#regrettablewritings

[regrettablewritings]

Hi! May I request 2, 9, 12 and 13 for Poe?

Absolootely!

2) Who they want to please the most: Those boyish good looks and cocksure attitude make it easy to assume that the Resistance’s Gold Boy has nothing and nobody to prove himself to. However, this isn’t entirely true. Sure, he can be confident to the point of foolhardiness at times but it must be clarified that nearly everything Poe does (or attempts to do) is rooted in one way or another to his desire to see a task through and assure that whomever he’s doing it for is satisfied. Of course, the problem with that sort of ambition was just how stable it was; it was almost always assured to come back and bite the poor fellow at some point.

This was especially in cases where Leia Organa was involved.

Poe made no attempts to hide how much he admired the general, both as a leader and as a second motherly figure to him. And while his occasionally reckless attitude towards turning the tide would often be a thorn in her side, Leia knew deep down that this behavior was born out of love: The young man just wanted to see the war end and help to bring about a new era of peace and potential. It was admirable on a data pad, of course, but in practice . . . Suffice to say, she’d made it abundantly clear that she didn’t approve of it.

It might’ve taken longer than what she would’ve liked for the lessons to stick, but Poe did eventually yield and start acting more like the person she needed for him to be: A real leader, and not just some ace pilot who could fly in and out of problems. And for that, he was grateful: Leia Organa might not’ve been the one to teach him to fly, but it was through their bond that she was able to direct him towards a new purpose, one that the child version of him never would’ve imagined.

But with Leia gone, who was left?

His people, of course: Friends, chosen family, all one and the same to him after all they had endured together. He wants, no – he needs to protect them, to give them the life he knows they want and deserve. It pains him to know that it won’t be easy and that tough decisions have to be made in the face of it but at the end of the day, Poe genuinely wants to help bring people to happiness. He just can’t be the only one to deliver it, as much as he wishes he could.

9) What calms them when they're upset: If there was to be one word to describe Poe Dameron, the most apt would arguably be “passionate”. After all, it could be used in both the positive and the negative.

For the positive, it captures his dedication to whatever he puts his mind to; his smile that burned with the brightness of a golden sun; the infectious enthusiasm he tried his damndest to project to his crew. But for the negative, it carried just as much weight: The hits the Resistance took always seemed to hit even harder for him; the stress he bottled up was tenfold when compared to most others’ intake; and whenever that bottle finally cracked or straight up broke, how he’d respond could be fiery. He hadn’t done it as much as he marched onward in his adult years, but there had definitely been times in the past where his stress and anger got the better of him.

A mission he failed, a flight maneuver that resulted in more damage to his ship than what could be easily dealt with, grave news, and so on: His language becomes snappy and those gorgeous eyes of his would become icy cold. Occasionally, something would get damaged, be it something tangible or the overall vibe of the room in which he chooses to hover around in. Not helping his mood would be when someone (usually Leia) would have to pull him to the side and give him a firm reminder that he’s not the only one suffering. This wouldn’t be to diminish his feelings, but to instead remind him how he’s not alone in them: Everyone is just as upset as he is, and everyone wishes they could do more. He’s not alone in this. But he can’t keep acting out or else he will be, and people are relying on him.

They need to be sure that they can count on him. Leia needs to be sure that she can count on him.

Admittedly, he’d feel a bit ashamed upon grounding himself. Definitely embarrassed. But it’s something he keeps in mind whenever he feels the pressure inside rising.

This somewhat transforms once Leia passes, meaning that he relies more than ever on his peers to help ground him when he feels himself beginning to metaphorically rise to the atmosphere. In addition to this, however, he also tries to look more inward. That is, after all, where memories of what Leia and his own mother, Shara’s, voices are.

He can hear Leia, in her own brusque way, telling him to slow his ride and calm down. He can hear what he remembers his mother sounding like, reminding him that he needs to keep moving forward because if he dwells in whatever’s bothering him, he’ll never make it out. And while it may not necessarily calm Poe so much as it does motivate him to progress in spite of everything, it’s still a mechanism he turns to when he’s by himself.

In short, what grounds this high-flyer is being reminded of those whom he loves and knowing that he can count on them because they count on him.

12) How they sleep: When you are fighting in a war and especially are considered an enemy of the (tyrannical) state, you’re not exactly in a position where you can be especially picky about your sleeping arrangements. Not that Poe has ever been picky about such a thing. He’s not the most immediate of sleepers when compared to some, but he’s capable of eventually falling asleep if given an appropriate amount of time. Heck, give him enough time and he’ll eventually claw some rest out of a nap on top of gravel. It’ll be a very light sleep, of course, but that’s still a rather impressive feat all things considered.

