#remember to take ur meds if u need them!!!

[lunarsluttymoon]

Epithet side effect headcanons that somehow turned into disability stuff while I was writing 👍👍 (these are kinda angsty I did not intend for that to happen but uh here we are—)

Molly — sometimes if she overuses her epithet, it can almost “nullify” her mind in a sense, giving her short-term memory problems on occasion. Usually it’s mild and doesn’t have much effect, just normal everyday forgetfulness, but when it’s bad, her head gets really fuzzy and she can’t focus or remember anything, she gets awful migraines and headaches, and she has a sort of feverish mind (y’know like when you’re so sick ur head feels Weird and u can’t Brain right). It’ll go away pretty quickly as long as she rests, but uh. We know she ain’t getting much of that.

It’s really Stressful and frustrating for her, because she KNOWS she forgot something but she can’t remember WHAT in the slightest.

This doesn’t happen very often thankfully since she doesn’t strain her epithet much, it’s like a once-every-few-months kinda thing.

Giovanni — got this one from a fic, Giovanni has a lot of sodium in his blood (cause soup, salty) which gives him wonky blood pressure, and it causes chronic nosebleeds. I like this one a lot cause I used to get nosebleeds on like a weekly, and in the summer, daily basis as a kid.

He got his first nosebleed in late spring when he was about 5 or so, just running around outside. He didn’t notice (and trust me when I say it can be HARD to notice) for a LOOONGGGG time. He ended up losing a LOT of blood. When you get a nosebleed it can sometimes run down into your throat and you’ll start spitting up blood it’s Uncomfortable and Gross. Anyways he went back home, went “hi moms :3 *soaked in blood, choking up blood*” andddd they Freaked Out.

He’s anemic because of it, and has to take iron meds. If he forgets to take them he gets really dizzy, and if it’s particularly bad, he can faint.

Sylvie — Narcolepsy. And insomnia. You can have both (and from what I know, they often go hand-in-hand), and he is Not having a good time.

He’s exhausted during the day, he tries to take stimulants to stay up but they don’t always work. When it’s night, he can’t go to sleep for the life of him, and if he does, he wakes up very often. It’s Not Fun. Sometimes he just gives up, and sleeps all day, then works all night.

Mera — We know the side effects, but I’m gonna mess with it a bit (aka I’m projecting). The muscles around her joints are really weak and frail, meaning it’s looser, so she has Hypermobility. Possibly also Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. She’s got a lot of joint pain on top of her regular pain.

She’s got it b a d, if lifts her arm up too high it’ll jerk and she’ll be like “oh yup. Dislocated again.”

She’s absolutely COVERED in bruises and scars, whenever she has to get stitches it constantly tears. She heals horribly. She’s starting to develop arthritis as well.

Medication usually doesn’t do anything for hypermobility related pain, if you’re lucky it’ll take the edge off. Indus helps her out with heatpads and stuff, but other than that, she just has to tough it out.

Indus — nothing. Have u seen this man?? He probably drinks disgusting high vitamin smoothies every morning, he eats full proper meals, dude is in PEAK CONDITION. If he did have any side effects it would be completely negated by his sheer healthiness. Diseases and conditions fear him.

He is however that One Person who is prepared for Everything and will help u if u need it. He carries medication and heatpads for Mera in case she forgets them, as well as bandaids and antiseptic wipes. He’s just a Good fella… <33

#‘that’s unrealistic there’s no way so many of the characters would be disabled’ I don’t careeeeeeee #idc if it’s UNREALISTIC #it’s unrealistic for people to be able to turn into gold and materialize soup out of nothing but your not complaining about that are you #I’ve seen too many people starting shit about disability headcanons #I’m physically disabled don’t start shit about this. #epithet erased #molly blyndeff #giovanni potage #sylvester ashling #sylvie ashling #mera salamin #indus tarbella #headcanons #epithet erased headcanons #disability #i’ll do redwood run characters later

[chocotonez]

skz love languages: acts of service

a/n: I have so many ideas yet none exist in my head,,that’s not meant to be poetic it just means I struggled with some of these

genre/warnings: I don’t think there’s any, gn reader (should be, pls tell me if there’s anything implying otherwise!!), swearing, guys I promise I know my grammar I just like casual language for my hcs

chan

-okay these will be short and sweet because I have so many thoughts

-folds your clothes along with his, or washes your laundry with his

-remembers your schedule so he can remind you of important events

-gives you tips if you ever go to the gym together and shares his water with you

-blows on hot food before he gives it to you

-takes photos of things he remembered you talking about when he’s at the store and asks if you want it

-holds your hands in his when it’s cold and rubs them to warm them up!!

-brings you water/snacks if you’re studying/working with little notes on them saying ur doing a good job <3

-brings extra tissues or lip balm or hand sanitizer just in case you need it

minho

-okay this is kinda niche but like clearing out your phone tabs or compter tabs and scolding you if you have a messy layout or smth like that

-texts reminders to you regularly, drink water, eat, take meds, clean your desk when you get home…

-sends you cute gifs to cheer you up

-always checks in with your feelings in his own way “hey u big baby, are you okay? do you need anything?”

