So much can change in just two years. I’ve found my person. I haven’t been on here in a while. I find I only come on here when I’m in my feelings in a negative way. When I’m happy, I don’t have it all bottled up and don’t need the outlet. It was interesting to read back my older posts. Just seeing the feelings of worthlessness, despair and insecurity during and after my previous relationship.
I do remember those dark days. It truly felt like I was going to be alone forever. Like I would never find another who could reciprocate the way I loved him. I was desperate to be loved.
Now, those feelings and thoughts don’t even come to mind. I have not once questioned my relationship with Andrew. I know he loves me with his whole heart and he always makes me feel like I’m enough. He makes me feel beautiful even with no makeup on and when I’m having a terrible body image day. He can talk about a tube of chapstick and have me laughing, he’s so funny without even trying.
Sometimes I think back on my previous relationship with Josh and think he’s now an attorney, he recently bought a condo and a Jaguar. He had so much to offer. And then I think back on the actual relationship that had zero trust, lots of insecurity and sadness and realize I wouldn’t trade what I have with andrew for the world. We may not have everything, but we have each other to get through this crazy thing called life. And that’s all we need ❤️