When it comes to positions, he tends to sleep on his back. He usually has an arm tucked behind his head like a secondary pillow (or flat-out pillow if he can’t roll up a jacket). Light snores. If he’s tired enough, though, his mouth hangs open just enough to reveal his cute, crooked teeth.

13) What kind of parent they would be: When I use the phrase “Fun Dad”, what I’m referring to is Poe Dameron.

This guy is The Dad. In a modern setting, he’d be the guy to pick up his kid from kindergarten, buckle them up in the minivan, and go, “This is your captain speaking, prepare for lift off in 3 . . . 2 . . . 1!” And then safely pull out of the carpool lane while his kid gleefully squees and waves their hands in the air like their daddy is actually flying at the speed of light. The kind of dad who’ll take his kid to grab ice cream after the first day of school so they can tell him all about their day. The kind of dad who’ll bribe his kid into going back to bed if he lets them have half of a cookie while Mommy isn’t looking. (Mommy knows.)

But in the current setting? You know this man is teaching his kid how to fly as soon as his spouse says gives the okay (though he’s definitely reading them manuals and flight routines as bedtime stories before then). If flying isn’t their thing, he’ll be a bit saddened, but he’s not going to let that get in the way of them bonding. So then what are they into? He wants to know! They don’t know yet? He’s gonna help them find out!

I think part of what contributes to this enthusiasm is that as optimistic as Poe tried to be throughout the war, he still didn’t necessarily picture his life being like this. Or maybe he did, but it wasn’t until it actually happened that the weight of it all truly hit him. Either way, his kid is the absolute light of his life – the very best thing he ever did (and he only gives winning the war somewhat of the same credit because if he hadn’t, they might not’ve existed).

Speaking of, stories about the past are going to play a big role in his child’s life, be it from Poe telling them about his youth or about their late-honorary grandmother, or from their slew of aunts and uncles telling them about how Poe was during the Resistance. They’ll hear all kinds of stories about how brave their dad was, the crazy schemes he would get involved in – and unlike most kids, they would find it rather easy to believe, given that Poe would still hold most of the enthusiastic outlook as portrayed in the stories. Of course, he’s grown since then and doesn’t want his kid making the same reckless decisions he made.

However, that doesn’t mean he'll go overboard and shelter them: Mistakes, he’s come to accept, are a necessary part of growing up, and he doesn’t want his child to resent him for denying them the right to explore both the world around them and themselves. But if they wander too close to the edge, they can be assured that he’ll be there to pull them back into safety.

And, depending on how bad they messed up, scold them. (After which, it would hit him mercilessly that “Oh, sweet Maker, I’m becoming Leia.”)

Aaaaa sorry this came out so late but thank you so much for your patience!!!!

#poe dameron imagine #poe dameron imagines #regrettablewritings #character headcanons #poe dameron headcanon #poe dameron headcanons #Star Wars imagine #star wars headcanons

[chaneajoyyy]

BLACK WRITERS WHO (AND THEIR PAGE) ARE STILL ACTIVE (PART 3)

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@breanime

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@eriksspoiledbrat

@justsomewritingblog

@namjoonswifey99

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@regrettablewritings

#the bp plug #bp librarian at your service #let's chat #sip tea #talk fanfiction #talk black panther fanfiction #talk black panther writers #talk active pages #fanfiction #black panther fanfiction #marvel fanfiction #black panther writers #active pages

[locke-writes]

*slides into the inbox with the grace of an intoxicated gazelle* Heyo! 😉 I like to read your takes on Erik, so can I please request from the recent Ship Questions a bit of Erik x Reader? Specifically from the Love or Domestic Life sections (your choice!). Thank you very much!! ❤️ Regrettablewritings

You: Your choice!

My Indecisive Ass: Both? Maybe? Yes? Maybe? Both.

LOVE

Who said “I love you” first? - Erik did albeit with a ton of fear. He was certain that you would reject him yet he found himself becoming attached quickly. Not that this was shocking to you at all. Was it sudden? Perhaps, yet it only seemed right with Erik.

What are their primary love languages? For Erik it’s words of affirmation, for yourself it’s quality time

How often do they cuddle/engage in PDA? The question is more like, when don’t they? Ok that’s when Erik is composing or playing a piece but when that isn’t happening it’s pretty much nonstop all the time unless you let Erik know otherwise that you need some distance.

