#recovery acts

[bluegiragi]

okay, first of all, absolutely goddamn feral about you, your art, writing, ideas and aus i am chewing on the bars of my cage and foaming at the mouth and screeching incoherent and rolling around on the floor and- ough... anyway

i do have a very self indulgent question, particularly about Monster AU Ghost and Price, but also extending towards the rest of 141 with their involvement

at one point you mentioned that wraiths were rare, and ghost would likely feel pity towards another one

what would happen if they did come across another wraith? especially someone fairly fresh, maybe even young, younger than any of them. is there anything anyone could do to help them? would they help? price seems to know how to handle ghost well enough, and seems like hes been around since ghost's transformation, but how would ghost himself handle seeing someone else go through something like what he did? if he had to, what advice would he give them that he never got?

just been rotting in my brain 😭 ily gira and i hope youre taking care of yourself, thank you so much for the work you put in and share with us 🥺💕

this!! is!! such a good question, anon!!!! I think there's a lot of sides to that kind of situation, especially if it’s a younger person since I hc Ghost as having a massive soft spot for kids.

lots of writing under the cut!!! my braincells were FEASTING.

I think if it was just Ghost and the newly-born wraith, he'd try to mercy-kill it. The circumstances that lead to the creation of a wraith are truly harrowing, and while Simon understands the desire for revenge that burns at the core of every freshly made wraith, he also believes their plight is a kind of torture. In his mind, it would be kind to put one out of their misery. He wouldn't take any pleasure in it - I think overall, it would be a miserable affair for all parties involved.

If Price or any of the others were around, I think they’d try to convince him to take them under his wing so to speak. But while Ghost currently operates decently with his support system, he’s extremely lucky and should be considered the exception to the trend. Price was instrumental in his recovery - years of working under him solidified Price in his subconscious as an authority figure he could trust. When Ghost lost control, he could still rely on instinct - even with his mind fracturing, Price never changed. But not everyone has this kind of person immediately available to them, and it was crucial that Price got to him as soon as he did. What Ghost is now is not what a wraith commonly looks like. Price dragged him back from a brink.

New wraiths are sort of like rabid dogs, with no sense of self preservation. They’d approach every confrontation with the kind of frenzy you’d see in someone fighting for their life. They’d also be basically impossible to immobilize - you’ve seen how Simon goes wispy at times, imagine trying to handcuff a cloud of smoke. If it came down to a situation where any of the 141 were in danger, Ghost wouldn’t hold back. He’d put the other wraith down.

But if Ghost met another wraith who’d survived that first explosion of fury and managed to calm down, AND the 141 were with him, I think he’d try to help. They bring out the best in him.

#also as an aside on the price ghost situation #it was a real blind leading the blind situation during his recovery #not a lot is known about wraiths and practically nothing about minimising their…wraithiness #so price was just acting knowing that this was Simon now #and Simon needed him #I promise I’m going to draw this whole thing in a backstory plot line #askbox #anon

[inkskinned]

maybe i'm a bitch but if i hear you go out of your way to judge someone's weight, i immediately lose trust in you & will probably forever find you a little unbearable . yes also the little floating bar over my head will start reading [hostile]. this is natural and u caused it.

#IF you do the therapy to stop being an asshole and make a POINT of being like #''i used to be a jerk about this but now i'm not'' #..... we can reevaluate .... #btw i hope this doesn't need explanation and everyone can be normal on this post #and not be like #what if i am a DOCTOR and i was aSKED #like we all know what i'm referring to here #you're like in target and lizzo is playing in the background and they're like #DID YOU NOTICE THAT LIZZO IS FAT? #or ur on instagram and like some dude's comment is like #NICE ART BUT WHY ARENT YOU THIN #like .... okay we get it. we get it . go to sleep . go to therapy. bye. #ALSO BTW i am in recovery for an ED and im saying this AS someone with Brain Problems #pls do not clown on this and be like ''actually i'm allowed to be rude and judgemental'' #no u aren't. none of us are. having an ED is not a pass for being a fucking dick #it can make you ACT like a dick. that isn't something you should be proud of or seek to continue #hence.... therapy!!!!!!!! #i know it's kind of controversial to say it but frankly i don't believe in infantilizing mental illness #by being like ''oh they can't help themselves'' #bc that kind of thinking is .... unbelievably toxic lmafo #you might not be able to control your split-second thoughts/judgements #i have ocd i understand #but like. . . .. you know #we both know #this post is not about ''u blurted something u regret'' #this post is about. THAT GUY