-pretends to laugh at the videos you send him because even tho they’re usually kinda lame it’s from you and that makes him smile but he’ll never admit that </3

-organizes any mess you left behind, puts your dishes away or puts your shoes away and then makes fun of u for being “messy”

-wipes away food you got on your face

-begrudgingly lets you have more blanket when you sleep/cuddle together because he doesn’t want to see u cold or uncomfortable :(

-takes your glasses/jewelry off if you fell asleep with them on

changbin

-opens jars/wrappers/bags for you

-lifts you into his shoulders at festivals

-because it’s October here’s a lil Halloween inclusion of him holding your hands at haunted houses and yelling at the scare actors for you <3 (also because it’s his way of coping lol)

-turns lights off/closes doors if you forget

-if you’re in the bathroom before bed he fluffs up your pillows so ur all comfy and cozy

-reads messages you got out loud if you’re preoccupied with something else, or alerts you if something seems important

-tells you stupid bedtime stories to help you go back to sleep if you had a nightmare

-begins to buy larger umbrellas so you both can stay dry together

-if you wear makeup he wants to help you by either by blending it or just straight applying it and giggling like a kid because “it’s fun”

hyunjin

-brushes your hair and styles it

-this might be also niche but holding onto your shoulders while you walk rather than your hand because it feels more secure?? also because he feels like he can bring you closer to him

-I never really write idol s/os but the idea of him looking over to you during an awards show to periodically make sure ur okay makes me melt

-feeds you and then pinches ur cheeks while laughing

-usually lets you choose the movie/show you want to watch, same with places to eat (unless you don’t know what to pick, then he’ll help you figure it out)

-runs you weekly bubble baths for you two to relax in

-holds/opens doors for you

-always wants you to relax, back rubs or nights off and doing face masks together

-he applies ur face masks for you :)

han

-he’s more of a receiver than a giver for this love language, his is mostly mixed with gift gifting

-making you playlists or untitled songs or coded titles so only you can find them on his Spotify :)

-he adjusts ur clothes, I feel like he’s the type of boyfriend to pick lint off of u without being promoted

-he’s a bit messy so he’ll tend to throw things into your drawer so it at least has the appearance of looking neat, he’ll help u organize if that’s what u want tho!! U just need to ask <3

-always checks in on you unprompted tho, makes sure you’re doing well at any hour of the day and whines

-he either spam texts u or shows up at your house with no warning to check up on you

-stands up for u but subtlety (English is not my first language it took me like seven tries to get that right pmg)

-BUT as I was saying, if you want to go to a restaurant but ur too shy to say it in front of the ppl ur hanging out with, he’ll be like “I WANNA GO TO ____” until they relent <3

felix

-kills bugs for you

-teaches you how to bake and if he’s alone, he’ll bake extra treats for you (his fave thing to bake u r cupcakes !! )

-helps you build furniture and never teases u if you don’t get something <333

-if you play online games together he’ll try to always watch your back and fight off enemies for you

-or if you prefer taking the offensive, he’ll simply cheer you on :))

-sends flowers to your workplace/leaves them on your kitchen counter

-stargazes with you or plans out meaningful dates where he treats you

-makes you playlists

-sings you lullabies if you can’t sleep or just wanna hear him

-stays up after you to make sure you went to bed okay

seungmin

-plugs in your phone for you before bed

-he always listens to your advice or at least takes it into heavy consideration, makes sure you feel heard

-asks if his jokes ever go too far

-“excuse me, they asked for no pickles”

-alway thanks you for acts of services that you do for him, leaves sweet texts or letters expressing his gratitude

-weirdly sweet remarks about how you’re so pretty it’s annoying or “who gave you permission to look so good tonight?”

-covers your eyes during scary parts of movies

-unless asked, he always lets you sleep in on weekends but never fails to be a human alarm clock if your digital one isn’t working

-wakes up before you 99% of the time so he can at least start a cup of coffee/breakfast for you

-pesters you into taking care of yourself (laying on top of you until you brush your teeth, tickling you until you relent to drinking water…)

jeongin

-never breaks pinky promises, and always tells you in advance if there’s a schedule conflict so you don’t have to wait

-if he pays you back for anything he adds a little message “thanks for lunch, love you so much”

-tries new things for you because he trusts you, and encourages you to step out of your comfort zone as well

-asks if you’d like anything before he goes to the grocery store, and always remembers it

-thanks you randomly for being such a good partner or if you did something nice in the past few days

-always gives you a comfortable space to express yourself in, lets you talk and never interrupts you

-makes sure you stay uninterrupted as well, glares down anyone who speaks over u lolol

-makes a special handshake between the two of you

-very playful acts of services but they r still acts of services <3

#stray kids imagines #stray kids reactions #stray kids scenarios #stray kids x reader #uhhhh #yay #I’ll probably do Blackpink but I might do other love languages first #this series is honestly more challenging than I expected but it’s a lot of fun

[breserker]

wow you found sirloin on sale. ez steak on stovetop

don't use a nonstick pan i'll kill you

trust in god of your choice with a metal or cast iron pan

this is for 2 sirloin steaks abt 8oz in size each

need: - 2tblsp of unsalted butter (have more ready if need be) - 2-3 sprigs thyme - 2 pinches rosemary - 2-3 cloves of garlick depending on size - salt and pepper

melt butter in pan. add aromatics. don't cook aromantics p sure thats illegal. while waiting for it to go up to medium high heat (abt 7 out of 9) salt and pepper both sides of steak. lay it in the butter baybee.