What are their favorite things to do together? You both enjoy music and it’s a moment of bonding whenever Erik has something new to play. He’ll invite you to sit at the bench with him while he plays. Often you find that you’re resting your head on his shoulder and letting your eyes close as you listen to the music

Who’s better at comforting the other? You are. Erik tries but he has no practice in that area but he’s learning specifically how to comfort you.

Who’s more protective? Erik is. It’s a habit that you understand the reason behind but are trying to break (or at least ease) do to the severity of the protectiveness

Do they prefer verbal or physical affection? Verbal for yourself but for Erik it’s a combination of both. Each are things he has limited (if any) experience with and that builds into a need of both.

What are some songs that apply to their relationship, in-universe or otherwise? I’d pull names out of a hat but that would be a disservice to anything Erik could come up with but. It’s literally most of what Erik writes

What kind of nicknames do they call each other? You call Erik by his name, it’s as much a nickname as anything since he’s most known as the Phantom. Nicknames seem intimate to some yet to you, saying his name is perhaps as intimate as it comes

DOMESTIC LIFE

If they get married, who proposes? - You would. It’s not that Erik doesn’t want to it’s simply the thought that there is no way you’d truly want to be with him for the rest of your life. He believes that it would be impossible for you to spend your days with him and you take it upon yourself to propose.

What’s the wedding like? Who attends? - It’s small. Erik makes connections through the opera house to have a priest perform the ceremony and he’s sworn to secrecy, never to reveal what he had been asked to do.

How many kids do they have, if any? What are they like? None. Not that you wouldn’t want any but with Erik being Erik it seems an injustice to bring children into a world where most of their lives would be spent in hiding

Do they have any pets? Most likely none but if Erik ever leaves the catacombs there would be room for birds, perhaps even a cat that lounges atop the piano where Erik writes

Who’s the stricter parent? If you were to have kids, it would be you. Erik knows that he should be strict, he should have rules, however with the live he lived (always under scrutiny and cruelty) he refuses to be anything but kind to your children and in this way believes he must let them discover what they must without rules to hinder them

Who kills the bugs in the house? Erik does. You’re not afraid (well not really) but you refuse to get near them

How do they celebrate holidays? Always small affairs, Erik plays music - most of which he’s written as he despises cliche holiday songs. The day isn’t spent rushing around performing traditional tasks it’s spent side by side with one another.

Who’s more likely to convince the other to come back to sleep in the morning? You try but fail. Erik often rises to the tune of the music flowing through his head and that can be at any given hour of the day.

Who’s the better cook? You are because you learned. Erik spent a lifetime being fed poorly before escaping to the opera house and then once arriving took to stealing food from the kitchens so he’s seen how to cook although he’s never attempted it himself

#asks #locke responds #regrettablewritings

[bullet-prooflove]

Rules: list your 10 favourite female characters, one per fandom, then tag 10 people

Tagged by @me-ladie

Prime Suspect - Jane Tennison

Elementary - Joan Watson

Strikeback - Gracie Novin

Chicagp PD - Kim Burgess

CSI Miami - Calleigh Duquense

Ocean's 8 - Debbie Ocean

MCU - Black Widow

MCU - Agent Carter

Rookie Blue - Gail Peck

Hawaii 5-0 - Kono Kalakaua

Tagging: @writefasttalkevenfaster @iworldlywriter @rawresparza @regrettablewritings @blackleatherjacketz

#csi miami #calleigh duquesne #oceans 8 #debbie ocean #rookie blue #gail peck #hawaii 5 0 #kono kalakaua #prime suspect #jane tennison #elementary #joan watson #agent carter #mcu #black widow #natasha romanoff

[niall2017]

July 2020 Masterlist

🌭 1.  Not What It Seems - peter parker x reader @hopesbarnes

☀️ 2. Most Wanted 5/8

🌭 3. Most Wanted 6/8

☀️ 4. Most Wanted 7/8

🌭 5.  Most Wanted 8/8

☀️ 6. Most Wanted epilogue - bucky barnes x reader @sgtjbuccky​

🌭 7. The Boy That Your Boy Hoped That You Would Avoid - bucky barnes x reader @stuckonjbbarnes​