[verflares]

i miss her so bad (botw/totk zelda)

#she was the world she was the moment everything and ever. nintendo will probably never hit it out of the park that good again #she is your self-sacrificial metaphor. she is how you will think about how you could've done things differently. you miss the past #you dread the future. she is how you realise how you look like your father. she is how you realise that you act like your mother #she is your abuse recovery metaphor. she is how love and opening your heart was ALWAYS and always HAS been the answer #and she is also about how yuri is forever and tgirl swag and women in stem ofc #like i said. we will never win this hard again #loz #personal.txt

[transmascissues]

i totally understand why some people have read my posts about my recovery experience and been a bit freaked out by it if they haven't gotten top surgery themselves yet, and i also totally understand other people who have had top surgery wanting to reassure those people so they don't get scared out of having top surgery.

what i don't love is when, in an attempt to be reassuring, other people who have had top surgery say "well, my experience was much easier than this and yours might be too. don't be scared of having this kind of recovery, because you might not!"

if you had a super smooth top surgery recovery, i'm so happy for you and i'll be the first to admit that i envy you. i'm genuinely glad you got lucky! but i also know that, when i was preparing for top surgery, i wanted to know how to prepare for if i did have a rougher time and need more support, because being pleasantly surprised by a better time than you expected is much easier than being unpleasantly surprised by difficulties no one prepared you for. trying to find out how to prepare and being met with varying degrees of "don't worry, that didn't happen to me" was infuriating. the chorus of "that didn't happen to me" didn't do anything for me when one day post-op it took three people to figure out how to lift me into a sitting position without hurting me, and i never want anyone to find themselves in a situation like that totally unprepared. i worked really hard to get ready because i'm disabled and knew my body never has a chill reaction to anything, and i want other people to be able to prepare themselves too, whether they have a specific reason to or not.

not to mention, nothing in my experiences so far has been some worst case scenario that you should pray never happens to you. none of the things i've described in my posts have been complications; it's all just natural parts of recovering. every single time my surgeon has seen me, she's assured my that i'm healing perfectly so far. so yeah, things have been rough, but this isn't a horror story that i'm telling. it's not a warning or a cautionary tale. it's all totally normal and expected, even if it is more intense than some people's experiences. it just doesn't feel great to have my experience treated as something awful when it's all just part of the process.

the confidence that comes with knowing what could happen and feeling ready to face it is such a powerful thing, and i want people to be able to have that going into their surgery. i want them to be able to trust in their knowledge of what could happen and feel equipped to handle whatever comes their way. i want them to know that it'll be worth it in the end, even if it's hard for a while. i want them to know that top surgery is a wonderful thing and is worth doing, even if it's a rough experience, and that they can have a hard time and still come out the other side thrilled with the outcome. i want them to be able to look that fear in the face and say "yeah, maybe it'll suck for a few weeks, but then i'll be so much happier for the entire rest of my life, so fuck it, let's do it."

if i've learned anything over the past week, it's that top surgery is scary but it's also so worth it. if it would make your life better, go for it. i promise, the fear will be worth it. and honestly? a lot of the scary shit isn't nearly as scary once you've experienced it and learned how to work with it.

#idk like. if your experience wasnt like mine go ahead and make your own post detailing how things went for you! #but maybe don't come onto my post and talk about your experiences as if they somehow contradict mine #don't act like i'm giving the Bad Scary Info and you have the Nice Reassuring Info that can make it all better #all of the information is important. all of it #and all of it - the really smooth recoveries and the really rough recoveries and everything in between - are just part of the process #it just. feels Bad #i'm gonna leave this mostly untagged for now i just wanted to put it out there #top surgery adventures

[mercifullymad]

Urgent Call to Oppose KOSA

(Update to this post, where I explain in more detail why KOSA is harmful, not helpful, to children)

On May 2, 2023, KOSA was re-introduced to Congress by its authors, Sens. Richard Blumenthal (D-CT) and Marsha Blackburn (R-TN). Though some of the wording has been modified slightly to be more specific as compared to the previous version of the bill, the most egregious and dangerous parts remain – namely, the fact that it will come down to state attorneys general to decide what content on social media sites does and does not “prevent and mitigate” outcomes like anxiety, depression, bullying, and more.