**FOR A 1 INCH THICC STEAK ON A STOVETOP ON MED-HIGH: medium rare: 4 mins each side medium: 5 mins each side medium well: 6 mins each side if you're new to cookin steak i wouldn't recommend going under 4mins per side. these are general guidelines and the heat of your stove, your pan, and the size of the steak will change these cooking times. adjust as necessary. remember overcooked is always better than undercooked. if you go for rare and have valleys in the steak that don't get a cooked/singed edge, don't eat that corner. i'm serious! you can eat red meat rare because bacteria cannot penetrate the fibers of the meat unlike the far more porous chicken. but the surface? that's playin dangerous baybee.**

be brave tip the pan a little bit so the butter collects in that side, take a spoon and spoon it over the steaks as they cook. be brave again and realize you didn't need nonstick because when one side cooks enough it will effectively not stick to the pan. (note: enough does not mean done.) flip the steaks. repeat the time on the other side. i use a timer. no shame in it.

ok. steaks done. turn off the heat, transfer the steaks to a plate don't fcking touch them this is called resting. while the steaks are resting like little babies prepare the rest of your meal; pour a drink, pull the potatoes out of the oven or someshit, set the table, etc. minor things! ok for real you're done enjoy.

can omit: rosemary. thyme is the more important aromatic here. if using salted butter salt your actual steaks a little bit less.

overall cooking/kitchen time: 15-20 mins. (i was able to cook both steaks in one pan so note that it may vary if you cook more or can only fit one) i'm srs. ofc i'm just referring to the cooking time of the steak and not any side dish but it is very quick and relatively easy. if ur budget affords it or you see nice steak on sale, the flavor's good i promise. granted that i already have all the other ingredients at home, i found a 2pack of sirloins today for ~$8.70 which is about 4.50 dollar a steak. will this always hold true? no! work with ur budget, u know yourself better than i do <3

oh and the quicker you wash your pan after dinner the easier the caked on stuff is to wash off <3 even if u just have energy to put dish soap and warm water in it, doing it sooner will save elbow grease later k love u

#cooking #steak #recipe

[xxmoonch1ldxx]

hellooo, ive read through ur fics and they are beautiful and i humbly provide a prompt 4 u; Anthony stimming in front of Ian. thats it that the prompt. since their reunion, Anthony has finally felt comfortable enough to stim in front of Ian when he wants to without shame or sum idk im autistic and love projecting onto my favourite content creators

Hey Anon, finally getting back to you after a milennial. I'm sorry for the wait! I got you, I too am autistic and love projecting so here we go :)

Anthony had always held himself to some pretty stupid standards.

When he was younger, he believed he needed to always put socks the same color or people would definitely notice and laugh at him. As he grew older, it became about straightening his hair, not only for the emo style but mainly because he was ashamed of his curls and thought he would get mocked for them. Mainly, though, he battled with his, for a long time undiagnosed but very obvious, ADHD and everything that came along with it.

The shame he felt at his own behavior started pretty young, when he used to simply stay mute instead of allowing himself to talk to people in kindergarten. He knew he had a loud voice and an even louder laugh, one that his mom always told him to quiet down. Even though she was never mean about it, Anthony had ended up taking it more personal than he should have. Sadly, though, it didn't get easier; there were so many assignments he failed because he hadn't been able to focus and was to ashamed to ask for help from anyone, lest they tell him to get his head out of his ass and listen.

Anthony tried, he did, but that never quite worked.

It didn't quite work like a lot of things did, but one person he did let into his life and his odd behavior was Ian. Ian never whined when he laughed too loud, Ian never minded how he jumped subjects of conversations and Ian always helped him in the classes he failed to understand due to having lost focus. Anthony had always been so, so grateful for that, but there was still one thing he had struggled with.

Stimming. Anthony had a lot of small habits that he always suppressed, mostly in fear he would get judged. Even with how much he loved Ian, he always feared he would disrupt the younger man with those repetitive behaviors. He also remembered a few times where he had been unable to help the thrumming of his fingers as he worked, the stress of his later years at Smosh taking a toll on him and making him unable to stay still even more than usual; Ian used to turn around and ask him to stop in this irritated voice. Not mean, once again, but it hit the nail in the coffin.

He was disturbing people in a way he shouldn't be, or at least, that's what he thought.

And then, after a few years of therapy, an official diagnosis, getting on meds and finally unloading all of this trauma, Anthony and Ian had reunited.

The core of the relationship, their comedic chemistry and the ease they had once felt around each other came back, even stronger than it had been before. Anthony had never been more grateful for something in his life; or maybe he had, but only about the fact he and Ian were now an official thing. A couple. Boyfriends.

They had learned how to live around each other again, speak out what bothered them and be honest. Issues were solved way faster today, and way easier too. Working was comfortable, funny, fulfilling in the same way it had been back when they started Smosh. Hanging out was, too, and they now found comfort and pleasure in the mere act of being together, opposite to the later years of their friendship when they barely spent any time together outside of work. For that, Anthony was fully grateful too; it sure was fun that being together now included more things like kisses, hugs and more...Physical activities. Anthony loved those improvements.

Ian and him now were together more often than not, and there was an ease about it that had never been there before. Sometimes, they didn't even do much; Ian would be watching yet another history video and Anthony would be laying with his head on his boyfriend's lap, working on his new interview. He cherished those small moments, especially the few instances when Ian would interrupt him for a bit just to press a fond and loving kiss on his lips. It was lovely, it filled Anthony's heart in a way nothing else ever had.

One of the things he cherished the most, though, was how earnest they had both been with each other. Vyvanse pills might work for focus and other symptoms of ADHD, but the stimming part couldn't be erased from him. Happily, though, Anthony didn't feel the need to hide himself anymore.

When they were in the office, he would sometimes be playing with everything that fell under his hands. The little holder of his phone, the pencil he was holding, his rings that he wore; it was a thing that greatly helped him focusing when they were brainstorming. Instead of whining like he had sometimes used to, Ian would always look at him fondly, with a smile that screamed 'I knew this would happen', but would never interrupt him. He had even started bringing a few of those little water toys that could be squished for Anthony to press on as he talked. He had brought one in the shape of a black cat, because he said it reminded him of Anthony. He was blushing as he said it, but Anthony had thought it was so cute he had kissed Ian on the mouth hard enough to bruise his lips.

