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lilisette · 2 years

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so i mentioned that my arcana has a backstory... here it is! its very extensive with a lot of rohendel headcanons (blame smilegate for having almost ZERO lore for that place) so beware! this post is EXTREMELY long

im sorry i have chronic cant shut up syndrome

In one’s coming of age ceremony, only those who are the soul’s descendants may receive said soul, i.e., only Enviska’s descendants may receive her soul during their ceremony.

There are a few prominent families in Rohendel that claim they are Enviska’s descendants and they would also often say that Enviska’s Successor would be of their family someday.

While it is true that they are related to her in some way, they are related to her via Enviska’s siblings/cousins, not directly to her.

Enviska had a child once upon a time but she hid her child’s existence and identity due to the dangers of being her sole offspring. If society or her enemies ever learnt about said child, they would no doubt try to either cause harm to her baby or bombard her with proposals and offerings in hopes of linking their family with her. So Enviska hid her in order to keep her safe.

That child grew up and had a family of their own, and eventually her offspring would have Yerenia, Lyudmila’s mother, making Lyudmila a direct descendant of Enviska.

A lot of mages, including Inanna, kept track of Enviska’s bloodline in anticipation of the Successor. But since Enviska had done a great job hiding her child and the truth, no one knows that there was a direct line of descent, including Lyudmila and her mother themselves.

Lyudmila was born to Yerenia, a well known Arcanist. Her father belonged to one of the prominent families in Rohendel and Lyudmila’s parents were lovers until his family found out and forced them apart due to Yerenia not of noble blood, and her father married another woman instead.

Yerenia forgave him at first, thinking it was a decision that came from the head and not him. But later on she learnt that that was not the case and she was a mere plaything to him and nothing more.

She was outraged of course, by his betrayal and his family’s constant slander of her character. What’s worse was that she was pregnant and Rohendel being a conservative place, she was judged heavily for her pregnancy, on top of her former lover’s family’s slander.

Yerenia ran away to live in the outskirts of Xeneela, where the people would not judge her as they were also subject to discrimination as well.

The people of Xeneela weren’t strangers to foreign faces, as it was a common place for runaways to be whenever they wanted to escape the capital. But a pregnant woman seeking refuge was something they hadn’t seen before, so they took her in and soon enough, Yerenia had her child Lyudmila in the midst of the desolate Xeneelan landscape.

Despite living in such a dreadful place, they were happy living there. Until Yerenia passed away due to all the stress and inability to adapt to the hostile Xeneelan environment. The people of Xeneela took Lyudmila in and took care of her in her mother’s stead, with some former mages of Moonkeep teaching her everything they knew about magic.

Said mages eventually told her to go to the capital to seek further education as there was only so much they could teach her, with their deformed bodies and faulty mana due to the explosion. So with their blessing, Lyudmila set off for Rothun, the place that gave her mother so much grief.

Seeking an apprenticeship with her status as a Xeneelan was nigh impossible. A lot of mages thought she was the child of mages who caused the explosion and steered clear of her. Some who knew the truth of her background, also avoided her because she was an illegitimate child.

Lyudmila had a difficult time finding a mentor because of the discrimination. In a last ditch effort to garner the attention of a potential mentor, she joined a tournament to display her skills.

It wasn’t easy winning the tournament, but it was a victory nonetheless. Lyudmila hadn’t expected to win, much less gain the attention of Azena, of all people. But she did.

“You. You are from Xeneela.”

“Y-yes, your majesty.”

“Those cards of yours... Are you Yerenia’s child?”

“Yes. I-I am Lyudmila.”

“Interesting.” “Come to Sunkeep tomorrow morning. No talent like yours should be wasted.”

Having Azena as a mentor was tough. Lyudmila was constantly pushed to her limits but she wouldn’t have it any other way. She was absolutely terrified of Azena at first, with her cold demeanor and blunt criticism, but Lyudmila warmed up to her after a while, eventually aiding Azena with day to day affairs and administration as she grew older.

Despite being the queen’s apprentice and her hard work, many still saw her as that Xeneelan mage who tricked the queen or that illegitimate child that got lucky, and often sent snide remarks her way or hindered her work whenever Azena wasn’t around.

This treatment went on until Lyudmila’s coming of age ceremony, when everything changed. She went from that Xeneelan/bastard child, to Enviska’s Successor overnight. Those that once sneered at her groveled at her feet, begging for a second chance.

The family that her father was from, the family that did so much to her mother and her, came to her as well, offering her acceptance into the family and so much more.

If they had asked her years ago, when she was a mere child, she would have accepted it without any hesitation. All she had wanted then was to be accepted. She still has that same desire but after learning the truth of her mother’s silent tears every night, and having her hard work not recognized until she was announced as the Successor, something that had nothing to do with her work and was only Successor because of bloodline, she grew tired of it all. So with the queen’s blessing, she hopped on the next boat out of Rohendel in hopes of finding some place else that would accept her, and eventually makes her way to a place called Trua, where her destiny begins.

when i said extensive.... i really meant it lmao. i have a lot of rohendel related headcanons still but they’re not really relevant to her backstory so i didn’t add.

but yeah there you go, an unnecessarily long backstory for my arcana LOL

#lost ark #lost ark oc #ngl its very manhwa ish #i blame all the manhwas i read for her backstory #trope after trope after trope #but idc it is how it is LMFAO #theres a lot more in the middle but i dont want to make this post any longer soooo #feel free to ask if anyone is curious #theres probably some plotholes in her backstory that im not seeing #if there really is then welp #also yes her first meeting with azena is a parallel to thar's with ealyn #yes i am a sucker for parallels

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katiemcgrath · 6 years

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Young Uther Pendragon’s court

I conquered Camelot. I didn’t inherit this Kingdom, I won it.

#merlin #merlinedit #oui c'est moi back again with prequel edits only i care about #the truth is uther's court before ygraine's death was the golden age and that was that #this is a bit messy; i gave vivienne cornwall 'cause in the legends igrane's 1st husband was the duke of cornwall and morgana and arthur ar #related via their mother not their father i wanted that link 'cause her father in the show is called gorlois #i can't remember why i gave the de bois orkney...#it probs woulda' made more sense if i gave vivienne orkney 'cause then morgause would be of orkney but... i just liked that little gorlois #I just realised I spelt tristain wrong akh... oh well

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ashxketchum · 2 years

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Digidestined as Students at UA Academy:

Note: Feel free to disagree with this, I picked the quirks based on these little backstories I had planned for them or how much the vibe of the quirk matched the character, rather than the similarities between the MHA characters and the Digidestined!

