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#relatives fame supporting me and quietly hope i will miraculously change my mind and run back to university to feel inadequate and miserable
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3 years
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#sorry im just venting once again ignore me pls i just need to scream into the void because if i dont i think im going to completely lose it
#its 9 am i already had a huge fight with my mom
#she said she was gonna go out and i asked her to be back in time to make lunch because i have too much work to do and she kept avoiding
#answering and it exasperated me because she always always does it on purpose to get back when its too late for her to cook and i started
#yelling that im stressed and exasperated and ive been working on assignments that i dont like and im still not done
#and she was like ‘so this school was a mistake u dont like it’ and i lost it. i lost it. she is so stupid i hate her
#i yelled at her ‘its a THREE year course of course theres gonna be assignments that i dont like’ and she replied ‘u said u were gonna do
#one year for now. so u definitively decided u arent going to get ur masters degree in biotech’ and i swear she wakes up a rage in me that
#i cant control i fucking hate her she is always either one extreme or the other like she takes three words from ur sentence and uses those
#to get to an extreme conclusion l
#like i already feel lost enough
#im so scared of everything and i feel like a failure but i tried this course because i felt just as lost and out of place while i was
#studying biotech
#and i tried to give myself another chance and i feel insecure about it but i felt i needed to give it a try
#and she always ALWAYS says the wrong thing like i just need some support and people not questioning my life choices
#i was depressed and suicidal all three years of university i thought this could be a change that would help make me feel better about being
#alive and im so stressed and of course im depressed still but im trying to give myself a chance and its so fucking hard and i know my
#relatives fame supporting me and quietly hope i will miraculously change my mind and run back to university to feel inadequate and miserable
#again.....
#(*fake)
#i just thought my mom didnt really but she just proved she does and besides that the way its IMPOSSIBLE to have a logical discussion with
#her makes me lose my goddamn mind
#this conversation alone triggered so much
#im tired of feeling like this. im tired of existing
#god i cant stop crying
#i feel so suicidal its overwhelming
#i cant deal with all of this anymore. im so so tired
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