Then, there was the way he often hummed as he did things. Really, anything; it would also help him focus and he didn't even notice it at time. Ian would sometimes join him in his low singing when he did the dishes or even worked on some scripts, a smile on his lips. Neither he or Ian were particularly great singers, but they always ended up laughing so hard they cried or just having a sweet, domestic moment.

Ian had also brought a few rocking chairs inside the office, decision that had been questioned but Anthony was forever grateful. It was easier and grounding to rock on a chair that was made for it, a habit Ian had probably noticed and remembered from their time at school and how Anthony couldn't keep himself still on a chair for two seconds. Ian always scolded him when he brought his chair on two legs, telling he might fall and to stop; this was something else that Anthony cherished about him. How protective he had always been, how much he cared.

Most of the time, Anthony thrummed his legs endlessly. This habit put a strain on his muscles, something Ian knew, so he would lean in to place a hand on his thigh, remind him to calm down. Ian would rub the skin and pat it simply before retrieving his hand, knowing Anthony didn't even notice what he was doing. There was also how he would reach out to tug at Anthony's arm when he either bit his nails too much or scratch at his skin until it would become red. Sure, there were days Ian wasn't there to do so and Anthony would end up breaking his skin open, but his boyfriend would always be there once he came back home to rub the skin with lotion and kiss the scar, achingly soft and tender. Anthony didn't think he could love him more, but Ian always outdid himself. He once bought gums and straws just for Anthony to chew on when he needed to.

Even with his weirder habits, Ian didn't judge. He didn't judge when Anthony cleared his throat too much or repeated random words or sentences. He didn't judge when he would flap his hands and move them a little too much as he talked. He didn't mind when Anthony would get excited and jump a little too much, or he would get all over the place. Instead, he seemed to find it very amusing and so, so adorable. Just like he cherished the little tunes Anthony whistled when he was particularly engrossed into something.

All those little things that Anthony had spent years hiding and taming down, all the habits he had taken that included hurting himself and then dealing with the consequences himself, he didn't have to face them alone. Ian would always be there to ease the ache in his muscles after he pulled at them too much by how much he moved, or to cream his red and sore skin, massage his jaw when he had chattered his teeth too much. Anthony treasured all of those actions, how much care Ian had towards him and how he showed him all the time. It was a little wild to find someone who finally didn't mind all those things about him, and especially someone who even cherished a few of those habits. Anthony would see it in the fond smile stretched on Ian's face when he stared at him, just like he hung the moon, when he was just whistling while doing the dishes. He would feel it in the way Ian kissed him softly when he would sing, how he wouldn't even note the flapping of his hands and simply lean over to brush a strand of hair away from his face.

Anthony felt comfortable to be fully himself in a way he had never had before. He knew and could feel the way Ian loved every little thing about him, from the way he smiled so softly to the way he catered to his every needs, even when Anthony ignored he had them.

Anthony simply cherished Ian himself, fully and wholly. He had never been more grateful of something than the fact Ian felt the same.

#smosh #anthony padilla #ian hecox #ianthony #🔎☀️ #smosh fanfiction #heres me projecting as an audhd boi

[babybluebex]

Joey FaceTiming you and he just

“You good today pet? You take your meds? I know they can make you all fuzzy sometimes. You remember you needed to take them with food?” Just joe being the sweetest.

Sometimes when he’s home he’ll help set up your pill box if you have one, sometimes he leaves a lil sweet in the case with your meds so you have a lil sweet for after taking your pills.

In the mornings if you have to take them on a set schedule everyday he wakes you up and pops the pills in your hand with something to drink just

“Down the hatch. That’s my girl”

I just 🥺🥺

I take mood stabilizers cause it’s mental illness innit.

So imagining joe learning things about your meds to make sure he knows the side effects that could come up.

I just. -curls into a ball- I love him your honor.

he would educate himself on your meds and why you take them and what happens if you don’t take them, and he tells you when it’s time, he has a special alarm on his phone and even if he’s on a set or something, he’ll pop u a text “time for meds pet xx”

he’s such a sweetie, u know he would do everything he could to encourage you to take ur meds, pop a kiss on your mouth after you’ve taken them

ugh i want him

#bex answers #anon ask

[just-antithings]