Edit: Just realised that the graphic isn’t linked to this post, here’s the list of quirks 😅

Taichi: Once his quirk activates, he becomes the centre of attention everywhere and he truly enjoys every moment of it. He fools around and gets in trouble all the time, and never takes his surroundings seriously. Until one day during the last year of his Middle School, he goes too far and ends up facing a villain in a joke gone too far. The one who comes to his rescue then is his favourite teacher, Daigo, but unfortunately in making sure that Taichi gets out of the tussle alive, Daigo ends up losing his life. This is the turning point in Taichi’s life, and he makes up his mind to become a hero that saves people and swears to never let anyone else die in front of his eyes. He’s strong so of course at first he thinks UA will be a breeze, but he actually ends up placing 2nd in the entrance exam and gets another reality check. (Is obviously one of the Big Three later on.)

Yamato: His quirk is actually not related to either of his parents, and this causes a stir in the small countryside area that they live in. The people in their town are always spreading rumours about the legitimacy of him being his parent’s son or about his mother having cheated on. his father. Sick and tired of being ridiculed and having his family being put under this grim light, Yamato runs away from home at an early age. He enrols in UA with the aim to become a famous hero and shut everyone back home up for good once and for all. He is the strongest in his year and scores the 1st place in the entrance exam. (Obviously also in the Big Three and Taichi’s rival.)

Mimi: Due to how visually pleasing her quirk and Mimi herself is, she was recruited as a child actress and has always been a very popular celebrity since she was young. But as she grows up, she wants people to recognize her quirk and herself for strength and not beauty, so she enrols in UA to break away from the stereotype that she has carried with herself forever. She gets in via recommendation, and to her dismay most of the student body is too nervous to be friendly with her. (Also in the Big Three.)

Takeru: His memories of his brother are very hazy and he doesn’t recall the real reason Yamato just disappeared from home. After seeing him on television during the Sports Festival programme, Takeru decides to enrol into UA to find his brother and make him come back home. Yamato is very wary of him and doesn’t want Takeru to face any criticism at school so he maintains his distance but Takeru interprets this as Yamato not thinking him worthy enough for his attention, so he works even harder to be acknowledged by his brother.

Sora: She is actually very embarrassed of her quirk since she used to get bullied for it during her time at elementary and middle school, but her mother forces her to enrol at UA in hopes that her time there will help Sora overcome her fear of her quirk.

Koushiro: He’s actually one of the witnesses of the incident where Daigo dies and his impression of Taichi is very bad, but when he sees him on the television a year later during the Sports Festival and then in the news for Taichi’s efforts as an intern in a Hero Agency, Koushiro is taken aback by how much he has changed. He enrols in UA so he too can grow stronger and use his quirk for a better purpose, just like Taichi.

Jou: He’s not inclined to become a Hero, or towards violence in general but enrols at UA anyway since that’s a family tradition. At school the teachers are very impressed by how he’s able to rally the students and various classes together, a task most of the teachers fail at too, and suggest to him that he could always choose to work at UA after establishing himself as a hero, which seems appealing enough to Jou to make him continue with the course.

Hikari: She has pretty much lived in the shadow of her brother since she was little, and by enrolling in UA hopes to prove to her family and everyone around her that she’s just as strong as Taichi if not more. However, Taichi cant help but baby her every time he sees her and this usually ends up with Hikari avoiding him as much as possible at school.

#digimon #taichi yagami #yamato ishida #sora takenouchi #mimi tachikawa #koushiro izumi #jou kido #takeru takaishi #hikari yagami #digimon headcanon #digimon au #digimon x bnha #crossovers #writealot #posting this first so I can link it to the graphic

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kaypeace21 · 3 years

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Idk if this is possible or not or if you've done it already but could you list all the rainbow references in the show?

Haha- talk about pandora’s box. Sure, personally i think the rainbows have multiple meanings -3 meanings to to be exact

1) Rainbows being associated with psychics + Will’s powers plot twist

*We see in the stranger thing novel 'suspicious minds' when overusing powers you may hallucinate rainbows (which are also associated with the void/ monsters in the series) .

Terry: “Spots bloomed behind her eyelids. Every color … as the sunlight turned to rainbows” ( p44-45), “streaks of rainbow appeared (p47)”,“The rainbow stayed with Terry for a long while, but eventually it faded and in its place: darkness. A pit.”(p. 48).

Alice (who sees visions of the future) : “Snarling, snapping monsters,RAINBOW LIGHTS playing in the air around them” (p. 121).

cough Will being in the upsidedown/being chased by “monsters”. And Joyce communicating with Will via “rainbow lights.”

The rainbow room (from s2) also has a rainbow on the door- according to the novel kali drew that rainbow. Similar to Will's rainbow drawing. Kali in the book also creates a rainbow allusion with sunflowers (Terry ref).

Kali: “field of yellow sunflowers grew up around them. A rainbow arcing over the golden tops.” (p. 139). “He noticed she’d drawn up there, a rainbow with her colored pencils. Maybe he’d suggest that for the playroom” (the rainbow room we see in s2) (p. 298)

I also already talked about how Terry saying "breath, sunflower, rainbow " is actually a reference to s1 Will- here (in link including pic of Will and Terry being told to “breath”.

*El in s3 also thinks of papa, her mother , and the rainbow room- cause she sees a cereal box with a rainbow (on it).

Dustin and susie sing a song from the film adaption of the book "never ending story". Which indicates how Will is subconsciously creating the supernatural creatures & people in the series . Before they sing, we also see susie is next to a ‘wizard of oz’ posters & she reads & talks to Dustin about the book "wizard of earthsea'. 2 of the 3 examples have rainbow-related songs (in their film adaptions) & all 3 hint at Will’s powers.

