I wanna go to bed but I can't till I'm finished what I have to do, so naturally in order to get the result I want, I'm sitting on my floor doing fucking nothing.
fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.
hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.
hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy
hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it
hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently
hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love
horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho
Watching 8-year-old Percy think his mom was trying to get rid of him for something he couldn’t control after we’ve already seen 12-year-old Percy try so hard to tell his mom that he tried to be “good” and feel so adamantly that something was wrong with him said so much about compounded experience and neurodivergent kids
lets go to sleep. but it will take you 30 minutes. is something wrong? oh, your positions uncomfy? well then, go change it. oops! you just lost half the sleep fuel you were saving up. oh, are you too sweaty? you might wanna do something about that. promise it wont take too much sleep meter to shuffle your blanket around a bit. oops! just drained some more. wanna remember that cringey thing you did when you were 10? yeahhh. hey. hey. hey. hey you. yeah you. i have something to tell you. you have to pee. and once youre done... oops! back to ground zero!!!!!!!!