was fucked up by my sleeping pills bc they had kicked in but I was scrolling thru tumblr and was high bc of that, and anyways did a long ass ramble in tags on a post about being a mystery or some shit where I had cracked a joke doctors @ me, in the tag and elaborated, and forgot abt tumblr’s update where ppl can see tags and anyways i fucking. forgot about the tags entirely But apparently op was a fucking anti or whatever which is Unfortunate for me bc now I have ppl being a bitch to me and also being ableist in my inbox but like. I was high and was not even venting-it genuinely was just me talking and trying to relate to others who may have medical issues that are Uncommon :( was generally very jokey but i may have had a tone issue? I tend to get very open and tangential when I’m still awake after I take my pills. normally it’s fine cause it’s been about other shit. nothing identifiable as far as I can tell was said but idk as I said I do have memory issues in general and was not fucking sober AND I’m autistic. (Not an excuse, but an explanation.) anyways I’m just blocking and deleting and pretending I don’t see it as per normal but they really don’t have any compassion at all for ppl. Wild of them. how do these ppl go thru life not able to mind they own? also one of the morons is legitimately a fucking sysmed (said so themselves) and says they didn’t need to know my “entire fucking medical history” 1 bb that’s literally ur whole thing remember u WANT ppls diagnoses so u can decide whether or not they’re valid. 2 girlie I A) didn’t expect nobody to see it from what I said and B) didn’t give u my entire history cause boy oh boy that would take so much goddamn time and wouldn’t fit within tags. I personally diagnose u with “bitch disease” it’s a disease where ur a fucking bitch. treatment plans typically include learning to be a decent person and not throwing stones within your glass house. I may be a sick fuck, but ur a nasty bitch. I’m not even really mad about this all, I’m just impressed at their hypocrisy at this point. Like babydoll, if ur gonna send ppl gore bc they wrote about two made up men kissing then it’s fine for me to talk NON GRAPHICALLY (I mean if I was graphically describing shit then yeah I’d even get it even with everything else but i literally just mentioned the basics and moved on.) about med shit that has confused doctors for years in the tags which historically have been generally private unless u looked at my direct reblog. Also the same person complained about taking up “too much of their dash” baby. sweetheart darling child who needs to go to bed and quit talking to the big kids until ur ready to act like a big kid : please understand that YOU CLICKED SEE MORE. once the tags take up a certain amount of space they do in fact happen to have an automatic see more. do you know nothing about the color of the sky? I could be so much more obnoxious. There was even a damn warning that the tags were long. And again I did fuck up by forgetting tags are no longer private but literally that’s the way it was intended to start with. it’s rude of tumblr to expose that shit. anywho I’m defs high again sorrys (it’s prescribed I’m not doing like illegal crack cocaine i promys)

.

#mod erin #ask #posted without comment #drug mention #caps warning #just anti things #syscourse mention #ask to tag

[wavetapper]

genuine mental health hacks

if ur in a depressive episode then station multiple trash cans in ur space, within arms reach of areas you're likely to spend a lot of time (i have one next to my bed and one under my desk)

if u take meds then keep them in the place you're most likely to be when it's time to take them- i keep mine on my desk bc otherwise I will just put off taking them and feel rough the next day

buy a multipack of a drink u don't enjoy but can tolerate (i use sparkling water bc I don't hate it but I'm unlikely to drink it all in my free time) and keep them by your meds. that way if ur too lazy or busy to get water to take them with, u can just use one of the emergency drinks

ALARMS set alarms for literally everything even the things u don't need alarms for. if u remember u have to do something then instead of just writing a note (which u will forget about) set an alarm to do it- if u can, set the alarm sound to a voice recording of u saying out loud the thing u need to do

keep granola bars or some other high energy snack by ur desk if ur prone to hyperfixating on projects. that way u don't have to leave ur project to go eat and ur more likely to actually remember to eat

charge ur phone at the opposite side of ur room from ur bed so ur less likely to be distracted by it when it's time to sleep

#'oh so youre too lazy to even get up to go put stuff in the trash/take ur meds/drink water/have food' yes thats why these are hacks

[6irlpet]

(piss drinking anon from the other night) oh my god PLEASE open pissdummy back up. if u did i would probably make a piss sideblog so i could rb ur stuff

GOD probably soon…….. i went thru a long period sex repulsed (aka whenever i take my meds. im here this week bc i’ve been bad about them lately hehe so now i have Horny disease as a status affliction again) but this summer im planning to tell my psych we need to find meds that dont make me sex repulsed bc my true nature is being a disgusting freak and i shouldnt have to sacrifice that for mental stability :/

definitely the other night i was scrolling thru its unanswered asks and its dozens of drafts like ooooohhhhh i cant even remember why i was sex repulsed and disgusted by this………….. so. i will try to hop over there and reopen soon lol

#i just feel bad when theres 1000 unanswered things. on this blog too. sorry y’all i love getting messages im just on SSRIs #piss cw #ask

[sammygender]

icl if you’re excruciatingly tired & miserable all the time u need to do a check up on how ur eating. first of all check that you’re eating at all and by that i mean like proper food w protein and nutrients. i remember in 2020 i went from suicidal and unable to walk up the stairs to still vaguely suicidal but generally better about it and able to go on actual walks just because i started like. eating properly and cooking for myself.

like. okay first of all u need at least 5 portions fruit/veg a day we tell kids that but it’s so true. preferably diff portions but if u don’t wanna manage that u can just overdose on like oranges (vitamin c!!) or like idk carrots sweetcorn whatever. then u need protein, i don’t really eat meat so for me this is beans/lentils/chickpeas but i think a lot of meat counts too, like chicken.

carbs will fill you up and u can’t cut them out bc they give u slow release energy they’re meant to be a key part of ur diet but u also can’t rely solely on them, so many people just eat bread and pasta and rice and u need stuff that has nutrients with it too.

then stuff like specific vitamins can have the hugest impact, ages ago we thought my grandpa had dementia but it was literally a fucking b12 deficiency, b12 deficiency can happen so easily and it causes mental fog extreme tiredness/fatigue and depression. b12 is in stuff like red meat i believe and in lower quantities in stuff like eggs, if u don’t eat meat (i don’t rly) marmite is literally like a perfect source of it, just spread some on toast every day and ur set, think of it like meds. of course there are supplements for iron and omega 3 etc oh shit omega 3 is a really big one as well - i also started taking those near the end of 2020 and like i cannot exaggerate the difference, i was still depressed but like in a much more functional way - but u can also get these in ur diet if ur careful abt it bc supplements can be expensive. omega 3 obvi is in oily fish and i think in eggs, iron is in broccoli and probs other leafy veg and maybe some meat…..

anyway i’m putting this on my blog as a self own & a reminder cause i keep being weird abt this stuff at the moment. but food is so important. at the end of the day making sure ur eating is always better than not eating enough even if what ur eating isn’t nutritious, but if u want to feel at ur best then u just have to keep an eye on this stuff. ALSO. if none of this works then. u probably should go get that checked out mate

#resources #im raised by a health freak so i forget that people don’t like. inherently know what food has stuff they need in #ngl reading this just made me realise that i am not fucking eating like this at the moment which explains a lot actually #my mind rn is warring between When i move out i’ll meal prep properly and make sure i’m eating well so i am at full function #and When i move out i’ll survive off diet coke and rice cakes #<- BUT ik that the latter option is fucking stupid and unsustainable <3 so. god bless. man i could do with diet coke rn talking of it #oliver talks

[iguinn]

remember kids to always get ur adhd meds above all else and not forget to take them immediately or u will waste money u need for something semi-urgent and feel like an idiot.