* wizard of earthsea:

It’s about a pre-teen wizard named Ged who has a bowl cut (Will) who casts a powerful spell, but the spell goes awry and instead he releases a shadow creature (by opening a portal between the living & dead- Will is a zombie boy remember?)! The new Archmage, Gensher, describes the shadow as an ancient evil that wishes to possess Ged. But the ‘shadow’ turns out to be a representation of the darkest aspects of his personality. It’ only when he calls the shadow monster by his own name “Ged”(cough mf=will the wise) does the monster stop acting out. The only way to save the world is for ged to then merge with the shadow(and for Ged to accept himself-and “become whole”).This also reminds me of the “Jungian shadow”

* never ending story:

Bastian ( who has a bowl cut- and is from single parent house hold) subconsciously creates a fantasy world being over run by darkness (symbolizing the loss of hope and dreams). One of the characters he creates is Atreyu (El). Atreyu ( was the child deemed the ‘chosen one). “Atreyu is knocked into the sea of possibilities. There he wakes on the shore of abandoned ruins. And Gmorick (mindflayer) then latches his jaws onto Atreyu’s (El’s) leg.”Pretty much what happened to El.”The Empress in the story later tells Atreyu, that despite being told he was the chosen one (he never was). And that it was always Bastian (Will) who was the chosen one-since his imagination created Fantasia (so he’s the only way to stop the darkness from over -running it).”

Will has mental health issues and accidentally writes a “story” about the shadow monster (reflecting his tra*ma). Bastian is depressed (over his parent) and subconsciously creates a story about darkness over-running everything. Like how Hopper describes his depression- like a black hole.

song Dustin & Susie sing:

“Written on the pages is the answer to a never ending story” (cough the books susie referenced - are explaining the answer to what’s causing the mindflayer/upsidedown/the lab...this story )

“DREAM a dream. And what you DREAM will be” ( Will’s imagination making his nightmares come true)

“Rhymes that keep their secrets Will unfold behind the clouds.And there upon a RAINBOW Is the answer to a never ending story.”

(the lyric “rhymes that keep their SECRETS” purposely pans to Will both times the song is sung). Because the ‘SECRET’ is -he’s causing everything. And thus he’s the only way to stop it- or they’ll all be stuck in a never-ending story. The only way to stop it is for Will to face his shadow/the mindflayer (aka the other Will) who is always shown within the STORM CLOUDS . Will needs to create a RAINBOW (out of those storm clouds). Like rainbows that show up AFTER a storm.He’d do this by accepting himself , his tra*ma/mental health relating to his dad, and or his gay identity- then the story will be able to end.Dustin even says “ defeat his RAINBOW of DARKNESS” (and later says a “rainbow is the answer ”(to the story). st book:”The RAINBOW stayed with Terry for a long while, but eventually it faded and in its place: DARKNESS. A pit.”AKA: Will has to face his symbolic darkness and the storm/and than create a rainbow from it- for the story to end...

When Dustin says ‘rainbow of darkness’ he talks about my little pony- where one of their friends became a dragon. in d&d wizards can become dragons &Bastian also summons a dragon with his imagination powers in ‘never ending story’. And Will is associated with dragons: s1he has dragon comic & drawing, s2 Will has dragon poster in his room + watches his friends play dragon game. And again... dungeons & dragons.

Also tw for s.a/parental ab*se (so skip to ‘wizard of oz’ if you prefer ). In the 4th book of wizard of Eathsea (20 years after the original, where ged was the protagonist). The new main protagonist - was r*ped and burned by her father as a child (and in the sequel she became a dragon as a form of empowerment ). which goes with my lonnie theory-sadly.

*wizard of oz:

it’s about a Dorothy creating a mythical world based on people she both likes and dislikes . Dorothy sings in the movie a song about a ‘RAINBOW’ and references ‘DREAMS’ coming true in a mythical land -much like the ‘never ending story’ song (referencing “rainbows”/”dreams” coming to life).

“There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby Somewhere over the RAINBOW, Skies are blue, And the DREAMS that you dare to dream, really do come true...”

We see in s1 Hopper cop-partner calls the lab “emerald city”. Murray in s2 says people “don’t want to look behind the curtain” (to see what’s causing the supernatural -in the film what was literally behind the curtain was a wizard-cough like Will). We also have -lion, tiger, and bear stuffed animals (as a ‘lion, and tigers, and bears-oh my!’ quote )from the film. And David harbor (Hopper) when referencing the s4 rainbow room (quotes the song) and he also quotes a speech from Dorothy-when posting about the cabin the mindflayer destroyed.

2) Rainbow cups (hinting at Lonnie’s return)

We see 2 rainbow cups in the series.

in s2) when Mike & Will are sitting together & saying they’re “crazy together” . This cup next to them says “happy birthday” in rainbow. Later that season- they talk about Will’s birthday-rainbow drawing, Mike&Will meeting & Lonnie leaving. And in s2, we also see in Will’s room a card that says “sorry, I forgot your birthday”(most likely from Lonnie). So both Lonnie & Mike are associated with Will’s bday.

in s3) We see a woman yell “I don’t want her in my house!” (while she sits next to a rainbow cup). reminiscent of Joyce saying to Lonnie “get out of my house”. We also know there are rumors s4 takes place during Will’s birthday & Lonnie’s actor may have been spotted on set. Along with the fact (it’s pretty much confirmed) Mike will be visiting the Byers in s4. However, the woman (next to the rainbow cup) also says “2 visitor only. 2!″

THE 2 VISITORS ARE MIKE &LONNIE (for Will’s b day).

Also, in s3, when El is drinking from cup- she sees a rainbow. And what’s the first word she thinks of? “Papa.”

so rainbow+cup= shitty dads (lonnie & brenner) probably returning

*And of course if that’s the case -Lonnie (the same guy who called Will h*mophobic sl*rs) will not be supportive of Mike & Will’s “friendship”. And will not be nice to Mike (to say the least). Like... imagine Hopper in s3 - but we know he’s not bluffing and the audience won’t have the option to take it as a joke... and yes the s4 movies hint at that...

