi zygon two-parter my beloathed grrrrrrrrrrr) so i really respect how often he went whole-hog acab fuck the government. it's one of the biggest reasons i'm excited to have him BACK

oh also hi mickey again

anyway part 2! can't wait to die!!

#DW S2 #besides its too rewatch #Doctor Who #Army of Ghosts

[icanandwillcry]

Me; The Yuki You Know

This is my first post on Tumblr so I decided to introduce myself with this 20 facts about me.

BTW if you know me from IRL, you'll know like, who's writing this(?) idk how to phrase it. But chances are, you came from my insta bio.

My name is Yuki (if you didn't know) and the kanji I was "assigned" is 幸.

I'm fluent in English, Korean, and semi fluent in Japanese.

I'm an ISFJ-T 4w3

I'm a huge MBTI enthusiast and can and will ask you your MBTI and memorize it all.

I like all sorts of art! (digital, traditional, writing, photography, acting, voice acting, etc.) Speaking of which, I'm currently writing a psychological thriller book, and I also auditioned for a voice acting company in Japan, but I didn't pass the first screening TvT so I'll probably try again next year.

I'm super into anime and games, so feel free to talk to me abt those! My current fandoms are: A3!, Criminal Minds, Viral Hit, Teenage Mercenary, Spy X Family, and more.

My favourite voice actors are: Seiya Konishi (also stage actor), Junta Terashima, Yuuki Sakakihara, Soma Saito, Yuusuke Shirai, Gakuto Kajiwara, Kana Hanazawa, Saori Hayami, Ayane Sakura, and Ayana Taketatsu.

My favourite stage actor is Keisuke Ueda.

My favourite A3! Song (they got so much and they're spoiling us help) is probably Double Solitaire.

My favourite overall song is Pomegranate by Soma Saito.

I'll either be super active for long periods of time or inactive for who knows how long jnsfknkvnsdj

I'm really into fashion and makeup too, which were one of my childhood dreams (fashion designer and makeup artist) but my first dream was to become an actress. Now, my dream job is to be a voice actor in Japan while taking on psychiatry on the side.

If you give me a book to read with an interesting bond with two characters, I'll look up for fanart and fanfics of them, and if I don't find jack shit, I'll do it. I'll fuckin' do it and nobody can stop me.

I'm really salty about this one but I used to be 164.5cm, and like, a week after my AP finals I checked it again and I FUCKING SHRUNK. I SHRUNK 1.3 CM. HOW.

I love to cook. Mainly simple dishes but I can make something fancy if I had to. If I had the time to, I'd cook for our family daily but High School likes to fuck over our schedules so I can't.

I clean when I get stressed, but the thing is, I get stressed so much that sometimes there isn't much to clean so I'd like, hold back my tears, mess up my room, and re-clean it. That was like, up until two months ago. After that, now I just... empty my closet and fold everything back in. Everything but the stockings.

I had like, a bunch of sheer tights, right? Like, a crap ton before I started attending my current HS. The reason for that's because we have a uniform (button up, tie, cardigan, hoodie, blazer, skirt, the works) and I always wear stockings. Otherwise I feel naked, and that applies with any skirt I wear. But anyways, I had a shit ton of stockings right? And now that sophomore year's practically over, I kinda realized how many stockings I've ripped. For you creeps wondering why, I didn't do anything kinky. I don't even fall or anything. I actually don't know why my stockings rip so much, and I'm underweight so it's not light my leg fat would just PSSHHT it open? And it's always the knees. Are my knees that sharp? That's just a question for another time tho.

I play 5.5 instruments. I'm saying 5.5 because I haven't gotten the full hang of viola yet and it's just something I've kinda messed around with in my free time. The rest are (in order of comfortability): Violin, Bass guitar, Electric/acoustic guitar, Drums, Piano.