☀️ 8. Dream A Little Dream Of Me - bucky barnes x reader @budapest-buddies​

🌭 9. The Swear Jar (p1) - mob!tom x reader 

☀️ 10.  The Cookie Jar (p2) - mob!tom x reader

🌭 11. The Tea Jar (p3) - mob!tom x reader

☀️ 12. The No-No Jar (p4) - mob!tom x reader

🌭 13. The Daddy Jars (p5) -mob!tom x reader

☀️ 14. The Dummy Jar (p6) - mob!tom x reader

🌭 15. The Christmas Jars (p7) - mob!tom x reader

☀️ 16. The Tantrum Jar (p8) - mob!tom x reader

🌭 17. The Candy Jar (p9) - mob!tom x reader

☀️ 18. Getting Back The Jars (p10) - mob!tom x reader

🌭 19. Until The End Of Jars (epi) - mob!tom x reader @liberty-barnes​

☀️ 20. Walk in the park - bucky barnes x reader @howardpotts​

🌭 21. Dean Being Cursed To Only Tell The Truth - dean winchester x reader @luci-in-trenchcoats​

☀️ 22. Abed Nadir and the Friend of a Friend - abed nadir x reader @ouat-in-spare-oom-of-rivendell​

🌭 23. Bubble Baths - bucky barnes x reader @seventven​

☀️ 24.Who are you? - loki x reader @lovermrjokerr​

🌭 25. You Share Thoughts with Your Soulmate - doctor strange x reader @regrettablewritings​

☀️ 26. Yay - loki x reader @justauthoring​

🌭 27. The Impossible - sherlock x reader @mca-attack21​

☀️ 28. Between the Lines masterlist - bucky barnes x reader @221bshrlocked​

🌭 29. xoxo, - 10 - bucky barnes x reader, scott lang x reader @buckysmischief​

☀️ 30. saturdays - bucky barnes x reader @irndad​

🌭 31. Modern Love- Wanda’s Reading - bucky barnes x reader @talesofsadhuman​

#Becca's Reblog Challenge #bucky barnes #steve rogers #thor odinson #loki laufeyson #tony stark #peter parker #stephen strange #bruce banner #winter soldier #captain america #sam wilson #falcon #iron man #doctor strange #hulk #clark kent #superman #bruce wayne #batman #arthur curry #aquaman #marvel #mcu #dc universe #fanfic #dean winchester #sam winchester #castiel #supernatural

[honeylikewords]

@anon!

i think your problem should be solved! i got a new theme (much more simplified, admittedly, but hopefully still accessible, readable, and good to look at!) and when i tested the logged out inbox, it looked good to me.

let me know if it works for you and, if it doesn’t, let @regrettablewritings​ know so she can relay that to me! but i do think it should work, and you can send in whatever it was that you originally wanted to tell me! 

thank you for letting me know about the issue in the first place, and i hope this resolves it!

#non fic #(im sorry i didn't hop on this sooner ive been Big Exhausted for the past few days)

[junieyes]

Tagged by: @regrettablewritings

The Gist: Put the music library of your choice on shuffle, then jot down the first 10 songs that come up. Then tag 10 people.

1. Don’t you (forget about me) - Simple Minds

2. Sugarcoat - George Ezra

3. Nothing - John Newman

4. Kiss N Tell - Kesha

5. Club Poor - Rynx and TMG (shut up, they’re funny alright )

6. One of the Drunks - Panic! At The Disco

7. I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles) - The Proclaimers

8. The Young and the Hopeless - Good Charlotte

9. Talk! - The 1975

10. Shake It Out - Florence and the Machine

I know. It’s so odd. I just used my entire library because I’m a rebel that doesn’t make playlists.

I tag: nobody because I know nobody on this site other than the one that tagged me LMAO

#tag meme #post 1/2of yearly quota #i have wide range of music taste #dont get me started on southern gothic/witchy music

[meri47]

Eight People I’d Like To Know Better Tag Game

I was tagged by @amusedyan

I’ve never been tagged in one of these before, so this was a pretty big shock for me! 

Name/Alias: Meri!

Birthday: June 16

Zodiac Sign: Gemini

Height: 5′4

Hobbies: I like to read manga and comic books, watch anime, and play video games! I also like to take hikes. My hobbies are pretty standard really.

Favorite colors: Blue! Especially shades of darker blue!

Favourite books: Watership Down, Tailchaser’s Song, Triss, Understood Betsy, Up a Road Slowly, the Harry Potter series!

Last song listened to: Walking in Memphis, by Marc Cohn

Last movie watched: Flatliners, the 2017 version! I didn’t like it as much as I hoped, though....