3) gay symbolism

First we have Mike wheeler. He in s1 has rainbows sheets, rainbow bedroom blinds , and in his basement there’s a heart propelled by a rainbow. This is like how in s3 Mike kisses El and there is a drawing that says "Mike'. And on the drawing is a heart propelled by a rainbow. I already explained how its symbolic of him trying to be straight/fighting his feelings for Will, but wherever he goes a rainbow still follows (even when he tries being romantic with El). He’s trying to hide his “rainbow heart” by dating El- why in s3 (the rainbow-heart in his basement) mysteriously disappeared from his room (but a similar symbol follows Mike even when he kisses El).

Even in s2 when talking about Will (in the AV tech room): Mike is placed in the center of 2 objects : an object with 11 on it & on the right a rainbow apple (this apple is supposed to be an ode to the gay father of computers- but also about the forbidden apple). Hinting at the love triangle of Mike (with El/Will). PLUS, in the ST book ‘worlds turned upsidedown’ they literally show Mike in the AV room- and put the caption “FALLING IN LOVE- with tech” (and placed rainbow flags next to the caption). And of course we have Mike & Will pose next to the rainbow apple- in the AV room.

We also see when Mike and Will says they’re “crazy together” (aka LOVE-as Flo stated) and they’re next to a rainbow cup that says Happy birthday .

And later that season they ref the rainbow ship Will drew for his birthday-which Joyce was "proud" of. And while dancing with a girl (Will according to the script was looking at Mike instead of her) . That girl is wearing a rainbow heart hair pin. This is essentially a parallel to Mike . Will (next to a rainbow heart) is dancing with a girl, but is secretly thinking of Mike. Mike (next to a rainbow heart) is kissing el but secretly thinking of Will (and immediately goes on a movie double date with Will after this). The lyrics of both these scenes indicate they're not happy pretending to be straight. The lyrics for Will are "every smile you fake". And Mike while kissing el is "just a little uncertainty can bring you down" (and during this lyric is when El puts her hands on him-and he removes her hands from him *aka he’s not as confident in the relationship as he pretends to be.

We see in s4 bts that the rainbow heart hair pin (worn by the girl Will dances with) is also worn by nancy while standing next to Robin (who is gay). So being near a ‘rainbow-heart’ is prob a hint a character is gay. Aka robin & Will & Mike.

tumblr user “awhstrangerthings” pointed out the nancy -hair clip detail.

In s1 when troy is calling Will h*mophobic sl*rs (in front of Mike) he wears a rainbow shirt. And max while often critiquing m*leven (in s3) (to Mike) often wears rainbow shirts. I talked about how I thought Troy and max subconsciously remind Mike he isn't straight - so they're associated with the rainbow iconography-post here. Like we see Max with rainbow sheets (like Mike) and than she immediately talks to him on the phone. I mean she could be queer- but I lean to that theory at the moment.

The whole being near rainbows when associating with a queer character makes sense (it’s like a ‘gay-dar”). Similar to Nancy’s hair clip when being near Robin/ that Girl having the same rainbow hair clip when dancing with Will. If we assume this theory than see a pattern with other characters (when speaking about/being near queer coded characters)....

it’s similar to how : When lucas (via subtext) criticizes m*leven- he is also next to a rainbow (in Erica's room). I explained here- why it’s about m*leven.

or when Jonathan says he’s going to hang out with Will (it’s near a rainbow).

This Jonathan moment -Is similar to when Steve ( who has a rainbow bandaid-from the Byers’ house) calls Mike “Nancy” (which is slang for a gay guy)

*another addition: you see in the comments of this post ghostgirlsatin mentioned Dart has a rainbow blanket. But, I noticed a couple of other things.

notice Dustin says "we have to talk- its about my friend ,Will". As Dustin is near rainbow lights and a rainbow bed sheet. Like how

A) rainbows are associated with the supernatural creatures + Will

B) rainbow lights associated with Will

C) rainbows near straight characters when talking about /near queer characters... similar to how Jonathan is near a rainbow when talking about Will

*also can’t tell if that is a ‘rainbow ship’ poster?

We also see Erica has a sunflower & rainbow drawing in her room... at the moment not sure if its just a random easteregg , foreshadowing something supernatural we're not aware of yet? or just for the m*leven diss?

(although given the fact i think some characters were created by Will- and given all the Max &Billy/Will & jonathan parallels ... the rainbow stuff may be a hint Will created them? I mean they even made a Troy comic just to show his dad is a bully.) But, at the moment, i still lean to (some) characters having rainbow iconography because they’re referring to/are near a queer character.

#will byers #byler #mike wheeler #dustin henderson #el hopper #lucas sinclair #max mayfield #steve harrington #robin buckley #nancy wheeler #jonathan byers #jim hopper #joyce byers #stranger things #stanger things theory

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deonideatta · 3 years

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Alright it's Vincenzo and fire meta time! I dont know if this is super obvious and I'm just repeating what everyone's already picked up on, but Solar's version of Adrenaline gave me the push I needed to write down my thoughts (Italian version >>> tho imo) so here goes. I apologize in advance for the length sflds this is my thoughts straight to the page so it went on for a while :')

We associate Vincenzo with fire almost from the first episode. From the get go, the first major thing we see Vincenzo do is burn down a vineyard, pretty nonchalantly. Then we establish his habit of fiddling with lighters, and to round it off he blows up Paolo's car. The fire imagery is there from the beginning. When he loses his temper he's fiery, he fights fire with fire, his birthday is on bonfire night, it's a pretty clear link. Yet, interestingly enough, as we get to know more about his character, it appears like he is mostly a very level-headed person when it comes to high stakes conflict, as seen in the court scenes and in scenes like the ones where he threatens Choi Myung Hee. In fact, his cool-headedness is one of the things Cha Young lists as one of his charms in ep8. He doesn't come off as hot-blooded as quickly as a character like Father Kim in The Fiery Priest, for example.

Besides the times when he's just annoyed angry over things like being robbed or the drama with Geumga plaza, we see him get seriously angry only over the emotions from seeing his mom (he yells at her, he lights a cigarette) over Hong Yu Chan's insistence on pursuing Babel despite the danger (he raises his voice on multiple occasions), and over the death of HYC (he throws a wine glass and then he has syringes stuck in JHS's pillow and he organizes the warehouse arson). Note how most of these things are accompanied by some use of a lighter (more on that later). Yet, times when he yells and cusses in Italian aside, in doing most of these things he's not very visibly aggressive? If you get what I mean. He's still almost cold/mechanical in the way he goes about it. Like the result of his anger is an inevitability; if you light a lighter you start a fire. This is seen when he gets angry over the vineyard owner's attitude (he doesn't lose his cool, he just burns down the vineyard) and Paolo's attempted assassination of him (he shoots the assassins calmly, he blows up Paolo's car and threatens him, he leaves italy). Even the actual act of the Babel arson isn't very fiery on Vincenzo's part.