My actual voice is on the lower side. I'm a bit self conscious abt it tho so I kinda tone up? or like, speak in a naturally higher pitch and people don't know that it's not my real voice. I can hit some low notes too, I think I can go down to a D3? Idk how high I can go up to but I can cover the full alto range and probably mezzo or soprano... My other ranges for voice acting is like, typical lolita voices (yk, the cutesy stuff), a bit of shouta voices, yandere laughs (is that even a thing), snobby asshole person voices, and guys.

I'm dyslexic (it's not that bad compared to others) but I've practiced reading lots and now people think I'm lying when I tell them I'm dyslexic xD

[tintoki]

update: may 02, 2022

hi, i’m christine.

i’m 26 y/o, and i’ve grown a lot (i think).

i like being by myself and enjoy doing things solo, although it’s fun to do things with a special someone too from time to time.

i still like watching anime and listening to music. i still like being by myself.

i’m somehow still in school -_-. i graduated from undergrad, 2014-2018. did nursing pre-reqs for a year (2019), then worked as a cna/ caregiver in 2020, during the height of the covid-19 pandemic. after i found out i got into a nursing school, i’ve been in school since then (2020-2022).

i am close to graduating (anticipated graduation date: aug 2022).

i think i have grown a lot since starting nursing school, although there is still soooooo much to memorize and learn, lol.

right now, i realized the kind of nurse i want to be, but i also have a lot of stuff to work on in order to get there. that’s okay.

some nursing specialities i realized i’m interested in are: trauma (you never know what comes in through those doors), ed (emergency department), or (operating room), peds (kiddos ages 0-18). i’ve interviewed for an or internship that is straight to hire once graduated from nursing school....... we’ll see if i get it. results will be known today (i doubt i got it but i’m glad i tried for it !!). i thought i would end up doing psych, but i realize that nursing route is not the route for me.

i’ve made good friends in nursing school, but with this idea, it always comes with a tradeoff. i am still scared to open my heart to being truly good friends with them, and that’s okay (for now). being just friends is enough for me. i’ve made too many “good friends” in the past, and somehow they always just keep coming and going. i wonder when it will stop, but i don’t think it will ever stop. i guess i’ll just never know what it feels like to have that one friend who will finally stay.

right now, i’m working 2 jobs (one as a nurse extender, which is basically half cna and half nurse, and the other as a 1:1 caregiver for a very kind stroke patient who communicates with a word board). the nurse extender job is pretty cool !! i like being in the ed/triage. i’ve gotten to insert iv’s, drawn blood samples, hung primary fluids, secondary medications, gave im injection shots, performed ekgs, po meds, urine collection, talk to patients. all the while, i’m still in school. getting ahead with assignments and currently trying to finish this last essay. as of currently, i am also positive for covid-19 lol. symptoms are mild tho, just congestion and sore throat with a few body aches at first. right now, it’s just a stuffy nose and an annoying, phlegm-filled cough. getting better though, it’s been 5 days.

during clinical today, i felt very lonesome. actually, the whole day i felt very lonesome today. even though my friends are in the same clinical group with me, they still somehow made me feel alone today. then i remembered - ‘friends aren’t supposed to make you feel lonely when you’re with them.’ the relief i felt when i wasn’t next to them made me remember this. today just felt like... a day to be alone. in a way, it felt kind of nice. kind of quiet. comfortable. i drove home quietly too, my head left in a daze from the long afternoon. i realized the only fun thing i did today was look at or policies because the overall day was slow and boring. but looking at or stuff and different surgical instruments was actually quite interesting and fascinating, so i did not mind it since i was technically learning and reading.

when i got home today, i ate, did misc stuff, showered, and laid on my bed for about 10 mins just staring at the ceiling. it felt nice to just lay there, relaxed and in my head with my feelings. i had a quick thought to just not do any school work and just read a book i’ve been wanting to read. i shook the thought away. not yet, anyway.

i spent some time afterwards with myself.... something i haven’t done in a long time. it felt really nice to just watch dreamcatcher related stuff and listen to good music. i miss doing simplistic things by myself. i realized how important it is for me to stick to my roots rather than listen to what extroverted others want to do. i’m an introverted person at heart, anyway.

right now, i am trying to start and finish this stupid essay at 01:33. let’s see how far i get.

