#recovery mlm

[your-gay-grandma]

the older i get, the more convinced i become that even those who you think are the most capable, put together, organised and/or accomplished individuals probably either are or feel like they are pretending to know what they’re doing most of the time.

there are no set rules or obligations, no one path, no secret formula you are missing. life is terribly confusing and mysterious and that is half the joy of it! you are doing a terrific job navigating it at your pace and in your way. take your time.

and if i’m wrong and others do have it figured out, at the very least, you and i can pretend together. we’re okay - we’re in this together.

#your gay grandma #lgbtq #lgbt #lgbtqai #gay #lesbian #queer #sapphic #wlw #transgender #mlm #positivity #imposter syndrome #self love #recovery

[angelic-transsexual]

Things I learned post top surgery (peri edition) 5 days post-op

Being put to sleep and waking up wasn’t as scary I thought it was gonna be

Huge amounts of tightness and soreness in my chest area

Numb chest

Drains are annoying little bitches

T-Rex arms are real as fuck

I actually had a bit of trouble trying to pee the night I got home, it took my body a bit to get back to being able to pee normally

Neck pillows are both your friend and your enemy

Bad posture due to binder from hell

My back is sore from my bad posture and sleeping elevated

Applesauce is your best friend the first few days post-op

Liquid IV helped my sore throat from the tube they put down my throat

Car rides are a no

Help from others even if it’s just little things is a big yes

LOTS OF WATER

I got orange stained skin from something they put on my body during surgery, don’t know exactly what it is

I’m actually very slow at walking

Walking around every few hours is one of the best things you could do

You need assistance to bathe, and I couldn’t take a shower for 48 hrs after surgery

Wipes are your friend

Greasy hair is expected to

Flannels and sweatpants are the best clothing options

My hunger has been up and down, sometimes I’m super hungry and sometimes I’m barely hungry

Painkillers and Tylenol are your absolute best friend

#ftm #trans #transgender #queer #gay #transsexual #trans man #lgbt #trans male #ftm mlm #periareolar top surgery #top surgery #gender affirming surgery #surgery #top surgery recovery #post op #ftm surgery

[fella-lovin-fella]

feeling unwell today

#this just in #person with Extreme Fear of Abandonment Disorder fears abandonment #more at 5 #not mlm #bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd recovery #dantes talking again

[quietly-sweetly-yearning]

you make me want to be better. healthier. happier

#yearning #friendship #queerplatonic #qpr #mlm #wlw #nblnb #mlw #wlm #mlnb #nblm #wlnb #nblw #we're really feelin some recovery vibes tonight y'all #i am broken and i am hurting and i have become one with my grief and pain. but by gods. for you. for you i want to be more #i want to be soft for you. i want to chip away the edges of my hardened heart just to make room for you in it #y'know? y'know #tagged with a bit of everything bc yknow it can be anyone. friend partner lover. smth in between those smth outside. whoever #sometimes it's all about love and healing #gods im rambling anyways take the post

[pinbitch]

s8 would have been more fun if instead of getting a dog and a girlfriend sam joined a cult

#supernatural #sam winchester #and dean’s reaction? exactly the same #cults are extremely varied in their genres which gives us a lot of options #most obvious is religious but there’s a lot of wellness/health kinda cults that would suck sam right in #especially when he’s yknow. in recovery from psychosis #funniest option would be an mlm #are mlms cults you ask? yes. yes they are #hey did u know the actress who played tess was in a cult #wild shit she’s still listed as a client of the cult leader on imdb despite openly being like “yeah no she’s an abusive cult leader’’ #ANYWAY #do i think sam WOULD join a cult? not unless there’s mind control involved #do i think it would be funny? yes

[grumpytrans]

keep forgetting to post these 💘✨

#selfie #queer #lgbt #lgbtq #gay #nonbinary #nb #pride #trans #mlm #me #mine #self love #recovery