Inspiration for muse: I have no muse, unfortunately. I’m not much of a writer! I read a heck of a lot of fanfic however, and in a lot of fandoms!

Dream job: Government! Lots of options for good insurance, you can work anywhere, and you get great retirement benefits!

Meaning behind my URL: Meri was a nickname that a friend gave me when I was very young. I used it for the first real website I put time into, Neopets, and I’ve kept using it for pretty much every website I’ve been on since! If you see a Meri on another fansite it is quite probably me!

I’ll tag these people, if they feel like doing it I’d love to see what they’d write: @geekgirl101, @susiecarter, @thornfield13713, @dangerouscommiesubversive, @amarguerite, @regrettablewritings, @thefunindisfunctional, @zukana13731

#eight people i'd like to know better #ask meme #this was fun!

[the-kryomancer]

January Recommendations (woo an entire year of recommendations!)

Fanfics

Say Yes to Distress (Rafael Barba x reader) by @regrettablewritings

Art

A Moment’s Peace by @dreaminginpencil

Blogs

@deviantramblings Lauren is wonderful and kind and holy fuck is she good at writing! She’s kind of new to the DBH fandom but she has great work and a great personality. Check out her blog! She’s super nice and I’m glad she’s my friend!

TV

Gotham season 5

Music

Hidden Citizens

Two Steps From Hell

#january recommendations #monthly recommendations #monthlyrecommendations #recommendations #detroit become human #law & order svu

[bh6-fanfictionfeed]

Across the Multiple Universes: Soulmate AUs

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2zTblur

by Regrettablewritings

With an existence so vast and mindbogglingly strange, it stands to reason that there's no reason to be alone. Or that there's only one way to meet someone.

Words: 1354, Chapters: 4/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (Movies), Rogue One: A Star Wars Story (2016), Stranger Things - Fandom, Big Hero 6 (2014), Doctor Strange (2016), Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice, Justice League (2017)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/F, F/M, Gen

Relationships: Newt Scamander/Reader, Credence Barebone/Reader, Percival Graves/Reader, Finn (Star Wars)/Reader, Rey (Star Wars)/Reader, Bodhi Rook/Reader, Tadashi Hamada/Reader, Jonathan Byers/Reader, Stephen Strange/Reader, Doctor Strange/Reader, Kylo Ren/Reader, Bruce Wayne/Reader

Additional Tags: Soulmate-Identifying Marks, Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Soulmates, Mobster AU, Soulmate AU, Soulmate-Seeing Color When You First Meet, Soulmate-Sharing Thoughts, Soulmate-Sharing Sensations, Soulmate-Cannot Lie

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2zTblur

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #Big hero six fanfiction #big hero 6 fanfiction

[regrettablewritings]

1, 10, 12 and 24 for our grumpy captain of the rebellion Cassian? Thank you in advance!

I mean sure but be prepared for some angst cjefjdsj

1) Something this character is truly proud of: Pride and Cassian have a rather . . . complex relationship. Personally, he likes to think that he’s above that sort of arrogance, though he does unfortunately fall prey to the notion that he’s above others whom he personally deems aren’t “doing their part” in the time of war. After all, even though he’s a very “the ends justify the means” kind of guy, Cassian recognizes that he’s not exactly the nicest person. He’s had to do some pretty messed up stuff in the name of the Rebellion, things he sees as necessary but may deep down come to feel sickly over.

Not that he would let any of that show, of course.

Because at the end of the day, the one thing Cassian constantly holds a candle for is the fact that he’s spent so much of his life fighting for something bigger than himself. Of course, there were periods where he was just going through the motions, times even when he wanted nothing more than to run away from it all. But he’d quickly snap out of that because where could he even run to? Where was there some he could go that was free from the clutches of the Empire? Where could he go where his guilt over abandoning his people wouldn’t find him?

There simply wasn’t. And for a good while, he would feel ashamed for ever having thought of such treason against his crew, only for that to quickly be banished when he gazed upon the tired but determined faces of the Rebellion.

Some of them belonged to those who had been fighting longer than he’d been able to talk. Others were still young, still clinging to a hope that they might know what a galaxy without war looked like. Cassian had to uphold the image of determination, just as he had for all these years as he climbed the ranks.

There wasn’t much that a man like Cassian Andor had to his name. But if there was one thing he could keep with him, it was the knowledge that he was involved in something so massive that only a feeble mind would forget what all was there.