It’s important to be clear about how nebulous concepts like “bullying,” “anxiety,” and “depression,” are defined by the bill’s co-author, Sen. Blackburn, and how they will be similarly defined by other conservative politicians. Sen. Blackburn has a page on her website criticizing the “mental and emotional trauma” that “Critical Race Theory” causes white children. She states that “CRT actively encourages discrimination” and illustrates this claim with an anecdote of a racist mother “left with no choice but to put her seven-year-old in therapy” because her child was “depressed” by learning she was white. Using telling phrasing, Sen. Blackburn conveys her beliefs that education about racism makes “parents struggle to help their children manage the mental and emotional damage inflicted by this dangerous ideology” (bolding added). Tennessee’s governor has already signed a bill that withholds funding from any schools teaching about “systemic racism” and “white privilege.” If KOSA passes, Tennessee will be able to ban children from learning about racism not only in schools, but also on online platforms, by arguing that this content causes “mental and emotional damage” and “depression” in children. For Sen. Blackburn and other conservative politicians, any information about racism and queerness can be blamed for causing children “distress” and thus can be prohibited from children’s access.  

If you are a U.S. citizen, please call and/or email your representatives and ask them to oppose KOSA. The EFF has a very simple form for doing so, with a pre-written template (ideally, alter some of the language to make the message your own). It is quick and easy, and it is important to do so now, because KOSA’s supporters want it to be pushed through Congress as quickly as possible. Please also urge the mental health and eating disorder organizations supporting KOSA (such as Project Heal, the Eating Disorder Coalition, and the National Alliance for Eating Disorders).

Children deserve to be truly protected. Not trapped, surveilled, and further harmed by their state governments.

#kosa #kids online safety act #racism #social justice #activism #lgbtq #mental health #mental wellness #eating disoder recovery #idk what to tag this to get it the most circulation unfortunately #literally quivering in fear and rage :)) fun :))) i love tuesday night :))) #mine

[miamignonette]

rebranding intrusive thoughts as something a person secretly wants to do has been more harmful than anyone without ocd could ever understand. i’m not exaggerating when i say that this mindset could be deadly for people who have real intrusive thoughts.

#they go directly against your core values. they’re what you want to do THE LEAST #like when i wasn’t as far along in my recovery i thought that if i somehow slipped up and acted on one of those thoughts i would have to kms #it’s SERIOUS.

[danielslaw]

“i’m supposed to say i don’t miss it. that’s what they teach you in trauma recovery.“ CHARLIE COX AS MATT MURDOCK IN NETFLIX’S DAREDEVIL SEASON 1 EPISODE 1.

#charlie cox #matt murdock #netflix's daredevil #daredevil #daredeviledit #mcuedit #mattmurdockedit #tsarinaedits #tsarinagifs #(lord i hate these) #(the coloring is awful but this scene was so purply) #(i wanted you to see some of the acting) #(there is somuch going on his face) #(also the detail that matt went to therapy and trauma recovery) #(him admitting he does miss seeing the sky feels so real)

[twoheadedfather]

"I bet God wants me to prove that I can take orders, or maybe that I am not afraid to die and come be with him. Maybe BOB knows God, and that is why he always knows what I am feeling inside. God must be telling him what to do to me. God wants me not to be afraid, maybe, of being dirty. If I'm not afraid, he'll take me to heaven."

The Secret Diary of Laura Palmer, Jennifer Lynch

#laura palmer #twin peaks #the secret diary of laura palmer #jennifer lynch #childhood abuse #childhood trauma #trauma #something something trauma and recovery something something interpreting taking abuse from your father as a religious and holy act #i got an ethel cain laura palmer edit on my tiktok fyp today. sorry #it's so over

[hybbat]

"You saved me so I can kill you", "my wretch of a wife", and "30 seconds" all happened in this series, yet y'all cry divorce on the ranchers.

#and i dont mean this in a 'theyre secretly cuddling between sessions uwu' way #i mean all their interactions have been at most silly at least completely neutral #yall act like theyre bitterly trying to murder each other in every scene theyve been in together #like the one time they ever dealt damage to the other wasnt immediately followed by an apology #the fh people are still out here even after the entirety of dl and 24l so far and yall are here acting like ranchers is made of sugar glass #team rancher #if you like angst thats fine but theres so many post crying that its all over #or acting like its a struggle #you dont need copium when they havent even done anything #sorry but every other duo gets a dramatic devastating moment to point to for why theyre divorced #and the worst ranchers get is 'if we ever 1v1 i could totally beat you anyways running away now' for people to act just as devastated #sorry im super salty this week #and just tired of rancher tags being walls of 'the world is ending and theres no recovery'