That’s pretty much all I wanted to say. I guess I just needed some space to think and write. As I continue along nursing school, I continue to realize how much the world is filled with so much sadness and hurt. I hope the hearts who are scarred out there somehow find its way towards love and healing.

#prsnl

[spikeinthepunch]

few posts ago i was made thinking about past cosplays i had, and honestly i realized i forgot... a lot of them??? i pretty much only thought about my last two bc i did them most multiple times and i liked them most. those were dipper pines and wirt. i still have my legit (heavy as fuck) wwii nurse cape for that and i like it a lot.

but i want to go through a list of what i recalled now bc its fun seeing the timeline of fandoms that it reflects. these are semi-chronological, some i dont know exactly when they happened but its in the same-ish era

Holo from Spice and Wolf - i am quite sure this was my first. One of the earliest animes i watched on youtube, and i got a orange wig, made ears out of cardboard, and had a decent tail i got at a furry con. tho i had no clothes that fit, i just wore my normal clothes lol.

Medusa Gorgon from Soul Eater - Hard for me to determine if there was something before this but i am p sure this came before the next ones, as it was 7th grade and before tumblr fandoms i got into later. i bought this cosplay entirely online so it was p good. But i remember wearing it to school and kids making fun of me.

Zacharie from OFF - a little vague on timeline again. I quite liked this one. i had a black wig and made a mask out of paper. i didnt have anything else like a sweater for it specifically. (this cosplay lasted for a while through 9-10th grade)

Jack Frost from Rise of the Guardians - iirc this was The First for the tumblr fandoms i got into, bc technically i got into it pre-tumblr and then went to tumblr as my first fandom. however i didnt really 'cosplay' him properly, i had no wig or staff etc. it was 'casual' w a cosplay sweatshirt i bought and that was it. (this cosplay lasted for a while through 9-10th grade. also note at age 16 i cosplayed him light again when i dyed my hair white)

Swag onceler/teen Swag - i nearly forgot this one lol. i didnt have the blue glasses, but it was his highschool one as i had the white button up and pink sweatervest. i dont really remember how much i wore this though.

teen Oneler - another onceler AU guy i cosplayed very lightly but also not for long.

Dave Strider - i only really cosplayed him at first before i read homestuck bc my friends assigned me dave strider lol. i did get into it eventually and i went to anime expo a few times to the homestuck meet, and met a really nice john egbert there too.

homestuck OC "Doubie" (i cannot recall the last name lol) - decided to cosplay my homestuck oc, made my own horns! but i never got far enough to make my custom shirt or anything. (from here forward i really dont know what order these are in)

Sherlock Holmes from Sherlock BBC - yeah. i have a very cool expensive high quality coat though. like REALLY good. i still intend to wear it but its never cold enough here in socal lol.

Ciel Phantomhive from Black Butler - i had wanted to cosplay him in middle school, but couldnt bc i wanted to buy the intricate outfits. i was able to get one of the black outfits tho i recall not having all of it? like maybe just the top? idk. i had the rings too and a wig. it was alright and i also owned the classic brown shoes too as i intended to get his normal outfit but i didnt. was frustrated this cosplay wasnt as good as i wanted for a variety of reasons. (note: i cosplay at "casual/modern" version from that meta episode a year or two later when i dyed my own hair navy blue)

Alois Trancy, modern/BTS episode Black Butler - there was a like, behind the scenes/modern/meta episode in the anime, and being blonde i wanted to cosplay him casually. "casual" cosplays for me were fun bc i felt i could be the character all the time and it wasnt weird. i also own Alois' ring too.

Cecil Palmer from Welcome to Nightvale - one very significant cosplay for me tho i think i only did it at a con once, but it was a big one w my friends at the time in highschool, a friend cosplayed Carlos and all of us just really loved wtnv at the time. i was blonde and could fit the role, i had the vest, purple shirt, glasses, and had painted eyes/etc on myself. i did a photoshoot w my friend who did Carlos. I did the whole cosplay to holloween at school. it was a fun one.