[s1l4s-l1k3s-t0m4t03s]

i felt really guilty abt eating sm but mike just messaged and said "im so proud of you today hands0me, you did so well. ily 💙"

dont mind me im just gonna cry-

#silas tag! #mikhail tag! #silas will recover #pro recovery #ed recovery #lgbtq positivity #gay mlm #i love my boyfriends #gay boys #queer

[build-a-boyf]

I love setting healthy boundaries with my boyfriend, and I love respecting his healthy boundaries as well, but can we also talk about working on being okay with certain boundaries because of rejection sensitive dysphoria to do with autism, adhd, and c-ptsd from familial situations and previous relationships? Like I said: I'm working on it, but there are a few that'll take me a while to get used to because even though it's not intended to be a rejection, my brain sometimes takes it as a rejection anyway because it's rude like that😅

#personal #t4t #t4t mlm #t4t nblm #t4t nblnb #healthy boundaries #relationship stuff #actually cptsd #cptsd recovery #living with cptsd #actually adhd #actually autistic #rejection sensitive dysphoria #relationship trauma

[angelic-transsexual]

i dont know if any other trans men/nonbinary people who have had top surgery have this same experience but ever since i got top surgery, every time i drink water i can just feel the water going down my chest inside my body. it feels oddly refreshing. it has made me want to drink water more simply for the feeling.

#ftm #trans #transgender #queer #gay #transsexual #trans man #lgbt #trans male #ftm mlm #ftm surgery #surgery recovery #top surgery #top surgery recovery

[fella-lovin-fella]

i was talking to my therapist and was saying how it shouldn't be so hard for me to do everything, that i feel like a failure because i cant get myself out of bed most days. and she told me "the 'D' in PTSD is 'disorder.' the 'D' in MDD is 'disorder.' the 'D' in BPD is 'disorder.' the 'D' in GAD is 'disorder.' if things weren't so hard for you, it wouldn't be a disorder." and like logically i knew that, but hearing it from her was relieving, i guess.

#mental health #mental health recovery #mental health reminders #bpd #ptsd #complex ptsd #not mlm #dantes talking again

[plagebringer]

i love life

#i love my boyfriend #ftm mlm #ftm4ftm #t4t mlm #boyfriend fell asleep #in love #recovery

[corazon-sanador]

13.02.23

I went for a walk last night. I hoped you would join me, but I never asked. I was never quite good at that, asking for what I wanted. But you were never good at knowing what I wanted to begin with. So I walked alone. I retraced the steps of our first walk together. I recounted the smiles and nervous laughter, the small talk before we finally felt comfortable enough to share parts of our souls. I stopped halfway towards my destination and looked up at the sky. There was no moon, there were no stars, not like the night we went, do you remember the stars? How beautifully they danced above us as we sat on a bench shivering from the cold but refusing to go back because we never wanted the night to end ? I do. All it takes is one glance at that bench and I can see us so vividly, before the fights and the heartbreak, before the deafening silence and harsh words, before the tears. When the only thing I cared about was showing you the constellations, learning about how you were afraid of the dark but with me you felt safe. I miss that. I miss you. But that you. I never finished the walk, after I stopped I asked myself what I was doing, why I was doing this. It’s clear isn’t it ? I’m still searching for you. I’m still trying to find a reason to stay, proof that this was a mistake and that there is still hope for us. But there isn’t and I’ve finally accepted that. We’re too different now, we’ve changed too much. It’s all for the better, I’m proud of who you’ve become and I’m sure you’re proud of me too, or at least you were. There is just no more room to grow together, we need to finish this journey alone. You know it’s true even if you hate me right now. Even if you hate me forever. You’ll forgive me one day. Please forgive me.

#J #excerpt from my book #literature #academia #poetry #love #writing #romance #dark academia #light academia #mlm #nblnb #nblm #mlnb #heartbreak #breakup #sad #heartbreak poetry #recovery #ex #growth #February