[alexturner2005]

jesus christ we just nearly put my dog down and then one hour before the appointment he miraculously pranced around the block and was acting so happy and normal we couldn’t do it 😭😭😭

#god this fucking day 😭😭😭😭 #it’s possible that it might only be postponed for a day depending how he does tonight #but i wasn’t ready. i wasn’t expecting it. #we only found out he has cancer two weeks ago #a couple days before his 13th birthday #before we found out he was only coughing occasionally #and then like three days after finding out he suddenly got so much worse #i thought we had so much more time #he had a really bad night last night which is why…yeah #but he’s acting so energetic now and barely even coughing 😭 #help me manifest a miraculous recovery or at least a little more time 😭

[conscious-love]

You see, the acting-out, the yelling, the screaming and even the hitting, all that a person does, serves as a defence against the experience of the anger. It’s a defence against keeping the anger inside where it can be deeply felt. Discharge defends against anger being actually experienced.

Gabor Maté, When The Body Says No

#Gabor Maté #emotions #feelings #repression #repressing #numbing #anger #rage #yelling #acting out #DBT #dialectical behavior therapy #recovery #healing #personal growth #personal development #When The Body Says No #quotes

[ordinarydoodles]

I've been wanting to post something from the haunted attraction I work at forever, and I just realized I had a photo from our Valentine's event that didn't have identifying information. This was probably my favorite costume I've worn so far. I actually ended up in the promotional material this year!

#real face jumpscare #I played this guy like a revivalist preacher and got so many good reactions #I kind of want to play the preacher character again but I'm not sure I could keep that voice up all season long #The Valentine's event was only 2 nights long so I was willing to go ham on the voice since I knew I'd have the recovery time #scare acting #haunt acting #personal stuff #I got a visiting actor from another haunt real good. I'm still proud of that. Do you know how hard it is to scare a scare actor?

[jameswilsonsupremacy]

currently have a lot of feelings abt house’s relapse in s7,, may have to write it out at some point. he was clean two years at that point (it was either foreman or chase who gave this number). the way a lot of them reacted, they expected it—not surprised. like they expected his sobriety to fail.

yes, relapse is often a part of recovery. but it doesn’t always have to be. the fact that the most standout conversation about it was from wilson to cuddy is wild to me. i’m not a huddy hater—I feel they would’ve eventually broken up but stayed friends if it happened in earlier seasons, because cuddy does care for house. but in s7, she wanted him to be someone he wasn’t. wilson accepted him as who he was.

house literally internalizes all of his issues. he’s terrified when cuddy leaves him. especially when he keeps saying no, and asks cuddy “don't. please don't,”. (also shout out to hugh laurie for his incredible acting in that scene because I cry every time!) and then he ends up back on vicodin and tries to push everyone away again. but think about that guilt. he knew his addiction hurt the people he loved—that’s why he tried to hide it from cuddy. that’s why he begged her not to leave, that it was a one-time thing. he knows it impacts more than just him. so even if he’s back in those harmful habits? I assure you that he is being eaten alive by guilt.

two years clean. he would’ve had so many moments where he likely came close to relapsing, or, he just had intrusive thoughts about it. he pushed through. and then he relapsed, and his world collapses, and he can only blame himself. and he hates himself for it. if he felt confident in his growth for two years and then lost it all, he probably lost sight of any hope for true recovery. for real happiness. for having people by his side in support.

and, in a way, house cannot see the people who care because he’s blinded by his own emotion. wilson went to that hotel to check on him. wilson went to cuddy. wilson was angry on house’s behalf, because he knows how hard it is for house to have gotten through those two years, and to have lost it. he knows how much house likely hates himself for it, even if the guy is acting all snappish and nonchalant about it all. wilson understood.

I want to write out all of my thoughts on it but this is the very basics so rahhhhh take this for now. I dunno if any of it makes sense but <3

#lucas rants #house md #gregory house #james wilson #dr wilson #dr house #hilson #ish? #idk I feel very heavily for house when it comes to his addiction and mental health #it makes him a horrible person at times #and his actions can’t be excused just bc he’s battling an addiction #but god #he acts out over and over out of fear #and pushes and pushes because he wants people to leave for a reason that isn’t genuinely about his feelings #he’s an asshole so people hate him for that #but if cuddy left because of how house really felt #that would be a knife to the heart #I also just have a lot of thoughts on relapse and recovery #tmi ig but tomorrow (1/28/24) will be six months from when I graduated the program I was in #I was in a long-term residential treatment center/rehab for three months #so I feel very heavily for house and the feelings he may have surrounding relapse #and I know my sixth months tomorrow is not as long as two years but #i still get intrusive thoughts and the guilt tears me alive #because I’m supposed to be Better #and I feel like house would have that feeling too #if he relapsed after two years then maybe he feels he really is broken #he can’t be ‘fixed’ #(wilson would remind him that’s stupid- people can’t be ‘fixed’) #house md season 7 #sorry for brainrot

[traumatizedjaguar]

Watch your triggers.