Dipper Pines from Gravity Falls - i liked this one a lot and it was very very simple and lightweight, so i did it a lot going forward as i drifted from other fandoms. had shorts, shoes, vest, hat, and wig to match. I cosplayed him further when i dyed my hair brown at one point.

Wirt from Over the Garden Wall - the last thing i cosplayed. i did this one to anime expo twice i think but good god was it hot for that summer con. the cosplay was simple enough i didnt mind it but the cape was heavy- it was a real wwii nurse cape, as that is what wirt had. its genuinely so cool and i also intend to wear this casually like thw Sherlock coat but again, it is never cold here lol. had the whole outfit for this one tho- shoes, pants, shirt, suspenders, hat. i still own all of it and i would cosplay him again for sure.

i think this is it. i love cosplay and a lot of these mean a lot to me and define so many fandom eras for me!! and my attachment to characters is really really strong.... being them in some form always made me so happy and its why i still think about cosplaying some time again.

[blogging-thots]

June 27 2022

I got accepted to the Dental Assisting program on June 21 :DDD YAAAY ME!

I have to go to orientation on July 6, on July 8 is CPR training and I might have to go to work that day too… RIP ME LOL, and Aug I have to go to orientation #2 and I think that day we get our assigned lockers!!

I also had to pay for a tracking/submitting documents account (cost $110 RIP BANK ACCOUNT) which is ridiculous bc ain’t no one got that type of money when the economy is like this 😭😭😭 but we had to purchase it bc it had background checks, immunization tracking, and physical docs we had to submit in order to keep our position in the program 😩😩😩

Hopefully the rest of my immunizations and records are good and up to date and that when I go to take my drug test that the results will come out on time! (I have one immunization atm that got rejected so I guess I have to get another dose at the doc’s office 🥲🥲🥲) I also have to get tested for TB, so I hope that goes well too !!

I hate going to the doctor’s office 😭😭😭

Hopefully everything goes as planned and that I get extra grants for college bc me broke as f lol 🥲🥲🥲

(When I read that I got accepted to the program, idk why I didn’t feel excited 😐😐😐 I actually felt empty or something… it was a weird feeling for me. Maybe bc I was so burned out from everything and trying hard. But I’m really thankful that I got accepted tho bc I know I would be devastated if I didn’t get in.)

(This is just the beginning of a new chapter in my life and I’m happy to go back to school, I pray everything will go well and smooth 😊💛)

#student #college #blog post #my thoughts #life #rants n rambles #school #college student

[yeonjuins]

AHHHH IT'S SO CUTE RIGHT???? i was searching ages for a cute icon and i saw it and was like GIMMIE 🐻

it's been very sticky weather which is what we call it. it's just that kinda weather that's cloudy but it's warm and just generally meh, just makes you sweaty and uncomfortable. >.< on the bright side, all the babies are being born <3 lambs, calves, baby birds 🎀 and it's been rainy and sunny so our crops are growing!!! my mum has hayfever during this time and it's really bad and people assume it's coronavirus and it's not >.<

IT HELPS YOU SLEEP TOO <3 it's delicious and smells amazing 🎀 i've not been drinking anything new recently, been drinking a lot of water <3 i'm going through it pretty fast 🎀 that sounds really nice, i hope you have a lovely time :) (oh the sun is coming out here now, i hope it stays nice!!!)

I BOUGHT ONE !!!!! 🌸🌸 i bought one last week, my s/o added all the parts for me and then the company we ordered from builds it and then sends it out <3 so i paid roughly about £700 for it (877 in $), after a while of thinking, i realized i don't need anything too high spec, as long as i can run my games, upcoming games & photoshop then i'm a happy gal :) the company sent me an email yesterday saying they had to make a change to it and i had to get my s/o to explain it to me LMAOOO, turns out the motherboard i ordered wasn't in stock so the company upgraded it for free for me, which was so so nice of them 🌸 my laptop at the moment is pretty much almost dead???? it's so slow :((

IT'S SO CUTEEEE i love it so so much <3 i've watched it again since my last message to you and i STILL CRIED :(((((

i'm definitely doing a lot better, thank you so much 🌸 that really means a lot. i always worry about leaving other people without a response :( i hope you're doing okay 🌸

(lengthy response!)