10) How they deal with pain: Oh, Cassian just Does Not, plain and simple. He takes all his pain (physical, mental, and emotional) and represses it like he’s a walking bottle of Daruvvian champagne. He’s been doing it for years and doesn’t plan on weening himself off that mechanism, predominately because he doesn’t see it as an issue. Never mind that it’s extraordinarily unhealthy, likely part of a vicious cycle of trauma, and just adding on to his ever-growing feelings of exhaustion and apathy.

Mon Mothma is, of course, constantly worried and gently tries to mind him about these tendencies but there’s really only so much she can do: How Cassian handles his personal issues is his own problem and unless they’re directly effecting his ability to enact protocol and missions, or are negatively affecting others on a drastic scale, there’s no real easy way to intervene. Not that there’s exactly a whole slew of professional mental help available on a Rebel base. (After all, medical droids can only provide so much help.)

Honestly, it takes the near-death experience on Scarif for Cassian to start opening up more – and it’s unfortunately due to everything crashing down on him, the weight of years of suppression finally becoming too much to bear.

Of course, he doesn’t exactly leap at the opportunity to expel these festering feelings. If anything, he initially is colder now more than ever, insisting that taking it easy even after something so traumatic would just slow them all down “when [they’re] already so close to the end”. Depending on how hard he insists, Mon might actually have to put her foot down and demand that he take time off to at least recover physically.

It would likely be during this recovery time that the visits with droids (and perhaps even a more humanoid specialist) that Cassian would slip in admissions of his thoughts and feelings between questions regarding his wounds. And not just his feelings as of recent – things that had been floating around in the muck of his mind since his youth: Concerns about himself and the future, his fears, his anxieties, how the heat of Scarif still burns at him when he tries to rest. How he was so used to the sound of blaster fire that it used to be white noise – until Scarif.

Part of him doesn’t like admitting these things. But the other part of him doesn’t care: He has to let go of this debris before it drags him in so deep that it would be as though he never left Scarif.

Is he certain he’ll ever leave the sandy beaches of Scarif? He doesn’t know. Isn’t sure he wants to know. But until then, he can’t help but give in to how his chest feels when he admits to the infirmary attendant that in last night’s dream, he didn’t make it off the planet.

It has nothing to do with the healing wound located on his abdomen.

12) How they sleep:

Unless you’re a high-ranking official within the Imperial Forces, there’s a very low likelihood you have what could be considered a decent sleep schedule, let alone sleeping space. Suffice to say, Cassian is like most who’ve gotten themselves involved in the war: He can and will sleep anywhere at any time if necessary. When he’s back on base, of course, there are quarters designated for resting. But sometimes even then he doesn’t make it to his cot: If need be, he will simply sleep in the hangar on his own ship. Wherever he can fit that is out of the way, time permitting, he’s going to find rest.

If he does get to sleep in his own bed, however, he’s very stiff. A back-rester. He really only winds up on his side if he’s had a particularly rough time getting to sleep. That being said, his expression is perhaps the most jarring feature of his: It’s calm for once, but Cassian’s features simultaneously look younger and older.

He looks younger because he’s not trying to force that cold countenance into place, not trying to put on this air of indifference with a devil-may-care attitude. But at the same time, because he’s not fighting back his worries and concerns, the lines that age and weariness carve into the face surface on his skin. The wear of the war blooms to the surface, making him appear somewhat paler with a hint of a furrowed brow. A more romantic-minded Rebel might come upon him and liken him to a sleeping prince . . .

Of course, this disappears the moment he wakes up and can recollect himself, forcing everything into tiptop shape worthy of a captain.

24) What they wish they could change about themselves: What do people think of when they think of Cassian Andor? Some picture a pretty face and a cold heart. Others think of bravery to the point of foolhardiness. The more merciful, however, tend to associate the man with confidence. Captain may not be the highest of ranks, but to rise to the position by one’s mid-twenties wasn’t anything to sniff at, after all: One needed to have plenty of strength to carry around that type of qualifying brass.

This does not mean, however, that there weren’t things Cassian wished he could improve upon.

Unfortunately, these things tended to be oriented around his emotions. More specifically, the ones he felt made him vulnerable. Cassian had never considered himself to be the most emotionally-driven person, even as a child, but why would he want to risk even that much? War was no place for things like berserker tears or savage cries, as often as he found himself laying in his cot at night with the backs of his eyes burning and his throat constricting with need. There were people that depended in the Rebellion, depended on him – he couldn’t let his own personal wants and needs get in the way of that. That would be selfish and, above all else, infinitely stupid.