Stop attacking people just because you're triggered; stop bullying others when you are literally just TRIGGERED. Acting out on triggers sometimes leads to using DARVO on the person you're bullying. My account is described in the pinned post you must read before proceeding onto the rest of my account. Watch your passive aggressive behaviors. You do not have a right to act out on triggers and bully others while proceeding to accuse them of the abuse you are actually perpetrating. If you do not like or agree with my belief system then you have a right to not like or agree with me, but you DO NOT have a right to attack me or bully me for my own opinions and beliefs. You DO NOT have a right to attack or bully others for their own opinions and beliefs. You are responsible and accountable for your triggers and nobody else but you is.

#my text #actuallyabused #actuallytraumatized #actually abused #actually traumatized #actually traumatised #cptsd #tw cptsd #cptsd life #cptsd problems #cptsd recovery #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #just cptsd things #cptsd vent #triggers #triggered #tw #acting out #acting out on triggers and attacking people is bullying behaviors #watch yourself #also @ the account that was bullying and harassing people on here #im not walking on eggshells w you #so like bullies just act out on triggers #I don't hate mentally ill people I hate abusers and trauma and I hate suffering humans put each other thorugh #im very careful and mindful about the words that I choose all the time #and im mindful about it #humans are too awful to protect the children our world is disgusting

[3score11poet]

Coffee Hour

ACT AS IF, 04/17/2024

"Assume a virtue, if you have it not." William Shakespeare

There was a truism that made the rounds some years back, calling folks to imagine what they wanted. It was based upon the proverb: Without vision, the people perish. The idea was big in athletics, where players were to visualize catching the ball, or returning the impossible serve, and those things would somehow become reality. I suppose it is more true than not. I imagined myself dying a slob and that appears quite achievable and within reach. The will can only do so much, though. One needs to practice. One needs to set their goals and take steps. Don't worry about whether or not you'll accomplish what you set out to. Be satisfied in the journey itself. Then we can die happy (slob or not).

#coffee hour #act as if #recovery

[stargirl1331]

The thoughts I’ve had today on my body, a positive list

When i twist my hips the skin creates a wrinkle and i saw that and thought of those old statues of Aphrodite (this one specifically) and how sad it is that something that wonderful, something mirrored in human art from centuries ago, mirrored in the divine, can be hated.

I have a spine and that’s amazing.(the thought was actually “I forgot how wonderful it is to have a spine” while looking at myself in a mirror which is so random. I’ve had a spine my whole life this isn’t a new development????)

Stretch marks are where the love I hold grew too fast for my skin and had to show through in spots because there was so much of it. Also they are so totally normal and it’s silly that people think they are ugly or just for pregnant people cause dude what.

I can’t see my collarbones and much and I love collarbones and now it’s just like a little secret but not really. You see them when I move a certain way. It’s a game of peek a boo with my bones

My elbows are less stabby. Better for hugs. Also why on earth do I have an extra elbow point but it’s cool and fun.

Not my body per se but who the fuck decided that “they look like they give nice hugs” is a backhanded compliment and rude because I refuse. Shut UP hugs have nothing to do with weight or whatever you’re trying to point out I’ve decided it means they have a nice smile and their eyes crinkle the right way. They look like they’d give you a hug and it would feel like home because they are a nice human. I feel like I could look like I give nice hugs when I smile.

Ankles are so interesting like my tendons have dissapeared a bit but also there’s that divot when I flex my ankle and how do you flex an ankle what is that even but they are so interesting

I like how the back of my ear feels where it meets my skull. It’s smooth.

Spines are so interesting why is there a line of indents down my back it feels so cool and makes me look like I have muscles or something but i don’t. I like my spine.

What is it with spines today?

Anyways what I’m trying to say is that I love my body it’s served me so well and it’s doing so good and I’m gonna keep fueling it;)

#guys i have no explanation for this #I swear I’m not on drugs my brain is just Like This #seeds in the garden #c how I circle #body posititivity #recovery is great #(I didn’t have a body or weight based ED I just struggled/struggle with the act of eating because food has Textures