HELLO i'm so sorry this took me forever to respond too... life's been super busy with work + the school year slowly coming to an end with final assignments and whatnot... i still have a month left so i'm holding on as much as i can (":

butterfly icon now <3 love how by the time i respond to your asks, you always have a different icon PAHAHHAH it's really cute to just . make note of it each time i answer (":

'sticky weather'.... i know what exactly you mean and i absolutely hate that sort of weather ;; it's so humid and for what !?? 'all the babies are being born' WHY DID THAT MAKE ME LAUGH ASODIJMAKWD WHAT A PHRASE OMG... that is so lovely tho omg.. my mom is very into plants and since the weather is much nicer now she's been expanding her little plant collection which is really cute (although her plants inside the house is enough to makeup a whole entire greenhouse and attracts fruit flies from time to time ):< )

ah.. on my end i wish i was drinking more water ;; i'm good at staying hydrated for the most part but i found as of late i've been drinking a lot of like... teas? bubble teas? stuff like that ;; i try to drink water in the morning though because that's when i notice my throat most needs it and whatnot

THAT'S A REALLLLY GOOD COST FOR A PC WHAHAHAH i hope the pc is running well for u so far my love (: my keycaps actually came in !! i was talking to my brother and he's going to order me another set that i really want as well which i'm verrryy excited for :> he also gave me a mouse his company gave him for free... i'm still trying to get used to it but i think i like it overall ! it's a mouse made for productivity so there's a mouse wheel at the side of the mouse for horizontal scrolling + additional buttons and whatnot which is pretty cool (": AND WHAA UPGRADE OF MOTHERBOARD THAT'S SO TRUE YAYAYYA Y!!! and i hope ur able to get a new laptop soon ;;

#asks #hev #and im doing fine my love ! i feel like i answered that earlier on into the asks rather than later but ! reiterating <3

[floralbfs]

wey voy a LLORAR

#i have 4 days left of school :((((((( #i think today was included tho #so 3 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also this week should be costume week but im too depressed to do it #today i was going to be ashley a but what's the point anymore #i think im going to watch tiktoks and cry #really have to get my school assignments in order tho #i need to have every gac assignment done and in order so that i can get the certificate in time #but i dont want to do anything #fuck im going to cry #ok bye if i think about this anymore i'll start crying #i'll talk with mom and grammy instead #honey talk

[miekasa]

mie….could we please get college au eren headcanons👉🏽👈🏽

Of course. I’m always thinking about his big head anyway <33 might as well put it good use.

One thing he learned in college is how to make his hyperfocus/fixation episodes work for him; that’s why he schedules all his classes as close together as possible. He’d rather have class back to back for 5 hours, than have it spread out with hours in between lectures, because that increases his changes of cutting.

You can always tell when he’s in class and/or what class he’s in by how much he responds to your messages. If he doesn’t text back at all, he’s in a class that hard or one he enjoys, or both. But if he’s sending you iMessage games, then you know he’s in his elective that he couldn’t care else about (and is probably cheating in someway somehow lmfao). 

He usually puts his phone on dnd when he’s in a class that’s important, but you’re in his favorite contacts, so your messages always ring through. What if it’s an emergency and you need him for something? Advanced Roots of Human Biology can wait. 

Some days there are one or two our breaks between his lectures, that’s just how the scheduling works out. When that happens, he usually sneaks into one of your lectures, or goes to your place to take a nap. Your roommates have become accustomed to him, honestly they’ve been considering giving him a key. 

Once, he didn’t realize that your lecture was basically a seminar, with you, the prof and maybe six other students. He still stayed lmao, and the prof was so amazed by his dedication, that she didn’t even mind. Occasionally, you’ll catch the two of them talking after lecture. It’s pretty cute the way she’s adopted him into the class even tho he’s not on the roster. 