The thing about Vincenzo though is that, much like the lighters which he constantly opens and closes without lighting, most of the time he's not always very openly fiery. As mentioned above the only times we see Vincenzo actually light a lighter are when he's truly angry. He opens and closes them to calm down, but occasionally instead of calming down he lights the lighter, and he burns down a vineyard or lights a cigarette. He says in ep 2 that being weak and feeling helpless make him angry, and perhaps that's why opening and closing a lighter helps him calm down, because it reminds him that he can do something, he can light the lighter if he chooses to.

A lot of his anger/bitterness goes back to him being abandoned by his mother, and we see that it's still a big deal for him because some of only times we see him lose a grip on his anger and have outbursts of emotion are in scenes related to his mom (when he comes to tell her no one will come visit her now, when she doesn't want to get treatment, early on when he's in the courtroom for her case). We see that momentary crack in his level-headed personality when it comes to his mom, and the cracks get larger the worse her condition gets. (I wonder how it will go if she dies? It seems like she might. Perhaps that'll push him over the edge). Being someone who doesn't like feeling helpless, the scenes where he's angry about his mom become all the more impactful because there's nothing he can do, he can light the lighter but all he can do with that light is light a cigarette. Notably we also see him get emotionally angry/agitated worrying over Hong Yu Chan's perseverance in fighting Babel, perhaps since he also comes to see HYC as a mentor/father figure. He was helpless again, he couldn't do anything to help his mother's sentence and he couldn't do anything to stop HYC and his eventual death. In all this we see that there is a marked contrast between fiery emotionally engaged angry Vincenzo and cool-headed business minded angry Vincenzo. The more dangerous of the two is arguably cool-headed angry Vincenzo, because this is the mode he enters after the initial burst of emotional anger, after which he hatches and executes another high stakes plan.

Which brings me back to Adrenaline. The lyric about wanting to leave so as not to cause hurt is there in both versions, but in english it's "Fire, rising up (to) higher, I'm burning up it's dire, I don't wanna hurt you so leave" (According to this translation of the Italian version the equivalent part in that one is "The fire (is) rising upwards, I'm burning slowly, Please leave me, I don't want to hurt you", more or less the same thing). At this point we're aware that Vincenzo has a lot of unresolved internal anger, but we aren't clear on the full extent of it yet. He effectively hides it behind smooth words and well thought out plans, but that doesn't change the fact that he's "burning up" with all that pent up anger (over his mother mostly, and now also over Babel to an extent), which is also "rising up" as he's reminded of his past and faces new challenges. It's only a matter of time until he hits burnout, or an explosion of some kind. If you think of it like a water balloon (idk i'm bad at coming up with metaphors), over time more and more things (abandonement issues, having to kill so many people, having to leave italy, frustrations surrounding the tenants, BabelTM, the death of Hong Yu Chan, meeting his mother again, hearing the truth about his mother's case first hand, his mother potentially dying, and so on) fill it up until bANG, it's too much and it bursts. Pent up anger is a ticking time bomb, and it's anyone's guess when he'll stop clicking the lighter open and shut and set the world on fire again. We'll either have Vincenzo overcome and learn to let go of his anger, or we'll get to see him truly snap and cause some real damage to his status as a non-fugitive and/or his relationships. Maybe some combination of both.

Interestingly though, we haven't seen him get directly really angry at Cha Young before, though they were very passive agressive in the earlier eps. This shows a difference in the way he sees her now and the way he saw Hong Yu Chan, she's willing to get her hands dirty and so even though they're still fighting the same Babel he's not as worried about her safety because she's a lot like him. And yet, assuming that Adrenaline is from Vincenzo's POV and the person he doesn't want to hurt is Cha Young, we can infer that Vincenzo knows full well the potential danger of his pent up anger, and that he cares enough about Cha Young to want to still keep a certain distance from her so as not to hurt her in the event that said anger leads to bigger trouble/more illegal high stakes plans/things she wouldn't approve of i.e hurting or killing people. We see that he is drawn to her (very obviously), and that he likes her (VERY OBVIOUSLY), but he doesn't want to burn her, hence scenes like the "villains don't deserve to love/love requires qualifications" scene. Fire can warm people, it can be a force for 'good' (for example, the revenge on Babel for its victims and Cha Young via the arson), but it can also destroy people. It looks like it is definitely eating away at Vincenzo, and he doesn't want the fire consuming him to burn those close to him.

He's done things that may or may not haunt him, and he may not deem himself worthy of love because of those things, but deep down I do think he wants to be loved, to have a home, to let go of his anger and be allowed to live without it. His initial plan was to get filthy rich and then run away, but like the monk said, unless he faces his anger, it'll follow him wherever he goes. Forests burn down and regrow naturally, but unnatural forest fires are hella destructive, it's all about how he handles his anger. Harness it and overcome it, or let it control him and eventually destroy him. Rn it looks like it torments him but he uses it to his advantage, as a driving force, but how sustainable is that? Each of the arsons are preceded by gasoline, what will serve as Vincenzo's gasoline and what will be the spark that sets him alight? Will Cha Young be the bucket of water that settles Vincenzo's flames, or will she be the bucket of gasoline that burns him to the ground? We'll just have to wait and see.

Pls interact it took me like a week to write all this :')

#if i've missed anything lmk #my schoolwork watching me neglect it to write this like 🧍‍♂️#doesn this count as eng lit work #yes it does #vincenzo #tvn kdrama #tvn vincenzo #kdrama meta #vincenzo meta #vincenzo kdrama #vincenzo cassano #hong cha young #kdrama

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I really need to scream about something, like full on, scorned women in a lifetime drama screaming, but that’d probably make me throw up, and maybe worry the neighbors.