#canções do rei #we wont like ask for our money back on commissions tho cause like we already made all the plans and we do really want them so like #if ure one of the people that we commissioned dont worry about it keep up the good work ure great mwuah!

[rise-uncalledfour]

SKSKSKSDFHSSK I LOVE YOU GUYS TOOO!!! Fr wish we could message that would be dope :(((

Okay yes, raph chasm ummm I will work on that 😂 sorry I just see you guys on here and *maternal instincts ACTIVATED* honestly tho thanks for answering that ask it did help get rid of the chasm

And now. Brooklyn. This is for you. Listen to me love. You gotta eat. You gotta sleep. Yes, yes you do bc listen love, you wanna take care of Miguel and be there for him right? You cant do that unless you take care of urself. I know it can be hard to remember that and to acc do it, but it’s a necessary evil mkay? I need both of u outta there ASAP and I can assure you the more sleep/fuel/self care you get the better it will be for you. I’m not saying you gotta like, be perfect at it now but I’m just asking you to try to sleep/eat rn. Also take ur meds if you need them

And that goes for you too Miguel, I’m so so glad to hear ur doing well rn but it might not stay that way, so IF it does then you gotta take care of urself too.

Mkay? I love you both, dw I was already an older sister so my raph chasm isn’t from yall, stay safe in there and take care of yourselves the way you would take care of each other. Thank you for coming to my Ted talk :P

*AND EVERYONE CRIED*

WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH SDHIUPHGIYSWSLJYWS

#ill make brooklyn read this when she gets back #also tell your sis we said hi #Ted talk CRYING

[chihirolovebot]

follower event

i think. this is my first event i've ever done on this blog? they tend to really wear me out BUT im very much hoping to get this done. all i ask is that you respect my rules + the fact that i struggle with lack of motivation sometimes. thank u so much for over 700 followers!! puts u all beneath my floorboards <3

event

simply send an ask with one character from your turn to die or danganronpa, and one prompt from the list below.

all the prompts are some kind of alternate universe - for example, fantasy or spy.

i will then write a drabble (anything from 300-1k words, depending on inspiration) for you based on the character and the prompt!!

prompts

spy au (2/2)

fantasy au (2/2)

medieval au (2/2)

cyberpunk au (1/2)

coffee-shop au (2/2)

royalty au (2/2)

university au (2/2)

apocalypse au (1/2)

soulmate au (3/2)

band au (4/2)

rules

there are only two slots per prompt and it's first come, first-serve in the interest and fairness and to prevent burnout on my part

no nsfw for characters under eighteen (this includes, for example, sara chidouin who is canonically seventeen, but not the drv3 characters who have no canon ages)

i still won't be writing for my blacklisted characters. you can check who these are on my rules page!! any request sent with them will be deleted

nothing against my usual rules — again, pls check them before requesting

you can request a basic plot to go along with the prompt or just leave it up to me!!

all my fics are gender neutral

from vee

thank u all again so so much for this absurd amt of followers. respectfully and platonically u all mean the world to me, i hope ur all having a lovely day!! remember to hydrate, sleep, eat and take ur meds if u need to. reminder that all fics will have content warnings and if u think i've missed anything, never hesitate to shoot me a message :*

otherwise, askbox is always open just to chat!! thank u all again <3

#🏩.700

[some-stale-bread]

hi there! 

they/he! minor!

commissions :)

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i mostly post abt whatever im thinking abt but rn its genshin, some undertale, my ocs, my fantasy story, sometimes various animes, i also draw a concerning amount

feel free to drop drawing reqs, questions abt my ocs, question for my ocs to answer (in character answers basically), any questions for me, or anything u want lol

go follow my fantasy worlds blog! @welcometocelextial

also follow my blog for asking eldar and chronos questions! @askeldarandchronos

DNI list

homophobic, transphobic, racist, sexist, ableist, etc. 

pro-shippers

if u ship kaeluc, lumine x aether or any other form of incest

if u sexualize me or any of my ace characters 

terfs

if u shame ppl for what they enjoy

if u shame ppl for their religion or judge them on it

tags!

key rambles - what it says, just me rambling

keys daily coffee - a picture of the coffee i make each day

celextial - a majority of my celextial content

eldar answers and chronos answers - mainly used on my other blog for asks!

thats about it ! 

also if youve gotten this far remember to take ur meds if u need, drink some water, get a snack or meal, and just take care of ur self! 

have a nice day <3

[phoenix-knight]

TW: SELF-HATE

I have so much self-hate on a daily basis. it makes me so disgusted with myself. I hate myself for hating myself. every time I make the slightest mistake that anyone as a human being does, I trample on myself as if I was supposed to be some god who should have lived up to some higher standards.