You... have to show him where the library is lmfao. He genuinely has not stepped foot in one until you bring him to one. He likes it tho lmao once he gets used to it. 

Speaking of which, do not give him standard directions to find your classes on campus because all you’ll get is, “Babe, I’m gonna keep it real with you, I’ve never heard of the ‘West Quad’ a day in my life. What building are you near.”

He usually comes to see you in the library after all his lectures are done for the day. Sometimes he does homework, sometimes he’s just fucking around on his computer, sometimes he’s just bothering you. When you have to leave to go to class, he stays behind to watch your stuff so you don’t have to pack everything up and come back. 

Very protective when it comes to keeping your seat for you. No, you cannot take that chair to your table you good for nothing freshman; it’s reserved for you. 

He’ll drag you out of the library if you’ve been cooped up all day, tho. Eren will use his height and his strength against you to get you up. Placates you with kisses when he sees your angry expression, and promises to buy you food.

He takes your backpack for you when you’re walking together,m. His backpack is frustratingly light all the time, even during midterms. You swear all he’s got in there is a pencil and some flashcards. 

If you have night classes, he sticks around to walk you home after, especially in the winter when it gets dark faster. If he’s not already on campus, he’ll walk/drive back to meet you; he just doesn’t like you going home alone. Even if your friend/roommate is in the class with you, Eren will walk or drive the both of you home for his own sanity. 

He plays sports, so he usually has practice most evenings, but he’ll find a way to make time. If practice was particularly brutal, he’ll probably crash at your place.

He loves it when you come to meet him after practice. His whole face lights up and he waves obnoxiously, before he gathers up his stuff and all but sprints towards you. You get a cold water bottle to the face, or a bit of water splashed on you usually, which he takes immense amusement in. 

He knows it’s not possible for you to make it to all of his games, and usually it doesn’t bother him much; you’ve got your own life, and work to worry about. All he asks is that you wear his jersey, or any item of his sports apparel/merch on game day (he’s partial to hoodies).

By the time junior year rolls around, he’s not all that interested in attending parties that aren’t hosted by your friends; so, unless it’s at Connie, Jean, or Reiner and Bertholdt’s place, Eren will usually decline. Even team parties, he’s not crazy about unless it’s to celebrate a championship or something. He’d much rather celebrate with you. 

He does get excited about hosting parties though, and he and Jean become pretty damn good co-hosts. They don’t throw ragers, and that’s probably why Eren likes it so much. It’s usually your friend group and a couple plus ones, some good music, games, weed, and take-out. 

He’ll buy you coffee whenever you ask for it. The first time, he just orders something plain, not really knowing the difference between anything; but give it two or three tries, and he’ll get it perfect. He becomes so good that he can order you something new/different and you’ll love it. 

That’s kind of the start of his own coffee addiction, and more often than not, when he buys you a cup, he’s on his second or third of the day himself. The flavor has really grown on him, okay. 

He much prefers your apartment, but on occasion, he’ll ask you to come to his. You’ve been studying for so long, a change of environment should do you good, he claims. He’s a fucking liar tho because that’s all Eren Talk for “I do genuinely want you to come over, but my plans are to coerce you out of doing your assignments and doing me instead.”

Lmfao he adds you on Apple Watch Rings just so you can see him close his rings every day and laugh at you. Even if yours get closed by virtue of walking around campus or working out or whatever, his numbers are stupidly high because he fucking has practice at least 4 days of the week. 

Of course when you’re running on a soccer field for 2 hours every day, you close your Move Ring five times, Eren. Leave the rest of us alone. 

He buys you guys matching accessories for your keychains. It’s something pretty cute, and slightly random, but it reminded him of you. It also serves as a reminder to himself to take his fucking keys with him when he leaves his house. 

He sleeps like a fucking rock, so do not let him fall asleep in the library. Waking him up is a mission, and he’s never happy to be woken up. He looks kinda cute tho. 