So, recently I learned some things about my body and health, and as far as I can tell, there’s nothing I can do about it besides figure out how to deal with it. Unfortunately, every time I go looking for mental health resources that may cater to people who had this problem, the only things to come up are “Talking to your child’s pediatrician about precocious puberty” or “signs of precocious puberty”

So, because I’m frustrated, I can’t talk to my mom about it (my pediatrician mentioned it, but he never pressed my mother to go to a specialist. Which she took to mean it wasn’t something to really worry about. And her reaction to my current freaking out feels like indifference), I don’t have a proper endo appointment until almost February, and you have a big following, so maybe someone else can help.

Precocious puberty-

A largely benign condition in which aspects of puberty (secondary sex characteristics,) begin before roughly age nine.

Signs of precocious puberty are commonly:

-early growth of underarm, body, and pubic hair (I don’t remember ever not having body hair, the deep confusion and sense of otherness I felt when in summer camp we grouped up in the handicap stall to change faster is something I hate reminiscing on)

-early growth spurt (I was about 4’6”-4’8” in kindergarten, I’m about 5’6” now)

-acne (I started really getting it in third grade, but that’s also when my period started)

-adult body odor (something my father would not hesitate to remind me I had the once every six months I saw him before the divorce finalized and I had to see him 3 times a week, then he decided to continue to mention every time, even called child services on my mother when I hadn’t showered for a week.)

-precocious puberty can be controlled via hormone blockers until the appropriate age for puberty has been reached, and, from what I’ve seen, is the most commonly taken route

I say largely benign, but there have been studies showing links to increased chance of breast cancer in girls, and lower fertility in both boys and girls.

As well as stunted or strained social development, body dysmorphia/dysphoria, all around poor social development and a poor relationship with body image.

It effects roughly 1.5% of American children.

One of the most definitive ways to diagnose it is through an X-ray of the non dominant hand. The metacarpal and metatarsal bones being one of the most obvious places to identify bone development and minute wear.

My pediatric endo requested a hand x ray, he didn’t give me or my mom a reason.

I never got the X-ray done because he kept me on metformin and disregarded my concerns about shitting myself, because he was so focused on my weight, and I refused to go see him after I almost crapped at a high school football game.

It’s why my proportions are so gd skewed. My body did nearly all of its growing before it began producing proper androgen hormones, my shoulder to hip relation is nearly a straight fucking line.

I’ve got no tits, which I’m usually quite grateful for, but when I want to try femme clothes they never fit, because if it’s plus sized, there’s an automatic assumption that the person’s got more then a handful going on.

Where my frustration really lies is that my pediatric doctors were so obsessed with my weight, that their main focus was getting rid of it, and instead of looking for possible underlying causes (hypothyroidism, for example, which my adult endo found and diagnosed with one blood test) they all nearly bent over backwards to make it seem like it was my fault. To make it seem like I was being intentionally defiant to their suggestions.

And the one chance I had at getting a possible definitive answer when I possibly still had some control over the matter(highly unlikely, I stopped growing in like 7th grade, but who knows? Not me!!!) was not taken because of the doctor’s refusal to properly communicate.

Leading to a deterioration of trust on my end, and thus a refusal to continue seeing him

There’s nothing I can do about it now, obviously, I’m 21 and my growth plates likely fused when I was about 13.

But it leaves me so gd angry, I never got to be a kid my age because I was nearly 5 foot before I knew how to read.

I was hyperaware of my body before I even knew how it worked. I tried shaving in like second grade, in the hopes that it would make me feel normal.

And there is a chance this factored into my being in the “99 percentile” my whole life. My body was going through a janky half assed version of puberty, and instead of focusing on the fact that this four year old easily passes for 12 because they are NEARLY FIVE FEET TALL. They instead just kept telling me I needed to play sports or something, not seeming to grasp that at 5 years old and 100 smth pounds, it’s probably not the best idea to have this kid join a sport, cause, ya know, they weigh a good 30-50lbs more then their peers

I’ve tried talking to friends about it, but maybe my communication isn’t properly conveying the emotional distress this is giving me.

My mother, she seems indifferent, she says she’s trying to empathize but it doesn’t seem to be clicking for her either

And I don’t have an endo appointment until about February, and I know my doc is booked until then so I can’t see her sooner, but I can’t keep this bottled up until then.

Oh wow hun, I am so sorry that your parents and doctors failed you. I wish they would have been a bit better in that. I know that for myself puberty began around 10 and it was quick as fuck but I can't imagine it being that much sooner.

It's also sad that she's indifferent to the issues that you are going through now.

Also I hate, hate the medical fields tendency to disregard things that their patient is telling them is happening because it doesn't fit with the preconceived diagnosis that they have before they ever walk in the exam room. This will happen throughout your life and to be honest, I was very lucky to have such a fantastic pediatrician. She was mine and my brothers doctor when we were young and she saved my son's life when he was 2 months old when the ER doctor disregarded what I was telling. him the night before when I was in the ER with an infant with a 104 rectal temperature who was crying in his sleep and projectile vomiting.

The next best doctor I actually just met this month. She took the time to listen to me and my concerns and I walked out feeling validated.

Definitely advocate for yourself and if you feel like you are not being heard, shop for a new doctor.

Sending you tons of hugs, love!

💘💘💘💘

#real talk #tw medical

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hello i really loved your bnha headcanons about tokoyami and scarlet witch!reader. i was wondering if you’d do something similar for todoroki and bakugou except only the reader’s quirk is related to scarlet witch’s powers and she’s not really the character herself

Can do!

Shoto Todoroki:

Since your powers are very emotional based, Shoto would be the perfect person for you to date.

The reason why is because he’s so patient and also very powerful, so he’d not only be able to help soothe you but he’d also be able to hold his own if you ever, say, lost control of your powers.

Hopefully, no one is dumb enough to call you a villain or insult your quirk because if they cross you then they are also crossing Shoto. If you believe their words, expect Shoto to say otherwise.

“Your quirk doesn’t define who you are, you’re going to be an amazing hero, (Y/n).” He says, “I know it.”

You smiled softly at him before hugging him, “Thanks, Sho.”

I’m sorry but I love that mind-link idea where one person allows the other to have access to their mind ‘cause that’s just how much they trust them, so you and Shoto totally have that.

