She finally got the courage to scream everything she holds.
She kept, a lot of suffering inside, so when everything came out it was more like “words vomiting!”
She shouted: ”do you know why I’m like that! Why I got so many trust issues, why I’m scared! It’s because the only person I ever trusted betrayed me, he supposed to be my best friend yet he killed me inside”.
”Her eyes saw what once thought was a beautiful future in the arms of another woman, so proudly in the bed”.
It was all the people that stabbed her in the back when she hugged them from front.
It was all the bullying and ugly names. ￼
It was all the disappointment she felt when people gave up on her just because she was different!.
And all the pain and broken pieces that she carried around through different phases of life.
All of that created the wall that now guards her up. It what made her very closed off and quiet, not knowing who she should trust so she kept pushing everyone away.
She thought when she said her truth he would see the bigger picture or scream back at her I love you, I’m here for you! I’m not leaving! Yet he called her a drama queen!
Eventually, when he saw her darkness when he knew why she was very afraid, he gave up on her and took the easy way out without a word. And that thing she kept safe for so many years, shattered to millions of pieces.
God knows she never loved anyone but him, never wanted someone so bad except him.
Since then, that innocent version of her was gone.
Words I was terrified to write. 💭💜