He schedules dates for you and his friends. Usually by accident, but hear me out. Sometimes he’ll make plans with Armin, then forget that he has class or a test or something; so his solution is to text you, “hey, i forgot min and i were supposed to go some aquarium tomorrow but i have a midterm so here’s the pdf of my ticket, go with him for me, thanks babe love u” then, boop, you and Armin have an aquarium date Friday evening. 

The same thing happens with Mikasa, though, she usually catches the scheduling conflict before Eren does, and invites you out herself. You and Mikasa hang out quite a bit anyway, so it comes to the point where she tells you when she’s gonna hang out with Eren, so you can make yourself free for when he inevitably remember he has a game that day. 

Mikasa is most amazed that you’ve put up with Eren this long lmao. You’ve certainly lessened her Eren & Armin babysitting hours, and for that she’s eternally grateful. Also, she’s just happy to have another close friend. She loves Eren and Armin, but they’re not the most social beings, and she was literally their only friend besides the other for all their childhood PLEASE she’s so happy you’re around. 

It’s Mikasa, however, who babysits you and Eren whenever you both get too drunk. Says you guys are two peas in a pod (affectionate<2)

If you tell Eren something important that happened, like an internship you got, or a good grade in a class, or something, he usually relays that information to his mom pls. He texts her every day, and if she doesn’t ask for an update on you first, he gives her one.

Carla calls you sometimes, too. At least once every few weeks, just to check on you herself. She really likes you for Eren, and is grateful someone is willing to put up with her hotheaded son. 

Eren’s always using your fucking chapstick. Always. You know he has his own, so why he needs to use yours is beyond you. Finds time to make some dumbass comment about how it’s an “indirect kiss” every time he uses it too. Like bro, we’re dating, and have had many direct kisses why are you like this.

He posts on Instagram every few weeks or so, but you’re on his story every few days. Usually, it’s just a video of you minding your business and doing your work while Eren slowly zooms in before making some loud noise to surprise you, all so he can get your reaction on video and laugh at it. He’s annoying. 

He’s a bit of a copycat when it comes to the products you use. He’ll buy the same brand of pens as you (for that matter, all of his school supplies mirror yours because what does he know about the difference between A4 and A5 notebooks?), put a little hand sanitizer on his backpack like yours (and a lotion, too, for good measure), he even copies your Starbucks order until he finds one he likes for himself. It’s one of his love languages <3

If you’re wondering where your eyelash curler went, Eren stole it to try it on himself, hurt himself, vowed to never use it again, went back because he wanted to “do it right and not give up,” liked the results when he didn’t pinch his eyelid, and now it’s his. 

That being said, stop trying to put your Fenty lipgloss on him, it’s never going to happen. Eye makeup, maybe, only if you sit in his lap and he can have his hands on your ass while you do it. 

What he does love is letting you do his skincare. He will set aside dedicated skincare nights, he adores it. Easily one of his favorite things ever. 

You have his wallet. Not because he’s your sugar daddy or anything (although, if you want something, he’d definitely let you use his card to get it; and even if you bought something without asking, he wouldn’t think twice about it), but because he put it in your bag once and never took it out. 

When you tried to give it back, he just shook his head and told you to keep it, “I have my ID in my phone case anyway, and you’re less likely to lose it. Plus I put all my cards on Apple Pay, so I’m good.”

When you do make it to a game of his, he’s all over you when it’s over. Not in a cocky athlete boyfriend kind of way; in a very sleepy boyfriend kind of way. He’s usually got ice on at least one part of his body, and he’s got half his body weight on you as you walk to the car. 

By the time you guys get back to your place, he’s practically sleep walking. The only thing on his mind is taking a hot shower to soothe his muscles, and heading to bed. The aftermath of game days aren’t all that bad though, because even if you didn’t show, you’re always there to kiss him when he’s home and massage his shoulders, and cuddle him to sleep; and that’s his favorite part. 

#anonymous #hes so fucking cute hes my fucking BOYFRIENDDDDDDDDD #eren x reader #aot x reader #eren jaeger x reader #aot imagines #eren fluff #eren smut