"you dumb bitch, you cannot even study for a couple of hours the day before the exam. how incompetent can you be? could you not even read through the basic stuff so that you don't stare at the answer sheet blankly tomorrow like a mannequin? i hate you. i hate the way you look, your body keeps changing, some of the pants don't fit as well, you have probably gained weight. how could you not maintain urself now that ur finally doing better than you ever were since you were diagnosed. you rarely bathe, u don't do better skincare, you don't study, you don't get enough exercise, you have not washed ur hair in a week. you are a fucking nervous wreck who procrastinates till 9 PM and studies half-assedly the next day on the subway train to college. you can't even fucking press the pause button when the deadline is literally the next day for an important exam. dumbass motherfucker, ur just never enough"

there, i spewed all the venom out. i spat it out like a mouth filled with blood and beat up face. this is what goes on in my brain again and again, poisoning my thoughts.

i am so tired all the damn time. but I cannot seem to give myself a fucking break, because as seen from the poisonous monologue above, shaming myself for not being enough is my M.O.

you know what else is funny? those words are something my parents would say, something my mom still says sometimes. its mom's words in my voice when i fucking hate how unproductive I am.

no wonder i am not comfortable in my skin, and muscles are always tense as if I am about lose my shit and breakdown. i am always judging myself, seeing my actions and weighing them in comparison to my unbelievably unrealistic crazy ass standards for myself. the conventional epitome of all things perfection is as told by society.

living in the moment? i suck at it. see, one more thing I half-ass.

BUT BITCH, LISTEN TO ME:

burnout is real and ur spiralling, stop blaming urself

fat shaming urself again? nah uh. please keep the internalized misogyny aside, and look at urself. u have been running full throttle to keep up with life. and oh my god, fucking law school. the fluctuating periods of extreme exertion, exhaustion and stagnation not to mention the sleep deprivation is probably giving ur body whiplash. weight gain is natural, and no you don't look any different, you don't need to examine urself in the mirror.

bloating is a thing, beach bikini bodies are a myth, so value ur gut and treasure that satisfied burp after eating a good meal. foodgasms >>> washboard abs

acne are not single handedly caused by ur lack of skincare, remember the pollution? the stress hormones? ur diet? ur psych meds? calm the fuck down, u did not bring this upon urself.

slut shaming? no, sloth shaming! yes, I made this up rn.

sloth shaming: noun, verb, the practice of shaming a person for being unproductive by unrealistic standards with absolutely no context. god, I do this a lot. why do you expect urself to be working 24/7? when its not even humanly possible? ur not a fucking robot. hell, even robots can malfunction when they're overworked.

what is being "unproductive" anyway? resting, chilling, doing nothing, doing all the fun things u love? scrolling Instagram, shitposting on tumblr, pinning all ur fav kpop fanart? aren't all these things that you fucking love doing? then why blame urself for being "unproductive" when the term itself has such a negative connotation? ur not unproductive, ur slothing. enjoy the me time, chew on leaves and take a nap.

bathing is overrated. bath when you have the energy to, otherwise stick to washing ur face, hands and privates. fuck it, do the bare minimum. pamper urself on a washday instead.

of course ur a nervous procrastinating wreck for the exam season, how could you not be when ur a gen z gifted burnt out kid with anxiety, depression and bpd whose whole sense of self worth is hinged on academic validation? but its fine to just pass ur exams, not pass with flying colors.

you don't have to ace everything, you don't have to be the best, smartest person in the room. you don't have to want to be the ace at everything too. ur here to feel ur own presence and be true to it. ur here to do what you want by putting in the amount of effort you currently have the capacity for. do what you can, start small, you're OK. :)

#cute quotes #book quotes #inspirational quotes #life quotes #motivational quotes #spilled journal #quote #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #mental health #relatable depression diaries #depression #anxiety disorder #generalized anxiety disorder #actually bpd #mental illness #mental health awareness #mental health recovery

[tasteforrot]

Everything Is Dumb Now

everything seems dumb now

or the problems before tuesday

or my problems before tuesday

or the problems i focused on before tuesday

idk if theyre really dumb

but probably

does he like me will it work

venus in pisces taurus sun with a cancer ascendent

moon in leo

idk why liking someone is so terrifying to me

my shrink asked me why having basic needs met seems so impossible

or.

idk

the moon was in aquarius on tuesday i think

or i remember reading “let us hope this is a good omen”

(probably chani nicholas)

for two months i refreshed nine horoscope sites daily asking the internet

what would happen

i saw something this week

about the election coverage was too… like

focusing more on what will happen in november

not what was happening at the time

what will happen vs what is happening

what do we know

idk

this past month i began calling more feelings “pain”

laying in bed thinking “i’m in so much pain lol”

um

have you ever read the attachment theory wikipedia?

i’m sure there are better sources but the wikipedia is really convenient

there are four styles.

and this one style, “disorganized” is like

something like:

the way you’re greeted when you enter a room

and the way you’re treated

was never constant so u never like,

never know when the other shoe will drop

who will abandon when

or u’ll wild out bc like, idk.

the others are what they sound like

secure attachment style is what it sounds like

ppl with disorganized attachment ruin things, sabotage things

bc what’s the point if it’s already. idk

wednesday morning

when i told my therapist i watched someone die, she said

“oh, fuck talking about the election”

but like nah

we talked about the election

and the two guys i saw wearing those red hats

the first time ive seen them irl

first thing in the morning

on my walk up tenth avenue

i almost threw up

and threw myself on them but didnt

but i did also tell her i didn’t feel anything watching him die,

or i didn’t know what i felt or if i was feeling.

i watched him become president from my bed

scared of feeling anything except the most reality as possible

a few hours before,

i watched him make a noise and then he stopped breathing

and then a nurse hit his chest and said, “he’s just sleeping”