He’d totally help you cheat if he finds you struggling, you’d also comfort each other via. mindlink if one of you has a nightmare and unable to go to their dorm to comfort them, and the fact that one stare could be him having a full-on conversation with you.

He’s aware of how chaotic your quirk can be but he could care less, he’s powerful as well and isn’t worried about you hurting him, so you shouldn’t either.

“Shoto are you okay?” You asked as you ran over to him, “I’m still getting used to the energy projectile thing, I’m sorry if I hurt you.”

Shoto only smiled encouragingly at you, “You’re fine, (Y/n). You could never hurt me.”

Shoto couldn’t give two shits if his dad approved of you or not but to those who are curious, yes, Endeavour does approve of you.

Shoto loses a piece of his soul every time his father goes on tangents about how you and Shoto’s kids would be fucking gods. I mean, he isn’t wrong, though

Likes that you get along with his mom and that she seems to love you very much.

“I’m so glad you found her, Shoto.” She hummed happily as you blushed and hid your face in your boyfriend’s shoulder.

“I am, too.” Shoto smiled, resting his head on yours.

Precious, just a precious and loving relationship.

Katsuki Bakugo:

For those of you who are curious to see what happens when a tornado meets a volcano-

Kidding but since Bakugo is a very...passionate individual, he is bound to get on your nerves at least once or twice and might’ve caused you to accidentally lose control of your powers. Still,

Like Shoto, no one is allowed to call you a ‘villain’ or insult your quirk because then their also insulting Bakugo and who in their right mind wants to insult Bakugo? Exactly, no one.

“If you're bold enough to say it my girlfriend then you should be bold enough to say it to my face, too, bitch,” Bakugo growled.

“Seriously, Katsu, he’s fine!” You said as you tried to stop your boyfriend from killing the poor Class 1-B student.

You know that wholesome mind-link idea? Yeah, no, that’s not happening with Katsuki.

Because for some reason, his thoughts are louder than how he usually is and it’s really just so distracting to you. That and because he’s kinda whipped for you but he doesn’t want you to know that. You totally do, though.

If you’re struggling, he’d help you study and get better at whatever subject your struggling in.

Also aware of how powerful you are, one of the main reasons he was so drawn to you, but he’s also very competitive. So when you two fight against each other, he wants you to go all out, and you’re kinda like ‘okay but you’re going to get hurt.’

Then he has the audacity to be like ‘woah, how could this happen???’ when you do hurt him during training. He won’t let you apologize to him, though.

“Katsu! I am so sorry, that attack was so violent-” He cut you off with a single glance, “Don’t apologize, idiot, I wanted you to go all out and I couldn’t handle it. It was my fault but don’t expect it to happen again.”

It happens again but that’s fine.

His parents love you and will totally pester him about bringing you over or just constantly ask him about you.

It’s his mother that really smother’s you with attention. Especially since she thinks that you and bakugo are gonna get married and be together forever ( I mean, Bakugo already knows that’s gonna happen, but he doesn’t need his mom telling you his master plan.)

“You’re like the daughter I always wanted! I hope my grandgirls will be as pretty as you!” Mitsuki gushed.

“HAG, SHUT THE HELL UP!” Bakugo growled as you hid your blushing face in your hands.

You two are a literal power couple so RIP to anyone who tries to go against you two.

#bakugo x reader #Bakugo Katsuki #Katsuki x reader #Shoto todoroki x reader #Todoroki x reader #Shoto x reader #MHA x reader #BNHA x reader #MHA x you #BNHA x you #i only date heroes #Answering your lovely requests!#hope you all enjoy #Scarlet Witch! Reader #Bakugo x you #Shoto x you #BNHA imagines #MHA imagines

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sirjustice1357 · 3 years

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Still am Hindu or this tribe and that, fuck off dude, get the below or refute to face da consiquences

Who is the mother of Jesus and is she still alive and where working and same to his father Joseph and answers given dude

Who will get to hell 1st and why and who live in the most beautiful 100 houses in a city and the rich per state, city or nation?

Who sending criminals to ambush Nelson at Migosi home and those who have with them guns and grenades or missile drone?

Do heaven has a ghetto and foods and what kind of foods not eaten dude and where is heaven from earth in distance and bearing and can u get there and they are how many heavens?

Is Jesus Gods son or not, do God loves him or not or is he devil and is he more than Nelson Northwhitehead or not?

Was the bible write and who wrote the bible and if in other languages which 1 per bible book

Even with past songs gotten from which planets even with books, poems and building designs and the name of those who sang such dude all given bro

Even every invention know who came out with it from the mind or asked Mr devil as above and do God knows how to make same as devil and can he tell u the methods as above and who created Mr DEVIL and God, all given to ya dude and all the women ready to have kebi kids and the most beautiful places cities on earth and underlying reasons why

Reason why Nairobi structures are beautiful, what they use to mix the concrete paint with and what cities in list will collapse if Europe betting eliminated and those personalities who have gained much with betting to be rich and structures in each city built with the same and if all cities of the world uses what Nairobi uses with paint and concrete which will be most livable and beautiful dude?

And ask which metropolitan city are best to live or pretty and which City CBD are good looking and why

Ask all the sons, daughters to Musicians live Mavado, raila, Nelly, TI, Murphy lee, Ja Rule and chingy and more and told so such tree-o logy cut down and destroyed and they rejoin and create like food jealousy among those not with their genes, good to be corrected by Kebi dude. Ask is Andrea or aliyah sister to kebi and why she died in a plane crash, answer should not leave Denver as those who wants to to get to heaven out of stories hard are thrown unto hell unto the hind Conner as they get to Denver via the magma and reincarnated to be in Denver with warnings, if u leaves u freeze inside plane or turn to salt lest with permission and if u want not to be in fire for 60 days to Denver u opt 4 Minneapolis and same indictment as with Denver, u get out of its environs not and u can ask Mr DEVIL which cities u can visit as asked above

Ask who shot aliyah in the plane and they were with who and why dude?