For Cassian, the ends (no matter how ugly or brutal) justified the means. So if bottling everything he has inside was what it took to get just one step in the right direction, then he would do it.

. . . And then Scarif happened. Boy, did Scarif happen . . .

And for as much as the memories of bombs going off, of blaster fire surrounding him, of a blinding ray hurdling towards the beach rippled throughout his mind, the quiet it left him with was just as jarring. Deafening, almost.

The infirmary wing wasn’t necessarily quiet, per se, but it was nothing when compared to all he’d endured within the span of a few days. Even the bustle of the outside was preferable to this: Just lying there amongst the wounded and those who had been induced into comas to ease their healing process. Amongst the beeping of machinery and droids, the muttering amongst staff, there was just quiet. And Cassian wasn’t used to quiet.

He didn’t even think Jedha had left him with anything but disappointment but even when he managed to still his thoughts about the tropical paradise, memories of the desert moon were right there waiting for him.

Maker, was he always this tired? He didn’t know. And he dreaded to search inward for the answer; he’d gone inward plenty of times already these past few days, and he wasn’t sure he liked what he’d found: Fear, uncertainty, dread, exhaustion. Things a Cassian from the week previous would’ve scoffed at, denied ever feeling, would’ve just put aside before flying off into a storm of TIE-fighter blasts.

But when the Cassian of that moment couldn’t hop into his ship, couldn’t even excuse himself from the bed without medical personnel permission, it forced him to accept that, yes, these things were a part of him. And as much as he wanted to fight back, he just . . . couldn’t.

Maker. Maker, he was so fucking tired. Of this, of everything. And yet, he still wanted for something. Just not this.

It was quiet inside of him, probably the size of a pebble. A seed, really.

He wanted to be at peace with himself. He just wanted to sleep, to heal, to be better than he was before. Not for the sake of his peers (at least, not them alone), but for himself for once. Feeling like this – it didn’t feel filthy, but it did leave him feeling drained. How much of himself had been burned in the process of trying to keep everything down? Once again, he didn’t want to venture inside to know that. It was painful enough to come upon that kernel of acceptance, that he saw himself as broken.

It would take some time – more than he would have preferred, of course – but it would eventually click with Cassian that he was never broken; just human. Not a reprogrammed droid, not just a soldier, but a thinking and feeling human, vulnerabilities and all.

Thank you so much for your patience on this!!!

#me: I think I went too hard on the angst :/ #friend: don't worry people love a sad pretty boy they'll love that #she is not wrong tho #cassian andor hc #cassian andor #cassian andor imagine #cassian andor imagines #character ask meme #regrettablewritings #rogue one imagine #rogue one imagines #star wars headcanons #Star Wars imagine

[adragonstale]

mischief-with-sandra hat auf deinen Eintrag geantwortet: theshipperman: regrettablewritings: Okay now...

Unpopular opinion….but I love that Lucifer says Dearie me, instead of crass language. I have nothing against the word and it would be interesting to hear every once and a while, but it’s also hilarious whenever Lucifer says Dearie me, and I wouldn’t want to lose that about him.

It’s not unpopular. I love “Dearie me” or “Motherflunker” And all the other words. But I would love to hear Chloe swear from time to time, or Maze :D

#mischief-with-sandra

[locke-writes]

Recommending “Cobra Kai” not for actual writing purposes, but because I need somebody to suffer along with me. (On that, if you haven’t seen the first Karate Kid movie, you probably should. It’s not necessarily necessary, but it helps.) - Regrettablewritings

Karate Kid is actually one of those movies I refuse to see only because my dad is absolutely obsessed with it and will not shut up about it so if I can bring myself to get over my massive hatred of that movie only because it’s so revered by my dad I might end up getting into Cobra Kai.

On that note I know @moonlit-imagines has seen it and does write for it and could potentially be your suffer buddy

#asks #regrettablewritings #locke responds #ps I know what your main blog is so you don't gotta send anon asks anymore #unless you wanna keep up appearances #just saying

[bullet-prooflove]

Tagged by @iworldlywriter

Put your entire library on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, then tag 10 people:

1) Down With The Trumpets - Rizzle Kicks

2) Never Forget You - Noisettes

3) Baby - Clean Bandit

4) Let Them Talk - Kesha

5) Hella Good - No Doubt

6) Woke The Fuck Up - Jon Bellion

7) Long Live The Chief - Jidenna

8) Final Call - Noisettes

9) Scheibe - Lady Gaga

10) Roundtable Rival - Lindsey Stirling

Tagging: @me-ladie @rawresparza @regrettablewritings @raulruinedmylife @sonnshinecannoli @rauleesparzaa