(he wasn’t)

she said he had a pulse, he’s fine

(he wasn’t)

it took the supervisor twenty-five minutes to show up

hospice care in a nursing home isn’t a hospital

the way she said it’s about making him comfortable

the way:

there are things that are supposed to happen

people asked if i was ok

my boss hugged me

idk if it was the death or the election

or what i’ve been saying online that has ppl msging me lately

telling me they hope im ok soon

waking up is harder now

it never really was before

i learned to like mornings in college

they felt more hopeful

opportunity, routine, etc

my shrink also told me to read online

specifically disorganized attachment

but that for some reason

and who knows

it’s not all I have. that i can do and do make secure bonds

there’s some secure attachment

something like hope?

idk

she said: attachments just are

you can’t force them

an attachment is

when i told my shrink about his last breath she said something like:

isn’t that all we have, a breath

and then we take another

and keep going

that’s the only difference

other times i’ve watched people die

(and never the act)

there was the clear moment between when they were gone

(when they started taking pain meds)

not their body but themselves

“the priority is comfort”

i only realized today that i don’t know whether or not he was in pain

just that when i got to his room, alone

i’ve never seen anyone like that

i thought he was going to die right then

with me alone

so i grabbed his hand, which was blue

and trying to take off his oxygen mask

i’ve been hearing the term “oxygen mask” a lot more

put on your oxygen mask before you help others

everyone says get out of ur internet bubble

lol

i mean, i agree

i guess

but i live alone

work online

my family is three white men

(it used to be more)

who asked me why i didn’t tell them about my sexual assaults sooner

(i had)

but i guess they forgot

or it doesnt matter? idk

i dont want to have to see them today

or tomorrow

but their dad only dies once

only died once

idk

before tuesday i’d get drunk

get stoned

wake up

apologize

idk

ever since tuesday the idea of feeling anything the most amount of

pain feels wrong

not pain for pain’s sake

but anesthetizing any of the reality

of what is and is about to happen

idk

isn’t there something about how pain is a great motivator

or isnt there that susan sontag thing about not believing someone else is in

pain?

is that the thing

or how people with that disease that makes them not feel pain are fucked

i can’t believe the pain i cause by trying to avoid pain

(myself + others)

getting out of bed isn’t a problem

or wasn’t before tuesday

(now it is)

i’m right by a window and it’s cold

and i just remember it’s real

and i’m where i was where i watched him become president

but

i like routine and waking up and drinking coffee

more so i feel it around 3pm or 5pm or 8pm or 11pm

what’s the fucking point

i don’t feel that way anymore

my anxiety’s been down since all my worst fears came true

i’m not as worried for now as i am a year from now

a year and three months

momentum, etc

it’s been clearer who’s trying to lessen suffering and who’s trying to clear

their name

i’ve been trying to take up less space

or occupy space in a different way

or, idk.

it’s easier to tell ppl i love them

u dont need a reason anymore

or maybe the reason is just more obvious

it’s too much noise n it’s not enough

im getting msgs from ppl telling me to stockpile birth control

but my body rejects most types of birth control

and i haven’t found one that works yet

so like

idk

hasnt loving and fucking always been terrifying

#Darcie Wilder #Through Clenched Teeth

[salaciousslut]

tumblr sucks for that</3

Is that right, sweetheart? That makes me happy<3 I understand completely, truth be told sometimes when im at work i come on here just to see if you've posted 🤭 i like talking to you a lot too so!! I sometimes worry im doing too much with how often ive sent messages🫣 i like how you keep calling me handsome<3

And im writing down the meds you got with you, like i like to be the person ppl go to for help so the meds would definitely be good to have on me! I also have pretty dry eyes, probably for different reasons tho 🤭 like i do need a bottle of eyedrops on me all the time just in case

I'd be more than happy to protect you from stupid men. Its cute that we're both the protective type when it comes to our friends. If my friends just vaguely look disgusted by a guy i'll start to make him uncomfortable, im a dick when it comes to men, i attack their masculinity bc i know they feel threatened by mine. One day that might get me in a tricky situation but for now, im not stopping. And i dont doubt its been like wayyy too many times, men are dumb. But im also a bit of a misandrist so dont listen to me too hard 🫣

Poor puppy, brain hurts from having to think real hard all day</3 Youve been real good, i know you have<33 your handsome butch can make sure you dont have to think for a little while<3

You are so cute<3 its funny that youre more like me than i thought you were, im not really surprised though!! Youve always seemed like such a kind person🥰

yeah 🥺 honestly i sometimes will check when im at school too! just excuse myself to the restroom and turn my brightness all the way down to see if youve replied to me☺️ plus i love ur messages!! remember im a yapper and i love talking hehe

i call u handsome because you are handsome!!! and its more than just appearances too!! i can tell youre such a softie and a sweetheart!!

nonono i am the same way!! if my friends are giving someone a weird look, i have no shame in doing whatever it takes to make them leave!! so id definitely know where youre coming from!! plus men are stupid and cant take a hint so you just have to be brutally honest and absurdly unhinged for them to see that its not worth it!!

hehe youre sooo masculine babe!! so handsome and stunning and amazing!!! and youre sooo strong and cool and just amazing 🥰☺️😌

hehe i am a poor puppy!! come help me relax and unwind please!!! i have a lot of energy so i hope its okay if i have a bit of the zoomies 🫣

yes we are very similar its crazy!!! how has your night been? any fun plans? or are u just taking it easy!! omg also im burning my yuzu candle and thinking of you hehe

#ci answers #butch my beloved