And ask who placed Amoeba into Nelson System and why and they were with who and who made it to Kenya to hand over kebi, injected with anesthesia to Eunice via JKIA airport and at what cities nelson was taken from birth place Topeka to reach Nairobi then to Kisumu and reasons 4 relocations and the consequences to Kebi, Denver and those people involved in the same sad happening

Ask where do the devil leaves under which lake and has kebi visited him and how many times and the staircase to devil destiny is at which building and answers given bro. Ask also who was Chizi mkuu and lived where during which time dispensation and which songs are his currently sang and of maya anjolie, Paul tilich, goeth, secretes, emanual Kant and all philosophers as googled dude and poems and books and where they lived longtime in current places dude

Ask instant killer amoeba medicine and u will be given dude, even mango juice and sewer water, urine of all ages or every age bracket, cat feces/urine mixed with cement to infuse a good spirit with buildings as in Nairobi, Ask the sons of King David and given and their sons and great great grand sons and their wives as much as David all wives current cities they are in and their graves and where was the king Accolade and where David saw Uriah bathing and who was Uriah and the soldiers, whether Uriah died or David was cheated and he took a flight to another land and where they were born bro and ask all men in love with nelson wanting his booty or kiss him or touch his manhood and all even international women in love with nelson and answers given dude

When u opt 4 stir method the flowers or foods made or machines or necessities made in the boom process do not halt the brain as safe and a thing why nations like UK continue to buy flowers though they can make artificial such with side effect as above and u can ask cause i have asked dude, a good thing dude to end Kenya flower thing and promise of be rich than other lands if both makes machines and foods they imported so left with Tea and flowers to export other nations has not taming Kenya rich b4 time knowing them alone will amount to the same.

Ask which countries each Kenya tribe or of other nations or in collaboration planning to attack and why and where their military arsenal are hidden to destroy and answers given dude

Ask where one can live and nations he love most and those reciprocating the same dude

Ask all the personality of bible current location whether live or dead, their parents and lovers or kids and given dude and the exact places in modern cities their occupancy where previously and given dude, no jokes seriousi dude

Ask those who want not to hustle and wants people food and even 4 infants and given bro. Ask which method of making artificial foods the best as with flowers and inquire the process of making such as the heap combination, boom area and the time and ask which padlock is the best as per now in list form and given dude

Ask how many years one takes to burn up in hell to atrophy and the temperature and if getting to Denver as above the temperature across the movements to Denver and if their are machines in heaven and sex or marriage and how many wives can 1 have and the size of the Manson Christ described dude. Denver sold Kebi that it shy people from taking alcohol as induced that spirit so taken to many Cities across the USA to find out b4 Judy Marie and T.I place Amoeba in his system with Orengo and Raila bro

Ask will killing Kebi take them anywhere and what they want to do with NELSON ID card they are eager to steal with the police and ask can Kenya be rich than USA and in which areas explained and which is the richest USA state or Nation and why dude instead of everyday debate to no avail dude

Is JAMAICA rich than KENYA ask that question and answers given why and how

Ask is Zanel and Gloria Apondi friend with Moseti and James Christ in appearance and why Nelson was Following him, did he give him a tint or clue and answers given. Gloria was No 1 and left or the 1 following her was impersonator of NELSON KEVIN and who dellan or frankline osoro is and as above answers given instead of reproach and too much words to no avail.

Ask who wrote fasihi and the best writer in the world currently and who gives the best written speeches to dignitaries or stolen and answers given. And ask who knows how to dress but in pretense to get by in the whole world list in Genes and official wear and answers given, stop the shit/beef with him and ask who worn the first bracelet powered capes in Bosnia and Ny and answers given dude b4 step on CD method dude

And ask who or which categories of people started every cities of the world or nations and u will get to know am telling the truth bro and ask who are printing fake monies to inject into the system and list of names given and even those in custody of guns and ammunition dude

Ask at what height can each crop grow in seas and using the stay in air drones 4 like 5 years add soil above the from the end tips and side connect to chain as of Gold with tea, of bronze with flowers of Zinc with maize and with wheat of copper rye of bronze mixed with gold and such cash crops grows dude and investigate with others to save ya export dude and if the altitude below water use like the Norwegian bridge in water technology inside armored big glass containers with pipes to circulate air with controlled temperatures as green house to grow the same dude as in the links below

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nyOk7Q8G19s

Ask is white man superior the NELSON and answers given and which planets beautiful per list and the hottest, coolest or big as with land mass or water body and given dude

Ask with using not air thermometer but using body thermometer the temperatures of every planet land mass and of earth to get to know how it feels when its said its hot cause the 2 are different sets and in 1 degree in body thermometer is how many such degrees in air thermometer

If u sleep with ya cousin or related to it grows ya head big and along time b4 the above explanation and truths such were known that way or sprinkle type of male sexual ejaculation, so get advice if u experience such dude

Ask which airport good in the globe list and why and which city built on the hill will be tolerable than the former during the Judgement day and reason why and what will the devil do to make the above sentiment a reality dude and ask which people are insane or blind and why so per area code and ask which cities one has been to or passed and given dude

Ask where u get if u want to worship the devil and in which attires and who gets there within ya city dude and ask the best song currently in English and ask who are jew and dictate those who are jew if they are lazy, special or industrious or not and answers give bro and ask if people should get to church or stop and reasons why many are forced with the same and corrections needed to be done to make church a church not a little club of fashion show. Ask who did fashion show in churches and name list given even black mailers

Ask where each and every chemical or mineral is within the world cities or any location with longitude and latitude cross section and gives

Ask which country women are pretty, good or beautiful as same with men and the reasons why and given dude and ask is Jesus Christ PG was artificial insemination and if the mother was drunk done with who, who impersonate and answer given and if Jesus Christ teachings were paraphrased and who flew as got the same not to heaven but into the sky to delude the discipline that he is resurrected Christ and answers given dude instead of everyday bible study those wanting foods and drinks a thing Kebi could not saying not even in disgust of what they did with friends in many house

Ask why they want nelson northwhitehead with them dearly yet not their race and why the deported him and who enabled the same dude and reasons 4 the same bro, dude it will be shooting as in the movie link below bro

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=in+which+movies+ti+features

The great dragon will be brought down, killed out of Kebi system, 4 relaying wrong results as its purpose it to record all the undertakings of the person in them and relay but now its medication hard to find unearthed or how it can be killed which has disturbed people 4 long with success but now handy as Amoeba drug dude as always portrayed dude

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sirjustice1358 · 3 years

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Still am this & that tribe, dude style up bro