[thefanficfaerie]

Rafael Barba End of Year Reading List

Tropes Soulmate AU Soulmates by @ohbelieveyoume Imagine Your Step-Counter Hitting Zero by @svuimagines Imagine Finding Your Soulmate’s Name on Your Wrist by @svuimagines Imagine seeing your name on your soulmate by @svuimagines Imagine your Soulmark telling you where you’ll meet your soulmate by @svuimagines Soulmates by @mrsrafaelbarba Snipped by @writefasttalkevenfaster​

Daddy!Character Barba & His Boy by @ohbelieveyoume Barba and his boy/Dinner by @ohbelieveyoume Papi Rafi and Surprises for Mami by @ohbelieveyoume  The Honorable Barba by @xemopeachx Missing Out by @xemopeachx Barba’s Sassy Daughter by @xemopeachx Firsts by @xemopeachx Counselor by @xemopeachx Good Cop, Bap Cop by @mrsrafaelbarba Father’s Teachings by @lt-sammi-matthews Elegir y entender (Choosing and Understanding) by @lt-sammi-matthews The People Erika Left Behind by @svubloods Waiting in the Wings by @mrsrafaelbarba Taking a Stand by @mrsrafaelbarba 

A/B/O Dynamics Being an Omega and Meeting Barba, an Alpha by @of-badges-and-guns Imagine an Alpha Barba by @svuimagines

Canon A Hard Lesson Series by @vintagemichelle91 and @rauliskafan A Chance Encounter by @vintagemichelle91 All Work, All Play by @ohbelieveyoume Home Again by @ohbelieveyoume The ADA and the Caterer by @rauliskafan Stand by Me by @xemopeachx Rainy Days and Mondays by @xemopeachx Barba and his Scruff by @xemopeachx NSFW How would Carmen React to Barba’s s/o by @ohbelieveyoume Imagine Kissing a Stranger at Midnight by @lawandordersvuimagine With All of Me, Part 2, Part 3 by @svu-stories I Love You by @svu-stories Mended by @svu-stories  Challenge Accepted by @lumosliterature Responding to Barba in Spanish by @svuimagines Some Things Are Meant To Be by @thatgirlwhosalwayssinging Not My Yacht by @mrsrafaelbarba Barba and the Beast by @mrsrafaelbarba Stranded by @imagines-for-the-fangirls-soul Homecooked by @hiddndaydreams Through the Years by @locke-writes A Little Break Never Hurt by @locke-writes Late Night Whispers by @musingsongbird  Goodnight Kiss by @writingdayandnight Late Night Desires by @minidodds NSFW She’s a Keeper by @miamorbarba Breathe. Grieve by @miamorbarba Stripulation by @regrettablewritings Was It Mistake by @evs14u Falling in Autumn by @evs14u Cuddles and Cocoa by @inconspicuous-esparza Hush, Part 2 by @8cetera Green, Green Dress by @ticktickbarba You Were Always on My Mind by @thatgirlwhosalwayssinging Babymoon on the Cape by @seekret-fanfic Professor Barba by @bcrbas Camp Hope by @nobodys-baby-now  Not Okay by @nobodys-baby-now Sassmaster by @writefasttalkevenfaster Comebacks by @writefasttalkevenfaster A Winter’s Gala by @writefasttalkevenfaster Too Late Now, Kitten by @ghostofachancewithyou NSFW Distraction by @ashes-and-angst NSFW Best of Wives and Best of Women by @lt-sammi-matthews Charity Event by @lt-sammi-matthews The Secrets We Keep by @propertyofpoeandbucky  Public Opinion by @bellelacyrain Realizations by @bellelacyrain Cuando está enfermo by @teatimefortiya Telling Olivia about meeting his Girlfriend’s mom by @mlhart 

#end of year reading list #rafael barba #rafael barba x reader #law and order: svu

[honeylikewords]

anon!!

i totally see your problem, now!! the reason it worked for @regrettablewritings and myself is because we were logged in; when i tested my inbox page on an incognito tab (and thus was auto-logged out), i saw exactly what you’re talking about!

it’s really late here, and thus not an ideal time for me to fiddle with code, but tomorrow, i’ll find a new theme and make sure i can access the inbox while logged out! that way, we’ll have it fixed for you!

i’m actually really glad you pointed this out, and by this time tomorrow, it should hopefully be resolved!

#non fic